2009 To the Swine

i wanted to beg you to hold me. i laid on my back, trying to catch my breath, but you wouldn't have noticed. you wouldn't have wanted to understand my yearning for any emotional connection. you wonder where my voice has gone as my tongue gags me in attempts to hold back three ferocious words... i focus on slowing my heartbeat and try not to notice your eyes diverting mine. fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on the both of us.