A Million Pieces

I use to be afraid of the dark Till I lost my spark To make others shine Give them joy till I no longer had mine They shine so bright Till I am blind I grew tired of running Of chasing To be pushed away of what I am embracing To be alone To be dispossessed of Insecurities scream you're not good enough These knees grow weak As these journeys get longer And this heart  bleeds more As these invasions get stronger Manipulative demons With excuses  and reasons You can't mend me when I am a million  pieces And only god can see this A promise is just a promise till it is an action Painting on smiles because  a sad clown is no attraction Weighed down with uncertainty Confused  with the definition of stability  As I juggle and balance To make critics smile is such a challenge when I fall time after time And nothing eases Just know you can not mend me when I am a million pieces