365 Days

"This is dedicated to all who understand this. Whether we like it or not." -D.J.E. I wasn’t gonna write this But Emotions are stirring high Cannot believe How much time has passed Still feel your presence Memories Of the slowest death Ever felt Running parallel To these present seconds An ugly revelation Tainted the sunshine That bared on our souls 365 days ago So many tears Had filled the ocean Of despair For love’s river Were held back by presumption’s walls Uncertainty The dam’s of what could have been Here I stand In this present moment Your essence still lingers Like the flakes of a dandelion b r e a k i n g f r e e From its home Tormented echoes of “why” “How come” “Please don’t go” “I love you…I love you so much” High pitched resonations Float upon Rafts of secondary importance And yet This heart still knows For it will always recall Its truth Promises Empty Played me a fool While you held hands With inevitable Crossing fingers With diffusion Across my shoulders Left me uncomfortably numb All my rights Unreserved And all the while I Simply Believed In tomorrow Because My foolish hopes Continued to warp my mind Maybe if I didn’t look back when you walked away Like the rules said… …No matter. These soft acoustic riffs Replay in my head You were my “Wonderwall” “You could’ve been the one…to save me” But I overcame For I Saved myself Didn’t want to be an inconvenience for you Colors of Fall Your favorite season Kinda ironic You were like Summer & Winter Knew when to turn up the heat Make me sweat Each new arrival A summer equinox Each departure A rainstorm But, when it was over Nothing but cold Blizzard languages Frostbitten Even solace’s bandages Could not heal But, I weathered the storm And would do it again Cause it was for real … Here I am 52 weeks have past Occasional recollection Of that hourglass With no more sands Buried in dragon’s chest You are in my silent prayer Always But Know this Even though you are contained Within my heart’s asylum cell block home I loved you With all that I had So much That you will be the only regret I will ever be proud of. © Drake J. Eszes