like a letter

Its been a while, a dizzying several months... i'll try and reestablish the habit. I miss it so - I'll simply MAKE the time to write. So, what's been happening??

School, skool, skool.. deliver me from the mindless games of bored children and useless facts that blur the brain.. My project strategy, this term, can be best described as.. avoidance.. thinking I could catch up on break.. pplleeaassee.. what a FOOL. I'am now behind the 8-ball and must cut out - EVERYTHING - until I catch up. *gagging sound*

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Piano Lessons, my 8 year old cousin wants to learn piano and wants ME to teach her.. I try, honestly, but I burst out laughing as she knuckles the keys and am reduced to a heap as she pushes on with self defeating eagerness...

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My mom has this dream that will never come true, that I will make a "coming out" like she did so many many years ago.. I'm talking debutantes.. (How ghastly, how embarrassing!)

Kim and Bili (my BFs) and I go to one of this years previews.. a sort of a dress rehearsal, to gawk and stare at these geeks and geekettes. This we did but we also found surprisingly friendly, smart girls made to look ridiculous by a custom that deserves to be forgotten.. like.. I don't know.. like say, slavery??!!

*ring.. ringggg.. ring.. riggg* (phone) Hello, Mama?? *best southern Elvis impression*.. I don't really THINK so Percilla.. not in THIS lifetime.. ha!

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Otherwise - I am here and well, still trying to define what is essential and vital in my life and build a world of my own in that image.

It's good that I don't have to be in control, to feel a paid up member of the world - because that control still eludes me.. I search for it frantically, like the cartoon dog chained in the yard but my limitations are what they are, for now *shrug*

See ya!

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