Hope
You came to me with threats
Claimed I toyed with your heart
Claimed I couldn’t love
Claimed I screwed you from the start
Claimed that I reject you,
when you rejected me
Claimed that I had been so blind
And claimed that you could only see
You said you were going to die
And it was my punishment to be
But I stopped you again
because you meant something to me
I was always there playing the hand unseen,
Guiding controlled fates to spare you of the unclean
I stopped you from being robbed; I forced the ones you loved to care
And when I asked you for a chance all you did was leave me bare
I offered you a place to stay when you were left out as a stray
I gave you a shoulder to cry on and then you turned me away
They say you hurt the ones you love
But I know it isn’t true
If you hurt the ones you loved
It would have been me hurting you
But still I want your happiness
So I write these words you’ll never read,
Because I’m scared that if you saw them
It would be your souls turn to bleed
So now I’m stuck on the cross
It seems the role I always play
Hammering my own nails
To ensure that I stay
I stay my words, I stay my voice
I stay my feelings out of choice
I stay my eyes, I stay my ears
I stay my selfish bitter fears
But I can not stay these god damn hands
from putting thoughts to keys
because if I don’t let them out
they will become my disease
I don’t know how to end it
So I will leave it at this
Because of you my soul is bleeding
My hope became a cyst
simi-censored cuz...yeah....
Copyright © James Kendrick | Year Posted 2011
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