A Million Words

A million words could not bring you back Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried I fought to hold on, I fought to let go Finally decided to let that old memory go. Haunted by your ghost, Smothered by your shadow Such a debillitating force windfalled around me Last time I saw you, you told me you were through. Resisting the temptations and starting brand new. When I recieved the news that you passed away I dropped to my knees and shook my head in dismay. I screamed, I shouted, then cursed your name Couldn't help feel like I was to blame. Watching myself as I ran away, back to the place where we met that day. A kick to the stomache, A knife in the chest I sat there crumbling as they lay you to rest. What does one do, after a loved one dies after such tragedy that bargains with lies. A chemical dependence was your disease, leaving you down, but making me believe. I need you always, right beside me to be a light and to guide me. Remembering your life and keeping it close, Keeping up the fight and forgetting the woes