As I lay me down to sleep.
The pain I feel is so deep.
I listen to the sounds of a world at peace.
Tears start to fall silently down my cheek.
These tears are not strangers to my life of constant pain.
I’ve shared many days with these tears of shame.
I prayed to a higher power, I want someone to believe in me.
But fear consumes me, imprisoned inside myself never free.
Causing pain and disappointments in so many hearts.
Is effortless to me from the start.
When my heart feels for another I feel like a serial killer with a itch.
I cause death with no control, secretly wishing it was me in that ditch.
The many masks I wear fool even me, I smile fighting back tears.
I willingly give all my love and trust, when its truly fueled by fears.
I think I have given in to all the hurt and regrets I can bear.
My life’s lesson was to realize I am to be alone, I don’t have any more to share.
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