A Relationships Tribulations

when I first met you, everything I wanted in a man, to me you showed all the love we felt, I believed it to be true you did everything to open up my heart from being cold  everyday I had new butterflies... shopping for a wedding dress while having hopes of us building a home foolish me to have believed all of your lies your priorities were being wasted and staying out every other night seven in the morning you would come stumbling through the door eleven at night I would cry myself to sleep a little more Everyone warned me to stay away from you... so naive, I continued to see only the good in you no matter what you did, I consistently remained by your side while in the back of my mind I always knew you and me, could never truly be for each other we were no good it wasn’t just you it was me as well I wasn’t healthy for you to pursue  you weren’t able to love me like you did when it was new my eyes always swollen with tears always thinking you would change eventually I had to face reality...change was no where near... All of your mistakes have taken a toll on me, you never did understand how affected I have remained always blaming me...never looking at you thought you would always protect me,  no matter the situation, I never imagined you would be the one to hurt me its crazy how my love for you made me stay around what hurt the most, you took my worst fear, and literally threw it on top of me why couldn’t you see, all of the hurt you have caused me, why didn’t you stop to see? I'll never be the same looking into the mirror the reflection I continue to see shows all that you have done to me black and blue and the touch of you trembling every time I remember it wishing it was just a dream and I’ll wake up to something new when I say I will never be the same  I mean I will become so much stronger make no mistake, you wont be my mistake any longer I now know my worth is greater than yours, my beauty is spectacular, my heart is special, my body is precious, I am no longer a victim I am a person worth having the best in my life I am a survivor I am a mentor whom will help guide others everyday will be a struggle, yet, everyday will prove an accomplishment