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Deep Dark Poem

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Deep Dark Poem

     ~Deep Dark Poem~

Tonight I want to go deeper in my soul
I want to be born again tonight I want
to go back in my mothers womb and feel
my happiness of my first cry yet feel her 
real pain while she was delivering me
I want to feel both all her pain and the 
little of happiness I had since I was born.
I want to feel each breath I breathed since 
that first night I want to see my fathers
eyes if he had a tear of happiness while 
holding me for the first time .
                 
I want to walk talk laugh cry climb defeat 
succeed breath suffocate scream eat drink 
revive my senses I want to hold her breast 
and be a baby again I don't want to grow 
Old yet I want to remain a new born in her 
arms to feel safe I want to hold my fathers 
glasses and see the color of his eyes will I 
have them will I have his nose will I have 
my mothers softness will I cry for help will 
I see and hear and listen and run and walk 
and hold her hand to feel safe I am lost 
tonight I need her grip.
                     
I need my brother who carried me where is 
he today why did he leave me so early and 
die so young I want to eat with them I want 
to share with them in what state of mind 
I am in tonight I want to go home tonight 
to my mother and fathers home I want to
see their light at their home as I am living
through my darkest hours tonight.
But I cannot as all what I want 
I cannot have.

I want their faithful love I want to sleep 
on their bed and feel the warmth of their 
love in our home where I was born and 
after years I was torn away from them 
to live in another mans home. 
                   
They forgot to tell me how much they 
have suffered when I left their home and 
went away they forgot to tell me so many 
things that iI am experiencing them now
today yesterday and tomorrow my life 
passed away so quickly busy bringing up 
my kids busy giving them an education 
busy cooking for them busy working to 
provide for them everything busy washing 
busy crying busy going out busy busy where 
are they now where was I when my father 
left to climb up his ladder where was I 
when my mothers turn arrived to climb up her
ladder and stay next to him they went up to 
meet their son who left them years ago he 
was only 29 years old they had to live suffering 
suffering missing missing him their first born 
for years and years.
                     
Father of my 2 boys thee only ecstasy 
I had during that marriage nothing was 
real except my kids nothing existed except 
them nothing meant anything in my world 
except them nothing ever passed before 
them they are my light when i am blind 
they are my laughter in my inside they 
are with me with every breath I breath 
we are inseparable even when they are 
far I see them when its dark I see them 
when I am deaf I hear them through my 
strength I survive to keep them alive. 
I walk alone yet their shadow never 
leaves my sight they call my name from 
far I call them back I write to reach out 
for them to read through my lines how 
much I need to be cared for even one day 
maybe half a day maybe a few hours even 
one second is more then enough to pump 
my heart to go on.
                  
So sorry my fellow poets tonight when 
you read through my lines you will forgive 
me as I am sentimentally in pain affectionately 
in pain tonight my pen was agonizing missing 
my children missing to see them how do I survive 
daily without them I don't know I know I have 
been doing that for the past 35 years seeing 
them on and off due to the war in our country
& unexplainable circumstances. 
Tonight forgive me. I have no more tears.
                                                                                   
                                                                                            Therese Bacha
  Deep Dark Poem for contest of PD  (Win.No 4 )                            22/2/2013

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  1. Date: 8/2/2013 1:47:00 AM
    Stopping by again to say hi at Poetry Soup. I can see you have not posted here in a long while. PLEASE put something up, dear!

  1. Date: 4/5/2013 10:42:00 AM
    Terry; There is nothing to forgive. We all have our days.... Thanks for sharing..... Lucilla

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 4/5/2013 10:50:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Still here reading my poems? i am so happy you like them. Love Terry xooxxooxxo
  1. Date: 2/26/2013 10:47:00 AM
    Many congratulations on your win xx

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 2/26/2013 11:48:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Mandy, so sweet of you , thank you so much...we have to keep our brain working, Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 2/25/2013 8:03:00 AM
    This is an amazing write Terry with so much emotion.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 2/25/2013 8:27:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Craig, thank so much, i see your name on every contest winning, goof for you. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 2/24/2013 9:50:00 PM
    Hi Terry... congratulations with your awesome deep and darken poem* GOODNIGHT!!! xox~LINDA

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 2/24/2013 10:28:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Linda busy night for you....i am so so grateful Linda for choosing my poem......thank you so much, my sincere friend Terry xoxoxo
  1. Date: 2/11/2013 4:44:00 PM
    Terry this one of yours has lots of comments now and lots of people really like it. Keep in mind the poems that are getting the best good responses so you can know which ones to enter in the soup contests!! Luv, Andrea

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 2/11/2013 5:44:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you Andrea.....your are so so sweet....will see u later..Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 2/4/2013 8:16:00 AM
    My dearest Terry, WHAT AN ECSTATIC POEM!!! How can you ask forgiveness For writing such a masterpiece? You opened your heart tonight so we all see How human you are, What a marvelous human you are! So you are not…forgiven for You might write another incomparable poetic work! Thank you so much! A seven is just too little! Love, Demetrios

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 2/4/2013 8:50:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you so much .....as you know everybody passes through those crazy moments...it just happened..hopefully never again....take care and thank for the email so much see you later have to go.......love Terry
  1. Date: 1/22/2013 9:53:00 AM
    Ow gee..just remember you are not alone sweet ..lady.We are never alone.Im going to favour this not only for the true emotions penned but also for the big heart you have.God be with you

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/22/2013 12:56:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you for reading through my pain..yes i have days i feel lonely, but now i am much better since i am here with all of you.i get a lot of comfort.....Thank so so much.....xoxo Terry
  1. Date: 1/22/2013 12:59:00 AM
    I read your pain Therese, in writing about it you share it with us all, so we can carry a little ourselves to lighten your load. Be safe........Seren

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/22/2013 6:15:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you..yes this is why i felt safe..thank you for your sharing my feelings.....
  1. Date: 1/21/2013 10:25:00 PM
    Exceptional! I love this poem, Therese! Im going to fav it! Full of emotion... I just ... feel your pain! Look at my eyes! Beautiful! Ruben.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/22/2013 6:13:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you so much....Have a nice day...Terry
  1. Date: 1/20/2013 1:56:00 PM
    Brilliant!

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/20/2013 2:06:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Love that word, thank you so much. xoxo Terry
  1. Date: 1/20/2013 1:24:00 PM
    I absolutely love this piece! You have accomplished something very difficult: the weaving together of joy and pain. I intend to share this with my wife. I'm certain she too will love what you have written. Thanks... Jack

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/20/2013 2:08:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Whoa ,,thank you i am impressed,,,, it was one of those days,,,,,but thank God it is gone,,,xoxo Terry
  1. Date: 1/19/2013 6:29:00 AM
    Sitting here and feel helpless and so sad .... Not often I get "speechless" ..... - I wish I could do more than to say that I think of you. - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/19/2013 10:09:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Oh Anne your feelings mean so much to me, thank you from the depth of my heart, i have all of you , i already feel great, it was one of those days of missing. Love Terry xoxoxo
  1. Date: 1/18/2013 4:24:00 PM
    I send to you a measure of tenderness. I could not, this night, find a better place for it. You beauty is never diminished by the sentiment that grips you this night. You will always be victorious over the maladies that would leave us feeling so hollow. Just know you are loved..... Why? ..... Because you are you...... Jake

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/18/2013 4:56:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Whoa John, yes i was feeling so down, and now with my friends at The Soup i felt like sharing my pain. Thank you for your moral support......Love Terry
  1. Date: 1/18/2013 12:36:00 PM
    Wow! Therese I couldn't stop reading until I reached the very end. You expressed yourself beautifully, the side of you that makes you vulnerable and human, wish I was there to give you the hug and affection you need, stay with us and share every day, we are a family of sort that fills you, not the same I know but I hope it comforts you to know, I care, love hugs and peaceful thoughts xxxx

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/18/2013 6:49:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Whoa Mystic Rose, i feel so loved here, God loves me He directed me to the Soup Poetry to share all my past sufferings. Thank you so much for your deep support. I do appreciate that so much. I was so touched. Love you to xoxo Terry
  1. Date: 1/18/2013 12:17:00 PM
    Terry; There is nothing to forgive. I understand you very well, because I can relate to this. I only had one daughter, but I don't wish for no mother to go through what I have gone through. Thatis one of the reasons that I write, because here you can express your feelings. I pray for you. Jesus is with you right now. Lucilla

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/18/2013 6:52:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Lucilla, thank you so much, i feel so much your pain, losing the closest persons to your heart, i am sorry for your pain, we have each Other thank God. Keep in good health, Love Terryxoxoxo
  1. Date: 1/18/2013 12:09:00 AM
    So many things you have gone through and are going through. It must be agonizing to remember all those things and miss the kids. Strongly written. I hope you are able to feel encouraged in this new year, dear. Do you have some close friends or live with someone who is there for you? God bless you.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/18/2013 6:55:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you Andrea, yes i am living with my boyfriend, I have all fo you now thank God. I feel great after reading everybody's beautiful support. Love xoxo Terry.
  1. Date: 1/17/2013 10:48:00 PM
    alone is me i feel for thee, solitude in my great city, the love we had remembered some, being lonesome is a pity... but go on we must ...hon.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/18/2013 6:57:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Yes Don, thank you, love your poem, now i feel so so good sharing with all of you. I will be fine. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 1/17/2013 4:19:00 AM
    This is such a powerful piece to me. I experience the ache of being separated from my kids now that they are grown. Three of them are in colleges out of state and it just tears me up being so far away. The other two are in college in state and i'm so thankful for it. Bless you my friend, truly wonderful you are.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 1/17/2013 5:38:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you so much for sharing your pain to......i was vulnerable yesterday.....you are young my advice for you, as much as you can be with them before time flies away.....Love Terry