Emotions Deep Within
Lost in a fantasy, eager to make it reality.
Tangled in emotions, too oblivious to see.
How desperate I was for a taste of your love,
all those nights I begged to the one up above.
I sit and swallow the liquid that makes the pain momentarily disappear.
I let myself become incoherent, for there’s no one’s voice I want to hear.
Dazed and lost, I drown in my own thoughts.
Seems to me I’m in a battle that I’ve already fought.
I am unsure if it’s made me stronger or slowly deteriorating me inside.
The wall around my heart is not yet sturdy, and I failed to protect my mind.
I care so much, but yet my heart is becoming cold.
The games, the lies, and deceit are getting old.
I don’t have time for the foolishness, I have too much to give.
To be mislead and only given portions of a person is not the way I want to live.
I have too much to offer and too much to share.
I refuse to invest so much time and emotion on someone who doesn’t care.
However, I tend to find myself in that situation.
The monster that lies within my heart was nothing but my own creation.
I fed myself wishful thoughts and fairytales.
I continued to do so, knowing my heart might be struck with a nail.
I begin to think I'll never learn.
Oh that feeling of being content is something that I yearn.
Copyright © Maricel Estoque | Year Posted 2016
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