A Gift To Me

A filth that wreaks a havoc, no ablution can make clean Voices that stir echoes, a reason left unseen Corruption of pureness, sickening of a mind Like a needle needs a vein, or a man that needs his kind A knife inserted slowly, penetrates my heart Just yesterday beat strongly, before it came apart I look back at the child who played without a care The deep scars that you carved, only she can now repair The privilege of my youth, you stole away from me Possessed, maybe demonic, why neither did I see? You had not been the evil, I envisioned, late at night Caught off guard, a frozen fear, I did not even fight You got just what you came for, satisfied, oh no I'm down here for the count, your blow was awfully low With every inch moved forward, almost over hill My calm thoughts start to empty, distortion starts to fill A deceitful web was woven, the mastermind was you Caved in to your sickened thoughts, I bet this wasn't new But kindness is NOT weakness, this child was not lost Choice of prey was your mistake, sold you out, forsaking cost I wonder if regret, eats away your inner soul Or only sorry you were caught and thrown into the hole My privileged youth you stole, your VICTIM, one time true Gave myself the gift of Forgiveness, now VICTORIOUS, no slave to you