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Joseph Awante Poem
And at the day's end
When I'm feeling tired
And I'm all alone
And when my head speaks
And my heart churns
The battle rages on
And I've got God sitting
And his counterpart
On one shoulder each
And they're voicing it
What they've come to say
What they've come to teach
"See it's your fault
You don't pray enough
Where's your time with me
I see you over there
Chasing after her
Who are you trying to please
And can you blame this all
The guilt you feel right now
On anyone but you
You're writing poetry
Instead of reading with me
My time's overdue
You don't trust in me
I'm growing tired now
Of these empty games
Your mind's wandering
You're a lazy one
After selfish gains"
Yes you're right of course
On every account it's true
Your shoulder has grown cold
And yes I am 19
But now I must confess
I'm feeling pretty old
Because I'm recognizing
That they way I feel
Is from a battle that's real
And every now and then
I get a burst of fire
And it makes me feel
Leaf by Niggle
Tree grows bigger
Heart goes deeper still
And now I'm breathing heavy
Staring at the lies
Staring death in the face
And accusations flow
"You'll never really live
You're only just a fake"
But excuse me Vile
Every misspoke word
Every blunder and gall
Every terrible night
Every walk away
Every stumble and fall
Every unkept promise
Every broken heart
Every guilt and shame
Was striped upon his back
Slammed into his brain
And that day sin was slain
And I have no clue
Why he chooses to call
Me beloved son
But I'm made new
And here's more good news
The battle's already won
Furthermore I do count
I am set apart
I am only his
Look at his hands
Look at his side
They scream out to prove it
And he held the stone
To end my own life
Firmly in his hand
Yet look at the Script
I am not condemned
It's written in the sand
And with that it ends
When I'm feeling tired
And I'm all alone
When my heart speaks
And I hear you say
"Son I've been here all along"
Copyright © Joseph Awante | Year Posted 2015
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Joseph Awante Poem
Your ghost in me do I sometimes perceive
A gentle phantom, heartbeat violently
For through my eyes do you see what I see
And through reflections find yourself as me
A childish image upheld all the while
Defying laws of nature and the mile
Your presence in the journey as a trial
Your ghost in me does me sometimes beguile
Residing in it all you are not missed
My heart contends the paradox it is
Your ghost in me do I often dismiss
Yet often are you found on premises
I fix my eyes to that which is refined
Your ghost in me have I learned to resign
Copyright © Joseph Awante | Year Posted 2015
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Joseph Awante Poem
A calculated click
Falls from the cold bike chain
To bounce off the ground
And land in the ear
A bright polygon blurs by
The bike just blew a year
Smooth click, gear shift
See a man made something new
There passes another one
An orange diamond
Don’t hit! don’t hit!
The fine parallels the speed
The clock ticks as the gears shift
Years melt into oncoming traffic
They wed and conceive a newborn
A child birthed yesterday named Tomorrow
The beauty of dynamics
Streak the child’s hair
A symphony of calculated clicks
From the score of the Great Composer
The traffic obeys a brief respite
The newborn falls into nap
Steal a quick breath: breathe in! breathe out!
Glance over the shoulder behind
Inspection during suspension reveals much
Introspection reveals even more
The bike weaves through growth and change
As Tomorrow faithfully awakes
Copyright © Joseph Awante | Year Posted 2015
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I half expect to hear my dog
Come clomping down the stairs
As I sit on fresh, new carpet
Not the same of former years
The basement’s cool; it always is
Its walls the brightest white
But there will be no dog today
I fear she’s left this life
The movie ends, my parents leave
I continue to wash clothes
Up the stairs I walk and stop
To think in my repose:
In my brother’s room is a box
A wooden crate long forgotten
It resides on his closet floor
Retired from its purpose of upholding the box television
We used as kids to play video games
My brother, who would sneak downstairs
To catch a midnight moment on computer games
My brother, who would sneak out at night
To pursue his romantic interests
My brother, who grabbed me by the hand
And dunked me by the Father, Son, and Spirit…
My brother has moved away
And his is not the only marriage
They are popping up left and right
All around in all four seasons
As boys grow into men
And here I am, heart full of turmoil
As I sit in the spot the Christmas tree resides
As it has for 18 years
As it does on every year
When Christmas rolls around
But its summer now and my days are long
And my time at home is short
To get good grades
And win a heart
Is the desire of every student
I’m leaving, too, severing all ties
Thinking of the graduation caps blooming with balloons
All saying equivalently “Adventure is out there”
And my next step is forward
But my heart screams “Backward”
But I, too, am moving away
Copyright © Joseph Awante | Year Posted 2017
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