A Smile That Dares Not To Dissappear

I hide behind a smile day by day No way can I leave it away it has to stay A fear of fear itself means I will descend The smile helps my being mend from torturous times Crimes against the most human kindness To fear to let ones wall down It protects like an invisible blanket Its security I hold on like a baby in arms Noone can see my wondering in me A wildness that is shown shades the innocences Sometimes I scream inside my mind As it never stands down Like a film that has no ending I defend the right with all my fight to hide inside A lie I tell myself I am alright when really thats not right So many sides to one being some need freeing To escape my thoughts would be desire itself Instead I climb the wall my own walls Words can not be taken back even though the bricks may fall The hurt can only be forgiven when its jury has delivered A story I will one day tell Its pages will set the scene Of how I feared the anger in me Of a smile that dare not dissappear As then I will be truely be in all despair