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Barbara Villegas Poem
I wait to her your voice for two seconds
Weeks goby and I don't hear from you
I cant tell you why I worry so much
I just want to hold you and kiss you
The ultimate goal is for you to know to feel wanted by me
And you that you will only have that feeling with me truly
I love you more and more every day every second
My heart longs for you
I will show you im different
I am good
I will be there for the good the not so great and the awesome
Im your girl today tomorrow and always
Do you feel the same way?
Even if you don't I will still love you because your great
I want that connection that everyone wants I want that security
That bond that no one or nothing can break even if its tipped off the edge of a cliff slowly falling
It will still not break
I will never quit on you
Please give me hope because you give me everything that my heart feels at every second
I need you I need to hold you and cry out my fears
Is there something here for you?
I cant feel you so go ahead and tell me what you need?
I love you with everything I have to offer
Copyright © Barbara Villegas | Year Posted 2013
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Barbara Villegas Poem
My Roses
I love roses for they are so beautiful
At a wee time I was a rose
I have a rose that always blooms
I have two as a matter of fact
They are my world never dies in my heart never abandons me
I couldn't live without them for they are my roses
Her smile could light up the world if it ever crashed
In my moms heart there would be no hurt no poverty nothing that goes on in this world
She always protected me always shielded away which I grew to love
I would want my wee rose to see that as well
For my roses will always bloom in my heart in my mind in my soul they will never abandon
They will stay with my spirit and we will be three roses that always will bloom
Every season every second of the day and night
Copyright © Barbara Villegas | Year Posted 2013
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Barbara Villegas Poem
Distorted
My face is distorted
Is my real face even showing?
I don't know if I'm experiencing my true feelings
My love is true is yours?
I demand you and you shut the door in my face repeatedly
We have many years together and yet we have nothing
Our children see the real you
The real person I have seen since day one
I can't believe you let your love for society get in the way of my innocents
How dare you?
I have to be everything to them and it's not fair to them
They will grow up knowing I was the only consistency in their wee lives
Where is the outline for me?
Do you hear my screams? What about the silent ones?
I go without so much because my wee little ones need more than I
What do you go without?
I look in the mirror at myself
Who is looking back at me?
Is this really me? Is this really my life?
I stood by you through so much
The things you did the things you said to me
You have hurt me like no other has and yet I'm still here are you?
Emotionally I'm not here, My heart stays here, But I can't figure out where my mind is
Or where it all belongs?
I'm so torn, so broken, so numb
I guess I'm just going to be distorted for the rest of my time with you
I promised I would love you through everything and I have but where is the outline?
I don't see the real me and haven't in a long time thanks to you
I don't even do my hobbies anymore I just sit and watch the world as I call life pass by
Why do you want our wee little innocents to see this? what would posses you to?
If I broke my promise would I be submitted to the pits for enternity?
I gained so much and yet I lost more much
You hurt me with life itself and nothing but fear
Can you honestly tell me what have you lost you entire life?
It feels like a band-aid that I just can't take off no matter how I rip it off
Do I wear a mask over me? Does anyone see the real me anymore?
I hurt so much with you but yet I loved you for so long
I can't accept your I'm sorry pity excuses anymore
Is my face nothing to you? Does it mean nothing to you?
My heart feels so much anger, depression, emotions of not being wanted
Do you or have you ever felt this way?
I don't know what to believe in anymore
I feel like paper and I'm being torn into a million pieces
Or what if you are putting me through a paper shredder?
Is the real me even showing?
I'm distorted
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Barbara Villegas Poem
Is this what they call love?
My heart flutters when I hear your voice
My butterflies tell me I love you
MY heart tells me to not dare say it
My every being tells me not to let you go
I wait every night for two second just to say good night
I go to sleep anxious to tell you good morning
I try to tell you I love you but when I open my mouth
I have no words to say anything
I want to be with you every waking moment
I guess this is what they call love true love
My love is true and innocent as a virgin
My heart flutters when you speak for only two seconds
The butterflies never go away
My heart is screaming at me do not say it
I want to be there for you in every way
Waking up seeing the sun hit your face
If I didn't know better I would think I would be standing in the universe
Watching all the light illuminate off of you
So beautiful so gorgous so everything to me
When I truly love you I mean it baby
Please let me show you what love is
Copyright © Barbara Villegas | Year Posted 2013
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Barbara Villegas Poem
Mistaken
I looked into your eyes and knew I would love you but I couldn't have you
I was just all to mistaken so I sit in my pain in my frustration
You become a part of me you will be my everything until I die and even then
You are the air I breathe
Yet I feel abandoned by you
I will always have a fear to love you to touch you to be close
As my tears roll down my cheeks I realize I'm became a part of you
I can't separate myself from what I've done to you
I have these dreams these fantasies of what it would be like to have you close
Was I mistaken to love you for these years? Why couldn't I say something?
I always froze when I was next to you. I need to break away from this tonight
I ask myself is this time apart going to work out for us? I'm the one confused
I say things and don't realize how they hurt and somewhat don't care
You hurt me and somewhat I want to hurt you
Was I mistaken? Is this a dream? Is this real? Is this just some cruel fantasy?
Do I trust you? Or will you collect dust behind me in my shadow?
Do I throw this away? I don't think I will trust myself with you
Im trying not to let myself break but its so hard everything is taking so much from me
its suffocating
I wont waste myself on you ever you took so much from me when you just left
I think I was mistaken when I found myself longing for you
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