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No one knows- Am I the "freak" they talk about? (Yes)
No one cares- "You're nobody and no one likes you." (I know)
And no one tries- "I don't want to hear anything you have to say!" (Fine)
To see what's inside- The pain; the emotional and physical pain (It feels so wonderful)
They see the cuts- My beatiful artwork (This is never going to end)
They see the bruises- All from you... Green, Blue, Black! (What did I do wrong?)
They see the tears in my eyes- "You're so pitiful! Stop crying!" (I can't control them)
But no one ask why- Because no one cares (I'm alone indside)
They read my writings- "What's wrong with you?" (Nothing)
They think I need help- "Are you suicidal? (I plead the fifth)
They think I'm insane- "You're going to the hospital!" (Screw You!)
But then again... Maybe I am (No, I'm just dead inside)
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The rampage..
Yell and scream… She’s angry
Hang up the phone… I’m history
Stop taking my meds… Freak out! I’m going to go insane
Fail a class in school… I can kiss college good-bye
Paint my nail black, wear dark make-up… I’m gothic
Believe the Bible is man made… I’m going to hell
The rampage continues on for another month…
Don’t call home… I want no part of them
Write how I feel… I’m depressed, useless, not good enough
Cry… I’m immature and weak
Laugh… Are you on drugs?
Be polite… What do you want from me now?
I’m alive… now I’m dead
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You’ve beaten me to the bone
You tell me that no one can hear my cries
Not even God himself
And as you’re pretending that my thought don’t bother you
I am still standing
And I am standing strong
Don’t you know that my thoughts are all about you?
Revenge is on my side
and you will get what you deserve
You can continue to beat me to the bone
But I will still be standing
I will be standing strong
No matter what you say to me
No matter how hard you beat me
I will not give in and please you by tears falling from my face
I will not move away from you and I will take the beating like a soldier
I will be standing
And I will be standing strong
And soon you will regret that you ever messed with me
Because I will still be standing no matter what you do or say to me
Because I AM STILL STANDING
AND I AM STANDING STRONGER THAN EVER
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Mommy, Daddy
I'm sitting,
Waiting,
Contemplating,
While nothings changing
I'm sick of your games
Sick of your tests
If you really love me
You'll accept me the way I am
I know I'm not the greatest kid
But I do try
I love you
I miss you
I want to be back with you
Why can't you forgive me
I'm not going to ask you to forget...
I know that will never happen
You said you'll NEVER lose faith in me
You gave me a book, you said "I DO believe in you"
But I guess you were wrong
I'm sorry
I could say it in a thousand different ways
But it wouldn't matter
You're too busy
Thinking of all the pain I've caused you
Mommy, Daddy
Can't you forgive me?
The past is the past
Its been delt with
I know it hurts
I just want to be your little girl again
I want to feel loved, not just told
I love you
I miss you
I want to be back with you
Why can't you forgive me?
I've changed, so much
I'm not the person I was 5 years ago
I know my words can be cold
I know I lie
And when I do tell you the honest truth
You use it against me
You stab me in the back
I'm hurt
Can you make the pain go away?
Mommy, Daddy
I love you
I miss you
Why can't we start over?
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To the hospital once again
Back to tubes down my throat
Back to constant checks to see if I'm cutting
Back to dealing with crazy mother "luvers"
Back to being alone
Back to lying to doctors
Saying I'm fine, not hearing voices (not that they knew)
That I'm happy when I really cry myself to sleep
To the hospital once again
Visit number 21
Back to sitting in pointless groups
Back to sitting in a fake classroom setting
Back to "relaxation time"
Back to being alone
Back to Bullshitting my way till I'm aloud to leave
No smoking, no drinking, NO LIFE
To the hospital once again
Back to being all alone
Back to fakin it till I make it
Back to dying once again
Back to hinding who I am
Back to the hospital once again
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Will you love me no matter what,
Whisper "I love you" in my ears... just for me to hear,
And protect me from demons in my past?
Will you put up with my mood swings,
Wipe away an endless trail of tears,
And make me laugh and smile when I'm down?
Will you give me a kiss when your around your friends,
Hold my hand when were on a walk,
And hold me tight when I need you the most?
Will you...
Love me no matter what?
Put up with my mood swings?
And give me a kiss when your around your friends?
Will you...
Whisper "I love you" in my ears... just for me to hear,
Wipe away and endless trail of tears,
And hold my hand when were on a walk?
Will you...
Protect me from the demons in my past,
Make me laugh and smile when I'm down,
And give me a kiss when your around your friends?
Because no matter what... I always will!
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Nobody cares that a girl is beaten for disobeying her father
Nobody cares that a boy is killed for trying to break up a fight
Nobody cares that a baby is drowned for crying too much
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek
Nobody cares that a gay man is stripped of his clothes and forced to walk out in the street
Nobody cares that a transvestite is revealed of a secret in front of their friends
Nobody cares that a lesbian is forced to make a porno so her parents don’t find out
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek
Nobody cares that a girl is forced into sex, beaten when she refuses
Nobody cares that a boy is forced to clean up after his mother’s flaws
Nobody cares that a group of friends gets arrested because they look suspicious
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek
Nobody cares that a girl is beaten for disobeying her father
Nobody cares that a gay man is stripped of his clothes and forced to walk out in the street
Nobody cares that a girl is forced into sex, beaten when she refuses
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek
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Scared, Exhausted, Alone
Scared of your abuse; physically, verbally, and mentally
Exhausted from the stress
Alone; no friends, no one to listen…
A Dead Soul, Cold, Heartless
A dead soul walking this dark world
Cold to the touch
Heartless to emotions…
Degraded, Brittle, Apprehensive
Degraded by your words
Brittle to the bone
Apprehensive to the outcome
Scared of your abuse
A dead soul walking this dark world
Degraded by your words
Exhausted from the stress
Cold to the touch
Brittle to the bone
Alone; no friends, no one to listen
Heartless to emotions
Apprehensive to the outcome
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Grandparents,
They love you no matter what
They listen to what you have to say
And give you advice you never want to let go of... even if you don't always take it... You will
NEVER forget it
They tell you the greatest stories
*The best ones are when they were a kid
and got into trouble for a similar thing you did*
They spoil you even when your parents tell them not to
Hey... they don't have to deal with punishing you!
Grandparents,
Always have a new trick up their sleeve to show you
Always have a honest wonderful smile to give you
Always give the greatest hugs
You never want to let go of them
And yet, we all have to remember that we cant hug them too tight...
They are very fragile!
Grandmas always have that old scent that they always use, it makes you want to sniff them
forever, that scent is there as long as they are! And when we smell other elders with that
wonderful scent, it makes us pull toward them... and say, "Hmmm, you smell like my
Grandma!" Then feel really embarassed because they aren't sure if thats a good or bad thing!
Grandpas... their prickly cheek is always a reminder of why girls are glad we dont have facial
hair! But yet, we tease them for it, hug them again and purposefully rub our cheeks together
just to feel it once more. And their old spices that they wear, makes us want to spray it on
one specific piece of clothing and go to it when we need to feel close to them.
Grandparents,
We keep them close
They keep us closer
We love them not matter what
And they love us for all that we are
They aren't afraid to say the truth
Even if they know it may hurt
Because they always have a big smile to give you
And the pain goes away the minute we see it.
Grandparents
Seem to be all alone, but yet never are when they have a big family of unending amount of
grandkids, and great-grandkids
They seem to have so much time on their hands but never enough
We never forget to say I love you, give them a big hug and kiss
Becuase we never know when they are going to say good bye for the last time.
I LOVE YOU GRANDMA AND GRANDPA! FOREVER AND ALWAYS!
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Teenage Suicide is taking over
Its stuck in our head that its a good idea
Its stuck in our head that we wont be missed
That death is a good thing
That it will end all of our problems
That we will be free, no suffering, no regret
But its all a lie
You take your life
You leave others to suffer
To think its our fault that you are in pain
We blame, we mourn, we're in denial
Teenage suicide is taking over
You take your life to end the suffering
You shut us out, you leave us here, you kill us when you kill yourself
Death is not the way, allow people to help you,
when a hand is offered; take it
When a ear is there ready to listen; talk
When a shoulder is there to cry on; soak it with you tears
Don't let death be the only way out
Teenage suicide is taking over
Take a stand
And help end it
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