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Tracy Martino Poem
Missed Flight
I hated my life
I hated me.
My life was cherished
IT hated me.
IT held no value
IT held no worth.
IT simply decided to leave this Earth.
IT held the knife
IT loved what IT felt.
This wouldn't work
IT got a belt.
High on pills
mixed with booze.
IT could hang Itself
and would not lose.
There IT stood
My belt hooked tight.
IT stepped off the stool
IT began it's flight.
IT jerked and IT struggled
not wanting to die.
The tight belt broke
IT did not fly.
The belt did break and I was set free.
It was a higher Being, it was not me.
Now I am wasted and very scared
Not believing what happened
Just glad MY life was spared.
Copyright © Tracy Martino | Year Posted 2015
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I finally found me
Your words once cut me like a knife so deep.
Hours I'd cry and could not sleep.
The guilt,
it did riddle me.
I would feel so bad.
My sorry's ignored.
This made me so sad.
The weeks would go by and never a call.
The blame they would cast,
I would take it all.
All my self worth,
it did take a dive.
My inner soul was no longer alive.
My self respect?
That was a joke.
I was totally gone.
A soul broke.
My build up of pain I earned to release.
My anger consumed me, I became a beast.
Never being right and always wrong,
this made me weak, it made them strong.
The day it come
I could not ignore
I snapped and I screamed.
I could take no more.
I broke myself free from your chains so strong.
You are no longer right.
I am no longer wrong.
What you did was wrong.
What you did was mean.
Because of this is why I did scream.
You no longer own me.
I finally am free.
From here on out, I will always be me.
Copyright © Tracy Martino | Year Posted 2015
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Me, My soul and I
I am starting to cleanse.
I am cleaning my soul.
It's filling with love, it's no longer a hole.
The dark and the dim,
they are starting to lift.
Little by little my anger will sift.
Through my eyes it is light I am starting to see.
That light is happiness.
I think it is me.
A gentle smile finds my face.
I feel I am worthy, not just taking up space.
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Handed my Life
In the middle of the universe-here I stand.
All by myself.
My new life in hand.
I am no longer yours.
I am finally free.
Cut from your control.
I am finally ME.
You never did like me.
You never did care.
You beat me down.
My soul you would tare.
Starting to heal and seeing the light
I want to smile and longer fight.
I enjoy feeling love and no longer hate.
A much different feeling, a much different state.
In the middle of the universe-here I stand.
Now embracing my life I clench in my hand.
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Breath of Love
My life held no meaning.
Hating what I'd see.
I didn't love myself.
I hated me.
I didn't see the good-I only saw the bad.
My deep routed hate was all that I had.
"Please take my life"
I'd scream in my head.
Just end all the pain.
Just leave me for dead.
You treated me bad-you were very unkind.
But because of you, it'd be me I would find.
The cloud has lifted and no longer above.
I have discovered ME-I discovered love.
I now love myself and always will.
My soul is healing-no longer ill.
A breath of love now fills the air.
For it is ME that I will forever care.
My heart still aches-which normally does.
But I will never return to what once was.
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Silence I heard
You came at me fierce
You came at me strong.
I thought I was good but you made me feel wrong.
I would feel your wrath
didn't know what I did.
You ordered me still
I wish I were hid.
My arms, they curled over my head.
Feeling your wrath
I wished I were dead.
My hair it was pulled.
It came out in clumps.
From your tightly clenched fists
they left all but bumps.
My body left throbbing and hurting inside.
I took all the blame.
To my room I would hide.
There I would cry and wanting so bad
to feel your love, not wanting you mad.
I'd beg you to come and open your door.
All you did was ignore.
You shut me out and loved no more.
Your door
it stayed closed
you'd say not a word.
"I hate you" "I hate you"
was all that I heard.
Copyright © Tracy Martino | Year Posted 2015
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