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Kym Walls Poem
You think you know me?
You have no idea.
Some days I don’t leave my room,
Trapped by sadness.
In pitch black darkness.
Wondering when the pain will cease,
Depression plagues me,
Takes over my body,
Takes over my mind,
Am I going crazy?
Or am I already there?
My illness begins to define who I am.
Sleep is the only way I can escape from my reality.
So I sleep.
Sleeping again and again.
Running away,
So far away,
That I’ve lost myself.
Unable to be the person I once was.
You think you know me?
You have no idea.
You think I’m happy.
You think I’m brave.
You think I’m confident.
You don’t know my heart bleeds sadness.
It aches for comfort.
My mind aches for clarity.
My body yearns for strength
Just to make it through the day,
I must give,
All I can give.
Everything hurts.
The world is crashing,
Down on my shoulders.
I barely feel alive,
Like I’m in a coma.
On life support,
Secretly wanting for someone to pull the plug.
I need someone to take me away.
Save me from myself.
I’m my worst enemy.
You think you know me?
You have no idea.
I smile around you.
I laugh around you.
The one who lights up the room,
The life of the party,
The one with the best sense of humor,
To you I am all of these things.
Inside I am none of them.
Inside manic depression eats away my heart,
Like a deadly virus.
It creeps into my soul.
Destroys me in every single way.
Forces me to pretend,
Pretend to be alive.
Because inside it makes me,
As dead as a corps.
You think you know me?
Well now you do.
Copyright © Kym Walls | Year Posted 2009
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Kym Walls Poem
My nights are long
My heart is numb
The tears won’t stop
Since you been gone
I see your face
In every dream
You’re still my drug
It’s for you I fiend
I’m addicted to your touch
The way you make me feel
And the love in your eyes
I know what we had was real
I left you once
I left you twice
The third time you never
Put up a fight
I know it was my fault
I’m the one to blame
I took your love for granted
And caused you so much pain
But times have changed
And I have too
I changed from the right girl
To the right woman for you
I can’t change what I
Have done in the past
But your future belongs with mine
And I know we will last
Hand in hand
Heart and heart
Together forever
We would never part
But that’s only in my fantasy
Or maybe in my dream
Because the truth is
Life is never what it seems
Now you moved on
And you’ve changed too
You say you’re happy
And you found someone new
And that someone
Treats you great
You put on a smile
But I know it’s fake
Because your real smile shows
When your with me
Remember us together
And you’ll know what I mean
I know I don’t deserve
To have you in my life
But you are my everything
So I have to fight
For a chance to be
Together again
Because without you in my life
I can’t win
I’m tired of losing
So I have to keep trying
Because missing you
Is worse than dying
Copyright © Kym Walls | Year Posted 2009
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