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Details | Iambic Pentameter | |

Tungsten Glow

Tungsten Glow

Ideal's the emptiness amid stone scapes;
Invited souls - two dancers times enfold;
Invoke the past, rose thorns redraw its shapes
the years sustain recalls of feelings' mold.

Recite old scripts - the weather's voice is cold,
an audience of ghosts their steps extol
the shrines remember them on timeless role,
Adventive cadence is their final goal.

Consorted on the broken glass, they bleed
their lives ascended amid rains of red
maintained and held their words, old ends impede
somehow the birds forgot to sing and fled.

The runnel wraiths of emptiness out-traced
existences' odd trails and righteous shed
where acquaintances devoid embraced
- their solitude; and in the woods winds fled.

Rose-feverish their tips caress time's strings;
and dithered silence shines her splendid glow,
lone glances coil on tungsten glowing rings,
and abstinent redraw - their tears redraw.

© 02-24-2013, G. Venetopoulos, All rights reserved
(Surreal - Elegy)


Details | Lyric | |

LAST NIGHT I CRIED

Last Night I Cried Last night I cried, because I missed you so much. I can’t recall the times I whispered your name before the tears dried up. I just felt like sometimes you don’t realize how much I care, And how bad it hurts inside because I’m not there. There’s so much love I have for you, and I often get scared, That you’ll get tired of waiting and go elsewhere. Meanwhile - I grab a tissue, wipe my eyes and regain my pride Before someone finds out Last Night I Cried.


Details | Free verse | |

Baking Chocolate

For shame I write again
And indulge your memory 
Doting on you baselessly,
As though you’re a man
For shame, I have no remedy

Because as a child, I could never know
And as I am, you couldn't trust my word
That I know you and I know hardship
Because while there was always milk for me
You are have always been
 baking chocolate

And though I didn't know how unpleasant it would be
I faithfully escorted that dry dust to my mouth
Because you already owned me, 
and my passion was arcane
I forfeited to you
To become fortitude, your stronghold
I gladly wed the night; I gladly wed your savagery
Soliloquies decorating the shrine in my heart
For you, my one good thing 

I have no capacity to abandon
And I don’t know how to love conservatively 
And as easy as spitting you out could be
I let you fester, 
I let you make a home in me 

But even now, I can still taste you in my mouth, 
Where years should’ve made you disappear
 And you’re nauseating
You’re the bitter product of bitter chocolate
I’m older now
 and my youth won’t erase you
Nor passing moments, nor justified rage
 And my heart is empty plastic
In my own hands
And  you marauded me

I hate you more than there are words for
My resilience has long melted away
Yet you always have a hand on me
And I can’t make you leave

Eternal sunshine’s burning me
My lips remember, my lips grieve

For shame,  I can’t forget you…


Details | I do not know? | |

Sweet Nothings

I miss when I could just curl up and cry within your arms,
I have someone else who I can do that with now,
But still I miss when your arms felt right around me,
My heart still crys, at whats broken and missing,
There once was this connection, this bond between us two,
I dont know what happened to it, why this feels so different, do you?
And though I love this other, my heart still loves you too,
Dont ask me who I love more, because my answer might not be true,
I love you both, with all my heart, you've just hurt me more,
But still the dreams sometimes seep in between the cracks of our closed door,
And still I see myself, again within your arms, 
Only this time, I would be there, forever and ever more,
Love, can you tell me, what happened to us then? 
Why is it that when I touch you, you feel like less even then a friend,
My heart says yes, it wants you, but my body rejects yours like a plague,
My lips dont whisper sweet nothings with yours~ within the years hidden in the days,..


Details | I do not know? | |

Sweet Nothings

I miss when I could just curl up and cry within your arms,
I have someone else who I can do that with now,
But still I miss when your arms felt right around me,
My heart still crys, at whats broken and missing,
There once was this connection, this bond between us two,
I dont know what happened to it, why this feels so different, do you?
And though I love this other, my heart still loves you too,
Dont ask me who I love more, because my answer might not be true,
I love you both, with all my heart, you've just hurt me more,
But still the dreams sometimes seep in between the cracks of our closed door,
And still I see myself, again within your arms, 
Only this time, I would be there, forever and ever more,
Love, can you tell me, what happened to us then? 
Why is it that when I touch you, you feel like less even then a friend,
My heart says yes, it wants you, but my body rejects yours like a plague,
My lips dont whisper sweet nothings with yours~ within the years hidden in the days,..


Details | Lyric | |

Too Soon, My Love - Too Soon

So, here we are again, my dear
Our wondering hearts are trembling with fear
Of the step we took in the pale moonlight
Now, beholding each other in the bright sunlight.

Remember our plan? We'll take it slow
We'll allow our hearts and love to grow
Without the pressure of passion released
Too soon - but now, where do we go?

Is it time for us now to say good bye -
Do we gather ourselves and give it a try;
Are we done, my love, and now we start
On a future that tears our love apart?

Oh, help me now to understand 
How we lost control of our senses and
That now, our passion being fulfilled
We ponder if our love is stilled.

Yes, here we are again, sweet dear,
Two wondering hearts now filled with fear
For the step we took while under the moon
Was it too soon, my love - too soon?


Details | Free verse | |

I fell in like with you

Inspired by one of my favorite bands, Rise Against, and the song is called,
“Ever-changing” (Acoustic). Please listen to this song if you don’t know of it. It’s raw &
powerful.

“Have you ever been a part of something? That you thought would never end. But then, of
course, it did.” –Rise Against

“I fell in ‘Like’ with you”

With her smile
I melted unto oblivion’s redemption
Candy coated perceptions, windows’ gap
Seeping brilliance refreshment

Uncertainty resolution, polished
Absorbed into closeness sun
Yet these eyes still…see
Butterflies taking notice, missing you…as you stood in front of me

Strong, yet soft legs
Foundation of my face to rest upon
Scars…fading
A cremated sin 

Yet, elongated moments of silence
Created abruption’s new face

The face of change
When she turned to me and said
“I’m not sure, anymore”

Emotional lullaby, rocking me to sleep
New battles with spectral flashback
Trying to get under my skin, a drunken tick facing demise

Phoenix’s sunrise, rejuvenating my recycled defenses
Yet, today, these rays just aren’t bright enough to burn sadness away

And with these sounds of storm clouds & Fall on horizon’s breath
These grounds are so familiar, yet bittersweet
This heart doesn’t want to be enlightened by karma today

It wants to be held for how it shines now

Denied…distance wins again today
Slavery whipped punishments in miles and blocks
This must end

Because I try to keep lines open to get a call from you
Yet all I hear are booty calls with busy signals

And yet something has kept me here too long
But can they leave me, if I’m already gone?

Something has kept me here too long
Karma’s laughter

But, through it all, I will shine

…

How I wish my mere presence can bring joy’s tear to her eye

Sadly though, now, the lines are drawn
Yet I wonder if this feeling is gone
Have the best parts of this…come and gone?

…

Maybe I’ll never know the truth

Perhaps she was misguided by jealousy’s deprivation
Deteriorating heart’s splendor

While I fell in “like” with her

Perhaps “Better Man 2.0” appeared from Cloud 9’s fallacy

While I fell in “like” with her

Perhaps
She held onto the past

As I, drawn to waterfall’s edge
Allowed myself

To let go…and F
A
L
L

© Drake J. Eszes
“We adore those who hurt us. Yet, we hurt those who adore us.” -Anonymous


Details | Diminished Hexaverse | |

Moon Dust

Once upon a time my mother read me tales of princesses who joined with their prince - fairy tale romance. Wishing on stars, I hoped my prince was out there too. He hung the moon. What magic when life held such promise! I was spurred by . . . dreams. Love! It filled my mind. A young girl, I asked for just the moon! I longed for it. I searched for it. How elusive it seemed to be. Once found, it often disintegrated quickly, for it was - after all - simply the moon dust of dreams. For Catie Lindsey's Diminished and Advancing Hexaverse Contest Poetry Contest


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

The Silken Web

You have spun a careful web of lies.
Lying in disguise.
It’s made smooth as silk,
sparkling before my very eyes.

You whispered to me, spoke my name, 
enticing me to follow.
Luring me into the silken web.
Its tendrils of soft silk, wrapping around me.
Caressing me into its self.

You wound it tight and warm around me.
Then I could not breathe.
Little did I know there would be no way out.
This web of lies you have woven, 
cannot be undone.

GypsyofEssence


Details | Verse | |

Secretly Obsessed

Obsessed with the thought of you
wondering if it's only me or
if you sometimes remember the sweet things you've said
and if you meant them how I took them
or if I'm just obsessed with what's in your head

Obsessed with your very sentences
Every response I take personal
I know it's selfishness
Have you not noticed my eyes?
They hold secrets that only you can unlock
if you'd just take time to fill the thick juices of my pride
It's just boiling with lust, passion, trust and distrust
and other things I obsess over so much

I find myself writing to free myself from this prison I've created
where only you and I reside
I become confused about what I'm really feeling inside and I 
try to rid the thoughts that are highly debated as false and I
begin to cry and
think of casting love spells so that the universe can deliver this affair
I know it's unfair
but I don't care

I'm obsessed with what hasn't happened between us
I'm obsessed with your heart and that the fact that 
I don't think you've even noticed my selfish innuendos 
and secret undertones that blatantly express my lust
Or maybe you have and you calmly remain in resistance of distrust 
If you could only read my mind by simply touching my fingertips,
I'm sure I'd catch you out the corner of my eye biting your bottom lip
I'm obsessed with the passion and thoughts I think you have
Obsessing over an experience that I may never have....






Details | Rhyme | |

To Just Have You

How I long to have you again
To see your eyes, your face, your grin
It takes my breath away to hear your voice
That heavenly, uplifting, gentle noise

My God, how it kills me to see
You with another man instead of me
Although happier you say you are
From that emotion, I am so very far

If I was to have an addiction
It would be you and that is not fiction
‘Forever’ I was told, time after time
But not forever in heart, just forever in mind

Remember when we first saw each other?
My face turned red and my heart did putter
You gave me a smile and I tried, but smirked
I was finally realizing how true love worked

My heart aches still and yet I ponder
About the next time I let my heart wander
Keeping track of the pain until it is through
Oh, the things I would give to just have you


Details | Rhyme | |

Nevermore

With the weather cold and dry
My mind wanders far and wide
Within the future things in store
Negative thoughts, nevermore

Of course the mind can think of horrible thoughts
The pain that left the memory, not forgot
Until one day, it returns to life
To fear it with your heart, nevermore

This stone inside is your sanctuary
Not to be broken or to make one wary
Demons from the past surround your love
Let these Legion win, nevermore

Alas, true lovers can fight them off
Not lie, bicker, hate or scoff
Predict the weather tomorrow pleasant
Allow the rain to come, nevermore

You cannot allow this darkness to thrive
To swarm your soul like a hornets’ hive
Beware of those who intend to kill
Let them take your heart, nevermore

Titles are a trivial thing
Would phones or your heart start to ring?
When your darling returns home in your arms
Let the outside in, nevermore

For you and our love are all that matter
My heart and soul come together in patter
For my weakness is your voice
Allow us to be apart, nevermore


Details | I do not know? | |

before you came along

Before you came along
 everything was going all wrong
 i didn't know what to do 
but that was before i knew i needed you

 i would walk down the streets all alone 
going every where but home
 
before you came along
 
i would turn my face to the sky 
wishing i could tell this world a quick  goodbye 

before you came along
 
i would fall down 
so far down i had to look up
 to see the ground 

but before i could shed another tear
 you were here 
 holding me in your arms

you had finally come along
 just in time to help me be strong
 
i love u
 
now u are ready to go
 i did something, 
what,
 i guess ill never know
 this has all played out like a bad song
 because now your going
 going
 going
 GONE :(
 




Details | ABC | |

A Yearn for a Smile 9-21-11

	A yearn… simply something that you want or long for. As a yearn to finish, a yearn to achieve, a yearn for a like, a yearn for a smile is something that you drastically want, a desire. Something that you spend long hours, nights even day dreaming hours thinking about how you can earn that smile. What can you do…. or what can you say … things such as a conversation sparks, likes even dislikes, mostly anything that will crack a smile. These are things that truly show signs of something far greater than fame, sex, money, power. What is it? Something more than I have yet to find. So as I search for the answer I over shoot the entrance with rapid thinking of what she wants, her likes, her dislikes. But truly it will only be earned by who you are, what you want to be, yourself, your feelings your desires, your yearn. So when you yearn for that smile or that special something it can only be earned by being you, no one else. Take a look at yourself in the mirror and try to see past the makeup or tan or piercing and just look at yourself… then take that image and imprint it to yourself forever because to find happiness and your yearn  can only be earned one way. Trying to watch her and she how she reacts to certain things just to make myself seem better when I finally open my mouth to her will only make you distant from that special someone.  With me I personally see myself as buff pierced orange person, while trying to continue to follow the people who I look up to the most. So as you struggle and go through life’s trials and tribulations always look at your yearn or what it once it what was. Think about how you felt when you failed or succeeded and try to make yourself a better person from it. Not by adding more glamour or appeal to yourself but by being closer to yourself. What you really are. Because only then can you truly say you earned your yearn of a smile or that special someone, even if there not with you, apart of them will be and that’s the part they left. The part that made you better. More complete. 			So never forget your yearn of her..


Details | Rhyme | |

Drop the ocean and lift the sky

Drop the ocean, lift the sky, Today seems like a goodbye, Memories of your voice forever linger. Drink the potion, get me high, Tears start to multiply , You wouldn't even try to lift a finger. Cast the demons, out of here, Lift me up, I have no fear, Show you what it means to say I love you. Wake me up, grab a beer, Fill my cup, and shed a tear , My love for you has always been this true. Drain the ocean , engulf the land, Time to focus , begin again, Learn to live without you by my side. Convey the notions, my own brand, Revolve my life, and take a stand, Without you , I know, I will be alright. Ring the bell, Sound the horn, Today i have been reborn, I can do this all on my own. Rise the fell, Mend the torn, Persevere through all the scorn, My , look at how much you have grown. Drop the ocean , lift the sky, Today seems like a goodbye, Memories of your voice forever linger.


Details | I do not know? | |

princess in a tower

far far away 
lives a girl with nothing left to 
say

tears tumble down her pale 
white cheeks
but they're  are all getting used 
to it
because she has been crying 
for weeks

she only wanted one thing
it was a small diamond ring

the ring was to set on her 
finger 
and by her side
 a man to linger

her world soon proved
it wasnt so great 
for they cast away 
her one and only true soul 
mate

their love was one that would 
last
for forever
but now because of them
it would last for never

oh the pain!
 how it never changes
but stays the same
 
she feels so lost
 in a world so framiliar  
she turns round and round
on this cold life less land

she wants to scream 
and she wants to shout
 but she she is haunted by that 
shadow of dout 

so she cries
and slowly kisses old happy 
dreams 
goodbye


Details | Free verse | |

The Shifting Sands

The Shifting sands
Kingdoms of Dunes
Desolate sands
No life. Low tide
Landfalls now twixt mud and sand
And then the seals appear
Their sad calls staying in my memory

I walk the dunes
Why am I sad?
I’ve just returned
Alive and not wounded

The girl I left behind
A friend I thought
No commitment
No declaration of love

The enemy advanced
I was hard pressed
But while in deep despair
I thought this was my end
I realised then
I loved her

But when I came to her
She’d found another
she said “Just a one night drunken stand
So ashamed
Could I forgive?”
Logic says I should
I made no promise
Nor did she
My ego’s not so sure

More seals arrive
Floundering on the mud
They call to me and say
“Forgive her? What’s to forgive?
You had no right
You do not own her.
Go to her now and beg forgiveness,
Declare your love.”
I walk the dunes
Why am I sad?
I’ve just returned
Alive and not wounded

I go to her posthaste
To beg forgiveness
“What for” she cried
“Because I turned my back in wounded pride” I said
“I have no right to judge
Can you forgive me
I love you please take me to you heart.”
Oh Joy unbounded
She forgives me
And offers me her heart

Kingdoms of Dunes
Desolate sands
No life. Except us two Low tide
Landfalls now twixt mud and sand
And then the seals appear
Their sad calls staying in our memories
We walk the dunes
I am no longer sad I’ve returned
To meet my love







Details | Free verse | |

Forbidden Love



Dear  Forbidden  Love 

I am here to say good-bye.
I know that we are through.
But I had this on my mind...
I wanted you to know that I still loved you even though time has passed.
I know I tried to forget about you, but real love doesn't fade that fast.

I missed you so much I can't explain it so I wont even try.
If there was a way I'd find it if it meant being by your side.
So why should I try and hide it?
My love for you can't ever die.
It can only grow stronger for you. 
This is true for a fact my love for you it is so deep that no man nor beast could understand it in the very least.

Our love was unbreakable.
It went beyond the unthinkable.
It went past the sun, moon, and stars.
But even so even it was lost at some point.

Our love was forbidden.
A heart breaker in itself.
Two star-crossed lovers with no one to reach out for help.
This is why I must say good-bye my forbidden love~ 
  


 


Details | I do not know? | |

She's Gone

She's Gone
and she's never coming back
my heart was filled with love
now my heart is being attacked.

She's Gone
and now i have no heart
Why can't we be together even after
death due us part?

When she left  my heart shut down
my soul and my body just fell to the ground.
One by one they ran seperate ways
it was like two people
running in a maze
for a love 
that was no more.

She's Gone
to a place 
much better than here
but I still remember
the way she whispered in my ear
and the way my hands felt in her hair.
So much love.
so much care.
So many people crying everywhere
and i still managed to keep in all inside.

I know she's dead
and I know she's gone
but i miss the way she felt in my arms
my love for her
did no harm
but now she's gone
I said she's gone
and I still go to her grave
to play her favorite song
she's been gone  for to long.


Details | Rhyme | |

Lamentable You

Hell seemed to encompass the land As I watched him holding your hand For a moment I was happy for you And then my shameful heart gave way Earth longed to suck me in its waters Above fellow demons and their hollers We rue the day we ever existed Longing for the touch of human flesh We were trained to eat at your souls To fill your poor deprived holes With filth and emaciated sin Slithering within…bellowing within… And when I look at him I know he’s yours I should have seen it coming of course You never wanted a nothing like me And someone is to blame I see The voices in your head made you cower You once were awed by my power But now the beauty of love has destroyed us I am nothing, and he is yours Take her you bastard of a fool! I don’t need anyone, for I will rule I will rule over her vessel And mark me, she will detest you! Remarkable as she is you will leave her While I in the darkness keep her But for now I’ll lie in wait For the perfect time to ensnare Let go of his hands And allow this heart a chance Let the man lose his compass Only to stumble upon a new woman Oh, lamentable you! I force your love to be true Kiss me, my hate—my love, you fool! He’s never coming back for you! Because you are not special You belong to nobody—nothing! And you shall find That you were always… MINE.


Details | Rhyme | |

THESE LIPS ARE TO COLD TO KISS

Time, is combined, in my mind.
Tragedy trickles to nowhere,
And now this pain I bare.
Seeing you for your worth,
Hearing you are only earth.
Killing, and filling, this feeling.
Lame, losers look like you.
Now this heart you threw,
Up on, and left the mess.
So this is progress?
Torture, under, this blur.
Blindsided by big, bountiful, beams,
That left me in shattered dreams.
Never thought I could catch this,
Because these lips are to cold to kiss.


Details | Lyric | |

Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


Details | Prose Poetry | |

That Which Is Real

Oh to be just a friend
To laugh, joke and play with you
Is not something
I know how to do
Oh how I wish it were
For it’d sure eliminate
All this pain I feel
Sometimes it happens
That starting off fun
Turns into something real
And what was meant to make you laugh
Turns into tears
That seem to take
Life’s  breath away
Leaving you to feel
Like there’s so much left to say
If only this, if only that
If I only could, if you only would
So many tricks of the mind
As we try to find
Justification for holding on
To what should be freed
So we can move on
Yet we hold out hope
In each accidental hello
That tides will turn
Though they have long washed away
It’s just the way of life
And how love burns
Until we learn
The difference in what we feel
And that which is real


Details | Elegy | |

The Way It Was

The song starts to play and I start to cry
How can so much hurt come from a song like that?
Once upon a time it used to bring me happiness and laughs
Now all it brings me is sorrow
You were my world and the song was ours
Now you're gone leaving me with nothing but a broken heart
It isn't easy to forget about everything
That song meant so much to me and now it's all been taken away
I had a dream that the song was going to bring us together again
But now, I don't want to listen to the song anymore
The song is a constant reminder of our tragedy and it will always hurt
I've tried to forget but nothing seems to work
I'll listen to that song a million times more
Until the day we are reunited, together forever


Details | I do not know? | |

The break up- Footle contest

Cold stares
heart tares


Details | Tanka | |

Fall

old leaves are falling
sailing, reluctant, kiss death
the fragile air breaks 
healing hearts are letting go
love letters, clutched until now


? 2010


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


Details | Ballad | |

London

She called herself London
On that day 
She fell from the sky
Child of apple blossoms
Dancing wildly
Into your mind

The snake that hung from her neck
Bites your hand
Expels you from Eden
Tears into the cool flesh
Of your madness
Posing as reason

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share

Her name was London
Call her London

She called herself London
On that night
She prayed to the moon
Apollo’s lyre
Played darkly
In a portent 
Of your own doom

The hell she hides 
In her soul
Toxic drug you’ll never escape
You crave the milk of her touch
Her strange and dangerous ways

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share  

Her name was London
Call her London

My baby, London
Call her London
My moon-girl, London 
Call her London

I love her, London
Call her London
Forever, London 

I call her London……


Details | Alliteration | |

Cheater's Chair

A destructive dance indeed,
betwixt the two we bleed.
A bellowing, bloody abate,
this stale, seductive state.

Simple, senseless steeds,
jealous fires feed.
Perjuring petty plights,
demons do delight.

A crimson, cheaters chair,
awful angers air.
No trust, truth or taste,
wallowed wantons waste.

Envious, eager eyes,
rejoicing a wrathful rise.
Coveting, careless couth, 
yesteryear's eager  youth.


Details | Shape | |

The Rose, A Questionku

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                          o      o                                     drew                    $orrow$
                         o             o                              the veil                 o<>
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                   o o  o                o         O                     /             o
                  o o  o           o                                     /
                 o          o                             O          Died
               o  o   o                                             The
               o  o                  o                           Rose
             o  o                                                 /
             o                                                  from
                               o                              their
              o                                              blows
                                                                !
                                                           O  and   o O   Oo  
                   o                                 O         the    o O  O  O
                                                  O              hail      o  Oo  O  
  Pearls are pouring,                   O                     !        o O  OO  
                                             O                      in        o O  OO 
                                             O                     their  o  O  OO
  Like dew on The Rose:              O                 lies    o  O.Oo
  Who's hailing her sorrows?                O        O      O   O


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Angella

O’er this land I roam
Eternally through sorrow
Escaping thy ‘morrow
Seeking thine home

Pocketed tools, head hung low
Stones kicked roll swift
They flee thee as on I go, bereft

Woeful and yes full brimmed regret
Tears nay neither sweat nor dew
I would shed existence for you


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Tainted Butterfly

This is my life, don't you see Pure jealousy has taken over me My wings clipped and my neck broken The demon inside of me has awoken You left me heart and soul for the last time Your words spoken as I caused the true crime My body dies down and the cold breaks me down Once upon my head, now on the ground a shattered crown My lungs seize to take in more air But i tell myself... he doesn't care... I take my last breath and close my eyes My heart says goodbye to the mournful cries They all stand around and look down at me there Some say I deserved it, some say is was unfair An untimely death was one I was destined to behold But this death was certainly... the most utterly cold Hand placed upon my chest and my body dressed all in black The memories of my in their hearts begin to lack Lowered below the ground my body is taken Never again for the butterfly to awaken


Details | Romanticism | |

A Flower's Funeral

A sweet flower's funeral
displayed in the cold months
of snowy weather and bone chilling shivers.
A sweet flower burned away, dried up;
buried six feet under.

Oh, my sweet flower,
how you once bloomed with no remorse,
like a madman blooming with beauty
and a glorious halo over your head
shinned with such power and blinding glory.

Oh my sweet flower how you have gone now,
resting in peace in the land of paradise.
Oh, my heart it is weak when I see your face,
of once beautiful smiles and warm embraces.
I can hear your crying out to be free.

Snowing and bone chilling cold ripes at my soul
and feelings of sorrow rage through my blood,
boiling my hatred to the world, for losing your
sweet and ever glorious beauty.

What I would give away, if I could be with you
one last night, one last night together
to hold you in my arms, to smell your sweet perfume
that brings back sweet memories of you and I.
What I would do to be with you,
such romance travels through my heart in the highways
of my veins in my body, love is all throughout me,
and my heart breaks when pictures of you start to collect dust.

My love for you, my sweet flower,
is still ingering through the air,
as I travel and look upon a tombstone
which shows your beautiful name.

Come to me my dear flower,
when spring comes,
come to me my dear, sweet flower.
And bloom once again,
twice as large as last year,
and ten times more beautiful then last year.
Come to me in the first months of spring
in my dreams, so I could sit and talk with you.
I miss you already,
and my heart crys,
my eyes flood with tears of sorrow.
I miss our love we shared.
Long walks,
cosy talks,
warm cuddling embraces
and beautiful displayed in a picture frame.
Now I hear the tapping of raindrops on my window pane.
That is all that keeps me company,
that and the rose you gave to me
and a picture of you and me.
Love is endless, even when blue eyed Death comes to visit
and play a game of chess with us,
we all play our game, my love.
I shall go tonight
in my sleepy slumber
and dream of you in the times of our height in our love for each other.
My lost love, you are gone, resting in paradise,
but never forgotten my sweet flower.

-10/6/2013-


Details | Sonnet | |

Loves deadly spell

Together they live happily forever
in a life filled with sorrows and sadness
they will be together, always never
excluded from reality for life

Forever or never they live to cry,
away they will be gone with but a knife
the choice to live happily or to just die
A knife or life, forever or never

a quarrel, a death, leaving one alone
he lies on the ground, a knife in his heart
a plan, a scheme, its never to be known
She says to herself "we must never part"

Now two dead hearts lie, killed with the same knife
Why? Was it love or just a wast of life?


Details | Sonnet | |

Without You

Define your lovely, soulless heart in death
 To take my heart would be a risk; a storm
 You licked your lips to taste what i had left
 And jumped from cliff to rocks, i was forlorn.
 Upon my lover; roses wilt in pain
 For I’ve lost the one whom has no soul, and
 Was all this give and take with us in vain?
 I loved your soul and heart, we joined by hand.
 The brewing storm that took a life, took two
 For deep within your heart was love,
 And deep within my heart was you
 I’ll see you soon, i promise; heart above.
 For without you I cannot survive
 For without you I will not strive


Details | Ballad | |

Rose Hips Lady

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Taste those sweet confessions
On your baby breath
Lift this wounded flag
Into your burning nest

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Tame the roaring tiger
Never lets you rest
Take my last reward 
From your moonlit breasts

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Daddy’s gone hunting 
He’s gone away
Daddy’s gone hunting
Won’t be back for days

Left you with a lover
Makes a shrine 
Of your skin

Left you with a lover
Takes you down
Roads of sin

Left you all alone 
Alone

And the knots cut deep
Through the musk and flesh
Of hot regret
And the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

You release the Beast
From a well that’s wet
You will confess
That the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

Rose hips lady
Aaaaaah......


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When I grow old

I will grow old
I tremble in the cold
None to care
I have nothing to fear...

But my love is alive
Though I strive
Beautiful roses to pluck
Yet I am stuck..

I grow old with wrinkle
Yet I will kinker
You will always remain in my mind
This is how you will find...


Details | Haiku | |

Green Grass Of Home

the green grass of home
other pastures desirable
commandments broken


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I Hate Aunt Floe

NOTE: This poem is a humoruos stab at PMS from a mans point of view

I can see your blood boiling
through  the blades I once called eyes,
they were once beautiful  like jewels
now they hurt my deep insides.
cutting at my guts
and like a noose on my  lungs;
your words seek like bullets 
your mouth like sniper guns.
I’m hit with each inaccuracy…
Being killed by words untrue;
and you even got the nerve
to tell me what you think I do.
But let me get mad
and try to plead my case;
then suddenly the world
is a f--ked up place.
You got tears running down…
What the Hell did I do?
We were just sitting and laughing
I could swear that we were cool.
Oh God…
Oh no…;
I should have seen it… 
It’s Aunt Floe…,
This battle can’t be won or reasoned
I think its best I go.
Cause I hate Aunt Floe 
and she hate me too;
she sit and talk sh-t
about the gum I chew. 
The color of my shirt…,
She say my look is a stair;
She say my best has no worth
And she doesn’t stop there.
I didn’t change
I’ve been the same 
these 28 days,
 but now I’m f_ckin A__hole 
Aunt Floe gave me that name.  
She said get out my face 
This aint your home no more,
But I’m more puzzled by 
What was said before.
I love you 
With her glossy eyes 
I knew it was true, 
But horribly sly
You see these words
make me the fool.
The one that’s cruel
That a__hole dude,
That sparked the fuel
To this f__kin feud.
But I swear to God
I didn’t start this sh_t,
Why would I give up my love 
To live my life like in a pit.
 This is horrible sh_t 
Wasted days spent,
On nothing but the worst
I could be bathed in your sent. 
You could be laughing 
While I’m smiling
But Aunt Floe Won’t let this be,
And the only way to make this right
Is hold my tongue  a week.
And that ain’t gone happen 
I’m a person too,
Not soft
But I got feelins
and don’t know what  to do.
Now its been six days
Unbelievable  rage,
She locked herself 
In the room
I call it her cage.
I smell a sent in the air
It wasn’t there before,
Now lookin down the hall
I see an open door.
Is this a trap 
I’ll guess I’ll see,
If I fall for another
 You know that’s dumb ass me.
Curled in the bed 
I think I know that girl,
But where’s the hells Aunt Floe
The one that f__ked my world.
She packed up and gone
Didn’t even say good bye,
Just came wit gang of bullsh_t
And vanished in the sky.
Is that you my dear
Can you please come here,
Listen close and crystal clear…
I hate Aunt Floe
 Next time she here
Make sure I’m stocked
with weed and beer.
I love you punk.  ?


Details | Ballad | |

Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


Details | Romanticism | |

Can you feel me

Feel me standing there
on the draw bridge
that stands stubburn and erect
over the rushing waters blown by the wind
back and forth.
I listened to the crows
posted on gargoils designed
of eightenth century Gothic architecture
singing their death songs,
when the sun is setting in the far.

The voices of women passing
startle me with a feeling of sorrow
I can't breathe, I am dying.
Feel me, can you feel me rot away?
Slowly but surely rot away
as time passes with ease,
and taxi cabs take smiling, intoxicated faces
to wayward cafes, oh how they screech to a halting stop
and wave to me to get in.

"No thank you, I'd rather walk." I say to the smiling faces
highly intoxicated with the thought of the birds and the bees
rattling around in their empty minds.
Then they drive off, into the city lights and turn a darkened corner.
I look at the rushing water
and feel myself rot away
slowly but surely rot away.

Can you feel me?
Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Feel my heart thump with slow paces
that manage to keep up with fast melodies.
Of songs that play in your mind
only the ones that make you sigh
and think those one days in Spring time
as you walked over the draw bridge
and paid no mind to the water underneth.
I hear no more talk of you and me, I hear no more talk
of the good old times we all shared.
Time has passed, as I take my last breathe
and hold my chest and shead a tear.
Feel me, can you?
If you can, put your hand to my weak heart 
and feel it thump away with every second wasted
on useless items.
Now, see me a man of one time greatness
reflect his life with a reflection in the water below.
How I sigh and cry and breath heavely,
as I feel myself rot away.

The voices of woman pass me by.
Tomorrow is a new day,
for the smiling faces in taxi cabs will go home
and soak their raging hangovers with cool, wet rags.
As I still stand on the draw bridge singing with the crows,
feeling myself rot away.

Can you feel me without you, rotting away?
I surely can feel myself rot.
Such a heavy word, "rot"
So vulgare, yet a great description of me,
without you.

I pull out a shawl you once wore and I kiss it.
As the wind gusts and the sun rises and my shadow
comes to meet me, the wind shall take my last memory
of you away.
And I shall weep no more.
Then what will I do? Shall I walk the streets
and think of you.
Yes you, still rambling all throughout my head
like a lose screw.
Can you feel me? Feel me rot away
feel me think about you, and all your works.
Can you feel me?


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the love we had seemed so far away

i look to stars and wishes flew through space never to be heard again
fun to friends hearts do meld and break facing until time ends
this loop that plays and beats that syncopate become but a gem
pleasure a chest opened in surprise feeling no need to defend
galaxies away lonely planets  please keep me in mind
 distance could grow something fond or lost between the lines
gps my love you can see  its still where I  left it behind
thoughts fade away with life love lives forever in my rhyme

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

without air i couldnt breathe squeezed until I'm passing by
no water flow my skin would dry and I return to the sky
sunny days would blacken out, attracting need for desperate lies
to make up for the beauty lost from death slowly closing my eyes
that fire once sparking motion snuffed in huffs slipping away
dwifting I sway shaky grounds where once I sat easily and stay
upon my feet I still float drowning out all thoughts that stray
Tho these ends can come swift its worse to miss and hear you say

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

down the road,flying free, I ride the wave and hope for your return
through several seas and cloudy peaks, storms of sand, I will not turn
helpless to fate and future events, nothing prevents something to learn
  sights may not sore, nothing much looking more, isn't my concern
I hope the best and happyness is true to bless you, not just in dreams
we can meet when we sleep discussing life while sleeping seems
thanks for trying Im not exactly dying, banes of  sentient beings
real enough moving on is rough, i'll love you forever, writting my means


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Scorn

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THESE ARE THE WORDS THAT HAD TO BE IN THE POEM 

Abomination scorn Affection Passion Yearning
Struggle Attempt Cherish Relationship Flame
Taste Tender Inner soul Bloom Bamboozle

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I was a woman scorn 
Unknowingly  cherished a relationship
where the flame was no longer existent;
where time flew by in the distance and I missed
everything in my life I intended 
because I was accepting a me that depended
on him
I made an attempt to bamboozle the truth
and convince myself that he wasn’t screwing Kim
Ultimately I faked passion and lustfully feigned for affection
since I’d been betrayed
So, I got down on my knees and  I prayed 
I began yearning for knowledge of my Inner soul
I began to taste freedom and feel whole
The healing began and my consciousness rose - fresh bloom
It was no longer a struggle to end an abomination that would 
prove to be a path of doom


Details | I do not know? | |

Visiting Emotion

Hello disappointment
You visit me pretty often these days
Wish I could say seeing you again was an amusement
I'm hoping your coming so much is just a faze
Mr. Disappointment you’re becoming the only feelings I feel anymore
The happiness has started to fade away 
I want our old life back where we were in love and a bore
Mr. Disappointment you make my life dark and gray
I miss the times where I would laugh and giggle for hours
I miss the times when I was the only one he wanted to be around
When you come around disappointment its tears and long hot showers
This love I used to feel is starting to be such a big let down
I don't want to be treated like this 
I have to show him I am worth caring about 
I miss our happy bliss
It's either he straighten up or finds a different route
Goodbye disappointment I want my baby’s kiss


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Confused

Confused

If there were thing's I couldn't understand,you was one of them.
Going back and forth with one another,like the wind and does in the howls 
of winter.You'd follow me to escape your own reality,only not knowing your shattering mine.You tell me to be me there was a time when I was me and you couldn't stand it like it was looking into the eye's of a demon.How should I respond? Running away only brings more then I can offer.
Now I'm drifting and everything left me,I'll suffer the venom of past and the reoccurring pains.
From the tell's of literature to the mounts of the great wars have I been able to tell just from their looks what they thought that very moment but as I look into your eye's does it not only confuse me it refuses to tell me the truth,why am I looking into my own eyes?
Let me touch your face.Let me look into your eye's.Let me see the truth which is clouded and locked away.Let me see your feelings fall from your eye's.
Burned. Chain. Shackled. Scared. Tortured. Entangled with lies.and yet harbors no hate toward anyone then yourself.How much do you loathe yourself? To the point your a sacrificial  offering of your own whim's?
As I search for the truth,I see the many heartbreaks and the lies been told to help but nothing prevails. Yet you look at me looking for the same thing.
We're both confused? We're both in agony? We're the same? 
This isn't right.This is a lie.I don't wish to see anymore.
I won't lose to this,nor bow down and be your toy.Yet when I'm close to you,it never cold.
Hold my hand as I fight with myself. Never mind hold me closer until neither of us is cold.Don't lie to me with those pleading eye's,that are like dark's as coal and beautiful as an onyx.
Let's be ourselves.Let's shut ourselves away from this world.Let's search for our own truth.But if there only fear in your mouth,then there's lies.I shall grab your heart and I will hold it like it was the last gem on earth.So scream,hate,and be gently.
I'm confused.Your confused.I will listen,if you will talk.
Have you ever heard these words before? I never have but I will say them to you,you who has the same pleading eye's as me.When we're so much alike yet so different to the point it confusing.


Details | Rhyme | |

Silly Girl

Seething sounds of laughter,
escape her soft, gentle lips –
Teasing trickery thereafter,
as her beauty abruptly slips.

Vainly seeking redemption,
now lost within a cruel night – 
insecurely pursuing an answer,
deeply  buried within delight.

Exposing uncertain secrets,
once submerged within a tide – 
projecting strength and purity,
her weakness she tries to hide.

Vanity consumes her visions,
devouring her foolish dreams – 
succumbing to the realization,
life is not all what it seems.

What a silly, naïve child she is,
believing there’s good in all you see….
What an embarrassment to her vanity,
that silly, naïve child inside of me.


Details | Free verse | |

Tell Me Why

Why?
Why?
Why?

Tell me why?
Tell me why?
Tell me why?

Was it, because I was too nice,
I was too much of a gentleman,
or was just too much to handle?

Was it, because you were young?
Was it, because you couldn't find your heart,
in all that darkness?
Was it, because you just didn't feel the love?

Why?
Why me?
A man like me, deserves no pain,
no heartbreak.
So, why me?

I pray and ask the Gods,
why!
But an unresponsive god never speaks to me.
He sits there and watches... watching what?
Nothing, but a heart being torn to shreds.

Was it, because I was too careful?
Was it, because I loved too much?
Was it, because one half of the heart couldn't fit the whole?

I ask you, because I still love you.
Come to me, my beautiful,
stop this nonsense,
I cannot make you love me,
but I sure can try to show you love.

Do not blink,
do not take a gift sent down from the Gods
for granted.
Appriciate what you have,
appriciate me, because one day,
when you need a shoulder to cry one,
you will not be able to find me, anywhere.
I will be lost,
in a fool's dream of romance and love,
that will never come on my front doorstep.
Still dreaming of the possibilities of you and I.
My heart is with you always,
but I will soon expire,
so do not wait too long.

-10/5/2013


Details | Rhyme | |

A Very Inviting Temptation

A Very Inviting Temptation! I remember of a particular situation. I was offered a very "inviting" temptation. The situation I was in... I didn't belong! And lost any sense of "right and wrong." At first... I felt no guilt or shame. And brought embarrassment to my family's name. I tried to explain this to my wife and kids. I heard; "Dad... please... no more fibs!" The Godly principles were "tossed to the side," As the sin inside caused arrogance and pride. Soon, all in my life that truly mattered... Was gone! My life was empty and shattered! I was sorry for all of the problems I caused! This time... I took a moment to pause. I cried to God to rescue me from my sin. I confessed! Would God help me once again? I read in the Bible of Jesus’ grace and love! This time the help I needed had to come from above! I asked him for a fresh and brand new start. He removed the stain from a broken heart. He restored to me the joy I once had. I'm so blessed! Jesus has made me glad! Jesus is the reason I'm here today! I LOVE HIM more than words can say! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Ballad | |

Little Black Horse

little black horse, I've seen you around
little black horse, destined to terrorize the town
little black horse, you've seemed to have caught a mare
little black horse, with your long shiny hair

little black horse, why drag that mare around
death so coupled to you that she's destined to drown
fate cruel to her, to make her love
her soul tarnished and beaten, no longer white, and as pure as a dove

little black horse, do you not care at all?
crest fallen and withering, she still heeds your call
little black horse, she will die at your hand
yet her presence to you, just a mere grain of sand 


Details | Ballad | |

Voice in the Night

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Healing words
Made from
Angel heart

Oh, her chocolate whisper
Warm convincing breeze
Oh, her breathy laughter
In the shadow of my need 

Don’t you hear the voice?
Save  you from despair
Don’t you hear the voice?
Sent by ghosts who care

Don’t you hear the voice?
Rises like a prayer
Come to rescue you
From your earthly snare

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope 
Kissed my tears away

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Now I dance
To a magic serenade

Don’t you hear the voice?
Memories of home
Don’t you hear the voice?
Pretty as a poem

Don’t you hear the voice?
Vivifies your soul
Bathes you in a pool 
Love you’ve never known

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller,
Take me, take me
To your bed

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller
Raise me, raise me
From the dead

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head


Details | Romanticism | |

Love needs Two Hearts

Love cannot bloom,
love cannot go on,
love cannot persue it dreams,
love cannot be what it is meant to be,
love cannot be where it is supposed to be,
if love doesn't have two hearts.

Love needs two hearts to be true,
Like water to a dried rose
makes it bloom in spring weather
with such glory and beauty.
Love cannot be true if one heart
doesn't love the other.
Care, trust, honesty and loyalty
in love it has no boundaries,
it has no color, it has no age,
like a fine wine or an aged whiskey
it grows better with time.
But love cannot fullfill without the other half.

If a woman loves man,
let her love him,
if you love me,
than love me, but if my heart is gone
and cannot be found in such relation with you
then I must halt, till my heart comes around.
If it never does show with the first light of morning,
then it wasn't meant to be with thee.
Come now, do not shed a tear for me,
a simple heathin, who cries havoc
when something doesn't go his way.
Do not cry, do not shed your one of a kind tears
for a souless man, for a heartless man like I,
but do not blame me,
if my heart cannot be found.

Love needs two hearts,
not one or the other can survive
without each other.
Love is patient, love is kind,
but with ever lover comes another.
And we will all fall in great and deep love,
be intoxicated with each other,
and our sweet kisses that God himself would shed a tear
for such beauty that still exisits.
Love needs two hearts,
you cannot have one, without the other.


Details | Lyric | |

Garden Rose

Written August 21, 2013


There's a girl in the garden
She's messing with your rose bed
Plucking weeds out from your head
And watering the seeds in your bed

But where will she wander
When the roses are dead
Will she come back for more
When they turn back to red

She can run all alone
Write this story in stone
On concrete slabs
Of skin and bone


Details | Lyric | |

Elysium Dream of Love

I close my weary eyes
Holding onto the hope
Of not having to cope
Not a mintue longer
Without you by my side
Not expierencing
The warm look in your eyes
The tingling rush of your finger tips
That would grip my hair tight
To stop you from slipping into the night
Biting  your bottom lip
As a pinch to yourself
To see if it was real
The dream of love we felt
And now that you are gone
I only wish to die
Your image fades from my mind
Sometimes I see it clear,
The sun is skillfully stroking it set in the sky
As my feet float down the road across the tuscan country side
I ever so gently sense the wildy grown wheat
Tickling these troubled lines engraved in the palm of my hand
I playfully pick one out of the land and pluck the grains
I look up and in the distance is where she waits
But there she remains peacefully strolling through the calming field
In a white cotton dress that tails off in the wind and
wearing a small confident smile that makes my yearning heart yield
Whispering in my ear that soon I will make it home
But my Life's journey must continue down this God paved road
I awake with the longing of her, But with so much to do
I need God's strength for one more day to get through


Details | Rhyme | |

Your Special Day

(Dedicated to Danielle Bryant)

It's your special day
And I have so much to say.
Oh that time will let me,
There are thousands of things to make you see:

The happy times,
Lengthening with the clock's chimes;
The beautiful talks we exchanged,
Never believing there could be a change;

The midnight conversations,
Smiles on our faces our only compensation;
Our dreams and hopes,
The only reason we could cope.

Those moments we spent together
Are memories I'll cherish forever;
Memories I can look at and smile,
Knowing they are reasons to aim high.

Oh if I could do more than just words
And not pull memory chords!
It's your special day
And my own very special way
Of wishing a happy birthday
To a friend who just walked away.


Details | Ballad | |

Zero

I was born pale and invisible
In a world
Sees everything 
Everything, everything….but me

Invisible to your touch
And doubt you’ll like me very much
Am I alive?
Was I ever me?

I’m a non-existent cipher
A pointless empty zero
Never added up to anything
A non-existent cipher
Pointless empty zero
Tell me….what does it all mean?

And now I think I want you
Ethereal body
Oblivious mask
And now I think I love you
Intelligent lips
Painted in black

But no need to look my way
Or give me the time of day

Can’t be with you 
In this world
Invisible man 
Never gets the girl

Oh, no...

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be felt by me

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be loved by me

Your 
Zero 
Tonight
Your 
Zero 
For life
Your zero
The day I die

Your zero….your zero

Zero


Details | Rhyme | |

A Hole in the Universe

There’s a hole in the Universe
And I can see it from 
My 
Hearse

Driving to the graveyard 
For one final look

While the mourners 
Take photos
Filling an entire 
Facebook

There’s a hole in the Universe
And I can see it from
My 
Noose

Wrapped round my head
For one final jerk

Because I sent you 
Away
And it really
Hurts

But I won’t say a thing
Not a single peep
From a  man 
Made of stone
And the blood of a
Beast

Sing me one last melody
In that way you did
In a La La so sweet
La La La
La La La
My sweet

Sing me one last dirge
For the body 
You once held
In a La La so sweet
La La La
La La La
My sweet

You see

There’s a hole in the Universe
And I  can see it from
My
Place

Where the sky meets
The fire

Roasting hopes upon  
A pyre

And leaves me 

Wanting

One last
Touch

One last
Kiss 

One last
La La

So sweet

A taste of  perfect heaven

The complete Universe

I once found 

In

Your 

Baby Face.


Details | Free verse | |

Casualties of Love

Casualties of Love
Check the victims report
Broken hearts, pain, ice cold
Check the newswire
Filled with heartbreak, desire
Walk away, never look back
That’s how it’s done, no emotion
Don’t forget to look in the mirror
It’s a reflection of your life


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


Details | Monorhyme | |

A sorrowful birthday

Today is my birthday
On this day please don’t stay 
Sorrow please go away
My hairs are turning gray
Love is life people say
I want love come what may
I want to see hope’s ray
God make me smile I pray


Details | I do not know? | |

An Ode to Lost Love


1.

I should have listened.

Alas, I was lost in the crowd.

You may not have said that you loved me,

there was never a reason for it to be said aloud.

2.

I should have known better.

I kept pushing you away.

Your patience was tested,

till we each went,
on our own separate way.

3.

Now the years have vanished.

I am grey and older.

I may not miss you all that much,

yet each day seems colder.

4.

Time has not eased anything.

Yet I have no reasons for regret.

Days come and go as always,

but somehow I am unable to forget.

5.

So forgive me if you can.

Not an easy task given my past.

Though I may be unable to absolve myself,

the void I feel is permanent,

my loss shall forever last.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Wilting Girl

Petals wilting, one by one, Falling where they may Still burning with insanity, And pain that's here to stay Petals falling, one by one, In the hands of strong desire Burning in a heart of passion, Only filled with fire Petals falling, one by one, Floating down with empty bliss It's too late to bring their color back, So say goodbye with one last kiss Petals falling, one by one, With only hate, and pain If only there had been more sun, If only there had been less rain


Details | Rhyme | |

A LOST MEMORY

You became my best friend, someone I would never ignore.
I know I was selfish, but I wanted more.
She became the one I wanted, and the one I got.
She definitely became the one who showed me love,
And taught me the past should be forgot.
To me she is a memory,
I do sometimes wonder if she remembers’ me.
Constantly she said you loved me I knew she lied,
I could see the fear in her eyes.
I’m letting the pain out,
With out any doubts.
I have to hurry up and let it go,
Before this pain consumes me and I lose control.
When she is around I have to wait a while,
See she doesn’t know but I have to force a smile.
I’ve moved on, so did you.
It’s scary to know you love me too.
Sure I could find someone else so I did not always feel so alone.
But they could never be you I would never feel like I am home.


This poem is for those people who can’t move on…..


Details | I do not know? | |

I Had

i had a  place where your
 heart it would be
and i everytime i turn around
girl your in my dreams.

I had a place that 
nobody new was there
and everytime i lost my love
my heart it disappeared. 

This place
only had one face
and out of the whole world
it had to be you girl.

I had something
that ran so deep
and i had love 
but it wasn't so sweet....
my heart is empty
it wont even beat
and everytime i cry,
i cry myself to sleep.

It was you
that kept me awake
for 3 hours
from like 5 to 8...

I had you
I had you
but your gone so what can i do?


Details | Narrative | |

What I want to Say

How is it that I feel this way?
I don’t even know what kind of feeling it is
But I know it’s not a good one
I can’t even begin to tell you
Because I can’t even explain it myself
All I think about it you
I start to get these thoughts
They won’t go away
I wonder if you feel this way too
Like something’s missing
I re-read your texts to reassure myself
We lay on the bed in silence 
 I desperately want stories and laughs
I feel physically connected
But not mentally connected
day after day I’m the one puts in the time
Goes out of my way to make sure you’re ok
Why doesn’t it bounce back my way
Arnt I the one you said I meant the world to you
Then why don’t you show it
Im the girl that needs to be shown that what you say is true
That’s all I ask
This to me doesn’t seem like a big task


Details | Lyric | |

Welcome to the Planet

Welcome to the planet
Wake me when it’s over
The dreamer’s always tempted
To come around and show her

And I just keep wastin my time
On girls that won’t love, me, like their wine
And it’s just too easy to blame
The rock and the system for causing my pain
And I just want you to know that I’m through
With being alone, when I’m with you 
And when you mask the truth with your lies
It just won’t get any better for the rest of your guys

And when you fall asleep
The night covers your tears
And the darkness sees you weeping
Cause your conscious can’t be cleared
This year you’re feeling colder
Your heart’s a little older
You haven’t found your soul mate
And now you think you’re too late

But one look inside of my eyes
Gives you the hope that there’s a guy
Who can make you feel happy and sad
And it’ll be worth it to feel that again


Details | Lyric | |

How Alone Am I

How Alone Am I
How Sad Am I 
You never Know
I never Show

You Smile WIth A Shine
I Smile with Wine
Your Enthralling Eyes
Defines My Style

Missing you is my life
Yes I live, but I strife
Finding you beneath the stars
Misng You my life chars.


Details | Free verse | |

Snippets

These were all former PIMs -- "poetry in motion" entries

I.
desert stillness shrouds
their adversary lairs
twilight's muted thunder
betrays the nearby
stealthy moon

II.
pale gold ribbons
fiery soft skies
sea haze streaks a thin mountain path
as day begins

III.
kitchen pans, pity, pungent cheese
and garden lace -- the matriarch
dripping decay
with her mild gentility

IV.
winter snow, ice
slow spring melt
rain-drowned torrent ocean bound flow
placid river drift
debris of desire

V.
drifting memories
of lakes
water lapping against land
heartbeats floating on the breeze
the water reflects your face
look away

VI.
the chalky moon
creases midnight clouds
blue shades of lovers
walk a powdery sky
chortle at the other's close proximity


Details | Imagism | |

Withered Sentiments

The petals rains on me,
Smothering the blemishes on my skin.
An idyllic red bleeds to a crimson shade,
And my heart feels it once more,
Withered by my sentiments.


In the midst of reds and yellows,
Hands held out in a field of shadows.
Swirling in the echoes of a laughter,
Running away,
Chasing for the scent of a rose.


They said a prayer would stop the pricking,
Should I choose to hold on to a rose.
To embrace a memory made of thorns,
To linger on the pathway of forlorn,
And enjoy the moment of my fall.


But, a piano starts to resound in the heart,
And a tone of darkness blends in with the lies.
Its taunting melody sings of him,
While his memory turned its back on me,
The withering rose starts to cry alone.


What’s left of me is lost in you,
But I can’t find you.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

The color of love

Without him beside me, my future seems so bleak, being naïve, 
i was told he was not meant for me. Ignoring this world of cruelty
and its power tear our world apart. Now sitting i ponder why I being so naïve from the very start

My tomorrow will never come, for I will forever live in his yesterday. Turning my back on the one who loved me in every single way.
Not even time can heal a shattered heart, but I guess somewhere in his heart he loved me after all

Many times I’ve dreamt of him and unable to hide my tears,
As I reminisce that sad day I decide we go our separate ways,
I pinch myself, as in a dream, knowing it is not true,
How could I let go of such a man, no woman would ever do.

I remember the look in his eyes when he dropped by and found my note. Pain crippled on his face leaving such a heart in pain, as he read along “My heart is with you but I will forever be alone, never will you and I share a place of our own. Rejected by all to cross the color line thinking my love is blind".

 If again such a love should come my way, I’d break free of those dark days I’d confess my true heart and reject the rest and  break through this racial barrier and fallow my lovers path wherever he lead to ease this heart that beat to grieve.


Details | Rhyme | |

A TALE OF UNEXPECTED LOVE


As the old proverb prevails, " love comes unexpectedly"
hyperthetically speaking,exactly what happened to me
hurting decieving initially, then having to lay my cards
ending an eight year relationship,unspeakably so hard.


A  feeling of selfishness,that i needed to explain
to make her see true love i found,obviously causing pain
i didn`t jump in to this,with my blinkers on
knowing that the pain inflicted, was definately wrong

But looking back in hindsight,i wouldn`t change a thing
the love,happiness and caring is what my Skinbob brings
i didn`t really get a chance, to  put across the full tail
i had to explain the full issue over in an e mail.


I have no regrets at all,i  did find  my soulmate
we`ll be together forever,with memories to create
inseperable together,our siblings flown the nest
now i will do my utmost, to give my love the best.




 Frank Herrera`s 
Contest Name The CrossRoads of your Life  







Details | Ballad | |

Cassandra

Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim


Details | Free verse | |

Queen of Hearts

           Toward the heavens the moon ever climbs
         Love claims her majestic throne among the stars
           I stand before her mystic shrine, in throe of heart
       Grant mine love’s decree and return his desire unto me
              Much hope attends mine wish; I plead of thee
                 Oh queen of hearts tend mine wounded soul
               In mine solitude I weep and upon moonlit paths 
                        I shall wander haunted by his memory


Details | Free verse | |

How Far Will You Fly

How far will you fly?
Cross continent? Moonward?
Across the room?
When will you depart?
Through which gate?
Let me fly with you.
You won't even notice me,
On the wing,
Clinging for life (and love).
Why do you flee me,
choosing a destination
from which it will be
impossible
to book a return?


Details | I do not know? | |

foRbiDdeN aFfaiR .?

gut renching sorow
a passionate touch
embracing eyes
unknowing guilt 
matters not 
already taken 
for it matters not 
forbidden outside these white walls
spoken only through eye contact
secrets roam about 
through my shouting eyes 
inhumane embraces
speechless actions 
sweat druns down your back
tears down myy cheeks
our bodies meet
as do our lips
.. .ahh this forbidden affair .


Details | Free verse | |

We Were Drunk Once

Movies played but seldom watched
As we entangled on the couch
Intoxicated by each other, we drank wine to clear our heads
Things were simple in those times

You were red-eyed and freshly mangled
I wanted so badly to make you smile and forget her
For a time I think I succeeded 
We were blissful in our distraction
Playing grown up as we discovered each other

Long nights where sleeping was forsaken
We preferred to lie intertwined 
Talking 
Smiling
Laughing
The sun would rise and you would leave, reveling in how the hours had escaped us
Smiling at the pink tinged sky
Only to repeat the process nightly

Then we traded places
I am the red-eyed one, and another tries to help me forget you
Sometimes he succeeds
Perspective feels like a cruel joke
Could have
Would have
Should have

Someday he will have red eyes too
A cycle perpetuated


Details | Free verse | |

Missing You

Can't you see it
Flashing in the night?
Can't you feel it?
You're taking away its light.
Can't you see it
Fading out of sight?
That's my heart, lost and lonely,
And it's missing you tonight.


Details | I do not know? | |

poems

poems of love 
poems of hate 
closing doors
 and clicking gates 

Gates of white 
Gates of blue
 all beg for something new
 
something new
  something old
 something saying lets be bold 

i  know you
 and i know something you 
would like to do 

 so take my hand 
and lets leave behind the seas
 and the sand
 
 fly to a new beginning 
leave all these people we watch 
sinning
 


Details | Rhyme | |

Buried love

He is sleeping in my bed unsuspecting,
As I sneak out the back door again.
I stalk across the dimly lit garden,
Stricken with guilt, remorse, heart-piercing pain.
 
Even during blissful moments in his arms,
Your face flickers in the reflection in his eyes.
I close mine only to see your face again,
In the blackness, dark as night skies.
 
How can I be happy with someone else,
When thoughts of you haunt me, asleep or awake?
How can I smile up at him,
When its your features I'm trying to remake?
 
Even though he makes me happy,
Its nothing compared to the joy you brought me.
I start the car and stare at the lucky charm,
Remembering when you said, my happiness it will guarantee.
 
I guess it never did work,
Because now I'm sitting in this empty car,
Wondering how things could have gone this wrong,
When we had promised stay together upon a solitary star.
 
I'm driving down the familiar road,
Wishing an accident would take away this pain.
Better a quick unfortunate incident,
Than a slow death, plagued by guilt, going a little insane.
 
Walking through the wrought iron gates,
I cant help remembering the many times I've sneaked out.
Each time I reach the graveled path,
If you're worth the trouble, I doubt.
 
But I cant help stalking out the house,
You've become my obsession, my pilgrimage.
Praying silently he never finds about you,
For I'm sure he'll have me put in a cage.
 
I feel the steady calm rising as I near you,
Your voice is in the wind, the rustle of the leaves.
I can hear my heart beat in my ears,
I move to your headstone among the other graves.
 
As usual I trace the engraved heart,
Let a few tears slip and lie down on your cover.
Wishing the block of marble between would disappear and so,
For the last time I could see my sunshine, my one true lover.
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | Romanticism | |

He Loved Her

He loved her,
she was blind and loved someone else
who did not love her back.
He truly loved her,
but she held him as just a friend;
nothing more than that unwanted title.
He loved her,
soon he'd relize she wasn't the one
he was truly looking out for,
and she was like a blind fish in a salty sea
looking for the hook to pull her in.
He loved her;
but now there is no more to be shared,
it is sad;
truly it is very, very sad.

He went on to greater and better
and she stayed behind in her cloud of smoke
and liver full with alcohols and lungs filled with cancers;
not to be mean;
but she had lost something good...
She had lost a man who truly loved her.

This is a sad tale of love; not being found in the right or wrong place,
see the romantic side is they will still find love,
Oh yes she will find someone
and he will find someone too;
but they will be two different people
who, by their definition will treat them
not for what they possess in their pockets and driveways,
but what they truly possess in their own hearts.

Love does not have just one definition, but many definitions
that all relate to our own needs in life.
In the end we all find love,
just not with the people we except to love us back.

12/2/13


Details | I do not know? | |

helpless

sleepless nights
wakeless mornings
thoughtless trance
Although my body moves along
my mind remains fixated
on the epitome of pulchritude

Perpetual dominance of my thoughts;
The longer we are apart,
The more my mind slowly rots
You’ve captivated more than just my heart
You took my mind and my soul
Without you, I will never be whole

I know I should progress
but my mind only lets me regress
back into this helpless state
unable to think of anything else


Details | I do not know? | |

The Broken Puzzle Piece

Your strength was my weakness

Your heart was like my home

Your love was mine to keep

But now I'm so alone

I thought this was for the best

Atleast that's what you said

My heart just seems so broken

Its almost like I'm dead

I've gotten so lost and confused

I feel kind of twisted and abused

It's like my feelings are a letter left unread

You would'nt take the time

You said you didn't care

But throughout it all I was still there

I guess it's time to let go

I guess it's something we will never know

The words left unsaid will be kept with us until we're dead

Heres my last goodbye

I cannot stick around while you watch my heart die.


Details | Rhyme | |

Game Over

One last time,
one more chance,
I told myself no,
to this endless romance.
Its good for awhile,
but always ends in tears,
starts with a smile,
then the love disappears.
You start to get mean,
thinking ill cower away,
but not this time,
not today.
Hit me again,
we'll fight to the death,
this will only end,
when you take your last breath.
So say goodbye
to your silent nights,
and say hello
to these violent fights,
I cant take it anymore,
I want to be free,
I wont back down,
until your life's a memory.


Details | Free verse | |

Roses, Rubies, and Strawberries

Mi fantasma dulce

Send me a rose
This Valentine's Day
A single red

Reminds me of 
The  crimson light
We shared

Years ago

Mi fantasma dulce

Send me a ruby
This Valentine's Day
A single red

Reminds me of 
The sparkling passion
We shared

Years ago

Mi fantasma dulce

Send me a strawberry
This Valentine's Day
A single red

Reminds me of 
The earthen treats
We shared

Years ago

Mi fantasma dulce

Where did all those red years go?

Of

Roses
Rubies
And
Strawberries

Porque

Es día de San Valentín

 Y tú no estás

 Aquí


Details | Romanticism | |

Can't Love be with me for once

Can't Love be with me for once

in my life.

Can't Love for once in my life

see the way I live

and accept me for who I am

and not for what I possess.

I have seen love bounce back and forth

through the darkened streets of life

and I sat on the park benches,

alone.

I can't wait till love comes again

but can't love just be with me for once

and live with me, embrace me, to see me late at night,

come through the doors of perception.

Can't Love be with me for once

throughout the valleys of sorrow and depression

and shine its glorious face onto me,

like the first morning rays of the sun at dawn.

I cannot understand, why

Love can't just be with me for once...

Why?

I ask you, why?

Can't Love just laugh, and talk to me

Can't the arrow of Cupid find me already.

I have found my time, now I have no love.

The beauty of Plato's words that melt of the page

as you read word for word, and my heart melts away.

Why can't love just be with me for once,

once in a great, blue moon.

Too walk through the dew sprinkled, dawn days in August

as I walk to my chamber

and ready to love,

but love can't be found.

Can't love just come already.

Show its pretty face,

Hold my hand,

kiss me and I kiss back,

to read a book of poetry to her

as she lays in my arms,

and then we shall make love

under the twilight.

The stars shall shine

the moon shall be bright and full

and I shall find love one day.

One lonely day, as I sit in the wayward cafe

drinking my sorrows away,

writing my poetry

and love shall walk through that door

I shall find her and take her by the hand

and kiss her upon her soft cheek.

I just ask,

Why can't love just be with me for once.


Details | I do not know? | |

You're my what....?!

           This is not my WORLD.

           You're my WORLD.

           You're my EVERYTHING.

           You're the FLOWERS, the GRASS, 

           You're my THOUGHTS,

           You're my EVERYTHING.
            
           This is not my WORLD.
           You're my WORLD.
                     
          So now.....
                be part of my.....
                                    LOVE.



                  *please comment if you don't mind, i'd really like to know your thoughts 
(fav poem if you like)*
                                                  
                                                            -Angel4eva23


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


Details | Free verse | |

There's Not Much More to Say

Now night hangs heavy
over me.

And meanwhile,
I am alone.
Lost in the past.

Why do I stare at you, in my mind,
with your dark eyes living velvet
in which I lose myself?
My fate's contained in yours.

Let us be extremely frank
and speak the truth about ourselves --
share our anxieties together --
discuss between us what sort
we can't be any longer,what sort
we now desire to be.

Fallen out of love with self-conceit
we shall not regret the loss.


Details | Verse | |

Through A Prison Glass

You came unexpectedly, and i was surprised,
you smiled and placed your hand on the glass and cried.
I leaned my head against the glass and told you i am sorry,
i whisper through the phone line, ill start a new story.

You knew i was innocent but you still didn't believe me,
the only person i thought that would stay by my side but you couldn't be. 
Mom standing by your side and not wanting to talk,
i got really upset that you came at all cause i didn't want to see you walk. 

I needed you, when i was in need,
i was there for you when ever you didn't want to bleed.
I loved you and i cherished you with all my heart,
but before you left your words hit me like a really sharp dart.

You said i failed you,
you cried to me and i knew it was true.
But i needed you to understand me,
but you went your way and upset me.

The glass is now empty and i cant find you even with the fact that I'm out,
i tell you i love you but all you do is shout. 
I've lost you for good this time, 
so i think i have to do one more crime. 


Details | Lyric | |

UNFOLD

The pain of change as it unfolds
Is oft a tale that stays untold
What is seen is a whole creature
not deep holes in the feature
nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt

It all begins with a soft kiss
He is walking with a false bliss
Only following in paw prints
But the nature of mom's lips
Is to rob him of all innocence

Trapped in warm spindles of fear
A wrapped life form kindles in here
Four years bound to shingles of moss
Time to leave this life of sloths
Break free like that of a moth
and Rise again like Christ on the cross


Details | I do not know? | |

I still miss you

Visions stolen,
Heart beat raised
You still touch me,
In the castle in the air

I don’t want to miss you,
Truth is, I still do
The smile, those eyes,
I still miss you..

The path has forked
The world has split
Memories tainted,
I still miss you

I yearn for a rendezvous
To reminisce the cold touch
The twinkle, the chuckle,
I still miss you

Cries of laughter,
Strength of bond,
The waiting seconds,
I still miss you

Time does not reverse
The road unveils beautifully
But, some are unforgettable
And, I, still miss you…


Details | ABC | |

Love dont pass me by

Love don't paas me by because i'm sweet as honey freash as a
lily and i bloom just like a rose.
When you look into my eyes you can see the truth be told deep
within my soul.
Sweet love don't pass me by on this lonely night i cry.
I am as gentel as a feather i am as an angel who is always ther for 
you to protect and comfort you,
i am as the sun that shines after a stormy day,
i am a rainbow of luck that'll make your days so swell.
Sweet love dont pass me by when i am here for you: rather you are rich
or poor, rather you are right or wrong ,rather you doubt me
or beleive me, just don't use me or abuse cause what I say is real and 
true... true unto my heart and soul.
Sweet love don't pass me by on this lonely night i gaze into the moon and the 
glisten stars that shines so bright in the mid-night sky
hoping and praying that this love we share just 
don't pass me by.


Details | Rhyme | |

Paper Thin

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
For kicks is why I do it now.
You tell me to love but I never knew how.
Our feet hitting pavement,
We spent the day in sunny California with sun kissed skin.
I’m learning to forget and how to fade scars,
And you let me let myself down so hard.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
And now I just do it for smiles,
We’ll never see flower girls stumbling down aisles.
I’d lose my head just before that chance,
But if you want we can still have a first dance.
Cause I think I say things that I don’t mean,
Once upon a time you meant the world to me.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
But I’m trying to refrain,
To make this not all end up in vain.
Maybe I can learn to love like some people do,
And you can learn to love yourself a little too.
Or it is in all fairness to let this go?
I guess we can try but then we’ll never know. 


Details | Free verse | |

Like the frightened Jackrabbit, I run away from Love

Jump up and down like a jackrabbit
running through meadows
running from what?
Could it be heartbreak,
a venemous snake that hides in the grass,
hiding with fangs ready to pierce the tender skin
upon the tight, bronze flesh of everyday life?
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now!
I need a vacation a long way away from the faceless smiles
and ignorance of young girls, who don't look at you,
who don't show you love and respect.
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now,
as jumping spiders hop everywhere, crawling eight legs around me
my soul black like carcoal, but my heart still beating
slower this time, not like the days before
and like the jackrabbit running from anything and everything,
I run to seek love and vanish away from the empty voids
that people call, their souls.
Recording a film with no tape,
talking to a woman you love, but not having the guts to tell her how you really feel
Jump my boy, like a jackrabbit, take my advice
tell her before she leaves
turns down the endless avenues of endless dark love
the trees grow taller, taller than you
and you sit there feeling away yourself die, missing out in life.
I cannot see you lose your love.
Say it, say it, Say it!!! Tell her! Tell her! Build the guts up!
Build up the courage, tell her how you feel. Take her by the hand and never say goodbye! Never say goodnight, stay with her till the flight comes in the morning
of the first rays of sun shine through your dorm room take her and love her!
Do not be like me, the jackrabbit! I see no happiness
Reading poetry it makes me sad,
to write of others falling in love and I never finding the one.
People tell me, you'll find yours, have hope
but I am a frightened little jackrabbit
who flees from sounds of deep emotions, not having courage to fall in love,
not building the guts up to tell her how I really feel.
She walks alone, I find my oppertunity and sing my love song
She smiles and moves on,
please tell me I cannot fight anymore.
All I have to say is Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
I need a vacation
to go to some sandy beach on an island of love
and write and write and write, the same poetry that depresses me
but makes you all fall in love with words!
Fiction about love stories, please kiss me
Blue eyed death comes, plays a game of chess with me
I bet twenty, he bets my soul
Kiss me death, the only love I'll ever get,
besides my poet friends who kiss my ass
Listen to my heart, truely, I don't write of beauty
I write for the sorrow soul, the fleeing jackrabbit
running away from love.....


Details | Romanticism | |

I Miss You

“When you’re not with me, what’s not to miss?
 I feel poor, in need for bliss
No lips on earth compare to your kiss
I need you bad, wassup with this
Missing sickness that slit my wrists
If the world was lost, you’re the first I’ll miss

Lexy Lexy where is me Lexy
If you’re in space then the world is not sexy
Clean my emotion, because it feels too messy
From trashing my miss, I miss me Lexy

Just wait? I can’t, I need you NOW
I love you massively, holy cow!!!
I miss our tenderness and all the wow
While love performs, societies take a bow

Time is cold, I think it’s sick
Froze it is and this moment it pick
I’ll fight the time with a punch and kick
 It better speed up or I’ll grab a brick
Solid time right now and he thinks he’s slick
But he can’t defeat me, my heart is thick

I can scream out loud but you’ll never hear-me
My heart is too vigorous, it can’t go weary 
You miss your man; I’m here, here-he
Your absence darken my heart to make it seem eerie 
Your love is the light, I miss you dearly”


Details | Free verse | |

Winds Of Change

So the leaves are falling now, and in color, are turning
While young hearts, from summer, still burning
Running through life, love's wings, oh how they're earning
They are growing, and life's lessons, they're learning

And so now a new day is dawning
Where things won't be the same
For in my heart, passion's spawning
Here come the Winds of Change...

Now something new awaits us
Just across the summer horizon
Taking over now, just fate's lust
Oh how the Winds are Changin'...

Loving more and more each and every day
Where hearts are running free, and never slowing
Will this feeling, just for awhile stay?
The Winds of Change are blowing...

Now the Winds of Change are storming
From across the sparkling western sea
New outlooks on life and love, they're forming
In a couple years, where will love be?

But what is it now that I'm feeling?
It's something pretty strange
My world is shaking now, and reeling
Thanks to the Winds of Change


Details | Free verse | |

Portrait of Joe and Wanda

Written: March 8, 2012
Updated: August 15, 2012
Note: Sequel to An Evening at the Home

3:00 a.m. - There was a full moon, and all was well.

Restless, uneasy snoring in various pitches was the only music of the night.

Starched white uniforms did not dare wrinkle as the nurses moved from room to room.

Only the softest of tip-toeing was allowed.

Shoes did not dare make a sound against the cold floor. 

Breath was held as long as it took to not disrupt the unexpected calmness.

No one knew that Joe and Wanda had "run off to Las Vegas" to get married. 

Joe and Wanda knew that they had to "run off to Las Vegas" to get married.

They "ran" as far as the solarium.

Asleep, they each snored together restlessly.

5:00 a.m., Joe and Wanda received the sad news that they were not married.

5:05 a.m., they received the sad news that they were not in Las Vegas.

5:10 a.m. they were escorted back to their separate rooms.

5:15 a.m., they each snored separately.

7:00 a.m., they each woke up not remembering their own names.

8:00 a.m., Joe remembered his own name.

10:00 a.m., Wanda remembered hers.

10:30 a.m., Joe remembered Wanda's name.

Never again - Wanda remembered Joe's name.

Gail's note: To protect the privacy of those who have lived before us, the names have been fictionalized, and the events semi-fictionalized.

Part of the Portrait Poetry Collection


Details | Romanticism | |

Together Again

A girl whom he'd forgotten
At his door, showed up the other day
The one he'd always wanted
Just knew not what to say

The boy she longed to hold
She caught his eyes once again
Of her love, to him, she never told
But this time, all her love, she will send

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

She greets him with a smile
A sparkle in her eyes
For his love, she'd run for miles
To try this thing called love, just one time

Gazing at her beauty, he feels her in heart
Remembering those nights, with her, in his dreams
And how he felt at this whole love's start
Where they'd be one forever, to him, oh how it seemed

Well this girl's name was Katie, and his Steve
And oh how tears were shed, by them both, when they were forced to leave
But in the past that was, so now he holds her hand
Two angels together, forever they'll stand

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

An old couple now, a lifetime of love
They've conquered all, risen together, above
Together, all the years, oh how they've spent
And to each other, all their love they have sent

Feeling each others hearts beating every morning
Through all the decades, all the happy years
Steve's heart though, one of these days, stopped without warning
And Katie's wrinkled face, moistened with tears

How could Katie live now, without her beloved by her side
Knowing that beside her, his heart slowly died?
She dreams every night now, just as he did before, of heaven
Where they'll be Together Again

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again


Details | Romanticism | |

Goodbye my Summer Love

Though the midnight summer rains
as we sit together under the geraniums,
hanging low and at full bloom,
we hold hands and talk of old times;
times that were kind to us and our youth.
As summer storms light up the night skies
We kiss the storm away, as it rolls through the grey skies
and the lighting cracks the clouds in half,
riping a hole in the universe, as we kiss the night away.

We sit throughtout nightlong summer dreams
and talk, and we hear the storms roll into the golden hills
of summer meadows filled with roses and a field full of daisies.
Love rests in time to see us grow old together,
and love strengthens its walls and pulls us closer together.
We shall go now, as day turns to night,
into our chamber of love and sleep the night away, together.
Hold us close to each other, as I rest my head on you sweet bossom,
and you nurture me to life of talks of love and beauty.

Nature whispers and sings us songs,
as we kiss and go for walks through the countryside
looking at the golden hills soaked in the rolling storms
that summer offers every year, upon a silver platter.
Sooth me, my love as I tell you of the sorrow I have witnessed.
Embrace me with your curiousity and tell me of the beauty in
the secrets of life and its hidden messangers
that hold secret letters from Devils that send temptations
to destroy something that we share, that is so beautiful and true.
Tell me that life will be okay, and my love is still true and with you.
Tell me my sweet and beautiful love, tell me if everything will be alright.

Love has seen us come and go, through the narrowed and sprinkled streets,
as we move through life fused at hands and eyes blind, not noticing the possiblities of death at any moment stalking us with knives jabbing at our backsides.
We are blind, for we see each other and only each other.
As we live life eyes a blazed looking at the sun, we do not notice the obvious between us.
Caring from me, at my time of need I never noticed the betrayal of our love.
My heart sees, but I deny the obvious and see what I hear.

As I see the knife drive deep in my heart,
you with a suitcase in hand,
I stand on my front steps and I watch the summer storms
come back over the golden hills to say, "hello"
Love is the same everytime, like a summer storm;
beautiful to watch, but when it leaves, it is depressing to say, "goodbye"
Now I sit, as the geraniums dry up and die
and the wrinkles at my eyes make me blind,
I see love walk past my house and mock me with lone kisses.


Details | Free verse | |

Look at me

Look at ME!
I hold your gaze for untold amounts of time,
When others try to talk with you,
I’m so important,
That sometimes you won’t even look away from me,
When you see me, I am a window into the world,
A message from afar, limitless information,
I mesmerize you with my brightness and color,
Other things arent as important to you,
Other things need your affection,
But this bond we have is so strong, I have your attention most the time,
The world goes on around you but you hardly even notice,
Because to notice would reveal an absence 
An absence of romance, adventure and life,
I feel so special, if only I could feel,
I can tell you love me, but I can not love you back, for
I am, your smart phone, cell phone, I pad and computer,
look at me, look at me, look at me.


Details | Lyric | |

Blinded

Branded, like a cigarette
crushing flesh to the bone
paralysed by fear
though you struggle on your own
your ego 's got you wary
while your mind's in control
shut empty and on edge
Oh Down you go

No formal introduction
to a girl without a face
arms stretched out wide
consoles me with her grace
she says, she's got the answer
to any kind of pain
medicated love
pyrotechnics for the flame

Guess i am
your muse my friend
oh Yes I am
she says ... 


Details | I do not know? | |

Forever Angel

FOREVER ANGEL.

Right?

There is always an angel there by your side at all times. 

Even if you don't see or hear the angel, its always there.
 
Their there for you when things get tough. Right there by your side with an arm around your 
sholder.

                           (God didn't promise that life would be easy.
       But he did promise that he will be by your side every step of the way.)

 If you just think about this when you're alone, you'll relize that you not alone.
                
 
*please comment if you like or just have a thought. (or fav poem if you like*                       

                                   -Angel4eva23


Details | Verse | |

I love you

I Love You
8/28/12
By Sami LaRose

I love you
By: Sami J LaRose

If loving you is like a disease than I've been sick forever.
Falling in love with you each day only turns my heart more tender.
As the smiles turn into frowns
you feel as if your whole world has been flipped upside down.
Trapped in what seems like a never ending cycle;
Fall in love, get hurt, start over
Sometimes that's the only way I could feel sober.
As the nights get later, my hope vanishes into space
Another sleepless night alone is disgrace. 
Call it lust, call it love
Doesn't matter to me,
Do whatever you want as long as it makes you happy;
Just don't forget about me and all of our memories.
At once we loved deeply, laughed loudly, and had fun
But times have changed and there is no longer any sun
It's six P.M out past sunset, and the beautiful twilight starts to set into effect
A shooting star passes you by, you gently look up and stare at the sky 
Make a wish, make a wish and only hope that it will come true
Too bad it's only another wish about you


Details | Didactic | |

Second Thoughts

Why we always look away
From what our eyes desire to see?

Then we think
‘I should have…’

We look back
And we can’t see

It walked away -
We let it be

Why it always walks away
When we want to give a try?

We look back every day
And we pray for one last stand

Then we think back in regret
‘Why i hadn’t…’
Each time we cry

One day we will forget-
The day when we die


Details | I do not know? | |

Crazy in love

Another day, another beginning,
I begin the morning chanting,
Hoping that repeating my wish,
It would come true.
 
I sit at the sun-bathed breakfast table,
Remembering the times you sat across with a grumble.
The other times when you would put yours arms around me,
As I set the morning spread.
 
I walk into our memories-filled bedroom,
I remember as I put on your favourite perfume,
The first time you carried me across the threshold,
We were so in love, the newly-wed couple.
 
But I also remember the shadowed memories,
When you would hit me disregarding my pleas.
The times you would turn away in bed,
Refusing to speak to me, pretending to be a statue.
 
I dress in your favourite colours,
And take in a bit of one of your liqueurs.
Hoping it will give me the strength I need,
To face you, my husband, my weakness, the love of my life.
 
I walk out, closing the door behind me,
Wondering in what mood will you be,
I think of the times you'd say you're sorry,
The times you'd say you love me.
 
Times when you'd reach out and touch my cheek,
You'd say you miss me, that you're growing weak.
You want to come back home,
You'd say you're ready that you're okay.
 
I feel my eyes tear up as I think of the worse,
Times when you'd scream yourself hoarse,
When you'd pull my hair and tell me to get out,
Ending up in me running out crying.
 
Yet I come back every day,
For the better days I pray.
Sometimes we would sit staring into each others eyes,
Other times you would act like you don't know me.
 
But I cant help coming back to you,
Returning to the pain no matter what you do.
Sometimes I'm sure this is true love,
Other times i hate you for what you've done to me.
 
On some bad days I swear I'm never coming back,
The days when you hit me blue and black.
On good days I swear I'll never leave you,
The days you whisper sweet things and hold me tight.
 
Nevertheless i come every day,
Hoping everything will soon be okay.
The nurses stare in wonder, they don't understand,
This mad love in the psychiatric ward.
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | Ballad | |

Without You (Song)

Daylight fade,
Burning through my eyes,
She walked out of my life
Again, I'm feeling low,
One more time girl here we go,
Now I'm falling, a final time,
Wish the sunlight didn't shine

It's getting critical
But girl I just can't help it,
I'm feeling miserable
Without you I'm so helpless,
I can't even sleep
Don't want to be, without you,
It's getting hard to breathe,
There is no me, without you,

And baby I try and try
to let you go,
The more I fight,
The more I know,
There's nothing in this life,
I want to do,
Without you,

Passing days,
I try to ease my mind,
I want make it this time,
because, she's really gone,
Lying here I'm all alone,
with nothing, to comfort me,
I'm hanging on to memories,

It's getting critical
But girl I just can't help it,
I'm feeling miserable
Without you I'm so helpless,
I can't even sleep
Don't want to be, without you,
It's getting hard to breathe,
There is no me, without you,


And baby I try and try
to let you go,
The more I fight,
The more I know,
There's nothing in this life,
I want to do,
Without you,

It's getting critical,
Girl I just can't help it,

There's nothing
in this life,
I want to do,
Without you


Details | Sonnet | |

Till Shines The Day

Tenderly hits the rain on the window

Cheers my heart as it sweeps away the dust

Fits me between roses of green meadow

Deluding me to dream, or so I must

So softly it fell as poets may tell

Passes on the gentle chill of winter

Carries me to you as I hoped it will

Lost dreams to miss, and nights to remember

Still I remember what nights left behind

Still I rejoice when rain knocks on the door

As it flames my heart, too hopeful yet blind

To shine on sweet moments I have no more

For as rain drops sneak when sun is away

So does my heart, steals dreams till shines the day


From: Echoes (http://wp.me/1om48)


Details | I do not know? | |

Leave love to the brave

LOVE shoves us into glistening meadows,
Of unimaginable warmth, where ecstasy glows
LOVE also leads us to teary graves,
Of uncontainable darkness, where pain enslaves
So, teenage girls trotting over,
To find the four leaf clover
I say, leave love to the absolute brave
‘cuz, It’s more than just a fluttering rave!


Details | I do not know? | |

You're my EVERYTHING

           This is not my WORLD.

           You're my WORLD.

           You're my EVERYTHING.

           You're the FLOWERS, the GRASS, 

           You're my THOUGHTS,

           You're my EVERYTHING.
            
           This is not my WORLD.
           You're my WORLD.
                     
          So now.....
                be part of my.....
                                    LOVE.



                  *please comment if you don't mind, i'd really like to know your thoughts (fav poem if you like)*
                                                  
                                                            -Angel4eva23


Details | Lyric | |

Beautiful Inspiration

Beautiful and inspiring is he,
Who sees the world through rose colored glasses.
If only he could see what I see.
His sight is clouded with unfortunate sadness and melancholy
He views the world from a birds eye perspective,
He sees the beauty of the world around him...
Yet true love and honest beauty,
Grounded in reality
He has neglected.
He soars on eagles wings,
Beautiful inspiration is what he brings.
Strong and confident is he,
Yet blinded by loves unsure indemnity.
A broken heart, the gift of his passion
Has left him standing alone...
My beautiful inspiration.


Details | Ballad | |

Time to Add More Love

The world's just not the same
This empire in decline
Roses don't smell as sweet
Only grow half their size

And I say....

Baby, doesn't it make you feel sad inside?

And I say...

Baby, doesn't it make you want to cry?

Let's protect ourselves 
From the coming flood
Won't need no bullets
Just our shield of love

Let's protect ourselves
From the coming storm
Won't need no raincoats
While love keeps us warm

Time to put more wood
On the dying fire
Of hope

Time to add more love
Gonna raise this
Sinking boat

And I say....

Baby, doesn't it make you feel sad inside?

And I say....

Baby doesn't it make you want to cry?

You're all I need
To get through this 
Doom and gloom
Your love for me
And my love for you.


Details | Rhyme | |

I Never Was Trying To Play Games

I Never Was Trying To Play Games, though it mite of felt that way. I’m not going to sit here and make an excuse out of what was drug abuse. There is no excuse for me . I couldn’t let it be. Real is real Regardless of what you try an say away. If I told you, You where the most important. Could you plan to be here another day. Would you stand up and walk away from the love you know you can have and hold. All those old cliches, that standout so bold Lets grow old, or lets die together. Lets make this life forever. This real I feel is real relentless. But I am convinced with every fiber of my being . The love that once was so strong Still exist. In hidden Bliss.


Details | I do not know? | |

irresistible FADED memory

My heart is crushed yet is hushed,
I feel rushed, 
Six years was long,
I felt there is something wrong,
When I am with you, I don't feel strong,
Strongly feel things are prolonging.

Promises that you made,
Nothing came along, yet it fade.
Time is wasting into nothing,
Nothing worth while to keep.
We are still in step one,
My veins are popping out of anger,
My head is blowing out of pressure.


The storm has come,
My face is blank with no expressions,
Should I run?Panic?Relax?
Sorrow comes with a flow,
The mistakes that I made it shows.
Scared to face my fear,
Yet is near my dear,
Running without a parachute,
Walking on the clouds,


Not sure where life is taking me?
Curiosity kicks in,
Was all this a a long dream?
I want that dream to be true,
Your multi-personality is suffocating me,
Feeling your unpleasant status,
Makes me not want to be with you,
Question,questioning, questions?
You are unbalancing my weight,
I have always know that you are the one,
Until you ruined everything of my existence, 
With a long distance,
Now you made me unsure,
You are changing in a bad way,
I am scared to love you,
Because I don't recognize you as you.


Details | Blank verse | |

Letting Go

Let me stow 
Or let me throw
Away our love 
That died a while ago.

Let me wallow 
Or let me know
That you can 
Free me from my woe.

Let me grow 
Or let me show
Why I may never 
Truly let you go.

Let me go 
Or let me know
That you will 
Always love me so.

Let me sow 
Or let me bestow
All of my hope for us 
To again be struck by cupid’s bow.


Details | I do not know? | |

The Storm

Rain falls on the roof
Each drop plays a familiar note
I toss and turn no sleep to be found
The storm rages on

A chill fills the summer air
My body aches with fear and longing
No comfort to be found inside
The storm rages on

Raindrops hit my face
One by one, they awaken my senses
To erase fear, doubt, and sensibility
The storm rages on

Lightning streaks across the sky
I am blind to the dangers ahead
In the flash of light I see only hope
The storm rages on

As fast as it came
The rain starts to fade
I retreat inside my shelter
The storm rages on

My thirst overcomes me
I am consumed by the need
To feel the rain on my face again
The storm rages on

The stars shine like gems
On a cloudless night
I toss and turn no sleep to be found
The storm rages on


Details | I do not know? | |

Was it just all a DREAM?

You feel like your lost in love?
  Me. Many times.

     like when you hear his/her's voice your heart just *skips*
Or when you see them walking towards you....you can't breath.
 When you had your first kiss.  But not their's. but they still thinks it's cute.
Ya'll talk 24/7. Non stop. 
When he/she just stare's into your eyes you feel butterflies EVERYWHERE through your body.

But... when they stop talking to you, you get worried, scared.
 Or when they don't act the same way that they did when ya'll first were together.
  You don't know if its over or not. but you get confused and you can't work up the courge to 
talk to him/her.

                       Was it just all a DREAM? you'll soon find out when you talk to him/her.


*comment if you please. just want to hear your thoughts (or fav poem)* :)

                                                                              -Angel4eva23


Details | I do not know? | |

My Love

my love...

my love blossoms amidst the thunder

across the oceans and the beyond the seas

my love reaches out and touches

the moments of bliss as the loneliness flees

my love is simple
with profound feelings of yearning desire

my love rages within
the furnace of this aching heart's unquenchable fire

my love basks in the warmth of the knowledge

that in the spring it takes root and it will flower

my love breathes in the light fragrance

of her hair after her warm and delicate shower

my love remembers drowning in her eyes

of those ethereal moments frozen forever more

my love recalls the fleeting ticking of the clock

each minute apart stabbing at my very core

my love she knows I need her so

for she needs me just as much

my love she sprinkles light flourishes of her sensual touch

as my love for her continues to ceaselessly grow

my love reaches down into the crevasses of my of being

my love for her is held onto deep inside

for in the coming of the cold ache of seperation

my love settles between the folds of her heart, for 'tis there that my love for will reside

my love like an eternal dream caresses me in wakefulness and in sleep

and that is the feeling that I shall cherish

a feeling of love that has settled in me 

a feeling so pure and a feeling so very deep...


Details | Sonnet | |

Unreal

Like roses on a thorn I never knew
 What I thought was beneath and what was there
 I look inside and all I see is you
 And there I found I actually do care
 More than I deserve, you make me feel
 Am I awake? Or is this just a dream?
 Heart Beats, with a tear and my thoughts unreal
 Perhaps this world is more that what it seems;
 I hope someday you'll see what I see
 Away with your pity and no more sighs
 You'll look inside and tomorrow we will fly
 You'll change and the sky will darken its hue
 Whatever you become I will still love you


Details | Free verse | |

Crossed a path in vain

We were once a coupled one
Desperate, hungry trying to have fun
In spite of your freedom, you still pick me
This is the inspiration causing glee
Feel me purely satisfied only to flee
You will love my comfy ride indeed
Come to me and shower for free
All you need is to stand by me
You have given all to give to rid
Single-handedly made me live
This song you sing is clear to me
Like Anita Baker said, “You belong to me.”
Wipe away those tears for us
This is not going to be another bust
Or is this the fate of our lust
I can hear the ones hiding again from me
We could only imagine what they mean
Fate tore your heart again apart
We need to talk about this art
Make them flee away and far, you’ll see 
We could discuss them over tea
Rid of me is what you get
When you hide in the shadows, your new pet
Take my heart and make him see
I never thought you would do this to me
We were once a coupled one.


Details | Personification | |

Barnabas Collins




They visit me here though they think me dead They all think me a long time gone The mausoleum is quiet, with only a dark shadow Creeping upon its ancient walls, and thats of my own The heavy door seems to creek all of sudden I think Outside I hear the sounds of what seems like footsteps I open that very old secret door which leads to my rest And with a heavy heart consumed by this fire, I prepare for the kill But then, outside, there is no one, no one is there No one out there now to steal from me this time in here Outside now I catch only the furtive and dark shadows As I hear the lonesome cry of a howling wolf or hurting bird I dart quickly another look again to my ancestral and cold coffin My fateful resting place is one more time again safe No friend nor foe to release me to free me tonight from my woes And from all of my black and torturous betraying thoughts I, Barnabas Collins, I stand here in all this darkness alone As I close my weary eyes for another moment and rolling time Then again I hear the wind moaning and hear the wind weeping The dogs are howling and my wounded heart abates in the wind They're my only companions in my endless and perpectual sorrow. Dorian Petersen Potter aka ladydp2000 copyright@2010 July 22, 2010


Details | Sedoka | |

Dreams Die

A lifetime of love,
Our joyous expectation
Until Death knocked at our door.

We, entranced by love
Were guilty of forgetting
Death disrespects promises.


By Joyce Johnson 4/9/12
For contest "1-to 6 lines of romance and love  2nd in contest


Details | Lyric | |

COME HOME TO ME

I lie awake in my bed
Staring at the spring stars above my head
I can't take me to sleep
I've been feeling so nostalgic
I've been missing all your magic
and what they do to me

I let the autumn rain drench my body
It's no use admiring the raindrops on my feet
I've been missing your smile that is oh-so sweet

How many seasons must I have to wait
When will you come back to me, oh, I feel so sick
I feel like a small child waiting, dreaming, wishing
When will I see you again

Winter wind has me curling under your favorite quilt
You got me melting even with your scent
I've been listening to our kind of love song
This is the one we both used to sing along

Summer lights up the sky
It doesn't soothe me and i wonder why
I don't need a therapy
Just bring it back, the you and me

How many seasons must I have to wait
When will you come back to me, oh, I feel so sick
I feel like a small child waiting, dreaming, wishing
When will I see you again

How many seasons must I have to wait
Must I believe that what we have is fate
How many more monsoons have yet to pass
How many miles more before this would last

Come home to me, Come home to me
Don't think about it and just come home
Come home to me


Details | Free verse | |

Standing Again

         Standing up Again
Just Like a national history book
Our moment is sticking on me
Like some weird painful cicatrix
That are bitting my corporal soul

You took me from the shiny sky
And you buried me in the darkness
Alive, with a knife set in my heart
There, I met the unconscious condition

I was worthless, I spent two years 
In the sensational rehabilitation
While I was motivated to see her    
Magic happened, I was Standing up again
 
I stood up again and I went to her
She saw me and sent a desolate face
Inside me, the reason was against the love
However, I was ready to be hitting again

Highly, she smiled and erased the past
I felt her sorcery power over me
I kissed her and knew she'll be more 
painful
But I want to stay even though she'll burn 
me to ash


Details | Rhyme | |

Jab We Met

The day you came into my life 
I was betrayed by my wife 

I was broken, I was crying 
To console me, you were trying 

Your words were very soothing 
And I could feel clouds of despair moving 

My heart started racing 
And my thoughts started pacing 

Your eyes are so amazing 
And your lips are so seducing 

My pulses started beating 
Cos your curves are very tempting 

I forgot everything about my wife 
And asked, will you come into my life?


Details | Free verse | |

The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

WHERE FROM HERE: Part 1

He and she started in a dream, and 
both didn't want to wake up.
So in love, they hardly had to say it - 
they never wanted it to stop.
They looked into each others eyes 
often, and played and entertained.   
                                    Both ached with 
happiness, like the moon twirling off 
the rooftop.                          
         An idealic world they made,  a 
twosome that no one could top.         
                 
                       Both begged, "please 
don't ever stop."                                   

She was spunky and had 
personality, who's desire was to 
please.
Talents many, but put in 
background, cuz she put him on top.
She didn't know what way was best, 
so she languished in his eyes.
          Intertwined with her lover, as 
he, thought of each other nonstop.
          Infatuation won, they kept 
delighting, they did not ever stop.
                       So she sang "please 
sweetheart, don't stop"

He is brilliant, but lost, lost and she 
hope he finds his way.                           
  
Mind swimming what he should do, 
will do, he's in his head nonstop.
She loves him, all mixed up and 
hidden,  lucky to been called his.
          But  he strums his guitar, til he 
figures and has the drop.
          He wanted to do something, 
trying to avoid labeled a sop.
                       But he's sure, "it's time 
to stop."

He is weary from his troubles, and 
he's stumbling to keep up.
Voices of his past haunting him, and 
wondering will they ever stop.
He needed time alone, to start, to 
find purpose in his life.
           But still waiting at the screen, 
hopeful, at his own desktop.
         " Proud",  what he longed to 
hear, as he stared at own backdrop.
                        Sadly dwelling, "he has 
to stop."

Con't....


Details | Rhyme | |

Bedtime Story

Mistakes where made and fingers was pointed
Falling from the trees
Hearts was crushed and time was lost
Blowing away with the breeze

Words being said that slowed the time
In its depth we drowned
Our smile crosses its fingers
Hiding our emotions frown

Long forgotten fables and tales of dreams
Spoke till I sleep inside
Potions of sounds musical notes
Brewing what I hide

Chattering leaves confide our secrets
Their season pigment our lips
Entwined together forever 
Drinking in sips

Clashes of tides fill our cup
Running over with forever
Fairy tells crashing letting go
Of what we believed to be forever


Details | Rhyme | |

Beneath Still Waters

Behind all the forced smiles

Behind the portrayed brave face

Behind the seemingly jovial eyes

Lies a traumatized and hurting lass

 

She trusts no one

Into her heart she allows no one

For she had allowed once

To trust and allow someone

 

Trusting and believing so easily

Laughing, loving and adoring

Had been so fulfilling

But its now hurting

 

She's intent on breaking the yoke

The next time she receives a poke

She hopes she won't puke

But return the poke

 

She is tired and worn

After being trodden on

She needs to lay down

All her baggage and burden

 

She wants to be free!


Details | Lyric | |

Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


Details | Lyric | |

Have You Heard The News Today

Have you heard the news today?
He told her of his love
Have you heard the demons say:
"She's right there in your hands"

Took a chance that never was
Ever mine to take
I would do most anything
If there's happiness at stake

But a bigger mistake has never been made
I'm losing my mind as sanity fades
Uncertainty kills more than rejection
And pain is the price for love and affection

Lonely days and sleepless nights
Drowned him in blue
But he didn't realise
That he meant nothing to you

Played your games for far too long
Now it's time for one of mine
But if you only ever knew
That I'm just killing time

But deep down I know I cant help myself
My sentiment's clear no matter how stealth
I'm not the same when you're in sight
This is a feeling that I cannot hide..


Details | Lyric | |

May I Sing

In fact I 'said' just to conclude, 
just for a moment to, 'deem the light switch, 
just as flunet as in to 'day and night.

(US)  Daring to take the passion, 
passive as in the night, to kiss on the hand of a palm, 
i played to the fool and rewind asking is that just the spot.

Forward to good sight, blink, 
and forwarding the night, 
and appealing to end it all, 
every gentle scent, 
of scent of good night, 
but wait there is more...

Fear so deep feeling that of distance,
I was in sin! ! ! 
Emotion bearing so close for a solution, 
But wait you are no were near just to say.....

ponding and left loose, 
of a king what should i do but look for clues....

(Her) manifesting tears up a mess up feeling of you, 
that twirl like that dear blue fist of fool of this dudy, 
and ask where was you, 
you of all people should of had knew, 
what was so close to of brand new, 
if you only knew! ! ! 

plaguement of spades emblament me like shades, 
but yet placing me a shame.
as a king the distances of a morning of a evening 
we share such a place.....

(Me)  Signs by paint curve into place, 
envy of a saint but that due tell my place,
of silent end note, pleasure of shoulder, 
wait put it is snowing and like a palm of sand i never put of footing, 
and i could say just "wait"....

Duration of mind mint filling of scented that never could "wait", 
but such blessing kisses is are to awake,
are out of reach.
but what could be more realler of a slow post rain dropp of you 
and sitting next, next of thinking of you! ! ! 

(US)  
Saying, Knowing, What should been of us. 
Thinking now I just want sing. just to sing! ! ! 
AND OF WHAT MEALODYS, 
ASKING MY Self,
MAY I SING! ! ! !


Details | Blank verse | |

Night And Day

This gray day fades away.
The evening sunset paints the clouds,
Beauty beheld through transparent shrouds.

Awaiting his return,
For he is whom for I yearn.

I won’t cry as I see the purple sky.
I know he shall come home tonight.

This gray day fades away.
The night dyes the sky navy,
Beauty meld with lights from windows.

Sitting in his room,
For he will soon free me from gloom.

I won’t cry as I see the lit city.
I love how even loneliness has beauty.


Details | Chant Royal | |

UNFORTUNATE LOVE

UNFORTUNATE LOVE
Once more it's morning and I greet the dawn,
waking to feelings I've known,
breathing the fragrance that's lingering on
throughout a lifetime alone;

splinters of sunshine are drifting through blinds,
revealing dust I breathe in,
dancing through flashes, and somehow reminds
of things that never have been;

I hear a song and it's what I've dreamed of,
outside my window they mourn,
I'd face the morning, but I need a shove,
for this poor heart badly torn;

unfortunate dove, why is it you sing,
outside my window each day?
It's a reminder of what life won't bring,
mourning dove, don't fly away;

once more it's morning and I hear the dove
all of my life is a sin,
it's just the way of unfortunate love,
but I still dream now and then.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa


Details | Ballad | |

Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


Details | Rhyme | |

If I die before I wake

As I die he will be with me,
I fell in love he had the key,
And always knelt on one knee.

My last thoughts are of him, 
As the lights go dim,
Life circling on a rim.

All at once we are apart,
The taste is so tart,
It all hits me in the heart.

You are left to live,
My heart your captive,
There is nothing to forgive.

My cheeks blush so shy,
With a tear in my eye,
As I start to die.

Fear not for I am well,
As many up here can tell,
It is not quite hell.

As I look from above,
kissing the forehead of my love,
I wonder what he dreams of.

I look at him so fondly,
his lips curve so grandly,
as he sleeps so soundly.

I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed,
I wish to be with him but I am dead,
My life over and has fled.

I fear for my love for he is kind,
Strong handsome and well lined,
But now I leave him way behind.

Finding love is like a quiz,
Never knowing what it is,
He needs love from a heart as strong as his.


Details | Sijo | |

Obsession

This poem is written in the form of a Sijo. A Sijo is traditionally composed in three lines of 14-16 syllables each, totaling between 44-46 syllables. In a Sijo, the poem is either thematic or narrative
Line 1 introduces a situation or problem
Line 2 provides a conclusion, which usually begins with a surprise
Line 3 resolves the problem or releases the tension by providing a memorable ending.

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This poem has a total of 45 syllables.
Line 1 consists of 14 syllables
Line 2 consists of 16 syllables
Line 3 consists of 15 syllables



                     **Obsession**

His smitten intuition, disturbed by every suspicion,
Like an addiction, fueled aggression, he craved her affection,
What started as just muffled cries, ended in a fatal night.



Written by
Rashana King


Details | I do not know? | |

A life long lived.

Crescent, Fraddle, gentle light fill's the moonlight as youre eyes glisten through mine.
Filling every fulll glowing touch, in a darkened bay, You stare into my eyes, the question why 
passes youre mind once or twice. You're sitting there, drenched in what we shared, every 
memory, and love you cared. You were there to pick me up, and put me back in place, Ill 
never forget youre words of wisdom, and youre glowing bright face. Youre heart pumps at 
the race of suicidal thoughts in time, This feeling i cant let go, its such a crime. Its a long 
lasting chance to break free, and renew what we thought we could of had, this molment of 
loss, this colors checkerd plaid. So many patterns and runon's through this aftermath in an 
after glance that shines brighter then the stars, no matter where we are from pluto til mars. 
Ill travel to the highest peak, the highest mountain my lovve, from the hell's of low, and 
highest heaven above. Take into mind, that letting go willl not set us apart, but if you love 
somone you set them free, because you'll always be forever in my heart.


Details | Blank verse | |

Without You

I’ve thought this through,
I’ve decided to find someone better than you.

I know we’re through,
I realize our love was not true.

I am ready to follow on through,
I finally choose to move on without you.


Details | Free verse | |

Shoved to shake me

So stellar you stood nearing immortality 
Shoved me away today, I'm only a calamity 

Strengthen the brain before and again
Take the comfort level down to a chagrin

Dwindle my emotions on love today
To be stoned away from you is my pay

Where you are is mine only to wonder
Would you even mind if I were to ponder

I'm so bent up, straighten me out now
It hurts to be only this for you now

Take it all away in all your ways
I'll be here apparently for a few more days

I can give you anguished attention
This you will ignore during our loving detention

So stellar you stood nearing immortality
Shoved me away today, I'm only a calamity  


Details | Romanticism | |

Betrayal

Love is betrayal
A knife in the heart.
A stone that breaks my bones
Love is betrayal,
that lies to you about dreams of care and kindness,
but stabs you in the back
with disloyality
when you are not looking.

Is it possible for a writer to face so much heartbreak?
Is it possible to be faced with so much pain,
that if I had a penny for every time I'd had my heartbroken
I'd be a millionaire five times over.
It is true,
I am not lying to you;
why should I?

Love is betrayal
I can't take the pain anymore
to feel such pain, I'd rather whether just ask the Gods
to strike me down with painless and peaceful death,
and sleep as the faceless faces come and place lilacs
and roses upon my chamber of the dead.
What killed this lonesome writer, who loved everyone,
but was showed no love before?
I heard he died of a broken heart,
and that was what it was... A broken heart.

Love is betrayal,
trust me
for I cannot waste a single moment more
feeling this pain deep in my heart
that tears at my soul and heart with shapened talons.
Keep sleeping, with your eyes so blind,
can't you see what you are doing to me?
If you'd feel my pain, you'd sit down with me and weap.
It is easy to read these wordless words, that probably have no meaning to you.
To me this is poetry that sings songs of sorrow,
that fuses my heart together and plays songs of saddness
as I sit in a lonesome cell, praying for betrayal to leave,
leaving not a single trace of its existence.

Love is betrayal,
a knife stabbed deep in the heart.
A stone that is thrown at my mirror of transperanecy.
Can you see the pain that love has given me?
I was brought up to believe love is a magical thing,
a true feeling that makes you think diffrently about strangers.
Strangers are strange, with blind eyes
they cannot see what they do too me,
when they blindly stab away at my heart with their heated blades.

Love is a betrayal
that goes behind your back
and laughs at your sorrowed soul,
and as you turn to them all, they come all with smiles and hugs.
Once I turn again they laugh again,
and take their blade and stabs me in the back.
And I cry, but no one stops and listens,
No one cares, truely cares for my sorrow.
So, I wipe away my tears
remove the knives from my heart,
and I walk down the lonesome boulevards
Listening to the sorrow cries of lovers kissing on park benches.
Then I slowly awake from this dream,
but I cannot, for this dream is not in a surrealist piece of work,
for it is realism at its best.

Love is betrayal... love


Details | Triolet | |

Chains of Love

The chains of love do have you bound
  Joy inside of you is no longer real
The life within is hardly found
  The chains of love do have you bound
Your friends are no longer around
   I  do know just how this pain feels
Joy inside of you is no longer real
The chains of love do have you bound


Details | Rhyme | |

STEERING AWAY FROM U

STEERING AWAY FROM U !!!


Time has come for Me to depart
Its hard for Me to stay apart
Knowing that pain would just start
I kept U in dark My sweet heart

Days spent were really great
Cant forget the untimely wait  
U always made sure to be late
Just to see Me waiting at the gate

Ur memories being the only medicines , 
To get rid of the loneliness
And to get away from the stress
I know, those will never expire 
And would continue to lit the fire 

Would miss U
From sunrise to sunset
Dream of U
From sunset to sunrise

I know,
Days would not easily flew
My love for U would never discontinue
But For the moment 
I M steering away from U !!! 


-------YASHU


Details | I do not know? | |

tHe siLeNt cRiEs oF aNorExiA .

my stomache burns 
i do not want to eat 
he says i shouldnt
i agree 
he stairs with disgust
i look away with shame 
after every meal 
i run to that bathroom 
..i gag myself
letting out all my anger
all my frustration
..all my hurt 
i walk out with a smile 
a smile ,hiding pain
hiding bruises
this is too much 
..for me
he finds pleasure in my pain
pleasure in my tears
..in my silent cries


Details | Free verse | |

Not Even Death Could Swoon Him

Living to love?
Stab me swiftly
In the heart. Where
He watches as its
Red empties
Itself.

The meat tastes like pity.
So he smiles at me with pity,
Holds my hand with pity.
I am his,
In pity.

Enough.

A past perpetuating pity
Has no future for a love.
Remove His scythe.
And the fool, one day, will restore
Until I hurt for his love, once more.


Details | I do not know? | |

Concluding Statement

My distraught, the thought, has lost a battle unforgot. 
I take, I give, the very words I live.
I've done, The sun, outrunning the only one. 

My actions are not my own, a story, I've stitched, I've sewn. 
I wait, I learn, my destiny turning to fate, I cannot see in my current state. 
The pain is neigh, a calder or a bite, my fatigue outweighs my might. 

Crowned, sound, the darkness reaks no havok. And atop I take the stand. 
Demand, reprimand, the status of your rendzevous. 
The story's conclusion, I cannot seem...
to find the tragic end to...


Details | Rhyme | |

Kardia Thief

This story is as old as time
But it feels new to me
A girl to whom I'd give the world
But it will never be.

Why is it that I have no say
In what my heart desires
My sadomasochistic mind
Which starts internal fires.

My subconscious is mocking me
And laughing at my sorrow
It ceases for the shortest time
Just to return tomorrow.

I try to shake this futile dream
But I can't help this feeling
Inside my heart
Which part, by part
She's unconsciously stealing.


Details | Blank verse | |

Today

The creative course of love runs through the veins
By God, it has enveloped my very life in faint luster
It is now an illusion I have mastered and made real
There will be no lies written on my depleting heart
For Doubt was there masked inside the vibrant ball
All told her it was to be a masquerade, and she fell
Yes! Doubt fell into an illusion of trust and feral light
She locked herself away for good that doleful night    
While all danced and were joyous in lore and drink
Doubt turned her head to the door of blissful night 
And she never looked back; not for a slight moment

Furtively their love grew as vines entwining sea green
Ballets flared inside menace and ghoulish, garish glee
Lonely larks will always sing as far as the eye can see
But Doubt in its dark sings beyond what is you or me
I am in love with her; she is life and something new
And I cringe to speak the truth; oh clandestine mind!   
Yes, it was I who had invited Doubt to the vibrant ball
And it was there, without notice, she fell in my arms
In an unforgiving, comatose faint—a revolutionary state
Her face to the door, bleeding black and nothing more
The last moment I stared into her bleak, pale features

Doubt's masquerade I had mastered had at last begun!
The crowd swelling all around me, all in dark costume
Oh, God knew it was only a guiltless, simple gathering
But here they remained—the DEMONS ever smothering
The faces were cruel and their camouflage unforgiving
Doubt had now left me writhing, splitting, crying—LIVING 
As crowds danced around my uncovered, sniveling face
The spineless love of my life gone now without a trace
There no drink to drown away the ever-placed sorrow
There no high hopes of inevitable, hopeful tomorrow
There is only today—and today I cruelly, drolly LOVE


Details | Lyric | |

Storm In The Wind

(Oh Girl),
You're like the storm and the wind, 
Tearin up the city and breaking the 
trees, 
Whenever I'm around you girl, 
I get weak, 
You're breaking my heart, 
And tearing up me, 
(Chorus) 
Breaking my heart, 
Breaking my heart,  (Tearing up me)
(Ooh girl)
I know we will make it, 
Even though the wind is blowing 
careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'll get weak, 
Stop breaking my heart, 
Bringing me to my knees,
(Chorus) 2x 
Even though the love hurricane is 
blowing careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'm too weak, 
You breaking my heart, 
You're the storm of the week. 


Details | Rhyme | |

Rapped Heart

You ripped my heart out
You used it as a cushion without consideration

You ripped my heart out
You left me in despair without a care

You ripped my heart out
You used it to keep yourself occupied and took me for a joyride

You ripped my heart out
You left be wondering about this ambivalent relationship, something I could 
never grip

You ripped my heart out
You used my hopes from the get-go, made it seem like such a natural flow

You ripped my heart out
You left me with anger, doubt, sadness, hurt something I can't construe as 
you left me the way 
that I had found you

You might as well of ripped my heart out - you wore it out


Details | Free verse | |

Checkered

I tried to regain whatever
it is that remained from
the shattered glasses
that broke the stillness
of that night.

I tried to smile again
and forget about everything
that makes this heart go into a 
place
where butterflies flutter in the 
breeze.

I tried to forget about
that day when the rain didn't 
stop falling
just when you decided not to 
come.

Time will pass.
The white statues by the park
will crumble but not
the memories of the walks we 
have spent there.

Time will pass.
I wish our memories would too.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

You Danced With Me Tonight

You danced with me tonight underneath the starry sky, You held my hands tenderly and I felt I could fly. Suddenly I felt how it was like to be your girl, Never minding if the surroundings were in a swirl. But gravity pulled me down from the clouds very fast, And the fall shattered my heart into thousands like glass. So I held you tight, never desiring to let go, Let go of this moment that I have been waiting for. Knowing that the tune will stop and this dance will end soon, I wanted very much to wrap my arms around you And tell you I'm just here waiting to be loved by you. Love, even though I knew that I could never do so, It was greatly enough for me to just hold you tight. Let me hold you tight just for this dance, just for tonight.


Details | I do not know? | |

Love Right!?

People think they have to say "i love you" in relationships..
 
but no not really...

some times it makes me feel like i HAVE to say i love you if some one says it to me.

" i love you is a very very special word"

people have to understand that they have to be wise with the word "i love you" 

because if  you say it to anyone... then when you really mean it.. it wont feel ture....




*comment on what you think*
            
                                 -Angel4eva23


Details | ABC | |

MidNight Wishes

Even though i did not hear your voice tonight i'm still ahit,
I will go on like this for ever, i wont go out without a fight. 
I'll fight till the end of this life to win your heart,
All you have to do is tell me when to start.

The music blarrin in my head phones at 1:52 AM and i'm lovin it, 
cause it helps me remember your gorgeous smile like it was meant to fit. 
Wanting to feel your touch and kisses all over me ignites the fire in me,
Wanting to take you by your hand and run wild in a big sea. 

There aint much i can say to express myself but this will have to do for tonight,
I think its just that i haven't reached height.
You no I love you and that's all that matters or will ever matter to me,
I will love you till i die, like I told you before, cant you see? 
 


Details | Rhyme | |

Light Pt.1

A day or work
A day of chore
A day of want
A day of bore

The day I ran
This day I can
The sky then clear
to light so dear

Routine broken (with)
Every word spoken

Then the light faded
then I went jaded
then around friends
gossip was elated

That day has ended
All actions are suspended

No method of contact
No method to act
No way to find the light
The light has lost my sight
(I have been disconnected)


Details | Lyric | |

Escape These Walls

You Build These Walls To Make a Home
For Yous Both To Live In
And The Day She Left She Dug a Hole..
How You Wished You Never Let Her.
Now You Stand In the Rain Because You finally Realise...

...She Was Your Shelter!

And All You Can Stand To think About
Is the Last Day...

..That You Felt her

But I'll Be Here For You
Because The Day I Built My Walls...

....He Left Me Too..

Months Pass On And You Wake To The Sun
And Oh God How You Wished You Felt It,
And Though The Rain Has Gone
You Still See The Hole She Left Up On Your Ceiling..

But I'll Be Here For You!
Because The Day I Built My Walls...

    


 He Left Me Too


Details | Rhyme | |

Together Forever

There once was a girl and a guy
their love was more than love.
But their love was soon to part,
in minutes they would be together 
only at heart.

She lies in her bed waiting to die,
as he sits, he thinks in his head,
"I wish I was dead"
"There is nothing more that I would love,
then to go with you into heaven above"
He thinks to himself
"If only there was a way,
a way to keep you in my arms for another day"

He turns to her and says,
" I'll love you forever and when you die,
I can do nothing but cry"
She lifts her head from her dying bed and whispers to him,
"I love you with all of my heart"
She held his hand to say goodbye.
He looked into her eyes and saw her try,
try to hang on to what was already gone.
He held her hand and felt her pulse drop,
but before anyone knew what had happened,
they both were gone.

Together at heart, we will never part.
Forever and ever, we will be together.


Details | Free verse | |

Done For Good

Her look that day,
Should have told me everything she could not say.
Unprepared, I stared.
She walked away.
As she tossed our ring,
I felt the sting.

If I’d known then
How I feel today,
I'd heal the abscess and my heart’s decay,
Before her affection left me there that day.

JS Lambert


Details | Rhyme | |

When I left You

I left you standing in the woods,
because my conscience said it was for your  very own good.
My lifeless heart tears when I see that look in your eyes, 
the look of sadness which I strongly despise.
Lying on the ground your staring at me in shock,
so hurt you can't even walk.
But I know this is all for the best,
to let you live life like all the rest.
You are my angel, the light of my life,
to leave you like this cuts like a knife.
I want to run back and hold you so tight,
never letting you out of my sight.
I'll miss your blushing cheeks and y our beating heart,
and it will make the dead one in me tear apart.
You are my drug, my life, and my soul mate,
to change you would fill me with personal hate.
Running away, I left my soul, 
without you I will never be whole.
I love you so much and that’s what gives me t he strength to let you go, 
I'm hurting inside, but I don't let it show.
You deserve someone better, someone who isn't a monster like me,
someone who won't make you live life for eternity.
I am running far away, 
begging you to stay.
My conscience is slowly pulling me back,
I tell you to be happy and you can love black.
Rose said you jumped from a cliff,
and running through my mind are a million "what ifs".
You have lost your life because of me. 
I cannot live without you so I run to the Volturi 
I demand them to kill me but they will not fulfill,
so I run to the village and sparkle in the sun rays,
I have nothing more to say.
they have no choice but to let me die,
for life is over in my eyes.
Without you I am lost,
I will join you at any cost.
I’m almost there I’m almost free,
away from living eternity.
Then I hear a scream and a cry,
they turn into sobs and I don't know why.
Slowly I turn around,
and the owner to the sweet voice is no where to be found.
Then I feel the faintest grip,
someone running and then they trip.
I look down,
and all I see is a frown.
I see your eyes swimming with tears,
and in them are a million fears.
I hold you tight against my chest,
having you near is finally a rest.
How could I be so stupid and believe such a lie,
I would never want you to die.
I have no choice but to believe that its true,
that this person in my arms is really you.
Why did I not just listen to my heart,
why did I think it would be better from the start.
All I wanted was to protect
but what I did was even worse then I would expect.
I will promise you I will leave you never,
and also that I will love you forever


Details | Light Poetry | |

The Right Key

The other day You did pull those curtains back ever so gently as you exposed me to the light With your opening of windows I could breathe again The air rushing in I looked at you and a tear jumped from the corner of my eye I knew your love was never a lie For you’re the only one that has found the right key That key engages the happy me


Details | Bio | |

My Stages of Love

It starts out as a small attraction Builds up to an intense infatuation You become in tune to everything she do Trying to make her smile when she feeling blue Her laugh brings a small heat to your chest Go to sleep and she's in your mind as you rest You've been hit with the arrow of cupid Back up before you do something stupid You talk but you talk less and less She likes you but as a friend at best You fall off and make her a stranger Realizing that your heart is in danger The two of you no longer communicate You try hard to force your love to relocate Rumor hits and you find out she got a man Of this you're not a enthusiastic fan Anger steps in and you go off on anyone Body light but your heart weighs a ton The bars in the gym seem so much lighter You want to fight but your not a fighter You no longer care about many things One female reduced you to fighting Athletic ability improved 10 fold Then a breakdown as your heart turns cold Soon you become useless Friends know something wrong but they clueless You feel pain, and intense depression Nose and eyes run and you blame it on a cold infection At last your close friends realize whats going on Tell you what you already know, To move on You look at them but you say nothing back Waiting for your emotions to come back Pain is long but nothing last forever You come back like the sun in stormy weather You laugh and kick it with your friends Until the stages of love happen all over again


Details | Lyric | |

I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


Details | Ballad | |

Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nothing gold can stay.
Sometimes u find it slips away,
Something close that u can touch,
But in the end it was to much,
Like a flood flowing through a city,
Life is hard when u live in pity,
Things may be good but turn bad,
Sometimes it makes u really sad,
Days and nights may go,
Just have to live life nice and slow,
Maybe somethings may not be right,
Its never good to pick a fight,
Sometimes u find it slips away,
Nothing gold can stay.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Things To Give Away

Tarny was a little bear 
A teddy bear he be 
Coat was as white as snow 
To this we all agree 
. 
Tarny was a Christmas gift 
Given to a lady fair 
Was sent by her Tarnished Knight 
How she wished that he was there 
. 
Tarny wore a little coat 
Where pinned upon his sleeve 
A note from her Tarnished Knight 
Said "will you read me please " 
. 
"Sorry I can't be with you 
On this Christmas day 
I know its very hard for you 
That I'm so far away" 
. 
"So I am sending Tarny 
For you to now embrace 
I will be there very soon 
Then I will take his place" 
. 
"Tarny has a special gift 
He'll make your dreams come true 
Just close your eyes and make a wish 
You will see what he can do" 
. 
Tears now flowed from her eyes 
Squeezing Tarny oh so tight 
Closed her eyes and made wish 
To dream of the Tarnished one tonight 
. 
That was some time ago 
In another Christmas past 
Once there was hopes and dreams 
Somehow they didn't last 
. 
Tarny now is put away 
Never sees the light of day 
Shares a space with odds and ends 
In box of " things to give away" 
. 
Fleece once of snow flake white 
Now has stains of crimson red 
Came from a broken heart 
Oh! how Tarny bled 
. 
So if you find a little bear 
Slightly stained in red 
May not be a teddy 
But this Tarnished Knight instead 


Details | Quintain (English) | |

A CHEATER IS A LIAR

A cheater is a liar,
and with time more skills he acquires...
any woman would fulfill his desires,
if she doesn't care
whom he loves when his heart cries. 


An unscrupulous lover does 
is ignite more fire and open a wound...
until he burns and needs cool lips
to soothe what has consumed
with a hunger not easily satisfied.
  

A cheater is a liar indeed,
and he promises a hundred roses
by plucking their thorns,
so that no heart will bleed...
when it discovers his secret.


Love someone you can fully trust,
search for hints to avoid the worst;
getting hurt once is enough,
listen to the tone of his voice...
see the uneasiness in those eyes.


A cheater is a liar,
who hands you the key to Paradise,
and he constantly smiles to hide many lies;
if he showers  you with too little kisses...
somebody outhere arises his desire.


I couldn't see myself in his clothes,
or even walk in his straying shoes...
many more despised looks I will resent
for being so uncaring and unfaithful 
to whom I should prove my intent.       


A cheater is a liar,
when he takes off his shirt smelling of perfume,
jumping in the shower to get rid of evidence...
fearing the harshness of a sentence;
oh, he even forgets to comb he dishevelled hair!


Details | I do not know? | |

cHeckmATE

Three months is date 
Six months our hearts pulsate 
Ninth month is here
If there isn't hate
Then soon will be a year  
We're really to believe it to be fate? 

Smothering ourselves in this theory 
A concept based solely upon the idealistic "soulmate" 
By this, we incorrigibly infatuate 
Neglecting what's real 
Ignorantly becoming our own hostages 
Essentially an internal inmate 

Prisoners who fear 
Distrust 
And self mutilate 
We're sitting patiently as we wait
And wait
Just to wait

Playing these games we're burdened to tolerate
Causing confusion 
Creating heartache

But in the end I'm betting all that I've got
Betting on the most evident of facts 
As I'll always be the first to call... 







Checkmate


Details | Rhyme | |

Yet, I Still Thrive

Does my face retrace the anger,
of a once distant love affair?
Do my curves exhaust a notion,
that at one time we kindly cared?
Yet, I still thrive.

Does my smile rile your insides,
and shadow a subtle act?
Do my hips which sway in elegance,
bestow this monstrous attack?
Yet, I still thrive.

Does my laughter force the cringe,
grimaced upon your face?
Do my fingers not gently guide you,
to a once happy, exotic place?
Yet, I still thrive.

Does my spirit not depict beauty,
of a once stunning shore?
Do my lengthy legs not confine you,
in perfect synchronization anymore?
Yet, I still thrive.

Does my sensuality no longer appease,
the thirst once quenched within?
Do my eyes announce the sadness,
of forever living in sin?
Yet, I still thrive.

Does my lonely heart sob uncontrollably,
noting a broken bond of hate?
Do my tears not convey the purpose,
of two lost souls with opposite fates?
Yet, I still thrive.



Details | Blank verse | |

Impossible to Forget

Mine imagination carries mine heart to thee.
Sweet remembrances of thee weigh heavily upon mine mind.
 Tis with certainty I shall never forget thee, thine honey’d kisses
or arms of rapturous joy.
In dawn’s earliest hour mine heart over takes mine most honest thoughts
with the inescapable truth of the aching wound, that I shall never be adored by thee again.
I shall never again be thy soul thought, or occupy thy dreams in thy sweetest slumber.
Mine senses are seized with dreamy numbness, and mine every waking 
hour filled with thoughts of thee.
For better devotion I should have attended thee, and sought thee even the more earnest.
Mine dearest love, thy pursuit should have been mine soul's purpose. 
For thou art love the deepest yearning of mine heart.
Denied thy love, I forever am condemned to live as though I 
were dead, fraught with sorrow all mine days
	


Details | Free verse | |

Up to up

Fed up
fixed up
dressed up
turned up
stood up
gave up
p.......up
fed up.

Peter Dome. copyright.2012.


Details | I do not know? | |

Valentine's Day Poem, Of Sorts

 Valentine’s Day Poem

Never knew what to do
With the roses he brought me,
After the red had rotted
And soothing scent had slipped.
  So I leave them,
  Weeping, Wilting,
  In a coffin vase
  By my window,

As I dream
About dandelion weeds
Swimming in a field of green,

Free.


Details | Free verse | |

Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

I'll See your face again
I swear it
No matter how far away they take you from me
Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid
Death is a Dream


The Cross Will Be lighter
Whisper the words
so sacred, so somber

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone
What Happened here must be true
I must live this life without you

Breaking the Silence
She began to Weep
The Epitaph ceasing to know 
We all must Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock
Of argentine fears swallow the last soul
Goodnight black rose of eternity
Goodnight dearest gothic phantom
Tonight The Earth consumes me




**Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**


Details | ABC | |

roses on my chest

                                          The rose’s on my chest keep on growing. 
                             When that knife touched my heart where she once belonged. 
                                                           We were finally one.                                                                                                                                                                               my last breaths are still meant for her this is the most hellish, painfulest and  
                                                         heavenliest,                                                                                                      .                                                    feeling ever owned. 
                                                 As i leave this earth i leave her. 
                                       This is not the way i want to leave but by her hand, 
                                         i once held is the only way i wish to leave


Details | I do not know? | |

You and I



You and I.


You.

Your heart blazed,
with a warmth of spirit,

soothing,

alluring,

soaked in truth.



Your smile burned,
branding me permanently,

gentle,

tender,

enveloping my being.



Your love was complete,
from the depths of your soul,

unsaid,

yet fierce,

bathed in silent knowing.



Your dreams were poetic,
fluttering in the afternoon breeze,
infused with the distilled essence of rhyme.


I.

I squandered your generosity of spirit.

I vainly discarded your priceless poems.


Now I stand,

alone,

empty,

desolate,

wasting away,

rotting inside, day by day.




Details | Lyric | |

Im Only Me When Im With You

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

When I see your smile
I stop and think
Why oh why
Cant he see
What hes doing to me
Oh baby please
Just be with me

Your always on my mind
Is it the way your always kind?
You know i want you
But theres nothing i can do
I wanna be in your arms
Away from all harm...

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I wanna be yours
Boy cant you see
Your the world to me 
I cant go a day without you
Thats the one thing ill never do
I live to love you

(gets a little faster)

I should be yours
You shouldnt be hers
Your a one of a kind
Your hard to find
When our hands lock together
I wanna leave you never

(slower)

Ill be yours forever
Just tell me when it starts
Hun you will always have my heart
When you look in my eyes
I let out a little sigh

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

Now you see i love you
And this is true
I dont care what they say
They dont know what happened to me that day
My heart was hurt
Then you came along
Your the reason i wrote this song


Details | Rhyme | |

Perfection

I'm the perfect example of what not to do
I'm the perfect depiction of words untrue.
I've perfected the art of being contemptuous.
I've perfected the notion of how to obsess. 

I'm the perfect wife in every sense of the word,
I'm the perfect partner who’s loud and absurd.
I’ve mastered the art of lies and deceitfulness.
I’ve mastered the skills of emotional distress.

I’m the perfect mate, if instability is sought.
I’m the perfect spouse; leaving you distraught. 
I’ve conquered your insecurities, and your trust.
I’ve conquered your inability to state the unjust. 

I’m the perfect paradigm of how to regress.
I’m the perfect instance of turmoil finesse.
I’ve flawlessly sneered, as we both lay awake.
I’ve perfected the notion; this love’s a mistake. 


Details | Rhyme | |

Flames

The warming flames of a fireplace
Easing away the frost and the cold
The warmth massaging my face
As the sparks crack in the fires mold

The flame stretches one inch too far
Touching lightly the untempered wall
It catches and burns all things inside
Turning the walls as black as the night

A sad desolation, caused by one little spark
Chaos and destruction, by the once warm hearth
Things can change without you knowing why
Something you once loved, bringing tears from your eyes


Details | Free verse | |

An Emptiness Inside

~An Emptiness Inside~

Right now I'm sitting here
Staring into space
Feeling so all alone

As tears begin to fill my eyes
And I begin to cry
My heart suddenly feels an emptiness inside
That here lately I just cannot hide

If only you were here to hold me,
I'd feel so protected...
With you by my side

My world feels so sad and blue
Feeling as though I'm forever going to lose you
Our love I thought was forever true?

You told me just the other night
That I was only a simple friend
I then began to believe that our relationship
Was only just pretend

I've pleaded with you to help make
This relationship of ours last
Baby, I beg of you...
Let's not dwell on the past

I'm so sorry if I have hurt you
But never forget my love for you
Was always true

Baby, I pray that I can 
Mend your broken heart
But for now I will continue to look forward
Day by day
Pray continually...
That we never, ever drift apart


Details | Free verse | |

Dark love revival

Hate, depression, and sorrow
wrap me in a shroud of darkness
suffocating me, making me feel empty
it hurts not knowing happiness
yet there is light, hope to help me through
why is this little light
this tiny bit of warmth
in all this cold 
how does it survive
why does it stay
is it trying to help
is it love, is that why it's warm
is it hope
is that why it's bright
or is it a person
I love in a manifestation of light
It's the girl I love and always will
MY LOVE


Details | I do not know? | |

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING

Shush be calm, it’s okay I’m right here,
You’re hugging my pillow and shedding a tear

You have my memory and I feel your heart,
Always forever till death do us part.

We’ll always have Paris and the empire state building
Watching the Bulls and the yankees out fielding 

But there’s nothing like kissing and the shared living touch,
and the holding of hands that we loved so much.

The smell of your perfume at the end of a day
Knowing that just before work we had shower play

Making love in the moon light the sun and the rain
The memories of beach the car and the plane

Running naked through sand dunes and chasing the sun
Naked moon bathing naming stars just for fun

It was always and only about just you and me,
And it always and shall be for eternity.

 Please don’t go just yet I have something to say
Then you can let my balloon float away

I thought I knew love and knew what to do
But it all went so wrong when I met you

My wires got crossed an my thinking went wonky
My smarts all went south on a pantomime donkey

But now that I’m gone I don’t want you to worry
I don’t want you to rush to get here in a hurry

It’s all down to you now to play and explore
Before you join my photo in our sons bottom draw

Thank you for sharing your life and your love
I’ll be watching you always from the blue skies above

From the wind in your hair to the moon in your eyes
 From the warmth of the sun and the sea and the skies

Feel loved and not spied on, I want your sprit to fly
I can’t live with the thought of making you cry.


Details | Lyric | |

away with the sun

Its getting late
but you already came 
and while you were here
things never change 
you lay with me
and tell me your words
then you leave 
and I feel hurt.
Its not you that hurts me 
but the sound of the door
closing behind you 
I know for sure 
you'd like to stay 
but you never do
I'm left alone 
missing you. 
These days its more frequent 
you leave so much
that you're gone more hours 
than the day brings sun
and I have begun 
to feel so numb
when the door closes 
another night I run
far away from the thoughts I have 
because its killing me to look
at my empty hands
I remember when we were on the sand 
you told me you loved me
but you weren't my man 
and so I walked, feeling okay
but too many months 
now I want you to stay
Am I selfish?
asking too much?
You only visit me an hour
after dusk
and I must go on
but should I stay?
when you see me sometimes
but its always too late.


Details | Epyllion | |

Restless

Here I am, restless in my bed again.
Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind.
Wondering if the sight of your face will ever light up my eyes again.
I am afraid of losing you.
Afraid that I will never touch you again.
I miss the memories we made.
How we made love everyday.
How every word you tell me comforts even the deepest fears I have.
I love you.
And because I love you I will justify how devoted I am to you.
Regardless of what happened, I will never give up on you.
I will never quit on the promise my love made to you.
Your love for me I could never repay,
And someday you will see that we were meant to be together.
We were meant to get married and have kids.
We were meant to live our lives with nothing but love to fall back on.
I love you.
And because I love you, here I am.
Restless in my bed again.
Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind.
Wondering how a perfect love can go wrong.
But I will never give up because I am in love.
I may falter, but I will never fail.
I am too persistent to fail on you.
You are my driving force, the reason I do my best.
But without you, I am lost. I cannot go on.
So I ask myself,
Why am I here restless in my bed again.
Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind.
And today I swear this vow.
I am not an angel but I am true.
I will always love you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Goodbye my Love

I love you I love you I do
 Words for many a war has been fought
 I love you I love tiz true
 Words for many a pointless item bought
 
Words cannot tell you how I feel
 Spinning round round like a wheel
 Thoughts cramming into my head
 From my mind they cannot be shed
 
I love you I love you I do
 These words just three little ones
 I love you though it maketh me blue
 And the spool continuously runs
 
My heart is being crushed from deep within
 Thoughts abounding causing such a din
 The pressure-each breath a painful gasp
 Yours was the heart I never could grasp
 
I love you I love you I do
 A feeling from which I can't refrain
 I love you, I hear not from you
 Silence which causes so much pain
 
For this love just friends cannot be
 You must go for love must be free
 So it must be that you and me end
 Tears fall, as to you, this letter I send


Details | Rhyme | |

With my convalescent mind

Remember all that time we spent on the back deck At your parents house. So very comfortable in that serene kind a way. On that beautiful day Late one may Ill never forget that sense of togetherness I felt. My heart melted. I knew I always wanted to stay, right here with you. A comfort altogether new Just as beautiful at It’s inside point of view. They seen us and knew! We where, the best of friends. Partners in a way that complements with such grace. Beatific, such as this spring breeze, We cheer the coming of the warm months. With a bottle of wine or two. Those conversations I hold so dear. Crazy Intellectuals, all together classy. I still benefit from the knowledge past to me. It’s been really hard Being torn away from this Knowing it was at the hand of my own demise. I still love them, With my convalescent mind.


Details | Abecedarian | |

Within Me

I longed to belong.
Just one friend would be nice.
I want to know what it feels like to have - that special bond with someone.
I guess noone wanted that special bond with me.
Watched the people pass me by,
My chances ruined by my nefarious anxieties
I always tried to be impervious to my own feelings.
But somehow they always found a way to break me - chipping against my hard exterior that I created so i could not feel.
But the truth is, I long to feel something -
For others mostly.
And when the clock hits that late hour
I feel everything and I mean everything, like a tun of bricks falling upon my shoulders - I fall apart.
I almost wished someone broke my heart. Trampled on it even - 
So I could have a reason to be so ****ed up.
Messed up, broken, torn apart.


Details | Couplet | |

Kill Me Dear

The most incredibly ironic scene
To everyone, it is quite obscene
A scene where a lover has to kill
Their soul mate, against their own will
They were trapped in a wicked game
One must die or it would be lame
If they choose not to abide by the rules
Then the world doesn't need more fools
The killing weapon is a gun
So that the injury cant be undone
How is it you're supposed to choose
When your loved one you can't lose?
The two truly loved each other
They can't settle for another
Their code was always and forever
Now, will it ever happen? Never!
She wants them both to stay alive
But she's in denial, both can't survive
She doesn't know what to do
It's just a dream, none of this is true
She closes her eyes wanting to wake
This cruelty she can hardly take
She sits still and cries a river of tears
Struggling to control her own fears
He's already made his choice
But he doesn't want to lose his voice
The pain he's going through is surreal
He wished, it, he could seal
Facing his fears, he walks the line
He convinces himself everything is fine
Walks to her with all his might
His temptation, he must fight
He embraces her, he can't lie
Because one of them has to die
He can't lie and say it'll be okay
Can't charm her with his usual way
He pulls the gun to his head
Logic from his brain has fled
She grabs the gun and yells "no"
The gun has become their mistletoe
Felt like forever, a final kiss
with an eternal bliss
"But honey, you're the one to live
Protecting you is all i have to give"
He puts the gun in her hands
"C'mon do it" is all that he demands
He puts her finger in the trigger
Pulls it, a small bullet with a, damage, bigger
The shot, echoing still in her ear
While he mouthed "kill me dear"


Details | Rhyme | |

My Last Plea

Though my eyes are open I cannot see,
I know my name but not who I be.
The sun it shines but I get no light,
Every second of the hour it seems you want to fight.
My love is a river with nowhere to go,
Like a puddle or pond with nowhere to flow.
Trapped and confided I can’t escape these thoughts,
Cursed and ridiculed; is this my fault.
I smile, I love, and I give my all,
But pain and bullsh_t is all I cause,
I’m surrounded...there’s no way out,
By lies and things I know nothing about.
Will you ever stop and present me the chance,
To have your love I worked for
and not be judged by your glance,
Not put down for someone else’s past,
Not acknowledge as the driver of someone else’s crash.
Not as the problem I seem to be,
An unneeded piece to a puzzle complete.
Is there a place that we can one day belong?
A place where this pain and the hurting is gone.
There is; but can we fix it before we get there,
Or do my eyes have to close forever...
before you see how much I care.


Details | Couplet | |

Le Vacance Pretentieuse: Darts

Drops of sweat slip from my furrowed brow
Eyes squint, select a number and let fly now

Miss again, a millimetre is a mile once more
Aimed for triple twenty, only got double four

The walk of shame, my oh so familiar friend
Silence broken, on alcohol I forever depend

The steel point of eyes bore into my neck
My opponent leaves me a juddering wreck

I lose the match; the wife won’t give me a kiss 
I wish I could have been anything else than this... 


Details | I do not know? | |

The Lies

The lies you were told
brought us to an end.
My heart or my soul
doesnt know where to begin

The way that you looked
when you walked away.
You didn't look sad
you had a smile on your face
and right now my heart is feeling betrayed.
I'm like a King without a crown and a dude that you played.

The lies you were told
came from all your friends
you didn't listen to you heart
you didn't even care...

I'm feeling like an old man 
without his hair
and now I gotta look at you 
remembering the times you didn't care.

The lies that you were told everyday
is the same reason why 
my heart is black and gray...

Im trying to forget you completely
cause my love for you was becoming very deeply..
It was feeling so good
but now its feeling creepy.

The lies
The lies
and all the secrets


Details | Free verse | |

three final notes

1. 

with eyes closed,
i witnessed my own pair of eyes
setting free millions of fireflies,
like leaves bidding farewell to it’s trees. 

the fireflies gathered at the tips
of my fingers and planted their last kiss
before taking flight, glittering the night sky

the fireflies fled far and wide
in search for your eyes.
eyes closed for another pair of closed eyes.
conspired by nature and night. 

and you thought the fireflies
that flew into your eyes formed a dream,
the one you kept guessing the meaning of. 

but in time you will know,
whenever a firefly lands on petals of your cheeks
that very moment it is i whom you think of. 

2. 

suddenly i was able to understand
everything that visited my eyes
even the ones that i thought were dreams 

suddenly i was in love
exceeded all the fallen loves
that have hurt my chest. yet 

when i want to say this to your ears
i no longer have a voice,
when i want to say this to your eyes
i no longer have the light. 

3.

slowly water seeps within the pores of my skin
forming small rivers in my body 
a river in search of caves in my chest
looking for the sea that was once occupied by
thousands of your tiny fish 

right before my eyes were shut
and the coffin was closed,
the rivers overflowed,
evaporated into the vast sky,
the one you always gaze up to
while biting your own lip
to stop the tears from falling,

because you don’t want to seen weaker
than the sky in the months of rain 

don’t worry. you and the sky
will get by the grief
you cried from my death.


Details | Sonnet | |

Vast Love

The love that kisses with a tasteless tear
A pain that can’t be painted on the soul
A longing for a place without a fear
Longing for a feeling that makes me whole
Beloved, words can’t heal my tattered heart.
As thorns pass me by the pain cant compare
That of the pain of being torn apart
Even the wind howls about it I swear
Tell me was falling in love my mistake
I chose my own fate and decided to stay
I will not let this love become forsaken
Love can’t just get up and spirit away
Love is worth overcoming a mountain
My love for you flows like a vast fountain


Details | I do not know? | |

Free

Closed eyes.
Deep breath.
Count to ten.
It's not the end.
A change. For the best.
I'm stronger.
I never needed you
I was just afraid.
I let the fear of being alone, Hold me down.


Details | Rhyme | |

secret crush

be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of this big bad crush
if only you knew how much i care
the kind of love i have for you is rare
you dont even know my hearts on fire
and that your the one that i desire
i dream of kissing your lips
but when i wake away you slip
be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of thei big bad crush
i wish i could tell you how i feel 
then your touch i wouldnt have to steal
you would be mine
with our hearts and body intertwined
i wouldnt have to dream
and i could be with you always
i wouldnt have to scheme
this secret is hard to keep
into my heart its etched deep


Details | Monorhyme | |

My Friend Is My Love...

I couldn’t read, I couldn’t write…
That my world would no more ever be bright.
With the morning sun I would rise,
The day ahead full with surprise.
He took me here, he took me there,
We planned the day for everywhere.
We sat together all alone,
Speaking of things, which were atone.

Our minds would argue, but hearts unite,
We kept opposing, although right.
He bought me chocolates I never shared,
I would joke on him, but he never cared.
He brought me flowers from the bushes around,
A red one hidden as yellows surround.
I always pretended I would never see
But in my heart I would just let it be.

Back in my room when it was 7 again,
I would sit quiet, and feel the pain.
As I realized that another day would end,
He would stay a day longer I would pretend.
With sleepless nights my eyes would swell,
Moistened with bitter tears and love’s spell.
The morning would come and go again,
But the realization would still remain.

And one sudden  day it was the day,
He kept staring at me and couldn’t say.
I made him promise he would never let know,
When it was time for him to leave and go.
But the look in his eyes I knew there was no next day,
I couldn’t make him stop, not in any way.
I ran away, far away from where he was,
Picturing him looking at me, as that was the last.


Details | Couplet | |

Peter Pan Envy

Peter Pan Envy 

I envy Peter Pan
He never get’s old as a man

He can fly back and forth to never-never land
To his lost boys a merry band

If I had Tinkerbelle’s fairy dust and could fly
I would go up and up into the sky

I would fly up to my wife who’s in heaven
And take her back to nineteen fifty-seven 

The fifties were a great time in life
It was when I met my future wife  


Details | Ballad | |

Magic City

I grew up with an understanding
that magic lived in a city
of blue lights and coveted sin,
that men were built to be
senseless steel buildings
tall enough to shoulder any storm
but too condescending to shed a tear
they they will continue to be
the knight in shining amour 
as long as the darkness
does not fade
and that for as long as you
shall say yes, they will stay
But this woman
is too robust to care
she locked her feelings
in her heart and fed the key
to the furnace
but caring isn't exactly
something you can contain
if it becomes too much
it lurks through the peep holes
and key holes
then finds the next taxi
to the city of magic
and even becomes the demon's
advocate.
So on most days she finds
herself bed strapped 
and longing to know him
to breathe his air and maybe even
hear him talk
a whisper out of this man
jubilates her soul and sends
an after shock twitch through her
Now imagine what his touch
can do, but sadly
he wears rubber gloves
with thermal absorbers
and makes him cold
with a fire that glows only
from his eyes...
...she should buy a heater....


Details | Lyric | |

Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


Details | I do not know? | |

A Simple Wish

a simple wish...

no fancy words
no more clever rhymes
no more slickly crafted verse

just a simple wish
to cherish the moments
in-between the hue and cry of this life

no more the dull-edged jab
no more the anger and the strife

a simple wish
beyond the wasted hours and the days and the blurry fears

a simple wish
of a simpler life

after all the bitterness of the passing years

and so

to retire from the hustle
to flee from the hollow wasted breaths that have been breathed

to bid the emptiness farewell

while

ushering in the new tomorrow

bathed in the soft glow of hope

and kissing adieu to all the hurt and all the doleful sorrow...


Details | Rhyme | |

Burn It, Or Take The Ride

  The night, she consumes me, leaving nothing left, 
I am not returning home tonight, I am being kept,
surely not against my will, it's wonderful out here,
she speaks in a tone: soft, direct, sincere.

  You exhumed me, and tied me to a post,
the things we love will hurt us the most,
still you are my drug, showing me things I fail to see,
but like any drug, you will be the death of me.

  Rage runs through me, I deem you my everything,
from the stroke of my pen, to the songs I sing,
from the words I write, to the reason I breathe,
you are an anchor for my sanity...

  Pain subdues me, leaving me helpless inside,
I'm aware of what it takes to swallow my pride,
so here I am, against this post with arms tied,
you bought the ticket, either Burn It, Or Take The Ride.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Cant live without you


 If you could see me now
 You will know what I’m going through
  because in your heart you know
 I just can’t live with out you
 
 My heart is hanging on a string
 Holding on to my feeling tight
 And it refuses to give up
 Even thought its losing the fight

 And there’s nothing that I can do
 My life is over, completely doom
 I wish I could tell that to the birds
 That’s singing out side my bedroom

 Flying about on the tree branches
 Then up to the sky they flew
 Not knowing it’s the last day of my life
 Because I just can’t live without you

 Life is beautiful all around us
 Mother natures’ at its full beauty
 The big bright yellow full moon
 Shines across the land and see

 Miles of jasmines are in bloom
 Rainbows of red, yellow, green, blue
 All goes together so beautifully
 But still not as beautiful as you

 I am hurting more than I can bear
 And no one even have a single clue
 That today I bid the world goodbye
 Because I just cant live with out you

 I poured my feeling in my poems
 Trying to empty myself of the pain
 But it just invites fresh emotions 
 Inside me to hurt all over again

 It’s the first time I ever love someone
 And my heart is now forever hers
 And if I can’t be with her
 Living my life with lost its cause

 Love isn’t finding some one to live with
 That is not what love is about
 Love is finding some one 
 That you can’t live with out

 Today I decided to take control
 Of my life for once and for all
 Will climb to highest tree
 And let my lifeless body fall

 My last words ill, be the name of the girl
 When translated means a “picture “
And I will explain our love story
 In a last hand written letter

 Please don’t judge me for this action
 I tried so very hard honest I do
 But my whole world just fall apart
 Because I cant live without you

 Mother may god give you the strength
 To cope with what I have done
 But you have your sons and their children
 To help ease the pain when I’m gone


Details | I do not know? | |

I Stand, Alone



I stand, alone.

Scratching for my truths,
peeling away the veneer,

I stand, alone, before this
impregnable cliff so sheer.

Cocooned in my solitary shell,
wrenching a smile from a tear,

I stand, alone, a little odd,
and definitely quite queer.

I stand, alone.


Details | Sonnet | |

The next few moments

Jiggling keys,he gave his crown a scratch
then took another look at his watch.
"You're gorgeous, now please get out!"
for the 10th time he cried out loud.

Out she emerged, breathtaking, as always,
dropping baubles, tottering in her Jimmy's,
Smile still smeared, they left that hour,
unaware of the timed out counter.

Tyres screeched as he sped,
"take it slow honey"she requested,
when, an unexpected brightness grew larger,
until black, and then, everything grew calmer.

With excruciating pain he awakened,
looking around called, "Lauren!"
the teary faces dropped and nodded,
"We're sorry" , they whispered..

Suddenly lifted by a whiff of heat,
all he could hear was his own heart beat.
limped out, made a futile attempt to find his dear,
and crashed with thoughts of future fear.

Shutting the door behind him,
reminiscing love, life, past with grim,
clouds of  "what if" floating his self ,
whole world reduced into a tiny elf.

Moving on is most important at present,
Realizing a  reason, he may not accept,
 he still breathes, for that very reason,
And, taking care of himself will never be treason.


Details | I do not know? | |

Until We Bleed

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid 
I'm staying

This isn't love. You use me. 
When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night,
You're clumsy with your hands.
Clothing seems too hard to get off.

And if Cupid's got a gun
Then he's shooting

But I can't leave. 
No matter what happens, it's too painful to go.

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it

We're too uncomfortable with the lights on.
I don't want to see your face-
Slurred, clueless.
Angry.
You don't want to see mine-
Helpless, confused.
Depressed.

You're drunk
You need it
Real love,
I'll give it

Everything is hazy to you.
I bet you can't feel.
But I'll love you anyways.
I always have.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
And love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

This has gone on forever, to me.
I'll try to be like you,
To see what it feels like.
I drink the last bottle of vodka
And hold onto you.

You've wasted your times
On my heart, you've burned
And if bridges gotta fall
Then you'll fall, too

Maybe this is the part of life
That people told me about
It doesn't mean anything
It hurts you.
You grow so attached that when one piece collapses
You do too.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back

You leave when the ordeal is over
Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober
You don't have a reason anymore

Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you
To need me

I want you to be happy
To be the way you were before.
But I think without you,
Even though I only see you late at night,
I would be destroyed.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

I'm getting up to leave
The keys are for you

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

But I'll come back soon
I'll come back


Details | Rhyme | |

Soldier

In a bright, hot blue bath of air
The waning day's thick mantle spreads.
Palms rear their green, effulgent heads;
Muezzins call the flocks to prayer.

The sun, in this mid-eastern place,
Is round, and dusty gold, and strange.

If I knew methods to exchange
This place for glimpses of your face,
I'd trade exile in dry Afghanistan
For freedom in a tamer land.



Details | Narrative | |

To the Siren of the faraway seas

I once thought to have the world within my grasp, that all I needed I already had.
I once thought to be unable to feel more happier than I was while you were around.
Only way to make it better, was to change our worlds of ones and zeroes to contact of the flesh itself.

Even though I realized it, I choose to deny it. I was sorely mistaken about you and I, and this and that.
You smiled when you lied about your feelings.
"I cannot give to you more than this" you said with an evil smirk while observing me from afar.
The smirk, was it real or imaginated?
I do not know, and I fear I will never know, my mind play tricks on me once and again.
Misleading me to believe, like it allowed me to believe in your words.

Words... Amazing how powerful it can be, use it well and one can find pleasure, use it well, and one can find the demise of the soul.
leaving an empty husk behind, like you left me. An empty husk longing to be filled, once again, with the colors of joy.

Coming from the other side of the world, I felt your words and disdain like piercing cold knives straight to my heart, once warm, now cold, since you left.
And following your words you went away to never come back.
Along with you, went away also the joy and happiness I dared to thought to be eternal, a sweet lie I was telling myself...

Even today, after so long, I still think about you and I, your mesmerizing gaze that made me forget and float, your enchanting laughter and the warm and soft touch I told myself that you had.
Touch that I will never feel, laughter I will never hear, again, and eyes that I will never meet, again.
When you left, I was torn, between love and hatred. Now the hatred is gone and the love morphed to friendship, which I would like to share with you.

The Mauritius girl, will my words reach you?
I guess they will not, but I like to hope, to dream.
Hopes and dreams, the accessories of the weak...
A weak being, that I am, a being to be filled with fake bliss, five by day.
Three by the sunrise and  two when the diamonds imbue the skies.
As like that, the curtains shall rise and fall before my eyes, at each passing empty day.

And so I live on, even if that means to not have you anyway I can... The only way I can...
For now, I just wonder, if will I ever find it again while I live? The joy and wonder, I mean.
I ask this chair, I ask the other me on the looking glass and I ask my shadow.
I guess these are the only companionships I will ever have until I meet my final doom.
My shadow, my other broken me and this chair and my memories, of you and I...


Details | Free verse | |

Tell me

Are we meant to be?
Or is it just a dream?
You & I
Are we meant for love?
Are we ready to say I do?
You & I
I'm just not sure If I'm ready.
Are we ready to say I do?
Or say good-bye?
You & I
I'm just not sure whether to go back?
Or keep marching forward?
Without you
Don't know whether these are my directions.
Give me time to think.
If you can't wait, move on.
Just you.
Know I can't be without you.


Details | Free verse | |

High School Love

High school love
Is like a new game
The new GTA
The new Need For Speed
The new Call Of Duty
It's all the same

You see it
You want to buy it
Play it
Tease others about it
You go to the store and blow $100
Or find a nice girl and make her feel special
You start playing the game
And you discover it's not as good
As it looks at first glance
You want a refund
But the dog ate the receipt

High School Love is cold
GIRLS are cold
Full of betrayal
Wasted gifts
Shed tears
The flowers would rather die
Than being given to someone
With no emotion


Young love is overrated
I see teenagers kiss everyday
But I'm starting to realise
It's empty, meaningless
And painful

Save your love for someone special
Don't waste it on a player


Details | Rhyme | |

Words arose

From the one that the words arose
Comes a face that strikes a pose

Sadness in those eyes
Behind the glasses it tries to hide

But I know better
For sadness I do weather

But now as two becomes one
We will not be so blue under the sun

For of this I might ask
Which might be quite a task

Is a smile
On that cute profile


Details | Rhyme | |

Walking Alone

like waves assaulting the quiet shore
 
your words they bashed and they tore
 
the sun begins to fade away
 
takes not my memories with it
 
gone is another day

but the pain is here to stay
 
and so alone I'll walk some more
 
with you beside me nevermore
 
the moon is glowing up above
 
the stars they sparkle and shine
 
nevermore speak of love
 
nevermore shall you be mine
 
the soft wind kisses my face
 
and makes me long for your embrace
 
oh to feel your lips once more
 
as I walk along this rocky shore


Details | Etheree | |

Longed for Waiting

While
I wait 
here alone
feeling helpless,
the emptiness in
my heart aches to be close
to you and really feel your
loving arms around me and that
warm embrace I crave every night as
I wait here alone patiently and still.
 


Details | Free verse | |

Lost Bird

when
the 
heart
is 
perched 
on a branch 
listening 
to some
music 
it doesn't 
want to hear 
and lets in 
that stranger 
it doesn't 
want by the door
it only wishes
for some mellow
wind 
to carry it 
to 
a better place.


Details | Rhyme | |

Can I be---

Can I be your punching bag,
	Your dirty rag,
		The one night stand you never had?

Can I be your stepping stone,
	The place to go,
		Your in-between of yes and no?

Can I be your one and only,
	Your only family, 
		The dark at night to keep you lonely?

Can I be your lethal injection,
	Your deadly infection,
		The devil in your holy section?

Can I be your great escape,
	Your favorite place,
		The lonely latch on your rusted gate?

Can I be your means to say it,
	Your way to fake it,
		Your moaning face hid by the blanket? 

Can I be your only breath,
	Your source of stress
		The only thing that makes you wet?

Can I be your blah blah blah,
	Your la la la,
		The flat note that changes it all. 


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Hurry To Find Me

Hello my love
Whoever you are
Please hurry to find me
My wrists are starting to scar.
I put on a fake smile
So no one will see the pain im in
They all say it will last a little while
But a little while it has been.


Details | I do not know? | |

Please Come Back

I'm sorry for all the horrible things I have said,
I'm sorry for all the bad things I have done,
I'm glad to havve you as my best friend again,
I was sad, depressed, and desperate to hear you voice, and,
Talk to you again.

Oh Caleb, I cannot tell you,
How happy I was, happy to finally,
Talk to you after months,
You will always be my best friend no matter what,
You know that I will always be here for you,
I miss you a lot, why oh why must you live,
So far away?

Why do you live in Illinois,
Why did you leave me,
Why did you go away and not come back?
Caleb, please come back real soon, we all miss you,
But I miss you the most.
You are my best friend,
And I am here to stay.

I will never let you down,
Never put you down,
Never will I forget about you,
I will never hate you,
It is impossible,
It is impossible, because you picked,
Me up when I was down, you
Were always there for me, and you still are,
You never let me down, and you never called me names,
You Never let me be sad, and it was amazing,
To have such a good friend around,
So why, why did you move away?

I know it was for your protection,
I know you had to get out of that horrible place,
That horrible dark place,
Oh how bad I wanted to beat them for beating you,
You did not deserve that, and I hate that image,
Noone deserves to be treated that way; I don't care,
Who they are.

Caleb thank you for being my friend again,
And forgiving me, and for always being here for me,
May I ask one little favor of you?
PLEASE COME BACK??????????
Always~N~Forever,
Briana Lynn Palmer
06-17-12
Dedicated To: CAZ


Details | Monorhyme | |

Come Back My Angel.....

I see in you the angel that you make of me...
I can keep close to you, yet never see.
You entered into my life like a morning sun,
You promised your life to me in the long run...
And now you'll leave me back all alone;
Like you were the sun which never shone?
Spare me my life, my heart, that's with you;
Give me back my angel, cannot live with an angel new...


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My dream wedding day

Looking at the first blush of the morning,
I know its the perfect day for a wedding.
The big fat white wedding, the dream,
To which every little girl clings.
 
I tell myself as I watch the clouds turn white,
That this is the happiest day of a woman's life,
And that nothing should come in between,
The perfect bride and her groom.
 
I remember those young moments when I used to dream,
Of how our wedding would seem.
It was just like I had imagined,
A pretty day like today.
 
Slipping into my white dress and stilettos,
I think of the way you had proposed.
The way I had always wished for,
A dazzling ring in sparkling champagne.
 
I switch to happier thoughts from our past,
Holding hands, watching stars, laying on the grass.
We were high school sweethearts,
The perfect couple was what they called us.
 
We spent our days sneaking in a few kisses,
We used to pretend to be Mister and Mistress.
We were in love,
The crazy, eternal and rare kind.
 
Memories are shoved as mother comes into the room,
Holding a few red roses in full bloom.
Her eyes are teary and her voice is shaky,
As she whispers that she is proud of me.
 
Tears spill but I smile as I slide into the car,
Remembering the times you'd sing to me with your guitar.
The times you'd reach over and,
Tuck a stray lock of hair behind my ear.
 
I laugh silently as I remember on the way to the chapel,
You saying once you were the beast and I, the belle.
You  always bring little candles and gifts,
And laugh as I make my birthday wish.
 
I wonder if you'd be laughing today,
As you cut the wedding cake with the sugar bouquet.
If you'd remember our old ceremonies,
In the event of your new one.
 
I walk through the gates smiling at our old friends,
And take your brother's hand as his arm extends.
He takes me in but lets me go,
As we reach the door to the flowery hall.
 
I peek through the crack to see you there,
At the altar smiling, running a hand through your hair.
I slip in and move to the side,
As the wedding march starts to play.
 
In came the blushing bride, walking gracefully down the aisle,
At her friends and family, she nods and smiles.
As I hold my breath and wipe my eyes,
Our high school love story plays in my head. 
 
I remember the day we promised we'd never part,
Because I would always be the one in your heart.
But your bride and you exchange your vows,
And I find myself repeating them inside.
 
The priest asks you to kiss your bride,
And I quickly slip outside.
Because no matter how alright I say I am,
Letting you go was the hardest thing I had ever done.
 
 
- Miliya Parveen


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Mending A Broken Heart

Nothing as cold as a winter of black.
the world still moves, as if nothing has changed.
"a snow angel" i thought as she fell back.
she looked to the stars "they all seem arranged".
her eyes a sunrise on the Coral Sea.
Years pass people, continue in rejoice.
my despair endless, as challenger deep.
i long for her warmth, and ache for her voice.
her love for me eternally in stone.
love crashing down in a thunderous wave.
stars came and went but i stood there alone.
waiting for deaths sweet grip, by true loves grave.
when joy comes with curved blade and dark cloak.
time will mend the heart, it long ago broke.


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Broken Heart Street

Hopelessly lying, in a dying bed of depression,
miserably crying, while trying your confession.
Blackening walls, and halls of a fading youth,
Gruesomely calls, of gnaws towards the truth.

Fading beauty, so snooty to those content,
wailing a duty, sooty, those content dissent.
Towards a failing, unveiling of bloody torment,
concealing the name of shame, not so innocent.

So cheap, sinking deep, into a sea of emotion,
I weep, at the reap of sowing our lost devotion.
I shudder with stutter, at a marital decapitation,
you utter, like no other, at a romantic prostration.

A defile and vile odor is cast amongst the decay,
I smile in denial, as those lost lover’s betray.
Sinking deeply within, our sins have been fed,
doses of greed, they feed till all beauty is dead.

Take cover in the pain, remain emotionally numb.
Hide within the sin, wherein you succumb.
Tread the waste, and taste the defeat,
of a shattered, tattered passion down
on Broken Heart Street.


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Cried


I cried while you were gone.

       		          The        	t
                		          e
                		             a
               		                        r
               		                          s
                                                             	 they	 s t u n g       my cheeks.

       		         It left a trail, a crimson water

                   					                     in a pool of former me.
             And I wallowed in the thought

                                                                    that this is what it is.


     And no   m
                      a
                        t
                          t
                           e
                             r        where I find myself,

                                      The control 	     e v  a   d    e     s    		     my grip.
                                

And I try to fight
                      and fight
                                    and fight.
                                                                      I try to just forget.
                                  

                    The thoughts I find inside my head

               			                                     Are too hard to relive.
   
                               I refuse to be a slave,      
                                                                               to the pauper and the King.

                  			 I lay my weary head    d

                          					             o

                             				                     w
 
                    					                     n
           
          Not ashamed, but struggling.


Details | I do not know? | |

I will not be forgotten

its the end inside my head
  i must say goodbye my dear 
friend 

im entering the unknown
im slowly starting to unravel 
and become unsewn
 you must not figure who i am 
for i am no one 

no one to be loved, no one 
forgotten, no one to grieved 
when the end is truly received
 
i will not be one loved, i will 
not be one forgotten
  for there there there is 
nothing to forget
  but this mere note of 
uncertainty and confusion 


Details | Romanticism | |

Floral Heart

As summer turns to fall; a chill moves through the air, The beauty of nature; like those of flowers; are in their final days, Such delicate ones; who call outdoors their home, Their roots engraved into the ground, The sun is their nurturer; who showers them with life, To grow; to survive; to dance in the rain, Without rays of warmth; they cannot go on, Fading with every last breath, A heart could be similar; as is mine, Fragile and soft; like petals of flowers, The warmth that flowed through these veins; has become watered-down, Shifting to a bitter cold; waiting for the storm to pass, Love is a disease; I cannot fight, For a life without love; without a cure; is a lost cause.


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We'll be together

We’ll be together

We’ll be together when the world is gone
For what we have, it just can’t die
There lives no other who can sing our song
The laughing joys, the many tears we cry

To be together is our destiny
It is our dance, it is our song
One grain of sand is still eternity
And whatever is, it can’t be wrong.

So dry your eyes, my child, and  see what is 
For nothing ever, ever can be known
Just live within the moment now, and feel such bliss
And be with me, yet always be alone.

I see such sadness in your eyes, my Dear
Why do you often feel so low?
Well as I watch you child to me it’s very clear
The beauty that is yours you’ll never know.


Details | Free verse | |

I Cherished

I Cherished our moments together.
I'll Cherish them moments forever.
I'll capture our love in my memories
right before it dies.
I'll forget about your love
when you get sick of me
and I can't say that I didn't try
to love you
but Ima learn to forget you
and girl I won't even miss you.
They say love is pain and vice versa
well if you keep this up
our love will get worser.
I can't even talk to you
I don't even acknowledge you.
I'm not even proud of you
I don't even smile for you.
If you needed visine I wouldn't give you
or drop or two
but if you really loved me
I'd empty out the whole bottle for you.
I held your love 
right here in my palms.
I held your body in my arms.
Girl when you got cold
I definitely was the one who kept you warm.
Everytime our love got old
the love was religiously then reborn.
I guess our love rebirth
would be the answer.
does my my opinion even matter?
Making our love work
would of been the answer
but was the love real?
that is my final question
and if it was
it would take you
only a couple of seconds to answer.
Recent Moments. Endless Memories
a deep emotion that's living within me.


Details | Free verse | |

Unspoken love

Under layers of sheets against the biting coldness of early mist
in between soft, cuddly comfort of my pillows
and an unseen blanket of warmth all over me

An unnamed waves suddenly washed me
and swept me to the unknown abyss of darkness
unknown abyss of lost hopes, dreams and wishes.

My hands are flailing, searching for something to hold on to
hoping for never-ending hope that I will be swept back ashore
for I'm losing, drowning and on the verge of giving up soon.. anytime!

Like any other dreams that I dream't before
Is it worth dreaming for? Or should I wait a little more?
Would it be a dream come true someday? anytime?

I heard a thumping, so loud it brought me back to where I ended up last night
cushioned in the familiar scent of my bed, I'm awake now;
deaf in my own heartbeat, waiting for the sun to cast his light, soon, anytime!

Mind racing in a speed of light, in a morning Sunday rush!
whilst heart is taking it's pace in a leisure Sunday morning walk
distance covered, places conquered, end of the line will be reached anytime soon.

And from where the sun rises, a secret wish was blown into a kiss
all the way up, up against the course of hands of time
may the faith favor the odds and let that wish be granted... anytime soon! 


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Just a simple dream

He kneels on one knee,
he asks her to marry him.
Shes dreaming; crying.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

To discover you

?I wanted to discover the world through your body, to be in adventure, to know the truth, about rain, wind, rainbow, and morning breeze, but I never touched you, hugged you, smell your neck, and breath through your breath, but today, when it was raining outside, I figured that rain is not your sadness, wind is not your madness, rainbow is not your smile, and breeze is not breathing through your breath, rain is tears of joy that falls from sky when you wink, wind is when world want to smell like you it come and touch you, rainbow is sort thanking after your wink to the sky it bow his hade, and breeze I can?t figure it until I see you and smell your neck?..?


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

'HEALING'

The beauty I see in things 
makes me so sad....
For when I find something beautiful,
It may never be quite that way again.

A summer day
an autumn breeze
a color in a sunset....
your warm hand held in mine.

Why do i still hear your name....
in my head....
Faint,
tired....
so tired.....
almost dead.

My soul still whispers to God for you 
without me even thinking....
So thoughtless,
hopeless,
longing,
sadly dreaming. 

Unbearable.......
That sweet old dream of being in your arms 
my frame stood secure in yours
You were thin and warm and sturdy.....
soft coat of yours so cozy.................
Your face emanating ‘happy’....

Too soon, you began to fade away......
In tears I closed my eyes 
and held on tight.....
Oh, I couldn’t bear to watch you disappear again
But I felt it, all right.....

Your memory....
I’ll stuff in the dark of my mind 
in an ebony box
And keep it so tightly shut....
Tied with a long, dripping ribbon of blood

And thus my healing has begun.....
But I’ll still be on the run.........

No love deserves to live so long...
then die alone, so painfully.
Never again will this soul feel so trapped---
so helpless----
and so...........free......................


sorrylittlesharky.com


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Dog eared page

14th jan 2012 
By Sashi Prabhu (zeauoxian)

Silently laid my eyes, Upon tattered page piles, Littered outside, The garden far side I picked up a dog eared page, Brought back memories of the bygone age, Of the days of sitting together, In this garden, cuddling and smooching in cold weather. On such a glorious winter day, A long time ago, by the way, I scribbled on this page love notes, In double quotes. Nostalgic now are, Memories of “au revoir”, Melancholy tones fill in, My poignant heart to its brim. A wind now blows this dog eared page, And I dully chase it with some rage, To find it stuck to the old gum tree, And as I see the page I begin to read all about me…………….. Silently laid my eyes, Upon other tattered page piles, Littered outside, The garden far side……………………..


Details | Romanticism | |

Won't Let Another Tear Hit The Ground

I won't let another single tear hit the ground
You did nothing but letting me down

Made me feel like love's nothing 
But a stupid feeling inside of some one

I tore myself apart
Just to have you by my side

Do you know how hard I tried
To be all you needed to have by your side?

And you never gave a damn
Never Heard a single thing I screamed at night

Never cared about all of my tears hitting the ground
How could u be so blind?

You used to shine so bright
But not anymore ... At least NOT tonight

I'll be leaving all these feelings behind
'cause that's the only thing I learned from YOUR love ... !!!

And I won't let another tear hit the ground
Even though It's SO HARD ... !!!


Details | Free verse | |

Restful Spirit

This restful spirit longs 
for love that measures
inspiring pleasures that might come
my restless spirit knows 
that it will not come ...

Each day I wake 
looking for my sleep
at night I sleep among my candles
that I light before my rest
of endless words ...

Putting my feet on the floor
I cry and cry for more
my restless figure 
walks through the fire
wanting a new world to come....

Brooke


Details | I do not know? | |

Distant African Nights

Those Distant African Nights...


1.


The shadows swayed in your candlelit room,

a cool breeze teasing your bare back,


streaks of lightning forked in the Johannesburg night,

as my hands stroked your hair,

kissing your soft mouth,

holding you,

ever so tight.



2.


You whispered that you loved me,

and I kept silent,


the rain fell, 
shadows danced,
thunder rolled,

the breeze teased your naked back,

you whispered that you loved me,
as my lips found yours,

the rain washed over our tender nights,


lightning and candlelight,

etching poems on your burnished skin,


yet,

a fear gnawed at me,

deep within.



3.


We parted ways,
and you could never forgive me, you said,


now, after numberless thunderstorms,

the rain that falls,


echo the countless tears that I have shed.



4.


You are long gone,

far away,

happy, I pray,


yet the memories persist,

those precious moments shall never, 
ever,

like the Jo'burg rains,
trickle away,

and I wish you well,
for loving me as you did,

for it was I who was not worthy,


then,


and it is I who is not worthy,


now...



5.


You were always true,


it was I who always,

always,

refused to,


to give myself,


completely to you.






Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Sociopathic Love

 Sociopathic Love


Don't worry before He’s done with you; He‘ll ravage you
Not just physically but through his words both twisted and firm
If you could only accept that he decides when the game ends;
You'd realize an escape is just as much of an illusion as the man you think you know

Nothing can save you from this game
The lies will roll off his chameleon tongue as he reflects everything you've shown him
He’ll pour metaphors filled with an elusive pitch; deep inside the intimate spaces that fill your head

He'll patiently watch your every move
As you squirm with denial and try to claw your way past the anger
Just as you desperately try bargaining for release
He’ll watch you drowned in hopelessness, lost without the reflection you saw in him

It's a game you won't even realize you've been playing until he decides it's over
He'll know every piece of you by then
Especially the pieces he easily replaced well you were mesmerized in your own reflection
He’ll move on to his next prey soon and only then will you'll start to awaken
He thinks you'll never find all the pieces he planted; you'll never be whole without him 

As his eyes trace the contours of your acceptance
He’ll know at the precise moment he's broken you
As he watches your will bend pliantly to his
Making you just another possession he never really wanted
Then he’ll finally release you out of boredom
Leaving you lost without the mirror you helped him create
Wondering why the piece’s you're picking up won’t fit back together the way they once did

It’s then you’ll realize that he never knew how to love
He’s found his pleasure in the games he plays
Pleasure that calms the jealousy he holds against the emotions that he's unable to feel
Allowing him to walk away without remorse; leaving his victim in their darkest moment 
He's become bored with the people that surround him and confused by his own existence           To him love is only a game used to occupy time                                                               Whenever he decides the time is right it's simple

Game Over


Details | Blank verse | |

Soulless Wanderer

Scared to walk on the flagstones that your love would lay in my journey
My journey to freedom
My journey to diffidence  
My journey to destiny.
I returned back flake of your sole that was with me as a keepsake
AND started ambling legs on the promenade of my journey.

I didn't want to bail out from our story
I just wanted to elide your presence in my sole
You never brought any elegy to our imperishable bond but
It was me who rusted ours amicable relation and decided our segregation.

Walking away from your home and stepping on YOUR FOOTSTEPS
I felt your breath and relived every moment with you again but 
When I turned back I just saw a dilapilated house and a barren dusty road

NOW as I am roaming lugubriously I don't have you with me
Your absence has quenched my thirst for search of destiny 
And I have realized that my journey didn't began after leaving you but it ENDED.

Its not that I have forgotton you and my brain has erased photographic memories of you in my kaput life
I still remember you while sitting on the porch and watching the stars alone
I still remember you when I want someone to hold my hand and walk with me
AND I still remember the last meeting of our eyes.

Whenever these feeling start taking control of me I console my heart by saying

How could I have asked her to come when even I don't know where I am going.
I am just a Soulless Wanderer` 


Details | Verse | |

Love Ends

Torn apart; life now
seems strangely open
as my heart weeps.
Broken down castle walls
usurped by your emotional
crusades.
Crumbled defences.
Retreat.
Then see the open plain 
behind you.
A new path, a life
promised for you.
From simmering embers
a phoenix flames.


Details | I do not know? | |

Without You



Without you,

worn down, weary,
staggering into tomorrow,
dissolving my todays, grim, dreary,

I crawl, slipping out of my skin,
flinging laughter, joy, contentment,
into the gaping abyss of life's dustbin.

Without you


Details | Rhyme | |

When I look at you

When i look into your eyes I see a pain that should have never been. 
With all my heart and soul I want to save you from the hurt within.
But in the mist of trying to save you I can't help but give you my heart.
My soul constantly telling me this is where it belonged from the start.

Truely you remind me of my favorite sad song,
Beautiful, sweet, sad and has a message that is strong.
The melody sweeps me away before I know it I've drawn a tear.
The beauty of it all has me wrapped up and has pulled me near.

If I could take away your pain, anger, and hate inside,
I feel I would be saving our love, so that it wouldn't have to hide.
If you could show me your whole heart, perhaps I could show you mine,
We could save each other you know, so we could stop being so blind.

When I look at you I see my friend, who I in secret loved for years
A love I thought was lost to me, that I could have had if I saw past my fears.
When I look at you I see a fighter who has his eye on what he wants
A lion if you will, an I feel I am the prey and you are on the hunt.

The feeling of this excites me, but I am reminded of a fact
I belong to someone else, and I just cant hurt him like that.
The pain of this truth has been killing me, I even thought about ending my life.
I would rather be dead than to hurt either of you, I love you both but thats not right.

I'm not trying to be greedy, or selfish, but the truth is I am confused.
My walk is not to find my own happiness, its to comfort the hurt and abused.
Somehow my heart gets stuck in the middle, and i become one who needs to be 
saved.
My feelings are strong and they don't lie, to my heart I am but a slave.

You came along, and you have givin me more than i thought you could.
And although you have caused me pain, my heart can only see where you have 
given good.
You hurt me with your words, but my heart turns a deaf ear to your defense.
My heart knows you are protecting yourself, and you have a right to, I mean it only 
makes sense.

This started off being words to a man I love from my heart
I'm ending this as words to that man who of me, will always have a part.
This life is not easy, we all have to do the best we can do
But my heart smiles brightly when I think of you.


Details | Rhyme | |

What my eyes show me

I am afraid of what my eyes show me
They show me violence instead of peace
But true love is what i wish to see

     They trick me
     They deceive me
     In relationships they blind me

They make my heart stone
Because of them, to me real love is unknown
I try not to love what my eyes see
Because later i realize it's not what it use to be

I try to follow my heart and what it feels
But these deceiving eyes store feelings using a tight seal
Tomorrow will be longer, but my heart will grow stronger
And it'll someday be free, but until that day

I am afraid of what my eyes show me


Details | Rhyme | |

Remember

“I can’t remember you, but you are pretty,” said the old man Tears formed in the eyes of the woman "Who are you?" His voice was the grayest of blues "Are you my new doctor? Or perhaps a nurse?" Silently, the woman took something out from her purse The photo was a wedding shot of a young pair His smile was dimpled and wide, and she had curly hair The woman handed the photo to the old man Setting it on his shaky hand He stared at it long and hard, trying to remember He looked at the date in the back—the 13th of December He looked at the woman in sudden surprise “Marianne!” He cried with joy. “Of course, my wife!” She left the room without another word That was the name of his first wife—and she was merely the third


Details | Rhyme | |

On a Bench

Sitting on a bench
she met him one day
in the park, he passed by
and stole her heart away

sitting on a bench,
when he told her he'd be gone for a year
the army needed soldiers
and she was left with her fear

sitting on a bench
in the summer, in the fall
the leaves fell away
and she waited through all

sitting on a bench
while the snow came and went
while the grass turned back green
and less letters were sent

sitting on a bench
one year later, anticipating
sitting on a bench
where she still is found waiting


Details | Sonnet | |

Existence

Over the ridges of orange sand
watch it slide,sink and expand
as the orange turns a silhouette
I wish life would reach its sunset
a gigantic glow of fading light
that slowly subsides into the night
it just becomes a crimson pyre
of the hopes that never flew higher
their magnificence brutally mangled
one by one, picked and strangled
and if love is merely a setting sun
let the holds of life come undone
be my dusk of a painful existence
sink with the sun into the distance.










*Written atop a red dune whilst watching the sunset.


Details | Romanticism | |

The Widower

What is there too say now?
What is there to do this evening?
Nothing for I am without you,
I remember you, when my eyes first looked upon your brow and beautious eyes,
Your luxurious features and a heart of gold and platnium,
I am lost in a garden of cluelessness, and lost and forgotten.

My heart aches and shivers in the lone days of the mid December evenings,
You are gone and lost without a single trace,
But soon I had lost you for good and could never find you again,
I buried you in the gardens of the dead,
and the tears from my broken heart showered your grave.

Oh now I wish you were here,
To listen to my heart,
For it is out of tune and the orchestra is playing a slow melody,
and the chimes ring me to the dinner table,
To eat alone the lonely supper for the mourning of my woman.

So I eat alone tonight,
The house is quiet and empty,
The butlers and maids have gone home,
Nothing but lone, empty halls,
Once filled with love and music,
keep me company.

The slow music plays in my study,
I sit in my red chair,
I cry and cry again,
I read a book of poetry and think of you,
Not a life worth living without you.


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The Soul I Sold ---:2

If I seem down
forgive me

frowns I carry around
live in me

you may say,
ya' see right through me

your words untrue,
renew me

the hurt I’ve learned
brews in me

if only you could
re-design me

take time rewind,
refine me

recreate the mold, without lies I’ve told;
give back the soul I sold.

®~JSLambert


Details | Rhyme | |

Dear Friend

Dear, Friend  
   I did not want to be your friend, i wanted to be more
To laugh and smile with you at the front door
I wanted to hold you close, and never let go
As together you and i create our own flow

I thought i had a chance, i knew i could make you smile
Give you bursts of laughter, as your eyes drove me wild
I thought i could wipe your tears away, if i ever saw you cry
I wanted to learn more, willing to add you in my life

Now i realize, that it was all just a dream
A wish upon a star, there was nothing real it seems
I told you how i felt, but i was labeled only as a friend
Even told that if i wasn't cool, we'd never chill again

I didn't realize that i was that far away from my goal
But no I'm just a friend, once again left in the cold
The funny thing is, the next day they had fun
There was four of them, they got rid of one

I don't know... I guess that I'm lacking
Something must be missing, that's why this pain keeps on stacking
All i know is it'll be awkward, don't know if I'll talk to her again
I'm not sure if i can take, being only your "friend."
                                         Sincerely,
                                           William Hughes


Details | Free verse | |

I shall love you as a Stranger

Carry not my love with a sigh.
Let it not drag your steps, pull you from behind.
Weigh not your heart with guilt and regret;
Grieve not over the good and bad Allah set. 

Let my love fall on your shoulders, light as a moonbeam;
Let it be a faintest blush of colour on the canvas of your dreams.
Let it be a breeze that ruffles your outstretched wings;
Let it echo every note you sing.

I shall remember your smile
As I count my miles.
I might stumble, even fall --
Pray for me but do no more.

For such is my love for you,
For it runs pure and true,
For there is One who
I love more than you.

When the passions of this world come to fade,
We shall meet in a far better place --
On a day when there is no shade but His Shade;
When through the Fount of Abundance the faithful wade.

When the Promise is delivered
When we are gathered among Believers
I shall search the eyes of Strangers
I shall come to you as a Stranger
And I shall love you far greater.


Details | Lyric | |

Baby Please

Oh my darling, how I wish I knew your name.
I've called you many things and Loves' the only one to stay.
I've called you many times, now won't you come my way?

Oh child at night, you, you rattle through my bones.
But I wake up on cold mornings to find I'm all alone.
And I cried, "Baby please, I can't lose all that I need".

And I cried, "Baby please, I am only a man,
And I'm working, trying the best that I can".
I can't do this all alone, so I cried, yes I cried,
"Baby please, won't you please just come back home".

I knew all my tears would be in vein,
But cried on anyway, to try and wash away the pain.
I've called you many things, but "Goodbye" would only stain. 

Oh I cried, "Baby please, you'd be cold to walk away,
But surely we'd both freeze if you can't find the heart to stay.
So I cried, cried, cried, "I love you more than anything in this world,
Now you've go to, got to, got to be my girl".


Details | Rhyme | |

Empty Embrace

She cries a monsoon of tears, 
tears cascading, tracing years,
years of witnessing such pain,
pain which constantly remains.

Torrential rains down pour hate,
hate seems to be her final fate, 
fate is now in his brutal hands,
hands weaving an evil so grand.

Spinning a violent web of deceit, 
deceit and a dishonorable defeat,
defeat carefully woven and spun,
spun fibers of promise are none.

She bellows and wails to be free,
free from this impending misery,
misery and agony have set a tone,
tone of darkness; forever alone.

The heavenly stars shine overhead,
overhead they reflect love instead,
instead of darkness, light they beam,
beam bliss into her nightly dreams.

Warming soul, she’s always alone,
alone to face a fear of the unknown,
unknown what the stars will erase,
erase the years of an empty embrace.


Details | I do not know? | |

Sweet Ache

Where would I be without you.
Only thing I feel most days, so if not for you I would not feel at all.
When did we become such good friends?
Comrades, Allies...
When did we start needing each other so?
Are we joined forever?
What did you do with pure joy.
Are you one and the same.
I think you are..
Some slight of hand and you were there.
Sweet ache
Come let me hold you.
Take you in completely and cherish you forever.
For this I promise my eternal devotion.
If you grant me my wish I promise I will carry you in my heart forever and together we can 
create our own pure joy.
Sweet Ache I know that you and I are one


Details | I do not know? | |

Professional Divorcé

Lost in emotions
Two souls approaching new path
Bitterness adorned


Forgetting love, possibly they shared.
Reasoning on the fights, they had bared.
Manly disfiguring blow.
So possible you know.
Now departing, both no longer  paired.


Marriages four, divorced three times now in this life of mine.

If another comes my way, next lover shall be a glass of wine..




For
Sponsor (Destroyer ((Poet 
Contest Name ~DIVORCE CLUB~ 


Details | I do not know? | |

Beautiful woman. (mothers)

I shead a tear as i watch you grow up to become a beautifu; woman.
 But it hurts me to see you weap over a torn heart.
I may not be there to catch your fall, 
  But i'll always be here when you come back home.
We may have our moments when we just can't stand each other.
  But that's just what Mother's and Daughter's do.
I may say " I can't wait until your 18"
 But, truly what i'm really saying is that i can't live without you.
 I will always shead a tear as i watch you grow up to become a beautiful woman.

*please comment if you have any thought or if you just like it. (or fav poem)* :)

            -Angel4eva23


Details | Lyric | |

In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie


Details | Free verse | |

Exhalation

In the morning, I wait outside for a bus,
To take me somewhere I can’t wait to leave,
And I breathe into the not-quite-sunrise morning,
And let my relief fog up the darkness.
 
I wish to stop breathing now and then,
Thankful for the too-cold-to-be-comfortable air,
That, with every deep breath,
Causes me to cough.
 
I’ve always been imperfect,
And when my breath freezes inside,
And then freezes outside,
I know it’s those little inside scars that cause me the most trouble,
Because the outside ones are just a visual.
 
When you’re in my head,
There is nothing that will get you out until I satisfy the thought,
Until I torture myself with every could-be and what-if,
And until all those wasted I-love-yous give me so much grief,
Until those wasted love-you-toos are so many, they leak out my eyes,
To relieve my tired mind.
 
Until I overwhelm myself with every word you ever spoke,
And every smile directed at me,
And all those not-quite-sure-what-to-say glances,
Until everything I remember and think about you, and me, and us,
I will have no relief,
Not even my exhalation is relief enough from those cold, air bitten scars.
 
But even when I am so exhausted that my tortured my mind gives out,
Even when I am so sick of the very thought of you,
You have to know,
That I’d go through it a hundred times more,
A hundred times worse.
Just to spend another insignificant moment with you.
 
Even though that little moment,
That small, insignificant moment,
Would cause me nothing but grief.


Details | I do not know? | |

I Ache For You

I ache for you
Here I sit, cold and solitary
The space where you were, empty
Memories flashing through my mind like lightning
Evoking pain and longing
But you're gone now
I ache for you
I remember the first time we were close
The world was full and beautiful
Nothing but promise, bright and true
How we talked, hoped, dreamed, of the future
I ache for you
It all felt so brief
Fleeting is time
That tempting siren
I ache for you
In only a few seconds it seems
You were snatched away
I ache for you
Now I sit, cold and solitary
Aching for you


Details | Rhyme | |

Love

Love
 I'm in love with my best friend and she knows,
 Words form in my mind but my tounge is froze,
 Why can't I ever say what I need too
 I've listened to stories and cared for you!
 I've admired you at your lowest point
 I've never ever tried to disappoint.
 You loved me when I had to quit my sport!
 You taught me a new game, a brand new Court.
 but I can't seem to reach your heart and I
 fall short of you, behind men who lie. 
Though I will never know if ill get through,
 My strong heart will never stop loving you!
 CMS


Details | I do not know? | |

What is it About You

I don't know what it is About you that i Love,

I can't stop fighting for you.

Even So many people have told me to Forget about you..

But i say I can't!

I can't Forget about you,

I can't Forget how much i Hurt you.

I can't Forget the Fact that i Want you.

-Brittany- 
(thank you for reading.. if you like please comment and rate :) thank you so much)


Details | Lyric | |

Chancy thinks its soo fancy

Is it you ? is it me?
Stuck in a world of a fantasy 
Heart beats, unceasingly 
Is this what they call ecstasy?
 Some say “the heart wants ,what the heart wants”
Yet the fire is oh! So enticing! Tranquilizing!
I adore it! I fear it!
Chancy foot stands transfixed in front
The petrified foot it taunts 
As it takes one step back, 
Chancy stands there and laughs
Torn between the two…my heart weeps
What path to take? My heart! Guidance it seeks
The fear of falling
Holds me back
The want for love
Pushes me back
The shackles of scary bounds me tight
Chancy is there, never to give up with out a fight

 Arising a hurricane is what they doo
My poor feeble heart, knows not what to do
The heart is pure. It seeks it strives to find who proves to be true
The ultimate winner..is still unknown
For here my heart still stand in the sea of unknown
Cupid I beg you do guide me
And dare not strike me and leave me
With your arrows of blind love
Guidance is what I need 
Give me that and I shall heed
Leave me not in the dark of misery
Leave me not in the sea of mystery
But guide me to that ever shinning light
Scary or chancy
With what do I side?
Shall forever remain a secrecy….



                                                                ~M.M.M


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Wishing you could love me too

You mean so much to me, more then you'll ever know. 
More then ill ever be able to describe.
But I'll try.
Voice of a angel, touch ever so soft you would think its a feather.
Eyes so beautiful seeing them on a sunset day, medusa stare ever so hypnotizing locking eyes can't look away.
Baby in the tummy, heart just started beating giving me a rush that I really needed.
Love so old I feel defeated.
Even though I do everything for you, I'm looking out for me just keeping a close over view upon you.
How can I fix your life if mine isn't alright, but i don't know where id ever be with out you by my side.
And I thought I'd never know but as of now I'm pushing through. 
Now that your gone, I miss you every night.
But I gotta be strong.
Cause if not you'll be gone and ill be with a baby missing its mom.


Details | Quintain (English) | |

a flame once burned

lingering embers lay smoldering out
fingers searching through ashes
rearranging, but always in doubt
to find all of the matches
re-piece all that matters

the dull glow lingers, hanging around
forcing my hands to shake
scattering remnants, moving about
escaping my baleful gaze
forever til the end of days

the lovely burn, or what so was thought
has drained me of all my ways
forever in flee, but finally caught
shes caught me, and so i'll stay
never to go away

rekindling a fire, set it ablaze
see how long its tongues last
no, not yet, I'm not ashamed
the warnings shall never pass
our love has shaped the glass

let sands pour, sinking in time
extinguishing all the fire
a grain for each second that i'm,
slowly becoming the liar
slowly becoming so tired

and once more the flames have gone
forever to never be anew
the future in the smoke has shown
of eyes so coldly blue
forever without you..



Christopher R. Pitts
12/1/12



Details | Prose Poetry | |

Modern Day Merlin

To the torn page out of Modern day Merlin’s book of wizardry,

I regret to inform you that you are nothing more than a recipe for tomato soup. You have no enchanted qualities about you, but you tend to brag about where you come from more times than you realize. Dear torn page, haven’t you noticed that the he only wondered on your whereabouts when his life was turning quite pale in color, and rugged in shape? Your words of zest, and your smooth direction brought vibrancy into his blue octagonal soul. Probably like how an octopus would feel escaping from a cloud of his own ink. He could breathe again.

But you’re lost now, and he doesn’t care much. You wonder why you were written in the first place if you’ve only felt what magic you can make once. If there are over 7 billion people in this world, have you ever wondered how many pages in books there might be? Has it ever occurred to you that out of those trillions of pages turned, over half haven’t been read at all? Has it ever occurred to you that books have been transformed into toys? Children in schools use you until they grow up and buy iPhones and laptops, and you’re left on sitting sideways on some rotting wooden shelf that has nothing more to talk about than how bad of a shape he’s in. Has it ever occurred to you that there are mysteries, histories, nursery rhymes, and adventures that have been overlooked because of the simple fact that humans have given up on the great things?

Actually, it would seem that giving up is the only thing their willing to give. Your black blood on a papyrus shell just doesn’t flow in the mind like it used to. You reminisce on the time when you were the only one that cast a spell on him, and you gave him life again.

Now the wizard is off signing autographs and performing shows at Rockefeller Center every first Friday of the month. He uses only spells so basic that he doesn’t have to read the step by step instructions anymore. To be honest, the book isn’t even used as frequently. I think I even saw a family of dust specks rent a home on page thirty-three last week.

But has it slipped your mind, humble recipe? Have you forgotten already of the position you’re in? You are a torn page now.

So float on by.

Let the wind keep you steady.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Ashes in the Sky

Searching through the ashes
Of the memory of my past.
I found a dying ember
Of a love I hoped would last.
  
Tried to make it glow again,
But no matter how I tried
It kept on  getting colder
Till it finally died.

Now as I sift through
These ashes cold and gray
My mind starts to ponder
As to what I want to say

There once was a raging fire
Inside our bodies it did burn
Thought it would burn for ever
But now a lesson we did learn

Our passion that we had
Flowed both day and night
But there were some problems
That were  hidden out of sight

Life styles that were different
Thought we could handle some 
But when they raised their head
Just to many too overcome

So now the wind is blowing 
Those ashes in the sky
Both of us now realize
That it's time to say goodby .


Details | I do not know? | |

A Chipped Heart

A Chipped Heart...


Dreaming, my heart brittle as glass,
my solitary facade a pitiful farce,

shards tearing out of my skin,
seeking release, from cages within,

I am lost, in the dream,
bellowing out a silent scream,

torn from reality, drowning in the now,
yet I refuse,
I refuse to succumb,

I refuse to bow.



My chipped heart, may be wounded,
wreathed in pain,

still,

I believe, love, truth, belonging,

will take my hand,

again...


Details | Ballade | |

Tell Me Its Real

Your tear drop fell into my palm,
I held it as if it were a jewel to my soul so calm.
My thumbs whipped away your troubles and sorrows,
You poured your heart out to me like never before, like it was stories.

I listened very carefully and silent,
Your voice sounded as if it was frightened. 
So understand when I say that you will not need anyone anymore,
Anyone to listen to you, or even smile with you, and I say it from the core. 

Now a little refreshment for your thought,
Tell me that this is what you sought.
Did you see this coming, us being so close and in love like steal to steal,
Now one more thing, please tell me what we have is real, tell me its real.


Details | Free verse | |

Missing Someone

Shall I call?
I shan't, or won't or am too fearful
of my own rapidly fading shadow.


Details | Haiku | |

Lonely Valentine

Anticipation
Surges throughout the day, but
Is not rewarded.


Details | Lyric | |

Like

Warmth
In my skin
Fresh faced
Embracing sin

Gather
Retract
Sun bathed golden grains
Richer
Infract
Life everlastingly changed

Darkness 
Ahead
Impending disaster
Silently said

Wind
Bend
Ache
Break
Slipping through
Again 
Too late

Ivory
Showing
Please
Start slowing
These savory moments within

Gaps 
Inside
Helplessly flowing
In this tide
Traps my hands in emptiness
From the sun filled sky

Wind
Bend
Ache
Break
Slipping through
Again 
Too late


Details | I do not know? | |

Forget us but not me

You know what
Just forget me, 
being with me, 
nothing good can come through. 
But one thing I promise is, 
I will never ever forget you. 
The memories we shared, 
the time went by too fast. 
They're all a part, 
of my tearful past. 
But we both knew we couldn’t continue, 
under these conditions. 
There was so much love there, 
but too much distance. 
Please forgive me, 
for the choices I’ve made. 
I just want you to be happy, 
but please don't let the memories fade. 
I have cried myself to sleep, 
time and time again. 
And I'm just waiting for the one day, 
that maybe we can be one again. 
It's just right now, 
is no time for pain and love to mix. 
With all the distance and hate from both of out families that was there, 
it's just impossible to fix. 
Maybe we can happen again, 
sometime later in life. 
Just move on for now, 
don't be a sacrifice. 
You are too amazing, 
to lose forever. 
I'm not going to forget about you, 
not now not ever. 
No one knows, 
how much this is actually hurting me.
Free from this pain I call myself, 
is what I wish for you to be.


Details | Rhyme | |

Curse of a Princess

Fairytales,
and butterflies,
in this story,
we begin with lies,
promises,
we never kept,
I should have held on tighter,
when you wept,
small mistakes,
on both our parts,
added up,
to shred our hearts,
creeping shadows,
behind the flowers,
in what we thought,
were our finest hours,
talking grass,
crystal snow,
in our lie of love,
a hidden foe,
the evil witch,
her claws aimed to kill,
t'was she who pushed you,
down the hill,
a broken crown,
a forgotten well,
to live without you,
was her spell,
an evil curse,
she cast in spite,
although we loved, 
with all our might,
kept apart,
by what was said,
in regret,
our hearts bled,
watch from afar,
speak in vein,
a curse taken course,
inflicted pain,
and so it began,
with love and lies,
our fairytale ends,
and we both die...


Details | I do not know? | |

Love's pain

A little more than tipsy,
 So truth be my master,
 Cannot be the girl for u
 For love is my disaster,
 Alone always I must be
 For all I can see is blue
 So forgive and forget me,
 For I don't know wat I do.
 
I loved you with all my heart
 As my mind it broke apart
 I know I caused u pain
 Those tears in the rain
 I'm just too human to be loved
 As away from you I shoved
 I just love far to much
 To ever really be in touch
 Alone in my world I live
 Just not enough to give
 
In love I always deeply fall
 As I give my very all
 But too intense they say
 As I wave by another day
 The dusk, a sign of an end
 To another very good friend
 
As i walk through this busy mall
 The tears just continue to fall
 Around me a bustling crowd
 Can't drown my thoughts so loud
 
My tears they never cease to flow
 The hurt bubbling from deep below
 A million things ill just never know
 So many truths I can never show
 


Details | Pantoum | |

Distant Pipes Lament-The End

Distant Pipes Lament - The End - A Collaboration

Standing out most beautiful lady,
Warmly Inside strutting In the darkest hours.
As warm before me you stand In glory,
A Rose you were among so many flowers.

Warmly Inside strutting In the darkest hours,
Following the path of ones heart.
A Rose you were among so many flowers,
You the moons' wonder from the start.

Following the path of ones heart,
I am scared and angry yet truly sorry.
You the moons' wonder from the start,
You left me grieving cold and lonely.

I am scared and angry yet truly sorry,
My heart broken asunder my Souls' pain enhanced.
You left me grieving cold and lonely,
Into a vortex chemically unbalanced.


A Collaboration by Liam Mcdaid & Michael Clarke.


Details | Free verse | |

Visible Breath

Autumn comes I stand watching the leaves..thinking
The breath leaves my body unseen
But as the mercury drops and as I ponder my place.
I notice all I think all I feel.
Right there on the window before me.
To others it's just a mist caused by cooling or heating or both.
A chilhood whimsical game"oh boy look it's cold"
To me that mist is all, your name , your face, Our time.
I want to wipe it away this physical aberation of all unseen in my heart.
I see it all the pain the love the heartache everything in a small whitish cloud on a simple window.
My hand reaches pauses  oh so this is what you look like.
Oh if it was so easy to be done.
The mist fades rapidly with every lonely wasted breath. Making an apperance oh so briefly.
What ever course I take to wipe away or to gently touch the mist.
Would this breath on the window which taunts me so relay back to my damaged soul see its gone you'll be ok now or see how it welcomes your touch?
welcome to the world for all to see.
Hidden by the sun most of the time.
My fingers glide through the vanishing mist, I flash back to your cheek beneath my fingers.
Goodbye my love, goodbye my pain, goodbye to the only proof I have left of you.
But at peace I am.
I know now what I did not before.
Your not invisable your their in my breath.
Kissing the crisp Autumn air with me.
And all I have to do is breath.
And my visible breath will show me all I feel is real as real as the mist on the window


Details | I do not know? | |

Within Me


Within Me

Flowing through the rivulets of my everyday thoughts,
memories of you surface, gasping for air, breathing in,
permeating, absorbed by the pores of my ageing skin.

Famished, greedily gulping mouthfuls of fractured life,
awash in distant yesteryear, when your feathery kisses,
banished the vacuum, dispelling my anguish and strife.

You are eternally carved, and embroidered into my soul,
I wash ashore, smashing against the boulders of the now,
seeking solace, begging for absolution with my empty bowl.

The book of fate is sealed shut, the tea-leaves have been read,
nothing remains within me, the burden of smiling has been shed.

Now I am stranded, between dreams and the empty years ahead,
searching for forgiveness, in the miles I have yet to wearily tread.



Details | I do not know? | |

hopeless

I remain infatuated.
cursed that I was blessed
enough to meet her.
Reminders of her are ubiquitous
she is everywhere, and nowhere
her unknowing torture
perpetually keeps my mind fixated
hopeless in my endeavors 
to, one day, be happy...
with her


Details | Romanticism | |

Ghost


I've got a persistent vision in my brain
A picture stuck there that gives me pain
A rain of misery pouring from my eyes
A flood of words choked in my throat.
This vision is killing me a little, everyday
Twisting my senses, taking my reason away  
And it's the ghost of you.


Details | Rhyme | |

About, Me & You

You & me, so long we've been together,
Why can't you see?  Look inside..  I would never,
Ever want to be, a traitor to my lover,
You're the mother of my child, there could never be another.

I love to think about the day when we first met,
The day you walked into my life, how could I forget?
I let you deep into my heart, now my mind's set,
Because I love you, there's not a single regret.

It's never black and white, we are both shades of grey,
Now the world is full of colour and it's a fine day,
You extend my power, nothing gets into our way,
They say that love is blind, but this vision's here to stay.

Now this feeling's been refined, in the fires of time,
That have raged through our hearts, all along the line,
Your smile shines down on my face, so divine,
It's a crime to wastle a love, that is so sublime.

I can be the rock, that weathers the storm,
When the cold creeps in, I'll still be warm,
I'm no Millionaire, though I'm richer than you know,
Because I've got you Girl.

When we were broke, we still didn't choke,
The hardtimes fell, but we saw it as a joke!
We worked and played hard.. but we saw the smoke,
As the pressure awoke, to bring stress and to provoke.

Opposites attract, because we both come back,
It's a fact that I missed you, be we never ever lacked,
Any reason to react, you'll agree, we're both cracked,
You high-jacked my heart!  So start showing some tact!

Let us stay this way, today and tomorrow,
And any other day..  there are plenty more to follow,
We've no debt to pay, no reason to borrow,
We've got a light to shine, in the darkness of sorrow.

It has been so long Girl, we've gotta be strong,
And let time make right, what once went wrong,
I'll sing you any song..  in my heart you belong,
I just know we should carry on..

I was the rock, that weathered the storm,
The cold crept in, and I was still warm,
I'm no Millionaire, but I'm still richer than you know,
But now I haven't got you Girl..


Details | Free verse | |

Breezes of Time -Wrapped In Your Love

                                                         **~~**

I stand in silence under the starlit skies, breathing in my memories of you 
Standing so still in the shadowy breezes of time- 
Drawing in my sweetly scented secrets of our love 
So haunting -mourning the loss of your smile, your kiss 
Where your body filled my empty spaces as you lay next to me 
In the past- in that other time
 

I needed your love to guide me - to lead me in the right direction 
So lost was I… in the 'cri de coeur' of love 
Our love battled all the storms- like sailors on the sea of life 
I loved the feeling when I was with you… 
That I would never let go of the curve of the moon 
Your essence of live giving air, filled my heart… 
Softly longing for your love as I looked into your eyes, your soul 
Gently cradled in the hours and days of you, listening to your heart beat 
It quieted my fears, as you tenderly kissed my tears away
 

I feel carried away into the dream of you…of us 
Standing here alone now under the moon- dreaming of you 
As the air holds the scent of you and the breezes whisper your name 
Even tho' you no longer leave your footprints on this Earth 
They will always remain in my soul- 
For my heart remains wrapped around you... 
         Forever                         

                                                          **~~**
 
By anne p murray


Details | Free verse | |

Her

Everything is about her
all the topics of our conversations 
all your time, not devoted to your career 
and you say, all your thoughts
when not one me

Karma you called it
but what did i ever do?
i only said what you couldn't say
my words draw you closer to her
and farther from me

Do you really love her?
if you did then you wouldn't
tell me how you love my smile
when we are both pretending no to notice
don't touch me face so gently like you do

Oh, whatever you do
don't, kiss me that way again
like the way you wipe my tears
before they even come
please, don't let me see the words i don't hear

All that time i pushed it back
the way i pushed you away
how one night can open my mind
like waking from a rest
three years long

How is it the words came from my mouth
but not from your mouth nor heart
so be with her
"love" her
and i'll pretend
still wanting to be "her"



-November 11, 2011


Details | Lyric | |

The Air

Sweet scents Fill my empty lungs I can hardly relent From singing the unsung Is as before These places I adore But the breath will be my death If my heart keeps racing And I keep embracing The sweet spring air The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then How Can I get back what's already been? Words trace down my throat Bittersweet after taste Gently afloat But becoming a waste It is the same here It is the same there But the sun is not here And the wind is not there Only clear blue tears And the silent dare The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then But please how Can I get back what's already been?


Details | Rhyme | |

The Addiction Of Pornography


The Addiction Of Pornogtaphy...

.
A Christian brother had a confession.
Pornography in his life was an addiction .
I couldn't believe the words 
I began to hear.
As a message of hopelessness from 
his lips began to appear.

I began to see tears running down his cheek.
“I go to counseling once a week.”
This was a “man of God” as many believed.
True joy and fulfillment were no longer achieved.

As the lust in his heart began to burn.
Jesus-his once true love-he longed to return.
In the coming days and weeks ahead.
So many ungodly thoughts entered his head.

He began to lose his family and all he cherished.
His life before him began to perish
Then one night in deep agony, 
to God, he cried out;
“Is this what life is really all about?”


“Dear Jesus...in repentance I come to you.”
“I have sinned against God and my family too.”
He forsook the things he thought gave him pleasure.
And lived according to God's word
—his true treasure.
Run from every evil temptation
& lust of the flesh.
Or your life will end up in a huge mess!

Pornography in your life will destroy and decay.
From it's appearance—you must run away!
Enjoy Godly relationships as
Christ meant them to be.
Walk anew in God's love—Only HE 
can SET YOU FREE!

By Jim Pemberton


Details | Light Poetry | |

Light, love, hope

Light of the night,
Shiny and bright,
Tell me tonight,
Where i might,

Found a soul a heart,
Who wont break me apart,
And maybe will start,
Creating Love art,

Hope in my mind ,
Like a sunny sunshine,
Lead this heart blind,
To who should be mine.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

My Bleeding Heart

My heart is bleeding and I don't know why

My heart is beating can't you hear it cry

My heart is broken can't you see it split

My heart is torn, torn to bits

My heart is vengeful and it has no regrets

My heart is soulless and it needs to be put to rest

My heart is useless cause you choose somebody else

My heart is frozen from everyone else

My heart is black

My heart is cold 

My heart can't let you go

My heart will wave goodbye 

My heart sank for the last time.....


Details | Sonnet | |

Shall I Compare Thee

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more stormy and less temperate.
Rough winds do shake our fragile bonds of May,
And summer's temper hath all too short a date.

Sometime too hot your sweat does shine,
And often is your beauty dimmed;
And every handsome man you do decline,
by chance, they leave chest hair untrimmed.

Part 2 Variation
Shall I compare thee to a winter’s day?
Thou art as stormy and as cold
And do leave me longing for May
And winter’s temper too long showed
Sometime too cold yours eyes shine GREY


Details | Rhyme | |

So Sweet


 So sweet
  The lonesomeness of the city light street
 has me hearing the sound of my heart beat,
 I quickly fall to sleep, I wake up and stand
 looking outside from my widow balcony.
 
 I see two homeless men standing in line
 whom I randomly see in this street,
 scuffling in their packets from a handouts,
 for good bite to eat as they gladly retrieve their treat
 which is a pleasant cite for flooded eyes to see
 moreover on the opposite side of the street,
 I see people set down enjoying
 a late morning sunny breeze in front of a restaurant
 chattering, bonding, eating and drinking as 
 I share with them lessoning to the smooth sound
 of the music, children laughing and playing
 on the playground and on hard concrete street however
 not wanting to hear the havoc of the noise, 
 and the rush of a saturated street.
 
 That is a part of life... which can be sound and can be so sweet.

  

So Sweet Poetry 10/28/10 by Keith K. Relf


Details | I do not know? | |

Eventually

frowns show depression
smiles show an expression
tears show the pain
and kisses are in vain
his heart is not for you
though you don't know it
but soon enough his actions will show 
it


Details | Lyric | |

MYSTIC PARABLE

Stories dared not whispered, legend of great thinker. 
Artificially created Atlantis, maze search for law-giver. 

Hushed lips speak no evil, silly little monkey cliche. 
Privy ancient knowledge, not clear as light and day. 

So-called peace-loving demigods, closely followed in trace. 
Sexually crazed fools, copying angels fallen from grace. 

Pillars of Hercules within island, dynasty king frenzy awoke. 
Powerful and remarkable, ready to enslave at single stroke. 

Originally thought to be noble, conspicuous reveal greed. 
In route to world domination, struck down by Specialbreed. 

Later time earthquakes and floods, extraordinary violence. 
Single dreadful day and night, massive lost of innocence. 

Intervening super mighty one, so-called wrathful Zeus. 
Manipulation of elements, water and lightning bolts let loose. 

Grand golden wall palace, swept aside sea and sunk below. 
Ironical measured payment, for employment of ruthless blow. 

Swiming through labyrinth of wisdom, vie of the celest'. 
Chancing risk of schism, mighty sequential vignette. 

Perplexed pattern in hide, bloody seal of truth. 
Illuminati repelled, for a time real minoot. 

Message of twisted tongue, langual contrivance. 
Masters' visions swoon, in journey through euphoric trance. 

Loud whisper switch, silence left in wake. 
Souls of denizens burned, in fiery scourching shake. 

Prominent eclectic short order, alien wishbone act. 
Convert of non-belief, fierce zealots' minds impact. 

Lucid broken water reflection, visible-eye agleam. 
Blind finding quarry, standing like obelisk beam. 

Instinctive overriding, a slip into lucidity. 
Telepathic mind connection, recede to infinity. 

Exponential theory, base of schematics. 
Common like maybe, superpower military tactics. 

Voice of bleeding knowledge, fade to obscurity. 
Mystic in strange land, fault found in masters of intricacy. 

Undecipherable rhetoric, great monster on chase. 
Featureless darkness, a threat to human race!


Details | Rhyme | |

Brittney Sweet Brittney

Brittney sweet Brittney
why did you leave that day
why would you ever 
want yourself to go away
I know they said
you weren't in love
but I know what ya'll had 
was a love from above
I guess maybe it was your time 
to be gods angel
but Brittney you left us all
mixed up and strangled
you were only fifteen 
when you took your last breath
I guess they really did 
put you and Sean to the test
you said in a note your love
was like Romeo and Juliet
a love ones heart 
could never forget
Sean said even death 
couldn't do your love apart
This you meant because march 20th
you stopped your hearts
together you lay there in silence
as I weep and ask god for his guidance
Brittney sweet Brittney 
why did you have to go away..


Details | Free verse | |

Gentle as the moon

Who is this?
That calls me from my latent apathy.
Why is this good?
rescuing heart from lovers atrophy.

My desperate mewling 
reached further than a shout.
Stumbling toe scraping limp
took me further, packed more clout.

I was lied to.
Thinking that you're bottomless ration,
could be earned,
could be bought with acts of compassion.

I was indulging in hurt,
abiding in poetic romantic pain.
I was thrashing around
bellowing at nothing,
needing to blame.


Why is this love for me?
when I was wasting all my energy
on a treadmill run.
Who is this?
That holds me light;
gentle as the moon,
source of the sun.


Details | Blank verse | |

Orange

You laid low,
         and I watched,
You smoked a cigarette,
         and we talked
You asked me if i wanted to go with you,
          And i said 'yes' 
We new it was all through
          As we fell            

Down, down deeper 
          we lost ourselves 
No one else 
          could even touch
Wrapped up, intertwined
           We were hidden
Through our eyes, confessions 
             That was given

We talked often, no worries
           No end in sight
held hands, made love
            So into you
Until something went wrong,
           Silence came,
Air goes out; he goes in           
           Ceiling fell down

I remember you'd drive
         Drive anywhere for me
We'd go happy together
         Linked arms, held hands
But now it's different. 
        Out of our dream.
Forget about what was,
         And what is...               


Details | Rhyme | |

At First Glance

The first time I saw you
I knew you’d be the one
I could tell you were the prize
And that I had won

Your smile was contagious
Your smile made me weak
This was definitely love at first sight
At its ultimate peak

I know this sounds silly
I know it’s surreal
But this was your doing
It’s how you made me feel

But then I saw you for you
An immature little boy
My perfect vision of you
Did you surely destroy

But I’ll keep in my heart
That very first glance
It will forever hurt me
That we didn't have a chance


Details | Free verse | |

Moonlight Bliss

Sadness overflows
glorifying this time
when the sun loses
its battle over the
night.
When this heart
feels devoid of
anything happy and
the light of
this being loses
its battle over the
night.

Tonight,
I feel you slipping
away into the darkness
of this moment.
Still,
I will wait for you
to emerge in the
stillness of this night.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Paper or plastic: either Heart will still throb

"Love me," he said.

"NO."

-She laughed-

"Trust me," he said.

"No!"

-She cried-

"See me," he said.

What?... Why?... What's the point? ... Why are you here?

*so many real questions with plastic answers.

"Okay," she said.

-She caves-

*as quickly as the candles were lit, they blew out.

"I'm sorry," he said.

What happened to it?

What happened to what?

What happened to...

"I will always protect you."

"You don't understand how much this means to me."

?

It does, eh?

*Where's the flowers at?

"That's what I thought."

END.

(Damn Cave)


Details | I do not know? | |

Tearing Apart

Torn from the thoughts of yesterday
Torn from everything i thought I loved
Torn from a love that I thought was true
Sealed shut with lonely, scattered, depressed fears
Sewed up with the needles and threads
Made up of confusion,  hunger, lost, and pain
Scared of new love and thoughts
Moving rapidly into my path of nothingness
I want to feel again
I want to feel real love
I want to feel the closeness
That's the hunger of my heart
But who am I to expect this
From someone whose heart's been harmed
I feel the sadness that lurks there
You remind me everyday
The more I ask of you
Is not my place
But I will hold on
No matter how badly the stones of sadness hit
I will resist
No matter how shattered my heart gets
I will wait
For you to let me in
Love you with the fullness of my heart
And I will not hate


Details | Prose Poetry | |

LOVE ON DEATH LINE

I have not eaten today,
But my heart is filled
Not hungry of affection.
I had a fill of you last night
A fill of you for a life time

All around us are walking corpses
Corpses of political disregard
Humans of no nations
Even when they are bona-fide citizens
Your blood and mine flows in them

The government abhors the poor
Feeds them with empty promises
Shoves them through the door
They pay the bills
For social amenities they can’t find
Pay taxes for their castles 
Government built in the air
But we know their ancestors
Filthy dogs eating from the king’s crumbs
No; Lets not unknot the knot
Soon a messiah might heed us

In heaven’s book of life,
I heard the poor names are there
In here’s book of life
It is deleted.
Thus, in your head,
Lays your kingdom and glory 
Get rich or die trying
Or; be their poor and keep sulking.

Well, like them I saw… 
I have not eaten
Flesh gone weak to skeleton
Nevertheless, 
The solitude of love within
Keeps me living; I am breathing
But I am moving,
Towards your direction
I see your beam

I feel new
When I see you
From my heart 
Seeps through the rays of the sun
Its fun; this love on death line
We survived the genocide
We survived the war
We survived love
We survived us
I love you too.

This poem is dedicated to the abused tribes of Rwanda and Nigeria during their respective civil wars resulting in near human annihilation. Though time has passed, we still feel your pains chilling our bones. The survivors.


Details | Rhyme | |

Love has a World of Crime too

Wouldn't it be the perfect crime?
If I stole your heart, and you stole mine?
But instead you stole my heart and I never had yours to begin with,
Somehow it took me until now to realize this,
 
You got to know me and I got to know you,
But you only got to know me and did what you had to do,
You never said anything about you; I did all the talking,
You basically read about me and at the end you started walking,
 
To start sharing everything like we had the least,
But you still didn’t care you just took the last piece,
I love you and you love me to,
But all you can do is make a man blue,
 
I hold your hand and you hold mine,
Our love like a betrayal of two harmonious rhymes,
I kept the love and you kept the hate,
But you couldn’t love you can probably only date.
 
Forever I thought but you’re a soul stealer,
You don’t feel love you’re a hate feeler,
You’re doing all of the most conniving crimes,
You shouldn’t kill love because now you got to do all the time.


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Details | Free verse | |

Sides

I have never felt so alone as I did tonight,
next to your side,
the grief from your mind reassured me this was fact.
Selfish fact.
You feel despair, 
as we all have.
You feel futile,
as we all have.
I tried to express that there are two sides.
I failed and your thoughts are infectious.
Feelings I cherish, love, connection, fate.
Now they make me feel a fool.
What have I discovered? 
I have never felt so alone.


Details | Free verse | |

My mister,,,,,

My mister right
My mister wrong 
Break my heart, and put up a fight
Then sing me a sad song.
Say you over me.
Then start crying over me. 
Say I ain't nothin to you, 
But I'm your everything too.
The memories you done forgot.
Then say they preserved and won't ever rot.
Say it won't happen again 
But over and over.
Same old thing.
Running around in circles.
But I'm ready to move ahead.
As I lay down in bed 
My mind drifts away..
Wondering how life would be if you woulda just stayed.
Without You, i dont know what to do,
Wish I could say I was over you,
But be this just ain't true.
Why did you have to be split.
Couldn't fix it with a first aid kit.
Half I love.
That's the half from heaven above.
Half from hell.
Deciving lies didn't ring my bell
So you had me fooled.
Head over heels and dripping drool.
Even though you were mean and crewel.
Still I'm in love.
Although you tell me to cut my wrist
I still care.
Your still my baby boo bear. 
Your my angel
My devil
My missing piece to the puzzle
Give me a little bit of everything I need.
But now your gone, this I hope you read.
Maybe get on the same page up to speed
And don't take advantage, greed.
Cuz honey this killin me.
Listen to these words be.
Regardless of what I do. 
Those promises I made remain true.
I'll save my heart for you.
The promises I made stay true
You my mr wrong. But you my mr right too. 
I hope we can work this out because
I miss you.
I want you.
I crave you.
But most of all because
I love you.
Both parts of you because it's who you are
...Even though it's got me torn.


Details | Free verse | |

You're Beautiful

You're beautiful
I say to my faultless boy
holding him like a mother
my love cleansing all the trouble 
my fingers soft on his baby skin
and smooth forehead

You're beautiful- but you always change
You don't stay the same
You can't fake when you're asleep
and you terrorize me
when I see all my broken jewelry
a snapped shoulder strap
the button from my jeans
the violent remains 
of my worthy presentation
messier than my frizzy blonde hair
in which you tied knots with clumsy hands

Your sheets and I are stripped and stretched
in a sort of desperation
in a sort of hunt, or a game

I can see my name
never really mattered much
food is food when you're hungry
like hips and lips when it's dark
and "you're beautiful" is a cloud
dissipating
over the stoked fire of your flexing legs

My broken back feels less than
my broken heart that uttered 
strangely broken words
that may have suited another man well
one who could've painted me a picture
or only grabbed me with his happy eyes
who might have made my heart bare 
before my body
who might have said
"You're Beautiful"

Instead I sink into 
your foreign arms like
a fractured jaw
reigning in forever flooded eyes

I guess I'll never learn


Details | Free verse | |

I'll be there

In life there is always one mistake and I made one of those mistakes Of course it'd be me to make that mistake and well here we are apart out of love out of each others hearts and I guess I won't Get that chance back but if there is one thing I kknow It's that I'll always be there for you And I won't let anything happen to you In my heart well i guess I don't have a heart left It's been shattered so many times But I won't let anything hurt you and if it does then i wouldn't have been able to keep my promise But one I know I will keep is I'l be there for you forever and always.


Details | Free verse | |

If I Could Go Back

If I could go back
To where
This all started.
I would change so many things
I could even alter my fate.
So that I would never feel
This heart ache.
Why you’ve turned your back 
I will never know or understand.
If I could go back
To where
This all started for me.
I would stop myself so that I
Would never feel this way again.
I think I can see the walls
Closing in.
If I could go back
To where
I started on this path.
I would stop
And go
The other way,
And hopefully run into somebody
Who can love me.
If I could go back.


Details | Free verse | |

Just Me

Under the rainbows,

Across from the sea,

That's where you'll find me.

That's where you'll find me.

 

Can I be by myself?

Alone with no one else?

Putting the book on the shelf....

We'll see....we'll see.

 

I'll remember those nights,

For the rest of my life.

No they won't leave my thoughts,

Left to be dreams.

 

And I'll be alright,

You'll see.

 

Just bury me in the sky,

When I die.

All the clouds will fly by.

And when the sun shines,

I don't know why why why.

Just bury me in the sky,

I'll be fine,

You'll see.

 

A break in the board,

Disdain and the rain,

The pen will be my sword,

That's me.

 

And I can hardly breathe,

Our time is yet ending.

Covering my eyes to the truth,

The truth that I can no longer see you.

 

Just bury me in the sky,

When I die.

All the clouds will fly by.

And when the sun shines,

I don't know why why why.

Just bury me in the sky,

I'll be fine,

You'll see.

 

Just bury me in the sky,

When I die.

All the clouds will smile when they fly by.

And when the sun shines,

Oh I'll know why why why.

Just bury me in the sky,

I will be fine,

Just me.

 

Under the rainbows,

Across from the sea,

That's where you'll find me.

That's where you'll find me.


Details | Romanticism | |

Locked In And Set

What happens when two are destined to drift 
Slowly forever apart?

They'll tell each other of crossing paths again
One day, that this is just a new start!

Time marches on though
While these two meet many others...

But to their first true love
They won't ever forget...

Because their hearts, for each other
Have been Locked In And Set


Details | I do not know? | |

Where is Love

Sometimes I feel alone
Like a kitten, abandoned in a small cardboard box on the side of a dusty back-road. 
Sometimes I feel unloved
Like an orphan with no parents to call their own.
Sometimes I feel invisible
Like an arctic rabbit in a field of endless ice and snow. 
But most of all...
I feel unloved
Because who could love that arctic rabbit in the field of snow?
Who could love a kitten who had been long forgotten in its small little cardboard box?
And who could love an orphan who had never known what it was like to be loved? 
No one, that's who.
And in the end, all I have left is the beating of my broken heart to put me to sleep at night. 
Because, who, who could love me?


Details | Rhyme | |

Reach The Moon

Can you find, this broken heart of mine?
Do you mind, to share your time?
This is true, if it's me and you.
Come with me and I'll finally see,
the time is now, don't ask why or how.
Darling this time is right, I'll hide my fright.
On this night, you'll be my light.
Oh my dear, please don't shy away.
Oh how I fear, that luck won't stay.
I find it queer, that we aren't near.
I hear stories, of your past glories.
I'm scared of love, below or above.
I see your eyes, and I cannot lie.
My dear you are the sun, and I'm the dark.
My heart's undone, and I'm so stark.
We'll cross these stars, and we'll reach the moon.
We're in my car, and I cannot help but swoon.
I've missed my chance, for the past romance.
Your eyes sparkle, and I cannot help but laugh.
You're remarkable, as I hang onto your photograph.
Can I find, this loving heart of yours?
Do you mind,that you're my cure?
I'll follow you, into the setting sun.
It's true, that away we'll run.
I'll go with you, and you'll finally see.
You'll say it too, that it's you and me.
We are young, but not naive,
The angels song,is ours I believe.


Details | Narrative | |

Not the Better One

She’s the better one
Beautiful and what you deserve
Comparison is not an option
A rock to a diamond
I make little to none shine
And she can make mountains
Upon a hill of grind

Full with hate of what I've become to day
Disgusted with the monster
That’s been created an atomic bomb
And I feel all the shame
Wishing to change everyday
I am a nothing compared to that

Perfect is what she is
Cute is what you two are
Monstrous is what I am
Killing is what you’re doing
Burning away every dream is what’s happening
She is better one
Wishing it was me
She is the better one


Details | Lyric | |

Im with you

Ive met you before
memories ago
the mind cant ignore
what you choose to show

does all the pain and hunger
leave you standing tall?
do you lose your sense of wonder?
or hide behind the wall?

Does it ever go unnoticed
when you forget to smile
does the world go unfocused
just for a little while
I'm with you
oh im with you

does the fear of love embrace you?
do hide behind the wall?
do you stay above and cling to?
or let the glass break your fall?

Does it ever go unnoticed
when you forget to smile
does the world go unfocused
just for a little while
I'm with you
oh im with you

You taste so empty
you love so cruel
They made the story
ended by you, you

Does it ever go unnoticed
when you forget to smile
does the world go unfocused
just for a little while
I'm with you
oh im with you


Details | Free verse | |

BENT SHATTERED AND PROUD

She doesn’t remember what
she loved about me
so i hold her in my elbows
as if she needed someone to save her
and i hate that i’ve always believed in
things i couldn’t touch

tree house ladder i climbed you
with the weight you swung into me
told the sky
glow heartbeat
glow strong
glow window pane
hold me tight with your seatbelt arms
i am hammock swing
stardust cough
xylophone fingers
bruise easy rock swing
the meaning of yes
the language of whales
she doesn’t remember what we felt like together
she pauses like maybe i won’t see myself in hers
bones i shift
and the city deserts me deep
and indigo sky knuckle down nosebleed
i resorted to creating new memories with you
by looking at old photographs
and pretending i had been in them
glove compartment hawk heart i pulled
sky captain kite punch like
you name me adventure
name me skip trunk keys scrape
name me stranger
like elevator kiss
like storm clouds
like hummingbird heartbeat
i said i like who i am as a person
and you pulled away
as if my skeleton wasn’t big enough to hold both of us
you wore apple core lips
like i should never be sad
that i spent all this time kissing someone who
didn’t want to be kissing me
as if i tasted like relief
like you wanted to cut me into your esophagus
and hush
like quiet city
like loves becoming a plea bargain
like spit me out as a watermelon seed
you say lets get married and name all of our children ribcage
i pull through her thumb locked
and aware of all the times she said apologizing would
just sound empty
and i whisper i hope if i’m getting old
it’s because you make time nonexistent
do not cantaloupe smile
do not flashlight heart
do not risk what you cannot promise on me
do not wear me like we are the same size
i’m building life with slice wounds on the bottom of me feet
deep enough to hide hopes in
so i can wear them into the ground
how to reach from my heart
so you don’t apple adam promises that
sound like
i never lied to you
i want you to teach me
to glow heartbeat
glow strong
glow windowpane
with blood in your
mouth like you thought climbing trees
could teach us to fight distance
remember to hold me
like you know how to shake
remember to keep everything at arms length
remember to palm scoop crayfish
remember to break me
like you know what you cared for about me
these are my confessions on a street corner
bent shattered and proud
I promise to never use words like always 
refer to you and I in the future tense 
or reveal wishes before they come true 
because every person I’ve ever loved 
has said I was the best thing 
that ever happened to them when they left me.


Details | I do not know? | |

do you

do u love me
      or 
do u care 

what would u do
         if 
i wasn't there?
 
is this love
      or is it
 lust are u someone i can trust 
?
 
can u fix me when im broken
         using
  words still unspoken?
 
if my heart was in your hand 
           would you
  love me and understand,
 
 understand the words i speak 
                 and
  understand the things i seek?

Do you
Would you ?


Details | Rhyme | |

Bloody Ties

I steal, what I feel, make no mistake –
I charm, without alarm, to covet what I take.
I hide what’s inside, to abide what’s at stake.
I lie, and will deny, any wrongdoings I make.

You use and abuse your way through this life.
You cheat and defeat those plagued with strife.
You fail, and impale, those closest to your heart.
You wallow in the shallow, shredding ties apart.

We fret over the net, which safety has vanished.
We wail at the stale courtship now banished.
We hurt as we flirt our disaster, daily we plummet.
We trek through the wreck reaching death’s summit.

They say we’re astray, and our minds are broken.
They wonder, why blunder, a mirage of unspoken.
They chatter about clatter, with prejudice abound.
They sneer and they leer, that together we astound.

I’ll take the bane, and disdain and try to explain.
I’ll take the lies, masked in disguise and abstain.
I’ll take the tears, through the years and constrain.
For I made my bed, built of crimson nails and black lead,
and forever in my heart will you remain.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

When you're just not thinking

Remorse is building up inside of me,
Everyone has to know fairy tales don’t always have happy endings,
Never thought you could try so hard and still fall short,
I’m in need of something to fill this hole in my chest,
It grows bigger,
Moving deeper,
Making me realize that some things can’t ever be achieved or obtained,
I’m gonna bottle up my heart and let it float out in the sea,
Never to be found,
Never to be seen,
No more pain can be caused when it’s somewhere at the bottom of the sea,
I need to face the fact that I’m going to lose everything if I keep on the path of my sanity,
I want to believe that things can only go up for me,
But that’s life,
Your gonna suffer,
Sitting in the corner rocking back and forth,
Head so low you can see caskets from the recently diseased,
It’ll be pouring showers from all the crying that’s going to be happening,
I know life might seem hard sometimes,
And trust me it is,
I know that shotgun looks shiner by the minute,
And trust me it does,
But just bottle up your heart and send it away,
Like I did,
Because no matter what you’re going through,
What might be going through your head right now,
Just isn’t worth it..



Details | Prose Poetry | |

The Rocking Chairs

It's early in the morning 
The sun has yet to rise 
Daylight is still hidden 
In its dark disguise 
. 
There is peace and solitude 
Nothing seems to stir 
Trees that stand tall and strong 
Still are nothing but a blur 
. 
The coffee that I'm sipping 
Takes the chill out of the air 
Only sound that I hear 
Is the rocking of my chair 
. 
We used to rock together 
Before the sun came up 
Sharing tea or coffee 
Each had our special cup 
. 
Neither one of us 
Ever had to say word 
For just a little smile 
Every word was heard 
. 
Yes It was a special time 
That I spent with you 
Rocking in our rocking chairs 
Was what we loved to do 
. 
Now your chairs a rocking 
With the Man above 
But let me tell you sweetie 
Your still the one I love 
. 
I rock here every morning 
Waiting for the sun rise 
Missing you so very much 
Tears flowing from eyes 
. 
Soon we'll be together 
I'll be rocking next to you 
And If we're really lucky 
They'll be a chair that's built for two 


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Lost Love WLM March 29 2011

I feel so hurt
And so much like a jerk
For I have lost my dream
Just let it out and scream
What did I do
Can I ask you
Am I to be alone
All I can do is groan
I ask God will it ever be
Does she really want me
Please Lord let her call
For me to be that is all
I am so stuck in a rut
Do I just give up
Can not hold back the tears
The return of all my fears
I hope to see
That she really needs me
I will never know
For she will have to show
Can you give me my best friend
Or have I lost her again
Tell me did I sin
Should I just give in
I am at my wits end
Knowing not where to begin
I sit here and moan
At me just throw the heavy stone
Please, oh please hit the mark
Then I know it will break my heart
I always feel the use
Finally I remember the abuse
My feelings inside
Will never subside
Why not go ahead and fall
With my life just end it all
Does anyone really care
That would be so rare
For all I feel is lost
And in the end that is the cost




Details | Free verse | |

if emotion had color

if what we do
if what we did
if our emotions 
had colors
that we could see
what color would we be
dark red with passion
bright red with love
black with anger
or a mixture of colors.
what color is your heart
is it perfect
for your body
or is it imperfect
for your soul.
if emotion
was colored
who would 
you be?


Details | Rhyme | |

The Hill

An empty castle,
a broken spell,
look to the hill,
upon it a well,
deep in its depths,
a princess you'll find,
against the stones,
her bones will grind,
at the end of the hill,
a prince lay buried,
to the ground,
his blood is married,
a witchs spell,
cast to kill,
it ran its corse,
upon that hill,
one dark day,
the princess drowned,
killing the prince,
with the sight he found,
in the well,
he saw her lifeless eyes,
trip and tumble, 
that's how he dies,
that's the end,
their love now gone,
killed on a hill,
by a witchs con...


Details | Bio | |

Depression Kills

I don't know how long it has been since i heard your voice, 
I don't know why i left without a word, but it was not my choice.
You wished me away, so i left without a word,
you told me to lose you, that's all i ever heard. 

Tears ran down my face with every thought of you,
not being able to see your smile, it would punch me though.
My chest has a whole, that you put there,
it hurts some times, but its not like i care.

I been hurt to many times before to feel anything at the moment,
I thought we had some thing special, but at the end you broke it.
So now again i am all alone and I have no shoulder,
my life is empty now i am beginning to feel allot colder. 

You showed me what people can be like, some thing like you,
people that hurt others and than walk away like they had nothing to do.
But they don't know that they just ripped some ones heart out,
and your left alone, once again, bleeding on the ground.


Details | Lyric | |

Hope Ur Doin Fine -based on a true story-

I USE 2 THINK WE’D ALWAYS BE 2GETHER
U N I FOREVER BUT LUV IS LIKE THE WEATHER
AFTER THE RAIN IM DOING BETTER THAN I EVER DID
DON’T WORRY BRAT I GET ALONG U KNO IM STRONG
JUST ANOTHER PROBLEM GONE AND I JUST KEEP MOVING ALONG
I DON’T LIKE 2 DWELL ON WUT I DON’T HAVE
BUT I WAS RIGHT THERE IF U EVER WANTED ME BACK
IM ON A NEW PATH MORE SERIOUS BUT STIL LUV 2 LAUGH
I NEVER HAD IT LIKE THIS I TRULY FEEL BLESSED
GOT THE LORDS HAND ON MY CHEST
THANK U FATHER 4 EVERY BREATH
NOW IM OUT 2 DO MY BEST
I UNDERSTAND WE WERE IN LUV
WE WERE A CRAZY/BEAUTIFUL MESS
MADE EACHOTHER UPSET MORE TIMES THAN WE HAD SEX
BUT IT WAS STILL LOVE I KNO ILL NEVER FORGET
ITS NOT THAT I STILL MISS U OR THAT I STILL LUV U
I JUST REALLY WANT TO KNO WHY DID U LET ME GO

...It was so true I was so deep in luv with u...

I KNOW THE STORY WE TOLD 
IT WAS OUR TIME 2 GO DIFFERENT WAYS
AND I FEEL MESSED UP CUZ I PUSHED U FURTHER AWAY
HONESTLY I WANTED US 2 STAY 2GETHER
U N I FOREVER BUT LUV IS LIKE THE WEATHER
AFTER THE RAIN I HOPE UR DOIN BETTER THAN U EVER DID
I KNO I DON’T REALLY GOT 2 WORRY BOUT U ONE LIL BIT
U CAN HANDLE ANY TYPE OF BULL*****MRS. INDEPENDENT
I TRULY FELT U WERE HEAVEN SENT
BUT NOW I SEE WHY U WERE MENT FOR ME
2 HELP ME WISE UP N SEE THERE’S MORE 2 ME THAN MEETS THE EYE
TRANSFORMING MYSELF N2 A BETTER MAN
I UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER THAN I HAVE BEEN
I DON’T KNO WUT HAPPEN IT ALL SEEMS LIKE A DREAM NOW
AND EVERY ONCE IN A GREAT WHILE I THINK OF UR SMILE
DAMN I REALLY WISHED I COULD OF MET U AT THE END OF THE AILE

...Theres nothing I wouldn’t do 2 have you by my side...

IM OK IM DOING FINE IM TAKEN CARE OF MINE
THIS IS JUST A LONG THOUGHT FROM MY MIND
I MISS THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME
BUT IVE GROWN IM JUST THINKN CUZ THIS LONGEST WE LEFT EACHOTHER ALONE
LIKE ME I KNO U TOOK MY NUMBER OUT OF UR PHONE
BUT THAT’S A LIE UR STILL THERE SPEED DIAL #5
I LOOK AT IT AND SEE WHY I KEEP PUSHING MYSELF MORE
CUZ NO MORE WILL I LET A GOOD THING ESCAPE FROM ME
I LOVE THE FREEDOM BUT ITS BETTER WHEN I HAVE SOME ONE NEXT TO ME
CUZ ITS GOOD TO HAVE THAT SUPPORT FROM SOME ONE U TRULY CARE 4
BUT IM NOT LOOKN OR WAITN 4 THE NEXT GIRL
THERES TOO MANY SUCIAS IN THE WORLD
I AM LOOKN N WAITN 4 THE NEXT WOMAN
THEY’RE A RARE BREED 2 FIND N I THOUGHT U WERE MINE BUT ITS FINE
I SURE MINE WILL COME AROUND IN DO TIME
REALLY BRAT I HOPE UR DOING FINE

...But now I got to say goodbye, goodbye.


'11 B.K.M.jr


Details | Rhyme | |

June 19, Headache of My Life

Flirt shamelessly,
Hold my hand,
Say you miss me,
I don't understand,

What do you want,
It makes no sense,
Are we present,
Are we past tense?

You say you 'love' him,
Yet 'that doesn't stop' you,
Then you run back to him,
So are we done? Are we through?

You aren't happy,
You know it in your heart,
So for the sake of his happiness,
Will you tear yourself apart?

If this were your last moment,
If this was it,
would you still be with him,
would you call it quits?

I need an answer,
Tell me the truth,
before I break,
You should know my heart isn't bullet proof...


Details | I do not know? | |

Parallel Lines

I am lost, and broken,

trapped alone,
in a foggy crevasse,

wedged between sanity | madness | anguish.


I lose, and break,

memories taunting,
my waking thoughts,

stripping me bare | naked | exposed.


I survive, barely breathing,

slipping deeper,
into nothingness,

feeling little | shattered | numb.

I am incomplete, without you,

broken and fatigued,

gnawed by emptiness | desolation | pain.


I persist, each breath futile,

crushed, yet alive,
comforted knowing only,

that you breathe | you live | and you love.




Details | I do not know? | |

I Really Like Her

Her smile and personality just builds within
but unlike my heart i dont know where to begin.
I wrote her poems and told her things.
I made her smile like no other human being.
Her curly hair and intelligence
made my heart so irrelevant 
to the point in which i sat and cried 
and sung some lovely lullabies.

Her beauty started our world
with a few men and alot of girls.
I want to scream her name right now
and if i do i will say it loud. 
Please believe that i got diss
that girl who talks just wants a kiss
but in the end i will always miss you.

One Love<3


Details | I do not know? | |

All I Know

I want to Hug you & Never let go
I want you to Hold me tight in your arms

Squeeze until our Hearts no longer Beat.
"Thy Shall Not Live Nor Thy Shall Not Die Without You By My Side"

You seem like you Care for me like No other
You seem like im Interesting
You seem like you See me as Beautiful

Sometimes theres No Words that describe how I Feel About You.

 All i know is the I Dont Want To Lose You.


-Brittany- (comment and rate if you dont mind. i like to hear what you think..thank you for reading :)  )


Details | I do not know? | |

Choose Out of Nothing

Are we there on the meadow?
I thought we were here on the Arctic.
"We" isn't something that i would use, really.
It is now me, just me, without you two
The two I used to think were a part of me
We never really were,
Perhaps, I didn't know
You should have showed me way before,
Though I left everything, for you two
I gave up all the things I had,
Those were messed up too.

In the end, i realize
I didn't choose you,
You didn't choose me,
It was nothing,
Empty,
Beginning,
End.


Details | Free verse | |

The Wayward Cafe

I sat in a small wayward cafe,
the smell of coffee beans being crushing into submission
tickled at my nosterls.
The sounds of tin cans and cups
some of them being stacked and others
drop with a violent crash.
The tables all red and round
There sat the women, with their novels, tea cups and coffee mugs
sharing small talk of innocent love.
Some women quiet and others talking.
All of them drinking something.

The cool air blew through the windows,
what a mess that wind made.
Blowing papers all around
and blowing the women's hair back.
A man sat there, writing away,
with an endless cough, a tickle at his Adam's Apple.
Then again everyone had a cough.

I sat there reading poetry, writing poetry, embracing poetry
with a pen in one hand and my head in the other,
gently resting of the red round table.
I wrote of the cafe, the women, the man with the endless cough,
that shattered your ear drums everytime he put his hand to his mouth
and coughed away.

A woman who sat reading way,
drinking lemonade and sometimes
taking long glances up.
She was waiting for someone, I could tell.
I looked at her and she at me,
and we both smiled.
Then a sudden silence,
she looked away from me.
A man, who had an ego,
(Then again, doesn't every man have one)
brushed my shoulder and pushed me away.
He apologized, not sincerly.
They kissed and hugged,
I went back to writing with a frown.
They went away in love, I guess?
And I sat all alone in that
lonesome wayward cafe.
Nothing to keep me company, but smell of coffee and tea
and the laughs of the women sharing small talk,
and that one man with Earth shattering cough.


Details | Rhyme | |

To Love Stupidly

Silent screams
stupid dreams
I knew not to 
fall for you.

I'm a wishful girl
in an unfair world,
in my fantasy
I wish to be.

For in reality
never will there be,
any true you and me.

Even though I know,
tears still flow,
down my cheeks 
to the floor.

I should dream
of you no more,
and yet I know
this feeling 
will not go.

Loving you
I knew better 
than to do.

It is to late
to turn back fate
I'm just a stupid girl
in a too big world.


Details | I do not know? | |

Life Happens

It ended today.
I didn't know what to say.
I looked in her eyes, the truth was tearing her away.
We hugged, said goodbye, and I surely know why.
But that doesn't numb the pain,
All I can do is sigh.

We laughed and kissed
We hugged, we dismissed
all the stupid s*** around us, we didn't miss.
Problems came and went, it was always worth it though.
But the stupid s*** caught up, and suddenly it showed.

The happiness we felt was almost too good.
Its gone now, but everything remains as it should.
I'll miss it deep down, until the day I die.
But the sorrow doesn't leave me to ask why,
Because I know, life happens, it's just time to move on.
Just time to move on.
Life Happens.
Move on...


Details | I do not know? | |

Dancing Tides

Hope hangs by a string, but it never dies completely.
All your regrets are packed in the corner, all nice and neatly.
Hiding away so that the world can't make a fool of you.
Trying so hard not to do all that you're dying inside to do!
It's like a wave washing up onto the beach, it's never ending.
You hear the crash upon the shore as fake as when you are pretending.
The light from above as you struggle below for air,
is like a glimmer of trust in a game of truth and dare!
And like the tide we retreat and then come crashing down again
We are the dancing tides. We seek but never reach the end.
Gathering our minds, trying to figure it all out.
Hope, my old friend, looks like a twinkle of doubt.
But then the break forms a crack that leads the way
back to the dancing tides we love and like a wave we sway!


Details | Didactic | |

I Loved You

I loved you

You were sweet
You were fun
You were hot

You pulled the world from under my feet
You might as well have used a gun
On my life’s landscape you became a blot

I loved you

When I saw you my heart would race
You made me shiver and shake
You made dark skies brighten

Now I can’t look in your face
Now my heart is one big ache
Now you make my throat tighten

I loved you

I thought you were the best
The fun we had in our bed
I was so happy you were my wife

You ripped my heart from my chest
Now I just wish you outta my head
Just get the hell outta my life

I loved you

Now I don’t even like you


Details | Rhyme | |

Jealousy

Do i have the right to be jealous
When other guys around you my thoughts get hellish
When others make you laugh or smile
I want to use my foot and boot them a mile

Yet on you i have no claim
Your not mine i have no game
Who ever knew a dream could be so vivid
When ever i see you, or hear your voice in it

Lady i love you today
And i will love you tomorrow
In my heart you will stay
But my claims on you are hollow

Heart breaking has me shaking i can't stand the rain
My love forsaken from your heart and i feel the pain
The image is in my head i just wish i could live it
Jealousy is my wound and i just pray i can heal it

Just another girl who wasn't into me
How many others? lost count around infinity
Forgive me its just another bout of jealousy
I have no claim because you don't even think of me


Details | I do not know? | |

Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


Details | Ballad | |

forever and always I love you

everyday I wake to your face
your soft skin set in a smile
you make my heart pound 
and my pulse race
and I blame you

you make my knees weak 
when you smile that smile
when stare at me like 
I'm a rare Jewel
and I blame you

my fingers tremble as they reach 
your arms pull me in
it's cold outside 
I snuggle close to your warmth
my knees shake harder
I blame you

Next time.....
No music plays
It's quiet and I read
eyes swollen from the fight we had
and from the tears that fell out of my eyes
I blame you

I think
and think

and remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

I remember
what I want to forget is Goodbye
But I don't think I can say it
My heart burns when I dare to 

I want to feel your arms
wrap around me 
and your voice whispering in my ear
your lips on mine
I blame you 

that my heart is broken
that it swells when I think of you
that my legs still shake and quiver when 
I find you on the street

tears spill from my eyes
I pick up the phone, 
my fingers lingering over the buttons
i can't dial 
want to
can't....
I miss you

My heart can't take it....
more tears
my sobs breaking the quiet
sobs broken by the phone

it's you
you say you're sorry
I smile just at your voice
I've missed it
You sound like you've been crying

we were always alike that way
You say another thing
I wait, wanting to hear,
but scared

you say....

you remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

you've missed me
we both laugh sadly
I say that 
I've missed you

we smile, 
we imagine it 

I love you....

but I don't say it out loud...
at least, not yet.

but, I love you
forever and always

forever and always


Details | Ballad | |

Josette, Drive the Faerie out of me

She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me


Details | Blank verse | |

Anthem of the Broken

A promise whispered so sweetly,Who could 
have ever known? Slowly, I let go of the past 
For you. Let go of everything and started anew. 
Unfortunately, our first kiss wasn't your last.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

I never thought you'd end  up playing this game.
Those walls I put up, they came down for only you.
I'm alone, you're gone. But I can't help to remember 
How it used to be. Remember the man I once knew.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, this will be,
This will be,
The anthem of the Broken.

Nothing can change the past, nothing will bring you back.
This heart's just been broken too many times before.
So many scars and so many stitches tell the story of who
I was. I only want to be able to walk away from this affair. 
 
You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, the anthem of the broken.

I watched you walk away, watched you move on like we 
Never happened. You never looked back, never gave me a chance
 Just kept walking, Didn't know What to think, 
Couldn't understand why I fell for your lies, why I agreed to this romance.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Oh, Broken into tiny pieces, so small and delicate.
It hurts me more than you'll ever know to pick 
them up. tiny pieces of glass cut my hands as I work, 
Trying to repair my heart, why did I have to love you, dick?

Now I know the truth, Now I can see through your lies, Saw how 
Every promise you made was fake as soon as it was spoken.
Here I go, standing in a wasteland, watching you leave
And softly signing the anthem of the broken.


Details | I do not know? | |

He Said She Said

Was he the truly faithful one 
Was she the one who strayed
Was he the wandering eye that left
Was she the one who stayed

Two pointing fingers
Two telling tales
Two lives
One true example 
What caused the ultimate demise
Of a love that both once cherished

Each goes around
Each hold a grudge
Each hate
Each loves in silence

No one true reason 
No one true cause
No give a damn 
Is mentioned

Both ones to blame 
Both ones the cause
Both wrong for different reasons

Farewell to thee
Farewell to love
Farewell
No reason given


Details | Lyric | |

Fear of Free falling

Pounding against the shore
My heart beats 
Filling up my face, my hands, my cheeks with heat
Tears begin to role.
Tumbling down, like fireballs. 
Passionate …igniting, reviving as it goes
Why oh why! Am I at despair?
Vulnerable! Exposed! My heart stripped bare
An open book for you to read
Yet shaken up with despair I feel
The thunder of doubt begins to creep
Never have I embarked on this before
Yet unknowingly, deep down I yearn! I crave for more
A sea of contemplation, an abyss of hazy expectations
Pounding against the shore my heart beats
Filling my face, my cheeks, my hands…
As you go, with heat
Rising me to utmost crest 
Elevating higher then Mount Everest
Loving you more all the way
But yet! I dare not undrape my sentiments
For you, like others might not cradle them
For fear of freefalling
Yet….i hear your heart shrieking out my name 
Half shocked, half heart, I am to blame.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Loving Is

Loving ain't simple
if it was...
We wouldn't have the heartache and pain 
The stress and the strain
A tongue we had to refrain
And even after we say it,
We feel so ashamed.
Loving is a difficult thang!
Constantly on your brain
Hoping the other feels the same,
And you're not down a one way street
How you got there? Having to explain.
Love is a beautiful picture,
A vision outside your window pane
So gentle, so tame
A painting of a daydream,
Captured in a frame.


Details | Lyric | |

White Angels

I heard you fall, In the middle of a call. It was around seven. Did you fall from heaven? You landed in my front yard, Right in front of my St. Bernard. There was a glow into my room. Suddenly I saw you... You are my, Dream when I sleep, Dinosaur from a prehistoric defeat, Rythum when I hit every beat. You fell from the sky. Your wings so white, You would never get in a fight. You're the angel of innocence, You're my white angel... Dream of a world, Where every girl, Had a choice, Had a voice. Your harp filled my soul. When you leave I lose control. Life was so dull, Before you... You are my, Dream when I sleep, Dinosaur from a prehistoric defeat, Rythum when I hit every beat. You fell from the sky. Your wings so white, You would never get in a fight. You're the angel of innocence, You're my white angel... Why can't you understand, That you were meant to hold my hand, To protect me, To help me see the light. You're so bright, But you're not mine. Love is not some game, That I play with, It's not a blame, It is my sweet bliss... Dream of a world where... You are my, Dream when I sleep, Dinosaur from a prehistoric defeat, Rythum when I hit every beat. You fell from the sky. Your wings so white, You would never get in a fight. You're the angel of innocence, You're my white angel... Guide me0. to my next day, Even though I'm so afraid. I am always in such a tangle, But you're my white angel...


Details | Verse | |

GOODBYE

...It seems like all I've done was made you cry
you want out, cause all I do is lie...
my heart's aching over you, this I can not deny
I keep flashin' images of your face...and I'm thinking why...
...we've had our ups and downs...but please baby, don't say goodbye...
picturing you in my arms, kissing your soft lips
grabbing your ....
and your soft hips...
I know my well's running very dry
...and my levee's breaking---I'm trying not to cry
...we've had our ups and downs...but please baby, don't say goodbye...
can I even exist in your world?
I'm just a star living in your sky...
I'm just a slice of your sweet potatoe pie...
...that's why, I'm sitting here thinking... why
...we've had our ups and downs...but please baby, don't say goodbye :(


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No More

Fake a smile.
 Just for a little while.
 Hide all the pain.
 Hide in the rain.
 Storms surround.
 Can’t see around.
 Dark Fierce clouds.
 Thunder frightening and loud.
 Tornadoes, ruining everything in its path.
 Showing the world its mean wrath.
 Hurt filling my soul.
 Just like cheerios in a bowl.
 All this holding inside.
 Falling, never rise.
 Ready to explode.
 Ima Coke, about to drop a Mento.
 Broken, Shattered to pieces.
 But babe im tired of you treating me like feces.
 Throw me out,?
 Thought I was the one you were supposed to care about.?
 You left me in despair.
 Heart so broken—Can’t be repaired.
 My life,
 Now filled with strife.
 Never be the same.
 Not likin’ this game.
 Build me up Powerful, Strong
 Then tear me down, it’s so wrong.
 To write me a song
 Then tell me it’s too long.
 This pain
 I never wanted to gain.
 This storm,
 It’s got me torn.
 Wish you were still here,
 Maybe join me for a beer.
 I take a look in the mirror.
 And see me jumping off a pier.
 Wishing death would come near.
 Wishing the Reaper would get into gear.
 Death seems better than living in fear.
 …Better than sheading a tear.
 Six feet under
 No more Thunder
 No more Tornadoes
 No more rotten potatoes.
 No more Lightning strikes.
 No more wrongs and rights.
 No more rain pours.
 No more.

For Contest entry: Depression


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the thought of loosing you

lastnight i cried
i cried so hard i almost died

i had the thought of loossing you 
and i didnt know what to do

Yesterday seemed so tough
because i had treated you so rough 

i hope you can accept my apologies
and this time im saying please

i love you and i dont want to loose u


Details | Concrete | |

Blurred Reflection

Mirror Your heart Shatters to shreds You splinter me Your reflection haunts me forever I reflect on you I don't wanna lose you I am snowed under by your rejection I don't wanna lose my head But, I love you forever You haunt me Your reflection... Tramples my infection Your heart Blurs


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Liquor Luster

Suctioned palms engulf my 
glass
Heckled so we threw it back
Ribs transcend and held it in
A single tear drips down your 
nose
Perfect finger held it froze 
Gaze off through your frosted 
pose 


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm Sorry I Ever 'Loved' You

Love So simple right? WRONG! Tears, Heartbreak. Watching the one you love, be in love with someone else. How much can one person take? I'm not sure how much I can take. These decisions I make, These words that I say, Are all for you. I hope you understand, I can no longer just be your friend, not with all that we've been through. So my last words to you are, "I'm sorry i ever met you" :'(


Details | I do not know? | |

scars

i would be there for her if she cried My love for her still has not died but everytime its shown my heart gets broken Perhaps its time to keep love unspoken so my love for her she does not know My hearts to scarred up for my love to show Sometimes i wonder if we're ment to be Together forever just you and me As friends we've become close i can always tell when you're hiding some hurt i know i should probably show my feelings inside but from a replay of a broken heart i hide as i sit by her inside a cry So scared i let love pass me by.


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The rain

All day all night long
It is raining cats and dogs;
If you were with me!


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You got me

I’ve been thinking about you.
 You know know know
 Im hitting my all time low low low
 Wonder how you’re dojng
 Here there’s no point for proving
 Baby, I just really care.
 Baby, don’t act like it’s rare.
 25 hours
 8 days
 You on my mind.
 You got me lost with nothing to find.
 You got me struck by cupid.
 You got me actin stupid
 You got me in love.
 You, got me thinking you’re my angel from heaven up above.
 You got me hurting.
 My Heart—You got it pouring
 Out in several little text messages,
 Trying to call you, isn’t this a presage?
 That you’re the one for me,
 That we’re meant to be.
 This you had me fooled.
 Doing whatever for you like a mule.
 Don’t see how you could be so cruel?
 Saying go away forever,
 When I though that’s how long we were gonna be together.
 Not even a goodbye.
 Leaving me with a Painful Lonely sigh
 But I guess it’s my fault.
 For opening up my vault.
 For letting you in.
 Let you begin
 Where I end.
 Guess I never should of called.
 Got me cryin, startin to bawl.
 Guess I shouldn’t of texted.
 Shouldn’t of even messed with it.
 But I miss you too death.
 But I love you till my last breath.
 It just became so hard.
 After I showed you my last card.
 I hope you understand,
 I'll swim in the water, you keep the land.
 Have a good happy life,
 Without me as your wife.
 Only the best for you,
 I just wish you knew.
 You're on my mind.
 You got me lost with nothing to find.
 You got me struck by cupid.
 You got me acting stupid.


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We Would Still Seek

Dance in the darkness, my sweetest nocturne
While the trees swing their billowing arms round
And you sing to the sky without a sound
To shake from slumber, each flower and fern.
You call to each shadow with hungry eyes
Penetrating each ghost hidden in leaves.
An aching, longing sigh for what you’ve seen
Always rooted beneath the vacant sky.
The Earth spins around underneath my feet
But your loneliness kept me bound to land.
Caught deep in your world, captive right in hand,
But we need each other to feel complete.
With voices so raw we can’t even speak;
Even if they could hear, we would still seek.


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You were hidden inside my heart - Original by Rabindranath Tagore

You were hidden inside my heart right from the start
I saw outside I didn’t see what’s in my heart!

All my love, pain and hope that I went through
You were with me I didn’t go to you!

You were in my play as a great pleasure
Now I realize you are my treasure!

Secretly you give music in my songs
But I haven’t sung any of your songs!


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Beyond repair

All those years,
All those years of loving her,trying to take the best care of her that I could.
Maybe I tried to hard,maybe it was my fault,
Maybe I loved her to much,is there such a thing?
My mind all tied in knots,
My heart feels like it's on fire.
No doctor or pill can ease the feelings that rage inside me.
The trust,the love,the devotion that I had for her shattered in a heartbeat.
Don't know if I should hate her or love her more,
I feel used,hurt,destroyed,
Like an old machine.
I feel like my heart is.....
Beyond repair.


Details | I do not know? | |

I Had This Feeling

I had this feeling
that nobody else could feel
and then I ask my girl
if what I was feeling was real.

She broke my heart
and then she tore it all apart.
So if my love wasn't made for you
then why'd you break it in two??

I had this feeling 
that I would die alone
and if it was ought to happen
it would happen at my home.

It would happen very slow
my heart would cry for you
then die for you
no one could ever love you
exactly how i do.

If you can feel my pain
then you should know its getting hard to explain
and my heart doesnt play no games
so im going insane.

I had this feeling.
I had this feeling
in my heart 
telling me to walk away
to a better a day.

I had this feeling 
that love would come my way
but it wouldn't be today.

I gave her my heart and she forced it away
on Valentines Day

I only had this feeling
because she left me with a pain
in my heart.

Im just sorry it had to be that way
over the past 60 days.


Details | I do not know? | |

random- but sweet

i should lock the door and get rid of the key,
it's not that easy peasy,
but would i be sane to take the blame?
for him my heart remains...


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The Hope That I've Lost, The Hope That You Give Me

Why must I feel so alone,
I know you are right here,
Why is my future so fogged,
Yet I can see you clear.

Why must I feel broken- dead,
When you breathe in me life,
Why even when I feel happy,
I attract the knife.

Why do I feel empty,
When you fill me with such joy,
People say I need a man,
But you are not a boy.

How can someone love so much,
When they just hate themseves,
Why do I feel so alive,
When I here funeral bells.

How can my heart be so broken,
But mended by you,
How can I trust anyone,
I know our love is true.


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Your Mask

Your mask is impossible to crack
A most confusing riddle
I find myself lost again
Stuck smack in the middle
Your mask is hiding you away
Misleading me and so on
I find myself at your mercy again
Feeling I've become undone
Your mask is cruel, unforgiving
Troubling my dreams at night
I find myself so crippled again
Lost this endless fight
Your mask is an illusion
I wish I knew the real you
I find myself at a major loss
When you mislead me like you do
Your mask is something horrid that
I'd love to see the end of
I find myself at a disadvantage
Because with you I am in love


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If Only You Really Knew

I cant go and I can't leave 
I'm sadly broken from within between
I know that I probably should go
but every time my heart keeps telling  me, "no!"
you've changed so much, 
and you've lost your light,
now your filled with anger and spite.
you've stolen my happiness and my pride
you call me names and watch me cry
all my tears, sinking into all my fears.
you sit back and laugh with all the guys
joking like my misery is your biggest prize
when I met you , you were something so special,
something that shined like a ruby or crystal.
now your dull you should be ashamed,
your a little boy , you will never change.
god will give back what you've been giving
take this as a lesson in life's finer living. 
kindness and compassion can go a long way
maybe you should remember that, it could help you out some day :) 



This is actually a song that I wrote, Hope you enjoy! :) 
                                                 With Love,


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The bait

Your sweet gestures are like bait
How long shall I have to wait?

I can hear you sing like a bird
I want to catch you but it’s hard

You fly away to another tree
Do you love me is a mystery

I love you but I am afraid
You are like a pretty mermaid

If I say I love you baby
You may disappear in the sea

So I crave and wait for you to say
I love you from the very first day


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Dear My Sweetheart,

Sweet as your gentle kisses were I cannot recall, 
For now my sweet, keep naught white but my pall, 
Listen not to my ghost who haunts men’s eyes, 
But whisper to me now, whisper your goodbyes.

I have nothing more to give but my holder, 
Do not keep our flame alight, please let it smoulder, 
We can be no longer, just you and only you, 
It is fair and denying that, would be untrue.

Never wonder, never dream of being bound again, 
My mind has gone, for I am bane, 
I wish it were different but my sweet, 
I dare say never once more shall we meet.

I hold to you my candle, it's flame is weak, 
Let it keep alight, let naught drop nor leak, 
Understand my wishes, and put your heart at rest, 
I love deeply, let me end my quest. 


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FORGOT TO WALK A MILE WITH U

RODE SUPERBIKES 
DROVE SUPERCARS 
FLOWN THROUGH SKY
SAILED THROUGH SHIPS
EARNED THOSE MILLION DOLLARS 
BOUGHT HELL LOT OF A THINGS
DONE ALL , I THOUGHT
I COULD
IN LIFE GENERALLY
ONE SHOULD


THEN ONE DAY
I THOUGHT FOR A WHILE
THOUGHT THAT BOUGHT
A LOSER'S SMILE
QUESTIONING THE MIND
ANSWERS TO WHICH 
I BEGAN TO FIND
HOW COULD
HOW COULD MY HEART BE SO BLIND
BEHAVING SO UNKIND



FOR ALL THE WORLD'S TREASURES
FOR THOSE LIVES PLEASURES
THE MOST PRECIOUS ONE
I FORGOT TO EARN
DEEPLY REGRET 
THAT I DIDN'T DO 
OHH DEAR, I FORGOT 
TO WALK A MILE WITH U !!!

                                        YASHU


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One Kiss

All I am asking for is one kiss
One sweet, sorrowful kiss
Like the ones we used to share
When we were young
How my lips have missed your lips
How my tongue has missed you tongue
How I hunger, how I ache
How I wake in a fever pitch
And imagine myself back on those nights
Those cold, frosty nights
When we would huddle for warmth under your blankets
When you would trail your fingers 
Up my stomach under my shirt
Back when my skin was soft and naïve to your touch
When you would press your body against my body
Nuzzle me in the crook of my neck
Back when we were so inexperienced
When your lips just barely touched mine
And mine just barely touched yours
Back when things were still innocent between us
Before we grew up and grew out
Before we became awkward
Before we were corrupted
Now when I see you
Foolish thoughts roll through my mind
Of what could never be
And I wish that I could have one last kiss
To quiet my thoughts
To satisfy my lust
To end all kisses
So I don’t ever miss you again.


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The Hardest thing I've Done

The hardest thing
 I've done,
 
Is watch you walk
 away, with her.
 
The hardest thing
 I've done,
 
Is watch you kiss
 Her goodbye.
 
The hardest thing
 I've ever done,
 
Is watch you
 Love her, instead of me.


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The Unavoidable Need For Sunlight

?The Unavoidable Need For Sunlight
?
You walk through life, your head held high,
smile for the world to see.
But you glance behind, since you rely
UpOn your shadow; upon me.
I yearn for an obstruction 
To overcome the rays.
perhaps, then you'll face deduction
Amidst winter's haunting grays.
The remaining leaves are frosted;
They clink mournfully in dark.
Like them I am exhausted,
Wishing I could disembark.
What you need to realize is, it's you whom you deceive;
If you'd let me be your sunlight, I would never leave.


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tides are risen from tears of love

when oceans rise beyond
the beaches, and 
it seems like the 
sky is leaking
water that fills 
the sea
above its very limits
and when those
tears stop falling
from the sky
where they fell 
the only place
that is the waters
edge is the mountain
that you land on.


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Silent Love

Break my silence
Break my pain
Fade my memories
Stop the rain
I feel as if I'm going insane
I need my love to hold me again
I feel so hurt and broken inside
I don't know if I'm still on his mind
Does he still think of me night
Am I still his one and only light
Does he still even love me
I still love him
I wish I could be in his arms
And see him smile again


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my sister

My sister is one of a kind and I know shes always by my side I know we fight.

and sometime dont get along my sister and I are like a song.

The bond between us will never break she's my best friend 
.
and it will never change I love my sister


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I'M SOARING

My heart soars throughout time.

On and on it goes, hovering through nothingness, seeking only my bosom.

It is not the winds of bliss that sails men,

It is the wings of grief that stirs me,

A whirlwind of emotions that vexes me.

My heart sails with hurt and grief

And my mind knows these sores surely won't heal.

How shall I pass this time apart from thee, holding my breath from me, my life, my heart.

Visions of you in act hurling my heart shall torture me.

Then torment me with memories of your touch, your lips swollen from the tears you shed for me and in your eyes ..... The love, won't you confess it and seal our found passions with a shared kiss.

Like in every meeting there's a greeting

Though every meeting ends with a parting

And in every parting there's a hurting

A pull that denies one to ever let go.


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I'm Sorry I Wasn't Good Enough

We speak the same language and feel the same things… Even though you’re kind-hearted and I’m just a player… We’re not that much different…You and I To this world we’re both outsiders, never noticed in the crowd Dark shadows among the land Silent cracks beneath the surface We’re not that much different…You and I We’ve both been through heart-break…Overwhelming depression. Never quite understanding how truly insane we’ve really become. You’ve killed someone’s innocence all because of me. And I’ve died over and over again…All because I was in love with a controlling beast like you. We’re not that much different…You and I You smiled that smile that sparked a light in every piece of me. How can you love me so much….When I’m just so wrong for you? How can you want me so bad…When I was never even truly yours? You gave me your heart…your very soul even…While I gave you my life. Why did I leave you like that…You meant so much to me. How could I be so cruel? You tell me now…Was it me that really loved you? Or was it the pain of losing you, that kept me around for so long


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You

You are the rattle
of my ceiling fan
clinking at the off beat of
the minute hand
A subtle thought
puts the memory of your
sun tanned brand
tracing the length of my
dream land
all the way to the second floor
of the apartment
the southern hemisphere
my bed
and my clenched cold toes
against the red
embarrassment
of my messy life
You come to mind again
as I think on it all
as I dress my face in gold
I remember your needle words
 and the jolt to my blood
the mark on my diary
the scream of my spirit
 like rainwater over pavement
I was as strong as a puddle
and I am still just as sad
Though I paint the words of my story
my message is the dance
of my eyes and their stare
I loved you like air
Even as you pinned me
to the snow and set me
with a cold cast
down and through the wide gate
I wouldve run from reason
if your arms were at the end
of the sandy blankets
and conscience stains
and I hoped they would be
But they weren't
You are a beastly error
that still speaks to my life
like a persistant cancer
like a criminal record
that forever floats into
applications and discussions
my internal scar will
always have your stupid name, a
kingly episode marking up, etching lines
into normal days like this
where your face doesn't belong
where your voice needs not be
Get away from me
This life is mine, I intend to live it well


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The Black Bee - Original by Rabindranath Tagore

The black bee goes back again and again
And he comes back to love time and again
Then the flower blooms to end up her pain!
The bud hesitates to become full grown
Due to the shameful fear of the unknown!

Forget the cruel facts and the ill-feelings!
Give me your soul to enjoy the good things!
Stay with me forever O my heart sings!

Give up all hopes except the hope of soul!
Come back come back since my heart is your goal!
Come back in the fragrance of the garden!
My mind has already become a burden!

Lonely is this night! Is it for nothing?
It is shedding tears dewdrops are falling!
O the excited flower is crying!


Details | ABC | |

dear deepest lover

                                     Take my hand for it all i have to offer.
                                We will go on this adventure one day together
                                             Dear my sleeping beauty 
                           This is not the end for all this is a temporary good  bye.
                                      Close your eyes for i wish for life.
                                          For this is all you wanted. 
                                            Dear your truest lover 
    I know you can make her happy for she has not been sense you left that dark day.
                   Dear weeping heart dear soul that is stained by which you once held.
                              I will morn and grieve my weeping heart  will never heal.
                                         I loved you tell my dying day.
                  Because you touched my heart in such a special so i always pray.
                            Dear deepest lover dear my sweetish mother.
                                                         RIP  NAN


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The Sea Blue Eyes I

Once in a while I meet a person whose eyes tell their story
The story is like the sky reflection on the seas of glory
The eyes are all the wonder of the world
It sees the future, past, and present
The eyes give us knowledge of the world and reflection
The reflection of sadness and weakness of each creature
The wonder of each individual being has a present
To the world who has lots of false images
To arise the moment of that one glance
To follow the heart in romance
Just the reflection that gather in your eyes of blue
What a man and a woman should view
Life is such a pain without stopping to see each eyes
Its like roses you have to enjoy each passion in side
When that moment collides with mind and heart
Nothing in your soul can keep your love apart
Join in the fun look in every eyes of a person beside
With passion and romance I bet you, you would cry
The luster of all the things to come
A bounty of life long needs to be given by just the wonders of the eyes
The blue seas reflects the different depths of our feelings
And it should become revealing
Come to your senses with ravaging hormones of lust
The sea can take you and even the reflection in the eyes of the person
The beauty is not held by one it is held by everyone
Such looks with fear for no relief
Is almost a dreadful part in our human nature
Beware of what can happen when emotions are held
Held to the core of an individual
No such thing is kindness when you find yourself in the Sea Blue Eyes
Calling in your soul by just looking
With ignorance you play around with such futile emotion
Gush away the fear and do not go insane with life so dear
The grasp of the titans comes to reveal
The evil within your heart is so obscenely noticed
You want the sea and you want those eyes to look at you with wishes
The rage in the heart are waves that cannot stop 
It pushes and pushes with no regret
The heart falters and there is only one thing in your mind
The idea of one soul to be with is the ocean 
The rifts that is trying to break to end the wants of desire
Cannot be trusted in a human lier
The beauty of man is destruction 
The beauty of women are commands
The eyes of each does not matter in the sea
Because all emotion and desire is given to those who are true
Command of a person is just one thing 
The desire to destroy is another
The Sea Blue Eyes will see no bother cause it bares it all
Even the utmost desire
To be continue.


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A soldier's goodbye

                A soldier’s goodbye 

I take thy last breath
With it I bid thee farewell,
Into the night I shall depart
Away I will go to explore the vast lands of the unknown.

Take thy last breath as a remembrance of thy existence in your perfect life,
 I will depart from your arms
From your love and sympathy.

Wipe away the tear that fell upon your cheek
It takes away the gleam in your eyes,
Don’t cry my dear,
Don’t look at the ground
Look into my eyes
Kiss thy lips
Bid farewell.

Do not fret
My love will never fade for you
The key to my heart will always belong to you,
Let no one take that from you.

I must depart now my love,
Kiss me
One last time,
Keep me in your heart
And prayers,
For I may not return
Not by choice,
But by force.

The gunpowder will wisp through the air
And I will stand for you,
My love,
I will give you this,
My life.

Do not worry
As I die I will whisper these last words,
“ I love you.”
I will slowly parish with a smile upon my face,
Knowing that I still have your love.

My soul will watch over you,
My heart will always belong to you
You’re my life,
Darling,
Kiss me before I depart.

Your lips are still so sweet
Your eyes are as beautiful as the day I met you.

I must now depart to new vast lands of danger,
But …one last kiss,
My heart is broken by the sight of this departure,
Keep my heart safe darling.

One last question my love,
Will you marry me?


Details | Villanelle | |

Let Not Love Take Your Life and Soul

Let not love take your life and soul.
Love should be cherished with no martyr.
Take not a life, find new life to cajole.

One love may be forever, while another may troll.
This may trigger heartbreak, this would be harder,
Let not love take your life and soul.

These days they may think there is a better role.
Especially if they meet a so called charmer,
Take not a life, find new life to cajole.

You may be left without anyone to console.
Though you still have such gracious honor,
Let not love take your life and soul.

You may feel you are lost inside a hole.
You only have to look for new love to conquer.
Take not a life, find new life to cajole.

Take out your lonesomeness for a little stroll.
Forget the past, let not your hate harbor
Let not love take your life and soul.
Take not a life, find new life to cajole.


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You Would Laugh But, I Hope You Read This

I can’t count the wrongs I’ve committed
The people I’ve hurt
The friends I’ve lost, but, the hardest part was losing 
You 
The only one I could see myself with
Even now 
Especially since you’re gone

Oscar Wilde once said “You will understand”
..I will never understand how proud I was
Proud enough to almost die and lose you
Proud enough to realize I had not beat Depression
Proud enough to let myself be
My own worst enemy. 

I messed up so much
I’m a changed woman now and you are truly 
All
That 
Is 
Missing
From my life

Love is supposed to make you better
Not kill you
Love didn’t make me better
Because of love, 
I almost died
 
I dare you to love me again, 
I dare you to accept me for who I am now,
Despite your flaws, I still loved you,
Maybe I was somewhat obsessed. 
You don’t know how much I’ve changed,
How sorry I am for stressing you out, 
Hurting you and myself,
I’m a different woman. 

My skin is stained with your scent,
Stained with the way your luscious, soft lips felt,
I tried to let someone else touch me the way you did,
I couldn’t be that happy again. 
Believe me when I say I tried too hard to be perfect,
I tried too painfully hard to make you want me,
Why didn’t you just tell me you loved me as I was? 

Now, although healed,
Through therapy and medicine,
You infiltrate every thought, action, and word that leaves my lips. 
No matter how hard,
Or how much I want to,
You made me happier than anyone and anything ever could. 

I don’t think you have ever sobbed after reading a beautiful piece of poetry,
I wanted you to be sentimental,
I was ridiculous, 
I drove you away. 

You went from someone who surprised me to the 
Night that terrorizes me and reminds me
The ghost that haunts me
Every single inch of me
That you have seen and used to enjoy
Every inch that I wish you would enjoy again
That I crave for you to enjoy again. 

If you knew I wrote this,
I know that you would laugh at me
You would think I was the biggest idiot
But, you ignore me now
It’s how you cope
So, do I really have anything to lose?

If you would let me, 
I would show you the real me
In nine months, 
You never got to see 
Me.
I haven’t seen the real me in six years.
This is the first time.
Please,
Let me love you,
And try to love me. 

If years go by and one day you ask me if this is about you,
That is one thing I will deny,
So you don't judge me.
I will say it was about the one after you,
Not you. 
Never you. 


Details | ABC | |

True loves heart pound

Forbidden feelings I know too well
A glance to me
Communication only I can see
Jealousy
Or a love thats only too real
Time is ending and my thoughts circle you 
For I know my dream will never be true
As I walk away on that dreaded day 
The reality of never seeing those green eyes staring back at me 
Haunts my every step
Is this something I can truely live with
Leaving the person I call home
Unspoken words only go so far 
But they can't stop me 
You look at me 
As I stare back at you 
Will you be the last to see though
The last I no longer have to hide from 
Am I the last one to understand you 
Why can't you say its true 
Why can't it be just me and you 
I fear when I fly away 
That it will be our last day 
I run towards you 
Wanting to tell you all that is true 
Yelling that I love you 
But I stand still 
And the thought of you just being a memory 
Rips though every part of me 
A fond time I call upon when my skies are gray 
Casting you, with all the others 
Knowing you are  so much better 
You asked me once if I would die for you
In a instance without thinking anything though 
I knew...The breathes you breathed were more important to me then to you
And I'm not just going to be losing a friend
I'm going to be losing a purpose
And the beginning to my end.
I remember the day you laid on my couch 
and asked me why we were this way 
I said cuz your my little brother and I love you 
I tucked you into bed 
And you sent me off with a kiss on the head
I remember the day your promised me the world
But all I wanted to say... Was your the only thing this world can give me or take away 
And the price I pay. I will bear and grit my teeth
As long as you are happy. 
Tears falling from your now gray eyes
When I told you that day. 
You said you dont know what to do. And how can I live without you
I don't no if I can leave you
No matter how much you dont want me too 
GOD just leave with me
Pack your things and start new 
just me and you
But dreams are for sleeping. Which I never do. 
So heart ach will be felt 
And I want you too feel the same too
But don't hurt I cant wish that on you
Just miss me and promise you'll never forget me 
Because I promise I will always truly and forever Love you.
And no pain will over come the day I walk away from you
God I pray he follows me 
But unanswered prays happen everyday 
So I'll accept the day I fly away 
Will be the last day 
Our eyes meet, The last day we say everything without a sound and the last day I hear true loves heart pound


Details | Ode | |

Prayer To My Self

Walking away might be the most hardest things for a man to do, you cant even imagine what that feeling can do to you. Falling flat on your face would be better than to look shameful, even walking around naked around the streets would be cool. But like any story in life goes, there is always that one person that will help you get back on your feet and walk again. No matter how much you fall, no matter how much you stumble upon a struggle, that person will be there with you till the end. Give love and thanks to this person who never leaves your side and helps you put a smile on your face everyday. When the day comes to an end and you know that the person has to go, all you can wish is for your special person to stay. Mine has walked away on me, I was so blind that i couldn't see. She wanted everything for her self, for me to change and be what she wanted me to be, but i had to let her go and never see this person again, cause it would only be worse in the end. Writing this is more painful than getting your body tattooed, writing this is more painful than getting over screwed. Writing this is more painful than words, writing this is more painful than razor sharp swords. No matter how much you try to let it out it just wouldn't come out, the pain is way to deep and its almost like its tattooed on your bodies gout. haven't i been hurt enough in this world, i just don't understand why i am being treated like this, is it cause i am better than you and have nothing to look forward too but my blue and black handkerchief? The cut was way to deep my dear, you just cant imagine, i have been cut and bruised for the last time, i can promise you that. No one will ever touch this body or hurt this soul ever again, if you wish to try so, go ahead and check it, but before that go ahead and get yourself a casket.


Details | Free verse | |

Slow Death

It rolled off my tongue like a tumbleweed, 
and you stood there dazed. 
A disease waiting for the injection.
 I laughed. 
Not because I hated you, 
but because there was nothing 
left to do but watch the reality of
 the world sink into your bones. 
You finally understood why the 
stones you throw fall into the lake. 
Not because of gravity,
 but because they're old souls 
too tired of keeping their heads above water.
 Just like us. 
We were drowning each other. 
Maybe love is too dense, 
maybe mankind too shallow?  
Or maybe we're just a bunch of filthy 
 animals that should have never came up 
with such a fairy tale like love in the first place.
 But we did, 
and here we are in the midst of a chapter
 barely breathing between sighs 
that lie to us both. 
Bodies that yearn for one another 
knowing that we admittedly barely adjust
 each day to the other's mental inclinations.
 Heavy with lust our souls twist,
 bend, and almost break under the 
feeling that made them come alive. 
It has become an infection! 
"I don't know how I'm going to survive you."
 
 -James Kelley 2013, All rights reserved.


Details | Free verse | |

Fire Exit


Half between 
          five
          and
          six,
I was on that same 
old stairway, adoring 
your air.

You were standing against kettle people.
You were waiting for the next rocket bus.
You were radio-free and mob-less, as usual.

Half between 
          six
          and
          seven,
I strummed my 
frustrating romances,
adoring your air,
though you’ll be 
far, always.







Ca. 2006







Details | Ballad | |

One Last Glance--- SONG 1

Don’t let yourself be scared,
	be confident.
Don’t hold your soul back,
	just let it take flight.
Standing alone in an empty room
	admiring art from pictures of me and you.

One glance back at the life you knew before,
One last tear that wasn’t meant to fall,
One last embrace to know you were real,
One last breath to make sure you were okay;
One glance back.

Sheltered in your arms,
	a curtain of love binds me.
Hunger in your kiss,
	to know that you need me.
But I’m standing alone in a crowded
room filled with people admiring pictures
	of me and you.

One glance back at the life you knew before,
One last tear that wasn’t meant to fall,
One last embrace to know you were safe,
One last breath to make sure you 
were awake;
One glance back.

You left me on my own
worried sick about you, holding onto all
that was left of you. The
memory of you walking away,
with my silent prayer
hoping you would be okay. . .

One glance back. . .

		One last tear. . .

	One last embrace. . .

			One last breath. . .

One glance back at the life you had before,
One last tear that was meant to fall,
One last embrace to hold me through the 
night,
One last breath just to see the
mornin’ light.
One last glance.

One last glance. . .
		One last tear. . .

			One last embrace that I hold dear. . .

	One last breath that saves a life. . .



One last glance good-bye. . .

				Good-bye. . . 


								good-bye.


Details | Rhyme | |

Jade

Jade
Young lady with a twinkle in her eyes
Surprise
Ready, with her past in disguise
Thighs tight
Bulge in her green dress
Rythmic swaying body
Drawing eyes to her chest
Steady and slow
Stride heel to toe
Show ‘em what heartbreak
Forced you to know
Sweetest fragrance 
Flows in her curls
So bright
She puts her own shine in her pearls
Lover of classy dine
But tonight her majesty wasted
Another non arrival
Lips she never tasted
Rolls in sheets
With only her flask
Mental note
Men always come last


Details | I do not know? | |

Right there

I'm always hearing about how they want love Looking for that man that was sent from above Someone to be with them from young to old Or hold them tight when their feeling cold. A man that thinks with only his brain and his heart A man to be with her when its sunny and when its dark But a good man is very hard to find That always seems to be their next line A good man is always closer then you believe Usually a friend who from your side he never leaves All he wants is for a chance to be with you To show you just once what real men do He's always there wiping away you tears Trying so hard to tell you how he feels You pass him by probably as just a friend And end up with a broken heart again.


Details | Rhyme | |

Setting up House

I met a woman, fell in love
She was a gift from above
Soon she became my spouse
We gathered things and set up house.

Some things were new without a flaw
Some were hand me downs from Ma and Paw
For some we saved nickels in a can
Some were bought on the installment plan.

Children came – a total of four
Two boys – two girls- no need for more
We managed to provide room and board
Did the best we could afford.

We moved around from house to house
On an adventure – me and my spouse
Gathering things to which we would cling
But we rarely got rid of anything.

Tables, chairs, couches, and beds
Cabinets and shelves taller than our heads
Mugs, pictures, and bells we did collect
Mementoes and heirlooms on which to reflect.

A man gathers a lot in over fifty years
And remembers many of them with tears
Many a thing still fills my house
But it’s not a home without my spouse.

She has a room in a retirement home
Care is provided and she cannot roam
I dreamed one day we would be old timers
But I never figured on Alzheimer’s.

Now I have a house full of stuff
Too many things - more than enough
The time has come to downsize
To an apartment in the high rise.

My children came one by one
Went through my stuff until they were done
One takes this and another takes that
And managed to do so without a spat.

Giving things away is a lonely task
My irritability I cannot mask
Gathering things with my spouse
Was more fun than cleaning out house.



Details | Rhyme | |

You make monsters just for fun

Look what you've gone

   & Done

     Now,

Tell me that you can see-

   Exactly

 What it is -that you've 

   unleashed-

That was burried,

   Hidden

Deep inside of me-

 

So entreanched in hate & 

     Anger

Because that's what you've left

     For me.

 

     Inside,

 I can it feel growing-

The seeds you so thoughtlessly 

    Sowed down 

   Within my soul,

Dont you realize you cant mess

   With a girls emotions

  With out having it all 

   Start to take its toll-
 
             Erin Anderson-04/20/2012


Details | Classicism | |

Noone Will Ever Take Your Place

Everyday I listen to songs that remind me of you,
 I miss you so much I feel lost I dont even know what to do
 This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw.
I would give anything just to have you back, 
But I know thats not gonna ever happen so I dont know how to act.
Now your miles & miles away,
 If I had one wish it would be for you to stay. 
I just hope your happy and okay.
Since I cant tell you I love you to your face
 I'm writing you this poem to let you know 
our memories noone can erase and in my life
 noone will ever take your place.


Details | I do not know? | |

How?

How can I forget the way I loved you?
the way you made me feel
the way I was myself when I dated you?

How can I forget how you loved me?
the way you said you loved me.
the way you just broke my heart in 2 


Details | Free verse | |

Crying In The Rain

Crying in the rain
Letting go of all this pain
I do not want to see again
How we came crashing to an end
I do not want to see why
We were forced to say good bye
I have watched it and I have lived it
Been crushed by such a low hit
I’m crying in this rain
My eyes red with raw pain
The tears are flowing
Just not going
And I’m left all alone
I beg for your forgiveness
I scream with all I’ve got
But when it comes together
What I have is not a lot
I walk alone down this street
Strangers’ eyes are following
But I just keep on walking
Head down and never slowing
I pace these roads and hope to find
Something that means anything
Something that’s familiar
Until then I’m just left hanging
I’m still crying in this town
The rain pours on my face
Trying to forget you
But failing at first base
I cannot help but remember
Your face and how you smile
Just keep walking strong
It might be easier after a mile
Your eyes and how they glowed
Are burnt into my mind
I close my eyes and see them
Staring back right into mine
I’m crying on this night
And will on many more to come
I’ll stumble forward without you
Looking for my fortune
I cannot ever forget
The feeling that I had
When you put your arms around me
And chased away all the sad
I will try but fail to forget
How you loved me through thick and thin
I will wander through my life
But always still in love with him
He was my world and I can’t forget
He makes me who I am
Although he’s gone and lost from sight
I will not become a sham
I will always try to forget
How brilliant he made me feel
Made the world seem wonderful
And that maybe this world was real
The pain I feel when I remember him
Is cutting deeper still
He’s left a gaping hole in me
One that no one could ever fill
I try and try and fail again
My baby is still gone
I’m crying in this rain again
Cold and all alone


Details | ABC | |

The meat

A few toys were her trade standing on the side of the passage. Bearing the daring of a beginner she had being long hours frustrated. Seaming week enough a close forties male approach. Never looking at the toys he whisper at her ear. The toys were cheap but the girl choose to have no price. The man turned to go away. But what a price is to buy if you care for the one you wanted for party.! The girl looked down at the toys in tears wiping the edge of her sharp eye.


Details | Free verse | |

Just One Drink

What did she say when you told her you still loved me?

Did she turn away or try to disagree

Did you think about her or how she would be?

No you were only thinking about me.

 

She stands there now, all alone

Facing her fears of the unknown

Turning her head on what she's once known

Realizing now, she's on her own

 

With no one around to help her choose

She stands her ground, not ready to lose

Her head held high while hearing the news

To accept her fate, she must refuse

 

She tries and tires with all her might

To win you back every night

She has no plans to give up the fight

Any hope is out of sight

 

Her heart is now filled with hatred 

Will all the love that you desecrated

With just that one sentence that you stated

Her entire life is now dated

 

Did you ever stop and try to think,

Just how far she would sink?

How close she was to the brink?

Or how it could all end with just one drink?

 

Just one drink to end all the pain

Just one little sip to break the chain

Just one to do the job, to her disdain

Just one and she will die in vain. 

 

You don't even care to attend her funeral

To you she was just a girl that you could treat cruel

How could you be such a fool?

You don't even know of the fire you've fueled. 

 

You come to my door and ring the bell

You send thousands of messages to my cell

Repeatedly the words "I LOVE YOU" you yell

But for all I care you can just go right on to hell 

 

I don't want you anymore you Silly boy

I am no longer your stupid little toy

As for the loneliness you feel now, I hope you enjoy

Because you had your chance and my love you destroyed. 

 

I am my own person without you

I no longer rely on your every move

I am no longer clueless on what to do

I know now I can move on to someone new.

 

As for the girl that you threw aside

I hope you think of her every time you cry

You're the whole reason that she died

If you wanted someone to love, she would have been there by your side. 

 

She would have loved you the way you love me

But you never opened your eyes and seen what there was to see

I'll never love you no matter how hard you plea

So wallow in your self pity, you'll get no remorse from me

 

I hope you drown in your misery

Thank God that sad little girl is finally free

Thank God I knew it was time to flee 

This is goodbye, so don't bother calling me.


Details | Free verse | |

The Hurt I Felt When We Broke Up

I never meant to hurt you
That is what he said
I never meant to hurt you
But right to hurt was led
I was led down a path of insecurity and doubt
A path that trampled me until I too wanted out
I wanted us to make it to the end, you and I
I wanted us to both want to cross that finish line.
But I cannot drag you across that waving flag;
I cannot drag you and one day regret I had.
I wanted you to love us,
but you never truly did;
I wished for you to be in love with me,
but that wish was just too big.
So here I am 2 years later wondering what went wrong;
Here I am 2 years later in the midst of a sad love song. 
So while he’s “trying not to hurt me,”
he could’ve tried two years ago. 
He could’ve tried before I decided to let my defenses go.
You never meant to hurt me?  What you think you’d do?
Tell me that you wanted out and I would say, “Me too!”
No, that’s not the way it works
when you hide your true feelings. 
That’s not the way it works
when you don’t know with whom you’re dealing.
I was dating a figure, a cartoon who said what I wanted to hear.
A mix between Santa Clause and Papa Smurf who always brought good cheer!
But spare me the “Ho, ho, hos,” I’d rather hear the truth.
Spare me the “baby, I miss yous” cause I never saw the proof.
You lied to me, you’re a liar because of the stuff you didn’t say.
Because of your two years of lying, today I feel the pain.
So you never meant to hurt me? Ha. That joke’s funny…
Why don’t you go down the street and tell it to that girl, honey!
In the meanwhile, I’m gonna be OK…that’s a matter of fact.
And oh…when you realize that I was the one please don’t come back!


Details | Free verse | |

raspberry blood

her hands: blooming. sugar, hot
and humming. those wrists, sweet,
no longer sticky. yet stubborn,
reigning the laughter of two years ago.

her lips: fruit. ripe, or rotten, you
no longer remember. still, they remind you.
sin is where your body overruns your soul.
let nature trespass you once in a while.

all she wanted, to be left alone
with sky and sea. something you,
not even you, could give her. life
began to leak away in her voice,

“if the world does not stop, darling,
i just might.” and you could taste
the blood in her sigh, all those
leftovers from two years ago.

her body: gardens. the former home
of such a lovely pulse. you liked to visit
her a lot. she was once a prison of colour
in your foggy seaside town.

but the air that day: salty. streetcars unfolded
in faces you did not know. you felt the world in
past tense. “it is not only the city you have left
behind.” and your message did not reach her. 


Details | I do not know? | |

Guilt

He compels a smile to alleviate me
but his eyes are merely 
green tinted windows
into his anxious soul.

I see right through him.
Remorse twists my stomach.
I burn him with an accidental fire
that the Atlantic Ocean cannot tame.¬¬¬
I'm a pyromaniac
despite my will.

There is nothing I can do 
to stop the burns thickening on his heart.
Should I hurt him with my evanescence
or with my infinite, unspoken lies?

The prospect of his misery
torments me.
I care.
Why can’t I love?

He knows he is my silver medal,
that I don’t feel 
the felicity I claim to.
But what can you do when you love another?
Another who does not love you.



Details | Rhyme | |

I know you are out there

My days are passing by
My hairs are turning gray
I wait for you to come
On a blessed happy day
My smooth skin is wrinkling
Like a crumpled paper 
My hopes are vanishing
Like camphor in the air
My beauty is fading
Like a drying up rose
My dreams are being shattered
By rebuff’s tornadoes
It makes me hot-tempered
Like a lion of zoo
I know you are out there
Why don’t you want me too?


Details | Ballad | |

Blinded on My Wedding Day

Convince that you are the one for me.

Persuaded that I am the one you need.

Deceived that you desire my love.

Refused to see the truth so I wait.

Believing that your heart is not filled with hate.

I cry for my Heart that I am not confused.

Praying to God that I am not just being used.

Blinded by the, Yes I will marry you!

Consumed by the, Will you marry me?

Walking down the aisle to meet my groom, didn't realize it was the day of my doom! 

Oh! What can I say. Blinded on My wedding Day.


Details | Free verse | |

my life the lie'the long dream short changed

she just put on a mask
looked me in the eyes
said I love you
went out  went shopping
made dinner washed dishes
went to bed had sex didn't
hugged kissed fought cried
said I love you for a decade 
behind my back in front of the world
took off the mask
looked them in the eyes
she lied all that time a constant 24/7 lie
a decade
we had a home we lived a normal life
bbq'd watched movies
cuddled laughed played cried 
were scared to death together 
made it thru together
all the while a secrete life
and I had none
I have nothing
I’m the product of nothing everything I have believed -a lie
everything I felt -a lie
every kiss
every night every morning every hardship every paycheck
every dinner every dish washed
every lazy day together
every time my heart felt full was a lie

every goddamn I love you was a lie


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Fragmented Dreams

Last night I dreamt I fell in love again 
With the sweet purple flame of desire 
I remembered the honeyed taste of you 
As it filled my loins with fire 

Your once remembered taste 
So sweet upon my tongue 
Your skin, so soft it glowed 
In dreams you were so young 

Your scent began to fill the air
Your beauty so naked, so real
As I held you in my arms once more 
My heart began to heal 

My lifeless soul- such agony and pain 
Your void I cannot fill 
As tears began to fill my eyes 
I wonder...
When will my broken heart heal?


Details | Senryu | |

A WALK TO REMEMBER - By Love Transformed

                                                       popular rebel
                                       meets preacher's demure daughter --
                                                    opposites attract

                                                      love blossoms
                                                 rebel is transformed --
                                                     her dying wish





12/29/11 For Andrea's Senryu a Movie Scene contest.


Details | Ballad | |

Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


Details | I do not know? | |

You

Accusations and fabrications,
made without foundation,
have pulverized my heart.

Your insecurities and fears,
your jealousy and tears,
are tearing us apart.

I've given you all of me,
so why the hell can't you see,
it's been you from the start?

No matter what I say,
you’re gonna doubt me anyway,
but it's you who owns my heart.


Details | I do not know? | |

Five lines, five words

Five lines to reveal reality...
Five words in stopping insanity...
Five lifetimes to regret this...
Five breaths and a kiss..
"It's not you, it's me...."


Details | Lyric | |

Switch

Glide Slide Through the maze Fake For my sake To keep you distantly near Take This silent token Do not worry I am not broken I'm left with the sea green lake Tangled in my heart I am not sorry One Two Three Switch To keep you Close To keep you Far Hope That one day It will be the same But The two fold rope Tattered it lay Only playing the game Fear Taking over I beg please My dear Don't let it shatter Run Done For the sun I am the fool Who breaks the rules For a moment of fresh air Just to keep you close Just to keep you near So you can slip away


Details | Free verse | |

The Pedestal

How must it feel 

I wonder...

With just a look to have instant 

Appeal

Influence

Hunger

Poised on a Pedestal

With eyes lifted Above 

Indifferent

To the longing Below


Details | Blank verse | |

As I departed from Jen

Number 5 of  
THE JENNIFER POEMS



Nothing gave me a worse shudder-
Nothing enraged me more
Then when it came to my feeble ears that
Sweet JEN was holidaying with that savage chief.

I leave thee in despair Jen
For that feeble heart I promised thee
Slowly collapses when I reflect of thee.
I leave thee in my despair.
But I hope that someday soon
We meet again with happier thoughts.


Details | Free verse | |

Away

Your gashing shadow
on the campus bricks,
pinions me to bow and stick
to an aching fetal pose
pulling more than the sallow
shoes of a newly freed man
 
My marred heart implodes
as a cry of alert
that my turgid insides
won't keep their place
as they're abraded
with each step you take
away
 
I am twenty today-
a scolding age that
I tuck in my pocket
along with my name
and my shameful austerity
a hint at the verity
that sleeps behind my face
 
But you were ageless,
like the royal sky
and lusty tree
in my memory, a
gentle green where 
you draped around me
and met my mouth
with such soft favor
gingerly collecting swigs
of my flushing lips  
So afraid of breaking me.
 
You held me like a bird,
our bodies sedate 
clement words 
like the clouds
sweet as water to my heart
Your hands knew
the curve of my legs
that pushed further
through the night
loosing fear with time
and my mind with wine.
I thought of little more than you
and the sky
 
But winter was a marauder
that stalked my wealth well,
with its furtive hands wide
prodding with gifts laced
with lies disguised
by buttery eyes.
the retiring feet were
 too subtle
like the cracks in my knees
that bring me 
collapsed
to your shrinking back
 
You're a disaster
marking seals on my arm
even today, my birthday
where I see my normal days
are made a blade 
and I'm afraid
to watch you now
like fallen prey.
Because you walk away
 
and I still love you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Harmonies

She lives inside of me,
In the secret catacombs
Of my soul.
She's there, in every
Step I take
Calling me back home,
Where its warm
Where its safe..

She doesn't know
Where I am.
The birth of my dreams,
In her eyes and mine.
She smiles
Her perfect smile
To cataracted eyes
Now unappreciative..

Two parts of one
lost forevermore
I can't contain
This red super giant
My pain, pulsing
A painful reminder
Of how fated love
Became an abyss..

How did I refuse
Her celestial grace?
Her beauty,
A reason to believe
In His grand design.
How did I turn
My back
On sunlight..

I've never cared
to look for another.
My heart, I know,
Was truly lost
The day she left.
Slowly the eclipse
Crept towards my
My soul bereft..

I hope that she
Is always happy
No matter where
She may be.
I'm happy that for
A moment
The sun danced
Around me..


Details | Free verse | |

Southern Man

A few months back, I met you.
Strong, silly, lean Southern man.
Separated by years, but only a few
Nervous I was and I wanted to, but never ran.
You and I weren't meant for much, 
I was just a hit it and quit it.
But you changed your mind when our lips first touched.
You were just the fire that I needed to be lit
Soon after, I had begun to fall.
Yet you never answered when I called.
Then you found your way into her arms again,
leavin' me behind.
You told me that it soon will end,
but I couldn't get you off my mind.
So you stopped me and let me down
for her, the little girl I wish to be.
Now I'm stuck to ____ around,
But I only want you, you with me.


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The Color Red

At the beginning it was all so great,
but now i am walking away from this state.
I loved ever moment that we spent together,
I thought we would go on like that forever. 

But i am sorry to say that you have torn my heart apart,
I was praying on my hands and knees from the start.
Praying so that this would not happen,
but it happened and it ain't stopping. 

I beet my self in the chest now for letting this go so far,
I wish i could just forget this all to remove this scar.
The scar that you left on my soul is way too deep,
everything poring out of it is nasty and smells so creep. 

I know that people say to "Forgive and Forget",
but i can do only one thing, and its pore it out without a fit.
So i am done with this hell people call life,
i am on the edge of this earth waiting to survive. 


Dedicated to the one that broke my heart. 
No names will be spoken.


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Goodbye

Goodbye
It seems like I just met you
And yet it has been three years
It seems like I just started to fall in love with you
Two years have passed
It seems like we just got married 
And it has been a year and a half
But here I am 
Standing here 
As you break my heart
And walk away
I cannot keep begging you to stay
My heart does not work that way
And as much as I long for you 
I know I will be better off 
I wish it did not hurt so badly
I wish I could just be mad
However I cannot deny
That I will always love you 
And a part of me died the day 
You walked out that door
Without even saying 

~Goodbye~

By: Jean Shular


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A Circle of the Globe

Little did I know that
A year ago today
We would end up right back here now
Like you never went away

The scabs have only just left
My skin still pink from scars
Not enough time to forget you
Not enough to stop wishing on stars

And yet you're standing here once more now
On my doorstep wanting in
And believe me I want to let you
But I don't want to hurt again

So I'm faced with the decision
To forget and go on with you
Or to bring the scars to your attention
Tell you what you've put me through

Or be silent and walk away
To wonder what could have been
If this was the one time you had pure intentions
Or if I'd be burned within

But with everything that's happened
I can't pretend to be okay
I can't ignore the lashes to my heart
Given when you walked away

I so wish I could forget it
Because as much as you've hurt me
I would never want to hurt you
I don't want to ignore your plea

The world spinning has changed so much
A circle of the globe
Time seems to move so quickly
But with you, time seems to slow.


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Poetic ache

As liquid evaporating, 
my reflection vanishes, 
dust of bone drifts, 

And the quiddity of my 
soul collapses while it waits, 
hoping for a return, 

like ships in the open sea, 
lingering for 
a placid voyage, 

I continue 
in the same wave, 
like branches I waggle 
vigorously in my aches, 

Trying to elude the reason, 
escaping from my own breath, 
and as I see the leaves of trees 
falling, 

Each of them feel my pain, 
and I travel in my head to all 
of these places without 
taking a step, 

I dream with my eyes wide open, 
gazing at a fantasy frame, 
for my life becomes poetic
by the endlessness of my constant aches.

Copyright©ElenaToledo2011


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ReFlection's In The Mirror

By search to the highest alimony, from hero to zero.
If love is put to the test A question will yet be answered
by one man who simply stares truth dead in the eye, 
and one woman desperate to love him.

A secrecy is now silently broken by both
idenity's .... He loves her not, she accused
by being ab-sent- minded behind mirrors of 
one man; one woman.

"Where ReFlection's are seperated by 
different mind's."


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Love On Fire

Each beat resounds your precious name,
this heart it bears nowt' but a flame.
A single glint like candlelight
burns alone morning to night.
My wish, our flames to burn united,
a fire of passion soon ignited.
My world it burns the fires doth rise
through the sparks set in your eyes.
I stay alight for you in sorrow,
burning bright for our tomorrow.


Details | Free verse | |

Inevitables

The sun is low and it is setting and all of your empty promises come to mind,
one after the other and I wonder if any of them will ever hold any real weight
instead of simply hanging on the hopes of two young kids
who want nothing more than to be together.

I’m saying goodbye to my worry because in the end,
none of them really mattered anyway.
Nothing really does besides this moment,
infinite and suspended in a constant state of waiting;
for you to call, until our eyes rest upon one another’s again
until our bones are let to tangle up in a knot held together
by the sheer promise that we are never letting go.
I wait for the day I won’t have to
and I think of the way you look at me in the morning light
as it filters through the cracks in your blinds.
The gold and white in your hair, illuminated
by those same rays that make your eyes shine so brightly when you smile
at me, so small and unsure,
afraid that I might not be all that you need
when you are everything to me.
I can’t explain your self or all that you are
and sometimes it’s hard to hold on to, let alone grasp,
but I hope that one day
you can find it in yourself to let me hold you in my heart,
to be mine, and be right, and to settle for the best of me
while everything inside me screams that I might not ever be enough
because all that you deserve and the small fraction that I am
are two entirely different things.


Details | Rhyme | |

Candle in the Dark

She’s a Candle
Glowing in the dark…
A lighthouse 
Pointing to the shore… 
Through gloomy days that seem so dark 
Through tempests that rage and pour 

She’s the Oasis 
That quenches my thirst…
The passion 
Burning in my veins…
My heart swells within my chest 
My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my pain

She’s the mystery 
I never can solve…
The balm
That soothes my tears…
My goal, my zeal, my sole resolve 
With her I mock and taunt my fears

She’s the kiss 
I can’t forget …
Yet the very one 
That broke my heart…
My love, my soul, she did reject 
My dreams, my hopes, she knocked them flat


Details | Epic | |

To A Troubled Love

Sometimes you seem to be the 
person,
I once knew and fell in love with,
And sometimes you just seem to 
appear,
To be a perfectly stranger to me.
Which Causes me to wonder,
If I should be here or not,
Because it makes me wonder,
If this thing we have is really meant 
to be.
In your heart and mind,
You never see what is wrong,
Cause you only see the green 
pasture,
Instead of the thickets and thorns,
Our relationship will never get any 
better,
If things don't change,
And we both work on clearing out 
the painful parts,
Because it will keep us both cut up,
   with hearts that are torn.

Sometimes I really wonder if you,
Want this to work out or not,
Cause you say one thing but,
Your heart isn't really in this,
Like it used to be,
And hasn't for a really long time,
Which brings me back to the 
question,
If this is meant to be?


Details | I do not know? | |

A Hollow Shell

a hollow shell
of tangled synapses
sparked into gradual madness
which drowns out the truths of the day
as the mind reeks of the rotten sad moments
that swirl in the rancid soup of forgotten dreams
dreams that once traced a gentle path of innocence
dreams that reached for pure love’s tender touch
dreams now paralysed but once vivaciously alive
what became of those fresh dreams and hopes
as they lie mustily on dusty bookshelves
torn into shreds by time’s fine scimitar
devoid of the touch of raw passion
when all that remains of love is
a hollow shell


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Lies

I wake up in the morning, The smell of your perfume lingering on my skin, I roll over to see if your body still lay there, & I realize everything I loved vanished. I just have these images and scents stuck in my head, I have everything you ever gave me packed away, I look through it again and again each day. Trying to piece the puzzle together, & figure out why we drifted apart. I want to know if you still think about me like I think about you, I want to know if you still have the things I made and gave to you. I just wish I could stop smelling you, Stop thinking about you, Just everything about you brings me to my knees, & I am begging you please, Please just let me forget you. I wake up the next morning and realize, Everything about you was lies.


Details | Free verse | |

Deep within a Broken Heart

Tempest tossed along lost dreams Salted wounds in these tears stream Flood gates washed about Drowning amid dimensions latent, further Within whirlpool, a limbo Of languages ancient yet, not unknown Aligning streaks In saddening ire Off a cleft Symbolizing A drop of broken life Retire Randomly inhalations With raiment chills pillaging From once atmosphere still Arbitrary evicting fervent to tepid Chasing back the last breath of jilts And grasping out for dear air Comprehensions of all that is And never was, really fair Involuntary reflexes Merely, flex once more In captivation of unawares Thus, stumbles unto a now idle flesh Of a nucleus without feeling any longer Redefining the promises Of the forever there Unto the being Organs eternally continue struggling Among a clutching entrench They crumble in Collapse and give To once, its rhythmic yearning song Only time, beats stronger on And soon shall counter part In beginnings of resolve All somewhere deep within a broken heart


Details | Free verse | |

The One

My urges take control of me But I repel from expressing true feeling I lay awake on a sleepless night Dreaming of forever completion with a female People my age tend to take whatever comes to them And end up with players and loose blondes But I know what I want And my life is like an endless search for it Which I am willing to devote myself to Even If I die with the burden of my virginity My friends say I lack taste in women But in reality they are the ones without taste I'll find the one someday The one that stands out from the crowd And believe me It will be a beautiful moment And I will treasure her forever But is that really long enough...?


Details | Free verse | |

Love Part 2

Forever, will I die for you
Forever, will I love you
I will love you forever
It may take that long
Before you finally stare right into me
And release me from this prison
I've made and lost the key to
It's hanging around your neck, love

While I hear you crying in your sleep again
I wrap you in my arms
And pray you feel me there again
It will be okay
I'll always be here, my sweet
I'll never leave
Years now, since you saw me last

You hold your reasons in your hand
Too many, though not enough
Gently, I come behind you
And kiss your neck
Whisper nothing
But surely it's enough
As you drop your reasons to the floor
Quickly stand and turn
I know you don't see me
Until you fly into my arms
Tears screaming from your heart
Words so lovingly hateful
I was right here
I'm still right here
I'll never leave
Please, believe
All I have, everything I am
Was right here, waiting for you
To see my light and wash ashore
Please, don't turn away again
Let's just stay here together
Forever tangled up in
Love


Details | Free verse | |

What may it take to reply

..
What may it take to reply
A apology after another
A sweet chocolate
A poetry of praise
A Joke to laugh
A bouquet of flowers
A shower of reminders
Or just a though that
I remembered you
What may it take to reply
..


Details | I do not know? | |

15 Months

I’m sorry I ignored your calls and the attention I was given
I’m sorry I made you feel like your emotions were not worth living.
I’m sorry after 4 months I still wanted some other guy,
I’m sorry at month 6 I discovered yet another lie.
I hate that it was too late, my heart had already picked a side.
I remember in month 7, I left him for you.
I’m sorry that I begged and you didn’t know what to do.
I’m sorry I hooked up with him, and you didn’t approve.
In months 8 & 9 you stood by me while he was forcing me to move.
10 – You just wouldn’t understand. I said “NO” and pushed away your hands
11 – Came and left without a single word. After all that we went through I still wanted to be 
your girl.
12 – Was emotional, you were on your way, but there were those three little words you 
wanted but I still couldn’t say.
I’m sorry that after 13 months I still wasn’t perfect.
I’m mad that we were nearly at 14 months before I decided you were worth it.
I hate that when the 12th of the next month came around you said “wow, that’s 15”. You 
were still far away, and still just as mean.
I hate that 15 was when I was going to say those three little words and send them your way, 
but instead you kissed me and acted like it was all fine. You took me home and then it was 
time
“I have bigger dreams, and things I need to do. I’m sorry but my life isn’t you.”
I’m sorry that after 15 months you were nothing but a jerk
I hate that 15 months still couldn’t make it work.
I’m angry that I gave you my Sweet Sixteenth year, something I looked so forward  to, I 
couldn’t enjoy while it was here.
I hate you for not keeping your words and just staying away. You had to come back and 
forth and make me want to stay.
Those 15 months where all I had was you, are gone, erased, thrown away and blank. There 
is no sensitivity because of you it lacks.
You’re gone, it’s over and I’m not looking back.


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If You Only Knew

Dustin, 
My best friend, My x boyfriend, and the one I’m still in love with.
I know I have a boyfriend and he just happens to be your best friend too, but if I had the chance to tell you everything I would.
You and I still love each other like we did 3 years ago, but there’s nothing we can do about it.
I cant leave my boyfriend because I to scared of everything that will happen. 
I do love him and I do love you, but Who do I love more?
The one weekend I Saw you this year was the best weekend I've ever had.
We walked around like there was nothing else going on in the world.
The biggest smiles on our face, My lipstick on your lips, and the love in our eyes.
You and I even sang together on the park bench for the world to hear.
Shinedown is our favorite band because we both fit like perfect puzzle pieces in all their songs. 
I can't describe the way you made me feel with your big blue eyes, and the way you lifted me up like I was as light as a feather.
I know people might say if I love you so much then why don't I leave him. 
My answer is simple: I'm scared of being hurt… again.
Sure, every girl is sacred of a heart break but this girl? 
The bipolar , depressed, starving, love hungry, emotional, girl isn’t just scared she's terrified.
I do I love my boyfriend, but I don’t know who I love more.
Sure Dustin you broke up with me on my birthday 3 years ago, but we all make mistakes.
So for this years birthday you got me a beautiful “J” necklace, the color of my birthstone.
I know it might not sound like that makes up for it but the way I feel with you makes me feel invincible.
Every night we would go up to the hill, smoke a cigarette, and just hold each other. 
So if I had the opportunity to tell you  one thing that I regret not telling you.
It's that I love you and the way you make me feel more then everything in the whole world... except for Tyler, my boyfriend.
I'm sorry Dustin.


Details | I do not know? | |

Free

What stands behind there eyes, is a dam that's about to break. I can no longer hide behind these lies, I can no longer be a fake. No more fake smile, No more fake feelings. No more fake happy for a while. Its time to fly with open wings. No longer hiding, No more lying. I can already feel my sanity sliding, Slipping away from me. It's time to be true to myself. Nothing is worth this suffering. Nothing is worth this pain. So now I'm free. This dam no longer breaking. I can finally fly free.


Details | Free verse | |

How Do I Let You Go

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will 
Never forget
That day!
Till the day 
My body dies
And
I am with you, again!

“How was I to prepare myself?”
With 
That kind of 
Life changing, event!
You 
Didn't warn me 
You
Were permanently leaving!
I hope 
You know 
How much “I love you”
Know
You will never be forgotten!

I don’t know 
What 
Has got into me!
Consciously
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face 
So clearly!
Am I crazy 
To believe in this, my love?

“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination 
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
As
I talk with you
As if 
You were by my side, right now

In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Imprinted
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints 
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Eternally
Trying to make sense of everything!

Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
Something 
I haven’t
Quite
Got over!

My heart 
Having 
A mind of its own
Aching 
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
One
Last time!

I want to say “Goodbye” 
Once and for all!
As 
We have
Brought out
The best and worst 
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!

We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
Meaningless
Now
You cease to exist!

I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face 
The way you
Passionately
Kiss me
While
We make love, till dawn

I miss
All those nights
You kept me 
Safe and warm!
I miss
Your
Loving embrace
I miss
Your
Reassurance!
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
Just
As 
I felt
In your arms, my love?

How
Do I let you go?
How
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
With 
‘Our eternal love’
Supporting
And 
Guiding me
Especially
In times, like these!


Details | ABC | |

say goodbye

I lay in my bedroom asking why?
Then I relize it not me its the cold hearted guy!
I'm sick and tired of hearing all his lies,
Now I've decided its time to say goodbye!

Ive been hurt many times through the years,
I no longer show emotion,
Because I've ran out of tears.
I'm so tired of you bringin me down,
Makin me walk around with a frown,
I'ts time to erase you from my memory,
and no longer be in misery.

So much wasted time, 
And you aint even worth a dime!
Never understood you,
and why you act the way you do!

You broke my heart,
Then tore me apart,
Dont ever again try to speak to me,
Just do me a favor and let me be!!

 


Details | I do not know? | |

Dream

Her eyes are like moonstones that glow with a faint light Her warmth envelopes me with a feeling that's so nice She trust me with her feelings and i trust her with mine Ignoring the haters as our hands entwine Chills spread through me with her every touch Her eyes look at mine as they fill up with lust We laugh as we walk in the moonlight When she is next to me everything feels so right My mind empties with each and every kiss Eyes mirror mine, she's drowning in bliss She's my angel sent to me from above Together forever enveloped in love All of a sudden everything goes black I open my eyes and realize where I'm at Sadly i get up and gather my school things The love that i felt was only a dream


Details | Epic | |

About Kameron by Taylor

I stood in the room staring at that hard wooden floor.

Thought of him and then closed the door.
I looked back up and everything was black.
Suddenly I knew the pain was back.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Black and gray rags were scattered everywhere,
And all I could do was stare.

But he loved me .
I knew that much.

I sat on his bed and noticed that the tears started to shed.
Then I saw a very dark closet.
I heard our song and wanted to pause it.
I felt my heart slowing with the rhythm.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Light began to shine through the enormous window.
I looked over,
And there...was a shadow.
The giant black drapes turned blue.
I thought to myself:"This can't be true."

Because I knew he loved me.

The roses came back to life.
And the bed turned white.
The rags turned into his clothing.

The music slowed and I didn't know what I was being shown.
But I loved him.
A light came from the closet.

A light that was brighter than any of the stars in the sky.
I saw a figure,and again,I started to cry.
I saw his face,saw his smile,
And knew that this was our special place.
And he said I love you.

Those three words meant the world to me and him .
And I said,
...I love you a whole lot more.


Details | Free verse | |

Season's Change

Spring how wonderful for alas it is here
Birds fly all around making good cheer
My lover sits close to me and whispers in my ear "I love you my dear" 

Summer how splendid the pool parties began and all the kids hope it will never end
And then my lover comes to me and looks me in my eyes with sincerity  and says              "I'll always love you my darling" 


Fall has it all as the wind calls to the trees as their leaves fall and turn colors from what use to be green
As far as my eyes can see they cover the ground
I look for my lover but he can not be found
I call for him but he does not reply
Perhaps I will see him another time



Winter sets in  followed by cold icy winds
It blows poor trees which are now dead and bare
The sky has turned gray and the flowers have gone away and now I see snow
But where my lover is I still do not know
The snow touches my skin with soft icy pains of sadness 
With a broken heart comes many things anything but gladness




Weeks go by but it is not yet spring 
The snow has all melted and dead grass is all I see
Then I look into the distances for something has caught my eye
"Oh My!"  I cry it is my lover I see
I run to him and grab him joyfully
But that joy was short lived as he pushes me away
With his face like a storm he says "I don't love you anymore" 


Like seasons people also do change 
I know this now as I slowly turn and walk away....  


Details | Rhyme | |

The Maelstrom in my heart

Unsure I stand,
Of how to feel,
Distraught within, without,
Although I planned,
To be as steel,
I'm soft without a doubt,
A 'she' has come,
To bend my mind,
And claim my smitten soul,
Stole my freedom,
And so I find,
I'm robbed of self-control,
O siren maid,
Such strong dark spells,
You have cast on my heart,
A heart that has strayed,
From where it dwells,
Will surely fall apart,
Where can I go?
What can I do?
When will this madness end?
If I feel so,
Then so must you,
Or do you just pretend?
You give me pain,
But take my peace,
A poor exchange for pleasure,
I struggle in vain,
To earn your kiss,
A fool beguiled by treasure.


Details | Rhyme | |

Cold Coffee

I'm turning stale;
No feelings inside me.
Can't drink me down;
I burn like cold coffee.


Details | Verse | |

Seem Not To Even Care

Its not like I asked for this
It’s something else besides
But knowing there is no way out
Just tears me up inside.
It’s like suffocation
Like drowning on dry land
Impossible, not really
On my knees for I cannot stand
You make promises and break them all
Crush them into dust
Moving on isn’t helping
To just leave things in the past
Burnt down to ashes, black and cold
Another day goes by
Another day in which I mean naught
Left on low, not on high
I do not beg for this torture
To be left out on my own
But you make it seem like that’s what I want
And again I’m left alone
One day you’ll pay the price for this
And regret it everyday
You deserved it for what you’ve done
And that’s all I have to say
You make is sound like it hurts you more
That you’re the victim here
Truth is you stand by and watch me cry
And seem not to even care
 


Details | I do not know? | |

It Was Me

It was me
who made you cry
i ignored the truth and told you lies...

It was me
who wondered why
you had to leave without saying goodbye...

I really did you wrong
so now im all alone
wishing your heart was my home...

Now I'm a king without a thrown
nowhere for me to go...
my queen has shut me out
im about to scream and shout 
but im only left to pout


Details | Verse | |

truthful tendencies

trust turns to tradgety 
and you lie to me faithfully
you love me lustfully 
and abuse me forcefully
if love is a lock
then lust is the key
for love is not what all see
your face must be pretty
even though your heart is ugly
fare warning this is a humanic tradgety 
be aware of the unfair humanity
as you have now been exposed to my truthful tendencies


Details | Ballad | |

Sacred Lorelei

The night has befallen me Rescue me, unchain me Sacred Lorelei Bleeding a passion of royalty Forever I'll follow your Argentine cloak with the most deadly pacts beautiful Witch Sacred Lorelei Tell me did the ravens Hear my cry My misery's plea Sacred Lorelei Was this all just upon a dream Lucidity becoming reality of my Sacred Lorelei A fiat of darkly desire from a most beautiful witch unchaining the burden of my misery All for my Sacred Lorelei


Details | ABC | |

Memories

Deleted the memories of what we had
I am not going to lie i had a blast
but now its time to end this at last 
forget about everything put it behind us leave it in our past
where did the time go? It sure went fast
Im sorry about everything it all even left me with a gasp.
Deleting the memories of what we had...
                                                                
                                                            By: Raymond T Padilla


Details | Rhyme | |

happy for eternity

All the days go by the same, No one but my self to blame, Can't find a reason for my shame, I need that someone to ignite my flame, That someone will be mine, Eventually, in due time, That natural beauty in her eye , Could brighten any dark night sky, That light blue aura, could make angels cry, If you leave then I would die, On the inside, I wont lie. All I want to do is be, With you happy, for eternity.


Details | Light Poetry | |

LONELINESS by Collice Rodrigues

He is not lonely who does not have anyone

He is lonely who is alone though he has someone

Loneliness never took away my shine

It only took the things that pretended to be mine

 

I have been sitting there on that dark bench alone

I have felt loneliness running like a shiver to my bone

It’s the most frightful feeling it’s frozen, it’s cold

The worst of your memories will it unfold

 

Loneliness is better when we choose it our self

It’s hard to accept when we get it by someone’s help

Loneliness can make you want to lie in your mothers arm

It can make you the only chicken in the poultry farm

 

Loneliness can make you desperate for a call

It can make you mad enough to talk to a wall

Loneliness can make you sick of living

It can kill your faith till you stop believing

 

Loneliness is like the night that slowly creeps upon you

Its victim is everybody it doesn’t even spare a few

Loneliness can make you crave for attention

It can steadily engulf you against your intention

 

-Collice Rodrigues

25/09/2011


Details | Sonnet | |

Blind Love

The romance between them female and male,
From her dying inside from all the pain.
Their love like a moon shining oh so pale, 
And them thinking they were going insane.

From the late nights of fighting and crying,
To the dates that went wrong in both their ways.
They both found out of each others lying,
And cheating that took place the past few days.

Punching and kicking, being tossed around,
The bruises, the blood, the black-and-blue eyes. 
She shouts and screams when she falls to the ground,
The neighbors don't help when they hear her cries.

But on the wedding day nothing is said,
And the truth came out when they found her dead.


Details | Choka | |

BEFORE IT GETS DEEPER

Let's end it right now 
before it gets deeper and
we won't hold on delusion...
would you rather feel
the agony of pain, or
accept this goodbye and leave?


I've tried to say it 
aloud, but courage was missing...
I wanted to shout and cry,
and admit we should
break up to avoid many
painful memories with tears.


Were you not reading
the signs on this loveless face? 
Wasn't it kind of suspicious
why I didn't touch you
enough when darkness drew near...
felt so rejected and unloved?


It's morning and you
are sleeping, chasing new dreams,
I must go so silently...
oh, forgive me, love
I cannot see you shiver 
as sad words cause a heart-break.


I didn't wish it had
turned out the way it just did,
isn't it better to let go
than be deluded?
Look me in the eye and end
it before it gets deeper.

 
Written by Andrew Crisci
for Russell Sivey's contest,
" Relationships Breakups "


Details | I do not know? | |

I Dont Know

I dont know if my heart can last forever
and i dont know if me and you can stay together.
This thing that i feel inside my heart 
is the reason that we must be apart.
When i close my eyes i dream of you
and our emotional love that cant be true.

I just dont know how you will feel
but in the end i have to keep it real.


Details | Lyric | |

Fly

Don't you wish you could fly? Don't you wish you could fly? Decisions are capable of control, Then you feel like a mole, Deep in the ground, Far away from sound. Things get you down, You can't fit into the crown, You lay in front of an ice cream shop, Your friends are playing ninja in the handicap spot. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Dreaming of a beautiful land, When you dug your feet into the sand, I get beaten, When your so smitten, Because you're not mine. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Fly, fly, fly. Fly like a butterfly, Away from troubles, That make you cry, When come in doubles. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Flap your wings and, Fly.


Details | Rhyme | |

Please leave me alone - Original by Rabindranath Tagore

Please leave me alone
I remember her so much off and on!

Now no one can make my time worthwhile
By the whirlpool of wonderful words
By keeping me busy in my works!

I make a garland of story
With pieces of my memory!

I carry this gem of pain to her
On my lonely way to hereafter
With her own wealth I decorate her!


Details | Narrative | |

Beauty and the Unpublished Author


Far away in a little town tucked in the corner of a map
Lives the girl who ruined his heart
And broke his life

While with him she would smile and laugh so sweet
Tender as only she could be
In his heart she lit even the corners so deep

With time she became his definition of life
In all he did he had her in mind
Life wasn’t life without him seeing her smile

As moments grew into weeks
The flower of his heart started to reveal its wilt
In her eyes no longer was the sparkle he was used to seeing

Winds carried awful odour of their disorder
Tales went round of her illicit exploits behind the counter
The man with the shop at the corner savoured all the honey she offered

At first he dismissed the whispers with laughter
But soon he discovered he was the only one on the other side of reality’s border
Yes indeed, another prince had taken over

Trouble was how sincerely he loved her
Problem was that even she had only love to offer
Issue was he hadn’t yet sold a dime of the books he authored


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Torn

I am torn cause you broke my heart

I am torn cause you act like you had no part

I am torn cause you went away

I am torn cause your choice was not to stay

I am torn cause I believed you

I am torn cause you said we were threw

I am torn cause you said goodbye

I am torn cause our love was a lie

I am torn cause you walked away

I am torn cause I don't know what to say

I am torn cause I don't know what to do 

I am torn cause my heart can't live without you.....


Details | Epic | |

Breaking Through The Walls

Missing past loves,
Can hurt you in so many ways,
But makes you compare,
Everyone to that one love.

Which can be good and bad,
In so many ways,
Because no one can compare to that one person,
But it can keep you from being in situations,
That you should not remain in or stay.

Some people are good,
And some are just out to hurt you,
However, you must take your time,
And judge carefully,
So you know who is true.

Yes, life has its ups and downs,
And you must take each time,
As a learning experience,
For if you do,
And listen to every noise,
That hits your ears,
You will hear those sounds are very important sounds!

Some are Cries of love, anger, hurt, and cries of pain,
But if you don't listen carefully,
And hear any of them,
Nothing will matter in your life, 
And the most important thing in your life,
      Will fly away like a dove.

Then it will be the same old road,
Over and over again,
And unless you change,
It will continue to repeat itself,
And you will put a wall up 


Details | Rhyme | |

Taken Breath

I never knew how much you cared, 'till you screamed, and I got scared. I ran out, into the street, there was a car, beside of me while i stood crying over you. You kissed me, and I kissed you, I knew what was coming, but I hoped not true, and with your final breath you said, "remember me when I am dead."


Details | Blank verse | |

female alcoholic

Female alcoholic 
  
On my evening walk, in my town, I ambled
past a bar and heard a familiar laughter; 
there she was in full flow surrounded by
men who plied her with drinks thinking she 
was easy. Heavy make- up to hide ravages 
of years and abuse . In the bar´s dim light 
she looked almost young and eye-catching.
None of the men had seen her as I had seen
her in the morning, mascara running, tears
shakes, begging for a drink to stop tremors.
Promises to stop drinking tomorrow when 
things became settled… always tomorrow
When she saw me, got up and waved I ran
like a fugitive on slippery stones, a coward,
yes, but living with an alcoholic…impossible.   


Details | Quatrain | |

I Thought Love Came My Way

I didn’t know what hit me
When I thought love came my way
It came almost out of nowhere
But it would not stay

It made its camp for several years
The best years I thought I’d had
It made me happy now and then
It mostly made me sad

Sometimes it left me alone
Just desperate to hold on
Trying hard to save something
That was already gone

But it vanished quickly
It left me in the cold
And any smiles it brought me
Were replaced by tears tenfold

And so I’ve come to realize
That wasn’t love at all
It wasn’t even close to love
It was just so flawed

Because real love is perfect
Real love doesn’t leave
Real love makes you stronger
It doesn’t make you weak

Real love can’t be broken
It doesn’t fade away
It stands strong through any storm
And it cannot be swayed

I hope that love will find me
And that I’ll know it when it does
I hope that it comes quickly
And that its all that I’ve dreamed of


Details | Light Poetry | |

Patiences

 When separated from the one you love
 It’s very hard to fight back the tears
 You become emotionally drained
 And the day’s apart feels like its years
 
 While a million knife enters your heart
 Loneliness filled confusion enters your mind
 You think of all the words unspoken
 That keeps haunting you all the time

 And in a world of 7 billion people
 You are left standing there all alone
 Hoping and praying that you will see
 A call or text from them on you phone

 She just leaves me and went away
 Although I keep saying “I love you’
She just keep walking didn’t look back
 To see pain and suffering I’m going thru”

She left a million holes in my heart
 That’s full with the emptiness of my life
 And every second that slowly goes by
 Takes away the hope for me to survive

 Oh Jesus, oh Allah, oh lord Rama
 Please reach out your hands from above
 And if I ever done any good deeds
 Please bring back the only woman I love

 I will do anything that you want me
 I will never say a bad word again
 I will go to mosque, go to church and temple
 Please bring her back, I will do anything

 So many nights I just lay awake crying
 To cry for the woman you love, is no shame
 It just proves how much you love her
 And for her you will walk thru hells flames

 No one knows how much I missing her
 And my tears keeps falling and wont stop
 They will say stupid things like?
 Let her go, drink a beer and “man up”

But she is the woman I love
 She is my life, my heart and soul
 The only perfect person god created
 With The sweetest voice in the world

 But rain don’t fall for one place for ever
 So will keep holding on with all my faith
 And I know that miracles dot comes true
 I just got to have a little patience’s to wait


Details | Rhyme | |

LIFE IS MEANT TO LIVE

LIVING IS LAUGHING, SHARING THE FUNNIEST MOMENTS THAT CAPTURED OUR GREATEST 
SMILES.
ENJOYING THE TIME WHEN SOUNDS OF HAPPINESS WERE ALL THAT CLEARED THE AIR.
THE GIGGLES WE'VE HEARD, THE SMILES WE SEE,
THE TOUCH I FEEL WHEN YOU ARE SO NEAR.
LIFE IS THE MEANING WE LOVE SO DEAR.
THE AMBITION & MOTIVATION USED TO KEEP OUR HEADS CLEAR.
OUR REASONS TO STRIVE & TO KEEP LOVE ALIVE.
OUR DECISIONS TO MAKE,
TO FEEL OUR HEARTS BREAK,
TO TAKE THAT GREAT CHANCE BEFORE ITS TO LATE!
TO FINDING TRUE LOVE & NEVER ASTRAY,
TO BEING SO ANGRY & STILL WANNA STAY,
TO HAVING THE PATIENCE OF AN ARMY OF MEN,
BUT STILL BEING ABLE TO CRACK & BEND.
LIFE IS A LESSON FOR EACH ONE TO LEARN,
AND BLESSINGS THERE FOR EACH ONE TO EARN.


Details | I do not know? | |

Set Me Free

Catch me when I fall from the wall.
Erode my misery of feeling so lonely.
Shatter the words on being all alone written in stone.
Free me from the spell of my own hell.

Bring me a chance to find a peace of mind.
Make real my dreams of how happiness seems.
Give the thoughts on being strong-spirited more meaning.
Remind me of how my inner self has always been free.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Silence Prevails

It's been so long. Seven years are gone. 
You watched me grow up. Loving you. 
And I used to say,
Ten times a day,
I love you. 
Now, I'd rather let it pass. 
And let silence prevail between us.
 
There were nights. And I'd be awake.
Waiting for you to be home. 
Now, I'd rather you don't come
And hours we used to be on telephone...
I'd rather be alone. 
Conversations never ended, they never really do...
And yet the ones we have now, I wish we never do.
 
Did I just grow up?
Or may be you loved a different me.
Not that I like who I am now
But it's little I can do about. 
We go to a fancy dinner. Yet, when was the last time we laughed together?
Moments which seemed little, now just feel like forever.
 
Sitting here on my bed, I watch you,
Wear your coat and leave. 
You are the only one I ever have. Would you come back?
But I say nothing. Sometimes silence is a comfort.


Details | Narrative | |

Forgotten Fate

Introduction: For those who’re wandering confused within the lost and found - seeking silence…


Truth be never futile Stay and see awhile, Call back your forgotten dreams And feel that frozen smile, Linger of Love be worth eternal wait; When the time is right – That verity we do still hate And later we wind up too late, There forth we get lost in fate We get bemused with our innate That we can’t still relate, Don’t take on yourself as bate As never you trust an inmate, Our hopes and thoughts they fade away And we just see closed gates, So slay the lies, dig up the truth Someday you shall find, your forgotten fate…


Details | Rhyme | |

Us

It should be me 
Plus you
Me and you
Only us
Together
But you will never love me
You will talk to me
You will hug me
But we can never be
Cant you see
You love someone else
Not me but
I love you
Us two
Together as one
In the midnight sun
Would be perfect
Maybe one day you’ll select
Me as the one
To love,
Cherish,
And hold
Not now
But only if it was.


Details | Free verse | |

My last hour

"You have only one hour to live, what would you do?"
a popular question among kids.
Most say sky diving or going to the moon
but be practical
you can't do that in one hour, plus you would have to pay...
"I would spend time with my best friends and family."
A bunch of people say that too.
But i would, i would also do something else though.
And if I do, we better die, or I will die of embarrassment.
Guess?
You see it in movies a lot, then they don't die and the person is completely embarrassed.
DING!
You guessed it.
I would confess my love for the love of my life.
My time with him was the happiest I've ever been.
I was doing everything right.
My grades were up, I got in no trouble at all.
But then we split up.
I still love him. 
So, my plan is, I would say it, kiss him, then run away as fast as I could.
You have only an hour to live, what would you do?
C'mon, you are wasting time!!


Details | Free verse | |

Love's Lies






Like a warm knife through the butter of the soul, 
The insect that scratches the ear drums as we watch love's lies lay eggs of waste
Till they're in the mouth of your mirror's reflection of fear
least someone should lie themselves into a care of this placebo of lust.
 Till eyes turn against nature to the arid desert of exhaust
the emotional orgy to the mental climax of the unreal.
Descriptions of the void so vivid stirs a chuckle refusing to be hydrated with tears
Cynical text mid composition stirs the stomachs dragons....sighs
O how love's lies have caught us.


Details | Rhyme | |

I Take

Your Death,
Your Cries,
Your screams of Pain,
All of which are all in Vain,
Your life i take,
To end my Pain


Details | Rhyme | |

The broken fairytale

Once upon a time there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
So true was such their love,
There wasn't anyone who disapproved.
 
It had been love at first sight,
A fairy tale since that day.
The maiden had found the man of her dreams,
No one else needed to have a say.
 
They had done it all,
Candlelight dinners, shyly holding hands,
Kissing in the rain, dancing around trees,
Leaving intertwined footprints on white sands.
 
But it wasn't just another love story,
It was uniquely special like every other one.
They had eyes for no other but one another,
The best part of their lives had just begun.
 
They traveled around the world,
And she kissed her man at the seven wonders each.
People would smile at the storybook couple,
As they counted stars standing on a beach.
 
With her, he was the man he wished to be,
The one who wouldn't think twice,
About pulling her up to dance in a crowded train,
He'd protect her, keep her happy at any price.
 
He'd see through her weak smile,
All the way to the tears inside,
He'd whisper sweet things in her ear,
Hold her till all the tears dried.
 
Though they did have a fair share of problems,
They always came together again,
No matter what happened,
Like raindrops on a window pane.
 
On a rainy day, she had sat waiting,
Wondering about the surprise he had promised,
But he never came,
For the winds of fate had suddenly changed. 
 
Five years after that day, she found herself alone,
Sitting on the porch, counting stars on her own,
As she recalled the day he had been taken from her,
'An unfortunate accident' on the next the papers had shown.
 
She hadn't cried on the phone, she hadn't cried on the way,
She didn't even cry when she had to identify him,
Not a single tear or a heartrending sob.
She just stared ahead with an expression so grim.
 
It was only when she had received his belongings,
The remnants of his last minutes, did she react.
She screamt and cried, laughed and wailed,
For among others, was a diamond ring beautifully packed.
 
His surprise, the laughter in his voice,
The excitement, the secrecy of the evening.
He had been right, it had left her breathless,
But he wasn't there to see the sorrow it did bring.
 
Even now her eyes brimmed with tears,
As she looked at the ring as it sparkled,
And thought of that time when there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | Lyric | |

I have

I have gotten used to
coming home to be alone
I have gotten used to 
not questioning where you go
and I have gotten used to 
a short call to say hello
but I have not gotten used to 
the way my heart feels ohh so low

I have leaned to be okay 
with talking only briefly
our schedules don't match up at all
but someday you will see me
I have learned you never come
when you say you will
and I have learned not to expect 
the actions said by you

I would like to be taken out
just once in a blue moon
I don't ask for much you see
just to be with you
I would like to lay one night 
knowing you won't have to leave 
I would like to wake up to 
you sleeping next to me.

But no, you can't
not right now
maybe in a year
should I wait when my heart breaks?
every day I feel the tears
I am lonely and in love
with someone who loves me
or so I think, 
but where oh where is he?


Details | Narrative | |

The Sea Blue Eyes II

There she is the false image standing quietly
She is just standing looking at a beautiful flower
She notices her passion of earthy desire
Something is happening she burst into the sun
I look up as her hands grasp my face
Her sea blue eyes gazed at me
Her warm hand and then a bright light blinded me
I went down on my knees and cried
The salty water dropped on to the ground 
I live by the ocean so deep
I do not know how to swim
By the thought of a beautiful look 
That made me shake
With fear in my head I saw those Sea Blue Eyes
I cannot restrain myself she burst into the sun
What is going on is it just the feeling of being left behind
She was a desire and now I have none
Driving nuts and insane what will I do
Believing such a image is a dream
I walk on the sand by the ocean with flowers in my hand
Raising it to the sky and trying my best to lure her
The image came close 
It pulled me into the ocean I was soaked
What a lonely human being I am
I grope the sky with such desire
I look pitiful and look anguished
What horrible feeling I have to pull the beauty that is nature down
The wind blew one day the image once more appeared
A young woman standing beside a flower with deep Sea Blue Eyes
Looked at me a glance of hope and happiness came
I reached for her and all of a sudden I fell into a deep sleep
Months past they had told me that I jump off a cliff 
They explained that the flower patch was by it
I realize heaven and earth cannot be reached with out a sacrifice
With meaningless thoughts I would wonder of to the cliff area
To see the ocean were it meets and ends
I was told a story long ago that the feelings of the ocean can seep into your soul
The trend of this story came shortly after some deaths
I was fooled the lady with the Sea Blue Eyes can manipulate anyone
Ladies and men, she is an illusion of the utmost desire
Blaming everyone human kind knowing they are lyres
The ghostly images that creeps everyone is oneself
Desire falls upon those who are lonely 
Believe of the unnatural becomes science
The Sea Blue Eyes is no lie cause they have been taking souls
Through century they have been taking souls for tolls
I stood once again near the ocean reaching to the sky
Lonely I was ready to disappear 
One day she not the lady of the sea it was the one I knew
I was blessed that day she embrace me 
I then fell into a slumber of bliss and desire
Now I just hear voices and I am paralyze down
A disappointment I was fooled once more by the Sea Blue Eyes 

To be continue.


Details | Free verse | |

I Will Miss You So

When you go. 
I cannot follow you. 
When you go. 
You will take a piece of me with you, and we will make do. 
When you go. 
I will treat memories as though they were gold. 
Precious and pristine, private and all mine to behold. 
When you go. 
For your presence I will burn. 
I surely won't survive, unless you promise to return. 
When you go. 
Just vow you will not leave me on my own. 
I cannot be fed off of memories alone. 
When you go. 
Know that while you are gone. 
I will miss you so.


Details | I do not know? | |

My bisexuality

If it wasn't you, would I have to hide it?
If it wasn't "wrong", would you try to fight it?
Would it change anything on your part?
Would you give me a deeper look?
It drives me slowly crazy,
My eyes always needing to look your way
Just because its not the "normal" way,
I'm afraid of you turning away. 
Would I still get wrapped up in your eyes?
If I was allowed to really look?
Would these stolen glances lose their touch?
Would I lose these feelings of forbidden lust?
Would I ever regret it?
If i ever tried to forget it?


Details | Sonnet | |

Disenchanted

I was blinded to the autonomy
   Of the actions committed in the time
Moonfall hesitated, and did not see
   Malice in the eyes that were naught to be mine.
The crescent curves of a smile's sliver;
   Indecision of skin, rancid and smooth;
Plush sentences congeal as I quiver;
   Thoughts so careless, teeth dripping wir'y sooth.
My sight could not pierce nightfall-scathingly
   Battened down were my mind and eyes, depraved
by sour medicine dreams filling me,
   Unwillingly, with satire not staved.
The birr which I painted your portrait with
Disenchanted my world, a cause for death.




Details | Rhyme | |

anti-v day

love is dead,
and come undone,
people steal hearts,
just for fun,
rip them out,
and let them bleed,
no more tears,
there is no need,
for a day,
to sit and cry,
for the lost love,
we all let die.

happy valentines day. bwahahahahaha


Details | Ballad | |

Bits and Pieces

They are scattered around. Everywhere.
Don't try to gather them. Let them stay.
The pieces of my heart. Scattered, uncared.
 
I have traveled a million miles. Too many places.
I have been in love. And seen too many faces.
Everytime, I find a home, I know  I need to leave
And my heart breaks into a million pieces.
 
And those pieces are left behind, 
In those places that I have walked, 
With those moments, where I laughed with you. 
And with those strangers I fell in love with.
 
And I wonder how amazing it would be, 
If each of those pieces could experience and absorb life
In its sweetness and rage, in its bitterness and pain
With each of you, who I met and left, on this road!
If each could tell me, how you've been doing
How the sea shore looks like on the other side of the world
How the city, the road I walked, feels like now that it's raining?
 
Bits and pieces of my heart
Stay scattered around, uncared
Stay with each of you
While you move on.


Details | I do not know? | |

She

She.

She,
remains just out of focus,
an elusive portrait,

etched in the corner of the mind's eye.

she,
sometimes strays into view,
a blurred mirage,
of burnished words cast in indelible dye.

she,
steals fragments of each day,
a welcome thief,
of emotions left in some dusty space.

she,
scatters my poems in the breeze,
an invited spell,
that vanishes into the wind without a trace.

she,
renders me mute and so often blind,
the wild dreamer,
a seeder of impossible thoughts in the mind.

she,
brings the elements of nature to me,
a gentle healer,
she unfolds my thoughts setting them free.

she,
comes and goes as she chooses,
an untamed spirit,
soothing the very place that she bruises.

she,
rouses me in nights of empty slumber,
a murmured breath,
brushing my cheeks with kisses too many to number.

she,
remains to me the enigmatic one,
a burning riddle,
yet she stays with me as each torturous day is done.

she,
my heart knows not why she stays,
my consistent constant,
filling up my nights and consoling my days.

she,
deserves so much more from fate,
the truest soul,
she loves too much and knows not how to hate.

she,
arrives again tonight as I lie awake,
a thoughtful shield,
my coat of armour in a world far too fake.

she,
stays with me and within me stays still,
the true one,
and to dwell deep in my soul is where she always will.

she,
from whose cup I have so greedily drank,
a giver of life,
I have not the words with which to her wholly thank.

she,
knows how desolate a world this can be,
my sustainer of hope,
and of life and of breath is what she will always be.


Details | Free verse | |

Diary Of Lost Love Part 3, Dedicated to a Lady

She finally tore down what we built
like rolling stones got our hearts
tripping over the hill.
Like a mountain
we finally reached the mountain peak.
Our love fountain
ran out of water
so I never stop to take a drink.
A deep emotion
going through my body
beating on my heart.
A deep emotion
telling me that the rapid beats
will never stop.
I kissed her lips
I kissed her cheeks
and told her the lovely truth.
I rubbed her back
massaged her feet
and told her that I'm forever loving you.
She looked away and walked away
like she never cared.
I chased her left and chased her right
throughout the years.
I caught up to her and finally
grabbed her hand.
Baby girl loving you is my only mission
and my only plan.
So love me kind and love me dearly.
Save me the last dance.
So love me kind and love me yearly
all over again.
They say your ex
is an example of what you don't deserve.
Well my ex I truly loved her
but somehow I found a way
to love to hurt her.
Baby girl I don't deserve ya
I know it's hard but I'm not perfect.
I know you love me
am I worth it?
The pain is unkind
but my heart is burning
and I'm yearning for your love.


Details | Senryu | |

NEWSFLASH: Charmer in Jail

charmed four wives--same time;
loved each 'til  her cash dried up--
charmer in jail now


Details | Free verse | |

Love Part 1

So sweetly apathetic
You lie asleep
While I'm still crying in the next room
You haven't seen me in days
But I'm still here
I'll never leave, love

You wake so suddenly
It touches you again
The cold where I used to be
Someplace deep inside
A place we used to call home
But we burned it down
And it's out of our hands, love

Bitter words and angry hands
Crushes the hearts still gasping for love
But you still haven't seen me
Weeks now, it's been
I'd give anything to take it away
I'm so sorry, love

All I am, all I used to be
It can be yours
If you'd just let me die for you
I'm aching, you're my only purpose
My last proposal, my final sacrifice
Please, forgive me, love
I've been gone for so long
While you were only in the next room
But here I am, now, my precious
All that I am, all I'll ever be
Is yours
Just say I'm the one
The last you'll need, you'll want
The final chapter, the last step
Please, just tell me how much you love me

I'd fall to my knees and beg you to take me
If I thought you'd see me
I'd give anything and take everything
I'm your martyr, love
Give myself to the fire
If I thought it'd keep you warm
Please, see me
Please, discover I'm the only one
A desperate nothing without you
An empty shell without my heart
And it still hangs around your neck, my love

Apathetic empathy
So bitter-sweet to my ears
To hear you say you love me
No louder than an inaudible whisper
My screaming falls out into limbo
Wear the ring, take my soul
It's all to make you smile
Your happiness would be too much to ask
I'd settle for a glance
Just a notion, my one

I'm growing weak, I'm burning slowly
A million miles away, still you bring me closer to yesterday
I adore you
I haunt you
I'm the breath on your neck
As you try to fall asleep
You're my obsession
My only passion
My heaven and perdition
Oh, my love
If you could only see
If you would only hear
How I long for you to love me

If I had only known
If I could have only seen
My God! If only I could take it back
I wouldn't be here
Existing merely as the ghost of your memories

Trapped in pages
Never to reach the climax
Hear the end, find the revelation
You're my purgatory
I'd sell my soul
If I could only get it back from you
Just say yes
Say I'm real
Just turn a little more
Please, see me
Please, see me!


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Never Mine

Walking through your door not knowing how to tell you everything I feel.
You've always been someone else’s; never mine.
I didn't care that you didn't feel the same way. 
You never saw how I looked at you.
You never noticed that I cared.
Now it's my turn to tell you how I feel.
You've been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.
I think it's time you knew why I put up with you for so long.
You've changed the way I look at things and it is fine.
But, you've always been someone else’s; never mine.
When I look at you and see a smile,
Even though I know you're thinking of someone else,
I can't help but smile.
I've loved you since the beginning.
Since that moment I first laid eyes on you. 
I felt something for you.
But, you've always been someone else’s; never mine.
I've never been able to tell you how I feel.
But finally, I have my chance.
I've never been able to get over you.
If you don't care what I say then I'll know
You'll always be someone else’s; never mine.


Details | I do not know? | |

First Page Of My Untitled Story

** Summary: A high school boy finds happiness and love in a small, dreary town. Just when it seems like life can't get any better, he discovers that his new love interest may not be telling him everything about herself. As each of her secrets are unveiled, Destery finds himself in a difficult situation that he might not be able to pull himself out of. **

One:

It all started on a bleak, dreary Monday as the hearse slowly made it's way down Weeping Willow Street. Cautiously, it came to a stop in front of Melancholy High. Yes, the school looks exactly as it sounds- Sad. With it's old, deteriorating brick walls and splintery wood desks, MHS looks to be the king of all things pitiful. But as Destery Maddox climbed out of that God-awful car he spotted the one thing that made every guy's time there a little more bearable- Juliette Anderson. She was a dream with long, silky black hair and ice blue eyes that seemed as though they could see straight to your heart. For as long as he could remember, Destery had longed to caress her porcelain-like skin and to feel those soft, rose colored lips against his. Just one glimpse of that girl was enough to make his heart ache like no other. Followed by a heavy sigh, Des started up the crumbling front staircase. Just as he reached the door handle a delicate, almost transparent hand brushed against his. Mesmerized, his gaze ran from that hand up to the smiling face of none other than Juliette. "Hello.", She greeted him. "H-Hi", Des stammered back. Something strange was happening to him. His mouth became dry, Sweat soaked his palms and for not being a man of many words..He was truly at a loss. It was official- His heart was captured. And nothing could break the strong spell of love that was unknowingly cast upon him by that black-haired beauty. Or so it seemed.


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Onbemind

Toe dit als eindig
Daar was nêrens om te 
gaan
Ek het myself versteek
Gehoop iemand sal my 
kry
Die dag het nooit gekom

Soos tyd verloop het die 
pyn verdwyn
Ek dog die herinneringe 
was finaal weg
Ek was verkeerd
Die keer is daar nie uit 
kom kans
Uit die deur aan die einde 
van die oorlog binne my 
gees
Daar is geen aan beweeg 
van waar ons op gehou 
het
Daar is geen toekoms vir 
ons

Ek het so baie van binne 
gesterf
Ek het die pyn anvaar
Ek sal nie terug kyk nie
Ek sal nooit
Jy weet nie
Jy gee nie om nie
Jy sal nooit besef

Al wat ek weet van liefde 
is pyn
Die persoon wat jy eens 
was
Is dood en verot
Ek lewe met 'n mes in my 
hart
'n Herinnering van wat ek 
nie kan wees
Daar is niks wat jy kan 
doen

Jy besef nie
Jy ag nie
Jy was nooit deel van my 
lewe
Jy sal nooit wees nie

Ek was gebore sonder 
liefde
Onbemind


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Other Side of the Riverbed

On the silent riverbed, she stood
Where the softer wind had blown
Against the ground, she glistered star's light 
And eclipsed nature's splendor grown

Yet beauty tempted not my interest
Though her allure gleams upon thrones
But a sorrowful sound out her breath
Revealed a sorrow unknown

With the edge of elegy, she sung
A celestial kiss of tone
Heard angelic gentle melodies
And had my bleeding heart sewn

A mortal, mortally mesmerized
My reality away thrown
In fanciful fret, fraud my own heart
To lust for a heart of stone  

Was she a more perfect life than He
So to have been disowned?
Belle of heaven, curse my tenderness
But let me join in atone

In that frigid callousness of night
Her divine shine has shown
That the saddest thing for an angel  
Is for her to shine alone


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I Implore You

I.
 Spare me from your pity,
show me no love.
Burn me in hatred,
render me helpless.

II.
 Refrain from giving me hope,
that you reciprocate my devotion.
I`d rather you scorn me,
than mercilessly deceive me.

III.
 Please don`t leave me wondering,
don`t tease me with that sweet smile.
Embrace me not if it`s all just a lie.
Don`t drive me further into insanity than you already have.


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Dancers

The world is slowly turning
We're all danncers
The song is full of depth
Drenching us in meaning
I watch you as you dance
In the arms of the moon
How unaware of me you are
I'm a long faded dream
Or perhaps a nightmare
That you've forgotten
My heart is clinching
My emotions are spinning
The song fills my ears
Your voice fills my heart
We're dancing so close
And yet we're so far apart
Separated by two realities
You no longer exist in mine
And I no longer exist in yours
The rose bears corrupt thorns
Stabbing me in the heart
In the middle of the dance floor
I slowly fall to my knees
At the end of it all
You're the only one who could
Bring me back to life
At the end of it all
You're the only one who could
End the life devoted to you
The world is slowly turning
We're all dancers
The song is full of depth
Drenching us in meaning
I watch as you slowly fade
Into the arms of the moon
The music comes to an end
And I'm dying all alone


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If I'm Ever So Lucky

I would love nothing more than to be hers
with a smile that fractures my sanity
i question the need of all medication
when after all she is my cure
and doctors are baffeled by incontrovertible indubitable proof
that my heart beats in morse code
to spell ouut, her name
Thump thump.. thump thump.. thump.... flatline
Now my abused heart can take a break
lashed with whips, it shrivled in fear
too scared to seek the love it dreamed to meet
now without a beat i live
Because, shes has given me a new reason to live
and taken by the wind, i swept her off her feet
and told her that I will walk upon the this broken glass,
for us
take your time, for love is never planned
So I'll be here holding you if and
when you make the decision to stand
i will let you go
but if i am ever so lucky to have you whole
i promise to never to let you go
And make you All-Mines


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Feral Conglomerate

Feral Conglomerate The love i never knew But always wanted For so long i hunted And once it was clear in view It wasn't worth the bullet It wasn't who's desire, what it was Setting seas a-fire, butt because The beauty was little more than makeup deep The mascara and fake smile were cheap The waves crashing down left a trail black and brown But your unsinking smile saved your skin To let you burn the seas again It wasn't the perfection, or the pure Nor solely the inflection of allure Or the allusion of a life gone by Not acknowledging the tear in my eye That's falling for my youth Let down by the truth The love i always knew But never wanted Til i was out of view Came back to be confronted It wasn't the right place It wasn't the right time It never was


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Controlled Space

Floating sounds in perfect pitch
Your words, they make me lust.
Secret thoughts I often conjure,
I try to calm my greed.

I want to taste your ecstasy 
And hold it on my tongue.
Your presence is engulfing me,
My body is going numb.

But in a room of plenty,
I imagine we’re alone.
No distractions to disturb you,
Just our bodies intertwined.

But in the sad reality,
You stand with manly grit.
I watch you in your controlled space,
And we listen to you teach.

But when our hour is over,
And I’m forced to part ways.
I do not stop to wallow,
Because tomorrow awaits.


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Skein

I think of you. 

	 You’re like a backbeat in my mind.

I wish I could mind

but I don’t.

I’ve long accepted my subservience 
to this 
elusive skein 
of a dream.


Now all I must do 
is 

wait…


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Shall It Be Today

Shall it be today? 
Amongst a crowd I love, yet hardly know,
Shall you enter my solitary gate? 
Or will I sigh with sinking heart and soul,
Knowing you hold the key,
But have never known it. . .

Tell me one thing - shall it be today? 
Will I lift my head to see you there, 
With sparkling eye and beaming face,
Like long ago, when oblivion surrounded me,
And forced open my gates for my own good,
Fusing two different minds together

I ask yet again - shall it be today?
Patience for years has brought me more than tears,
For well I know you will be away once more,
And the chance for your sunshine flees fast,
Making way for clouds of suspended gloom -
Reminding me once more, nothing we speak,
-Though we are in the same room! 

Shall it be today!
My love, my friend, my light!
Most pass my entrance with averted eye,
Yet somehow I feel you lingering by. . .
At a distance still, I feel you move closer
As tomorrow grows ever bolder

Be today, 
be my rock that I cling to
See my hand reach for you, and take it
I will whisper what you have always known. . .
And you will know where His hand has shown
Agape love forever in present's grasp

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Agape - greek term; the highest of the four types of love in the Bible ;  - sacrificial love that is unconditional


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Diary Of Lost Love Part 2, Dedicated to a Lady

She act like she cares
but she doesn't care at all
love is something she fears
but what is she fearing for....?
She said that she loves me
but that was all a lie.
If you truly loved me
then you would look me in my eyes.
I'm not a fallen angel
or a devil in disguise.
I'm nothing like the temperature
but I want our love to rise.
Our love was so hot
but now it's feeling cold
they called us Adam and Eve
but now were the Princess and the Toad.
Baby girl your so beautiful
I never ever lied.
Baby girl your so wonderful
I love that sparkle in your eyes
but when you left me
the pain corrupted my mind
but when you left me
I wanted to rewind time
to go back and love you
one last time.


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Masked Man

Your name like arsenic burning my throat
A slow death, thinking of you, will bring to me
Your words so sincere, sugar coated placebo
What was it? A change in mind? A change in heart? Or your mischevious ways.
You wear a mask
An emotional blanket used to keep your prey warm before you rip them open and 
feed on there heart.
Staring into your eyes i felt warm, wanted
A fog in your gaze makes everything unclear
your voice soft and alluring, reassuring.
your smile comforting
my eye site is blurring
your silent poison is taking control
The smoke of your words lingure my mind
A big jumble of sweet lies
Im addicted and im not the only one
you feed off the attention you look for
Your like a dark fog that takes the form of a white angel
Whinding me threw the unknown grounds of my imagination
a quite twisting path in the land of love and sourenity
but under every wanted happyness lies a dark secret
The ground we walk is truely dead grass, dead emotion, and dead people
Tombstones row by row
Your just leading me to the 6 foot hole youve been draining my heart into


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Crumbs of Deception

...A poem dedicated to a character named Koreen Mae Garson (a lady, not a man)... 

Your love smokes me like a worn-out cigarette Your love blemishes me with bite marks You brush aside the crumbs…now I’m stomped on all over again Your hugs are constricting like a serpent Your hugs loses its passion…my fury vigorously sparks You abandon me cold-bloodedly, now I choke in harsh punishment Your treachery strangles me…you don't consider my screams of importance You snatch away my humility and leave me with the crumbs of shame Your arrogance plants a grave in me…you don't notice that I desire your radiance You ditch me with senseless remarks and you make me feel game You ruin my modesty You stole away my heart’s virtue You bruise my sustaining dynasty You complete me with rue Your conceitedness intoxicates me… Your arrogance underwhelm thee… You unscramble my remains and insert me with the liquid of corruption Your self-confidence leads me to never-ending fate…you disregard my joy You handle me with maltreatment/enchantment and smudge me with your provoking expression You crushed me with your cunning plans, now you made me hunt after my prized boy Your hatred penetrates me with lush, crooked trace You swap me onto the floor, now I’m smashed into smithereens Your smiles lose its splendor...your enlightenment gains disgrace You disown me carelessly…now I spilled your moldering beans You’re imprisoned by the chains of infuriating heat, Feeding off the crumbs of deception


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tear my heart out and eat it

what are theese thoughts,
i cant let go,
that you are so,
much more than you know,
and here i stand,
can not move,
as if what youve done,
doesnt prove,
that i should turn,
and run away,
for you dont want,
me to stay...


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Falling

~ Falling ~

I was a little girl with so many dreams
Even through the worst of times
I kept my chin up and let 
My dreams keep me alive 
I was okay 
Until my dreams got crushed
And my worst fear came true 

~ Falling ~

With no dreams to lean on 
As I started to go throw the changes 
I was a teenager 
With a huge chip on my shoulder
If you weren’t with me you were against me 
I had many friends 
Yet most of them were superficial 
I never let anyone get too close. 
I was too afraid of 
~ Falling ~

As the years went by I slowly came into my own
I became a woman 
With many scars hidden inside 
Yet it seemed like one word shined brightly on my head
SUCKER
As so many times I thought I had found that one 
Someone only to find out 
That they weren’t that person I wanted them to be 
They were only taking advantage of me 
I didn’t understand why 
I seemed to keep 

~ Falling ~

Finally I moved back closer to home
I found an apartment and made it my home
I was doing well on my own 
Then I met You
First we were friends 
For three years our friendship grew and grew 
Then we both admitted 
The feelings we had for one another were 
Way more than friends 
So we began to date 
Then a few short months later we moved in together
And before we knew it 
Our wedding was here 
I started to feel secure 
I was starting to get over my fear of 

~ Falling ~

Then boom the bomb dropped and I caught 
A glimpse of someone I never knew you to be 
While you never raised a hand at me 
You never did anything to hurt me physically 
It’s your words though 
That cut right through me 
And it became apparent that we were never meant to be
More than friends 
Looking back I can see so many signs 
That before I couldn’t see 
And if I had known then what I know now 
I would never have begged you to stay 
The first time you wanted to walk out that door. 
Now you are gone and here I am 
Moving on 
At first I didn’t think I could 
I thought my world was ending 
I couldn’t see that a new chapter in my life was just 
Beginning
And while I will always love you 
That love has changed 
It is not as deep anymore 
As I am 

~ Falling ~

Out of love with you

By: Jean Shular 


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Weep Not Too Long

Love has grandeur and finesse. Sometimes greater, sometimes for less, Weep only for a short while. Move on with harmonies style. When your eyes have tearful drape, New passion shall always escape. Recall the memories that are deep. Gallop ahead, for not long shall you weep.


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Crush and Crushed

In the beginining,
There was a girl.
She was on a rollar coaster.
She saw her crush.
He ignored her.
He thought she was annoying.
He thought she was petiful.
Little did he know,
She would die that day.
Here's her story.

---------------------------------------------------------------

Little, little girl,
No cares in the world.
Bruises on her face,
Crazy on her trace.

Little, little girl,
Little, little crush.
Little, little love,
Little, little to much.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Little, big circle coming up,
She was on bottom the cart on top.
Watching the cart fallin',
He didn't know she was calling,
His name.

Heaven reached to her,
But she kept herself on earth,
Until she could see him again.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Tell him, tell him how you feel,
Little did you know it would feel so real.
Now that she was dead he started thinkin',
Was she crazy or was she worth loving?

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Now she's going to heaven,
So many things she hasn't done.
She sees the door and,
Remembers her amore.

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Later that night,
After he saw her die,
He commited suicide.
His parents found a note from him.
"I saw her die,
 I love her,
 I am going to be with her.
 I'm sorry"
He didn't go to heaven,
Neither did she,
They are both stuck in limbo,
At least they have each other.


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Why Did You Let Me Go

Why did you let me go my superhuman cutey....?
I'm blind of your intelligence
so why did you let me go...?

I believe that you were my girl
so you had to know that i was your man
and this song, this song is my plan.
I'm hoping that you understand
that i placed my heart in your hands.

As my blood leaked away 
your love faded away.
so im force to say
Why did you let me go?
Why did you?


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Hopeful Waiting

An adolescent living his life day by day
Who had once gotten into a fray
Tries to find his soul mate
As his life piles up with unwanted hate

He is searching and waiting
While life is using him as baiting
Life have attached him to a hook
For he was mistook as a crook

He  once found the love of his life
And wished for her to become his wife
But she mistreated him like he was a crook
Forcing him to live in a nook

The girl betrayed him and left him all alone
Leaving him on the ground in a prone
Sometimes he curls up and wept
Because the girl's promises were never kept

After a while he pulled himself together and stood up
He slowly live life day by day and bought himself a pup
The pup lasted for a day until he was returned
Which caused his heart to be burned
After that event he went around searching
He searched here and there while lurching
Hoping to find that girl that he love
Like someone who is missing their other glove

Soon enough his love found him
But she left him back into a grim
She wanted to be free
And soon enough she wants to flee

He forgave her for her betrayal
Causing him to be a portrayal
He decides to change for her
Like the kind heart Gir

And now he waits all alone for her
Seems like he was being a chauffeur
While she plays her game and live her life
And now he seems like he was a wife

His soul mate is like the boy playing games
As his hatred boils up in flames
But he remains true to her since he loves her
Because he believes their love will recur


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Blood of a liar, mark of a thief

You took it all
(I held my breath)
You screamed my name
(as you fell to your death)
The crowed gathered round
but I stood tall
with your body laying so broken
you've never looked so small

The rain started pouring down
(oh how I smiled)
There were sirens in the distance
(only a half a mile)
Down below the screaming sounds
I can't hear a thing
everyone's gaze is upon me
waiting for the once caged bird to sing

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

The rain washes away the evidence
(the blood, sweat, and tears)
But rain can't wash away everythng
(no, not everything)
not the pain suffered through the years

Your words were so sweet
who was I to judge
I fell for your parlor tricks
over the edge with one small nudge
Such a beautiful disguise you wore
silly little me
I fell into your web of lies
far too young to ever see

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

You could have been mine
(does it hurt now, hush, be quiet now)
You sold your soul for a good time
(does it hurt now, hush, don't speak now)
Did you think I'd never know?
(does it hurt now, does it hurt now)
Now you must reap the crop you've sewn

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

(Liar)
You had such a pretty little plan
(Thief)
Carried out by such a careless little man


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Forgotten Bud Of Love


We started like most new lovers do on a journey of passion
Me...hoping it would last forever never dreaming it might end
Making love with one another was magical, blissful
Strong, yet sweet with tenderness
Such ecstasy and passion we shared, like none I'd ever known 

Romance novels didn't compare to our story 
You said I was your goddess, your life's blood...
So right, we were, we seemed to be so in sync
Our hearts beat as one in a passionate syncopated tune
I remember how we fit so perfectly - like two puzzle pieces 

We met at an intimate café in Madera, a small quaint city in Italy
I was lazily sipping chinoto and eating pizza napolentana 
I was so happy and excited - it was my first time abroad 
You, on the other hand...had lived there all your life
A true Italian uomo, 'un uomo molto interessante"
which means, "He was a very interesting man" 

I looked up and there you were- sitting at a small table across the room 
Your gaze met mine as we smiled simultaneously at one another... 
We left together 

I was feeling quite lightheaded from it all
To my surprise, you took me to meet your relations
a group of robust, happy, family members, gathered together for a partito- which is Italian for party
It was kisses and flowers- we fell in love...so I thought
But I was wrong, something happened 

Then suddenly...
You were gone - into the arms of another
leaving me with a sad, forgotten bud of love, of you and me
And... 
wishing you were standing where you used to be 


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Colder

The words cut through the air and soon it is over, all over
Her hands slip from his, like one last raindrop sliding off a leaf
The smell of candles waft from behind him, and he turns away as she leaves
The romantic dinner sits on the table, cold, and lonesome with two empty chairs
As he turns back to where she once was standing
He sees only a flash of car lights as she drives away for the last time
Somehow it seems so surreal, the room is silent and still; after all these years
All the years spent with her cheerful voice and playful laugh surrounding him
Now all he can hear is the soft humming of the refrigerator in the background
While the candles burn down and the dinner grows ever colder

A half-hour has passed and yet he stands his ground
The longer he waits the harder his heart starts to pound
Tears cover his cheeks as he falls to his knees
Without a word or a sound he covers his face and weeps
And all the while the candles have burnt out and the food could be no colder


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About Last Night - New Year's Eve Remorse

About last night...

I just wanted to write and tell you
That last night was a big mistake
I'd had way too much to drink
I was tired and it was getting late.

I wasn't thinking clearly
I wasn't thinking the way I normally do
I let my emotions get the best of me
I let you tell me things that were not true.
I was influenced by the moment
I did things that I now wish I didn't do.

When we first met last night
I could see clearly see what was on your mind.
I could see clearly read your twisted intent
I could easily read the lust that was in your eyes.

And it had nothing to do with 'Forevers"
'I do's', White Dresses or White Weddings
Long term commitments of any kind.
It all had to do with you pleasing yourself
Executing what was on your mind.

And so I let you woo me
I let you stay with me for a while
You had a sort of amusement
You had a captivating smile.

When we danced all night
I let you hold me close
I closed my eyes and pretended
That we were in love
I let myself be in a different place
I place where I was loved.

Last night's drinking led to dancing
And then dancing led to our first kiss
And then kisses led to other things
Things I engaged in
But now in hindsight
With some remiss.

And so I just wanted to tell you
If it had been in another time or place
I would never have given you the time of day
You never would have kissed my smiling face.

And so I feel that I need to tell you
On this first day of the first of the year
That I never ever want to see you again
In spite of last night's cheer.

You just happened to be there
When I needed someone to engage 
With a comforting smile
You were a mild amusement
You kept me company for a while.

And so that's about all I needed to tell you
About what happened late last night
I just wanted to write you a formal goodbye
And tell you what was on my mind
I thought that I would send it to you
And do what I thought was right.

*A Hypothetical Reflection on a New Year's Eve Tryst

(January 1,  2011 Wausau, Wisconsin)

(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved



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When You Cry

When you cry
just know that i cry to
and when you hurt
just know that i am here for you....

Your voice is the key to my heart
and no matter what i say we will never be apart

When you cry
i can feel the pain within my heart
and in the end can you tell me where to start...
Baby please
dont you ever leave me
and i can tell you now
how much i really wanna be.

When you cry
When you cry
i can see the tears within your eyes


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Leave

I hear the words
that would've suited his tongue well
happy and rasping
grasping and gaping
as the cold is taking
all that I had
and all that I will
 
I just want the sun
I just want myself back
right, asleep
not so sad, not so sorry
 
My baby love
my untouched lips
wrapped in ambition
of the tries and the heart ache
that took me like 
the cold does now
It was so much nicer
than what I see
 
Take it all away
I don't want it anymore
Don't touch me, don't see me
understand me 
and these tears
all my fear
This, here
In a year I aged fast
 
 and I want it back.


Details | Romanticism | |

True Love

He broke my heart today.
 
Today is the day he let me walk away.
 
What else is there to say?
 
He put our love to rest this day.
 
I offered him my trust, he threw it away.
 
It hurts me to know it has to end this way.
 
I fell for him at the drop of a dime.
 
I found myself fond of him in so little time.
 
Thought he was the one I had been waiting for.
 
My professions of love he would always ignore.
 
From me, he only wanted friendship and sadly nothing more.
 
It killed me to know this, for ‘tis him I adore.
 
This pang in my chest it has grown terribly sore.
 
How could he pain me, the love I long for?
 
Each night I lay awake with a heavy sigh.
 
Fight it as much as I might, eventually it is lonely tears that I cry.
 
Lord sometimes I swear it makes me want to die.
 
Wish someone could tell me why, it’s become so hard to say goodbye.
 
I’m not the one he wants, and I don’t know why.
 
I want so badly to make him see, with me is where he’s supposed to be.
 
How can anyone be so blind?
 
His rejection has tied my heart in a bind.
 
True love has never been this hard to find.


Details | Free verse | |

Silence

I said
"I love you."
And I stood there.
You spoke not a word
Just stopped there in shock
And I watched you
Waiting
For a reaction of sorts
What would I get?
Anger?
Sorrow?
Love in return?
You spoke not a word
But your silence spoke volumes.
I turned to hide the tear
Rolling down my cheek
I was a fool,
I'm sorry I wasted your time,
I'll go now.
Don't worry,
Don't say a thing now,
Your silence spoke for you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Between Love & Hate

As the world falls down my heart gives in.
I can't take the fighting, the tension, the pain.
We go around in circles about the same thing, over and over.
I wish we could just make it stop.
Make the pain of a pointless cause go away.
It's like a kitten caught out in the rain.
Waiting for help and no one to save.
The words they flow out like a waterfall.
The blistering cold water stinging my skin.
I wince in pain but that's all there is.
With so much love how could hate be thrown in?


Details | Rhyme | |

My luck doesnt favor

Who will keep me cozy like a teapot
Who will adore even my beauty spot?

I feel so cool as if I am in arctic region
I need her so sternly in my every season.

Who will give me hope when I feel depressed?
Who will help me out when I am oppressed?

I make efforts so hard but my luck doesn’t favor
Now-a-days it seems we are two shores of a river!


Details | Narrative | |

Death and beyond

Hours transpired like every other day. Perched on the trees, sparrows chirped, keeping the dreadful silence at bay, and sunlight across the land, whipped. Laid there on the grassy lawn, was a lovely lass dressed in a corset. Smelling the blossoms like a fawn, enchanted was she by nature's best. Up the hill ran a hysterical lad, his face as white as a sheet, shattered her heart to more than just a shard, and made her swoon to her feet. Minutes rolled to hours, and hours to days, and there she sat like a stone. With her eyes so lifeless and cold, her once rosy lips now as dry as a bone. Draining her blood was her soul, turning her visage as of a ghoul. Neither did she eat, nor drink, as she stooped over life's brink. Deep down was an endless bottom, which her rotting psyche couldn't fathom. The day came when her eyes lit up, like a hopeless spark in a dark cavern. She let go and set her eyes on the stars afar, and said "I'll be there wherever you are".


Details | Free verse | |

Open My Eyes to Reality

I know you, you know me, me who knows we`ll never be.


Details | Verse | |

Forever Alone

I love you both
But I don't really
I wish I did
But I don't really

I miss you both
But I'm not being serious
I wish I did
But I'm not being serious

I don't mean these things
But I might someday
I don't want these things
But I might someday

I'm still waiting
Forever alone
For her, the perfect
Forever alone

I say a lot
And never mean it
I feel different today
And never mean it

She will come to me one day
I'm still hoping
She'll be who I need
I'm still hoping

My lovely fantasy
Please come true
Ms Wonderful be mine
Please come true.


Details | I do not know? | |

Missing part

Why is this so hard to say 
Isn't it another day
You are something I can't live without
In my mind and without a doubt
Everytime i see you my heart is pumped 
Everyday i feel all sunk

I think i've fallen, fallen in love
Dreams are flying like the morning dove
I see your face when i go to sleep 
Even though it wasn't meant to be
I really love you with all my heart 
It's like a movie with a missing part

As the sun rises all dreams will end
My thoughts of you will just begin
For your the picture i always see
Because it gets the best of me
The sun will set with you in my head
Cause it's taking my last breath


Details | Free verse | |

I Remember

I remember the days when we were in love.
I remember all the kisses and hugs.
I remember when our love was strong but now I feel that something's wrong.


You never call it's like you don't care.
Sometimes you treat me like I'm not there.
It's so unfair to do me this way.
I thought about leaving you but I force myself to stay.


I remember the things you use to say but you don't say them any more.
You once told me you loved me but now I can't be sure.
I'm beginning to think every thing you told me was just  meaningless words, ones of which I heard many times before.
I wonder are you worth fighting for?


What more can I do?
What more can I say?
But it does not matter you'll forget me anyway.
So forget me tomorrow remember me today.


Details | Free verse | |

The End

In my mind I see you
in my heart I feel you
through my voice I can hear you
but I know that you don't love me
and I know that you don't need me
so Ima leave you all alone girl
you don't want me in your world.
I hear you crying 
on the other side
your heart is dying
but it's full of pride.
I see you walking
but I never walk.
I hear you talking
but I never talk.
When I see you
you see me
you look left 
and I look right.
You take smaller steps
until I get behind ya.
I can tell that your looking at me
but I can never find ya.
Even though
were finished
I feel like your love
was still a mission
and I never want to abort it.
Your voice is the only voice
I love to hear in the morning.
The sun shines
and it shines on you.
The moon glows
and it glows on you.
My heart beats
but it beats for you.
I'm very quiet
because I only feel the need to 
speak
when I speak to you.
Baby I Loved You
Baby Ima Miss You
and if you cry
I'll be there to hand you every kind 
of tissue.


Details | Free verse | |

Fruitless Seeds.

It lies below under linen, feathers, cotton, springs.
Not seen upon it's sow.
A tiny pea without the sun to grow wild and free.
A slight discomfort gnaws away yet timing plays a role each day.
Finally the fruit bursts forth! with quiet whimpers, wears a frown of sorts.
The tiny speck is seen as thriving tree, it's branches reach far past reality
And tear away the margin of the page in which our vision of our world is caged.
Bending down I lift the pea and gaze at dried up skin
Tiny wrinkles create a viral path leading in.
But age is only culprit to be found
I bend again, relinquish my crown
The spoils are but few yet enjoy my hard learned apology and deep humility.
If only pea had been revealed before the mind of others made it old.


Details | Rhyme | |

To US

In my heart so deeply deprived Sad and unhappiness for two whole years (Seems like it started at the first house we arrived) My deepest and darkest most horrifying fears They are all coming alive And I most definitely have the strength to go on For all his emotions he's kept to hide Singing this repeating monotonous song Losing him --- I think for his side it's lost But the desire from both of us to fight Two wasted years, lies, hatred, betrayal it cost But working desperately through this since that night The tears welled in my green eyes As he told me he loved me no more I thought this whole time he was my dream prize Across the curves of his body my tears poured I pack my stuff sadly ready to go And he stops me --- for once he fights He says he loves me and that he knows To create this marriage a new trust I don't want it to end with my best friend For my heart, soul, and love belongs to him We share a son --- no regrets --- I'd do it all over again and again I sit here and write --- I love him 'til the very end I still get butterflies when I feel his lips against mine I still feel his deepest warmth from way deep within I never want to lose what we've created --- or him Our marriage and family I'll defend


Details | Free verse | |

Diary Of Lost Love Part 1,Dedicated To a Lady

Your heart can't even beat because it's swollen.
You can't even dream because the dream is over.
Your blood use to be warm until the love got colder.
You can't even smile because your smile is broken.
You can't even have fun because all the fun is over.
You can't even make love because your love was stolen.
Nobody ever calls you beautiful but girl you glowing
your always crying at night but no one ever noticed.
Your always wiping your tears but the pain is overflowing.
You always cover ya ears because your head is hurting.
You've been sick through the years and now your heart is burning.
Your broken heart makes you weak but you never show it.
I know the pain is unkind
but I can truly feel it
girl you were mine
and you were the realest.
I blew up ya mind and made you fall apart.
I rubbed on your spine and kissed you on your heart.
I played with ya feelings like it was just a game.
Girl I know you can hear me and this is everything you
never gave me the chance to say.
You can show me love right now
or watch it fade away.
We can fly through the clouds
and eat the milky way.
We can blow up the stars
and make the sun shine your way.
Baby you glow like the moon
every single day.
When I see you I turn the other way
but when I see you smile it brightens up
my day.
That's the realest thing I will ever say
god blessed my words
and for that I Pray. Amen!


Details | Verse | |

She Sipped

He shook glass
Screamed silence
Ran the walls
She sipped

He slammed his hands
Despised his frustration
Feared his need
She sipped

He called to her
Begged of her
Held out in hope for her
She sipped

He broke apart
Came undone
Was no more
She sipped


Details | I do not know? | |

I hate the player AND the game

I loathe you-

    I especially hate your face-

        But, I really hate that I miss
          
              The salty way that your lips taste-

 

I hate all your hurtful lies-

      That are cleverly hidden behind-

               Charmingly deceptive 
       
                        Clear, blue eyes-

 

Such a careless, inattentive lover-

      I really should have guessed-

            That you were too good to be true

                     & Of course,
  
                           you were hidding "others"-

 

You take off and you leave-

       Disappearing somewhere into the night-

              Just as I naitievly thought
 
                    Everything was begaining- 

                           To start to feel right- 

 

I really dont think that your able to care-

        About anybody else-

              Because in this life-

                     Your just in it alone-
 
                            Only caring about yourself-
   
           -Erin Anderson 04/20/2012


Details | Rhyme | |

A Broken Hearts Prayer

If love is not a fight, then why am I left bleeding? 
As she walked away, to deaf ears I kept pleading. 
How many times did she say, what I recognize as lies. 
Reciprocate her promises, believed her alibis. 
  
After all these things were said and done, I left her with a kiss.
I said "I will not talk to you", but trust me that I miss. 
All the moments that we shared and laughed. My year all filled with love. 
Now I'm left alone again, so pray to God above. 
  
"Help me find upon this earth, of seven billion souls." 
"The one that fits me perfectly, together we'll grow old" 
"The pain all others put me through, be nothing but a glimpse" 
"The happiness that I deserve, I'll be her broken Prince"

"Just don't misunderstand, for what it is I ask" 
"I'm not looking for perfection, but an ever simpler task.." 
  
"I pray for hope, to find one day" 
"Not just love.. but for 'True Love', I pray..."


Details | Free verse | |

'Til Death do We Part

mascara of rain flakes onto a cheek
trickling off of glass skin
sadly how does it whisper
listen
music box lullabies muffle
under wrinkled sheets
sewn with her dying
silent cries
awaken
she cannot understand
that people so lovely return to God
as her feet touch pavement
wet with anguish
a dry crack stills the earths spin
a hoarse scream erupts
from her chest
o how sweet
her passion to deaths grip
mustering her remaining mind
never to be stifled
love
the everlasting bind of loyalty
goes beyond a grave
dug of body and not of soul
she rests her head on soil
kissing the petals she has brought
honor to beloved
to whom she sacrificed her heart
never-ending
whether they reunite in the alternate
is decided on a page not yet written


Details | I do not know? | |

Aftermath

Sometimes it feels like the fire within
Will slowly consume me, overflow the brim
Red soaring flames, ignited by love
Heaven smiles on me, manna from above

Love, hope and mercy, basic human needs
The fire within me, it slowly feeds
On the pain that I carry, heavy and swollen
Belief in myself, paradise stolen.

Soft grey ashes, the memories black
In the distance plays a broken laugh-track,
The haunting melody hangs on the air
If love is so painful, why do I still care?


Details | Free verse | |

An Untold Love


I never thought …
Love will penetrate
through a tiny fracture
in a closed shutter

She came into my life
She made living fine
She filled my heart
She touched my soul

That short peek
was the spark
for an untold Love

I was drowned …
in her blue eyes

I was charmed …
by her soft smile

I was filled …
with her magical vibes

She walked into my life
She filled my world with LOVE

With her around …
I was always fine

She filled my heart
She touched my soul
My heart on fire
My mind in peace

With her around …
I was always fine

But her sudden death
torn everything apart
all my dreams died
nothing left to hide

All came to my life
sorrows of an untold Love

I wish she knew
she was my true Love

So many moments
all went in vain
She vanished away
remained only pain

Where could I seek
to find her again

Time is so unkind
when she is not around

Forever in my heart
Forever in my soul
I will always Love her
I will always hold her

She will ever last
in my Love lament


Details | Rhyme | |

Lost Love

Lost Love My mind runs wild and my eyes leak, where do I go from here? You tore out my heart with your nonchalant act and my cries fell on only deaf ears. I hate you for treating me with such love, for using my heart as your toy. My everyday life is now empty and bland, and my heart filled with all things but joy. My ignorant soul is too stubborn, yet frail, it crumbles like leaves in the fall. To think of my happy days in your arms, but to you they meant nothing at all. The worst part of all is my love is still yours, My heart is still subject to pain. Oh what I would give to be rid of you now, your torture, your shackles and chains.


Details | I do not know? | |

My Juliet

 My Juliet was the blood of my heart
we had something going until she tore it all apart.
My love for her was really really deep
I could hear my love crying between every beat.
 My Juliet was the Sun in the Sky but she she shined
so bright and glowed like moonlight.
I never thought I would lose her now
my heart is crushed and buried in the ground
so far below that it can never be found
 I'm Romeo and I lost my Juliet
but trust me she really was the best
    My Juliet!!!
    My Juliet!!!
Come back with love
and nothing less


Details | Rhyme | |

Cheaters

When I gave you my heart
All you did was tear it apart
Making me hurt is not an art
The aftertaste you left is tart

I wish I could forget you and restart
There’s a hole in my heart fron this dart
That stupid cupid poisoned me with so I could find my sweetheart
Never trust a grown man in a diaper that’s not smart

But I learned from this and now I have a headstart
Knowing not to trust somebody and put them first on my social chart
Because I was loyal yet you failed to do your part
When I pursued you all you did was depart
 
You would rather be at the mart
Like a mammal in heat looking for another hart
To fool around with, wound, and outsmart
Thanks for the scars. Now I have something for others to impart


Details | Senryu | |

Ceremony

selfish blunders jolt
wedding trinkets soon tarnish
apathy begins
 


Details | Rhyme | |

How Do I Understand This

Say the word,
watch me die,
flirt with malice,
confusion lies,
misunderstand,
my bleeding heart,
sit in silence,
torn apart,
my tears that fall,
you'll never see,
these scars and nightmares,
have come to be,
I missed you then,
I miss you now,
you left me here,
to wonder how,
how can you love him?
how can you put him before youself?
how can you suffer needlessly,
your happiness gathering dust on a forgotten shelf?
how do I understand this?


Details | Couplet | |

Sleepless Dreams

Some nights, no sleep, I lay awake, I still feel like I'm dreaming. In darkened rooms, I slip away, my soul and heart start scheming.
Your face, a thought, as I get lost in memories of our past. Smile and sigh, no worries or lies, I know it will not last.
For daylight brings, the truth it seems, no more fantasies awake. Reality shows, coldness grows, the morning my heart does break.
Throughout the day, I'll ponder or pray of happy times ahead. But soon as darkness comes again, sleepless dreams within my bed.


Details | Rhyme | |

i need you

Long have I been on my own, Countless days spent all alone, A match for me, remains unknown, Unturned I've left more than one stone. Wishing I could be complete, Lift me up out of this seat, Break these chains around my feet, Free my mind from it's defeat. Though we have not yet begun, I need you like the earth the sun, and when it all is said and done, I promise you I will not run. Yet to find the one for me, Soon enough eventually, The time will come and you will see, You and I were meant to be.


Details | I do not know? | |

If Heaven Could Wait by Kenny Davis

If Heaven Could Wait by Kenny Davis

If heaven could wait
If only for a year
If only, but a slight moment longer
One chance more to hold her near

If heaven could only wait
If only just for a night
That my eyes may have a chance at one last glance
At her beauty once more in the moonlight

If heaven could only wait
If only for one last sunrise
A moment to gaze upon the majestic horizon
As the sun glistens from her eyes

If heaven could only wait
If only for an hour
Time to hold her tight
Before a time spent without her

Lord, why would you bless me with a love like this
Only to have it taken away
Can I please just have this one moment longer?
Oh, if heaven could only wait

If heaven could only wait
All I simply ask for is time
For the man who is blessed to have her heart
And for the woman proudly holding mine

Is it possible for heaven to wait?
If only for, but a season
One last chance to cherish moments with her
Please allow me this minute more within reason

Lord, please understand
Leaving her so soon, is very hard
To call up my soul from hers
Would cause me to shed heartbroken tears from the stars

Can Heaven have a time to wait?
To avoid this momentary hurt
Although I would love nothing more than to be with you Lord
She is, but my only tie here to this Earth.

After all of this pain, all of this time
I have finally found the one you have made for me
You have divinely favored me to find true love here on Earth
Only to tell me now I must leave?

If heaven could only wait
Long enough to have one last cry
As I look into her eyes, as we say our last goodbyes
Before you call me in the sky

It’s hard to say such things as this
When being with her and God means so much
I would die to be with both of them
From them, I would die for one last touch

© August 2011 k.davis


Details | Light Poetry | |

The Tears from the Eyes

Slowly builds into a tear forming from with in. Sorrow, grief, and happiness of emotions build. Passion of what life is the start of what is. A rhythm of heart beat with in the tear. It builds and it grows and soon it will be flooded. Tear which breaks to make the river downward from faith. The reflection of what the eyes sees is all that takes. The river that is made is with in sin or sins boundary it is not fake.


Details | Rhyme | |

kiss,hugs, and tears

 U didnt whisper in my ear no u whispered to my heart.Not only did u kiss my lips but my soul right from the start.

The minute that u left a sickness took over my body.I stop beleiving everything real close to illuminati.

But I altered my attitude that altered out my life. I couldnt loose my future since I already lost my wife. 

I got back up on my feet and put my limits in the sky. People asked me if I could reached the I dont know was my reply.

 I found a way to smile and to stop being upset.Nothing improves memmories more than trying to forget.

I was doing better my mind was finely clear then I relapse nowhere u decide to reappear.

U brought life to all my nightmares illustrated all my fears. That loves start with a hug, grows with kisses ends with tears. 

I gave you everything I had I gave you good love and protection.U know that ur in love when a persons flaws look like perfection. 

Cant beleive u actually told me that u loved and didnt mean it. Cant beleive I was naive and dum to actually beleive it. 

I see once again and dont have words because Im scared. A broken heart will always heal but never be repaired.

Cant let go of people that u keep thinking about. Its me againts persuation and most likely Ill loose the bout. 

They say that no ones perfect but that everyone is great. u were already great became perfect what a trait. 

To learn means that u failed to fail means that u learned. Our love was just like hell and hell means that it burns. 

Still with all of that we facing off after the years. Fate is not quite as strange as it appears.

Sometimes we have to die ourselves to live for someone else. But with all the sacrificing u forget how to excell. 

God is a tought who makes the crooked all that straight. He has justification of our love that turn to hate.

Who knows when Ill get over u tomorrow or maybe never. But even though I love you say goodbye and leave forever.
 


Details | Free verse | |

Suicide

It's dark

               and it's scary.

I'm still alive and breathing,

                                                 but just barely.

 

You're sitting by my bed

                                          thinking your dreaming.

You sit there and pray

                                       that I awake from sleeping.

 

You start to cry

                          about the scary thought.

That I might not wake up

                                            and you think it's your fault.

 

I want to wake

                         and tell the truth.

But I can't because the darkness is calm

                                                                          and to smooth.

 

I've got to wake,

                            I've got to tell.

It wasn't your fault

                                and I'm putting you through hell.

 

I was hurt

                 and wanted to die.

I know you didn't mean it,

                                             I know what you said was a lie.

 

We had a fight,

                          a huge war.

The war in which

                              I walked out the door.

 

I want to come back,

                                     imurge from the darkness.

And give you my heart back

                                                 and complete forgiveness.

 

I finally awake

                         and see you there.

You start to cry

                          and kiss my hair.

 

I tell you I love you

                                and I don't want to lose you.

You pull me close

                                and tell me you love me too.

 

I start to cry

                   and cover my head.

With the shirt on your body

                                               while you sit on my bed.

 

My chest hurts,

                         my chest aches.

Probably from the bullet I used

                                                       or the life I tried to take.

 

I love you so much

                                 so I have to say.

Mend my heart again

                                     and I will stay...


Details | Enclosed Rhyme | |

Valiant Valentines

Cupid shot me down with a flaming arrow in my heart
Rallied his fellow cherubs to stand guard over my soul
And keep watch of the players who steal my innocence for a mind toll
They know that the years have been unkind and love has torn me apart


Details | Sonnet | |

A waken dream

Sweet colors of skys will die
Little girl close your eyes and you will fly
Candy drops of tears will fall
Holding onto promises that no longer excist
Dreams of a dream that happiness is real
Mamma see's your sad eyes, wondering what took the glitter away
Wishing out the fire on the last candle
Wishing to see a new night
Pink,blue,yellow,green balloons I hold
Watching them slip through my fingers forever
Feeling the pain break you apart inside
Believing that the pain is the only memory
Dont let the burning of sunder mark you
A drip of strawberry poison will weaken the pain
Hush Hush the lip's of memory's
And dance till the sun bleed's the last drop


Details | Verse | |

are you sorry yet

Are you sorry yet?
You better believe I'm still hurt.
The cruelest things you say with such assert.
I'm crippled in pain and needing you while you show no alert.
I hold it in my heart when all care you avert.
I am so sorry for the things I said but not one word you revert.
How can you purposely ignore me? For you I beg till my face in dirt.


Can you feel at all?
Your words are so bitter and tart.
My insults are plain, your's thought out and smart.
Are you so used to trying to appear as if you have no heart?
Gun going off with no finger on trigger start.
Your eyes and ears are closed as I watch you shoot aimed rounds I try to dart.
In aftermath I hear you humming tunes while I rip my head apart.


Details | Free verse | |

It was Never Enough

I just can’t believe it’s actually over. I loved him with all my heart. I was willing to sacrifice everything for him; my job, my family, my life here. I would have done it too. I would have moved there to be with him. It would have been worth it. Because to me, love is always worth it. I dreamed everyday he wasn’t ****ing here of him and I together. I would think of us constantly. All of what could be running through my head; our conversations, kissing, meeting, making love. I thought I knew what was to come. I was hopeful and excited for the future. I would count the months left until we could meet. I would count the money I had that would get me there. I would wait up for him at night and leave my phone next to me in the mornings. I sacrificed so much of myself, my time and my heart for him. And he doesn’t love me back.
I can’t believe I was so naïve and stupid. How did I actually let all of this happen? How did I not see the writing on the wall? It seems so clear now, so obvious he didn’t want me. But I didn’t care. I wanted him to want me, I wanted us I wanted love so badly I did everything in my power to keep him here. But it wasn’t enough. It was never enough.


Details | Lyric | |

Control

I loved you. You were creeped out. I loved you. You were all I thought about. Dreams bring misery, To this little life. I will use trickery. I don't go down without a fight. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. Foreign language brings nightmares, Because I would curse you, And you would figure out later, That I once loved you. Teardrops cover my doorstep. Remember how much you ment, I gave you my heart you kept. And you left me there when I wept. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You left me there, In the pouring rain. Bleeding without care, My feelings were drained. I left... I left... I left... The past behind. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You're not Mr. Man anymore. I took back my control. How does it feel being cold, To lose it???


Details | Light Poetry | |

our first Christmas

The wind blows through the tress
Dry leafs falling to the frozen ground
So many people lives here
But they don’t make a sound

Snow like a blanket on the grass
Feeling the chill on the tip of my nose
Bouquet of flowers of all colors
Jasmines, pink, red and yellow roses

She talks to me every day
But she don’t let me hold her
And no matter how much I beg her to
Let me rest my head on her shoulders

And she never answers when I said
Please, please come back home
She would just remained right there
And watch me cry and walk away alone

I’m the loneliest man in the world
Since she came to live in this place
I begged her to don’t leave me behind
But she left me with tears my face

Merry Christmas, I love you
She whispers in my ear before she close her eyes
And my hopes, my dreams, my aspirations
My whole life at that moment passes me by

This was to be the first Christmas
We was going to spend together
We was going to roast mash mellows
Drink hot coco and cuddle by the fire

I was going to get on my knees
And propose my love to her
And pray that she said yes
And put the ring on her finger

And I was going take our wedding vow
To love and cherish her for as long as we live
The making her happy every second of her life
Was going to be my only prerogative

But that dream is all gone now
Wash away like the snow in the rain
And no matter how much I pray to god
She will never come back to me again

When someone you love has left you
You lose your will to survive
Shock and sadness consumes you right away
Missing the person that belongs in your life

There is a feeling of missing a part of you
And you are left with sorrow and grieve
You whole world was taken from you
And you are in dismay an disbelieve

I know it’s not your fault to leave
Because you know I miss you so much
And I just stare at my android phone
Can’t call, text, or keep in touch

Now I look at the Snow flakes
Falling Out side of my window
Children making snow mans
In the park below

The trees are all covered white
And glitters like crystals in the sun
Cars driving slowly by
On the wet slippery ground

In the corner of a dark lonely room
Stands a dried old Christmas tree
This was to be our first Christmas
But instead it was our last

Without you its hard to live again
you promise we will, always be together
Now all you leave is your name on a stone
And our first Christmas to spend alone


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Turn for the Worse

In the beginning
Things were so unreal
You were the ideal image
With monster sex appeal

You said you'd always be there
But what you've said is now a lie
Are you aware of the consequences
Your actions hold
Upon our bonded lives

A breaking of the chemistry
We took so long to build
Down playing this relationship
Into something never fulfilled

You were my four leaf clover
My lucky little charm
But
You've turned into a harlot
And caused nothing but harm

I'm at the bottom of this bottle
There may be some cause for alarm
Only finding comfort in
My friends Jack and Jim
Jettisoned into chaos
Where nobody can swim
Your selfishness is drowning me
You shouldn't have left on a whim


Details | Light Poetry | |

Sunshine in a Hurricane

Your face...is a flower..delicate and beautiful..
 Your eyes..a waterfall of blue..diamonds..
The clouds..and rain..surround me..
 I stand on a mountain..bitter and cold in every way..
Nowhere for me to seek shelter..
 I know my days..will end..
I know my heart..so full of love..will cease to beat..
 I have only this ..letter..to send..
I have only this..dream..of being..free..
 They say..every boy  becomes a man..
They say..every girl must become mature..
 If we grow old...and sacrifice...our youth..for love..will we endure..
No..we will..wither..and fade..grasping..to hold on..as we slowly die..
  We will dance..until we fall..we will laugh ..until we cry..
I say..if I am first to go..You say I must remain..
  We both will die..of broken hearts..
Like sunshine..in a hurricane.
 written by 
T.C.Fulton


Details | Prose Poetry | |

A Womans Touch

The gates of hell have been violently open. The world begins to rumble and scatter in fear. Earth’s volcanoes spew magma and ash from its core. The clouds quickly gather as the thunder and lightning signal the wrath to come. Earth’s crust opens its mouth ready to swallow cities and nation’s whole. Suddenly a white and peaceful light emerges from the horizon. This elegant and stunning figure seems not all frightened by all the chaos. She gingerly kisses and hugs the tormented man. All of this madness was inside the man’s mind. The stress and pressure of life almost got to the man. Drugs and alcohol never gave him relief but all it took was a woman’s touch.


Details | Rhyme | |

MECAC

When I feel the warmth of you, I never want to let you go, Problems though we've had a few, My love for you is all I know, Every day your on my mind, Slowly tugging at my heart, Soon enough you'll come to find, You've had the whole thing from the start, I wish I could erase the past, Take back all the wrongs I made, Now I'm going nowhere fast, Memories of us soon to fade, Whether you love me still or not, I wouldn't leave your side, Love for you is all I got, Can't say I never tried, You probably think we'd never work, Since your leaving in the fall, My love for you, I'd never shirk, I would give us and you my all.


Details | I do not know? | |

Late nights

How can I loose you when your not even mine?
The memorable scars washed down with white wine.
The nights spend up late, hand in hand
Unspoken words said it all
Oh how bad I wanted you
And how hard you let me fall.


Details | I do not know? | |

Fairy Tales Were Wrong

When I was a little girl I was told fairy tales
And I was raised to beware of the monster in a black cape
I was made to believe that evil would be so ugly
That you could see it as soon it was there

Oh, how wrong they were
Cause you're right here in front of me
You look like Prince Charming
But you have a dark heart
You get me caught up in your twisted arts

I was fooled by your big blue eyes
I was drawn in by your blonde hair
Why was I never warned that those with dark hearts could be so fair
Cause now that you've pulled me close 
I can't deny my affections for you
But you give me a roller coaster ride
Why did I not see past your blue eyes
You push and pull me all the time

I should have known
I should have been able to see
Just how twisted you are
Your looks are a lie
You don't wear a black cape
You don't have an ugly face
As much as I try to hate that monster inside
I still want you 

You look like Prince Charming
But you have a dark heart
And I was drawn in like a moth to a flame
You've got me in your prison of desire
I'm in chains, can't you see
All I want, all I need is to be let free


Details | Lyric | |

Here We Go.

Here we go. Stomach churning, brain burning.
Together mixing up a bit of that cha-os.
Body built up, mind fortified, but resistance is fu-tile.
All that training and that experience, trumped by the infantile.
Mature and rational thoughts interrupted by what's pri-mal.
The urge to survive contrasts the pity if it dies
and my instincts run hay-wire.

Nothing stops it, no explanation will do.
This is the last-straw.
I accept the words but am confused by the actions.
What is going on here?
My minds a blur, filled with reactions.
What's lying underneath here?
I take any fact in stride, I swallow my pride.
But are we really getting stuck here?

Visions creep, my heart begins to weep
but I straighten up my bow tie.
Slap in the face, I can't take this disgrace.
My confidence is so high.
Light up, sit back, recollect and play back
every moment that's gone by.
I give up trying to understand.
It's too complicated and I just let it ride.


Details | Imagism | |

Distare

I feel his touch in the notes of a song
I hear him in the words of that same song
His presence surrounds me as I listen to that same song
Yet he is not here, least ways I cannot see him.
His scent is on the breeze of springs first breath
Warming the chill of winter from around me
I see his being in the clouds white all around
A leaf, soft in its texture, brushes my face
Much like a lovers kiss upon my cheek.
The sun settles in for its evening rest
Bringing an end to my dreamy afternoon
With a light shiver caressing my body
It gives me cause to believe that he is close
Trying to reach across time and space
To close that void that fills my everday.
With each moment that we are separate
By the miles that part us, he is remembered.


Details | Rhyme | |

Boundless Sea

You just say you will always be there
When I need you right here with me;
I am trapped in the wave of despair,
Dreams escape to the boundless sea. 

I indulge in the sense of December,
In the cinnamon scent I inhale;
This tranquility makes me remember
My old sweet Scandinavian tale.

It's the voice of Suomi that's calling
My still frozen heart to the North,
As the wheel of my fortune keeps rolling,
It is time to live on and move forth.

I'll keep moving in every direction
I can change by my own free will;
On my way to complete resurrection
I'm the one at the steering wheel.

If I dare to change your embraces
To Norwegian winter's caress,
Will the blizzard conceal all the traces?
I'll be loving you, nevertheless.

I will meet you nowhen and nowhere,
In the depth of the boundless sea;
In my dreams you will always be there,
And my memories - here with me.


Details | I do not know? | |

Dear Johnny

Dear Johnny

Oh please,
Won't you forgive me
For all the wrong
I have committed?

I'm just a girl
Who makes mistakes
Just like everyone else,
A girl
Looking for a way out
Of this home and into
The arms of a man.

A man
Who has powerful, caring eyes
With a soft smile,
Oh how this man is amazing
You can't imagine how perfect he is.


Details | Narrative | |

3,000 Miles Separate Fate

There you were
Just a blur
In the spur
Of the moment

A spontaneous rush
Of flushed confusion
An overwhelming lasting impression

This brief encounter
Bringing two strangers
A precious and a joyous sensibility
That's all too serene to be fiction

Effervescent euphoria
Permeates its way through the senses
Infiltrating effortlessly

Why did you have to go
And get on that plane

Now you're never coming home


Details | Free verse | |

to a friend, upon discovering his own moon

pick flowers
drink while nectar flows.
sap is bitter
when stem hardens into wood.

the bumblebee sees not the world
with the petals that surround.

the hive hums with discordant sounds
and empty clamorings.

tomorrow's season is fall.

(28 may 79)


Details | Free verse | |

But You Said

Actions differ from words
Words said in a moment
Moment frozen in time
Time oblivious to pain
Pain weaved into life
Life punctuating history
History comprised of actions

Through it all, you said words
In the end, you acted differently


Details | I do not know? | |

Who Do You Think You Are

Who do you think you are?
My shining wish upon a star?

You don't know who I am.
Did you even try to get to know me?
I'm the mighty lion and you're the timid lamb.
Why don't you set your true self free?

Why can't you see
That there's so much more to me?

Given what you know,
And knowing what you don't,
You have no other way to go,
But admitting to that you won't.

Who do you think you are?
Why can't you see
You're my shining star?
And there's nothing more to me.


Details | Free verse | |

Sadness

The women stood in front of the table 
Her sad hands
Empty
Hallow
With nothing
she looked at her daughter
smiles and laughter
i wish her the best
nothing less
the sun shines on your golden hair
i love you, dear
Dont get hurt
promise me you wont
take my hand
one last time
forever more
say that you must
smile
dance
laugh
sing
just promise me you will dream
when i fade to grey
you are getting older 
you have a life
children of your own
you start to cry
clutch to my hand
ill never leave
im always here
Clinging...


Details | Rhyme | |

Runaway Dreams Of Love And Hope

My happiness has run away
My heart is so lonely today
All my dreams and hopes are gone
Now I'm in the dark and mourn
For them to come back once more
They disappeared and finally tore
Me into a million pieces
Sorrow and pain are like leaches
Attaching to me strong and tight
Every day the claw and bite
Piercing me with hurt and tears
That flow through me everywhere
My emotions are full of 
Memories of care and love
I no longer can contain
I'm about to go insane
Without someone by my side
My hearts about to get fried
From the flames of turmoil
That have entered to soil
The few dreams that I had wanted
Now I am just being taunted
For the rest of my existence
Dying from lost love conditions


Details | ABC | |

LOVE

If I could love you like I want,
You would find these distances too small...

If I could send you lovely roses,
You would have no place to keep them all.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

If I could fly and reach you when I like,
There would be no second time to fly.

If I could have you once in my life,
I would have no regrets when I die.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

If I could tell you what I feel,
You would have nothing else to know.

If I could live without a soul,
I would have enjoyed rain and snow.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

If I could paint a new world for us,
We never would have to be alone.

If forgetting you was any easy,
I would have changed my nerve and bone.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

But this won’t make me love you any less,
I will be your guy, you will be my lass.
I will love you forever and forever...forever and forever.


Details | Free verse | |

A boy and a Girl

Love is such a powerful thing to feel people tell teens you dont know what love is ..Your just full 
of out of control hormones. Its so much more than that. what adults dont understand is we 
would do anything to be with theone we so very much adore. Take my little story for example. 
A young independent girl starts falling for a much older guy. There is a four year span but they 
both think age is just a number. The boy tells this girl she is beautiful an gorgeous every waking 
minute he gets. he makes sure she is all in tact making sure she isnt falling apart because they 
cant see each other b/c of their amazing age difference. They talk to each other whenever they 
can. Everytime they hear each others voices they start falling for each other even more. They 
had a long talk about what they wanted to do to be together. They both decided that the girl 
would wait three years until shes of age. He keeps telling the girl hang in there b/c patience is 
always the best way to deal with this situation. They both talk about the great memories they 
already have experienced. The boy tells the girl she is amazing an worth the long, painful wait. 
He says we will make it through this little bump in the road. The end of the tunnel is far away 
but soon that light is going to shine as bright as it can an im going to run as fast as lighting 
strikes this earth an jump into my future with him. My future looks so bright an amazing with 
him. finishing highschool then college is near. But after my school days of highschool he is all 
mine. This guy an girl are going to wait for each other. In the mean time they are going to 
remember the good times an focus on the positive things. When the girl starts thinking 
negative the boy will tell her its all going to be over soon an a new beginning will come.


Details | Rhyme | |

Rays Of Ligth Shine On Your Pit Of Darkness

When your sadness comes around
And your world is crashing down
Way faster than you can stop it
And your in a deep dark pit
That' is carrying you way under
And your brains starting to wonder
If a hand is gonna pull
You back up from all this bull
And out of the darkness that
Is making your heart go flat
Not beating with the full force
It is getting way off course
As your life is a big mess
You want to shout and confess
How much you need someone who
Is just as tortured as you
Joining together into one
Darkness broken by the sun
Now shining down with the rays
Of loves warmth to lead the way
Out of this pit your both in
Down a path to help you win
A lifetime of joy and peace
Slowly sorrow will decrease
Day by day smiles return
Lessons are now being learned
No matter how bad things seem
There's always a little gleam
Of hope somewhere that you'll find
When you need a little shine
 Of faith to help lead you down
A hidden path to be found
When the turmoil is too much
 To face alone and need the touch
Of another darkened soul
Who's been tortured by life's toll


Details | Rhyme | |

Lovely 3

My heart still aches in sadness, secret tears still flow
What it means to lose you, no one will ever know


Details | Light Poetry | |

Summer thoughts

Transparent dresses Girls' summer legs They smile and meet Each other's eyes They think they're free And rule the world The first-come guy Could break them all


Details | Verse | |

A Fly in a Web

I’m running towards you
You’re pushing away
In the dark
Where you left me
I’ll stay

You’re stuck on her
But you’re all I have left
Her touch isn’t one you forget

Did you spin her the web you spun me?
Promises to make the future a reality.

Were they hers before they were mine?
An empty house
A restless mind

Then I came along
You found a distraction
But you know the future

Isn’t what the past was.


Details | Light Poetry | |

CANT LET YOU GO by Collice Rodrigues

You came like lightening your brightness flashed my eye

I don’t know when you made it happen you took me by surprise

You are my elegant rose; you blossomed with all your might

I want you to bloom forever, let this be an endless night

 

You are priceless to me I could never measure your worth

If the secret to have you existed id toil all day to unearth

It can’t always be day the sun does have to go

But as we go to sleep we hope for another tomorrow

 

Wish life made it simpler then I wouldn’t have to make a choice

Now whenever I hear the word honey it will seem like your voice

I’m walking away from you towards barren land

I’m moving away but it’s not possible to let go of your hand

 

I remember all our kisses and all the overnight talk

I know it’s a world of vehicles but I love to hold your hand and walk

Wherever you may go, in my heart you will dwell

Even Cinderella had her limit till the clock ticked twelve

 

- Collice Rodrigues

27/09/2011


Details | Rhyme | |

Waiting for the Dawn

Ever since you left our town I feel there’s no one I can trust
I didn’t want you to leave, but I’ll try to let you go if I must
I wonder how it could’ve been for us; I could’ve been the one
I wanted to find out, but now it’s too late-you’re already gone
I wish I could’ve told you how I felt when I told you goodbye

But instead I watched from the window as you left, about to cry
And now every single time I close my eyes, you’re all that I can see
And when I look at your photo my heart stops and I can’t breathe
You could’ve worked it out, you could’ve stayed if you’d wanted too
Late at night I wonder if I could’ve stopped you if only I knew

Why did you have to leave? Why did you have to go?
I was hurting on the inside, but somehow I didn’t let it show
Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave?
Would you have stayed if I had begged with a ‘please’
You never were the type to stay somewhere for too long

And until we meet again this is gonna be your never ending song
I still don’t know if I can ever heal from a heartbreak just like this
Because for me just being near you everyday was pure bliss
You’re just like the others in my life, you come and then you’re gone
Every night I go to bed with tears for you, just waiting for the dawn

I should’ve told you I loved you from the very first day we met
But when I tried to tell you it was like my words got caught in a net
I never will forget your face, it’s in my heart, it can’t be erased
Everything reminds me of you, no matter where I go, every single place
I never will forget the special way you looked at me that one day

But I was so shy, I couldn’t even form the words to say, ‘Hey’
I hope one day that I’ll cross your mind and you’ll look back and smile
While you reminisce of me and all the good time we had for a while
I  really hope you don’t forget to remember me and all the fun we had
And if you ever felt the same way about me, please don’t be sad

Even if I go for an eternity without seeing your face again
My love for you is never gonna die, it’s never gonna end
Sometimes I can’t help but wonder: will I ever see you again?
Will you come back to me one day, or is this really the end?


Details | Rhyme | |

You Too True Blue

I want you
You want me too
I feel so true
And yet so blue
You had to woo 
And had to coo
Didn’t know what to do
You were new
But why or who
You know I flew
We are just two
Our affection grew
Too much to chew
You totally knew
Now you blew
Our relationship is stew
You know what?
Screw you.


Details | Free verse | |

Played My Heart

You played my heart,
You made me believe
We'd never part.

You swayed me,
You make believed
How we'd be.

You kissed my lips,
You made me imagined
All of what we'd be.

You loved me,
You laid beside me,
Wished we'd be 'you and me'.

You played my heart,
You made my feelings fade
Away from how we'd be.


Details | Rhyme | |

Fallen

Understand these words,
these hidden meanings,
fight in vein,
to deny these feelings,
answer me this,
the truth in your heart,
so many questions,
where to start...
how do you feel,
"it's complicated",
with that answer,
I am not sated,
dig deeper,
understand?
does it appeal, 
to hold my hand,
a kiss on the cheek,
was I too brave,
did I jump too soon,
my heart too far gone to save,
I've fallen for you,
hard and fast,
but without these answers,
I won't last,
will you tell me,
that we're through,
or will you tell me,
you've fallen too??



..comments please!


Details | Free verse | |

Our Union

Our Union
	
My eyelashes bat 
After meeting your gaze
From across a 
Crowded subway haze.
 
My pupils dilate when they
Look back at you over dinner
Where we drank wine and ate.
 
My feet dance with glee as we
Fall hopelessly in love 
In the midst of summer heat.
 
My heart splits apart 
To become your wife
And your forever sweetheart.
 
My legs spread 
Open to bare new life
And see your cheeks rosen.
 
My arms push 
You away at night,
I'm too tired for a sex life.
 
My fists rage and tears pour,
When I discover your arms
Embracing another lover
After coffee one early morn.
 
My ears listen to 
Your words of regret and
Pleads for a second chance
For things to be like
When we first met.
 	
My fingers dial 
Seeking third party counsel
To repair our shattered union.
 
My brain waves 
Shift to understand your
Thoughts and your feelings, 
While I bitterly convey my own.
 
My hand re-opens 
To forgive your sins
And make amends.
 
My lips part to 
Receive your kiss in the
Night in a sea of 
Skin in our warm bed.
 
My heart flutters, 
We’ve truly become one,
Years after we bore our son.


Details | I do not know? | |

Ashes

Savage lies, mercilessly spoken,

battering emotions, a heart exposed, nakedly open,

companionship was all that was sought,

not blue-chip bonds, hastily sold and bought.

The bonds I sought were simple,

peaceful nights, scribbling verse in unseen black,

delicately caressing words of love, my fingers tracing poems, over the contours of your soft back.

It saddens me to say, my thoughts were dreamed in vain,

and it grieves me see, the ashes of our love,

floating down the streets we walked,

scattered in the rivulets of this night’s pouring rain.

Alone I scribble this paltry verse,

the darkest of nights, in the midst of howling storms,

and though I may heal some day,

the memory of the ashes of our love,

floating down the streets we once walked,

shall remain buried deep,

until my dying day


Details | Free verse | |

Only To You My Love

GET OUT I SCREAMED, 
But why didnt you listen? 
I knew it was a mistake but I couldn't keep pretendin 
I know it was hard on you 
to see all the lies turn out true and while 
you thought everything was going great 
I was still trying to get away from you. 
So here you are in my house and in my bedroom, holding a knife up to my neck 
As you smile, I just whimper because I know what you’re capable of. You've tried to do this before, never succeeding, just leaving mental scars and cuts and 
Time and time again I never truly wanted to leave you because something always brought me back to you. 
And you standing with a knife in your hand with your arm around my neck was what I get for not listening. 
So here I am on the borderline of death uhh this is what I get for letting you walk in on me doing something you told me to quit and as I now stare at a beautiful smile that once was. I realize that, Yes I know you have finally 
had enough. and I would understand too if I was you. but just remember one thing Boo as you take my last breath...I will always, always love you. 


Details | I do not know? | |

A part of me

I lost a part of me
Once upon a time
Cause I was wild and didn't
Want to let go
I didn'tknow that I lost a
Part of me
At least
Not until I was way out of hand
I lost a part of me
That's now finnally coming back.


Details | I do not know? | |

I still Care

I have finally realized it’s time to let go
Took me to loose a friend to realize what I already know
I’ve apologized for my actions to you with no avail
Which leaves me to do what I do best which is to bail
Kicking my own butt once again for letting you go
Wish I would have just stayed still and waited you know
But I can’t continue to dwell on the past
Or that thing I thought I had, but couldn’t make it last
Funny how we realize our flaws when it’s much too late
I really fell hard just realized it a little to late
You have always been what you said u were honest & true
I just had no idea what I was dealing with in you
See when you loose trust for people that rule applies to them all
I just really had no idea,  it was too late to call
My actions were not to my pleasing but it’s still no reason
Can’t expect you to march to the beat of my drum
Especially when instead of marching I run
Funny how we fear our own heart
Well at least for me that’s where it starts
Let a person get in close I wouldn’t Dare
Until we start to work with that emotion called care
Too busy moving forward but still looking back
Kind of threw everything I had going on off track
Yes, I have been broken but it’s time to move on
Hate that I had to clam up though and do you wrong
Why do I feel like I’m still singing the same old Song
Must be a hint to change the tune…. Yea I know that’s what I need to do
I just had to say something to you though… Even if was only those 2 words to you



Details | I do not know? | |

Left Unsaid by Kenny Davis

Left Unsaid by Kenny Davis

I’d like to apologize for my actions, of late.
The shameful way I acted towards you that I hate.

People say to show interest is to, “Say how you feel.”
As painful as it is, that my love to you, lacked a certain appeal.

Little did I know that the words “I love you” were better left unsaid.
From the moment I said those words, “What was going through my head?”

Telling you the truth, “Was it the right thing?” in question
The painful answer has led to my truly learning my lesson

I now know that these feeling are better held in discretion
No longer capable of showing such nonsense like love and affection

I realize telling you how I felt was a failed attempt
From the pain, the hurt, my heart was not exempt

All of this I saw my love for you as genuine and honest.
But now I know when asked, “Do I love you?” I know to remain modest

Denying my heart, denying myself
Lying to your face and lying to everyone else

You asked “How could I have these feeling when I don’t know you?”
You’re right! I should have kept quiet. I was a damn fool.

When I said, “I love you.” I asked myself, “What did I say?”
But from this point on I’ll never make that mistake

What I know now is that I can’t trust you with my heart
To trust you to covet it, to love it, instead of tear it apart

To you, for my actions, I apologize.
To myself, for making my heart believe I could ever look into your eyes

I apologize to myself for believing I could ever hold you in my arms
Pouring my heart out did less good than harm

Instead of my heart I will follow my instincts, follow my gut
Next time I run into those words, those feelings, I know to keep my mouth shut

To furiously avoid my heart from shedding any more tears
I shall keep it locked and closed for its love, no one deserves to hear. 				       

© June 2011 k.davis


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Alone

The birds are chirping, the sun is beaming Why is today so very frightening It is a day like any other, No reason to feel this ugly quiver Am I alone, can no one feel? This nasty pain that feels so real Am I able to carry on? Or do I wait but nothing comes. It makes no sense to trap ourselves No sense to care for someone else Love is a trap for one and all, All of our creatures great or small The sun will shine, the birds will sing Again tomorrow, or so it seems A lonely moment by a lonely soul Really makes no…no difference at all. ©Elisabeth Dubois


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Percept

Perception is all.
With hands empty and love gone to the sword.
Lonely: sick at heart, body weak and mind in numbing sleep.
Red warning signs I ignored all the way,
cause I dared to believe.
Lion heart turned to serpents
in the darkness of the past.
Shaded lenses I now look through,
were once innocently clear.

Night was day
and half was most of the way:
to your heart, 
to love - 
it's remnants jealously guarded behind pains last gasp.
Bright though my hope did shine,
 angers blaze I was against every time.
I want to soar to the sun -
that is unending,
love unhidden by doubt clouds.

See!
Don't just look!
at the bruised effigy that was the bond of hearts.
Messages of hope and peace
that were written in skies glory
now seem unvarnished folly.


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Dreamscape of the Lovelorn

As I sit once more in this chair,
trying to fit word to page in some nice way,
inspiration seems, this evening, rare;
my muse is distracted, keeping melancholy at bay.

I long for a soft, pliant embrace,
shared by a maiden draped in silken thread;
moonlight brightening her already radiant face,
and her enchanting smile, at what could lie ahead.

Her shining hair pours down her back,
like the rain in which we stand;
the right way she seems to lack,
as she looks to me for a guiding hand.

These hands glide down, around her waist,
and slowly we begin to dance.
Underneath the stars, our own new path is traced,
as we float along, in our lover's trance.

The feel of her, so near and so warm,
I cling to, like a drowner's lifeline;
her every sigh, her very form,
beyond my imaginings of the divine.

To go on like this, held enchanted
in her eyes, serenity's sweet founts,
I feel would be my heaven granted;
my trials, her affection surmounts.

The haze shimmers, the dream recedes,
leaving me dazed, shaken in its wake;
as ever and always, my heart bleeds,
craving an end to its boundless, yearning ache.


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Keep me close

The feeling of your hands
clenching onto mine.
We lay side by side
giggling once and a while.
Keep me close

From the time you said hello 
to my tears on your shoulder
We avoided the conversation us separating
until the day before.

You knew what I thought
you knew when I was lying
My favorite person in the world
I loved you from then until now.

I think about you every day
wondering if you still  feel the same
that star is the only star I wish upon
wishing the same thing every night

Your freckles and dimples,
you smile, you're so unique.
The mud between our toes, 
and rain on our eyelashes.


The only regret was leaving you.
I want to remember feeling of your breath.
If I ever see you again
keep me close


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Crimson

The air is heavy with musk

                That deep sensual scent that wraps around

   The mind and chokes away sanity

It smothers the smell of sweat and cheap perfume

As he tries to wipe her crimson from his

  Starched white collar

He throws some lifeblood in red-light's direction

          He doesn't see her drink his life blood

   Doesn't feel

Anything

When

(Standing on a raining corner)

    She asks another man to bleed for her

                So this man too can taste her crimson

He's there staring in the streaked mirror

in a cheap

motel bathroom

Wiping at the collar

                Wiping at the evidence

Trying to hide

Behind the flashing neon lights that filter through

                The cracked venetian blinds. 


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If I, Would You

If my heart was broken a few times,
Would you try to mend it back together?
If I said I’m scared of what might happen,
Would you say that’s why I’m here?
If I needed to cry every last tear I have,
Would you place my head upon your shoulder?
If I walked away from everyone,
Would you follow me out the door?
If I said the pain’s just too much,
Would you tell me to keep on going?
If I let go of your hand,
Would you grasp mine tighter?
If I was in need of some T.L.C.
Would you be able to show it?
If I ran from you,
Would you run too?
If I was tired of holding on,
Would you let go as well?
If I wanted to get rid of my heart,
Would you take it?
If I needed a hug,
Would you give me the best one ever?
If  I had to have a sweet kiss,
Would you make it the longest one you’ve ever given?
If I just needed love from you,
Would you give me all the love you have to give?


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If I could know - Original by Rabindranath Tagore

If I could know my sorrow is for whom
I would tell you I cry for whom.

I stretch my hands for whom in vain
I think of whom to get more pain
As if I have sold everything
Without getting a price or gain!

I ask myself time and again
Who is the one behind this pain?

The thing that all call happiness
I play it like a flute sometimes
I don’t want it, the music says
I don’t want it, the music prays!


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Feel Blue

Feel blue
How true
I miss you.

Feel blue
Out of hue
I wish you knew.

Feel blue
Much too soon
Away from you.

Feel blue
For too long
Without you.


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Bed for Sleepin'

We ****ed everywhere but the bed.
  My favourite being the bonnet of your car,
    inside our limbs were spun in misdirection 
Outside be better my words etched by breath into the window
      you dressed, I dared just my wellies,
                                        the cows watched with television stares.
So surreal was the icy darkness
   as you lay my back upon your metal bed,
thirsty for flesh
   vision tinged, infinity stars plunging high.
Driving back along the bumpy lane
Was alright wont it      utter yes
                   I do wonder if I could lay my head upon
a pillow in lust.


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Guardian Angel

He holds her silently, he holds her close, he's there even though she never know. He takes away her stress; he takes away her pain, he takes her away from the world, she feels loved again. When people come and take him away, she is lost and scarred every day. Her hope of him is fading, her fear and heartache is growing. She misses his touch, she misses his kisses. Her angel holds her while she cries, her angel steadies her and holds her when she tries. He knows she hurts, he knows he's gone but he's been there, he's been there all along. She can't see him in the dark or in the light, but she feels her angel holding her day and night. "No need to worry, no need to fear, you may not see me, but I am here." He whispers as he kisses her head while she lays soft and dreaming in her bed.


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After Everything

After everything we've been through,
do you still love me?
After everything that fell apart,
do you still care?
After everything that happened to us 
would a chance make it better?
I used to think:
no
no
no
But after everything you told me
And I started to slowly believe you
I started to think:
yes
yes
if it's meant to be
After everything, 
I still think about you constantly <3

This is for a special guy who I have really liked ( ok fallen for ).


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Changes Part Two - November

I'm looking around - a year has passed,
The moment I seized is forever to last,
The secrets of cherished November
Still live in the imprints of soft fingertips
You left on my key, in your eyes that eclipse
The various colors of amber.

The waters of changes surround my shore,
The eyes of the suburbs see right to the core,
Respond to my heart's aspiration.
Eternity lingers in love's every breath,
And it is my place from November till death,
My shelter, my sweet isolation.

It's plain and it's simple - I have understood
That I will keep writing this story for good
And send you mysterious letters.
Discover the worlds that my verses create
For you to unravel and investigate,
Just keep them, and nothing else matters.


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Tattoo

An imprint of you remains,

mingled in the blood racing through my veins,


hewn into my flesh you stay,

a chiselled tattoo from our long-lost yesterday,


deeply branded by your entire being,

rooted to a memory incapable of fleeing,


torn, and twisting inside my skin,

the pain screeches like jangling cans of tin,


a desolate nightmare this agony feels,

with a phantom whiff of your sweet breath my soul reels,


now that you are gone, lost within a labyrinth of illusions,

your voice swarms inside my desperate delusions,


scratching, clawing layers of past moments spent with you,

you are a part of me, an unfaded, vivid tattoo,


and as my dreams of you frantically race,

I am unable to erase,

the blazing picture of your exquisite face,


so let me be, and leave me to burn in this furnace of my hell,

I should have known better,

but all that matters little,


because it was for you, that I fell.


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Aching to Ache

Clawing into myself,
digging, scraping, scratching a phantom itch.

…

Amputating feelings, thoughts, emotions,

love,

always excising love,

…

to feel some pain,
for once, to feel the ache, the heartbreak, the anger, the desolation, the loss, the pangs of remorse,

to feel anything at all,

not this numbness,
these tattered synapses, this innured state of anaesthetised unfeeling, the brittle thoughts that shatter, painless, when I stumble and crash, and fall.

…

I ache for the ache, pining to pine, hungering to hunger, bleeding fragments of myself, only to bleed, to feel,

alive,

again…


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Jealousy

I spit on the ground she walks on,
I weep at the sight of her happy.
My fire burns, the ground shakes, and my world breaks,
With every smile she leaks.

The pain in my soul,
Takes a serious toll.
My eyes burn,
And the epitome of pain feels me to my peak.
For with every sight I see,
Gets beneath my armored sheet.

I sit in contemplation,
Over looking my every bit of mind numbing curiosity.
Trust passing in the danger zones,
To find the answer I seek.
Then it all comes to me,
Like the last flash of innocents my eyes have been graced to see.
With every smile she takes my heart breaks,
Not out of pure hate, but over flown with jealousy.
For that smile was put on thy pretty face,
By my once love and grace.
The same smile he once snatched away from my plate.
May I please bring it home,
To its rightful place.


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Finally Over

When you left, I thought a part of me went with you. 
I went back and forth asking myself why. 

You took away my self worth, my dreams of us, and my heart.
I caught you in the wrong too many times to count.

No matter what anyone said, I stayed by your side.
I was there when we had nothing.

I let you make me feel so bad about myself.
I cried myself to sleep countless nights.
For a while, I even thought I deserved you.

I never got an apology, no matter how many tears I cried.

You leaving is now and will always be the best thing that has ever happened to me. 
I was dumb enough to believe that you loved me.

But you know what they say..love is blind.
And how true that is.

So go live your pathetic life, never knowing the meaning of love.
Nothing I have ever said or done compares to the pain you put on me.

There's just something else I have to say..and that is thank you.

Thank you for making me open my eyes so I could see the real you.
Thank you for hurting me so bad that I realize how strong I really am.
Thank you for making me appreciate the right man when he does come along.

Most of all, thank you for walking out of my life so someone better can walk in.


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Game Set Match

the scars run so deep 
it even keeps me out of sleep 
perhaps it is all in my head 
but it is also keeping me out of bed 

all those secrets and stories 
laid out in their full glory 
has made me confused 
left me feeling very abused 

you should feel some shame 
for playing a stupid game 
i should be blamed 
for thinking you could be tamed 

so instead it has me amused 
a little beaten & bruised 
you may have won this war 
but i promise it wont happen any more 

but you're welcome to try 
even if it is all a lie 
to get me back on your side 
so there's no place left to hide 

for we all start as strangers 
encountering many a danger 
the truth does not always set you free 
or even bring you back to me 

so we dance the time old dance 
taking every little chance 
breaking down walls 
answering natures little calls 

and then it's all de je vous 
the story of me and u.......... 
all wrapped up in cliches 
for yet another day.............. 


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TO HURT TO CRY

this pain underneat
and got me beat
help i seek
am so weak
feel like i won't  die 
this is no lie
here why
am
TO HURT TO CRY


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Tattoos, a love story

You asked me what it felt like when the needle pierced my skin.
As if you couldn't see the pain filled expression on my face when the needle went it.
You side line, my thoughts pine, this needles still scrapping this body of mine.
And yet you still don't see it but you still want to know how it feels.
You ask is it like a rush, can you see, can you touch?
I know you hear the faint buzzing of this needle, and the sound gets fainter when he loosens his grip, and on that tattoo gun traces of my blood are still fresh.
And yet you still don't see it but you still want to know how it feels.
He's halfway down my ribs, and you know on that spot the pain is big but I swear i'd take every ounce of it for you, and it's in color so it hurts more but only for you.
You know I have a few other tattoos I tried to cover up too just so you don't see the mistakes and understand that for you, this is real.
That needle didn't flow so gracefully kind of like our relationship, see just by the way you're sitting there asking instead of feeling I can tell you don't get it.
And you know i'd do anything, walk through fire, stand in rain, spill blood, cause pain, just so that you could understand that it's real.
You wanted to understand it's real with this tattoo on my body that YOU can't feel, and i'm standing here looking at the finished masterpiece like damn.
Another mark i'll have to hide, this ink is burning me inside and all you have to say is "are you done?"
You know I did it for you but the strangest thing about you is you still don't see it but you still want to know how it feels.
Maybe you should tattoo my name on you so I know it's real!


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The Field

I am waiting
In the field
For you to find me
The whispers of the wind
To guide
But you will not catch me
You will not sweep me
From the ground
You will not leave me
Either
The night has come
And you stand
Above me
Gaping, at my sorrow
You do not know
Who
 I
Am
But you know
The nonsense
Of the self
Always wanting
Seething for something
Unreachable
You are not the One
I long for
But you will do
For now
You will do
It is hard to say
Why
A simple word
I listen for the answer
But it never comes
The wind roars
Through the brush
And trees
But they do not answer
They snicker
As I weep
For my loss
I want the warmth
The immense comfort
Of life
Therefore you
Will
Not
Do
I have decided
You are not
What I seek
You are
A reminder
Of what I have lost
Your warmth
Is lukewarm
Your touch
Shallow and steel
You let me loose
I will gladly go
Away from this nonsense
Away from the silence
Of waiting
Of wanting
Hoping there is
End
You are hopeless
You are also
Sweet and civil
But I will not 
You do not need me
And I surely
Do not want you
Need and want
In this field
Are the same
Need equals
Want
Want equals
Need
But you are neither
What I want
Or what I need
I am
Not want I want
I am
Not what I need
My attempts to calm
My fragile nerves
In this silence
Torture
I am not enough
But you are
No longer listening
You are not gaping
Or waiting
Or wanting
You are gone
And I am not
But still
We are not sufficient
You are not
And I am not
So, who are we?
Where are we?
The field is
Fading
And I am
Alone
Whispering to
Mocking
Winds


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Emmett Till 2011

So there was black kid
His name was Vincent
Chubby and innocent
Intelligent, but belligerent
Aged 13, he had his first crush
Abigail, a white girl
Pigtails and eyes colored like clam pearls
Only conflict, her family was racist
Her older brother, Nathan, would make threatening faces
He constantly chased Vincent from around her
However, one day, Vincent did find her
Alone by a lake, gazing over the crystal water
He walked over and decided to talk to her
She found he was a pretty nice boy
Not like any other guy who would treat her like a toy
It was then that they shared each other's first kiss
Vincent and Abigail couldn't even believe this
Their hearts were racing
Hormones were pacing
But up from behind them, became good ol Nathan
However, he had a gang of guys with him
Vincent knew at that moment he was finished
So he started running, as fast as he could
But he tripped over a piece of wood and lost balance
Fell in a pile of dirt, and couldn't regroup
Next thing he knew, he was beaten black and blue
Unnoticeable in the conclusion, and Nathan got the allusion
To bury the body somewhere, but threw it in the lake
Poor Abigail cried her eyes out, she couldn't take it
The pain, the violence she had witnessed
The pure kiss from a black kid's lips
Sound familiar? Somewhat if you know your history
I nicknamed him Emmett Till
Pure misery


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The Love of The Untold

Things happen for a reason The reason is because it’s that time Mistakes happen for a reason The reason is so you can forgive The beginning was fun while it lasted But the ending is coming sooner than I thought I gave all I had but what did you give me It takes two to love, which means I need you So tell me what I’m gonna do without your love Can’t get enough even after all the bull I went through I still couldn’t get over you tried to find another to hold To show my love and affection but … I had to let them go all was in the head was you I go through hell to fight for you I just wish these girls would stop falling for you From Mya to Rihanna, hold up Let me guess who’s next a girl named Tiana What do I need? To be crowed with a tiara Just to be you princess You’ll love every hour The time has come for me to stop holding in And let these little girls know I’m #1 not #10 I’m not her and she is not I We’re two different people You just can’t see it through your own eyes I have my own unique things about me She’s just trying to take over you Our fairytale is over Yeah the one when true love dies Cause the stupid little boy wouldn