A New Skin

here i am laid out, flat out, in this new skin left with nothing because of me and because of him. so broken down and the pieces seem lost and i'm left here almost hopeless, while paying the cost. What is love anyway? broken hearts, lies and crushed dreams has been for me while my life rips at the seems. I am so strong, so courageous ... but so well hidden so held back from the path that I've ridden. And i don't trust anyone who says that they care for me its a chance, a risk, a dare... like, "i dare you to believe all of my bulls---" "so later you're crying because you fell for it." But i am me... and i have dreams and he won't bring me down, its not what it seems. i will be made better in this beautiful struggle and in the mean time, i will not buckle. who needs him anyway... i mean, right? he couldn't see my love when it was so BLINDLY in sight. time has taken a toll on my heart and my bad actions have played a big part. So i'm starting with nothing on this path to my life and i could end up happy, a mother, a wife... sometimes things are just unexpected but it still hurts when you've been rejected. i loved him... for what its worth now i'll be okay, though i don't know how.