Life has changed so much since u arrive.
I don't think I have ever felt so tired in my life before!
Never thought I would stress over everything I do either!
My view of life has changed, its no longer ah whatever happens will happen. Now its the case of who is making it happen, why is it happening and how will it effect me and my baby
Mmm me and my baby that's a new one
It feels like my life is gone!if I want to try and do something for myself it never works out. Don't get me wrong I love my daughter more than life itself, but there is no time for me anymore
I can't take the extra 15mins in the bath
I can't sleep in the extra 5
I definitely can't have a full night sleep
I can't relax when I come home from work
i can't even keep my eyes open to watch a movie at night
I can't go out at night as bedtime is at 7pm
I can't go anywhere within the house with out being followed
There is soo many cants but when I think of what I can do, its magical
I can be woken up at 1 3 or 5 am and my daughter will always be happy to see me
I can leave for work knowing that when I come back she will be right there waiting for me
I can learn to be a kid again by learning the nursery rhymes all over
I can prepare a bath knowing my baby is gonna have the time of her life in the water
I can fight with her to get clothes on and food in her tummy but I will know she is well looked after
I can drift her off to sleep knowing I was the last person her little eyes saw
I can lay in my bed at the end of the day knowing my little one played her hearts content out with me and went to bed loving me for it
Having a child is not easy and raising her the right way is even more difficult! Life is a test when you are alone but when you have a little eyes staring up at you life turns into challenge!
Never give up in what you believe in and especially what you are trying to achieve when you are faced with a baby to look after! It may take a little longer to get there and a lot more strength with courage but you will get there! Remember no one ever said it would be easy and at the end of the day its you who decides which path to take in life!
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