A Lost Soul

Spinning, her world seems to move so fast Or maybe it's an illusion disguising the past She thinks a lot about what's behind She wonders if happiness she'll find She relives fantasies of her highs That are shattered by her failed tries The drugs and the needles were her sin She'd quit but doesn't know where to begin Instead her day will start like the one before She gathers tools and puts them on the floor The pain she carried was too much to hold Her soul was broken and her heart was cold She tries to hurry before her mind awakes She goes quickly, with whatever it takes her burdens used to define when she used Now addiction has control, her arms bruised Hands shaking with anticipation; she drew near Barely able to stay steady; she was full of fear shaking she places the needle to her skin She gently pushes until it pops and she's in As it drains inside she thrusts harder for more The rush she feels burns hot in her core Her eyes flicker and the relief flows Each time she hits her hunger grows pain in her arm surpasses that in her heart For a moment it's hard to tell them apart Her agony is worn by the scars she holds Her soul is broken and her heart is cold She lay motionless yet she fiends for more Lying naked on a dirty mattress on the floor Needles surround her, filth covers the ground Garbage everywhere, cockroaches all around Even in this disgust, she is oblivious and free All of her problems have left, she can just be she has gone to a sweet yet dangerous place A world where all of her shame can be erased Her blood pumps fast; her heart skips a beat the end is coming, and she accepts the defeat Her world fades,peacefully she drifts away Another soul lost to the evil in the world today This place is too big and souls drift away