A Fathers Love and His Mistakes

I am all alone in this great big world My destiny is being unfurled I am responsible for my plight And what I may do tonight There is no one else to put my shame Only me, myself, and I to blame What did I do wrong you may ask Only I can unburden my task She is gone so you maybe you can see Her lost dreams are my reality She passed on an October day Leaving my boy behind with me to stay It is a daunting thing this boy of mine Looks like his mother time after time I love my boy he is much like me I just want him to be happy I have been told time and time again That I need to reel my boy in I don’t see that he is doing any harm He has gone through hell, that’s his yarn His mom’s dreams were so easy to see She wanted the best for him and me. I have a big guilt because she is gone And left me the ability to carry on I only wish that I would have done the same A love like hers was hard to explain I left her for another a long time ago Before I knew about the cancer so you know When the news came that she was ill I really wanted to take a bunch of pills Pills to ease my guilty pain Of leaving the woman I loved out in the rain. To my son, if you ever read these words of prose Please take the time to ensure that everybody knows That I loved your mother very much indeed And you were the product of love not a misdeed I sit here with a tear running down my face Trying to find another to replace The girl I loved more than anything at all Except you my son, you are the apple The apple of my eye the fruit of my loom My entire existence is for you to bloom Your mother and I are proud of you And are happy you are succeeding in all you do. Son I hope you will forgive me for things I’ve done I have one life to live and mistakes can’t be undone I hope I will be forgiven in the afterlife And be reunited with your mother and my wife. I hope your pain eases as you grow older Never forget, but get bolder You are almost a man in this big world Please learn from my mistakes before you unfurl Your mother and I will be waiting for you With our arms wide open to rescue Rescue you from this world of pain To come live in heaven with us again Duane LaChance Sr. - 2012