A Little Girl Trapped In a Big World

Who ever told me I was ready to be a wife and an aunt and grown up told me a line of crap. I was never ready for something I was afraid of. I wish I could turn back time and be the little girl I want to be. If I was a little girl I would not have to worry about work and making money starting a family and being so depressed all the time. I just wish I could have been blessed with a little bit of money. I love the family and husband I have right now. But when does the good life start? All I know if I hate my job I hate that I am stuck in a two bed room house with five other people four dogs and four cats. I sleep on a hid-abed with my husband. In this situation I feel like I am struggling for air. I just need a little confidence push and a little more support and a better education and job. I know this is not a typical poem but it helps me vent to people that have no idea who I am. I don't want anyone to be hurt and that's why I fell in love with poetry. I am a little girl trapped in a BIG world with no back bone or will in the world to change my future.