A Small Amount of Chaos

Will the erratic nature of my thoughts never be quelled? Am I doomed to long for what I do? Is this the outcome to never having what you want? If it is...I suppose I should have expected as much Nay, I knew what would happen But I chose to accept it To Endure It The choice was mine alone All of Them For Better or Worse They were made I live with them Being all I can Do But...perhaps there is a possibility Although, I know what it is a I am thinking False Hope to keep my spirits up when they should not be