Wake up, eyes low, hearts heavy,
Mind so gone, can I move; Yeah barely.
Flash backs of this day…
12 years ago is mostly all I can say.
Trying so hard to fight back these tears.
If God is real, why hasn’t he dead away these fears?
More like guilt of losing you…
I was so young what could I do?
You beg me not to leave, I left anyway.
Thought looking fly was more important but then you past away.
12 years, I can’t get your face out my mind.
Wonder if I would had stayed would everything be fine…
Damn it would had,
Now I’m crying my eyes out at myself I grow so mad.
Wishing it was me instead of you.
Restless nights for 12 years is what I have been through.
Visions of you growing up with us turn quickly into nightmares.
Wake up, chest tight, as the pain build up in lairs.
I can never forget your last words when I said I will see you soon.
You said you wouldn’t be here, then I got that call around noon…
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