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Michelle Bailey Poem
They fought for a country, they fought for peace
But in 2012 the gunfire still does not cease
Being no more than a young lad
To sign up to fight they did so and was glad
No fear of what may come, no fear of the unknown
But some feared that dreaded knock at home
They put down their life, a battle they had to endure
They gave their life for me when they went to war
No time to be selfish for a task was at hand
They done their best to defend our land
I don't think I could be as brave as they are
They took up the role, not for the pound, cent or dollar
For queen and country, for the sake of mankind
They said goodbye to their loved ones and left them behind
All we have now are poppies and many unmarked graves
Many are the names and many have been saved
Who knows what would be if they didn't take up the fight
Yet still in Iran there's gunfire at night
A war is ongoing and will it ever end
How many more troops are we going to send
We have some of our 'boys' who think they are men
But to fight for their country they'd think again
I cannot repay you for your act of kindness shown
Goodnight, God bless until you return home
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Michelle Bailey Poem
I sat on the bench and the tears began to flow
Knowing that was only one place I needed to go
But for some strange reason my feet wouldn't walk
And at the same time my mouth couldn't talk
I desperately wanted to get to that place
But I was blinded by my tears that covered my face
I knew if I got there then everything would be ok
At the same time worried I wouldn't know what to say
What would people think, would they judge me
Those were the thoughts in my mind I could see
I visualised the result and the difference it made
Yet I was still struggling behind my façade
I felt so dirty, ashamed and very unworthy
How could He possibly love someone like me?
These were all the thoughts going around and around
Knowing at that place the answer will be found
I struggled and wrestled to move my feet
Unsurprisingly I still remained in my seat
I could feel body heart beating faster than it should
Reminding myself that I’m worthless and no good
Yet the desire was there, the urgency so strong
Could I really go to that place knowing I’d done wrong?
I was scared that I’d be judged and be called a hypocrite
So instead on that bench I did remain there and sit
I knew I should go; there was no doubt in my mind
Surely if someone went before me, I could follow behind
He spoke again with sincerity in his voice
Why was it so hard for me to make this choice
The call was coming to an end and I felt myself falter
Why am I hindering myself from going to the altar?
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Michelle Bailey Poem
I was blinded by love but can now begin to see
that you are not all that I thought you to be
As I look closer through my looking glass
I can now see all the graces that you lack
You open your mouth and its pure trash
I'm not sure which poor soul you are about to thrash
I try to really find some of your good qualities
In the hope that i will have to give you an apology
They say don't judge a book by its cover
As your cover and contents portray another
But even then I find it hard to dislike you
Perhaps I don't want to think these things are true
You walk so gracefully and appear so meek
But then your true self appears the moment you speak
I'm not quite sure what it is that makes you stand apart
And why I allow you to control the beating of my heart
I know you're not what I thought you to be
But I still admire you endlessly
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Michelle Bailey Poem
I can remember hubba bubba and the black jack
I remember when songs never sounded slack
I remember when kids were just exactly that
And there was nothing wrong in being a bit fat
I remember the computer was for just playing games
But in today's millennium it just ain't the same
I remember when kids used to have manners for folks
But now it's seems parents roles have been revoked
I remember when childhood meant just that very thing
And there was no living in sin... On our hand was a ring
I remember when chips probably cost 50p
But now to buy fish and chips its a rarity
I remember how as kids we would spend time and play
But nowadays they're locked away on the ps3 all day
I remember on a Saturday we had to wash clothes by hand
Something the kids of today don't understand
I remember a time petrol was less than a pound
But in 2012 I have to travel on the wheels on the bus that go round and round
I can remember a time when we worked hard to support ourselves
Nowadays though it seems we can help ourselves from shop shelves
I remember a time when we cared for the old
But now some of them cannot keep warm in the cold
I remember a time when things were good
I'm walking in footsteps where perhaps you should
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Michelle Bailey Poem
Back in my day shell suits were the latest fashion
And I made sure I wore my diamond socks with a passion
The only sky I knew was the one up above my head
No dvd player, just a betamax had to do instead
The only laptop I knew was the tray my dinner was served in
No sat nat to direct us, just maps and a lot of guessing
My social network involved playing outdoors with my friends
If I had an important message there was no text for me to send
Instead I would simply go and knock on the door
And enjoy a good game of hopscotch, drawn neatly on the floor
If I wanted to listen to music I held my boom box to my ear
And I felt like a millionaire in my latest pair of L.A Gear
No ipod to shuffle or touch just my sony walkman
No google to look for answers, just the library to depend on
No Ipad, no playbook, just a good old storybook
It may even be in hardback if I had any luck
No freeview, no Virgin, I was lucky to even have colour tv
And a rubiks cube would suffice, never mind an XBOX 360
It was all about hammer time and wearing those pants
And the theme tune to Fraggle Rock I would happily chant
No cyber bullying, only cyber I knew was the tamagocchi pet
No loading plates into the dishwasher as it hadn't been invented yet
No cd player, my cassettes were the in thing
And to have a sovereign ring on every finger meant you had some bling
The A Team, crossroads, tiswas and happy days was the programmes I watched
No series links or reminders to watch programmes like Lost
No rewinding the tv or pausing whilst I nip to the loo
Instead I had to ask someone and hope that they have a clue
No Adidas for me, just my trusted bum bag
My girls world doll and scrunche's were things I just had to have
In my day the only kid I wanted was a cabbage patch kid
Not a real one so that in a hostel I can live
No PS3, no Wii, no Vita or Nintendo DS 3d
Just my good old NES on my four channel tv
Care bears, the moomins, playschool and dangermouse
No crimewatch to make me afraid to be in my house
In my days if I was rude I would get a good smack
And I couldn't dare say the clothes you just bought me were whack
No microwave dinners, No chinese takeaway for me
Saturday soup was the best, one big bowl balancing on your knee
The 80's and the 90's I enjoyed it while it did last
But every now and again I take a glimpse of the past
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Michelle Bailey Poem
you cry, you smile, you open your arms out wide
yet all they do is continue to cast you aside
don't let them win and take your joy away
brighten up, for tomorrows another day
you cry, you smile, you open your arms out wide
on your dreams,reality and hope you flawlessly glide
don't let them die, for you can achieve anything
just take your desires to the air on eagles wings
in the distance of reality and in the distance of time
upon that tree of dreams I will continually climb
to reach that branch where my hope clings on
down to the root of despair, my misery has not gone
you cry, you smile, you open your arms out wide
can my broken heart and trust in you confide
like the bleak midwinter, and the newness of spring
like a new born lamb, my desires oh what joy it brings
you cry, you smile, you open your arms out wide
like the footprints of big foot, my aspirations glide
in this cruel world your heart stands out
beating nothing but pure love, without a shadow of a doubt
in a never ending circle the mould is yet to break
like an expectant mother in labour-how much more pain to take
over in the yonder the sun begins to rise
over in the distance my joy begins to prise
you cry, you smile, you open your arms out wide
the hatred I have for you, on a battlefield has died
like a true soldier I fought a good fight
like the kite runner, I chased after its flight
you cry, you smile, you open your arms out wide
I foolishly believed all the mutterings you lied
I shall arise out of the darkness of night
my strength will bring me into a newness of light
its over now, I've resigned to the fact
only I kept my side of our bargaining pact
I loved, I lost, I lived and I saw
all my hopes floating down life's closed door
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Michelle Bailey Poem
I’m sat here again, but unsure of why I came
Have I forgotten Jesus healed the sick and the lame?
I want to be in His presence, wanted to draw near
But unsure if my tearful prayer He will hear
Wanted to reach out and touch the hem of His garment
To hold the hand of Him who from heaven was sent
Wanted to hear Him say ‘my daughter your sins I have forgiven’
And I am He, the One who was crucified and now risen
I’m here as your Abba Father, I am here as your friend
I am He that when you’re all alone, my presence you can depend
I am He who will blot out your transgressions, I am He who truly cares
I am He that when you need a shoulder to cry on, I am there
I’m sat here again, but unsure of why I’m here
Have I forgotten that on Jesus I can draw near?
I’m sat here watching, filled with envy as I do
Just wanting to worship just as like you
But my mind is trapped, occupied on other things
Thinking of my woes as the sacred songs the people sing
I want the reason I came to manifest into reality
Oh Lord help my mind and take the focus off me
For it’s not based on my feelings, although each week I do forget
I have so much to thank you for, I cannot repay my debt
I’m sat here again, but I am sure of why I arrived
To give praise and honour to my Saviour who for me died.
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Michelle Bailey Poem
The expectations given to me I
have not met
Unlike others I can't always
forgive and forget
Like the time you said whole
heap of lies to me
And you wonder why I have an
issue with honesty
I haven't quite met up to your
dreams
But all that glitters is not as it
seems
Like the time you made me feel
so unworthy
All those times I cried out, I
suppose you never heard me
You never understand until you
experience the same
Then suddenly it becomes
acceptable-you sound so lame
Like the time when I became
lost in the crowd
But to air my concerns,
somehow it's not allowed
But lo and behold if you was to
feel lost too
You expect a fuss and to be
molly cuddled too
Like the time I explained my
true fears
Why ask if you don't like what
you hear
Like the time when you said
you're always here for me
Hello.........I'm still waiting for
your company
Maybe I'm looking at the glass
half empty
As the things said don't
manifest to be
Could I be too analytical so that
I don't understand?
Like the joker in a pack you've
dealt me your hand
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Michelle Bailey Poem
I look in your eyes and the blatant untruth
I'm not Inspector Morse or some well known detective sleuth
you probably believe what your mind is telling you
trying to make me believe you love me like you say you do
I look in your eyes and can see you don't mean what you say
your lies now blackened lie a tooth full of decay
you probably think I'm as stupid as you
but I'm a pro at spotting idiots- you just don't have a clue
being single is not an anagram for desperate without modesty
its just that I can't give myself away to any Tom, Dick and Harry
I kick you to the kerb but each time you bounce back
do I know have to get dark, do my words have to become slack
I look in your eyes and see you're trying to convince me
that you love and respect me with all sincerity
when in fact you're hoping that in a flash my undies will fall
and then you will have accomplished another booty call
I'm after true love not expensive gifts and things
if you mean what you say, then on my finger put a ring
I look in your eyes and see emptiness staring back
I've kinda guessed your a man with a one mind track
to not to get to know me or the things that I like
just for me to be another notch, another hit, another strike
I've resigned myself to the fact I no I deserve better than you
because he will really mean it when he says to me 'I do'
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The situation intensifies, I can’t get calm
The only solution is to again self-harm
Oh the joy as I imagine the first cut
Thankful for a solution to get me out of my rut
I prepare myself and the equipment I need
Like an junkie its addiction I feed
I close my door and bare my flesh
Not caring that afterwards I’ll be a bloody mess
My heart beating fast, the tears begin to pour
I’m sorry but I could not just endure any more
The glistening silver blade, not big in size
Is like a trophy, and that I won first prize
The tissues ready, so now I can begin
The first cut is superficial and thin
But the release it gives, my tears fall stronger
Knowing I won’t have to endure my pain for much longer
As I think of the hurt and as I think of my pain
Sends me slashing my legs again and again
‘You’re a stupid cow, you’re just an annoyance’
The self-harm is my only reward and comeuppance
My leg now red, I can’t even see the cuts I’ve made
The power of self-harm over my mind it did invade
I pick up my tissue and start to clean up my work of art
Knowing the whole process soon will again re-start
My arms tell the stories of the scars that I now bear
My tears tell of my pain when you think there’s none there
But then after a while the razor becomes a useless metal
Surely I’d get more relief from my iron or boiling water from my kettle
I start to smile when I think of my flesh beginning to singe
And that no longer will you have to hear me whinge
For I will have found a new friend who will always be around
In the midnight hour the shiny sharp metal can be found
And in the twinkling of an eye, my flesh will become bare
And with each cut to the skin, I say goodbye to every care
If you have troubles and the problem you feel you cannot mend
Then please let me introduce you to my grey shiny silver best friend
2 September 2014
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