A Heavy Heart

Trying to walk this christian path gets harder by the day. Sometimes I want to throw my hands up and scream out loudly-No Way! I know it's wrong to feel this way but yet it is a fact. When I look at other's it all seems like an act. Why I keep asking myself do saints fuss and fight. They they turn and drill in you to do the things that right. I see them stabbing each other in the back and they know that this is wrong. Then they stand before you and try to bring you before the throne. My heart is aching on this day because of things I've heard. I'm trying so hard to shake things off but yet within I'm scared. "If the righteous scarcely make it in" this road seems oh so tight. I just pray and ask for strength so I will not lose this fight.