This Demon
My inner demon tells me that I'm nothing
A waste of a person, a male not worth loving
This Demon influences me, infiltrates my thoughts
Bringing up memories of what i have lost
This Demon is a repeating voice in my head
A constant reminder that turns my heart into lead
He's a heavy burden, that i must carry with me everywhere
Changing happy emotions into a stoic despair
I watch peoples reactions to me, and he makes me think its disgust
This Demon drives me to tears, a man with no guts
He's in my quiet moments, when I'm alone by myself
And intense emotions are realized and felt
When i fight him, it results in an intense rage
Anger at myself, and any other factors in my life's stage
I'm a man, these sad emotions are beneath me
Who are you demon, to try and control me
I become angry at my fall downs, anger at my failures
Angry at my crush and my failure to tell her
This Demon makes me see red, thinking of the many rejections!
The looks of disgust whenever i try and show affection!
My head yells insults, including the crushes that i thought i once loved
Including myself, for being affected by love
I can't beat This Demon, he's just to strong
But i'll never stop trying, striving for what i long
Copyright © William Hughes | Year Posted 2013
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