10 Years

disheartened array of melancholy verbiage I didn't have enough details to cover ground so I stayed ignorant of my internal complications exploding with tears and sounds I've never made before you were found lacking apparent decency to mourn a soul proper I refused to take any absolutes' offer that psychic that lied meant little, much less than the countless times people asked me Where is she? The biggest achievement of my life unawares to those who've never wore my shoes I am grateful I've made it through, and hope those who have yet to suffer such as I will find blessings at the end of such journeys What a long road I can see further in one direction in than the other but I know, this road is only as long as two points. Pack my suitcase and leave at the door I won't be needing that, to walk the streets Medicine wore off and I had to find a new meaning to my memories living off of instinct What is it like to have no sense of truth from the writhing of delusion snaking in and out of solid turning your past into a guessing game? How many people live in here? This would redefine the way of living. I am just a bystander, but oh so intimate It hurts me to see Where can I find a relief? All logic and reasoning tell the tale of predictability She the most stable she is ever been in her life Yelling at a social worker about being hearing impaired after the lady was just trying to point out she doesn't seem it and she was eligible for arts and crafts Worries, anxiety, mistrust paranoia, grandiose theories and destructive habits Inspires me of my own no one is invincible Tattoo that on my face and I still will cry guilt face pain to the point where I only have my love nothing else matters as much as having her in my life again after 10 years