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Cyndi MacMillan poetry has been published in The Fieldstone Review, Issue 2015 http://www.fieldstonereview.usask.ca/article.php?article=167, Grain Magazine, issue 42.4, Summer 2015, Passed Signs/New Fields  http://www.grainmagazine.ca/current-issue/  , The Steel Chisel, April 2016, http://www.thesteelchisel.ca/april2016_07.html.  She has poems forthcoming in ROOM and the Centrifugal Eye. She participated in the 20 Poem Challenge at The Ekphrastic Review: Writing and Art on Art and Writing, and twelve of her poems have been published by the journal.http://www.ekphrastic.net/apps/search?q=Cyndi+MacMillan.

Her fiction has appeared in local newspapers and has won contests. Her short story, Missed Steps, is forthcoming in the Windsor Review. She enjoys reading literary journals, and she is actively pursuing further publication within their glossy covers.

Verse is both magnetic and kinetic. She attempts - madly- to give equal attention to her poetry, short stories, and a novel-in-progress, the Trim of Wicks.  Regardless of genre, she focuses on language. One word has the power to repel or pull. She never forgets the reader and does her best to make their ride interesting.

Poetry soup is a friendly forum which enables people from around the world to share their writing. It has some great resources and provides a nice space for people to connect.

Cyndi lives in a small town in Ontario with her husband, young daughter and far too many books.

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A BLOG FOR THOSE HAVING A BLUE CHRISTMAS, SONGS FOR YOU


Blog Posted:12/10/2012 9:25:00 AM

Eight years ago, I spent December in palliative care, caring for my father, spending the final weeks with him. I did not leave his ward. I stayed right beside him. Gave myself sponge baths in his bathroom, slept on a pallet on his floor.

This is, believe it or not, a sweet memory for me. It was a time I cherish. The talks we had, the physical care I gave my dad, that last dance... I would not change a SECOND. He was in very little pain. I only regret that I could not fly to Montreal and get him the ribs and steak he so wanted from a restaurant that burnt down a decade earlier.

I would often look out his hospital window, the ledge made a makeshift window seat. And I'd watch the falling snow reflect light as he slept.

He died in my arms on Christmas Eve. The silly dreamer man who's favorite movie was the Santa Clause, who filled my Christmases with magic. The intelligent man who as an adult put himself through night school so as to provide a better life for his newborn daughter. The clown who'd make me laugh. The hero who could fix anything, or so I thought.

Christmas is special for me in a thousand ways. As a Christian, as a mother to a child who I'm blessed to have, as a wife to a wonderful man and as a daughter to a man who smiled as he took his last breath, the last breath that fanned my face.

I know that Christmas is special, JOY-FILLED, for so many. But others are struggling with loneliness, heartache, emotional, physical and spiritual pain.


This is a blog for you.

Here are some songs that helped me in the week following my father's death.

I played them over and over.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkiP7y0fauk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60bNzi9dA9U

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiYYWDSI_oU

May you have a support system around you at this time. Those on the Soup send you prayers and/or you are in their thoughts.

I DO hope you "make it through December."  It will get better. Hang on!

Hugs sent to you during this time, when all the laughter, glitter and music seems to mock and causes pain....

xox
Cyndi
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  1. Date: 12/11/2012 1:06:00 AM
    Rose is right Cyndi, you are an exceptionally beautiful hearted woman, your Dad would be proud of the specialness you impart on others and how graceful you are with the love you share.. p.s sorry for the mistakes im writing through tears.. Merry Christmas angel.. xxxxxxx

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 9:02:00 PM
    This is heartbreaking, Cyndi. You made me cry.

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 4:04:00 PM
    Has anyone told you lately how exceptional you are, if they haven't well there you have it, you rock from here to the stars above, Merry Christmas My Dear Woman, xxx Rose

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  1. Date: 12/10/2012 2:36:00 PM
    oh cyndi, this is such a touching blog, now I understand more about why my poem 'moonlight on the ward' affected you...december is bittersweet for me too, it was just before christmas when I had a miscarriage and I know what you mean when you say about the laughter, glitter and music seeming to mock...hugs to you, too xx

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