A Letter To My Son's

A LETTER 2 MY SON'S I'M WRITING THIS LETTER 2 TELL U HOW MUCH U BOYS MEAN 2 ME. I HOPE IT DON'T GET 2 LONG, I DO HAVE ALOT 2 SAY, ILL DO MY BEST 2 KEEP IT SHORT.. MOMMY FIRST NEEDS 2 TELL U HOW SORRY I AM 4 EVERYTHING U HAVE GONE THRU WHEN I WASN'T AROUND. I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES, & TOOK THE WRONG PATH.. I NEVER MEANT 2 HURT U GUYS, & AS U GET OLDER I FEEL LIKE THERE IS SO MANY QUESTIONS U WANT 2 ASK ME. PLEASE NEVER B AFRAID 2 ASK MOM QUESTIONS ABOUT ANYTHING, I WANT U GUYS 2 ASK ME SO I CAN GIVE U ANSWERS. I HAVE SO MUCH REGRET, GUILT, PAIN IN MY HEART 4 NOT BEING THE MOM I SHOULD OF BEEN, 4 EVERY TEAR U CRIED, I HAVE CAUSED BECAUSE I WAS NOT A GOOD MOM, I HURT U 3 BOYS, I KNOW U WILL ALWAYS HAVE THAT PAIN BECAUSE I WASN'T THERE THE WAY A MOM SHOULD BE.. I WANT U 2 KNOW I WASN'T THE PERSON I WAS WHEN I HAD U IN MY BELLY, I WAS A EXCELLENT MOM 4 A LITTLE WHILE, BUT I GOT CAUGHT UP IN SOME BAD CHOICES. TODAY I REGRET EVERYTHING IVE DONE, & I TAKE 100% RESPONSIBLY 4 MY ACTIONS.. IVE LOST 11 YEARS OF MEMORIES, OF NOT BEING WITH U WHEN U WERE SICK, OR HAVING A HARD DAY OR 2 ASK HOW UR DAY WAS AT SCHOOL. I'LL NEVER EVER GET THOSE YEARS OR MOMENTS BACK.. IM 2 BLAME 4 THE HEART ACHE U FEEL, I'M SORRY, SO DEEPLY SORRY.. I WOULD GIVE MY LAST BREATH 4 U BOYS.. I HAVE CHANGED 4 THE BETTER, I HATED WHO I WAS & 4 CAUSING TEARS & PAIN IN UR LIFE. I'M NOT GOING BACK 2 THAT LIFE EVER.. I HOPE U BOYS CAN FORGIVE ME. I'M LOOKING FORWARD 2 HOLDING U IN MY ARMS AGAIN & KISSING THOSE HANDSOME FACES, LOL. I PROMISE I'M NEVER GOING 2 LEAVE U GUYS & BE THAT AWFUL MOM AGAIN... I'M SORRY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I LOVE YOU ALEX, ETHAN & ROBBIE 2 THE MOON & BEYOND. M.U.A.H LOVE YOUR MOM 2/6/2018