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Frieda Shaanika Poem
If I should leave this world please don’t cry for me, for I have gone to a better place
Which I’m sure is nothing compared to what I see here every day
If u knew what it took just to get through each day of my life you would let me go in peace!
Others hear of pain while I got to live with it till my last breath
Pain I felt so deep in my heart that no one could sense
Others laughed! I wept!
Others lived for the moment! I lived for a hopeful tomorrow
While others slept peacefully at night, I wondered how I will over come tomorrow
Sorrow took over me and no one could even see that
I almost resent the day I was born but then again I was told we are all here for a purpose,
Well mine seem to be misery this point in time!
So please if I should leave this place don’t cry, coz it will only make me mad where ever I will be.
Don’t judge me for whatever actions I have taken for you know nothing about my life at all
Yes you knew my name; you knew I was your relative, you knew what I liked to eat,
But believe me you know nothing about me all maybe you never took the time to know me.
Even when I went half-crazy you still could not see!
My cry was lauder then my laughter but you only chose to hear my laughter
You chose to see only my strengths but not my weakness!
I cried so loud but still no one could hear me!
You knew I was devastated but you blushed it off! You wanted me to act normal but deep down you knew there was a possibility is that I wasn’t. You got irritated when I was down or upset
So when I’m gone please don’t cry, rather pray for my soul to go in peace and be free at last, for my sins to be forgiven and to make it to the heavenly place that we are all promised
For I know that you are ok, there is no need for you to cry all is well for you and that’s all that matter.
My heart is filled with love for those closest to me and I believed in family with all my being.
Yes in my own way I was very strong to have put up with life for so long even when it crushed before my eyes a long time ago.
Most people want to be remembered long after they have gone,
Well as for me I wish to be forgotten and never missed by anyone on this place
For all I’m taking with me is pain and misery, which I would rather prefer to, leave behind with the rest of you.
I will not ask for you to take care of whatever I have left behind for I know that will be too much to ask and I know all will be well.
Copyright © Frieda Shaanika | Year Posted 2013
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