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April Woods Poem
Load your eyes with the wonder of another world.
Fill your heart with the laughter from a child.
Cram your mind with a joy unknown to you before.
Pack you hands with a knowledge all their own.
Give you legs a new function, anything but walking.
Relieve you stress and take a deep breath.
Enlighten yourself to the possibility that we are not alone.
Live in the other realm, even if only for a minute..
Delve into the other dimensions of time and space.
Scrape together all the beliefs you posses.
Then throw them away, you don't need them here.
Penetrate another world and relax enough to enjoy it.
Allow your body to float weightlessly through the air.
But keep your mind intact, you'll need it too get back.
Release you heart from within your strict walls and barriers .
Let it live on it’s own for once, and relax, for a minute,
I promise, it'll still be there when you crossover.
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April Woods Poem
Back in the world of disposable
Emotions I fall apart
But what are emotions anyway?
Disposable?
Maybe.
Yes.
I don’t know.
In their own world?
Most definitely yes.
I am ashamed of past.
I tell hardly anyone about it,
And few if any know the truth.
I live in a world surrounded by pain,
But blanketed in pleasure
And covered in ice.
I am more secluded than a monk,
And even I don’t truly know who I am.
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April Woods Poem
When you look at me, the way you do,
With a look of raw lust mingles with a glint of hunger,
I cannot help but stare right back into your eyes.
When you touch my skin with yours,
With you soft fine hairs tickling me,
I cannot help but touch you back the same way.
When you passionately kiss my lips,
You tongue exploring my mouth with reckless abandon.
I cannot help but kiss you back with the same fervor and excitement.
You have touched my heart with your love,
Beyond anything, I ever thought possible.
And I cannot help but love you back just as complete.
You have opened my heart with your kindness,
Something no one else has ever been able to accomplish.
And I can’t help but let you see all the good and bad.
You have knocked down the walls around my heart,
Even the ones I thought were too strong to come down, even for you.
And I can’t help but let them come crashing down.
When I feel your body next to, mine,
I get a powerful wave of arousal that sets me on fire.
And I can’t help but get as close as I can get.
When you softly caress my face,
With that long look of adoration, that says I'm yours for good,
I can’t help but get lost in the sensations you create
When you start a fire in my soul,
Which lets face doesn't take much when it comes to you,
I can’t help but let it burn until it's out of control and I need release.
Your love has enveloped me in joy,
Not to mention a happiness that I never even knew existed
And I can’t help love you more and more every day.
Your gentleness has broken down every barrier I ever had,
And I know it took extraordinary patience to get through them
And I can’t help but powerlessly stand by and watch them shatter.
Your love has given me a strength I never had the courage to possess
And the conviction to posses that strength that I didn't have before.
And I can’t help but become a better, stronger person everyday.
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April Woods Poem
Swaying with the music unheard,
With out knowing you're giving the game away.
You Struggle with the turmoil that rolls in the pit of your stomach.
Look into the creature’s eye; he is hiding from the demons there.
Hiding from the rest, afraid of the cruelties they inflict.
Unintentionally you're giving the game away.
The darkness scares you like nothing else.
The pitch is too deep, unable to see your hand in front of your face.
The noise is unearthly, like nothing you have heard, cacophonous.
So you hum the music unheard, the melody still plays in your head
Innocently you're giving the game away.
Your fear overwhelms you, and you turn to go back.
By now the dark is so think, you can't tell which way is out.
Prickly sensations up and down your arms, bugs crawling on you.
Crawling on the floor you're moving again luckily you find the exit
In your ignorance, you have completely given the game away.
Ohh, so sorry, game over, you lose better luck another time.
Next time bring a flashlight and maybe some headphones too.
Maybe then you wont be giving the game away.
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April Woods Poem
My deepest inner pinings thrown away.
You didn't care about them.
You said mean words that made me cry.
While you stood there and laughed like you just made a funny joke.
I couldn't see what you found so funny.
I am unloved and alone, less cared about than before.
Horrible migraines pound my head relentlessly.
The stress and pressure squeeze in from all sides.
Emotional knives thrown like daggers to my chest.
Trying to pierce the wall of solid ice clamped around my heart.
Icy fingertips that massage the pulse.
Forcing life into a freezing organ, unwilling to work on it’s own.
Blind to the lights, something doesn’t feel right.
My cries for help go unnoticed, get carried away by the fright.
Hidden from the night, I'm scared of the dark.
Shocked by new revelations.
Sadly, I am comforted by an old, familiar pain.
Dull now, after to many years of torment.
Take it away and I would only be a shell, lost in the cold.
Alone in my nightmare, I can almost forgot, it isn't a nightmare,
Just my life…
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The hurt builds inside, with no way to get free from within.
It’s havoc safely locked away, unable to wreak the divine chaos it so desires To spread like poison amongst cravings of unbridled fury.
To inflict on the soul that ignited this bitterness still left unspoken,
Screaming on the inside, paint on my smile, and look happy for the camera.
Why is it my heart cannot abide the counsel of my mind?
I would not have this anger and thirst for destruction dwelling on my mind.
The shattered glass has fallen in shards by my feet,
The leftover pieces of an emotion that doesn't fascinate me like it did before.
Always dancing out of my grasp, tempting me to seize what I cannot.
The illusions of my mind, the ones where I was loved, and I was happy,
Begin to disintegrate around me, flour and water mix, then become a paste.
One small, with its fiction and fantasies, it weaves a giant web of deceit.
I tried so hard to make them see that love has a cruel cycle it follows,
Demanding devotion, with it's array of charms and sober unrealities.
Impacts are worse on the naïve; truth becomes a chaos loosed in their souls.
The fright, shock leaves me standing alone not knowing where or who I am.
Bewildered, I wonder why I took this chance at potential annihilation,
The fabrication of my life filled with the wreckage of my self-destruction,
My downfall closing in quickly, I can taste defeat, like bile in my mouth
The flavor burns as it fills my mouth, I spit, foul though it may be,
I have unwillingly endured exposure to harsh realities, I can take no more.
Seclusion begins to soften my still raw emotions so I examine them up close.
Barriers stand on end, like a firewall, made of unyielding rocks and stones.
This time it will take more than charm and whit to break them down.
No big bad wolf to blow down my walls, strong in their assembly,
My refuge is sturdy, well built and formidable, and that is the way I need it.
Once again, I have restored my sanity, if only for the moment, and for now,
I will watch the daily lives of those around me, unable to participate, again.
One day I will rejoin the world, but for now I will stay behind my walls,
I will watch from afar and dream of the time I was on the outside,
Even if only for a moment in time, I was there and I tasted the air out there.
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He left, with his cold eyes unseeing,
He sauntered and strutted around the room,
A victorious winner in his deceitful game,
He suffered no defeat, no marks to show my pain.
It's like a vicious cycle, set on replay,
I meet a guy, who I think I can trust,
Then just like the rest, he stomps on my heart and walks away.
I have a penchant for choosing really wrong men.
Or does the problem actually reside only with me?
Like a moth to a flame, dawn to his fire,
I am lured by the danger that exudes from his core.
They radiant an irresistible charm,
Just the slightest hint of menace and uncertainty,
That mingles with a false sense of security.
I am drawn in by his seduction,
Unaware of the ruin I will soon face,
At the hands of man who delights in the anguish,
And cherishes the onslaught of fresh agony,
Contorting my features, my eyes sparkling,
Unheeded tears silently burn a path down my cheek.
His smile is eerie, and inhuman, as he turns to finally leave,
Confident in his triumph, he is well satisfied,
Another heart he succeeded in crushing.
Now it is on to his nest victim and prey,
His sport he will play, on another poor unfortunate soul.
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April Woods Poem
I love him,
Yet I know I can never reach
Beyond the wall he uses to hide his heart.
I hate him,
Yet, I know it is only his rejection,
That makes my bitter heart say things I do not mean.
I need him,
Yet, I know he will never have the need to
Reach for the arms that long to hold him close.
I want him,
Yet, I know that his pride will never allow him
To want that which I offer up freely to him.
I yearn for him,
Yet, I know he will never be able yearn for me,
Not in the way that my heart craves to be desired.
I love him,
Yet, I know he will never be able to return,
The aching love that I crave to share with only him.
I crave him,
Yet, I know he will never be able to crave me
Because he does not even know that, my love and I exist.
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April Woods Poem
I can still feel the day you pulled away from my heart,
you broke it into two halves that could not form a whole.
You took my lifeblood when you vanished from my life.
Draining my body until there was not one drop remaining
All my emotions I have spent, trying to figure out what I might have done that was so wrong to make you leave.
Wasted them crying over you, how could I be that stupid?.
From here on out I am free of your emotional stranglehold..
As of now you no longer own me or my spent emotions.
You broke my heart once ,and that’s all you get.
There wont be a second chance reconciliation.
I shed a tear for you no more, mine eyes cold and dry.
I allow the sun to fall on my soul and heal the damages.
I bare my hurts to the world, vulnerable and naked.
Asking for the vigor to live in a world I don't understand.
There will be no one around, to bring me down again.
And there will be no one who will be as free as me.
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April Woods Poem
How do you tell your friend that after years of friendship you have suddenly realized that you are in love with them?
How do you love that friend, knowing you have no chance?
How do you tell your self that the love you feel isn't real?
How do you tell yourself that your love can't be revealed?
A friend so close that acting on your feelings would be it?
But what do you do with feelings that linger on your mind?
Hold on to your feelings, nurture them and let them grow.
For a best friends love is the strongest you'll ever have.
And maybe one day, they'll get that you're the one for them.
Just like you knew so very long ago.
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