A Letter To Myself

I’m sorry for the nightmare I allowed to be your reality, and I’m sorry I failed to illuminate a way out I turned my back on you when you needed me most I’m sorry I was a coward I’m sorry for all the damaging words I said to you, but even more I’m sorry I made you believe they were true I took you for granted and battled with you every day I’m sorry I did not think you were good enough to be treated better I’m sorry for laying too much pressure on you; nobody is perfect, so I’m sorry for making you believe you had to be I did not trust you, respect you, listen to you, or appreciate you I’m sorry I took you for granted I’m sorry that I pitied you, and I’m sorry I made you feel foolish and unimportant I failed to treat you like the remarkable person you truly are I’m sorry I made you feel you were alone I’m sorry I did not love you I’m sorry that I am apologizing to you; the one person who will be with me always HOWEVER I am not sorry for a single tear I wept each drop represents all that I have endured I have learned much about life, relationships and most importantly – YOU pain is temporary for every burning tear that escapes, relief follows I will be strong again I will live again I will love again I will trust again I will survive another day Diana-Marie Bombardieri Originally written: November 2005 Re-write: January 2012