3 Some Chris Joe and Alcohol

I'm drinking and my life is a mess But I can't stand anything less The more I drink the better I feel Or is it possible there is nothing to feel? I love a girl who is better then life But all I do is give her grievance and strife I'm begging you Lord please, PLEASE, PLEASE Don't let me go through any more DT's I don't think I can keep a job What do I do? Steal, lie and rob? Open your eyes Joe life isn't free My eyes are wide open but still I can't see The way things are going I don't want anymore I'm tired of being crazy sick and sore Do I drink or do I stay sober? I just don't want to start over I can't stop for to stop is death Couldn't wait for that very last breath I have a woman who is worth living for Just hope she doesn't help me find the door I have been drugging and drinking for so long So I put a few words into a song I am ashamed of the life that I live I really try for something to give These words don't express what I feel Just a glimpse of the things I know are real I want to change but can't stand the pain When I don't drink I feel I am going insane Please understand the things that I do It has nothing to do with my feelings for you I love you so much I would take my life But one day I would be proud to have you as my wife.