A Familiar New Arrival In Complete Disbelief

look at me water shoes on beach chair buried in the sand feeling like an overtly energetic six year old again acting all shy as she grabs my hand as the water freezes our feet unexpectedly remembering the loneliness cable off vhs on same movie as the last four days wondering how i got there not caring about freeing myself here i am new swim trunks on fast food gut rumbling in continuous anticipation staring in awe at the ocean like she is a celebrity acting even more shy as she lifts my chin up and brushes her lips against mine remembering the darkness in the lights electricity off heavy blanket consuming me 1988 walkman playing 60s reggae sounds....perfectly blinding me mental starvation for immediate escape verbal starvation for immediate escape wondering when the electricity man was gonna come and turn the electricity back on imagining a gun and a few bullets....to shoot the dream i am suffering dead wait a minute i am totally on vacation got me a beautiful blessing of a travelling partner....thick in all the right places on the next to last day....still in complete disbelief that i am actually here acting yet even more shy as she smiles at me with a look of sincere affection....as she rubs somewhere....she considers absolute, natural fun