A Feeling of Suffocation

A feeling I have never felt A feeling that makes the heart melt Filled with guilt In my heart, a change have been built I am scared My heart is pounding it's afraid I don't know why But I can't deny Do I cry? I'm seeing my past How much would this feeling last? Would forever start tonight? Would my past be the only thing on my sight? Hallucinations I see, Torturing me Like a bird in a cage and it wants to be free But it can't change its destiny, I pray going down on my knees but I feel lost in the dark, In a dark forest filled with crying trees, Trees crying bloody tears. I close my eyes trying to forget But there's something in my life making me regret Maybe it is my sins, Whenever I remember this hidden feeling The sorrow begins, It's so much hurt and so much pain It takes so much to regain The lost pieces of my heart, The pieces that continue the puzzle of confusion The pieces that will make my life real but no illusion. The pieces of my heart are filled with sadness They trigger hate, jealousy, and madness This sadness lies beneath the tears But a smile won't let the sadness disappear Because the tears of grief and the tears of fear Need a strong spirit to make them clear. Happiness lies beneath the truth, The truth of life and living The truth of love and giving The truth of the real feelings deep down inside The feelings that will never hide, And if feelings are hidden These feelings my friend are forbidden, They're the feelings of deep black lies And that's when the happiness dies....