she SCREAMS intelligence /
each WORD a spark / each SENTENCE a blade /
her voice CUTS / the dull hum of the world /
not ANGER / CLARITY /
truth FORCED / into corners / where shadows LINGER /
a WELCOME escape /
a FRAGILE commanding WHISPER /
delivered / like a DARE //
HOPE rides / her RELEVANCE /
ALONE she SINGS /
music inside / my selfish UNCARING /
AS I AM / AS she WISHES /
FORGETTING what’s TAUGHT /
lost in HURRIED confusion //
a WAY OUT / of shadows /
I wandered INTO / by ACCIDENT /
her LIGHT casts / my own SHADOW / when NEEDED /
clear INSTRUCTIONS / discreet AS a heartbeat //
I would START it ALL over /
EVERY mistake / EVERY fall /
if it means / HEARING her SING / for the BROKEN /
HOPING it was ME /
who SPARKED her FIRE /
the CLOSEST we have /
to PROOF / that ANGELS EXIST //
She had never dealt with anything more difficult,
Then her own mind and soul.
People don’t understand,
How difficult and stressful it is,
To explain what is going on in your head,
When you don’t even know it yourself.
She tries.
She tries to be okay.
She tries to make everyone proud,
To get good grades,
To look nice,
to act happy.
She could swear she is tying,
Even though she is failing it at the same time.
Behind her smile is a hurting heart.
And behind her laugh
She is falling apart.
Nobody notices how hard she tries,
To hold back her tears.
We play around,
no one notices me.
I am there jumping and enjoying,
showing my emotions.
But has no one to see.
I work hard to be noticed,
but no one has their eyes on me.
We are children four but,
everyone excludes me,
and count as three.
I wanted a normal life,
Wanted love and care of family.
But what is my fault?
I want to ask, see them shout,
cry and yell at me, calmly.
But I am having fun,
telling you lies.
Because you don`t know how happy we all were together.
But had short time with them.
I wonder how fast time flied.
I know it was hard for everyone,
to know
how I reached there.
I am sad to I see my mom every weekend,
crying at my
graveyard.
Nurture notices nature.
Healthy humane nurture
notices Earth's natural integrity,
sensual
sexual
sensory
sensed
sourced.
Healthy neurological nurture
notices nature's wealth
of resonant sensory intent,
timeless pregnancy
possibility
probability
potentiality
positives.
Healthy humane nurture
notices nature's wealthy resilience
with right-hemisphere resonance.
Healthy left-hemisphere nurture
notices nature's wealthy
resilient
right-hemisphere resonant intent
intention
recreative tension
events,
critical lose/lose
chronic win/lose
synchronic win/win.
Gaian nurture
notices pregnant nature,
patriarchal
matriarchal
Win/Win
communal experience
of healthy ego-nurture
as wealthy eco-nature.
I sense how flummoxed one becomes
staring at the starless night while the rising fog
drifts around the grotesque figures
more terrifying than a wild, hungry dog...
nobody notices another transient
challenging fear and being too persistent!
Walking through the grove of elms
with an unfogged mind, I take slow footsteps
not being frightened by the groans of a lonely wolf,
a human can be more dangerous than an animal
when he has lived in the remoteness to escape grief;
I push forward being drenched by a sudden rainfall...
nobody notices another transient
with a zealous and intrepid spirit!
Where's that path which leads to torturous Hell?
That imagined Hades the Florentine poet described so well?
Why was Dante driven by foolishness, vengeance, and folly?
He despised the horrible deeds of his peers
and confined them in the place of eternal fire,
taking on a role which made his intolerance conspire;
he begged God to make them suffer in agony,
he could have felt compassion and stopped their screams...
nobody noticed another transient
enthralled by a vicious intent!
Her heaven will be a love without betrayal
Reality is an ugly, misused state
Of which the world should have never been
Around and around we go
Day in until our final day out
It rains the tears have mixed
So this wetness of my face you cannot tell
Which is which
As I walk through a crowd of busy people wielding cell phones and umbrellas
I am all alone
No one sees me, really sees me or notices
Until I'm gone