A Little Lonely Today?

Today I’m a little lonely but it hasn’t been that long. I’ve had a couple urges but nothing major; I’ve got to stay focused or else I’ll be right back into it. I must put a stop to all these bad feelings somehow mustn’t I? And who pray tell was that on my phone just now; Why it was you out of the clear blue. Confirmed the bad news for yourself didn’t you? You’re no longer on the housing contract. Gosh you’d think that might tell you something; But it hasn’t has it? You tell me you might see me at church Sunday; I’m not going to be there but you never even asked did you? Oh was I supposed to tell you that; my bad I guess. I live by myself now; I don’t share my comings and goings. Alright I’ll admit it; that nasty man you use to know is still in here; I enjoy hanging you out to dry; what goes around comes around right? There was a time I would have given you the last breath of air around; But that was back then and this is now and you answer to some other man now. My regrets to you that you lost your housing status; But that’s not all you’ll probably lose. Really from over here it looks more like you “threw” most of it away; You’re quite the busy woman these days according to your contentions. Did I ever tell you about being taught to dig fox holes to lie in? I don’t know why I thought of that right now. I’m sorry but I came too close to losing my very soul; That pain had me all out there thinking dying would be better than all that hurt. Better I never have a woman than go through that ever again. I promise not to try to hurt you but I’m not going to interfere anymore either. So all the best to you and I wish you no sorrows or pains; You’ll forgive me but I do wish just a little that you’ll someday miss us. You made a mistake over us and if you don’t miss us you’ll never realize that. You need to remember this friend; even a jellyfish gets taken away by the tide.