You grab my throat,
And fling me against the wall,
How I hated those times,
The fear they sparked inside.
You held me down,
I wanted more,
Instead you beat me to the floor,
You could've held me a little,
As I lay there screaming,
Watching you leaving.
But I always went back for more,
Somehow the pleasure was worth the pain,
What a cliche.
Your passion and lust, the way you only wanted me.....sometimes
But no-one else could have me,
You protected me from shame.
Never let anyone put me down,
You never wanted to see me cry,
I don't understand why?
I guess I still held on, hoping,
Boy was I wrong,
You left me with scars.
On the inside,
Which no-one can remove or replace.
But he is trying and I'm opening uo for him slowly,
Coz he is something I've never had before,
Real, selfless, love, no pain.
No pain from him,
He's opposite to you,
He holds me close and numbs the pain.
When you only wanted me feeling more.
I didn't deserve what you gave me, I can see that now,
Just like he doesn't deserve the little I give him.
I'm trying to give him my all,
But part of me still belongs,
To that power you have, that hold.
I love him more than I've ever loved you,
And breaking away from you is hard to do,
But I'm gone, I can't hold on.
Yet you're still there,
In my dreams,
Trying to destroy,
What I have with him,
But you never will...........
You never will?
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