What could've been before,
What could've been before,
if you did not sleep with him in the same room.
What could've been before,
if you did not choose to talk at him next to the bathroom door.
What could've been before,
if you did not went in the deal and just saw money.
What could've been before,
if you didn't found that comfortable and let the truth slide easily from your lips like a chewing gum,
Following of jokes I once loved.
What could've been before,
if you did not choose to not talk to me.
What could've been before,
if time was not passing like knowing it would take just 2 days and 3 nichts.
What could've been before,
if that day I didn't stood infront of the Bus seeing him.
What could've been before,
if I didn't put my whole attention onto him.
And were ready to hear,
Because I was not.
What could've been before,
if I didn't nodd to his: ,,please don't Tell him about that"
What could've been before,
if I didn't run at home while not holding my dress even though it was windy.
What could've been before,
if you never complimented me in that dress.
Because now I sat at my bed.
Opened the Chat.
And said "I heard rumors about you..", following with tears.
But shaky fingers saying: ,,but maybe I am also wrong",
with multiple sorry's.
Then, you followed blocking me.
What could've been,
if you did not make that deal,
about my body.
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Adna Demiri
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