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I watch everyone changing yet evolving right in front of my eyes. I look up and try to hold my head high So many pictures, so many quotes. Why must my heart hurt where did you go ? I am lonely I can't bare to watch everyone. What about me ? What happened to me ? Miracle or tragedy ? Blessing or a curse ? What does it even mean ? Boy or girl ? Brown hair or black hair ? Thick or thin? Brown eyes or dark brown ? I will never know anything about you. Other then the big number 3. I know you were 3 months old. 3 months with me and vanished. Couldn't give you the world but I could have gave you love. Although our relationship started off rocky, you warmed up to me. I felt a connection.. You are a apart of me. You are mine. Our relationship was supposed to be endless fulfilled with the golden days and the bad. What would life be with my princess or prince I will never know. Time will tell. I will see you soon once God opens those big golden gates and I see you standing on the fluffy clouds smiling saying hi mom , welcome to heaven. All these beautiful thoughts. I've been injected with depression , as i take a glimpse out the window I see a world in black and white like an old photograph.