to this hurt
to this pain
I cannot explain
and I want
to tear my heart
and show you
that I am..
because I let them
gave each of
the sharpest scissors
hoping for curled up edges
I am unraveled
I want you to be
I ruined your
just put me
in your keepsake
with all the other
the almost maybes
me the most
fix yourself, you say
but I can’t sew
and I feel
you take my hand
I do not know?
I think of you when you're not here.
I wish each moment you were near.
I recall the good times we've been through.
I can not think any negative of you.
Will we be together when life is done,
Or will I still be the lonely one?
The dreams we had are now dead.
Life without you is a nightmare instead.
It seems to be stormy every day.
Gone is my desire on earth to stay.
How can they say, "Life goes on."
When black is all I can bear to don?
Then came the night I dreamed of us.
You told me to stop all the fuss.
You came to me and held me tight
And encouraged me, "Don't give up the fight."
I saw the answer in your brown eyes.
To give up on life is not wise.
Now I can feel you in my heart.
I know we'll never really be apart.
Through all this, you've healed me,
And I can say, "THE SUN I NOW SEE!"
Am I the only one to think
that a kite is such a sad thing?
never really free,
forever tied to a string
Yes, it can soar indeed,
so high, with the wind taking it places,
almost making it forget,
just enjoying the wind rushing through,
The wind drops,
then it gets snared
among tree branches maybe,
or perhaps stuck on a roof or elsewhere
with its string all tangled and knotted,
almost impossible to untangle
if made with paper,
it should be lucky to still be intact,
with nary a tear
more often than not,
it gets ditched in the trash,
the price to pay for
its momentary freedom
perhaps a rarity these days,
there is that boy who makes
that kite from scratch,
whittles the sticks himself,
painstakingly forming that frame,
creating that kite with love
So when it does get all tangled up,
that boy still tries so hard to fix it,
to make it new...
never minding the cuts
he gets in the process--
That string not meant to tie down
but a lifeline to the boy
But like I said,
that must be a rare thing these days...
For I am one to think
that a kite is such a sad thing...
never really free,
forever tied to a string
** There are many of you who have helped me in my journey in writing, & my heartfelt smiley thanks to all of you but I'd also like to give thank you hugs and smiles to Chris D. Aechtner ^_^ I distinctly remember asking you about Sijo, wow when was that? 2 years ago? Back then, I knew I asked the right person--& from there, you've helped bring to light (& helped me appreciate) a lot of other writing forms, just talking about those forms was a blast, just you sharing some of what you've been learning along the way (& believe me, I've learned even a thing or two! can I just say this? I bet you'd make an awesomely cool teacher :D)-- from sijo, to limericks, to sonnets, to haiku and kimo, to than-bauk to that Grook! ook! Being mainly a free-verse writer, you've helped me diversify & that means a lot to me. So a heartfelt thank you :D
oops. that wasn't a couple of lines?! lol
Sweet little girl who snuck upon her mom
without plans already in place to meet,
you’re a tiny hero, a bitter balm
for the wound that left an empty car seat.
A routine visit that ended in tears,
and an operation for the next week.
My sister’s truth was a mother’s worst fear,
never to hold her babe, to stroke her cheek.
After the grim appointment, her eyes glazed
her heart rate jumped high, and her fever raised.
Illness would have stolen her, but for fate.
You had asked a favor at heaven’s gate.
Thank you for saving my sister, sweet one.
I wish though, it didn’t mean your life was done.
It use to be me
who lit up your eyes
It use to be me
Who told you goodnight
It use to be me
Who asked you to stay
And lay here beside me
Till I drift away
But now there's another
Whose heart that you need
Who only needs grandma
To comfort his weeps
It use to be me
Now, a son that's too old
To walk with your hand
When I feel all alone
It use to be me
Who ran to your arms
Now another has comfort
Safe from all harm
From a son I am grateful
What you've given my child
But it use to be me
Who brought you a smile
So I hope he remembers
What these memories mean
That it use to be me
But time never sleeps
Kevin D. Fix
I do not know?
Crescent, Fraddle, gentle light fill's the moonlight as youre eyes glisten through mine.
Filling every fulll glowing touch, in a darkened bay, You stare into my eyes, the question why
passes youre mind once or twice. You're sitting there, drenched in what we shared, every
memory, and love you cared. You were there to pick me up, and put me back in place, Ill
never forget youre words of wisdom, and youre glowing bright face. Youre heart pumps at
the race of suicidal thoughts in time, This feeling i cant let go, its such a crime. Its a long
lasting chance to break free, and renew what we thought we could of had, this molment of
loss, this colors checkerd plaid. So many patterns and runon's through this aftermath in an
after glance that shines brighter then the stars, no matter where we are from pluto til mars.
Ill travel to the highest peak, the highest mountain my lovve, from the hell's of low, and
highest heaven above. Take into mind, that letting go willl not set us apart, but if you love
somone you set them free, because you'll always be forever in my heart.
Thank you for a good lesson,
For the times when you left me alone,
For all my sleepless nights in your house,
For the love that wasn't true,
For the smiles that never warmed me up,
For the looks that never made me stay,
For the realizing that there was nothing
To fight for.
Thank you for your promises that
You have broken in time,
For the words that were ugly,
For the comments that did hurt,
For your screamings, putting me
To work for never saying me
This simple “Thank you!”
Because I thank you.
I do not know?
Shush be calm, it’s okay I’m right here,
You’re hugging my pillow and shedding a tear
You have my memory and I feel your heart,
Always forever till death do us part.
We’ll always have Paris and the empire state building
Watching the Bulls and the yankees out fielding
But there’s nothing like kissing and the shared living touch,
and the holding of hands that we loved so much.
The smell of your perfume at the end of a day
Knowing that just before work we had shower play
Making love in the moon light the sun and the rain
The memories of beach the car and the plane
Running naked through sand dunes and chasing the sun
Naked moon bathing naming stars just for fun
It was always and only about just you and me,
And it always and shall be for eternity.
Please don’t go just yet I have something to say
Then you can let my balloon float away
I thought I knew love and knew what to do
But it all went so wrong when I met you
My wires got crossed an my thinking went wonky
My smarts all went south on a pantomime donkey
But now that I’m gone I don’t want you to worry
I don’t want you to rush to get here in a hurry
It’s all down to you now to play and explore
Before you join my photo in our sons bottom draw
Thank you for sharing your life and your love
I’ll be watching you always from the blue skies above
From the wind in your hair to the moon in your eyes
From the warmth of the sun and the sea and the skies
Feel loved and not spied on, I want your sprit to fly
I can’t live with the thought of making you cry.
I do not know?
I'm sorry for all the horrible things I have said,
I'm sorry for all the bad things I have done,
I'm glad to havve you as my best friend again,
I was sad, depressed, and desperate to hear you voice, and,
Talk to you again.
Oh Caleb, I cannot tell you,
How happy I was, happy to finally,
Talk to you after months,
You will always be my best friend no matter what,
You know that I will always be here for you,
I miss you a lot, why oh why must you live,
So far away?
Why do you live in Illinois,
Why did you leave me,
Why did you go away and not come back?
Caleb, please come back real soon, we all miss you,
But I miss you the most.
You are my best friend,
And I am here to stay.
I will never let you down,
Never put you down,
Never will I forget about you,
I will never hate you,
It is impossible,
It is impossible, because you picked,
Me up when I was down, you
Were always there for me, and you still are,
You never let me down, and you never called me names,
You Never let me be sad, and it was amazing,
To have such a good friend around,
So why, why did you move away?
I know it was for your protection,
I know you had to get out of that horrible place,
That horrible dark place,
Oh how bad I wanted to beat them for beating you,
You did not deserve that, and I hate that image,
Noone deserves to be treated that way; I don't care,
Who they are.
Caleb thank you for being my friend again,
And forgiving me, and for always being here for me,
May I ask one little favor of you?
PLEASE COME BACK??????????
Briana Lynn Palmer
Dedicated To: CAZ
THE LAST POST.............
Six soldiers bear a coffin,
Of a comrade killed in war.
The Union flag draped over him,
A hero to us all.
This soldier killed in battle,
In a conflict overseas.
A man who fought for his beliefs,
While defending you and me.
To the families of these soldiers,
Of my thanks I give to you.
The bravery that they have shown,
Such courage is shown by few.
A military burial, a volley of shots,
Then a flag lifted up from its host.
And as we lay him down to sleep,
A bugler then plays the last post.
God bless you our brave British soldier,
For this country still owes you a debt.
You gave up your life for our freedom,
This ex soldier will never forget.
.............Rest in peace...............
How brave of you to go and get enrolled
Going places where you may not want to go
Doing things that you may not want to do
Having to deal with missing your family and them missing you
How brave of you to put on your uniform everyday
Not knowing if it's your last day
Another day of doing what your commander say
Praying and hoping that you will finally go home and forever stay
How brave of you to do what we choose not to
Or what we are afraid to do
And God bless you
How brave of you to set your pride aside
And save people's lives
To put on your badge of courage for you and me;
To fight for this country
There's not a day that goes by that I don't pray for you all
For the ones who still stand, and for the ones who fall
The respect level for you all is at its all time high
For you all are still overseas and we're left without a reason explaining why
There's not a single soul who can walk in your shoes
Except for the ones who use to and and now do the same as you
There's not a single soul who will understand what you see
And know how terrifying that will always be
I can't wait until the day when this will be over and the world will be at war no more
So that you all can rest and your mind, body, and soul can be restored
Then we can all finally be happy
And once again be the family that we use to be
Dedicated to all of our soldiers who are overseas. Deeply from your families and me.
Welcome to my world,
Full of surprises and ignorance;
Just enjoy your stay,
Take time to understand me, okay?
Don't be confused with my puzzled mind,
Those mazes are just simple information;
That most of the people would question,
And sometimes it includes me.
My half-stone heart,
Sentenced, not to feel any emotions;
Opposite is the other,
Emotional, kind and soft.
If you want to come again,
Feel free anytime;
If you want to go,
That wouldn't hurt a lot.
For all who came and go,
Thank you for the trace and scars you left when you go;
It helped me to be tough,
That's why half of my heart stopped.
Thank you for killing half of me,
I'm now stronger than I used to be;
"Welcome to my world,
If you can't stand me,
Feel free to leave,
And be happy."
To those behind the badge, who have paid the ultimate price
To serve and to protect—a tremendous sacrifice
To defend and shield the blameless you presented us your all
The struggle against corruption, you answered every call
To those behind the badge, who committed to its cause
The danger and the perils never gave you the slightest pause
For the risks didn’t measure against the peace left in the wake
Of a battle against wrongdoings, your beliefs didn’t shake
To those behind the badge, for your loyalty we are grateful
Dedication to the mission—more than a job—ever faithful
Whether uniformed or not your ethics remained the same
Ever watchful for corruption, your principles sustained
To those behind the badge with high regard we shall reflect
On your allegiance as peace officer, you have all our respect
Your attitudes, your way of life, your values and your creed
Sustain us to protect and defend and accomplish every deed
To those behind the badge, a noble legacy you leave us
Courage, strength, and bravery a necessity to those who need us
Your valor and heroism we never shall forget
The cost of the tour of duty, you paid the final debt
To those behind the badge, we stand in remembrance this night
A badge worn with privilege of an honorable fight
With respect and admiration your devotion we remember
In our hearts your memory will be a constant burning ember
Never did I want to say goodbye
To say it’s not selfish, it’s a lie
I remember the good times we had
Emotions I felt, happy, sad and glad
And now your hand I hold so frail
Almost time for your soul to sail
They say you don’t have much time to live
Your love, there’s not much more to give
The pain in you I can only see
I can’t let go, no power in me
I’ll never forget my love for you
See your reflection in the morning dew
One day soon we shall meet again
Reminisce the good, remember what’s been
Remember the Brave,
Who fought for life.
Maybe for a county,
Maybe for their rights.
Remember the Brave,
Who fought to exist.
Maybe against Cancer,
Maybe against Death’s final kiss.
Remember the Brave,
Who fought to be here.
Maybe fighting a war,
Maybe, but we shed a tear.
Remember the Brave,
Who fought and tried.
Maybe for what they believed in,
Maybe for life.
But remember the Brave, for they died
The person who gave me life like watering a flower
No one is perfect from being sweet to sour
Tears come and go like endless waterfalls
Memories treasure our past to shattering walls
From shaking hands to fading skin and letting pictures breeze
Sunday church of good news and praying on your knees
Travel every hour just because you care
And from snapping on each other and saying that I won't have hair
Ghetto love and puertorican hugs to drowning in our floods
Angels watching over us and sleeping from above
Little kids create some smiles for us to have forever
A million miles away from my family wishing to be together
From curses to bible verses invisible pain hurts from worst
From apple faces to shadow tears that makes us want to burst
Nasty crashes to itching rashes that bring us closer like two
I'm your son, your my father something that always grew
I know I can and will survive the rest of
my life, altho had some difficult
situations to face that caused much
pain and frustration.
I have learnt to deal with them and cope
and it has made me a stronger person
than I ever have been or so it
Sometimes I think of all the things I've
had to deal with and it often seems
unreal now like it was all a dream.
I keep my chin up and smile to all I meet
I am a happy person and upbeat
that is the way I am and love to be
as this is who I am this is me.
It makes life more barable to be positive and
joyful and definatley helps to keep it
from be miserable & dull despite
lifes problems I can still have a bright outlook
and be happy
with a giggly smile that makes
my life all the more worth while
especially when I can spend it with
my most trusted friends
I love them to
the end as on each of them I can depend
when my heart needed to mend their love they
always send and there to lend a helping
hand when I was falling into a deep
hole of quick sand figuritvely speaking
my friends are my treasure that I will
cherish for all time and forever!
As I watched the children out playing,
I kept hearing a soft little voice;
It seemed to be saying, again and again,
You really had no other choice.
Remembering times when bruises were new,
Those seen as well as unseen;
though I'd hidden the truth from everyone else,
you saw through the lie, so it seems.
You knew the pain I was feeling,
Though you'd never been there yourself;
you saw I was hurting and lonely,
so why couldn't anyone else.
Who could forget what happened on that unsuspecting and sunny day,
when no visible clouds drifted over the Twin Towers?
Little after midnight, the cool rain adds to the melancholy
of the descending angels; and I join them in prayer to remember the tragedy!
This should be a day of remembrance, not of hatred for the ignoble acts
the wicked committed, but would God accept unkindness instead of merciful deeds?
They called it another day of infamy,
and like Pearl Harbor we were taken by surprise;
that was an attack aimed at the military,
but on September 11 the terrorists attacked the civilians!
It seemed like lightning striking down sturdy trees,
and then fire broke out with smoke trails of a thousands feet;
" O my God! ", every employee screamed...quickly running down
the stairs engulfed by fire...causing an indescribable chaos everywhere!
" Take my hand, I will lead you to safety! " the firefighter said to the coughing woman.
" Hold onto my arm! " the policeman yelled out to the frail man,
who had dropped his eyeglasses and couldn't see!
Every firefighter and policeman acted like them, rescuing many without fearing death;
and hundreds of them, that awful morning, never returned home alive...
what a tragedy for their families that watched in horror and couldn't help!
Who wouldn't remember the courage of their noble and willing hearts?
And furthermore, who wouldn't engrave their valorous names on plaques and monuments?
Up above, by the gates of Paradise...Christ and His Father awaited them to accept their souls;
while archangels surrounding God's throne, sung hymns that humans couldn't sing...
those hymns that all the earthly heroes will sing with them when Heaven mourns again!
Their portraits, pictures and memorabilia hang above the fireplaces,
and on the decorated walls of the victims' homes, precincts and firehouses;
how could anybody take them down as they were worthless items?
Prize them more than gold or diamonds, o friends grieving that tremendous loss even today;
don't hate those who caused you sorrow and unbearable pain, be forgiving and show mercy...
as God does toward us; o friends remember your heroes for their valor and sacrifice!
My poem is dedicated to the victims and survivors of the September 11 attacks on America.
Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci
Visiting with memories
Childhood days, thoughts remembered,
Things of me that used to be.
House that's aged, weathered and grayed -
I feel its splintering pain;
Watching me as we all played.
Elements she held at bay;
Her walls hold cherished secrets;
Creaky floors gave me away.
Love has gone, home lost it's shine.
Here I sit, this last recall,
Earth to earth, dust to dust, pine.
Once I left she lost her spring.
Her heartbeat beat its last breath
No more a home but a thing.
Memories stand strong as she
Reigned her years; everyone's gone
Moving on as it should be.
Thanks to you my ode homestead,
I grew up secure and loved
And trips to the wood shed.
My heartfelt tears have a smile;
Emotions, both joy and sad;
New owners, life's worthwhile.
from your mom and dad
stated that killed while serving
seems like only yesterday
were cruising on our 4 wheelers
I shall honor thy name displaying
flag and medal of valor on mantel
Tribute To Dear Friends
And To Our Troops
I had sacrificed my life
I had wasted all my time
But I did this for a reason
To help you all this while
You never thought I was the one
I am always invisible to your eyes
Bet you did not noticed
That I was like an angel by your side
I worried when you were feeling hurt
I could't sleep when you were suffering
But you didn't know how I felt
Trying to know everything
You thanked me once when I helped you
But it was all forgotten
You hurt me once when I saw you
But it was all forgiven
I had fallen before
And I seek comfort and help
But you did not care at all
You did not care how I felt
I know you were always in pain
And I was always there with you
Trying my best to cheer you up
But you thought I was a fool
And now that you are happy
So am I
But it was quite dissatisfied
That I couldn't denied
I helped you a lot
I sacrifice my life just for you
But I am glad you are fine now
Although you forgot
How I put myself through
It was okay
It was alright
But when you left
You did not say thank you
As tears flow down our faces in sad streams
Our minds drift away to bittersweet dreams
With heads held high, we push out bad thoughts
We all just make sure that we love her lots
Life without her is a hard story for us to tell
But we know that she wants us all to do so well
The looks of grief in this room are so very sad
Oh how I wish that things were not this darn bad
But what I want can not change how things are now
I'm trying to accept this, though I don't know how
Although it was her time and now it is done
I hope we can all remember the good times and fun
No words can express the extreme sadness I feel
Know that my pain, my tears and fears are for real
I know I will miss her every single day the same
And I am very proud to carry on her beautiful name
And with these beloved thoughts our wounds will heal
Deep inside my heart her everlasting love I'll seal
For my Granny - Erma Willene Newell
November 14,1924 to January 09,2005
I love you
Here is a message to my first love. Thanks for hurting me deeply. For putting
me in so many positions I shouldn’t have been in. Thanks for making me think
all dudes are same. Thanks for making me the young lady I am now. Thanks for
messing with somebody I trusted. Thanks for not loving me.
To my first, now I have learned to love again, but just know your control over me
is gone. My feelings are finally gone and I’m glad. No more wishing we was back
together and how it would be lf I would have had your child. To my first, thanks for
not believing in me.
I’m finally free from your love, and I’m so happy with my new man. Thanks Gary,
for not being they’re when I needed you. I’m a better person because of you. Now
I know every dude isn’t the same because somebody has showed me that. So
thanks Gary for being you, not it that time for me to move on.
You said that life is not as easy as ABC
That it might burst anytime like a balloon
You told me everything I should learn
But you never taught me how to let go.
You were the river where my life flows
You were the smile that lights my face
You were the voice who told me
]not to let go and just keep going
Now you are the soul; I’m crying for
As you strum your guitar
And sing your favorite hymn
I reminisced our days
And all the dreams we gathered
The leaves have withered
But your flowers boom eternally
For you lived your life happily
So I hope you rest peacefully
May the portals of heaven open up for you
Thought this would make me really blue
But then I know you are in a safer place
Where you would surely receive God’s grace
Let me give you one last kiss
It hurts to end up like this
But it’s not yet my time to go
For you were summoned all alone
But before you go
Promise me one last thing
When my invitation arrives
Please wait for me in . . .
The dragon is nor man or beast
But destroys all to say the least
If your not careful its fire you will see
Every gust of wind is the dragons feed
The dragons travels across the lands
Destroying everything that it can
The dragon can settle anywhere
And get stronger with every breath of air
It sleeps in are forests hides in are fields
Waiting to be fed so are lands it can steal
And for all the fire fighters that stand to fight it alone
I salute to you for protecting my land and home
Over time many men you have lost
Still you stand against the dragon at any cost
Protecting a wife's dreams a child's hope a mans pride
Always knowing the dragon never meets death it only hides
In memory of my father Paul Thomas who was a firefighter in Ancaster Ont
And to all firefighters that we have lost in the world
And for the fire fighters that protect are lives everyday
Thank you and god bless
I do not know?
You asked me often
To tell you what is wrong
Let me lean on your shoulder
Where I can cry on
Listen to every words I say
And you wipe my tears away
I told you about my problems
And you always there to help me
Until I depend to much to you
That every simple problems
I can't solve without you
Because I'm always running toward you
Then I got a biggest heartache
And I wanted to solve it all alone
So I decided to leave
Without telling you
Thinking its the best way to do
But I din't realize I just hurt you
Now that I am back
I have no time for grieving
As long as the sun shine
There will be a new tomorrow
All I need is to smile
To ease the pain of my pass
I do not know?
You can’t cry,
I may not be there,
But it’s not goodbye.
I know you care,
And so do I.
But the time has come,
For me to take to the sky;
To see what I can do,
In this world on my own.
But the place where you and Dad lie
Will forever be my true home.
Try not to worry too much,
I’ll do my best to make you proud,
And all I can say is:
I don’t plan to be just another face in the crowd.
A criminal mind is a critical accusation
A jared passion is an amintined arguement
A mad-man is a crutial saddness
A blind man is unseen pain
A def man is a unheared voice
A cripppled man is angery in full of selfishness
A plauged man is selfless sufferee and greedy
A guilty man is shamed in driven
An innocent man is envius in lost
A darkman is suculante in mercy
A light man is devius in his ways
The moon has no equal
The sun has no rights
Look at the horizon,
What do you see?
A memorial to be built,
Where the Towers use to be.
Thousands of people
Went to work that day.
Hoping to make a difference
In some kind of way.
When the Towers were hit,
Not concerned about the buildings
And the danger that they posed.
A few years have passed,
But the pain is still there.
America will never forget
What you've had to bare.
A blue morning in September,
Is when it all began.
We are One Nation Under God,
And together we will stand!