A Letter To My Summer Lover

I'm outta my comfort zone What's gonna happen when we get home? There's no more menthol in my lungs No more alcohol in my veins No thoughts of catching her hung and no feelings of pain I lose and I gain all this weight all the goddamn time Read my eyes, look into my mind These different looks, these disguises Do you know what it's like to not know what time it is? In the middle of the night I throw self-fits Urging just one bump, one line, one hit "No I'll never do it again but, hell, if it's free.. Then come here and set it up with me." I'm outta my comfort zone And I'm not gonna be a liar But when I get home I'ma set myself on fire 'Cause I could never change who I've been I'm a messed up girl and I live and breathe sin So when we arrive to our destination Don't barracade me with questions Just pack me my fix and my tini mix