A Constant Shadow

I wake upon a longing Whose eyes are short of sleep Awake to be a shadow Shallow as it deep Covers may well hide it But here it still remains Nothing lies above it Nothing grows the same Silent as it raging Whispered as it shout As a man grows older His shadow lengthens out What cannot be filled Will only be sought more What the silence holds Falls as water on the shore Can the water penetrate Through every grain of sand? Never shall it reach its home Eternal sight of land Held within my hand A candle, yet unlit Held above my head Silent as it sits Given to at birth Told to light my way: "Light cannot be seen Away from light of day Unless it lies atop this, This candle made of stone It shall not fail in need Though it lie alone" Give to me the flame With light, grows its black Shadows still will grow But I know what I lack For here I lie, a silhouette Now I find what's mine A shadow, constant ally Cursed as it divine Why to give a longing That all would seek apart? Even though you lie in wait All sought another heart But do I know the truth? Will it set me free? You've created longing That you will free in me