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Kimberly Carlson Poem
They say that love is kind
That love is pure and hard to find
Well its true
I thought i found my lover
But now im not sure
He treats me like a women should
and yet there’s something that tells me to leave
is it my heart telling me not to trust
Or is it my heart
They say Love is happy
That Love is not self-seeking
but i don't know what to think
I think I love him
but it seems as if he's changed
is it wrong to feel the way i do
to still have my doubts
though the ring around my finger
bounds me to him
I fear that what they say is just a bunch of lies
i see it in his eyes
he's hiding something from me
they say Love is trusting
well so far i have
and yet for so many nights i wonder
did i make the right chose
I do love him
for my heart stops when he’s not around
and yet the though of death
it seems so nice
confusion hurts
it really is like a shinning knife
that cuts so deep and yet i contunie to think of it
Im not really sure what love is
i just know that love should never hurt they it is
so to my lover i say again I love you
But in my head all I say is i should have known better
Copyright © Kimberly Carlson | Year Posted 2008
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
Day by day I think of him
I see him in the morning
I see him in the night
I even see him in my dreams
What can I do?
Day by day I ask this question
And every time I just sit and doing nothing
Confusing thoughts
To keep him close
Or push away
The ring upon my finger holds me close
And yet my heart is pushing away
Not sure what do
Is this the love I’ve dreamed of?
Or could this just be an illusion
A way to forget the pain
Who really knows?
Sure not me
Could there be some one, something to tell me
Is there a book on love?
No, of course not that would make life easy
If life was easy it would be boring
Who knows, the way I see it we live in trial and error
The only way it seems to work
I really don't know how I feel
I think I love him
But I'm not sure if its love or just a want to belong
Who knows?
Yet day by day my heart breaks more
The pain of the world and the hate in every day life tears it more
The world full of fear and hate
Everyone afraid to get close to someone
Windings up alone in fear of getting hurt
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
My love for you I hold true
my feeling lost or confused
Not sure which one to hear
My thoughts so dark
My mind full of doubt
My heart covered my walls once more
For them to fall I must fall
Let all defenses fail
Let my heart protect it's self
To see my self looking at you
Only confusion fills my mind
My heart and soul
They bleed pain
Confusion, Hate
I fear my self and my heart
My mind does not even know
What is possible
If I show the world my love
They'll turn in despair
My only hope no is to run
Run form those like you
Of whom I Love
My heart is lost
No help for me
Only pain
Confusion takes over
No more free will
Overprotected by my heart
What else to think
But no love for me
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
In life you have to have faith and hope.
If you don’t have faith in your self and in others you wont go far.
Life is also about trust.
If you trust your self and others you have faith, and if you have faith you have hope.
Everyone should have hope, maybe for them selves or for others.
Caring for others gives others hope.
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
There is no reason for your love
When all I do is Cause you pain
You said you turned a new leaf
But, I fear not even that can stop the pain
I want to end your pain
But to do that
I must say Good Bye
I ask myself if that's the right thing to do,
Now my only answer is No
It's what my heart tells me to do
And it truly does not want to hurt you
I don't know what more to say
Only you deserve more
More then I can give
More then I take
It's the only way to make the pain stop
I truly regret ever having to say whets on my mind
For when I do it's always a bad time
With just one word I can hurt you more
For now I must say Good Bye
Till another day
Know Now I Do Not Know the True Meaning of Love
Only Pain
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
So much goes through my mind
From death, love to hate and pain.
Not sure if it's all about me
Or if it's just simply the way i see it
I can't help but think of the past.
All the heartbreaks, all the family issues
That I’ve had in the past.
I don't know what to do or how to act
With my Father never there and stuck with mom
Always disappointing the family with all of my problems
Having disabilities that interfere with my life
Been going to therapy since I was three
Now I’m older, and yet still have problems
I have a dad that's always there and doesn't act like a jackass
My life doesn't seem as hard
Though it is, and now I’m in high school
The hard times have just begun
Yet from all the hard things I’ve faced in life
They only make me stronger
No pain ever hurts me for I’ve felt it all
From feeling worthless and good for nothing
To being heartbroken and out of place
Lost and unforgiving
To hate and love
And pain and pleasure
I felt it all
But what now?
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
Once again I’m lost and I don’t know what I want. You broke up with me because
I was asking questions. I knew about her but you said nothing. You knew it was
wrong to ask me out when you already had a girlfriend, but you did it anyways.
Right now I feel as if I can’
trust any guy ever again. You said you were sorry, but you don’t mean it because
you knew it was wrong. But it don’t matter I’m moving on. On to who I don’t know
yet, but you or my feelings for you wont hold me back. You may lie, and cheat but
not every guy is like that. Some day I’ll prove it, but until then it’s your loss not
mine.
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
You showed me the path of happiness and you showed me how it feels to be
loved.
Before you I never knew how it felt to be truly loved and now I do.
The wall that once protected me heart from pain and heart break is gone.
You took it down for me.
You showed me its okay to love and too beloved and that’s its okay to let people
into your heart.
I can’t tell you how much you mean to me
Just that you mean the world to me
And I hope I mean the world to you too.
I would do anything to keep you happy because when you’re happy I’m happy.
I cheer you up and you cheer me up
Together we keep each other happy
The way it’s meant to be
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
The world so sad
The hate so strong
The feelings you bring are full of pain
The pain of hate yet full of love
The love to hate you
The pain to remember you
The confusing thoughts I have
Once found and yet lost again
The dreams I lost
The pain and hate I gained
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Kimberly Carlson Poem
What I thought was love
Only became more heart ache
The ring I waited to wear
A symbol of what could have been
Could it be im foolish, and undeserving?
If only I knew
Right now im down to nothing
Does he still love me, or did I fail him
I don't know
I've tried to be strong, I've tired to trust,
And once again I’ve been hurt
He told me he was different
But I should have known better
They’re all the same, and they don't seem to care
I've tried making it work
But now I just feel like giving up
My heart is pounding, and it hurts
My thoughts are racing saying
"Give up", "No stay"
I'm so confused
And it hurts so bad,
I want to put my pain to an end
But I don't know how
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