Finding the Women In Me
Well what can I say im living life and I'm okay I felt scared as a child that I would pay for the mistakes that was made along the way from myself and the people that brought me up this way feeling as if I was never going to be someone to much afraid one would say. But life lead me to the path I walk today many of challenges I learnt to play many of obsicals I sweated away many of fears I had to face each day many of people i learnt I had to turn away many of things have been in my way but hey I've made it i will bloody say I'm living for me and I'll keep on keeping on my time hasn't come to a stop yet I'm stronger then I ever have been bigger then the little girl I once was and better then the person I once faked played because I was confuse as a child that life was very easily taken away from us because of always seeing the people you love most quickly to fade away into a dark shadow they seemed to spend most days. Being a kid truely seemed that life was ment to be that way until I grew older and reliesed that God gave us all an ending!!! But only you are the key that holds the story of your own book from the moment you know you will be living in this world is the moment of all things it's the beginning of your own creations you will be destiny to create what ever that may be for you. Why is it we all go on about the negatives when life is so precious to easily taken from us it really isn't fair but life is life so all I can do is keep on keeping on and love the things I love and life shouldn't do me wrong for I am seeing things different now mostly the things that I once thought didn't seem to belong in my life. are the things that have been around under and in my life this whole time I was just to egger and much to blind to see that everything was the beginning of my story the topic on the first line it's funny how it's been beside me this whole time and not once did I realise until now that it's the things you wonder n ask how is always the things guiding you somehow because looking at this and myself now and the questions Im always seeking to find has been beneath me this whole time ( I'll always be Hayley and that's fine but please believe me as I say it in this moment of time the life I've always lived is the the reasons I'll forever get bye because we all have story's we was put in not by choice but by fait we will always remain as people trying to fit in n hoping to find answers to what you think you have began but the truth be said you haven't even started to begin its people like me that get confused and automatically think that theirs nothing to gain and nothing to loose well I got that very wrong when I started living and choose to become a mother to my beautiful bright little son now n always my world and forever my reason to keep on keeping on from start to the end of my life I promise I will be making sure That I complete the story of my life for you so that my baby will know that he has a mum that held a story and made it to the end. And that I was strong enough for not letting anyone else make my own decision up for me and directing me wear they believed I should have been. I really thought I was doing all this on my own but the truth is I was never alone you my baby Jordan was the furture god was holding for me this whole time mummy was terribly blind ( you have been the answer to all my questions I've been seeking to find the key to my heart and forever mine!!!!! Live your life baby as you please but never forget you n only you will fulfill the book of your future so don't ever be afraid of catching your dreams that you feel are impossible to catch because mummy found out that anything is possible right after I had you!!! Ps find the starting point & keep on keeping on till the end baby you are more then you will ever know the first time I held you was when mummy just knew there was just that something special about youxxx
Copyright © Hayley Murtagh | Year Posted 2016
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