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Never Thought I'd Fall In Love (With My Best Friend)

(Chorus): Never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend
Sit on the phone and talk for hours about anything
He knew everything about me
He was there through my ups and downs
But I found out he fooled around
I’d never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend

(Verse 1): Its sad how things change
Seems like I want to put things back in reverse
Now that I see I feel my love life is a curse
So many times he say he’d stick by my side
There wasn’t anything I never had to hide
I never thought I’d find myself in love with you
Now what am I going to do 

(Bridge): I go back and look at the relationship
you left me over someone you never met
tell me how did you fall in love over the internet
Why did you do this to me
Boy it cost so much stress
My heart is broken and I’m in so much mess
Never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend 

(Chorus): Never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend
Sit on the phone and talk for hours about anything
He knew everything about me
He was there through my ups and downs
But I found out he fooled around
I’d never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend

(Verse 2-Rap): Its crazy how you say its not me, its you so please don’t take it the 
wrong way
Then, I sit and I wonder how in the world you can say this to me
Now wondering, asking myself how can I make you stay
When you was leaving me for this other chick
Now you don’t even want to pick up the phone 
Boy I know you at, I’m here all alone
So you sit there and ignore me baby
I thought I was supposed to be your one and only lady
Now I have to sit here and pretend like nothing ever happened
Tell me how am I supposed to deal with this boo
Im so in love with you
you left me for who?
The answer just hurt me so bad
Now we doing another sad love song
How are you to tell me who was wrong or right
These words I write are quite contrite
But since Im not the jealous type
I’ll let it fly
Its sad how you did me baby boy


Details | Senryu | |

Violinist Composition

I hear the straw hum
stretched chords groan and snag my heart
leaving me composed.


Details | Ballad | |

Unanswered Poems

Don’t send me more 
Of your tragic poems
My dear 
Covered in blood
Of your monthly flood
Of tears

Don’t send me more 
Of your angry poems
My dear
Carved with the knife
Of your molten spite
And fears

I’m just a peddler 
With a cart
Bringing discount words
To hearts
Broken hearts across the land
Woman left without her man
Broken hearts throughout the world
Anguished boy and crying girl

Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to read, for me to bear
Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to get from here to there

Don’t send me more
Of your bitter poems
My sweet
Forged in the fire
Of your endless ire
And grief

Don’t send me more 
Of your hopeless poems
My sweet
Ripped from the womb
Of the lonely room
You keep

I’m just a peddler 
With a cart
Bringing discount words
To hearts
Broken hearts across the land
Woman left without her man
Broken hearts throughout the world
Anguished boy and crying girl

Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to read, for me to bear
Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to get from here to there

(You see that shadow on the road
Trudging ‘neath its heavy load
A heart weighed down by sands of time
And your poems only make him cry
And he won’t add them to the pile
So he can walk another mile)

(And he won’t add them
To the pile
So he can walk 
Another mile)

Too heavy, dear 
Too heavy, dear
For me to read 
For me to bear

(They make him sad
Make him cry
Beat him down
Deep inside)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear

They make me sad
Make me cry
Feel as though 
I want to die

(And he won’t add them
To the pile
So he can walk 
Another mile)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear

(A heart weighed down 
By sands of time
And your poems 
Only make him cry)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear



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Above the Ocean Path


  " .... can you hear the bells ? ... "
             ~~~   ~~~


I trudge along the ocean path
up the hill to the promenade.
Above the crashing waves I stand,
then memories, my thoughts, invade.

Behind me, white and old, as I,
the abandoned church beckons me.
It says " do you remember when?"
"Think back ... what do you see?"

I remember lilacs blooming
and music from inside,
when this was a church full of life,
when I became a bride.

But now the lilacs fade from sight,
a deserted shell is all I see.
There is no music playing.
Sadness settles over me.

The curtains blow through broken panes.
They billow in the breeze
as if they're trying to escape
out to the beckoning seas.

Once upon a time we were
Alive ! , this church and I.
But we are old and empty now
and ready now to die.


           ~~~   ~~~
"behind the church is a promenade
     they call the Widows Walk"




   ~~~   ~~~   ~~~   ~~~   ~~~   ~~~

    23/09/2011


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Rehab

So much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to shout.
It was like being trapped behind bars without a way
to get out.
My mind going wild with all these questions of why.
The only way to escape was to fall asleep or to cry.
What did I do so bad that made me have to pay?
My friends, my dreams, and my life was swepped away.
I know I can do it! I try and I try.
Nothing seems to get better. I sometimes wish
I would Die.
Starved for attention. I wanna talk to the world.
I just miss being loved. Miss the warmth of a girl.
Snickers and stairs is what my life has become.
I'm treated like I'm a kid, like I'm sick, or I'm dumb.
One day to the next. Life becomes work just to be alive.
I thank god for my blessings. I thank god I survived.
I finally see some improvement. More hope tickles
my brain.
It was worth all the time, all the tears, all the pain.
I awake with a smile and new hope to move on.
I did it! I did it! All those hard times are gone!


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Watch Me Die

The petals of a rose, they tremble and they fall
Just like my aching heart, my backs against a wall
so I Scream- but no one seems to hear me 
(and) I Bleed- but no one seems to worry 
(and) I Cry- but no one spares a passing glance
(and) I Die- no one seems to care

My mask, it melts away
as the flames burn through my bones, the pain it never fades
and its worse because i know the angels are not here to save me
everthing but you hates me
and im stuck with all this trapped inside
Im forced to sit and watch me die

Im in an empty room...
all hope disenegrates.
nothing left to do but get drunken, high
im willing to do anything just to get by

so I Scream- but no one seems to hear me 
(and) I Bleed- but no one seems to worry 
(and) I Cry- but no one spares a passing glance
(and) I Die- no one seems to care

My mask, it melts away
as the flames burn through my bones, the pain it never fades
and its worse because i know the angels are not here to save me
everthing but you hates me
and im stuck with all this trapped inside
Im forced to sit and watch me die
Im forced to sit and watch me die


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Beyond My Mind

Blue or green? The color of the sea, Going up and down the waves, To be my unexpected mood, Sweet or sour the feeling of me. The question of my mind hitting it through the divine, The passion of art inside a deep mind, With full of imaginations, Hitting me through left and right. Perspective comes along with me, Seeing it in my mind, Looking at the blank paper, My emotions run down the pages, Forgetting my visions along, Looking down on paper, Loosing my focus , Is getting hard to draw. Speaking with my wild heart wide open, Thinking of the world we live in today, Standing amongst the people not knowing what to say, Hearing the music flowing into my ears, Beating myself inside these walls of hate, Wanting my eyes to cry with full of tears, Hating to be on this earth, Seeing people fade away, Sinking through lies in my face, Stabbing me in the back when I need them the most, Seeing people with unwanted faith through their eyes, Anger comes my way, Looking down at the world with full of questions in my head, Going crazy with frustration and confusion of me questioning God, Deep inside my heart is burning with poison, Is breaking me apart like glass, At peace without a path in mind, Falling down somewhere here that I never belong, I'm not perfect yet, I like to lead not to follow others. Life is like a tree that grows inside me, Leafs on the tree come and go like people in my life, Taking the road of life, Things can change in a minute, When I look away, My goals would fade away, Going back letting noting stand on my way, Trying harder to focus on my goals, Looking around with a smile on, Reaching my goals slowly without a distraction.


Details | Rhyme | |

Creating happiness

One I was in a stage of hopelessness and lived in this very miserable lodge in Fremantle. I wrote this while I was there mongst crime and misery

Creating Happiness

It’s a block of flats, five stories high
In each room there’s a story
Could be a tale of loneliness
It could be one of glory
But mostly I see poor damned souls
Who have no place to go
In many of these rooms, my friends
No happiness does glow.

Well me, I’ve lived here for a while
I have my little room
It’s where I sit and write my poems
And cut through all the gloom
By banging on my old guitar
And singing out my songs
Or playing my harmonica
Sometimes the whole day long.

It seems the music calms the souls
Of all these hurting guys
Cause most of them that live in here
They never pass me by
Without a wave and a friendly smile
Maybe this be my thing
Amidst all of this misery
Some joy in here to bring.


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Buried Myself Alive

can you remember the time i let you in?
the time i showed you my heart?
the time i shared my soul with you?
the moment i poured out my blood when you needed it?
The second i saved your life?
The hour i saved you from your darkest secret?
The minute where you watched me bury myself alive?
Remember the time when you almost made me cry?
the time i made it a game to play your game?
the day i had my own time and took advantage of myself?
the hour it took to shut you out and let you go away for a long time?
well your going to have to ask nicer than that 


Details | Elegy | |

Moon Walk on Your Grave

Moon Walk on Your Grave

A life begun in stardom,
now, ending up in shame.
Relentless media, cruel world,
who then is there to blame.

A sadness inside,
no tears on your face.
The pain all but over,
mass confusion erase.

In wonder we watch,
can a life be explained?
Can't surface your agony,
under facade you remained.

Let's focus on the talent,
musical joy that you gave.
In peace now I pray,
moon walk on your grave.

© Rene' Brady 2009


Details | I do not know? | |

She's Gone

She's Gone
and she's never coming back
my heart was filled with love
now my heart is being attacked.

She's Gone
and now i have no heart
Why can't we be together even after
death due us part?

When she left  my heart shut down
my soul and my body just fell to the ground.
One by one they ran seperate ways
it was like two people
running in a maze
for a love 
that was no more.

She's Gone
to a place 
much better than here
but I still remember
the way she whispered in my ear
and the way my hands felt in her hair.
So much love.
so much care.
So many people crying everywhere
and i still managed to keep in all inside.

I know she's dead
and I know she's gone
but i miss the way she felt in my arms
my love for her
did no harm
but now she's gone
I said she's gone
and I still go to her grave
to play her favorite song
she's been gone  for to long.


Details | Bio | |

THE LYRE WAS HIS DISGUISE

Nero was a cruel, unfair emperor playing 
the lyre as his disguise to conceal his consuming guilt;
and he caused destruction without feeling
an ounce of pity for those he governed with distrust.


Why did he want to destroy a city so mighty and glorious,
and replace it with a Golden Palace and magnificent gardens?
It seems inconceivable, but it was confirmed by many as the Great Fire
which ravaged Rome for six horrible days...who dared to call Nero a liar? 


On the rooftop, with the widest view of Rome burning underneath,
Nero played the lyre as his disguise...singing,"The destruction of Troy" with derision.  
And while looking so innocent and sad, he did nothing to control it;
wasn't his madness an evident sign of that contemplated act brought to completion?  


Finding the scapegoats was too easy for him, to cover up his evil deed...
he blamed the Christians and had them thrown to the beasts of the Colosseum,
but many more were crucified along the Via Appia and was Nero appeased?
No, he still continued to play the lyre as his disguise with increased delirium.


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A Piece Of Lace

[Verse-1]
I watched you walk by yesterday, and yes again you turned and looked away
You never give me the time of day, and you're always looking sad and grey
A small piece of lace from your pink dress, is all that's left of you and me
Wish I could take back yesterday, when I went astray and set you free
I wish I could find the words to say, instead of making you look away
Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

[Verse-2]
I know that I still need your love, because my heart is always feeling blue
And I guess I'll never be the same, for playing around and being untrue
You gotta know this isn't what I wanted, cause now I'm always on my knees
But I can see how you like your freedom, of being with him and not with me
But baby a twist of fate's what tore us apart, and placed this look upon my face
Oh! it's still funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

[Chorus]
A piece of lace from your pink dress, keeps putting me down won't let me rest
And these cloudy skies are back today, holding my heart and soul at bay
I pray you come and take this lace, and wipe these tears from my face
Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

[Verse-3]
All those things that you used to do, is what made me fall in love with you
You gave me your all once upon a time, but like a fool I up and flew
And the things I went and said that day, made you fade and drift away
I never shoulda treated you that way, cause baby I need you here today
The sun keeps hiding behind the clouds, and all I do is sit and cry
And this piece of lace holds my heart at bay, I don't know...maybe it's a sign

[Chorus]
A piece of lace from your pink dress, keeps putting me down won't let me rest
And these cloudy skies are back today, holding my heart and soul at bay
I pray you come and take this lace, and wipe these tears from my face
Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace


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{In The Distance I hear} A lonely Guitar

I need your kiss I need your arms, then
I need your kiss again
I want to hold you tonight, arm in arm
And keep you safe in this day of harm

I know you still have thoughts for me
Even though you wanted to be free
Now I'm down each day on bended knee
Cause these memories of you cause agony

Then off In the distance I hear a lonely guitar
Playing so softly but it's just to far
A lonely guitar echoing from a mountain top
Playing our song, Oh! I just wish it would stop

I wish you were here in my arms again
Cause my love for you is more than friends
My eyes do cry when I think of you
Oh! I just don't know what to do

I hold these memories of your touch
But the memories I hold's just not enough
I need your lips your soul your heart
Like before the day...we drifted apart

Then off In the distance I hear that lonely guitar
Playing so softly but it's just to far
A lonely guitar echoing from a mountain top
Playing our song, Oh! I just wish it would stop

A lonely guitar echoing from a mountain top
Playing our song, Oh! I wish it would stop
Oh! I wish it would stop


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In My Eyes

Find a way to me. A way you will find. See the colors, In my eyes. Drain the grey, And the black. Bring the color, In my eyes. See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. See the rainbow inside. To think I went insane. You weren't mine. That's what would keep me sane. Dreams and flashbacks come into view. Thinking of what could we've been, Thinking of the pictures of you, Thinking of what we had, I knew I was doomed. See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. Much of darkness is in my eyes. Haven't you noticed I've been down? Showed my all the lies, Do you know in my tears, I drown? See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. There I will wait, There I will cry, There I will relate, There I will die. ~ORIGINAL~ <3 Evalina Elena Eshiii E>


Details | Ballad | |

Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


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The King Of Pop

from his abc's
to that freaky billy jean

came a pop star 
for all to love and see

from the apollo's stage
wondered if you were ready for screaming rage

for you never had a childhood of bliss
only done what was on joseph's list

a studded white glove 
and white socks just because

a star on the hollywood walk of fame
for you sang and danced showing no shame

scandals of twisted truth
did not detour you from your missing youth

neverland was your own safari escape
who would figure your best friend would be a chimp of faith

michael may god cradle you in his arms
and basked in your king of pops worldly charm

will forever miss that porcelain smile
and always think of you on my radio dial

for now your at your heavens trial
may god forgive this lost and lonely child




In Loving Memory Of
Michael Joseph Jackson
Aug 29th 1958 - June 25th 2009

           RIP


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The Escapist's Plea,

I dont know where i'm going anymore hard to tell who you are when the indiffrency has settled in cold, empty, barren will i ever find a way? Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I try to stay sane But i fell under the september rain A repuiem for the reality That i never wish to see Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I need a way to escape, Only if I could just fly away


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Bell's Blues (Conclusion)

     Today, I had a chance to ask his widow, Laurie, about this story.  She 
confirmed that it did happen, and he came home from work that day excited, and 
told her and their 3 daughters about the event.
     And sure enough, shortly thereafter, the song became a hit on the radio, and 
M.T.V., in those ancient days when they actually played music.
     This news brightened my day considerably, and I'm happy to share it with you; 
so when you next hear that song, remember my good buddy, Mark Trotiner, the 
uncredited genius behind it.
                                          tom bell


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Bell's Blues

Staring, vapor locked, at my Hammond B-3 console organ, which dominates my 
kitchen.  Surely a symbol of my madness.  I can't help, but think, if the keys were 
the days of my life, and the black ones represented the bad days, are there 
enough black keys??  Fighting petulance, self-pity...losing...
     Wondering if I can stand another minute alone.  Atop my organ, music books, 
and the complete works of Edgar Allan Poe, another mad poet.
     Plagued by physical agonies that merely complete a perfect circle of anguish 
and distress.  Even to worrying of misspelling a word again.  Pure lunacy.
     Remembrance of my 1863 death at Missionary Ridge, something I became 
aware of as a young child before I'd ever heard of reincarnation.  Or just an early 
sign of the madness to come??
     I am lost in a befouling miasma of deep despair.  My life's hopes down to 2 
desires;  one last music band, and taking my son to Disneyworld.  Money is 
meaningless to me.
     I am well aware that death is as natural as life.  And I would venture to guess 
that the loss of my father, my young cousin Billy, my dear friend Mark Trotiner, and 
too many others, are "Business As Usual" in this universe.  But not for me.
     Being terminally ill myself is something I have long since come to terms with.  
And what a reunion it will be!!  But I must continue to go on surviving as though I 
cherish this long and barren life.
     My writing, especially my poetry, my poet friends, my music, my musician 
friends, and a few relatives and others; these are the meds that work for me; not 
the 30 or so pills I must deal with everyday.  So thank you all.
And now an addendum, one which brightened my day:
     Mark Trotiner long maintained that he gave Mark Knoffler (Dire Straights) the 
idea for his hit song "Money For Nothing", when Mark Knoffler came into the 
appliance chain store he worked in way back then, where he bought, and drove 
off with several T.V.s, singing the prototype words he'd gotten from Mark Trotiner.  
Over the years, I tested him repeatedly, looking for the tale-tell deviation in the 
story one finds in a false tale.  He never faltered, he never failed.
    Continued.....


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Messiah

Something breaks inside this musty beggar.
As he awakes to see he's on 6th Avenue.
Where he sat and sang and endured the weather.
Where he sat and sang and sung the truth.
But the world didn't view things the way he used to. 
And couldn't seem to make them believe. 
The way that he saw things. 
The way that it should be. 

But I heard him play, like holy water.
And it opened up my eyes.
This man in tattered clothing; he's a, messiah, in disguise.
And I will sadly sing these awful songs. 
That were made in his design.  
Like music he sang all along.
Like music that's divine.

But Then his lovely daughter died. 
And he couldn't handle the grief.
He wrote one last sobbing song. 
And they found him in week.
Huddled in inside an alley-way.
Where he died inside his sleep. 
Dreaming on his daughter's eyes. 
Dreaming that he weeps. 

And now I'm singing songs about his daughter.
That brings a tear into to my eye.
This man in tattered clothing; he's a, messiah in disguise. 
So I will sadly sing these awful songs.
That were made in his design.


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Still

I Still go to that same park, down that same lonely street
I Still sit on that same bench, under that same tree
That one where I carved our initials, in a heart on the bark
That night when we kissed and you gave me your heart

I Still remember that night, when we thought we were alone
I Still see how you looked, when you smelled his cologne
That man passing by, holding his wifes hand
That night when we made love, right there in the sand

I Still have these memories, of holding your hand
I Still have your picture, beside my bed on the stand
That one with your tears, that I made fall from your eyes
That night when I broke your heart, and told you those lies

I still can't believe, that I made you go away
Cause I still see you in the mirror, when the sun shines it's ray
That mirror on the dresser, yes your brush is still there
That one that you'd use, each night on your long flowing hair

Oh! darling I still love you, Yes I still love you
And I know when my life's over, darling I know I still will


Details | Couplet | |

for T-Bell

  Knowing her song

still she won't sing it,

her bag's full of notes,

and still she won't bring it,

with veins full of music

she floats on a tune,

she soars on concertos

far over the moon,

I beg and cajole but I'm

just not her Mother,

she won't shed a note

it seems for another,

we're playing piano

on notes  on a page 

waiting for morning 

when she  can asuage,

all of the grief that she finds

on the keys,

see how the muses 

are down on their knees

whispering hope into

lyrics she hears

sonatas that shimmer

away on her tears.




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This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


Details | Ballad | |

London

She called herself London
On that day 
She fell from the sky
Child of apple blossoms
Dancing wildly
Into your mind

The snake that hung from her neck
Bites your hand
Expels you from Eden
Tears into the cool flesh
Of your madness
Posing as reason

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share

Her name was London
Call her London

She called herself London
On that night
She prayed to the moon
Apollo’s lyre
Played darkly
In a portent 
Of your own doom

The hell she hides 
In her soul
Toxic drug you’ll never escape
You crave the milk of her touch
Her strange and dangerous ways

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share  

Her name was London
Call her London

My baby, London
Call her London
My moon-girl, London 
Call her London

I love her, London
Call her London
Forever, London 

I call her London……


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Home of the Slaves

Land of the free
Home of the slaves
The blood, sweat and tears of my ancestors resonate
Amongst the soil where they were slain
I’m hearing their struggle
I’m feeling their pain
I can’t imagine being forced to part from my family
All for massa’s gain
So I pay homage to those who promoted change

People like every slave who tried to escape
Nat Turner, Ms Carlotta, Harriet Tubman
And the safe houses who were in accord
And peg leg Joe with his song
Follow the drinking gourd.

People like, the disregarded - those thrown overboard
And who was dismissed and defamed
The ones who were stripped of their soul, their pride, their names

The list could go on  
The full will never be told
So I pay homage to others who were bold
Like John Brown, The Freedom Riders, Sojourner Truth
Ida B Wells, Phyllis Wheatley, Maya Angelou, 
Langston Hughes and Charles Drew

George Washington Carver, Ruby Bridges
Booker T Washington and Mary McCleod Bethune
Charles Houston, Ralph Bunche, Fredrick Douglass
WEB Dubois, Paul Robeson, Ralph Abernathy
Benjamin Banneker, Marcus Garvey and Crispus Attucks
Who’s death by the way
Symbolized the American lie
You cant declare the rights of all men
While the people of African decent rights get denied
But still we rise

Thanks to Dr Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, 
The Black Panthers, the Buffalo Soldiers and Tuskegee Airmen
None who were showed any love
Yeah it’s an uphill battle, 
But obviously greatness can be done.

We can rise above this stigma 
That blacks are lazy and daunting
That our worth is null and void 
And in essence minus nothing
And of all the names mentioned 
And the greatness of their successes
No one has been able to erase the evil transgressions of a racist mind
And once you have experienced just a taste of it
It changes your perception of time
The oppression beats like the drum on the chariot
Of when it was finally time to escape to freedom
It's mine


Details | Light Poetry | |

Running Away

Packing bags and leaving home 

Running into the darkness of 
night like a criminal

No destination

Just an escape into freedom 
from the nightmare

Just feeling the sunlight’s breath 
on my cheek freely

A winds whisper touching my 
ears

Running away from dreams and 
wishes

Setting an adventure of a 
lifetime

Running away from the past 
where horror lies

Running away from lullabies and 
thunder

Forgetting everything for awhile 

And sit down and breathe in and 
out for awhile

Smelling the freshness of life 
that will no longer exist


Details | Ballad | |

Rose Hips Lady

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Taste those sweet confessions
On your baby breath
Lift this wounded flag
Into your burning nest

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Tame the roaring tiger
Never lets you rest
Take my last reward 
From your moonlit breasts

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Daddy’s gone hunting 
He’s gone away
Daddy’s gone hunting
Won’t be back for days

Left you with a lover
Makes a shrine 
Of your skin

Left you with a lover
Takes you down
Roads of sin

Left you all alone 
Alone

And the knots cut deep
Through the musk and flesh
Of hot regret
And the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

You release the Beast
From a well that’s wet
You will confess
That the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

Rose hips lady
Aaaaaah......


Details | Tail-rhyme | |

The Blues

You have Africa on your mind
The distant land you left behind
With nothing to prove.

Humiliated, without a choice
There’s melancholy in your voice
What is your next move?

Vent your feelings through land and sea
To the rhythm that sets you free
Who could disapprove!

Raise your song – with a blend of hues
Bring on the notes of swinging blues
To shuffle and groove. 


--------------------------------------------

Author: Paul Callus ~ 8th March 2014
Contest : Take Two
Sponsor: Nette Onclaud
Placing: 2nd


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Listen




Listen for I will only say this once,you don't seem to understand you've created a damaging wall.
Listen for I will only say this twice,your heart and mind are cold for you have numb you emotions.
Listen for I will only say this last time,you heart plays to a sad tune.
Where are you now? Because you mine is somewhere else.
Could you hold onto them ? For it's not to late,like it is for us.
Don't worry,leave those sorrows behind and release that part of yourself. Be kind,be gently,and speak gently.
Don't let your two piece tongue be your shield for that's your downfall.Do you know who I am? Of course not.You who have put up road blocks which is why I say this with swollen heart.Break that wall of fear.
Listen for I will only say this once,break that wall of fear.
Listen for I will only say this twice,there  more warmth in other then alone.
Listen for I tell you this the last time,make the sad tune into something vibrate.
I say this because I love you enough to say this,the past is past tomorrow tomorrow but we only can take what we get today.


Details | Narrative | |

The Woman In White

It was a cold and rainy night.
The stars were shining bright.
It seemed as if the world was at a pause and not a person was in sight.
I sat quietly in my car, 
the sound of music I heard blasting from a far.
I opened my door,
stepped out slowly and looked around.
Now suddenly the music stopped,
not a word is heard, not even a sound.
I turned my head, looked over my shoulder,
I saw a woman running.
She was wearing a white gown.
I couldn't help but wonder why this woman running
flaunted such a frown.
I followed her footsteps,
I listened for the sound.
Running through the darkness,
one question came to mind,
Who would leave this woman?
Who would be so heartless?
How can someone leave her when she is so obviously distraught?
Abruptly a sound was heard.
I came to a stop.
I listened closely.
It was a gunshot.
Now fearful I stood.
I began to run as fast as I could.
I ran so fast, I could hear my heart beating.
I came upon my car and noticed a woman bleeding.
She was gasping for air.
Someone had shot her and left her to die there.
It was as if they didn't even care.
She reached for my hand,
whispered softly to me
"never trust a man"
At that moment her hand dropped.
I knew her heart had stopped.
I looked at her white gown now dripping red.
I I cried to myself and pondered what she had said.
This could be me.
I could be lying here dead.
I will remember her words always.
They will haunt me for the rest of my days.
This moment I will never forget.
No man should ever be such a threat.

This was the day my life would change.
From this day on I would never be the same.
The lesson I learned here,
never have such fear.
Fear that will keep me from being free.
I learned that I can be happy just being me.


Details | Ballad | |

Voice in the Night

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Healing words
Made from
Angel heart

Oh, her chocolate whisper
Warm convincing breeze
Oh, her breathy laughter
In the shadow of my need 

Don’t you hear the voice?
Save  you from despair
Don’t you hear the voice?
Sent by ghosts who care

Don’t you hear the voice?
Rises like a prayer
Come to rescue you
From your earthly snare

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope 
Kissed my tears away

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Now I dance
To a magic serenade

Don’t you hear the voice?
Memories of home
Don’t you hear the voice?
Pretty as a poem

Don’t you hear the voice?
Vivifies your soul
Bathes you in a pool 
Love you’ve never known

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller,
Take me, take me
To your bed

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller
Raise me, raise me
From the dead

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head


Details | Ballad | |

To Music

Sweet sounds so dear—
Pure timeless tones of gladness—
Your melodies bestir my soul to flight—
Through darkest night
And doleful days of sadness—
I thank you for my hope and banished fear,
Oh precious music, mine to hear.

In sorrow born—
From dust to dust we wander,
Lamenting, all too late, come winter frost,
The springtime lost.—
Our lives we vainly squander.
The mourning bells do toll for us, forlorn.—
Oh may we hark to heaven's horn!

Sweet sounds so dear—
Pure timeless tones of gladness—
Your melodies bestir my soul to flight—
Through darkest night
And doleful days of sadness—
I thank you for my hope and banished fear,
Oh precious music, mine to hear.


– Harley White

[Song Lyrics for 'An die Musik' – Franz Schubert (1797–1828) ]


Details | Rhyme | |

Madness

The madness is closing in,
I can feel its stagnant breath.
It beckons : " It's easier to give in
than face sanity's wrath."

"Hope is but the unforgiving sun,
that leads feathered fools to their deaths.
Fairness is but a laughable pun,
that old men joke to their cats."

I can only find solace
in my digital domain of songs.
Fake stories of love and grace,
the only right in all these wrongs.

The madness is closing in,
I can feel its stagnant breath.
Maybe I should give in,
than follow destiny's path.


Details | Free verse | |

Gene, Gene, the Singing Machine

(in memoriam, Eugene Lawler, d. January 29, 2012, aged 83 years)

--- Note:  "The singing machine" is a not so tongue-in-cheek reference to Gene and his penchant for singing whenever and wherever he wished, as well as to his karaoke
equipment and his nickname at bars that featured karaoke nights. ---


You fancied yourself a singer,
and indeed you were.
What songs we heard from you
you had made your own,
and you gave them freely
to all who would listen
(though we were just a few
who were, at times, inattentive.)
Time and remembrance may color
the images you left behind,
and the sentimental songs
you sang (and scribed on silver disks 
for us to hear when, and if, we will)
may prod us to recall
your willful, dour demeanor
which could bloom into benevolence
or darken further in stormy sneers
at tardiness, or at perceived
maltreatment of any sort.
You were your own arbiter of behavior
who kept before you expectations
of what was appropriate, for yourself
and for us, the others of your kind.
We were few (still fewer now),
who flocked together on occasion
to celebrate, in quiet fashion,
whatever anniversary we chose --
perhaps your passing date
will become another to be marked.
And your voice, reproduced mechanically,
amplified, may remind us of our loss,
and of yours.  


Details | Ballad | |

Zero

I was born pale and invisible
In a world
Sees everything 
Everything, everything….but me

Invisible to your touch
And doubt you’ll like me very much
Am I alive?
Was I ever me?

I’m a non-existent cipher
A pointless empty zero
Never added up to anything
A non-existent cipher
Pointless empty zero
Tell me….what does it all mean?

And now I think I want you
Ethereal body
Oblivious mask
And now I think I love you
Intelligent lips
Painted in black

But no need to look my way
Or give me the time of day

Can’t be with you 
In this world
Invisible man 
Never gets the girl

Oh, no...

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be felt by me

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be loved by me

Your 
Zero 
Tonight
Your 
Zero 
For life
Your zero
The day I die

Your zero….your zero

Zero


Details | Rhyme | |

Death by Beauty

A smile moves across her lips
She gazes at her crime
A scar across her flesh and soul
To haunt her for all time
She’ll waste away for all she cares
Never stops to use her brain
Doesn’t care about the ones who are close
All she cares about is pain

She wants to be what the others expect of her
Doesn’t care about the self-respect for her
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Can’t she see what all she has got
Already?

Never to go back again
She feels the world is at an end
She will never show her grief
Although she’ll cry in empty streetS

She’d sooner live like a desolate mole
Living in fear in an empty hole
Screaming silent wails alone
Content to live in her mental home

A final tear falls from her eye
It hits the ground, it’s followed by
A beautiful body, mutated by hate
A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late
One two many bricks in the wall in her mind
Molding her demise because her heart was blind
This self conscious being could never have won
For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones

She wouldn’t fight back, wouldn’t respect herself
In the end, she managed only to wreck herself
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Little did she know, she had all she had sought
Already


Details | Lyric | |

Save Me

Save Me
By: IzaDonna

Look in the mirror
Do you recognize her
Do you see the coldness in her eyes
Do you see where the darkness lies
Hidden secrets of the past
To late, the spells been cast
And as the stars arise
My own self will be my demise

Chorus:
So you think you can save me
Finally set my retched soul free
Be my ultimate savior
You thinking ur doing me a favor
But just let me alone
My fate is only my own

I get u try and u care
But thru it all u weren't there
I cant move on from my past
The agony I feel will always last
The knife is in way to deep
So let me shut my eyes and sleep
Cause u can't fix whats already broken
The pain I feel is better left unspoken

Chorus

So as the darkness creeps in
I feel I'm paying for my sins
No way to escape
My soul is yours to take
Just let me bleed these tears
Just let me lay here
Looking up at the sky
I ask God why

Chorus

Cause you can't fix what isn't broken
The pain is better left unspoken


Details | I do not know? | |

I Had

i had a  place where your
 heart it would be
and i everytime i turn around
girl your in my dreams.

I had a place that 
nobody new was there
and everytime i lost my love
my heart it disappeared. 

This place
only had one face
and out of the whole world
it had to be you girl.

I had something
that ran so deep
and i had love 
but it wasn't so sweet....
my heart is empty
it wont even beat
and everytime i cry,
i cry myself to sleep.

It was you
that kept me awake
for 3 hours
from like 5 to 8...

I had you
I had you
but your gone so what can i do?


Details | Pantoum | |

Dance Steps

As I sing a long forgotten song warm memories flood my soul my walk becomes dance steps you are my partner once again warm memories flood my soul twirling faster I search for you you are my partner once again a first dance for the rest of our lives warm memories flood my soul my walk becomes dance steps twirling faster I search for you as I sing a long forgotten song By Rhonda Johnson-Saunders Third Place in Brian Strand's Twelve max Any Form/Any Theme


Details | Lyric | |

Hell And Haggard

Hello Dr. Daniels......
Look where her final blow was dealt
Right in the center of my chest
Just a little to the left

Hello lonesome legend....
How sweet you make the sounds
Can you take me far away
Before the devil takes me down

Tonight...I'm going through
Hell and Haggard
Playing all his greatest hits
Trying to forget...my greatest failures

Where the lonely go
Is where I'll be found
Ol' Merle can pick me up
When the bottle lets me down

Tonight I'm going through....
Hell and Haggard

When I finally listened
You know.....She didn't say a thing
'Guess that how love goes
When angels spread those silver wings

Tonight I need a friend
Who knows how a memory feels
And there ain't nobody better
Than that 'ol boy from Bakersfield

And tonight I'm going through.....
Hell and Haggard 




PROTECTED BY COPYRIGHT LAWYERS........and a Chihuahua


Details | Ballad | |

the poverty blues song

I've got damp on my walls and cobwebs in the hall
got a rat in the kitchen
where the cockroach crawl.
I got holes in my shoes
where my toes peep through
I got a bad case of the poverty blues.

I got a crack in my bathtub and bed bugs in my bed
I got things crawlin through my hair
that make me scratch my head

Got piles of bills collected by my door
the one's I should have paid a year or two or more.
I try to get myself sorted
but always seem to lose
I got a bad case of the poverty blues.

Guitar.

I got trouble in my hovel
and the place could do with a good clean
I may not be superman
but  I try the best I can
I just find things so hard to do
Guess I got a bad case of the poverty blues.

Some people call me lazy
but I sure ain't crazy
I;m a man alone in the world what can I do
I got a bad case of the poetry blues.

I'd love to meet a girly
who could cook and clean
with lots of money
so I could live my dreams
one thet would say I do
so I no longer got to sing the poverty blues
say I no longer got to sing the poverty  blues uesssssssssssssss.

Peter Dome copyright. 2012.


Details | Narrative | |

LISA'S IVORY MUSIC BOX

Many Christmas stories are told every year,
and many songs are sung with pure cheer;
do I have a good story, at least one, I can tell,
or a simple song I can hum and spread good will?


When Lisa's grandmother passed away unexpectedly...
by her dying bed she kept an ivory music box,
and to her lovely granddaughter she gave it
to saying," Take care of it, and smile when you think of me!"


The day after granny died, she went down the dark cellar
to hide the ivory music box in an old dresser's drawer,
and once in a while she would open it and play it and listen to it sadly;
the pretty angel swirled...and Silent Night played as Lisa touched it tenderly.


It was almost Christmas Day and the pine tree wasn't decorated yet,
she rushed outside carrying a red basket with ornaments in it;
how could she had forgotten to adorn it with bulbs and garlands?
" Oh gosh, I feel like the Grinch!"  she displeasingly uttered to herself. 


There was no snow predicted for that evening and the illuminated town
was lacking Nature's magical snowflakes to make it festive and vibrant;
five minutes to midnight the choir from the nearest church gathered outside,
and waited for a miracle...silence...tranquility...every heart felt so alone.


But Lisa with an indomitable spirit ordered them to sing, 
and they began singing looking up the clearest, starriest sky;
everyone seemed sad and some of them wanted to cry,
but before sadness set in...snowflakes began falling.


Lisa knew that it was the miracle she had been waiting for,
but something was missing from the snowy scenery...
she remembered her ivory music box she had put away,
and running, with awe in her bright eyes, she opened the cellar's door...


Clutched in her caring, careful hands, she carried the ivory music box,
laid it gently underneath the twinkling, scented Christmas Tree;
Lisa kissed it tenderly...until the golden angel started to swirl at midnight,
as that divine music filled the nippy air...making all cheeks so peachy.        


Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci


Details | Villanelle | |

Marshland Dreams

In the night the marsh cricket cries,
Ringing through the starless still
A song of aurora skies.

A pale gray moon, listening, sighs,
No wind rippling the watermill
In the night the marsh cricket cries.

Shearing the dark a lost bird flies,
The melody shivers in the chill
A song of aurora skies. 

Hours before forgotten sunrise,
Ants dare venture from their hill
In the night the marsh cricket cries.

Beneath the marsh water millions of eyes,
Shameless creatures drink in their fill
A song of aurora skies.

There are no fears, there are no lies
They cannot understand this thrill
In the night the marsh cricket cries
A song of aurora skies.


Details | I do not know? | |

New York Rodeo

No 8 second ride for these cowboys tonight
As they start in the morning, losing daylight
Their hats are now ties, tethering true
Not breathing in clean air as faces turn blue

Their motive, the green, but not of a pasture
Not men of free will, but now slaves to a master
When the bell rings, it’s chaos, not for a meal
It’s a dog eat dog city, with true faces concealed

They’re just…

Cardboard cowboys in a concrete canyon
Riding steel horses, reigning in their abandon
Letting loose bridles, for no horses they ride
Spending their days, cooped up, deep inside

It’s a sad way
And a sad day
For New York cowboys

Their fishing hole yonder’s now polluted with clutter
As their southern boy drawl’s replaced with a stutter
No chaps and no stirrups, no boots and no jeans
Their lives are now over, at the end of their means

The bull that they ride are the very stories they tell
From wall to wall bouncing, not sitting a spell
They are always in a hurry, no time for the rose
Not much of a cowboy or anything, I s’pose


They’re just…

Cardboard cowboys in a concrete canyon
Riding steel horses, reigning in their abandon
Letting loose bridles, for no horses they ride
Spending their days, cooped up, deep inside

It’s a sad way
And a sad day
For New York cowboys


Details | Personification | |

Drawn in Harmony

The phrase "Music to my ears" has been injected toward the 
wrong part of my body, and most unpleasantly personified. 
There is a record player that I let skip and scratch on purpose, hearing 
colorful sound of life back when truth kept us both inside the lines. 
I thought order was helping me draw closer to you, while you began on the next 
page without me. The needle digs it's way into my ape-shaped forearm. 
I'm directed by the guitar string shaped veins 
that only play notes in the keys of D# E# A# F# and the sharp sounds pierce 
my perception to the point I can hardly hear your voice anymore. 

At times, listening to the same old sad song on repeat makes me think
that I am just an old soul getting repeatedly tossed around in God's 
big barrel of human paradox. "Lord what was I made for? Surely it wasn't 
to repeat the mistakes of my forefathers, because I'm certain I am the 
only one you molded with forearms so large, that the record got lost 
and forgot how to spin in circles. Music is all about art, and art all about 
perception. Perception has nothing to do with your eyesight, and 
you use your ears to envision the painting on a blank canvas before picking 
anything else up but sound waves. I drive myself crazy sometimes when 
I think that my inspiration is speeding away from me in the 
opposite lane, but I didn't even ask for directions. Mostly because I'm a man, 
a stubborn one at that, and I always think I know where I'm going. 
But this time, I swear I had gotten the map right. So I transformed my open 
hands into tight fists to make music burst out of my arms, and the needle went 
faster and faster until it broke off, and the high pitched vibration 
disintegrated the steel into my own blood. I blame myself for letting this 
be the first time to let myself draw some air into my body. A surgery of 
scalpels cutting into my physical, and an orchestral symphony of sutures, 
threading my life back together again. My blue blood turns crimson as it kisses the air. 
Why do we associate the color red with life and vibrancy, when it clearly shows that we are letting our own blood run down our arms? Why do so many women where red lipstick; the kind that sticks to your collar, screaming to your wife that you clearly sinned? 
Why do we see sin so clearly; transparent enough for others to correct us before we really we even grasp the desire to fix ourselves? AND WHY IN THE WORLD IS THIS MUSIC PLAYING SO LOUDLY NOW; when my needle broke off into my body a long time ago, and I can hardly hear you anymore.
Good thing my life's song still isn't completely written yet. Let's add a more positive climax to this. One drawn in harmony.


Details | ABC | |

Grey Bird

On that cloudy weekend in June 
I hear a soft and graceful tune 
from the grey bird on the tree 
branch 
Singing sweet lullabies felt 
blessed in the moment 
My body tingles of joy at sight 
Gazing out through 
my open door,
Letting thoughts fly free
Releasing love out into the horizon 
Heart filled with emotion came 
over me 
Grey bird stood playing its tune 
for awhile and on the wings of 
letting go
Then as the rain fell from the 
sky the grey bird flew away 
gracefully 
I blew a kiss to the clouds and 
utterd these simple words of I 
Love You father ( who's now in 
heaven ) and yet I hope to hear 
that grey bird sing again once 
more for me 
Farewell, love your son

Poem contest for Debbie -referential


Details | Triolet | |

those low down dirty blues again

Those low down dirty blues again remind me ‘bout bad times I knew, when tears poured down like driving rain. Those low down dirty blues again that make me sing a sad refrain ‘cause deep inside’s so dark and blue. Those low down dirty blues again remind me ‘bout bad times I knew. Don’t let them take what’s left of me; it’s all I got, just help me live. So strum it down now, set me free; don’t let them take what’s left of me. Just play it hard, don’t want to see that pain is all life has to give. Don’t let them take what’s left of me, it’s all I got, just help me live.
Entry into contest sponsored by Michael J. Falotico Contest Name: What Songwriter or writers Inspire you???? Eric Clapton, hands down. That man knows how to sing and play the blues. Poem is based on his song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3wX1wn-0go


Details | Lyric | |

Blinded

Branded, like a cigarette
crushing flesh to the bone
paralysed by fear
though you struggle on your own
your ego 's got you wary
while your mind's in control
shut empty and on edge
Oh Down you go

No formal introduction
to a girl without a face
arms stretched out wide
consoles me with her grace
she says, she's got the answer
to any kind of pain
medicated love
pyrotechnics for the flame

Guess i am
your muse my friend
oh Yes I am
she says ... 


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

No Parachutes,safety nets,souls,or hope

Love is whispered and not forgotten
If this be so
I deaf to soft lipped invitations seek no thought of hope
I of no past collection hold thought
To forget is gruesome and beautiful

My eyes, swift allies in my war of world tell no lies

Silent in the 4 walled chalkboard blue
Shakespearean mad men twist their tongues with words of bland hue

I believe the concept of Ugliness is more profound than that of beauty
Dreams of my bladed face fill up behind my eyes...scratching my mind

Nothing goes SURPRISE! anymore
To love and lose is not the exciting protagonist to never having lost love

the optimists run in circles
pretenders of despair hunt themselves

Every street is Desolation row and my window is covered with blood

Nothing comforts anything
No advice

....just surprises


Details | Free verse | |

Stuck

I'm like a lion
Tryin to be  trained
to behave in a cage, but
I wasnt born to be tame
Full of stress and rage
 Im compressed and chained
Infected with depression
beCause I cant catch a break
Lifes taste is so tart
In pain from my scars
Stained by lame luck
Stuck behind apace car
I strive to write
But all I can type is the space bar
I'm Pervaded with doubt
About to freakout
Quick Someone bail me out
I would sniff my way out
but I got this cyst on my snout
From 6 years of this drought
Im sittin with this could of pout
Stickin to me like jam from a can
like melted candy in your hand
I'M a pantree full of Spam
 A Letter without the stamp
A debtor without a plan
Like chicken on a pan without any Pam,
Damn I'm starting to get pissed
 I got to devise a plan, before I break my fist,
Punching this brick wall, I got the spit but no ball
got the wits with no squall, like a toliet with no stall
 Slippin in a pit fall, Shiz just snow balls
I want to brawl, missed last call
My Stick shift just stalled,
This lawl has no intention at stopin at all
And I'm kicking myself in the balls
like old men walking up and down the halls
so i flop, just like a dust mop
Now i got knots in my food box
The size of king kongs rocks and
Every door has been locked
I try to soar but its all for not


Details | Lyric | |

I Aim (Song)

Staring at shadows,
Squeezing my pillow,
Trying to forget 
you are gone,
Refuse to let go of,
The faint taste of true love,
Your presence
is lingering on,

Since you walked 
away from me
I cannot bear
to see the day,
The waking sunlight
through my window
Takes your
memory away,
 
If I could
see you again
I'd say..
For you,
I Aim,

I aim to be
I aim to see
The day your love
once again belongs to me,
Since you left,
I'm just not the same,
because its for your love
I Aim

The friends 
who still know me
Know
 I'm fading slowly
Baby, I'm not 
doing too well,
Each day 
as I'm waking
For you I'm waiting,
Loving you
 and no one else,

When I, wake up 
in the morning,
All I feel 
is empty space,
Each second 
I spend breathing,
is me thinking
 of your face,

If I could
see you again
I'd say..
For you,
I Aim,

I aim to be
I aim to see
The day your love
once again belongs to me,
Since you left,
I'm just not the same,
because its for your love
I Aim


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I'll Stand By You

To my best friend, JAM… I know you’re tired and your soul is weary; twenty three hours 
Of each day you’re alone and in that cell. But be strong and know that you’re really not alone
If you could only look at it, this way..alone, away from the others, you are safe..away from
Deeper trouble..soon you’ll be going home.  Although my heart is heavy,
 I am sure your cross is far heavier than mine. I tried to find a song that would tell you that 
you are loved and I chose this  Please read these words to this song, 
“I’ll stand By You” by The Pretenders
Written by HYNDE, CHRISSIE/KELLY, TOMSTEINBERG, William E/
They don’t play it often on radio stations anymore, so I’m posting the lyrics instead.


Oh, why you look so sad, the tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now, and don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through, ‘cause I’ve seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you, you don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess could make me love you less.

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you, won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you’re mad, get mad, don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey there, what you got to hide?
I get angry too, well, I’m a lot like you
When you’re standing at the cross roads
And you don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along, ‘cause even if your’re wrong
I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you, won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Even to your darkest hour, and I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you
And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You’re feeling all alone, you’re wandering on your own
I’ll stand by you…………


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A Tribute To Freddie Mercury

A Tribute To Freddie Mercury

What happened?
Why did God take you away?
Your music soothed so many
Brought others to tears
Yet everyone danced and sang with you
Following your fingers on the piano keys
You cast your spell over thousands
Your voice was a gift from the gods
You took the stage you were blessed
And you blessed us with your songs
We didn’t know that you were suffering
That you were dying
You kept your pain a secret so we would not worry
You knew we would mourn before your life was over
You knew we would cry and not hear your last songs
How we miss you since you left
Your band continues on
Playing the music that you made famous
It is not the same
You made the music everything that it was
You changed music from the day you sang your first note
No one will ever give what you gave
You gave you life for your fans
We knew it and we loved you for it
Your goodbye left a void that will never be filled
Four word and just for words say what we feel
They are strong words that you gave meaning to
We hear them when we see you on a video
They echo through our ears as we hear your song
God Save the Queen and God bless Freddie
He will always be royalty in our hearts


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Wallace Hartley,Titanic Bandmaster

As I gather them to the first class lounge
Surely we will calm down the throng.
Of mothers in shock,fathers at a loss.
Crying wee ones encased in their arms.
Lifeboats not nearly enough I hear.
And so we play together as one.
The piano and cellos,the violins.
Kindred spirits fighting our terror.
On we play as the air becomes frozen.
Horrific screams we play beyond.
Seven band members and I.
Wallace Hartley is my name.
Please do remember me.
The bandmaster am I and these
Are the last moments of my life.
And so I instruct the band to play
One last song to say good-bye.
"Nearer My God To Thee" reverberates
Across the splintering bow as all light
From this world is extinguished at last.


By Deb Wilson
for My heart will go on and on contest
sponsored by Tracie~Indigo Dreamweaver


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Party Hard

I had a woman but she's gone for good
I could get her back, don't know if I should
It's alright though I can get many more
They call 'em callgirls but I called 'em whores
I gave 'em drinks 'till they couldn't see straight
I guess I did that too, it was my fate
We woke up early, around 2 PM
"Get your stuff and leave." I told them
I got a new group of girls every night
If they stayed longer we would start to fight
They said they needed more, what did they need?
They never wanted my love, they wanted my speed

I was partyin' way too hard
But it's all I had at the time
Never thought it would be this hard
Just tried to make due for the time

Got in my porsche and went for a drive
I never drove too fast, I'd go 105
Cops tried to pull me over but I just showed my face
They said, "Oh, sorry sir, carry on with your race."
Who was I racin'? I had nobody
If I wanted friends I had to pay fees
I stopped at home and I moved a few lines
If I get caught, I'd just pay their fines

I was partyin' way too hard
But it's all I had at the time
Never thought it would be this hard
Just tried to make due for the time
My friends were fake and the sex wasn't great
I guess havin' money and fame was my fate
They told me they loved me, I never believed 
What a tangled mess of webs I had weaved

Headed to the party, the hottest spot
I brought my coke, my girls, I liked what I got
When I showed up they crowded around me
I didn't know anywhere I'd rather be
We headed inside, I cut up some lines
I let it loose, I cut all my binds
I said, "Let's party all night, and everyday."
Partied all my life, it's the only way


I was partyin' way too hard
But it's all I had at the time
Never thought it would be this hard
Just tried to make due for the time
My family was gone, and my friends? They weren't real
I didn't want to be here, I didn't want to feel
The coke was too strong, the girls were too fake
I tried to make it good, I just needed a break
But my life caught up with me, it was too fast
Partied too hard and long, my life had passed
I partied way too hard
But it's all I had at the time
I never thought it would be that hard
I just couldn't make due at the time


Details | I do not know? | |

PAIN OF THE PAST

As i close my eyes,
and the pain of the past starts to flash 
back in my mind
I try to put it aside, 
but don't matter  how hard i try 
i cant  take way this way i feel inside.
  ITS  like, sit in my room writing my
tune  an the  past starts to flash back  in my 
mind.
i just cant  help my , self 
but to sit an cry,this pain hurts so bad in side.


Details | Rhyme | |

Sad song

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_5j0uzlYfo&feature=plcp

I'm tired of hearing that same song
That same mournful and sad beat
A slow tempo with a soft tone
That causes your eyes to leak

The sad moaning of the violin
Mixing with the steady heartbeat of the drums
Emotions that were forced to stay hidden
Exploding like a number of silent bombs

Feelings so strong heading to the climax
The beat breaks with an emotional release
The mental battle between the sword and ax
Before you can attain an emotional peace

Eyes red from painful tears
As the mind and body slowly recover
The sad song finally ends
But then it is played over and over


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Mask

I got too much emotion, too much pain.
I try to stay strong to keep myself sane.
I put on a mask with a fake smile and lie,
I'm wearing a "stay strong" disguise.
Pent up aggression, pent up sorrow,
How do i make it and see tomorrow?
I have so many secrets and burdens,
they're under the surface and hidden.
I dont know what to do anymore,
I dont know what to believe.
i cant live this battle this war,
this self hatred.... these lies I've made for me.
Pent up aggression, pent up sorrow,
How do i make it and see tomorrow?
I have so many secrets and burdens,
they're under the surface and hidden.
My whole world just spins round and round.
I put it behind me, but it comes back and bites me.
I'm fallin down,yet my past just haunts me.
Memories are burned in my head,
I dont want to remember this,... again.
I got too much emotion, too much pain.
I try to stay strong to keep myself sane.
I put on a mask with a fake smile and lie,
I'm wearing a "stay strong" disguise.
I dont know what to do anymore,
I dont know what to believe.
i cant live this battle this war,
this self hatred.... these lies I've made for me.


Details | Rhyme | |

The New Santa Claus

I'm locking up my house, because it's that time for thieves.
I need to Santa proof my place, because It's Christmas Eve.
If he does get in, I'm going to run and hide.
I left out some milk and cookies with rat pellets inside.
While he's eating the cookies and he's starting to sweat.
The reindeer will be caught in security nets.
"I'm sorry boys and girls, but Santa has to retire!"
I'm going to tie him to the tree and set poor Santa on fire.
Then I'm going to take the toys and keep them all to myself.
Even though I've been bad, no coals will be on my shelf.
Merry Christmas to me! This year is going to be grand!
I'll get whatever I want, if Christmas goes as I planned!
Wearing Santa Claus' suite I'll get in houses without keys.
In twenty seven minutes I'll rob twenty seven trees!
So all you little brats, don't you cry and sob.
With the recession and depression, I just needed a job.
A lot of things are going to change, but you all shouldn't be sad.
Now that I'm the new Santa, It doesn't matter who's bad.
I'll use the elves as my slaves and the toys will still come.
Instead of a Nintendo, you'll get a gallon of rum.
Toy guns are for babies, how about the real thing?
A candy neckless won't impress, I'll make sure that it's bling.
You said you wanted a pony? How about a deer that can fly?
No more lousy presents, no more socks, or bad ties.
I'll change... 
Wait... Wait a minute... Was that all just a dream?
Why do I only have coal under the tree and in my stocking?
Santa please come back! I promse I'll be better next year!
I promise I'll be good and I'll spred more Christmas cheer!

Did Santa Claus come back? Did he come like I thought he should?
No Santa didn't, but next year I'll be good!
I'll only do what is right, aleast to his satisfaction.
So he comes back to my house, and my plan goes back into action!


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The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


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Ferris Wheel

You keep my head spinning around.
You never take my hand anymore.
You always try to bring me down,
and ruin my dreams I have in store.
Guilt is written all over your face.
I'm not sure I really understand.
You're not staying with me another day.
I can find myself a real good man.
Don't keep me riding your ferris wheel.
This heart of mine is hard to heal.
Some things you do just don't seem real.
Don't keep me riding your ferris wheel.
Why do you keep wasting my time?
I'm tired of your little white lies.
Your sad song alliby.
Your messing around withy my mind.
Yeah! The rain is falling down.
But I assure you it won't be my tears hit the ground.
I'll stop the wheel from spinning around.
You'll get what you deserve.
I won't be second best to her.
Don't keep me riding your ferris wheel.
This heart of mine is hard to heal.
Some things you do just don't seem real.
I'm not riding your ferris wheel.


Details | I do not know? | |

Haiku #4 - True Story

She was addicted
to cocaine just like I was
addicted to rap.


Details | Lyric | |

I've Been Here Before

chorus

Well, the one I wanna see
Don't wanna see me
I've been here before...
I've been here before...

I guess I ask
For a little too much
I've been here before...
I've been here before...

Happiness, you're a stranger
You ain't no friend of mine
I know what I want, I can't have it
I guess I'll do some time

Some time without the one
The one I wanna see
I guess it's ended this way
She don't wanna be with me

repeat chorus

Loneliness is a hitchhiker
I picked up on the road
She told me to relax
That she had time to blow

Letdown was a friend of mine
I grew to know her well
She always asked if I was buying
'Cause she had goods to sell

repeat chorus

I could tell my girl it's right
But I'd know it's wrong
Conscience, you're a...jerk(profanity)
I guess I'll have to stand long

I'd stand forever through any kind of weather
If there was a chance
A chance that I'd get through
Through to you

repeat chorus

The one I want won't have me
She won't even call
I guess I wanted too much
I guess I wanted it all

Expecting too much is dangerous
Better watch your step
Because I'm telling you, my friend
Heartbreak never ends

repeat chorus


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All About Her

I dont know much about her
but I heard she wasnt that talkative
She didnt like being alive
She was numb to all the pain she had to go through

I heard she didnt like anything that was green
She ate roman noodles everynight for supper
She always wore flannels and bellbottoms
Sometimes i seen her wear dresses and fancy tops
But lately shes been wearing band shirts

She wears converse shoes and uses an army bag for school
I know that she dosent like to communicate through talking... only through her peoms
or sometimes even her songs.

I see her drawing and painting all the time
She draws famous people
She would like to be famous and not so unknown
When she tries to speak to anyone they always walk away and leave her alone

When she gets home she goes upstairs to play her bass guitar
She hates chocolate cake but loves chocolate
Her family left her behind because she cant forget her past

Sometimes when shes alone she contemplates the meaning behind her life
Her favorite color is gray because her life is black and white
Everything she says is false according to the world

She is not so innocent
I understand that she dreams about the perfect life
When she opens her eyes they are pitch black

She is someone that is fake
She acts nothing like she should
She is very grungy and unclean

She knows of no safety
and of no time
Her life is smashed into pieces by the giant sun

She will always be a ghost
She knows of no god
She crawls around in the world of death
She remains forgotten


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Broken String

It’s the same pattern all over, the same way.
The same story all night again and again.
Her song went on and looped but never strays, 
nothing ever changed and she kept singing in vain.  
Strummed the notes, through her fears and pain,
smiles and tears, a languished memory they’d bring. 
Sorrows were hidden, happiness she’d feign
and the incomplete melody played with no more but a broken string. 

He stabbed her heart once again, after that day 
life was taken away and so was her sane. 
Begged for mercy one last time, she stopped and prayed.
Filled one single glass with a whole bottle of champagne
the familiar moans through days she’d maintain.
Attempts she took trying to mend the wedding ring
but all that were left were pieces she disdained
and the incomplete melody played with no more but a broken string.

Other songs joined in along but faded away. 
Alone again the cries had once been restrained. 
Solid tears, trapped in her eyes will soon decay. 
It’s this same song to him she’d once entertain, 
and this damaged guitar she threw but detained.
As the blood trickled down her lips but her heart that sting. 
She endured the pain, in hope that something will break the chain
and the incomplete melody played with no more but a broken string.

Strumming the notes, through her fears and pain
smiles and tears, a languishing memory they brings 
Sorrows are hidden, happiness she feigns
and the incomplete melody plays with no more but a broken string. 


Details | Couplet | |

It's Time I was Moving On

Sad news today, February 6th in our year 2011
To "The Great Gig in the Sky" sell out in Heaven

My favourite blues rock guitarist, Mr Irish Gary Moore
Joins the "Midnight Blues, "Too Tired" no more will he tour

At fourteen years of age he received his first guitar
Like many budding rockers aspirations to be a rock star

The Beatles, Elvis Presley and the amazing Albert King
Heavily influenced this left hander, who made his right hand sing

As he grew past his teens, the genre he'd enter would mean
The likes of John Mayall's Bluesbreakers and Hendrix, now he's seen

Blues Rock it was to be, when Peter Green caught his ear
If you grew up with this maestro, you'll know his career

It started way back, way back in 1969
Skid Row, from Dublin he joined, as the music industry would find

This is where his association began, with Lynott, bassist extraordinaire
Many nights sharing the blues, this two Irishmen would share

His solo career just grew and grew, then into Thin Lizzy he would blend
Sharing the Black Rose stage with Phil his Irish friend

The blues became his life, with two Albert's who'd share his stage
Guesting with his 'Midnight Blues Band' many a jam they would engage

I now close my humble tribute, for he'll always be in my heart
On this day in Estepona, Spain, my hero in final depart












http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/music-5.php


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The Golden Fertility of the Harvest

He is the sinking of the final red orange sun of the glowing summer 
Warmth no longer oozing and seeping into the pores as I lie bare under the skies 
Jeweled dewdrops on the morning grass to dampen bare feet all softness under  
And the shimmer on the surface of the lakes like the diamonds in your eyes 

He is the golden cusp pf Autumn's Fertility 
The ritual dance of the scarecrow in the breezes 
(Straw coming loose and flying towards you, most certainly 
will brush up against you and tickle before he ceases)  
 
And this thinner less lumpy all seeing scarecrow  
Seems to be in no remorse: his knowing face will always grin  
And his arms will always be raised in a wave to show 
He will protect the yellow brown stalks that bend before him 
 
He is the crisp wind that caresses the crinkled foliage 
Their rustling like long flowing skirts on a 1940s ballroom floor 
These winds chill the fingers and toes and your face with the stinging red roses  
Yet when winter beckons the retreating light, we will be frozen at its core 

He is silent snowfalls and many winter moons  
And the brown earth beginning to expose itself  
The uncoiling of green and mud beginning to ooze  
And all new life breaking free from its fragile shell


Details | ABC | |

MidNight Wishes

Even though i did not hear your voice tonight i'm still ahit,
I will go on like this for ever, i wont go out without a fight. 
I'll fight till the end of this life to win your heart,
All you have to do is tell me when to start.

The music blarrin in my head phones at 1:52 AM and i'm lovin it, 
cause it helps me remember your gorgeous smile like it was meant to fit. 
Wanting to feel your touch and kisses all over me ignites the fire in me,
Wanting to take you by your hand and run wild in a big sea. 

There aint much i can say to express myself but this will have to do for tonight,
I think its just that i haven't reached height.
You no I love you and that's all that matters or will ever matter to me,
I will love you till i die, like I told you before, cant you see? 
 


Details | Lyric | |

Sweet Seduction

[Verse 1]

My blood is ice inside your veins
Crawling underneath my skin
The price we pay to earn that name
The battle that we never win
Falling faster far below
Further into darkest depths
The kiss of death that you bestow
The poison that is on your…lips

[Chorus]

Sweet seduction
Drug addiction
Words that only he can mend
Sweet seduction
My affliction
Rise to only meet the end

[Verse 2-change]

Your thoughts they plant a grave in me
Like missiles shooting through the skies
The pain you watch but never see
Crystals falling from my eyes
Your words they feel like razor blades
Your touch like acid on the skin
Your love this agonizing pain
The battle that I’ll never…win

[Chorus]

[Breakthrough]
Swallowed up by
Sounds of screaming
Asking questions
Without meaning
Fall away…
FADE AWAY!!!!

[Chorus]
Sweet seduction
Drug addiction
Words that only he can mend
Your destruction
My affliction
Rise to only meet the end

The end…


Details | Verse | |

Our Last Path

Walking down our straight narrow path 
Hand in hand 
We enjoy our last seconds 
With no pressure no demand 
Our path's have always been dark 
We have both left our mark 
On the worlds pains and desires 
We both made mistakes 
Our sentence; To burn in hells fires 

Both we do not wish goodbye 
And we ask please don't cry 
You never saw our pain on the outside 
You could only see it in our eyes 
We are not leaving to run off and hide 
We are leaving to live, to fulfill our suicide 

Staring deep at each others eyes 
We know that this will be the last time our hearts die 
This is our last and final decision 
We are at the end of our path, where we first met 
That's something i hope we will never regret 
Let's take our last kiss; 
This cruel world we will never miss 
As a dying flower let's take our last breath 
To once again meet 
In our love and our death 

Beside each other do we lay 
Hand in hand 
Beneath the ground 
To lovers is what we will stay 
With love as our tombs sound


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Junkie

you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you


Details | Lyric | |

Bruises

Bruises
By: IzaDonna

Surrounded by darkness
Emotions hidden away
Bruises disguised with smiles
Never would think it
That my past still haunts me
The scars still completely cover me
I hide them so you can't see
I'm really not at all okay

Chorus
The bottles eases the pain
The dust numbs the ache
Can I ever just forgive?
Instead up building up this hate
I just want to find peace
I want my smile to be real
But its hard to do so
When I can no longer seem to feel

Frightening dreams keep me awake
Forever replaying in my mind
Life seems to be so much longer
This winding road so much harder
Can I just get a release
Beat these inner demons and be free
Or do I have to be forever cursed
With the ghosts of the past

Chorus

I look up at the stars
And close my eyes tight
Its time for last good-byes
Its time to end this tonight
I take one last chug
And fall to the ground
Take one last gasp
And then no longer make a sound

Chorus

I'm finally okay


Details | Ballade | |

The blues player

The guitarist.

There was a small abode
In a little lane down south
Where a mellow, fellow lived
Who went by the name of Ralph
He’d play his guitar all alone
As he’d sit in his garden there
And sing his songs to the wind and sky
You could hear him everywhere.

Now folk would come from miles around
Just to hear that wee lad play
As guitar players all around
Would hear what he had to say
With that guitar played so sweet
They’d all discuss the boy
Who soon became within that village
The peoples pride and joy

Now Larry {he who was the lad}
All folk just loved him well
He’d learned to sing and, play the harp
And folk his tale would tell
Till he became ‘the Bluesman’
The best one in the land
They gave him so much glory
And made him feel so grand.

Then they gave him schedules
And made him sign a contract
So many songs now he must write
Then somewhere down the track
He’d find his muse all shrivelled up
Because of too much stress
From all the money he had made
Where was he’s happiness?

And so his songs did dissipate
What he had wrote before
Became the only stuff that glowed
He couldn’t write no more
His heart and soul, they’d stolen it
With all their big demands
Then all the flavour left the game
And his life was not too grand.

Then one day Larry understood
He turned his back on all
And found himself a little haven
And all was beautiful
He shut the whole world from his life
And sang for the birds and the trees
And played guitar for the sugar nymphs
Who rode upon the breeze,

7 July 2013 @ 0230hrs.


Details | Lyric | |

I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


Details | I do not know? | |

In The Darkness

"Sing!"
The word tore through
The silence.

A silence as thick
As the darkness
That wrapped around us.

A darkness
Inhabited by people
Equally as dark.

"Sing and raise us
From these shackles,
From our misery,
From our fears,
From our reality!"

This command 
Was not for me,
But the woman
Who sat in a distant corner.

Her voice rose 
Like the sun,
Steady and slow
Warming our souls.

The clarity of her voice
Was like a dew drop
Magnifying the lines on a leaf
Upon which it sat.

Her voice was as beautiful
As an orchid,
And like an orchid
It was a parasite,
But instead of a tree or plant,
It got it's sustenance
From her soul.

And still
It was not enough.

"Stop, stop,
STOP!!!"

"I do not want to hear
A song as sweet as
A ripe mango or
A freshly chopped sugar cane."

"I want to hear a song
That is rich in pain
As well as triumph.
A song drenched 
In the tears of brave men
And steeped in the sorrow
Of their women folk."

"I want our song."

The silence stretched
Like a sunset
Under a cloud heavy sky.

Then the song began,
A song we all knew.
A song that had brought
Tears to the eyes of kings.
A song that grew courage
In the hearts of cowards.

The song was infectious,
Leaping from man to woman
And woman to man
Like a great sickness
Found deep in the jungle.

Before long,
Voices rose into the darkness,
Vibrations bouncing off of
Unseen walls crashed against
Or bodies.

In this moment,
We were one.
One voice.
One people.
Bound for one place
And from that moment
We shall remain
One people.

One people 
In the darkness.


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Im Only Me When Im With You

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

When I see your smile
I stop and think
Why oh why
Cant he see
What hes doing to me
Oh baby please
Just be with me

Your always on my mind
Is it the way your always kind?
You know i want you
But theres nothing i can do
I wanna be in your arms
Away from all harm...

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I wanna be yours
Boy cant you see
Your the world to me 
I cant go a day without you
Thats the one thing ill never do
I live to love you

(gets a little faster)

I should be yours
You shouldnt be hers
Your a one of a kind
Your hard to find
When our hands lock together
I wanna leave you never

(slower)

Ill be yours forever
Just tell me when it starts
Hun you will always have my heart
When you look in my eyes
I let out a little sigh

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

Now you see i love you
And this is true
I dont care what they say
They dont know what happened to me that day
My heart was hurt
Then you came along
Your the reason i wrote this song


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Burned

It’s six pm
Dinner’s in the oven
Table set for two
One of us, here waiting
But that is nothing new
We agreed to have this evening
You got held up there again
Don’t like the way this’ going
Is this coming to an end

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

It’s six fifteen
The dinner’s still burning
Smoke fills the air
I’m ready to run
Cause it seems you don’t care
Supposed to be here at five
It’s now six fifteen
Not a word or a call
Not a text or anything

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart


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Diamond In The Rough

The Diamond in the rough has been lost in the masses of panicked flesh
He looks through the eyes of the unnoticed,
He thinks with the questioning of his being,
He only looks to escape the day

The Diamond in the rough only leaves in the night
bereft of joy he entraps his plight
He makes music alone waiting for pain to escape
he looks in the mirror and cries at his face

the Diamond in the rough he's escaped far away
He's tired of the masses he sticks to like clay
He walks the silk plains and travels alone,he's severed all contact with his past and his home

His potential may be realized and maybe it won't
He writes in his soul what his eyes have absorbed
They hear it and like it but they always want more

His soul's been exchanged by demons in suits
For MTV slots, platinum plaques,drugs,sex, and a bust in a room

The Diamond in the rough,no longer there lies
but he's had enough he's decided to fly

The fame and the fortune has darkened his day
It's tragic, but masses proclaim him cliche'

He knew they would view him as weak,and then scared
Nothing else mattered he was always prepared

He couldn't fear fear any longer inside
Alone in a tower a diamond he died


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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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Dream Liberty -- Butterfly Effect

Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty


Details | I do not know? | |

The Lies

The lies you were told
brought us to an end.
My heart or my soul
doesnt know where to begin

The way that you looked
when you walked away.
You didn't look sad
you had a smile on your face
and right now my heart is feeling betrayed.
I'm like a King without a crown and a dude that you played.

The lies you were told
came from all your friends
you didn't listen to you heart
you didn't even care...

I'm feeling like an old man 
without his hair
and now I gotta look at you 
remembering the times you didn't care.

The lies that you were told everyday
is the same reason why 
my heart is black and gray...

Im trying to forget you completely
cause my love for you was becoming very deeply..
It was feeling so good
but now its feeling creepy.

The lies
The lies
and all the secrets


Details | I do not know? | |

Chapters

Our lives are like stories 
Like the ones found in books
We all play our part in the plot
But you were a bit more than just a character
Babe, you were a chapter

Chapters begin and end so quickly
So fleeting, like the way we would flirt
A heart-pounding beginning with a dry, cold close

I'm saying good bye 
This is for every time I could have cried
This is for every night that you forgot I exist
But I haven't shed a tear on you and, boy, I'm not gonna try
This is for every single mean thing you say
This is me deciding not to pretend I'm looking the other way
This is something I'm doing for me
So good bye, cause no longer will I be the girl who is blind

The chapter has sealed itself shut
So sit in your room and play some mean songs about me
I don't care, I know somebody with nicer hair

As a kid you must have been the bully on the playground
I'm done being the girl you give affection to and push down 
And I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while you try to run the show
I'm gonna move on with my life 
Prove there are things you will never know
There are things that books can't tell you 
Things only the heart can understand
You don't have one of those
So, pardon me, if I don't consider you a man

The chapter has ended but I won't shed a tear
The future's too bright for me to look back to darkness










Details | I do not know? | |

Mindless

Drain my brain of everything
And leave me with nothing
My heartache
My pain 
My sorrow
My depression
My grief
But mostly take my bad memories
No bad thoughts matter to me
Block out my haunted past
Of the abuser of my mind
I only ask you that you leave the memoires of good friends
Leave my family
My love
My soul 
My kindness
My music
My ability to laugh
And my only natural talents
Music and what ever art that I can be taught...


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Encompassed in Memory

Cool mountain streams reflect the cobalt blues and greys of sky 		   
Restful twilight with stars scattered as if on a canvas 		   
Fire cloaks the curve of the earth and golden fish swim nearby 		   
Weeping willows in the field sway to an urgent sadness 		   
The gushing wind that stirs etches the land, channels through boundless time 		   
The carved thrust of a mountain range, maybe the Andes 		   
Will challenge the forever yielding sky, vast as the horizon 		   
Where rain batters the window and mists as far as we can see 		   
It is a warm evening in a pub in Ireland 		   
As the songs hover around us, I know this is what it is like to be free


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Lies Become Life

These are my scars
And I know they haven't gotten me far
But it's complicated
And this is who I am to be

They say everything happens for a reason
Well I have two cents worth a dime
To say nothing good about that line

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore

This is how I choose it to be
It's the closest I am drowning to be free
And just leave me and let me see

Theres only one way to get it all away
I will stop at nothing and think it all off
Just play that beat and watch me hit the wall

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore

I won't let you down
And hit the floor
There's apart of me thinking,
I can't do this anymore

I'm truly convinced
That telling you this lie
Will make it the truth in my life

I wont let us down
I'll keep my guard around
And watch my head hit the door
Am bound to fall down
My tears hit the floor
As I lay down
I know I ain't coming back for more

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore


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Feeling My Pain

I’m feelen the pain 
and I’m hurten again
I’m somebody’s fool -here sitten on this bar stool
Tied to your chain

Bleeden like a hog
Getten drunk as a dog
I’m liven in a dream world- made up make believe world
Feeling my pain

Feeling my pain
Of loven you  again
Where I’m gona go now
How my gona stand now
while lying in  the pouren rain

Loves gone away
Pains come back to stay
I’m feelen the strain now
Hurten again now 
Feelen my pain

You’d said you’d be true
Not to make me a fool
But you slipped up again now- lied to me again now
Cause you’re the girl of my dreams

I can’t get away
You’re in my heart to stay
I’m liven in a dream world  - made up make believe world
Feeling my pain


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The Saddest Song I've Ever Heard

The Saddest Song
(I’ve Ever Heard)

No guitar no drums
No melody to be heard
Just the beat of my heart 
Thud thud thud
Harder & harder
As the fear gets stronger
What is a girl to do when the one she loves the most?
Is also the one she fears the most
Saying no won’t help
He will do it anyway
With his manhood 
With a knife or sometimes even a candle
The pain is more than I can bear 
Yet I have to stay strong 
He won’t stand for tears
So inside I cry
As I listen to the sound of 

The Saddest Song
(I’ve Ever Heard)

I wanted so bad to tell 
I wanted to make it all stop
Yet I was afraid of losing the one person 
Who loved me the most
I didn’t want anyone to take him away
So I suffered in silence
I did my best to hide the pain
And the music played on for 

The Saddest Song 
(I’ve Ever Heard)

With a mother who didn’t seem to care
All I had was my dad 
Yet he was the one who couldn’t control his 
Desires 
He was the one hurting me more & more
When it wasn’t him 
It was his friends who paid to have a piece of the action
So I just retreated inside myself
So I didn’t have to feel the pain
Tried to block it out
Pretend I was someone else 
Watching from a distance 
Yet the pain still didn’t go away
And the tears never stopped falling
Inside of me
I felt so all alone 
Listening to the sound of 

The Saddest Song
(I’ve Ever Heard)

He passed away 
I pushed the pain away
Locked it in a box in a space deep inside 
Forgot it all until recently
Then the music started to play
And the memories came rushing back
The holes in my childhood are filling in
And for each new memory 
A tear forms in my eyes 
And no matter how hard I try
I can’t keep them from falling
Down my face 
As I realize 

The Saddest Song
(I’ve Ever Heard)

Is the story of my life 
& 
It I hadn’t remembered 
It may have never been heard


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on the eve of war

i seen men
in doubt of brothers
women who crowd
their own mothers

don't cry your tears
they'll only fade
along with tomorrow
Live, I want to forever
this evenings war

I'm in love 
with your sin
Don't close my eyes
I've seen the end

I've seen men
who kept their brothers
I've seen women
who left their lovers 

don't cry your tears
i fear, they'll only fade
along with tomorrow
Live, I want to forever
this evenings war

"on the eve of war"


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free fall

My life's a blurry vision
At the pressure point 
and I still can't make a decision
Caught a glimpse of my reflection
A good heart in jeopardy of detection
I look up but there's no pictures on the wall
I think I'm in free fall
I'm depressed, over stressed
in vital need of words spoken in jest
but never the less i'm only a guest
Got a dial tone but no one to call 
I'm drifting into free fall
Minimum wage 
will not allow me to act my age
Fending with rage
but I can't turn the page
I'm tired of fighting
My palms drip lightning
I'm not happy here 
and the future still isn't clear
Have nightmares for no reason
Give light scares
during the blood shed season
I get knocked down and crawl
I'm trying to stand tall
But I'm in free fall

"paper weighs about the same as life in ink"


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California Girl

Saw a girl walkin’ down the road
Stopped to talk, then that pretty face glowed
"Hey there girl, where ya headin’?"
"California, babe. You’re a swinger I’m bettin’."

California Girl was her name
Thought life was just a game
Lived too fast, lived too hard
Now she’s been dealt her last card

We were drivin’ down the highway
Told her she was goin’ my way
To California, the place of dreams
The place of lies, the place of schemes

California Girl was her name
Put her momma to shame
Endulged too much, had a little more
Now she’s left this world, what for?

Made it to California, what a sight to see
We were gonna rule it all, just her and me
Stopped into this little hotel she knew
Not a lotta people were there, only a few

California Girl was her name
Never wanted to be the same
She had everything, she had it all
But then her life took a horrible fall

This hotel was heaven, you know
They offered grass, they offered snow
She vanished for hours then came back
I knew our lives had left the track

California Girl was her name
Knew she was destined for money and fame
Played the good boys, loved the bad
She never even knew of the life she had

A month into our hotel stay
My baby California Girl had begun to stray
Woke up late one night to find her dead
Layin’ on the floor right next to my bed

California Girl was her name
Thought life was just a game
Lived too fast, lived too hard
Now she’s been dealt her last card


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Cryin'

You can listen to the song here: http://www.muziboo.com/mdegenhardt/music/cryin/

If you see me cry It means you’re too close Yet out of my world You’ve hurt me the most With a promise to love That never came true If you see me cry It’s because of you You can’t wipe these tears As they’ll never cease What I wished to happen It will never be You promised me rainbows There’s no color to see If you can’t love me back Then it’s cryin’ for me If you hear me cry I hope you hurt too It’s nothing you’ve done It’s what you won’t do I had hoped you would love me A dream not coming true If you hear me cry It’s because of you You can’t wipe these tears As they’ll never cease What I wished to happen It never will be You promised me rainbows There’s no color to see If you can’t love me back Then it’s cryin’ for me If tomorrow comes And you’re not here Then maybe I’ll stop These useless tears But for now you’re around It hurts me to see If you can’t love me back then it’s cryin’ for me


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In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie


Details | Free verse | |

Dancing with Despair

I have danced while music played,
and smiled, although despairingly,
through tears at smiles not meant for me.
My soft eyes, though brown and drab,
have strived to glitter, with scant success,
as others shone bright, emitting light
beneath their lashes, lush and long.
While I lurched in crazy drunken spirals,
others, precise, performed their pirouettes
and slid across the polished floor
and smiled and laughed and more:
completely at their ease.
What terminal disease decrees
despair my partner in this dance?
Is there no chance to sit the music out,
a listener, discrete, devout?
While others whirl and dip, I slide and slip.
Must I be a half-a-pair with stumbling feet,
inept novice, graceless lout who, led about,
never has an easy air dancing with despair?


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sad songs

These are the long depressing walks
It's the sad songs that talk
The missed opportunities that hold us at fault

Nothing but smiles at birth
You didn't think I'd forget
The most precious angel on this earth
Since I entered this world formally
Then I should be able to smile normally
Looking from an angle and you can't see things clear
Write with an attitude and you can't be sincere
Take a piece of this heart
Blood vessels, veins, continuous pain
sprout and intervene to produce this art
Might see you, me at a different height
the things you do when your wings won't take flight
it seems we're all trying to switch our momentum
Without slowing down to stop
Want to find ways of growing up without the drop
Slaves of tears, surfing the waves of fear
At the end of a journey, we start another journey
Go through ups and downs to enter the after-tourney

These are the long depressing walks
It's the sad songs that talk
The missed opportunities that hold us at fault

"too little time, too many thoughts"


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Alone

alone
i cant remember where Ive gone
where ive gone

I tried to forget
you tried to pretend
you loved me, alone, alone

alone
you left me fighting 
feeling the pain 
the shame

I tried to ignore
you ran out the door
one more mistake 
alone

and all at once
all the hurt all the pain
found me again
alone

I tried to forget
you tried to pretend
you loved me, alone, alone
I tried to ignore
you ran out the door
one more mistake 
alone



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SOME WEEP, SOME REJOICE

And we all thought that Christmas
was a jolly season for all ages,
but we've ignored pain...not seeing tears
roll down those cold and fearful cheeks!

Some weep, some rejoice...
others don't celebrate, but rage with malicious eyes;
wasn't that child's birth announced by angelic voices
that attested He was God's choice?


Depression is the worst kind of sadness,
and unless the noticeable signs are felt or filled with alarm:
we may lose persons very dear to us...
before tragedy strikes, intervene to save them from harm!


Some weep, some rejoice....
many show blind belief and resist
to give the Redeemer due praise;
they are the fools who follow a cult!  

 
Why should this holiday be so sad,
wasn't Jesus born to bring us joy...
that's what every joyful angel proclaimed
as they crowned Him king for eternity!


Some weep, some rejoice...
others don't conceive the true worth of Heavenly glory,
they hate goodness and despise holiness:
mocking and twisting the pure image of faithful Mary!


Details | I do not know? | |

The Life of a Young Saxophonist

Maybe I was meant to be alone
Just me and my saxophone
Playing wasteful nights away
Practicing all those notes everyday.
Staying home and thinking
About all the fun I’m missing
Having to study for some useless knowledge
All because I need to get into college.
Why do I have to do this on my own?
I hate being alone.

My saxophone is my life, but a curse
I can see it now: it will be me and my sax in a hearse
The mourners there wondering why I died so young
Saying I had it all and ended it with a gun.
They don’t know the life I was living
The struggle I went through everyday just sitting
Putting a knife to my wrists because I couldn’t write
Music that was to my delight.
They never knew because it was never shown
How I hated my life, how I hated being alone.

So what should I do? Someone please help me
I’m becoming depressed, insane, and just crazy
I need someone here to help guide me
Someone to motivate me and help me become free.
Maybe I’ll just say “F-it” and end my life right now
But there are too many lives that I will ruin, please god tell me how?
How do I get released from this stage of depression?
I’m just a teen and I already have so much aggression.
I’m so confused about what to do
Maybe if I just think for a while, it will come through.

Let’s see, what about the sax is so appealing?
Well, even though the sax is my curse, I love the feeling
I love the sound, and how I can take my anger out
From all the stress that is being brought about.
If it wasn’t for my sax, I would have already committed suicide
In a grave somewhere next to some wasteful talents who have died
So maybe it isn’t all that bad
Maybe I should be happy with my life and not sad.
The sax is the only guide I need in my life
So I don’t really need this depressing knife.

I have decided to keep playing until I am known
As the greatest to ever play the saxophone
And maybe one day when my sax has lost its tone
I will no longer be so utterly alone.


Details | Than-Bauk | |

A LONELY LAD

Light and songs FADE;
oh, how SAD is
the LAD who watches
with eyes so RED...
tears not SHED for
a MAID too wild!
Colors loose HUES...
will deep BLUES change
to CLUES and stay?


Entered in nette onclaud's contest,
" Than-Bauk Twilight "
Written by Andrew Crisci


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Music Box

Ballerina prisoner figurine  
Such beauty locked away
Only dances 
When she sees the light of day

But, in my mind
Her twirls are reminiscent
Of forgotten memories, round and round
Stirring music weighs

So, I hide her still
Under key
And silence
Hoping she is forgiving

Until a fondness of providence is found
That soon soul will awaken
Her gracefulness hopes of ironies 
O' may she dance her way back among my living


Details | Tanka | |

SEPTEMBER TANKA

SEPTEMBER SONG - triple tanka

Like a lover's sigh
She tiptoes forth    looking back -
Those warm memories -
Birds    still singing    cross over
And sad sunshine stills the wind

Now    September sings
A sympathetic tune silvers
Promises late gold -
The change will be gradual -
Promises sleep    painless sleep

Mysterious calm
Like a magic caesura
Bated by surprise
In mind it's ever the same
Such gentle looking forward

-------------------------------------------------------------------------
HAPPY    HAPPY TIME - double tanka

Happy    happy time
Early tears and sleep lifted
Once past Labor Day
Harlequin    in falll colors
Trips so lightly o'er the world

Echoes    sad voices
From the past are silenced
By the happy clown
Bacchus    come down    pours the wine
The whole world on color dines


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So Sweet


 So sweet
  The lonesomeness of the city light street
 has me hearing the sound of my heart beat,
 I quickly fall to sleep, I wake up and stand
 looking outside from my widow balcony.
 
 I see two homeless men standing in line
 whom I randomly see in this street,
 scuffling in their packets from a handouts,
 for good bite to eat as they gladly retrieve their treat
 which is a pleasant cite for flooded eyes to see
 moreover on the opposite side of the street,
 I see people set down enjoying
 a late morning sunny breeze in front of a restaurant
 chattering, bonding, eating and drinking as 
 I share with them lessoning to the smooth sound
 of the music, children laughing and playing
 on the playground and on hard concrete street however
 not wanting to hear the havoc of the noise, 
 and the rush of a saturated street.
 
 That is a part of life... which can be sound and can be so sweet.

  

So Sweet Poetry 10/28/10 by Keith K. Relf


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He Had To Go

(Monotetra) 


He's gone and buried O, how sad 
Facts are hidden,there's more to add 
News of his death made world mad 
This is so sad, this is so  sad 

There's no King of Pop now 
Save he lives in our heart we know 
And his music forever will flow 
He had to go, he had to go 

Nothing can stop in heart the tears 
He's at rest and has no more cares 
My heart finds solace in prayers 
Short were his years, short were his years 

He's sleeping at peace while we cry 
It is hard for us to say good-bye 
Hearing his music makes me sigh! 
He just can't die,he just can't die. 



Dorian Petersen Potter 
aka ladydp2000 
copyright@2009 

September 14,2009 


Author's Note: Another dedication poem that I've written inspired by Michael Jackson.






Details | Elegy | |

Rest in Heaven Mister 213

It was a clear dark night
When your voice was the only in sight,
The many years of childhood,
The "Hip-Hop Hooker,"
was the choice of many tunes,
So know, that in our genre,
We may never forget
How the regulations of the game was maneuvered,
By just 16 bars,
or how we jammed and sang,
Along in our car,
To the many soulful grooves,
This one, Nate Dogg is for you;
REGULATORRRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Details | Verse | |

We were all Innocent

Babies are born everyday
Eyes painted wide, with not much to say
Just basic needs and intimate love
Simplicity, for they know not of
But time surely passes
And questions are formed 
The enemy’s kisses pierce like a thorn

Innocence, we were all
Innocent
Before we were taught
Before we knew
Before we ever walked our way through
We were, innocent

Looked to our parents, looked to our friends
Bonds sealed with kisses we thought would never end
Shame in our smiles
Guilt in our bones
Masks painted on us with light undertones
Rejection invades and stings at one's core
Society kills what we were made for

Innocence, we were all
Innocent
Before we were taught
Before we knew
Before we could ever walk our way through
We were innocent

Before the walls and cement were there
Before the sorrow in the air
Before the heartbreaks
Before the fears
Before we ever cried a tear

We were innocent.


By: Sabina Nicole
Written 4-2-12


Details | Free verse | |

Spring Song

The ides of March have gone and come.
Still, strains of vernal music sound
dumb echoes, in my ears, of early times,
of other years: an orchestral swell
of oboe, flute, and violin.
A feel of warming wind,
the scents of orange blossom,
daisy, buttercup, and clover:
are those days over?

My recent times are flavored
with metallic clank, with oily odor --
eyes fatigued by newsprint
and small-screen glare.
And music: the blare
of claxon-horn and siren-wail;
noise which issues from a box
borne on shoulders through the street;
an empty, but compelling, quite insistent
loudly pulsing beat.

I welcome all new, though slight, intrusions.
Pale sensory perceptions bring back images,
now faint, once acute, of places, times,
and pleasures past.
Faded sights and faces
and shadowy, unquantifiable pursuits
evoke a time when love, like freedom,
didn't cost a dime.


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Im with you

Ive met you before
memories ago
the mind cant ignore
what you choose to show

does all the pain and hunger
leave you standing tall?
do you lose your sense of wonder?
or hide behind the wall?

Does it ever go unnoticed
when you forget to smile
does the world go unfocused
just for a little while
I'm with you
oh im with you

does the fear of love embrace you?
do hide behind the wall?
do you stay above and cling to?
or let the glass break your fall?

Does it ever go unnoticed
when you forget to smile
does the world go unfocused
just for a little while
I'm with you
oh im with you

You taste so empty
you love so cruel
They made the story
ended by you, you

Does it ever go unnoticed
when you forget to smile
does the world go unfocused
just for a little while
I'm with you
oh im with you


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My Musical Medley

Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more, So much more.
I lay dying,
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal.
I lie inside myself for hours,
And watch my purple sky fly over me,
And I pull will the trigger.

Evanescence-My Immortal
Flyleaf-All Around Me
Evanescence-Tourniquet
Evanescence-Imaginary
Flyleaf-Cassie

Brittany Gentry


Details | Lyric | |

My pernicious thoughts

My pernicious thoughts
is loosing me,
unscrewing me,
and killing me.

My scary musings
is taking me
on a rigmarole
to nowhere, it seems

Like a vagabond
with no direction,
it keeps pulling me
to all directions.

And surely soon
it will leave me blue.
One mighty pull will it take
to fill me full again.

My pernicious thoughts
keeps loosing me,
unscrewing me,
and killing me.

And, i can't fight it.


Details | Free verse | |

Musical Torment

the piano keys -dum doom dum- play a curious tune in my brain -doom dum doom- but they never go away -DOOM dum DOOM- see? they never go away - doom doom DOOM- the guitar strings -blue throom blue- prick upon my mind -throom blue throom- but they never seem to die -BLUE throom BLUE- see? they never seem to die -blue blue BLUE- the drums -dead bompah dead- pound a grueling rhythm in my soul -bompah dead bompah- and they never have no hope -DEAD bompah DEAD see? they never have no hope… -DEAD DEAD DEAD-


Details | I do not know? | |

I Really Like Her

Her smile and personality just builds within
but unlike my heart i dont know where to begin.
I wrote her poems and told her things.
I made her smile like no other human being.
Her curly hair and intelligence
made my heart so irrelevant 
to the point in which i sat and cried 
and sung some lovely lullabies.

Her beauty started our world
with a few men and alot of girls.
I want to scream her name right now
and if i do i will say it loud. 
Please believe that i got diss
that girl who talks just wants a kiss
but in the end i will always miss you.

One Love<3


Details | Bio | |

Depression Kills

I don't know how long it has been since i heard your voice, 
I don't know why i left without a word, but it was not my choice.
You wished me away, so i left without a word,
you told me to lose you, that's all i ever heard. 

Tears ran down my face with every thought of you,
not being able to see your smile, it would punch me though.
My chest has a whole, that you put there,
it hurts some times, but its not like i care.

I been hurt to many times before to feel anything at the moment,
I thought we had some thing special, but at the end you broke it.
So now again i am all alone and I have no shoulder,
my life is empty now i am beginning to feel allot colder. 

You showed me what people can be like, some thing like you,
people that hurt others and than walk away like they had nothing to do.
But they don't know that they just ripped some ones heart out,
and your left alone, once again, bleeding on the ground.


Details | Lyric | |

why

why do fools fall in love
fall in love so easily
why do fools fall in love
fall in love so deeply

you say you love me
maybe you do
but you dont feel 
the same way as i do
Im in love
Are you in love?
(do you)
I dont think you do

oh,
oh,
ooooh yeah

why do fools fall in love
fall in love so easily
why do fools fall in love
fall in love so deeply

why do fools,
fall in love....
why do fools,
fall in love....

oh oh oh oooh
yeah yeah yeah
oooh... yeah....


Details | Free verse | |

Sugar Sick Sweet Lullabies

I had this dream last night and it was perfect 
It was everything I wanted my life to seem
So when I opened my eyes to this bright sunlight
I realized some things weren't the way that they should be

I put my feet into my shoes, which are old and dusty and 
I don't remember when they were ever clean
I ran around my town asking people for my purpose
And none of their answers seemed to fit alright

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday

I've tried to be myself but I'm running low on health
To fight all those who tell me to be a certain way
Though I don't cry out my eyes every time that a stitch undoes itself
Cause nobody's gonna save you when can save yourself, darling

Even at a quarter after noon mothers are singing their babies 
Sugar sick sweet lullabies that I know all too well
Haven't you ever noticed the way that their voices crack 
When the child forgets the words and the tune stays with them alone?

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday


Details | Lyric | |

I'm the Knife

I said, “Take my hand, girl, let’s go for a ride.
You gotta choose soon, you gotta pick a side.
Pick me, the good, or pick them, the bad."
She said, "Babe, I pick you." That made me pretty glad
We left Chicago, we chose route 66
Headed to Santa Fe to get our fix
Took a hit before we left, one hit for the road
Then we stopped in St. Louis to lighten the load

Takin' this ride was the worst decision
Cut your family in two, like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
Your family won't be happy with your life

Drained a bottle of Bourbon before we started our day
"Drivin' crazy is the best." We always say
The highway was our freedom, our only way out
Never thought this road would end, we didn't have a doubt
Stopped in Oklahoma City, where the fields are endless
We only had each other, it seemed we were friendless
Drained another bottle when we checked in for the night
Got crazy, made some love, and had a fight

Takin' this ride was the worst decision
Cut your family in two, like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
Your family won't be happy with your life
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
I don't know why you put me through this strife

Hit the road in the mornin', too early it felt
Checked on my arm and saw I had a welt
Well, my baby hits hard when the whiskey runs wild
Only time I love her is when her temper is mild
Stopped at Amarillo, ‘cause our car overheated
My baby said to me, “I don’t like the way I’m treated!
When you tell me you love me you're never serious!"
I said, "Baby, I love you, you're just delirious."

Takin’ this ride was the worst decision
Cut your family in two, like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I’m the knife
Your family won’t be happy with your life
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
When we get to Santa Fe you'll be my wife

Saw a sign, "Welcome to Santa Fe!",  filled us with joy 
Took a look at my girl, she sighed and played it coy
Took my eyes off the road just for a second
Then that light came, well it did beckon
Smashed my foot on the brakes, plowed into a truck
"Well," I said to my baby, "That's just our luck.
But don't worry we made it to Santa Fe!"
Too bad my baby's soul had flown away

Takin’ this ride was the worst decision
Cut your life short like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I’m the knife
Your family won’t be happy what I did to your life
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
I regret it all, what I did to your life


Details | ABC | |

Dance

Take your hand and put it out forward,
Than swing out out to the side, c'mon don't be a coward. 
This is fun, now swing your hips from side to side,
Remember all the times you couldnt express yourself and you cried.

But now your can swing your legs and feet any way you want,
Look for that new move that you looked for your whole life like a hunt. 
Grab someone by the hand and let them join you in that awesome moment,
I promise you, you will love this feeling you are about to feel.

Turn up the music and dance your heart out,
Move to the beat and go wild and feel like your out of sight. 
This is your moment, don't let anyone take that away for you,
This is not happening too slow and i tell you that that's the truth.

Put some head phones on and go to your own world of greatness,
Bust a move like you never did before, I promise it's harmless.
Make your heart feel what I am feling right now and take my hand,
I promise that I will make you smile and scream with joy and stand.


Details | Free verse | |

Show me


I bow to purity

But what is pure?

Show me purity

I bow to clarity

But what is clear?

Show me clarity


Details | Ballad | |

forever and always I love you

everyday I wake to your face
your soft skin set in a smile
you make my heart pound 
and my pulse race
and I blame you

you make my knees weak 
when you smile that smile
when stare at me like 
I'm a rare Jewel
and I blame you

my fingers tremble as they reach 
your arms pull me in
it's cold outside 
I snuggle close to your warmth
my knees shake harder
I blame you

Next time.....
No music plays
It's quiet and I read
eyes swollen from the fight we had
and from the tears that fell out of my eyes
I blame you

I think
and think

and remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

I remember
what I want to forget is Goodbye
But I don't think I can say it
My heart burns when I dare to 

I want to feel your arms
wrap around me 
and your voice whispering in my ear
your lips on mine
I blame you 

that my heart is broken
that it swells when I think of you
that my legs still shake and quiver when 
I find you on the street

tears spill from my eyes
I pick up the phone, 
my fingers lingering over the buttons
i can't dial 
want to
can't....
I miss you

My heart can't take it....
more tears
my sobs breaking the quiet
sobs broken by the phone

it's you
you say you're sorry
I smile just at your voice
I've missed it
You sound like you've been crying

we were always alike that way
You say another thing
I wait, wanting to hear,
but scared

you say....

you remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

you've missed me
we both laugh sadly
I say that 
I've missed you

we smile, 
we imagine it 

I love you....

but I don't say it out loud...
at least, not yet.

but, I love you
forever and always

forever and always


Details | Lyric | |

Knight

Like the girl with golden hair
awaiting her fateful kiss
you came from outta nowhere
my knight, my graceful prince
My hand you hold my heart you took
like the fairy tale told in that story book

Happily ever after
was on that last page
this girl that you captured
became a puppet on your stage

This Knight that you promised
turned black by day
This soul slowly vanished
and life began to fade

Happily ever after
was on that last page
this girl that you captured
became a puppet on your stage

My hand you hold, my heart you took like the fairy tale told in that story book
my hand you hold, my heart you took my tears fall cold with one last look

Happily ever after
was on that last page
this girl that you captured
became a puppet on your stage


Details | Lyric | |

White Angels

I heard you fall, In the middle of a call. It was around seven. Did you fall from heaven? You landed in my front yard, Right in front of my St. Bernard. There was a glow into my room. Suddenly I saw you... You are my, Dream when I sleep, Dinosaur from a prehistoric defeat, Rythum when I hit every beat. You fell from the sky. Your wings so white, You would never get in a fight. You're the angel of innocence, You're my white angel... Dream of a world, Where every girl, Had a choice, Had a voice. Your harp filled my soul. When you leave I lose control. Life was so dull, Before you... You are my, Dream when I sleep, Dinosaur from a prehistoric defeat, Rythum when I hit every beat. You fell from the sky. Your wings so white, You would never get in a fight. You're the angel of innocence, You're my white angel... Why can't you understand, That you were meant to hold my hand, To protect me, To help me see the light. You're so bright, But you're not mine. Love is not some game, That I play with, It's not a blame, It is my sweet bliss... Dream of a world where... You are my, Dream when I sleep, Dinosaur from a prehistoric defeat, Rythum when I hit every beat. You fell from the sky. Your wings so white, You would never get in a fight. You're the angel of innocence, You're my white angel... Guide me0. to my next day, Even though I'm so afraid. I am always in such a tangle, But you're my white angel...


Details | Free verse | |

~Sorrow Of Life~

                         
                           I try to look in the mirror it starts erasing me

                          until the only thing i see is a mask of blizzery

                       it filled up with moments of cold thoughts of misery

               I think i ate the poisoned apple that snow whites supposed eat

                            cause now I'm living another life like Dorothy

                             oh, spoke to soon here it comes there i go

                              the tornado that makes the volcano blow.

               -dedicated to the LIFE i live, dedicated to the LIFE that gives.




                                                                                         
        ~Tanner Cox
                                                                                         
              A.K.A
                                                                                         
           ~ProFound


Details | Alliteration | |

ELVIS AND PAVAROTTI

Elvis and Pavarotti,
   two attractive singers 
from different countries;
   and both sang divinely!
Elvis was " rock and roll "
   from Memphis,Tennessee;
and Pavarotti a tenor 
   from Modena, Italy!

Both made their mark in music
   singing harmony with gusto;
and at times, Elvis seemed eccentric...
  while Pavarotti a flamboyant maestro!

Legends are made of one's fancy,
   but these two were real;
delighting crowds with their charisma,
   and their lovely wives:
 Nicoletta and Priscilla  
    were there to cherish that thrill,
  to be a big part of their lives...
     even through joy and agony!

 Elvis and Pavarotti...
     names destined for immortality,
 and many  generations
    will be fascinated by their powerful voices;
 and like us, who heard them sing,
    they'll carry on their everlasting lagacy!          


        


Details | I do not know? | |

I SHALL RISE

YESTERDAY MY D-TOX HAD BEGUN
SO FAR IVE MADE IT THRU DAY 1
I FORGAVE MESELF N I BLAME NO ONE ELSE
BUT NOW I GOTA DO 4 SELF
KEEP WORKN ON MY HEALTH
SO FAR EVERYDAY I GOTA ADD AN INCH 2 TIGHTING MY BELT
I UNDERSTAND THIS IS ANOTHER TRIBULATION THE LORD HAS DELT
I OVER DID IT WITH MY FEELINGS I FELT
IM SORRY I DRAGD U THRU MY HELL
THO TIME WILL SOON TELL
I SHALL RISE FROM WHERE I FELL
IM SORRY HEART BUT UR NO HELP TO ME NOW
MY MIND IS NOW ON POINT IN THIS NU RUN
SO MANY THINGS IVE BEGUN
NOW I GOTA GET EM DONE
U SWEAR I WAS ON ANOTHER ONE
BUT IM SLOWLY BREAKING TIES
SOON ALSO IT WILL BE TIME 2 TELL MARYJANE GOODBYE
I GOT 2 IF I WANA ACCOMPLISH MY GOALS I HAVE IN MIND
SO I ASK ALL YOU PLEASE HELP ME TRY
EVERYDAY IM BECOMING A DIFFERENT GUY
CAUSE I DON’T WANT TO BE THE SAME I WONT LIE
IM TIRED OF HOW I LIVE MY LIFE
I KNOW IM GREATER THAN ME
IVE SEEN THE MAN WHO IM MEANT BE ONCE BEFORE
NOW IM SEARCHING FOR HIM AT EVERY DOOR
I HOPE I FIND HIM SOON
CAUSE RIGHT NOW IM STILL KINDA LOST ON WUT 2 DO
IM ON THE RIGHT TRACK
IM JUS TRYN FIGURE OUT WHR 2 GO
CAUSE I CAN SEE INTERSECTIONS COMN UP ON MY PATH
N I DNT WONT 2 MAKE A WRONG TURN THAT’LL SET ME BACK
LORD HELP ME OUT
THAT’S ALL THIS SINNER CAN ASK
N I’LL DO WUTEVER I HAVE 2 DO
N THAT VISION OF A SETTLE N STABLE ME
BEST BELIEVE IM COMIN AFTER YOU
....PEACE.

-bkmjr 2011-


Details | I do not know? | |

I Had This Feeling

I had this feeling
that nobody else could feel
and then I ask my girl
if what I was feeling was real.

She broke my heart
and then she tore it all apart.
So if my love wasn't made for you
then why'd you break it in two??

I had this feeling 
that I would die alone
and if it was ought to happen
it would happen at my home.

It would happen very slow
my heart would cry for you
then die for you
no one could ever love you
exactly how i do.

If you can feel my pain
then you should know its getting hard to explain
and my heart doesnt play no games
so im going insane.

I had this feeling.
I had this feeling
in my heart 
telling me to walk away
to a better a day.

I had this feeling 
that love would come my way
but it wouldn't be today.

I gave her my heart and she forced it away
on Valentines Day

I only had this feeling
because she left me with a pain
in my heart.

Im just sorry it had to be that way
over the past 60 days.


Details | I do not know? | |

There Has Been

There has been to many times that i cried
late at night because of lies
but now its time for me to spread my wings and fly.

Fly away to another day so I can live
then close my eyes so i can pray and relieve my sins.
Every child that is born will witness this
this horrible place in which we live no one will ever miss.

There has been to many times in which people died
with every breath there is another death.
We cry for God when there is nothing left
so when you cry dont cry out blood 
when your thinking of your dying love

There has been
There has been a start end.
So which one are you??
So everything i have said really is the truth.


Details | Epic | |

A Sisters Love By PjWilliams jim and Jack Oslager

(POEM ENTRY)
                                 A SISTER'S LOVE

THERES A HELL I FEEL INSIDE, AS A LOST CHILD CRIED, I WAS HELPLESS TO SAVE HER LIFE
SHE WASNT READY TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME LORD,SHE WASNT READY TO DIE
TEAR A HOLE IN THE SHY TONIGHT, LET THE ASHES OF RAIN,PUT OUT THE FIRES OF RAGE INSIDE
THIS I WILL FOREVER KNOW IS TRUE SISTER , I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU

FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN, FEELS LIKE THERES NOTHING LEFT TO HOLD ON TO
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY,FLY THROUGH THE SKIES OF YOUR DESTINY
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY,RESTING IN THE ARMS OF ETERNAL GRACE
I WISH I COULD WALK DOWN THE STREETS OF YESTERDAY, NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD,JUST HAPPY YO BE PART OF A FAMILY
BLACK CLOUDS ABOVE, AN ONCOMING STORM ARRIVES, IM FIGHTING TO SURVIVE, I MUST CARRY ON HER NAME NOW, AND FIND AN END TO THE HARD TIMES
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN, FEELS LIKE THERES NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP FALLIN
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY,FLY THROUGH THE SKIES OF YOUR DESTINY
A SISTERS LOVE,  NEVER GOES AWAY. RESTING IN THE ARMS OF ETERNAL GRACE
AS I LOOK UP AT THE SKY, WATCHING THE CLOUDS PASSING ME BY
I SEE AN ANGEL FLY,THERES A FEATHER FALLIN IN MY EYE,
THE SEEDS THAT WERE ONCES SOWN,WILL FOREVER GROW, YOUR SPIRIT LIVES ON, INSIDE YOUR CHLIDRENS MINDS, YOU ARE THE BEATING HEART OF THEIR HAPPINESS, CREATOR OF ALL OF THIER DREAMS IN LIFE
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN, FEELS LIKE THERES NOTHING LEFT TO HOLD ON TO
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP FALLIN
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY, FLY THROUGH THE SKIES OF YOUR DESTINY
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY, RESTING IN THE ARMS OF ETERNAL GRACE
THERS A HEEL I FEEL INSIDE,AS A LOST CHILD CRIED, I WAS HELPLESS TO SAVE HER LIFE,SHE WASNT READY TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME LORD,SHE WASNT READY TO DIE, TEAR A HOLE IN THE SKY TONIIGHT,LET THE ASHES OF RAIN, PUT OUT THE FIRE OF RAGE INSIDE
THIS I WILL FORVEVR KNOW IS TRUE SISTER, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

RESPECTFULLY SUBMIITED & THANK YOU FOR TAKEN TIME TO READ AND CONTINUE A MEMORY

Written & Dedicated to Joy M Williams
Etched in Paper & Everlasting Marked PJW
Collaboration by Paul J Williams, jim Oslager, Jack Oslager
All Words Lyrics & Music  
320 S  3rd Street
Oxford  Pa 19363
215 901 3073 cell



Details | Rhyme | |

MAKING A LIVING AS A PIANO PLAYER

Years ago, this saloon was too boring
and all you saw was cowboys drinking;
no music to take away their blues,
no wonder they all seemed to lose!


I got this low-paying job in Nashville,Tennessee,
a close friend read an ad and referred it to me;
even though Country music is popular and loved:
earning bread and butter in any club was very hard.


With all the bustle on any  busy Nashville's street,
it can never have the fast-paced New York beat,
and making a living as a piano player got me almost nowhere...
folks listened and noticed that the Southern spirit wasn't there!


Today I'll be packing, hop on the bus and head up North feeling kind of sad; 
it was so nice to have met good folks who smiled, listened and applauded
and living just  a few years there, I've learned the friendly hospitality of Rotgut,
but for the sake of my sanity, I must leave this place and not become a nut.                


Details | Lyric | |

Havent You Caused Enough Damage

I feel like Darkness has come to get me
There’s nothing but pain in my life now
All I have left to give are the pieces of my heart
This is what you did to me

Haven’t you caused enough damage?
Haven’t you caused me enough pain?
All I want from you now is for you to leave me alone
Haven’t you caused enough damage?

It’s like I’m floating on dark clouds
That I’ll never see by
It’s all because of the pain I feel
It’s all that you have caused me

Haven’t you caused enough damage?
Haven’t you caused me enough pain?
All I want from you now is for you to leave me alone
Haven’t you caused enough damage?

Well I guess you’ve hurt me for the last time
But you don’t know when to quit
I guess I’ll have to teach you
What it’s like to get your heart broken


Details | I do not know? | |

Our sad regrets

                        Our sad regrets

          We travel on through new days light
          And dance to the music true,
          Until a breeze blows a sweeter song
          To you with sad regret

          Yet night forever becomes a day
          When winter turns to spring,
          And our sun shall shine its softest birth
          Before a sad regret

          Come feel the breadth of morning sweet
          In this place where a sunshine breaks,
          And let our jest make worth of morn
          Then lead to sad regrets

          Consider the sign of an honorable thought
          Then dance to the music true,
          When you hear the sound of a sweeter song
          Here in sad regret

                                    By m.n. 
marklnorton@shaw.ca


Details | Ballad | |

a new york warmth

On and on  I don’t wanna go home
Just the lovely words of another sad song
Holding on, it’s too late to go home
Just the lonely words of another sad song

Every now and then
I don’t wanna turn left 
Just the path I martyr 
On the way to no where
Could you envision me 
No longer sadly
These are the lovely words 

As we go
On and on  I don’t wanna go home
Just the lovely words of another sad song
And we sing
Holding on, it’s too late to go home
Just the lonely words of another sad song

Back and forth 
Are the trials we cure
Would you hold me more
If you found me impure 
And we’re holding on 
Cause it’s too late to go home

As we go
On and on  I don’t wanna go home
Just the lovely words of another sad song
And we sing
Holding on, it’s too late to go home
Just the lonely words of another sad song

On the park side of town
Silence is a muffled sound
No apologies
Like sea gulls 
We are standing free
We’re holding on 
Cause there’s no better place to be

So let it snow
Go here, there, and before
She asked me to leave 
I kindly closed the door
Theses are the times 
We wish not to endure
We look for warm meals
Band aids
A sore throat to absorb the cure
Lungs commenced to whispers 
Profoundly within your ear 
A little something
To keep your thoughts pure
I could ask for no more
Than sun lit days 
That hover above the clouds 
And shadow 
The doubts we adore


Details | Ode | |

Prayer To My Self

Walking away might be the most hardest things for a man to do, you cant even imagine what that feeling can do to you. Falling flat on your face would be better than to look shameful, even walking around naked around the streets would be cool. But like any story in life goes, there is always that one person that will help you get back on your feet and walk again. No matter how much you fall, no matter how much you stumble upon a struggle, that person will be there with you till the end. Give love and thanks to this person who never leaves your side and helps you put a smile on your face everyday. When the day comes to an end and you know that the person has to go, all you can wish is for your special person to stay. Mine has walked away on me, I was so blind that i couldn't see. She wanted everything for her self, for me to change and be what she wanted me to be, but i had to let her go and never see this person again, cause it would only be worse in the end. Writing this is more painful than getting your body tattooed, writing this is more painful than getting over screwed. Writing this is more painful than words, writing this is more painful than razor sharp swords. No matter how much you try to let it out it just wouldn't come out, the pain is way to deep and its almost like its tattooed on your bodies gout. haven't i been hurt enough in this world, i just don't understand why i am being treated like this, is it cause i am better than you and have nothing to look forward too but my blue and black handkerchief? The cut was way to deep my dear, you just cant imagine, i have been cut and bruised for the last time, i can promise you that. No one will ever touch this body or hurt this soul ever again, if you wish to try so, go ahead and check it, but before that go ahead and get yourself a casket.


Details | I do not know? | |

The Piano Man

A grimaced man- whos's challenged mind
is not stumped when it comes to sound
for I fall in love as his bony hands scrape each note
as they tremble upon up and down the scale.

He's lost in a world, yet known to a bar
where he mourns his tale of years ago 
where is daughter was too ill and ached his heart.
He now rolls solo, and his voice speaks for her.

The piano man is tredmendous to his blues,
no doubt they are so sad that makes my eye tear.
And yet his skills across the scale, my heart it follows rapidly.
I fall in love with a broken hearted, sorrowed man,  the piano man.

His pale cheeks show that he's ill and weak,
and I observe the way he drinks.  He takes so much
where he slumbers to a rapid fall out in the street.  
He's the poor, homeless, sorrowed man.  The piano man.

And one late night of December weather, I can not bare
to look at his eyes of blue turn whiter, so I offered him a home.
And his anger was for the pity, yet he knew I meant him well.
So he held my hand and said, "Lady, I know I'm empty in my pockets
but I would love to buy you some coffee."





Details | Free verse | |

Your Cocaine, My Blues

In the meantime
you have your cocaine
I have my blues
a fate awaits
when you need a friend
         I'm there
a love awaits 
like the poems I write
you missed the latest
         poetry slam
it was all for you
so I shuffled back home
         still needing you
listening to the blues
I feel the pain in the music
          like the words I pen
seems maybe I feel yours too
someday you'll be strong
           til then
you have your cocaine 
I have my blues


Details | Lyric | |

I had a dream

I had a dream
that I will love someday
the man of my dreams
will restore my faith
cuz I had disbelief in love
I thought it was just a fairy tale
cuz I been hurt before
plenty men put me through hell

back in the days
men use to say
"If Im gonna court you"
we might marry someday
and if they really love you
they will show you in diffrent ways
as time change
today men play so many games

I had a dream
that I will love someday
the man of my dreams
will restore my faith
cuz I had disbelief in love
I thought it was just a fairy tale
cuz I been hurt before
plenty men put me through hell

I set the mood
im old school
I cant be the norm
to new school
I wish time, I can rewind
I need real love to keep me alive


Details | Lyric | |

Just Pass Me By

Why do you keep me chained up?
Why do you keep me here?
All I wanted to do was roam, but
You played a part in my fears
Your sadistic and your cunning, well
I think I know your name
Aren't you called life?
Shouldn't you be a game?

Life...Just pass me by...
Life...Just pass me by...

If I take you seriously I think I'll choke
If I take you lightly you'll leave me out
Why do you do this to me?
You're gonna suck me dry, no doubt
I always thought you were a joker, but
Now I see your true intentions
You are just like one of us and
Some of us are infections

Life...Just pass me by...
Life...It's all a lie...Just pass me...by...


Details | Blank verse | |

Absence

A tune echoes from a room.
Makes me think of them and I.
Absence, my aggrieve.

A tune plays from a room.
Makes me think of him and I.
Absence, my yearning is against.

A tune heard from a room.
Makes me think of me.
Absence of my happiness.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Heart Beat

Sleepless and confused, my mind wonders around like a lost child,
all this gray and rain makes me think suicidal. 
Having to do the same stuff over and over again is pissing me off,
so i lay away to this sound of the beat i got playing so soft. 

My only escape is and every will be is this beat,
trust me it can put on a good show so have your self a seat. 
It will rock your world from the wonders it can do to you,
cause this sound is from the heart and soul and that is true.

Most people don't believe me that music can change a persons life,
it's only cause they have never experienced a good fight.
A fight for there own life, and the only thing that brought them back was music,
but they still refuse to admit that it's not magic.

So go put on a set of headphones and tell listen to a beat or two,
cause by the time you are done i will be asking you if it aint true.
So that's what i am about to go do is put on a set of headphones and listen through,
cause it's not what i can do but what the music can do to you.


Details | Free verse | |

A Dark Night with a Full Moon

In the darkness you illuminate my way...
In the night sky you are as bright as the sun...
You shine brighter than any star at night...
You are the full moon...
On a very sad day you were a comfort to me...
And on any future or present sad days you will always be...
My guiding light in these dark days...
The beauty where music must come from...
Like a serenade of water you carry peace to some...
To others you bring wonder and curiosity...
But to me you will always be a source of life...
The only thing at night that keeps me from leaving myself...
You help me stay me just like does music...
If music was one day destroyed you would be a great solace to that pain...
Because I would still get to see you on some nights...
Melodies of the moon I will one day sing and write...


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As you can tell I really love the moon and music and I would also like to be a composer one 
day that is why I put "Melodies of the moon I will one day sing and write" and yes I am in 
band <3


Details | Blank verse | |

Looking Without Seeing

Cold North wind, in the dark of night
Blowing through me, leaving its chill in my bones.
Walk with me for a while, open up your heart.
Stroll with me down these night shaded streets,
These empty sidewalks; rasping whispers of lifeless leaves.
Talk with me a while, open up your mind.
Ideas and thoughts pierce me with their razor edge,
Going through me and becoming something new.
Stand with me a while, open up your eyes.
Peer inside and tell me what you find
Stirring in the depths of  the fading light.
See with me for a while, open up your soul.
Find the beautiful sadness that dwells inside;
So near to you now, hear the music it makes.
Turn and walk away, leave me here alone;
Say my name, but don’t apologize,
Don’t look back, don’t wanna break your heart.
Fade into the night, footsteps echo ever further;
No shame, no blame, no trampled feelings,
Just another night, another receding hope.
See me for a while, the things that never were.
A voice of air, whispering away without being heard,
Eyes of despair, seeing but never seen,
Soul of lost hope, withered without notice,
Broken heart, sundered by time.
Hear me for a while, the music I make;
Tears that never fell, sobbing on the inside,
Arms that never held, worry worn hands,
Legs that stand and carry on, always moving.
Remember me for a while, then let me fade away.
He stood here stoic, never knew why.
He never said, or if he did no one ever listened.
Then one day he walked away, or was gently left behind.
We were never sure, he just sort of slipped away.
Forget me for a while, but make it last forever;
Time will see to it, it always does by and by.
He’ll be okay, he always seems to be;
Most of the time anyway, just the way we like.
We don’t really know him, just a stranger in the dark.
He drifts with us for a while, keeps us going straight.
Seems like a nice enough guy, if a little strange.
Funny how no one seems to remember much about him,
But I guess that’s just the way of things, the way it is.


Details | Lyric | |

Mercy Road

NEW SONG :D 7/3/12

There's something sick inside these walls
I gotta get away from here! 
These empty people lead me nowhere . . .
I hope you hear me when I call
Cause I won't waste another year! 
And you know no one else will care when
I'm gone - 

(Chorus)
As the faces leave my mind
It's only you that I will find
And till the traces are left for dead
All the heartache left behind
I'll face this world alone
I'll take the only path I know 
Your heart was my abode
And now I take the mercy road
Mercy road

(Guitar solo of pure awesome !hee hee!)

And now you leave me for the world
When there is nothing left of me!
And everyday is getting harder
I hope you're happy in this state
Cause I sure as hell am not!
Before you leave me and turn away
WATCH ME ROT

(Chorus)

Driving down mercy road
It's the only path I know
You're gone and now I hate this way
Cause now I drive it all alone . . .
 


Details | Free verse | |

If You Only Knew

Dustin, 
My best friend, My x boyfriend, and the one I’m still in love with.
I know I have a boyfriend and he just happens to be your best friend too, but if I had the chance to tell you everything I would.
You and I still love each other like we did 3 years ago, but there’s nothing we can do about it.
I cant leave my boyfriend because I to scared of everything that will happen. 
I do love him and I do love you, but Who do I love more?
The one weekend I Saw you this year was the best weekend I've ever had.
We walked around like there was nothing else going on in the world.
The biggest smiles on our face, My lipstick on your lips, and the love in our eyes.
You and I even sang together on the park bench for the world to hear.
Shinedown is our favorite band because we both fit like perfect puzzle pieces in all their songs. 
I can't describe the way you made me feel with your big blue eyes, and the way you lifted me up like I was as light as a feather.
I know people might say if I love you so much then why don't I leave him. 
My answer is simple: I'm scared of being hurt… again.
Sure, every girl is sacred of a heart break but this girl? 
The bipolar , depressed, starving, love hungry, emotional, girl isn’t just scared she's terrified.
I do I love my boyfriend, but I don’t know who I love more.
Sure Dustin you broke up with me on my birthday 3 years ago, but we all make mistakes.
So for this years birthday you got me a beautiful “J” necklace, the color of my birthstone.
I know it might not sound like that makes up for it but the way I feel with you makes me feel invincible.
Every night we would go up to the hill, smoke a cigarette, and just hold each other. 
So if I had the opportunity to tell you  one thing that I regret not telling you.
It's that I love you and the way you make me feel more then everything in the whole world... except for Tyler, my boyfriend.
I'm sorry Dustin.


Details | Haiku | |

Violin Strings

the bow slides
the sound is sad and pure
spirit soars. . .low


Details | Carpe Diem | |

The Dancer

[THE DANCER]

The shattered glass, in a million pieces.
The blood spilled on the floor.
She never lived, she never was.
All the pain, all the disdain...
she never was one for tolerance.
Alone she dances.
Those shattered pieces mean her no harm, it was not her fault...
She's just dancing.
Don't think
It hurts.
You'll never know the hurt of complete isolation.
She doesn't even know,
she just keeps dancing.
Beautiful
Graceful
Lost
Broken.
In her mind she lives,
she loves
she knows 
she is.
For her, the music never stops, she just keeps dancing...
Beautiful
Graceful
Alive.
The pain never reaches her, not when she's dancing. 
She knows no loneliness, she knows not what it is to cry, to hate, to fear.
She just dances.
But no, not even she can escape reality.
The music stops.
She falls.
The shattered glass pierces her,
Hate, Loneliness, Darkness, Pain, Fear, Anger, Jealousy, Self-Loathing...

She Feels.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Do The Wah Wah

Wah Wah
       Ha   Ha

Jimmy
      Was  He

Overdrives
       Amplifies


High Gain
     Ear  Pain

Thumb Fret
    You  Bet

B . B. King
   Idol's Zing

Hall Of Fame
  Bears His Name

  Jimmy Hendrix
      But Buster Sticks


Details | Epic | |

About Kameron by Taylor

I stood in the room staring at that hard wooden floor.

Thought of him and then closed the door.
I looked back up and everything was black.
Suddenly I knew the pain was back.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Black and gray rags were scattered everywhere,
And all I could do was stare.

But he loved me .
I knew that much.

I sat on his bed and noticed that the tears started to shed.
Then I saw a very dark closet.
I heard our song and wanted to pause it.
I felt my heart slowing with the rhythm.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Light began to shine through the enormous window.
I looked over,
And there...was a shadow.
The giant black drapes turned blue.
I thought to myself:"This can't be true."

Because I knew he loved me.

The roses came back to life.
And the bed turned white.
The rags turned into his clothing.

The music slowed and I didn't know what I was being shown.
But I loved him.
A light came from the closet.

A light that was brighter than any of the stars in the sky.
I saw a figure,and again,I started to cry.
I saw his face,saw his smile,
And knew that this was our special place.
And he said I love you.

Those three words meant the world to me and him .
And I said,
...I love you a whole lot more.


Details | I do not know? | |

It Was Me

It was me
who made you cry
i ignored the truth and told you lies...

It was me
who wondered why
you had to leave without saying goodbye...

I really did you wrong
so now im all alone
wishing your heart was my home...

Now I'm a king without a thrown
nowhere for me to go...
my queen has shut me out
im about to scream and shout 
but im only left to pout


Details | Lyric | |

Louder Than Thunder

All stars could be brighter
All hearts could be warmer
If i could find a place in your heart

youve written a sad song 
the one i found 
you were laying on the floor 
holding it close to your heart

I dont think i deserved this
My heart turned into ice
Melted at the sight of your pictures

I held your hand 
while you were sleeping in your casket
I kissed your cheek
While people passed your viewing

Youve written a sad song
the one i found
you were laying on the floor
Holding it close to your heart

What would it take for things to be quiet?
passing the sound of your voice
While laying on the bed we once slept in 
Holding eachother for warmth

youve written the saddest song
No one can recover
Our last memory of you
Laying helpless on the floor

I could have done better
Finding my way into your heart





Details | Lyric | |

The Prison Bluegrass Song

Well I was drunk the day I got out of prison
I staggered down to the old corner store

As I walked in I drew my pistol
And I shot the clerk as I walked out the door

Well I made off with forty five dollars
A pack of Marlboro reds and a fifth of whiskey

I ran down by the edge of town
And thats where the sheriff found me and shot me down

They picked me up and drove me to the hospital
Patched my wounds and through me back in jail

Now Ill set here another thirty five years
And when I get out Ill be old as hell


Details | I do not know? | |

I Dont Know

I dont know if my heart can last forever
and i dont know if me and you can stay together.
This thing that i feel inside my heart 
is the reason that we must be apart.
When i close my eyes i dream of you
and our emotional love that cant be true.

I just dont know how you will feel
but in the end i have to keep it real.


Details | Lyric | |

point of no return

I gotta make a sacrifice
I might just have to take my life
becuz I've fallen into deep
into this pain you left me

so plain to see, so vividly
its obvious how you treated me
tell me honestly
did you really love me
cuz its not wat it seem to be

im at the point of no return
my heart turn solid rock
I just cant return
to love another man
like I loved you

"The lesson of love is learned"

im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return

ever since I left
my life took a step back
you been on my mind
but I dont want you back

I wish I could forget
I wish I could forget you
but I cant forget
the perfect storm you
put me through

im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return

"The lesson of love is learned"


Details | Lyric | |

Fly

Don't you wish you could fly? Don't you wish you could fly? Decisions are capable of control, Then you feel like a mole, Deep in the ground, Far away from sound. Things get you down, You can't fit into the crown, You lay in front of an ice cream shop, Your friends are playing ninja in the handicap spot. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Dreaming of a beautiful land, When you dug your feet into the sand, I get beaten, When your so smitten, Because you're not mine. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Fly, fly, fly. Fly like a butterfly, Away from troubles, That make you cry, When come in doubles. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Flap your wings and, Fly.


Details | Free verse | |

Neelde Garden

In the end of everything I watch the fire
eat the bricks cement blocks perspire 
not noticing the temperature has gotten higher
while endlessly escaping the mobs desire
the gothic spire dissappears into the clouds chest
hanging dead in the sky with no shroud fixed
in a world of giants you're small as a mouse is
one needle nuzzled in a garden of thousands


Details | Rhyme | |

AN UNPLEASANT DAY

The fog thickens over the waters,
making every island vanish
into the misty sea rolling by;
but the lonely and trembling gull
stands on a skaky lamp-post, 
and his loud,distant cry
is revealed by a deep anguish
adding to an unpleasant day...

Mindless and shameless lovers,
take advantage of the pelting rain
to satisfy their urge with passionate eyes; 
these lovers came to this marine 
with the intent to cheat without concern,
not honoring their promise
to those who are eternally faithful:
isn't instant gratification a foolish game?  

The steady raindrops turn into a tempest,
causing the eere wind to whistle wildly
and as they pelt on my windshied and dance,
the music of my melody,so lively,
changes to a tune played with melancholy;
winter effects my mood so dramatically...

I look out of the driver's window twice
and the same bird sits still where he was,
I'm wondering if he waits for his mate,
to take a plunge into the water and bathe;
it's not only humans who experience loneliness:
it is seen in the wilderness as well...

Amid the fury of the relentless storm,
I'm caught between land and air, 
and does anybody feel the awesome force 
that makes us look so insignificant and small!
Our works are temporary and frail,
like the empires that were great and invincible,
they may seem perfect and beautiful,
but they will lose luster and suddenly fall
and crumble into a dust of oblivion:
only this Universe was made to last forever...

My wish for serenity is swept away
by the wind's fierce currents above,
and the frenzy waves carry it along
to follow that ship that left a while ago;
and still there's no visible sky
over the prestine, white beach
where I would lie down and sleep,
hidden away from anything and anybody...

In this treacherous month of March,
I can't lay back or be faint of heart;
somehow, with willingness and brit,
I must start being realistic
and take in consideration an unpleasant day
and make the best of it anyway... 


Details | Free verse | |

A Wandering Knight


A wandering knight
wambling in an endless road

Thinking to himself

Where the others are?
Taking care of what?

Who am I?
but a fading footprint

on a dark empty land
under a starless sky

seized by roaring shadows
and delusive hopes


Details | Elegy | |

Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


Details | Quintain (English) | |

TODAY IS THE DAY OF SAD MEMORIES

Let's embrace and comfort each other,
because today is the day of sad memories:
awakening both the agony and the pain;
and should tears fall, don't wipe them...
let them gently flow into the fountain of grief.


Did that tragedy change us entirely,
bonding us together as a stronger Nation?
And shouldn't we pray and sing together
with the survivors of that horrible morning...
remembering that today is the day of sad memories?


No rain will be falling as it did last year, and how could we mourn
as yesterday and not understand that our beloved ones
do not wish us to grieve anymore? Perhaps sending smiles 
to Heaven will help us realize that our prayers will make them smile...
wishing that today wouldn't be the day of sad memories.


On Ground Zero, where the mighty towers fell,
thousands will gather around the beautiful Memorial
with flowers and candles in their hands, being assured
that angels will guard this most sacred place...
to remind everyone that today is the day of sad memories. 


My poem is dedicated to the victims and survivors of September 11


Details | Rhyme | |

The Following of the Pipes

On this cold winter night
A horror unfurls
As they leave their trenches
Under the Bagpipes skirl

It's Christmas Eve
In World War One
Over the top they leave
The killing has begun

Knee deep in mud
Barbed wire and bodies
The piper laments
Their bravery embodied

To march into battle
With their weapon of pipes
Whilst bullets and bombs
Leave the theatre in strife

Onward they march
Turning men into hero's
The battle of the Somme
Last centuries ground zero
 
What makes such a man
To enter a war
His weapon of music
That they follow him for

Amongst the men that fall
Others pick up their guns
When the piper falls
Their is no one

On this cold Christmas Day
The horrors have been unfurled
As one looks over the trenches
To a different world

But the very next day
In the distance you will hear
The sound of the Scottish Bagpipes
Leaving their enemy in fear



        In memory to all who fell at Christmas time, and especially to the pipers
who used music as their weapon, we will remember them, as all will be remembered




http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/war-5.php




Details | I do not know? | |

Goodbye - an original song

Goodbye...
(an origional song)



oh my darling could it be?
could those words you sighed be true
is love something likened to disease
or the bruises on your knees
landing where no standing flew

{chorus 1}
and you're taking your time
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney
were those words ever mine?
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney.


can your feelings wash away?
like the bars of soap you make
taking shortcuts with no lye
cutting straight to the goodbye
to clean up your mistake

{chorus 2}
and you're taking your time
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney
so i'm drawing the line
hey honeyhoney, i got you where you want me

{bridge 1}
sometimes i still find it strange
i never felt the climate change
til the waters i was swimming in froze up hard
then i had to choose
do i die, or leave a bruise?
but either way i go we end up scarred

the ice may still melt someday
and the stones i threw might sink
beyond the bottom of the lake, through clay
to a depth where they will stay
bruises only made of ink

{chorus 3}
so lets just take our time
hey honeyhoney hey honeyhoney
so we can leave this behind
hey honey honey, someday we'll find this funny

{bridge 2}
we always said that we were meant to be
but your fate made me hate it
now i think that it's true
and the ending too
was written in the stars

goodbye goodbye. goodbye.. goodbye...


Details | Couplet | |

Ghazal-THE SPELL IN THE POTION

Incited by her Allure Sensuelle...
a vulnerable man is noticed by all.


Quite by nature, I rarely frequent clubs...
loud music turns me into a demon from hell.


She brought me so many Martinis on the Rocks...
I drank them too quickly and took a bad fall.


The spell in the potion must have acted too slowly...
I showed her respect, but she became too sensual.


Discovering the foul play, I was dismayed by her madnesss...
she left in a hurry and disappeared down the crowded hall.


Entered in Jared Pickett's contest, " The Ghazal "


Details | Lyric | |

River Blues

Lyrics by Shannon Farlouis Music and Vocals by David Reinstein/Associated Content.com



I work my fingers to the bone,
all day long, all day long.
Then I'll find my way back home.
Something is going to come my way,
Yeah! I will find a way today.
A way for you and me, bring us out of poverty.
These old river blues will neer die.
So, mama don't you cry for me.
Don't cry for me.
I'm leavin' on the Delta Queen.
Gonna roll this river, see what I can see.
Gonna make a way for you and me.
Don't ask why and don't you cry,
these old river blues will never die.
Gonna take my guitar and roll this river long and far.
Gonna bring my harmonica too.
So, when I'm lonely I'll sing the blues.
Got to leave from here today.
Have to make a way.
Roll this river on that Delta Queen.
See as far as I can see.
Bring us out of poverty.
Sing them blues, don't ask why.
These old river blues will never die.
Don't you cry for me mama, don't you cry.


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Missing Notes

I now tell you of an ancient world; 
whose very essence became unfurled. 
Allowing apathy and hate to rend and tear, 
at the souls of the beings that lived down there. 

This happened such a very long time ago, 
that my recollections of it; they come and go. 
I speak of a people much like you and I, 
full of dreams, desires and visions; eager to try. 

They started to covet what the other one had; 
and greed fueled the flames of a people gone mad. 
Soon armies fought armies, over the color of one's skin, 
and decency fled the lost, those corrupted by greed's sin. 

Love became an unwanted burden when people chased after sex, 
loose morals, lustful appetites came gleefully next. 
Abortion took innocent souls and the notes that they sang, 
and angels wept for the music lost as God's toll bells rang. 

Others boarded the train on a one-stop ride, 
at break-neck speed to the station called Suicide, 
More fell to the wielding of gun, rope and knife, 
as murder claimed, sons, daughters, husbands and wives. 

Those beings soon forgot the notes that each of them played, 
and their world grew silent as the last musician left the stage. 
All was dark until the sweet notes of our rebirth, 
for now we sing happily on this planet called Earth. 

Each person has musical notes to be played, 
some loud, some soft, but not a one can we trade. 
Every note is unique and contained in our spirit, 
and released only when someone is willing to hear it. 

One day hopefully in our future, the music will come awake, 
we'll no longer know hatred and the sadness it makes. 
There will be no missing notes, we'd have learned from our past, 
for Earth's sweet tones will be resounding clearly at last! 

©03/07/2012 


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A Cello Plays

A Cello Plays

I’m sad tonight because I sit alone in my chair
The sound of a cello plays softly in the background
The music is sad like me, as it plays alone, filling the air
I wonder if it feels the pain of the hands that play it
Does it understand that its sound is also a cry of passion?
As the bow touches the strings, the melody laments for someone
Mourning, grieving, the bow plays the cello with strength driven from agony
An agony it doesn’t fully understand except for what the performer expresses
With great care, she holds the cello and escapes into the music filling the night
The flow is smooth, sorrowful, as it leaves the room eerie and haunted in loneliness
A broken piece, the strings bind it together, like a sulking lullaby
Alone it waits to be played, gathering dust as the days drag on
A dark corner becomes its new home
And all the cello knows of is solitude, anguish, and tears 
From the hand that held the bow, playing till she bled
That’s all it was taught to play, only to never be played at all. 
 
Written by: Jennifer Maupin
June, 2011


Details | ABC | |

The Night and Her Ways/Lost Under The Sun

there is a moon,
shining all alone
under all seas looming side to cloud
fall in our night and wait for the one who makes
slip in the prowl
the beasts hold night at growl
howling their sorrows
move midnight forever is tomorrow
come to our dark we run deep in the dusk
trust your lost soul while wait here for the sun

trust your yearning haven safely break
grey sky a-standing
standing far astray

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun 
lost under the sun

there is a place
marble floor and blue
there is a space 
that was meant for what was you
summer now white a different sort of lone
cold in our skin deeps
looking towards our glow

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun


Details | Lyric | |

No More

I will love no more
(I will-love-no more)
I cant take no more
(I cant-take-no more)
My man walked out the door
(he left-my heart-so soar)
Im crying on the floor
(I cant-stop-no more)
Repeat2x:

so baby wait a second
and-listen-to me,
you say that im the one
but you walked out on me
my world is black and white
someone please set me free

I will love no more
(I will-love-no more)
I cant take no more
(I cant-take-no more)
My man walked out the door
(he left-my heart-so soar)
I'm crying on the floor
(I cant-stop-no more)
Repeat2x:

you broke my heart in pieces
(My heart-is-on-da floor)
I need to survive this mess
and not hurt no more
I call it the black storm
"that's right"
It done its choir

I will love no more
(I will-love-no more)
I cant take no more
(I cant-take-no more)
My man walked out the door
(he left-my heart-so soar)
I'm crying on the floor
(I cant-stop-no more)
Repeat2x:


Details | Bio | |

hard,and then some

swollen feet from this journey of grief
replaceable you seem to believe, 
but only i know true hurt
im going out of my head
im going out of my head
tonight the
drugs help,im going outa of my head
they take me away
from reality, then put me to bed.

i suffer more than you imagine
i cry so fukin much i get dehydrated
i promise you this isn't easy
i sleep next to your ghost
they will never be you.
i hold nothing so close

im going outta my head
my heart is haunted,dark,empty
like a basement,its got bugs and poison
that decision is now my prison. 
 


Details | I do not know? | |

Liar's Moon

   It would have been a pretty moon, 
If I’d not been alone. 
It would have been shining bright, 
On a heart I called my own. 
   But here I sit beneath a sky, 
Of darkness I have made, 
And think of this game I’m in, 
But wish I hadn’t played.
 
   Oh liar’s moon, I’ve been deceived, 
By the brightness of your smile, 
You called my name, made me believe, 
You’d be here for awhile. 
   I’ve been a fool for your love, 
Gave up my heart and home, 
The sky is empty...You have gone, 
I’m left no place of my own.
 
   So, now I am a prisoner, 
Of lives I thought were dreams, 
The bars that surround me, 
Made of your piercing beams. 
   I realize I am still a fool, 
And though I feel so lost, 
I’d throw it all into the wind, 
And count you worth the cost. 
 
Chorus: 
Oh liar’s moon, you’ve won again, 
I guess the joke’s on me, 
You stole away my spirit, 
And called it “setting me free”, 
Oh liar’s moon, you’ve won again, 
I guess the joke’s on me. 


Details | Lyric | |

Pecador Island

There's an island to the west
Where our dreams lie and rest
The people are nice
The people are fine
They'll feed your vice
What's your's is mine
This is Pecador Island, the land of fun
Party all night, live fast, be done
Snort the snow the villagers offer you
It's free, it's fine, you don't owe a due
It'll make you feel no pain, no cold
It's taste is bittersweet, you won't grow old

This is Pecador Island, the land of fun
Party all night, live fast, be done
Run your race here until your done
Party all night, all day, have some fun

The huka here is powerful and sweet
They often call it the Verde Treat
Just try it
Can't you see
One beautiful hit
Will make you see
Take it all in, don't cough it out
You'll be flyin' high, I got no doubts
The Verde Treat doesn't interest you?
Then join the slakers, the solemn few
They'll offer whiskey, gin, rum and coke
They'll fill you up till you're a joke

This is Pecador Island, the land of fun
Party all night, live fast, be done
If you can't recognize your face, you've won
Party all night, all day, have some fun
Pecador Island is a place to retreat
When your life has won, when you're beat
Forget the bad, remember the good
Do what you want, don't do what you should

The women here are frisky and fun
Beautiful as the setting sun
Take them to bed
Go for a whirl
Don't let them in your head
Don't dream of these girls
They'll love you as long as your rollin' it in
They'll love you more if you offer them gin
So get your glasses, fill their minds
Bring 'em up, throw 'em down, just unwind
You won't have to worry about 'em in the morning
But protect yourself, boy, just a warning

This is Pecador Island, the land of fun
Party all night, live fast, be done
Live your life like a loaded gun
Party all night, all day, have some fun
Pecador Island is a place to retreat
When your life has won, when you're beat
Forget the bad, remember the good
Do what you want, don't do what you should

The land of sinners, the land of love
A place to fly away, to fly above
To get away from the world around
The only way to leave is in the ground
This is Pecador Island


Details | Lyric | |

Piano Product 70

Melodies of the mistrals,
Finger and the cuts,
Were fancy so fancy,
Keying the right notes.
Costumes of the dead,
Scrape and moan,
Against their lonely piano,
Singing and ringing their bells.
Seventy songs lay in a row,
Of choosing which to play,
The rhyme of the chime,
Of playing night to day.


Details | Blank verse | |

Luciferia II-- The Damned

Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be


Details | Imagism | |

Songstress of Sadness

Hymns of a Songstress
Vibrational tone, of Sadness
So One day she'll die saving us all
But in return She can never love
for her purity is to Strong
May The Creation Guide
 the Loveless Songstress Of Hope
To the Great Divine
For she is Destin a Loveless Quest
 For our Great Survival of Life
The Path Of the Songstress is Sad
But Honorable to Have
For She is Know as the
Songstress Of Sadness 




Details | Lyric | |

Road Of No Return

Well here I am again,
on this broken road today
Searchin' to find,
my lost highway
Last night I broke her heart,
in the pouring rain
But now it's me,
who feels the pain

I looked through my windshield,
saw a sign through the pane
Said hello friend,
welcome to memory lane
So I parked my car,
beside a deep dark river
Walked across a bridge
that just won't burn

Saw an image of her crying,
with a broken heart
As I walked down a path,
through a cold graveyard
Thought I saw her across the valley,
but she was just to far
That's when I Felt a tear on my cheek,
so I returned to my car

I looked at her picture,
hanging from the mirror
She had the sweetest little smile,
and long flowing hair
And as my fingers traced her image,
down ran another tear
So I turned my car around,
for I needed her here

Today I was lost,
on this road of no return
My mind full of memories,
oh someday I'll learn
Now I Need to hold her,
and beg for forgiveness
For this road of no return,
has filled me up with sadness

Last night I broke her heart,
but It was me who got burned
And now the sun's going down,
on this road of no return
It was all selfishness,
and now it's her touch I yearn
Cause today I left many tears,
on this road of no return


Details | Free verse | |

Dancing Solo

Shadow dancers
cast your spells
your enchanting steps
to the rhythm
of unseen forces
hypnotic trances
the longing
of passionate glances
in a smoke filled
darkened room
under dim light
of observation.

Guitar strings filled the air
trumpets blasted
emotional tunes
smoking hues
laughing tears
drowning in beers of forgetting.

Stealing kisses in the night
from hungry strangers
aching for something
they can not fight
their loneliness following them
like a sleepless stalker
with zombie eyes and frozen hearts.

Sleeping alone again
on their vacant sheets 
of painted glass.

Watching over me.

You are my only lover.


Details | Free verse | |

34

I
Silence
the most deadly poison of all
The sin i play with when i'm alone
   II
A piercing scream
echoes throughout the night
Another time, it is mine
screaming at the top of my lungs
but nothing comes out
just a strangled cry

Throat closes up
cold, bony hands clasp my neck
air stops
can't breath
can't move
nor think
vision growing dim
growing black
cold motionless
trying to break free
but fail
   III
white and black keys
a simple way
to express my mind
soothe my nerves
one of the few places
where i belong
   IV
What are you looking at?
you see the scars?
never had the blade rule your perfect life
everything was handed to you on a spotless silver platter
But everyones not like you
perfect; that gift
Why are you looking at me?
Never seen anybody like me?
so low
had to fight and bleed
to get where i am
and even now it is nothing
never was and never will be
anything
(always) an outsider (outcast)
an emo (depression)
(hear) voices (Hello I'm Back)
She isn't pain right now
She is inspiration
my words that flow from the pens black ink
She paints the picture in my head
Both good and dark
but she seems a friend
this spirit in my head
this being
she's nicer
nor causing any pain
no fresh self inflicted wounds
   V
my love
my life
my every tear
i shed for thee
i long for thee
wish your presence
was by my side

my heart is icing over
needing your warmth
to chase the chill away


Details | Lyric | |

Crush and Crushed

In the beginining,
There was a girl.
She was on a rollar coaster.
She saw her crush.
He ignored her.
He thought she was annoying.
He thought she was petiful.
Little did he know,
She would die that day.
Here's her story.

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Little, little girl,
No cares in the world.
Bruises on her face,
Crazy on her trace.

Little, little girl,
Little, little crush.
Little, little love,
Little, little to much.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Little, big circle coming up,
She was on bottom the cart on top.
Watching the cart fallin',
He didn't know she was calling,
His name.

Heaven reached to her,
But she kept herself on earth,
Until she could see him again.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Tell him, tell him how you feel,
Little did you know it would feel so real.
Now that she was dead he started thinkin',
Was she crazy or was she worth loving?

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Now she's going to heaven,
So many things she hasn't done.
She sees the door and,
Remembers her amore.

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Later that night,
After he saw her die,
He commited suicide.
His parents found a note from him.
"I saw her die,
 I love her,
 I am going to be with her.
 I'm sorry"
He didn't go to heaven,
Neither did she,
They are both stuck in limbo,
At least they have each other.


Details | I do not know? | |

When You Cry

When you cry
just know that i cry to
and when you hurt
just know that i am here for you....

Your voice is the key to my heart
and no matter what i say we will never be apart

When you cry
i can feel the pain within my heart
and in the end can you tell me where to start...
Baby please
dont you ever leave me
and i can tell you now
how much i really wanna be.

When you cry
When you cry
i can see the tears within your eyes


Details | Free verse | |

Ode to Sydney's Piano

I wait here for her return silently sat
With a lonely and quiet sigh
Standing there with a lamp that
Is perched on top of my head high;

My keys ache to be
Played by her
Soft, small hands to see
Notes ringing out to stop the burr;

Different songs at played each
Time she sits down
Whether to let emotions out, to tell a speech
Or just to practice the sound;

Soft music played for her peers
Or loud music will
Echo in my ears
Until all is still...


Details | Lyric | |

Siren

I loved this girl from first sight
I was the darkness, she was my light...
She told me, "Hey babe, you're gonna be a star,
you're gonna make it big, you're gonna make it far!"...
I don't know what I've been told but
I aint gettin' younger, just growin' cold...
So I told my momma I'm gonna make money
She said, "Alright, just don't be late honey..."
Spent all my money to make it there
Didn't have no worries, didn't have a care...
So I tried it out, got kicked to the curb
How did she lie, how'd she have the nerve...
Never thought she would lie to me
But to get the truth I guess we gotta pay fees...
I asked her what she meant by far, she said
"Not all of us make it, some are fallin' stars..."
Woke up and turned to talk to her
She was my medicine, but there was no cure...
Never made it back, couldn't get my feet
Coulnd't find the rhythm, couldn't find the beat...
I met her again, I saw her cruisin'
She's flyin' high while I'm down here losin'...
I thought I could try and make it right
But I lost it all, I had no more fight...
I guess that's what I get for wantin' fun
My money's spent, my race is run...


Details | Lyric | |

Same Boat

I woke up this morning and I took my breath,
prayed to Allah that I took that step.
Making it's hard but I cooked what's left
and saved the rest for the family
can of peas
that I took off the shelf,
you understanding me.
I have dreams so everyday I stand and freelance styles
it's been the same process sense I was a child now,
I write a song every other day the other days
I discover ways to put a buck in the bank hussling.
We all struggling, financially I hate
to see my mom stumbling loosing her job again.
Forget sobbing when the times get tough,
put in overtime at my job
dimes stack up, it's not enough....listen.
Bills rack up out my checks they take half
I spend the rest on food and music you do the math.
Everyday is like another step taken,
we're in the same boat all trying to make it.

I know it's people that think it's fine where I'm at,
but they haven't seen through the eyes of Iraq.
Suicide bombers take lives they die fast,
even little kids hold knives that slice back
at US militants, orders from Bin Laden
land hold killers even innocents get blasted.
Car bombs go off,
youngen buying bread for mother
gets his leg blown off for him it's so hard.
That life I want no part so Allah
I fight through life writting like I've been
struck by the venom of white vipers.
Might not see the next day the best way
to write until I'm dead face
down shot up from tech spray.
I live and die for the music
it's all love don't try to confuse it.
Until then don't judge my soul, I know
you know the feeling let's roll we in the same boat.


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The Sixes and Sevens Veil

All of those words and emotions Are tired of lingering in my throat and Mind I want to caress them onto you But how can I? Anon. there might be a time in our days I want to tell you-- I'm worthless, Broken, Diedre, Torned, Discarded, Abuse The past shouldn't control the present but it lingers in my spirit The words need to come out The Darkness with Them What if the truth couldn't set me free, save me from this candled day Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil Shrouded against our will too scared to show our bare Vulnerable Shadowself It was the ignorance's bliss that caught you The Knowledge creates a burden Too Difficult to Maintain or was it I? trying to be part of your soul The Decay of Your Heart Sadness can be cured by a few words Despair is a disease of the Knife The Eclipse stole the Sun's Sinlight Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart


Details | Free verse | |

One And Thousand

One And Thousand


There once more it rises;
Rise with each beat.
Once more it has arose a storm,
A storm so strong can't describe.
Shaping wishes one after another, just
Like the beats that are created,
Each with its own pain, its own pleasure.
Creates in me a aroma that I,
Once prayed for, longed for, wish for;
Each with its own Resonance, Its own cadence;
Creates in me an urge to covet more, I
Once wandered for, cried for, begged for.
These endless flows of beats in rhythm
Like a wave on shore, winds on pinnacle,
Move me from Acme to Acme.
But lo! The count remains same;
One and thousand wishes, one and thousand beats,
One and thousand…
……………………………………………………………………….


Written more than a decade back, one day, when my friend came over and he was in 
depressed mood, that very day I had purchased ‘Taal’ Hindi Movie audio, for which AR 
Rahman gave music, and being hardcore music fan, and also that the Music of AR Rahman 
grows on you and one may not like on first instance. I gave my Sony Walkman to my friend 
to hear, and in few first listen he began to smile and seeing the joy on his face I took 
the ‘sandwich’ wrap paper and wrote these line. 

These lines are dedicated to those joyous that appear even after for some reason one does 
not get them fulfilled. Celebrating the joy of finding others happy.

Don’t know where this lines stand on poetical measurements, but for me this is one of the 
most memorable and valuable poems I’ve written. 
.musafirs 


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I Don't Want It

You've got your...guns...
You've got your...war...
But I don't want it...
All it brings is death...
You've got your...god...
You've got your...book...
But I don't want any part of it...
He was never there before...
You've got your...work...
You've got your...jobs...
But I don't want them...
I don't want to support the system...
You've got your...power...
You've got your...responsibility...
But I don't want it...
Power is misused...
You've got your...money...
You've got your...possessions...
But I don't want them...
I don't need to worship things...
You've got your...protection...
You've got your...laws...
But I don't need them...
They've screwed me over...
I don't want any part of it...
I don't need any of it...
We never needed it before...
Why do we need it now?...


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A Poet's World

This poem is about the life and feelings of a poet/poetess.



In a poet's world there is heaven and hell,
and many stories to tell.
There are mysteries to solve and codes to unravel,
many roads to travel.
There are confessions of yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
Storms of rejection, dejection, and sorrow.
Reflections of love, marriage, and romance.
Expressions of flamboyance and dance.

In a poet's world there is music of rhythm and verse,
imaginations of all things on earth.
Songs, sonnets, lyrics, and beats,
gardens of flowers and of trees.
There are times of drama, prose, and learning.
A constant desire burning.
Laughter and tears and feelings of fear, all in a poet's world.
There are influences to work, criticism and hurt.
Achievement and goal, warmth and cold,
visions of life and death, 
and times to be quiet.

In a poet's world there is religion, science, and belief,
faith, hope, war, and peace.
Emotions of anger and tempers that rage,
many characters on stage.

In a poet's world there are promises and dreams,
nightmares and screams,
humbleness, happiness, and philosophy,
a lifetime of writing for infinity.
It's an angel who speaks to the poet's soul,
to tell the world all his heart holds.


Details | Ballad | |

Vibeke

She is so sweet to me Her lovely lullabies are my fix An angel on earth she is With her voice she could break the lunar love She is my muse But where did she go My angelic-gothic queen A siren has fell What is left to take her place A wench from the south Such a terrible fate for her band of legends  Tristania has surely died


Details | Lyric | |

Love/Life

You said you loved me,
You said you cared,
you said you'd always be  there.

But ever since the dreadful day,
You made it clear about what you had to say.
The words punched me in the gut and ripped out my heart,
When you said we could no longer be and we had to part.

Love is strange, love is hard;
But you didn't have to go and break my heart.
Love is cruel, love is mean;
But you didn't have to do what you did to me.

You used to say "I love you".
Did you lie to me or were you saying the truth?
You broke my heart into pieces;
Now I'm gonna be lost, thanks to this.
It's a situation out of control,
But I have to do this on my own.

The healing will take quite a while.
It'll be a long time before I smile.

Love is strange, love is hard;
But you didn't have to go and break my heart.
Love is cruel, love is mean;
But you didn't have to do what you did to me.

Because I'm sick and tired of being lied to.
I can't handle it, especially by you.
I thought there was, between you and me, some kind of trust;
So I took my heart off the shelf and wiped off the dust.
But now I know it was a mistake,
'Cause I'm suffering with so much heartache.

Love is strange, love is hard;
But you didn't have to go and break my heart.
Love is cruel, love is mean;
But you didn't have to do what you did to me.

You made promises to me that you couldn't keep,
And ever since then, I'd hide so I could weep.
I cared about you so much;
I'd do anything to feel your touch,
'Cause you would hold me in your arms;
You'd protect me from any kind of harm.
But unfortunately,
That will never again be.
And unfortunately,
I'll be full of nothing but misery,
'Cause,

Love is strange, love is hard;
But you didn't have to go and break my heart.
Love is cruel, love is mean;
But you didn't have to do what you did to me.

Life is strange, life is hard;
But you didn't have to go and break my heart.
Life is cruel, life is mean;
But you didn't have to do what you did to me.


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My Juliet

 My Juliet was the blood of my heart
we had something going until she tore it all apart.
My love for her was really really deep
I could hear my love crying between every beat.
 My Juliet was the Sun in the Sky but she she shined
so bright and glowed like moonlight.
I never thought I would lose her now
my heart is crushed and buried in the ground
so far below that it can never be found
 I'm Romeo and I lost my Juliet
but trust me she really was the best
    My Juliet!!!
    My Juliet!!!
Come back with love
and nothing less


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The Day Is Coming

The Day Is Coming

The day is coming
When I just don't care anymore
Offered hands full of life
To watch people suck away all I had to give
Giving almost nothing back
At the end of the ride
The seats on this bus are empty
Except for my seat
And I'm sitting here all alone
But that's perfectly fine
I've got my music to keep me company
The lights flicker on and off
This bus is taking me to the edge of the world
It could have been so much better
This life of mine
I'm just terribly distracted by video games
And when real world friends walk away
I've often wondered
Why I try so hard
When I can live so happily in virtual reality
I could be going to California
Or walking the stairway to Heaven
Over the hills and far away
But the song remains the same
Because what is and what should never be
Has left me dazed and confused
And it's nobody's fault but mine
All I have in hand is a tangerine

But the day has finally come
When I just don't care anymore
The bus finally slows to a stop
And I climb off


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VERSES VIBRANT WITH LIFE

Read me verses
vibrant with life,
not sad epitaphs;
paint me my portrait
with a lustrous light...
be a Cavaraggio, or Rembrandt,
and my replicas sell in the market
for a price that suits any wallet.


I was given a name,
and with gilt I embellished it;
gladsome to glitter and giggle,
blooming as a rose bud caressed
by the wind's soft breath;
and its seed will be transported 
far-away, to germinate by a godly temple,
and there I will meet a favorable, clement fate. 


A tombstone is the place
for the soul's eternal rest,
my bones will lie within it...these brittle bones
once covered by flesh, but its spirit
will depart to ascend from the realm of mortals;
and sleep it will...until a mighty voice will awaken it,
there with the angels of Paradise I will write my praises,
and seeing the sorrow of the living, I will act upon their behalf.


Read me verses
vibrant with life;
epistles that the New Testament's
devoted scribes wrote.
Sing me odes of the glory to come, put aside
the longest elegy, don't trifle
with my final wish, everything else is trivial;
look into the Heavens, I will smile... 
 

Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci


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I Won't Be There When You Cry

I watched you crying at the mirror today
Watched your tears fall from your eyes
I just turned and walked away
Waited for you to say good-bye
~
Last night you said that we were through
That tomorrow you'd be going away
Said you're leaving for someone new
Oh! what a price I had to pay

Those vows we said on our wedding day
Went away when you turned out the light
Didn't matter what I had to say
Didn't matter if it was wrong or right
~
You braught someone into our lives
Broke my heart when you went astray
You smiled and said that I'd survive
Oh! what a price I had to pay


(Chorus)
Well tonight I'll just say good-bye
With our world turned upside down
You turned my smile into a frown
So tonight I'll just say good-bye
And when you're tears fall from your eyes
I won't be there when you cry

Been a year since you broke my heart
And burned that hole into our lives
Now it's your world that's ripped apart
Cause he smiled and said that you'd survive
~
He burned both ends of your candle
And your world went dark when he went away
Now your back begging for my hand
Oh! what a price you had to pay

(Chorus)
Well tonight I'll just say good-bye
With our world turned upside down
You turned my smile into a frown
So tonight I'll just say good-bye
And when you're tears fall from your eyes
I won't be there when you cry

You turned my smile into a frown
So tonight I'll just say good-bye
And when you're tears fall from your eyes
I won't be there when you cry


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Control

I loved you. You were creeped out. I loved you. You were all I thought about. Dreams bring misery, To this little life. I will use trickery. I don't go down without a fight. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. Foreign language brings nightmares, Because I would curse you, And you would figure out later, That I once loved you. Teardrops cover my doorstep. Remember how much you ment, I gave you my heart you kept. And you left me there when I wept. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You left me there, In the pouring rain. Bleeding without care, My feelings were drained. I left... I left... I left... The past behind. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You're not Mr. Man anymore. I took back my control. How does it feel being cold, To lose it???


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Cold Here In July

You say you love me,
So why do my arms feel so empty?
You say your heart is mine,
But your heart I just can't find.
Your image is all see,
Of what's left of you and me.
I guess it was  just another line,
That you threw at me this time.

You tell me you're listening,
But all I hear is the phone ringing.
You say I make you happy,
So why do you walk away from me?
Your hands are always pushing,
And your eyes are always gazing.
You shiver from my touches,
Then you  just  turn away from me.

Oh! our bedrooms so cold here in July,
And the chill of the sheets just makes me cry.
My arms have been empty for a long long time,
And these tears in my eyes keep blurring my mind.
I know your leaving's just a matter of time,
Cause our bedroom's so cold here in July.

You used to always tell me you loved me,
But today your heart keeps refusing me.
Oh! I don't know if I can keep going on,
Don't know if I can take the cold with your love gone.
I feel that our  time together is finally ending,
And I know I just can't go on pretending.
For my heart feels like you're breaking free,
With your arms so far away from me.

Oh! our bedrooms so cold here in July,
And the chill of the sheets just makes me cry.
My arms have been empty for a long long time,
And these tears in my eyes keep blurring my mind.
I know your leaving's just a matter of time,
Cause our bedroom's so cold here in July.


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Sound of the rain

The sound of the rain
hitting my window
while im in my room
crying on the floor
all I can do
is ask god to help me
to send someone to fill 
this hole in my heart
before I really start
to crumble apart


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Here We Go.

Here we go. Stomach churning, brain burning.
Together mixing up a bit of that cha-os.
Body built up, mind fortified, but resistance is fu-tile.
All that training and that experience, trumped by the infantile.
Mature and rational thoughts interrupted by what's pri-mal.
The urge to survive contrasts the pity if it dies
and my instincts run hay-wire.

Nothing stops it, no explanation will do.
This is the last-straw.
I accept the words but am confused by the actions.
What is going on here?
My minds a blur, filled with reactions.
What's lying underneath here?
I take any fact in stride, I swallow my pride.
But are we really getting stuck here?

Visions creep, my heart begins to weep
but I straighten up my bow tie.
Slap in the face, I can't take this disgrace.
My confidence is so high.
Light up, sit back, recollect and play back
every moment that's gone by.
I give up trying to understand.
It's too complicated and I just let it ride.


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Turn for the Worse

In the beginning
Things were so unreal
You were the ideal image
With monster sex appeal

You said you'd always be there
But what you've said is now a lie
Are you aware of the consequences
Your actions hold
Upon our bonded lives

A breaking of the chemistry
We took so long to build
Down playing this relationship
Into something never fulfilled

You were my four leaf clover
My lucky little charm
But
You've turned into a harlot
And caused nothing but harm

I'm at the bottom of this bottle
There may be some cause for alarm
Only finding comfort in
My friends Jack and Jim
Jettisoned into chaos
Where nobody can swim
Your selfishness is drowning me
You shouldn't have left on a whim


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I've Crawled Ten Miles

I've crawled ten miles before
Even when they offered me more
Take it from me, babe, life's great
All you have to do is be patient, wait

Theres more to this life than just thrills
Don't keep doin' what you're doin', it kills
I've offered advice to you many times before
But you don't seem to see that theres more
Theres more to life than you think
More than cuttin' lines on the sink
More than blackin' out in your room
Keep it up and you'll meet your doom

I've crawled ten miles in your shoes
Snortin' coke and drinkin' the booze
Keep it up and you're gonna lose
So come on baby, you gotta choose

They lead you down an unknown path
If you keep it up you'll incur death's wrath
Don't let them tell you, "It's alright, take more."
Don't let them do it, what do they take you for
Drugs and booze aren't always the way
I'll offer you more advice, if I may
Push the snow and booze far away
Droppin' them is the only way

I've crawled ten miles in your shoes
Snortin' coke and drinkin' the booze
Keep it up and you're gonna lose
So come on baby, you gotta choose


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3,000 Miles Separate Fate

There you were
Just a blur
In the spur
Of the moment

A spontaneous rush
Of flushed confusion
An overwhelming lasting impression

This brief encounter
Bringing two strangers
A precious and a joyous sensibility
That's all too serene to be fiction

Effervescent euphoria
Permeates its way through the senses
Infiltrating effortlessly

Why did you have to go
And get on that plane

Now you're never coming home


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Johnny 's Song

He was born to sing upon his land
Now he's resting in God's Everlasting hands

Didn't matter who you were
That voice you'll remember for sure

A voice that could shed many a tear
Or make you just want to stand up and cheer

Oh how'll I miss this one hell of a man
Made me today of who I am

Across oceans far and wide
Johnny sang his songs with passionated pride

Now he soars amidst his eagle friends
High above the rockies bends

Oh Johnny this song's for you
As I sing about your eagle friends too




In Loving Memory 
       of 
John Denver  { 1943 -1997 }


Soar My Feathered Friend

  {  R.I.P. }


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Pain's Anthem

I listen to new music,
I enjoy its thrill;
those moments of release, when a guitar riff
or drum solo unravels your soul, 
loosens your grip on stress
and pierces its haze, taking you away.

But there are some songs
that instead take me back, make things worse;
those piano-fueled slow songs and orchestral harmonies
just bring back things best left put away;
the swelling melodies rip apart any progress I've made
in recovering from the past.

When I hear a soft, emotional voice
or the mournful cry of a violin,
raw memories flood to the fore,
and thus am I stricken;
the sorrowful ballad and the love song become
the soundtrack to my heartache.


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forever never

You know how you made me feel/ my heart felt like it was torn out of my 
body/ I felt so stiff and lifeless as I heard those words that fell upon my ears/ 
how could you say that to me/ I thought that i had died/

No, no, no,/ i dont wanna hear you say those words/ I want us to be forever/ tell 
me what went wrong with our love/ why must you walk away from us/ forever/

I just cant take it/ i cant eat or sleep at night/ all I do is just keep thinking 
about all the memories we share/ why must you throw that away/dont you want 
to make this work/ cant you see that you're killing me/ open up your heart and 
tell me the truth/ I want it all if you want me to let go of you, of us/ and no 
matter how much it hurts/ I will go through th pain to let us end/


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THE GENTLE LOVER

I'm the gentle lover,
  I'm a real delight;
I play this game until it'll be over...
     again I lead.


   When I can't doubt you,
   when I face each truth,
   when I run into you;
   when she hides from you...
   when you look back.  


 Some things remain so unchanged,
        their beat is slow,
    if all emotions are not felt.


     I'm the gentle, lover...
        very lucky me;
     don't ask for a thing,
       when love is here.        
    
     I'm hooked on
    this long fixation;
  feeling strong inside...
    not thinking of you.
  

         I'm never
     happy, or complete;
I state my saddest feelings,
      I have to insist..

   
    I think of myself,
    I give for myself,
 should I make believe 
      I'm so sincere?
   You ought to know!


     I'm the gentle lover,
     selfish and untrue;
     always looking sad...
      when you refuse
        to lead me on.


    Holding close, sounds sweet;
         hugs are great...
yes, with one one thought I'd go back!


     I realize, I can't
    be who I was then;
    giving up chances...
    making sacrifices,
     dreaming of love;
    seeing happy faces  
 that had more than you needed,
     to be always loved...
     ............................
     ............................
 that had more than you needed,
     to be always loved.


     


Entered in John's Heck Sondheim on Sondheim. The song, " Sorry- Grateful " from the 
musical, Company.


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Mental Masochism

Welcome to the old you Hello, Hello, Despair so Crude, Dreams are gone Yet we still follow the old Path Where empathy kills And the Sympathy we find is another Lie You were born to deceive A puppet-master of emotion Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Exchange pleasure for pain It's all coming t you The facade of Joy falls again Violet Hearts crush easy Your Pain you don't Want this Your Sorrow, You Want This Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold?


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Only Sound

Only Sound
can enter your mind
and make you realize
the world around you

Only Noise
can make you wish
you had no perception
of what's happening to you

Only a Voice
can make you feel
like someone cares enough
to use it on you

Only Music
can make your soul dance
and forget for a second
the hell that surrounds you

What makes it so wonderful?
After all...its
Only
Sound


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Winter Sounds

Find myself digging through snow, 
a tunnel with no light at the end;
blistered hands crimson and sweat stain'd.
It looks to me like a cast iron heart
will bend with a little touch of warmth,
even in the middle of a vast snowstorm.

I only asked for the truth,
but as long as your heart still has a beat,
I'll sing of you.
And you know, it really hurts,
to be cast into the blue;
it's a feeling not worthy of words.
Like a perfect seed that never grew.

Every step forward is like two steps back,
spiraling deeper down into the ground;
deviated, less motivated...
Sing me your song, and I'll play the keys,
throw back a few and melt away this freeze.
And kiss the fabric's sweet reprise.

I only asked for truth,
still as long as your heart has a beat,
I'll sing of you.
And you know, it really hurts,
to be cast into the blue;
a feeling not worthy of words,
like a perfect seed that never grew.


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Unreceived Promises

You've cost me more than money,
You've cost me dignity and pride.
The wish that I had not let go,
Of all I held inside.

All the pain that comes with love,
And all the hate that follows.
All the time I can only hope,
That yesterday is tomorrow.

So I can stop, and save my life,
From the treachery you bequeathed.
From all the broken promises,
And heartache I received.

For all the time that time stood still,
For all the time it didn't.
For wearing my heart upon my sleeve,
When I should have kept it hidden.

For tears crawl pedantically,
Down my mourning face.
But thoughts still fly round frantically,
Bringing with them bitter taste.

For it may be dead inside you,
But inside me burns a flame.
The winds of time will not blow out,
And anger will not tame.


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family affair

the wind blows in, and as i lie in bed, i smell the breeze,
and sense the solemn music that whispers below;
i peek from the stairway to watch my parents, as Montivani 
invites them to dance ceremoniously in the living room;
they whisper and giggle to one another about the happiness in their lives;
as i sink into tranquility,i sense the music playing as it resonates louder 
and louder in my mind;

the curtains whisk as the house gets colder and the loudness penetrates 
my eardrums....as i suddenly awaken, i hear mom and dad continuing their strife. . .

their arguments will linger on forever;
my hopes and dreams will probably not...


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The Colors of Blue

my guitar all she does is scream and weep
seems I'm stuck again
head is hung low
my feet drag along
monday sucks
but tuesday is just as bad
by friday I feel like the whole world 
is raining down on me
If that lightning strikes any closer 
its going burn me
maybe its the devil
maybe its me 
and my stubborn ways
maybe its her
or the way she broke my heart
Its friday night
I take my place with the masses
in a darkened place
the music notes rise 
above the laughter
the words
and any sorrow that lingers is gone
Its the spirits 
served and consumed
by the faithful in this darkened place
I'm seemingly lifted to yellows and reds
instead of the colors of blue
whiskey is the fuel
music is the spark
vivid colors fill me
women talk in rhymes to me
we sing songs to one another
lift each other up and away
for the moment that is
maybe if all goes well
we will find solace 
in one another arms
and beat the colors of blue at least for a day
maybe two
then my guitar will scream and weep
again and again









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so kind to me

Because you were so kind to me 
For you I’ll play this melody 

All These wishes 
I demanded you to be 
As I reached for stars 
only I could see 

Now your whispers 
Are so vague and clear
How I selfishly 
made this choice in fear 

Because you were so kind to me
For you I’ll play this melody

I’ve placed my want 
On things that I don’t need 
All the sadness 
that dwells within my greed 

Don’t you love 
the stranger that I’ve become 
And I know you think 
That I don’t feel

But because you were so kind to me 
For you I’ll play this melody 

Now I know 
just how we’ve been
How I could not keep you
Close enough to see 

Where I wander
I’m further lost
All these things you saw in me 
What happened to the dream
We looked to be

But you were so kind to me

Now your pain has
severed my knees 
A day in a life 
Lived in ease 
Your every tear 
Disguised as me 







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Rain Drops

Tear drops falling from the sky
Each one has a sad story to tell
Who will listen?
And who will wipe them off their windsheild?
Tear drops everywhere
Ending their lives on the streets
Why do people find their sounds so peaceful?
Each tear drop is a musical note
Playing its own little, sad song
For the people willing to listen


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SILENT TEARS

Fetching water,
From the village mere,
Year after year,
I used to see her.

Underneath the mango tree,
A village lass born free,
Would wander boundless on the earth,
And revel in Nature’s mirth.
Her humble abode,
Now an empty void,
On the roof tattered
Appear cobwebs scattered.

Since yester year,
The mere is mere,
Mute are the nightingales,
And birds sing no madrigals.

On the mango- tree- bed,
Dew drops of night are shed,
As if she silently weeps,
And weeps in silence!    
(And weeps in loneliness!)


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Sweet N Low

it's hell
on the inside
but it's pour-in down
outside ,,my heart

yea it's pour-in outside
ah yea  it's raining in my heart

if i knew about 
your leaving ways
would never have given
this hurt a start

just be kindly 
to me baby
the way it was
from the start

yea treat me kindly
like from the start

if i knew bout  yo
leaven ways
could have given a
broken heart   a head start



now ya left me lazy
broke an half crazy
,,mean an angry
doing things
i just don't wanna do.......


just a simple blues tune...


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Karma

[Verse 1]: I know at times when I acted as if it was my time to shine I did some 
things that was wrong that would hurt you But I will never treat you like dirt And 
when we used to argue just as soon as I was about to hit the door I miss the way 
you tugged on my shirt I remember when your feelings start getting hurt but trust 
the love we make it isn't lust You're my boo and Im your ma Always stay down 
ain't nothing changed just look over your shoulder and there's your start because 
I can't continue to see us apart

[Chorus repeat 2 times]: I know I did some messed up things but come on baby I 
just 
want to be your lady and I know apology isn't enough but boo sometimes in life 
things get rough, its tough because I'm doing this alone the person I was 
missing is you

[Verse 2]: I remember how the phone would ring hoping its you clues after clues 
knowing you wanted to leave but I know I can't force you to stay Singing love 
songs 
that has to do with you and sometimes its hard to get through cause I don't have 
you my heart I put it in your hands we didn't take us for granted But yet and still I 
stand here alone

[Hook]: You know sometimes I don't know where to begin I don't want our love to 
end Bend over backwards for each other love so close you could call us kin Even 
though I been around the world boo I'll bring it all back to you because I care 
"Us" is the love I want to share

[Chorus repeat till fade]


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If I could know - Original by Rabindranath Tagore

If I could know my sorrow is for whom
I would tell you I cry for whom.

I stretch my hands for whom in vain
I think of whom to get more pain
As if I have sold everything
Without getting a price or gain!

I ask myself time and again
Who is the one behind this pain?

The thing that all call happiness
I play it like a flute sometimes
I don’t want it, the music says
I don’t want it, the music prays!


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Music

You are the one keeping me on earth, 
like gravity keeps pigs from flying.
You weave in and out of my emotions,
giving me a new perspective on life.

You make me feel,
as if I am untouchable.
You make the sad emotions,
stay out side of the headphones.

From the bass of pop music,
bumping throughout my soul,
to the violin in country music,
playing it's way throughout my heart.

You are the one escape I know I can run to.
You make me want you on sad days,
I need you like a soul,
needs a body.

I need you music, 
like a singer needs I song, I need you 
cause I’m a dancer and life would be empty,
without you.

I need the rhythms of your soul
Running through my veins
your lyrics twirling around my brain
I love you.

I love you like a Popsicle loves the stick
I love you like the stars love the dark
Like my body loves to spin.
Like my muscles love oxygen


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RAIN FALLING IN OCTOBER

It's so mild in the quite suburbs
with rain falling in October,
and unable to sleep, I face 
insomnia for certain;
rain, keep on falling and let me hear
that steady, pelting sound on
the closed windows....a melody for
the saddest song should be written.


I must choose the right mood,
a minor scale to match this melancholy,
and a slow tempo growing into a crescendo,
and I could even throw in a scherzo;
and transport it with a C Major to smooth
some sadness out of the melody,
which tomorrow somebody
will hum, or whistle by learning the easy tune.


Hoping this song will be a hit,
thanks to the falling rain 
in October for the sudden inspiration...
when I couldn't think of anything else!
Wishing the rain would stop at six,
so I could see the rising sun across
the eastern sky and listen to the lark
that built his nest under my windowsill.


It's past sunrise, and the shimmering clouds hesitate to leave,
and with nothing to look forward to... I must believe
that the rain falling in October, 
can teach me the game of solitaire;
and pinned against my warm pillow,
I don't have anything to share but sorrow!
Flap your wide wings, friendly lark and repeat my song,
note by note; and without a lead sheet, I can't play it for very long...


Copyright by Andrew Crisci


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AN EVENING PRAYER OF REPENTANCE

Getting off the bus along Hillside Avenue,
I heard a loud commotion coming from a speaker;
and getting closer, I saw the face of a sweaty preacher... 
calling all souls to Jesus and make them new.



I looked and paused and saw this preacher with sweat on his face...
as he was telling the crowd a true story of The Godfather's son, who was
in the dark about his father's activities, and when he was finally told,
he didn't care if he died;  and to the authorities he went to report his dad.    



What a righteous young man he must have been, and how noble
it was to reveal that well-kept secret which would have cost his precious life,
giving up a chance at being powerful and not dedicating himself to a lifetime of crime; 
I can visualize him bowing his head down, and pray to stop the vicious cycle.



I sat next to an elderly lady whose who's veiled head shone through a gentle light,
" Sing along with me, and your lost soul will be reedemed by the blood of Jesus!" 
I shared her song book and began singing an evening prayer of repentance,
as the preacher cried out, " Raise your hand, and I will pray for you tonight!"



How many folks, like me, wanted to see that preacher proclaim the Lord's message;
and how lucky I was to have encountered a stranger who sounded like Jesus,
to add another sheep to his herd as he prayed for the sins of the repentant ones!
How glorious it was to hear him glorify Christ and His father with his voice of grace!  


Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci


Details | Free verse | |

Tears of Failure

  The grace, the flow, the singing vibrations.
I'm ready, I'm ready to pull my bow across the river of time.
Time that steadies the flow of these rippling musical notes of mine.
I'm ready to connect with an extravagant classical insturment.
To be one with a delicate and delightful viola.
   I'm nervous and shy, for playing in front of someone feels like I'm exposing my inner self through my third eye. I release my self and put my soal into my gracfully flowing fingers, in hopes that they don't deceive me and unintendedly linger. I trust in my abilities as a musician and let my viola sing. Sing for me, and spread my talent and soal, thoughout my music. I stead myself and let the time engulf me, for I am fixed and doing my very best.
  As the time drawls to an end, I send my last note and let it linger in the air.
I leave knowing I did my very best, but will that be good enough to get where I want to be? Am I truly talented, is this meant for me? All I can do now is hope for the best and have confident in myself. If putting your heart and soal into something isn't the best, than I don't know what is.
  After much stress, I get to know if I achieved my goal. It turns out that I wasn't able to achieve that goal after all and now I'm sad. Sad that my very best wasn't good enough, sad that this is the first time that I haven't reached my goal in music. Everyone else passed and moved on, but not I. I who works myself hard and long to secced in my goals, was turned down. I who comes to class on time, sits up straight, and practices at night on the weekends until late. None of this was good enough, or maybe I'm not as talented like I thought I was.
  Warm, wet, tears stream down my face and seep into my skin.
Many things cross my mind this is one I can't simply mend. Should I give up and end? Am I not fit to be a musician? My heart aches to know the truth, to know what I did wrong, but I'm not strong, too afrade to ask. Instead, I cover my deep blue eyes with these small hands of mine. I weep. My brain says to give up, that I'm not good enough, while my heart tells me to keep going, that I have spent too much time, loving and caring for my viola and music of mine. Everyone and thing is putting me down?
  I'm truly lost and crying tears, tears of failure so dear........


Details | Lyric | |

Those Songs

Turn on the radio
and you'll hear them playing

Those songs about leaving
and others about staying

Most of them are about problems
like cheating and drinking

Others are about divorces
so what were they thinking

Some are about getting the kids
and some are about the house

Those songs about love
no longer by your spouse

What about who gets the dog
and what about the car

Those songs are the ones
played on a piano and a guitar.


Details | I do not know? | |

Song Of Sorrow

Entrancing song,
A feeling arises from deep
Within it was for long.

Melodious song,
A mood revels from inside
Of where it was all along.

Expressive song,
A memory flows from afar,
In which I once belonged.

Saddening song,
A thought reminds from ago
About times I once known.


Details | Narrative | |

The Leftovers

I was cleaning my room tonight  
and came across a guitar pick,
one of your used.
		
A further search 
among broken staple cartridges,
multi-colored plastic coated 
and classic metal paperclips and 
pennies, produced  
five other picks, 
worn down from their
original rounded triangles
to somewhat odd circles.  
		
I laid the picks out in a circle
like flat quartz rocks against
the sand-colored formica of my desk.
Two sky blues, one pink 
and two tortoise shells.
I close my eyes and hear your blues,
and mine surge like a wave
until I gasp for air.  
		
I treasured away your discarded picks
in a heart-shaped ceramic dish 
that got broken somehow
in the move at the separation.  
There should be more than this,
but I became unsupportive, you said,
when I tired of the smoky bars,
and then I wanted a degree,
which absorbed any extra energy,
so you no longer pitched me your picks
or thought I cared.
		
Maybe someone new gets your leftovers,
But I'm better off not knowing, 
just in case there is a limit past
the pain of which I couldn't take.
But I'll keep living anyway,
As long as there is a sun in the morning 
and the moon at night,  
I'll live for the rises and sets
if that's all I get. 


Details | Lyric | |

Loss Love

Its still hard to believe
that you're gone away from me
can you get it through your head
that we are meant to be
if you cant get it through
then Im not the one for you
we been seperated for several years
I did my share
now its up to you
to change your ways
to act like a man
admit you were wrong
when you fuked my friend
and when that night
I caught you at the club
with another woman
givin kisses and hugs
It takes more of a man
to be true to his wife
it makes me so sad
youre not actin right
I still have thoughts of you
that youre comin back
its communication
that you lack,
im willing to work it out
to save this marriage
but its up to you
to pick up your slack,
but if you dont
I will love you no matter what
even when this divorce is through,
deep down within me
I still want to be with you
I want to hold you in my arms
and never let go,
I want to love you forever
and grow old
Indeed I tried so hard
to work this out
but you keep on putting me down
when in fact, it was you
who cheated on me
with a few,
my bestfriend,
your lady friend,
after all this mess,
I still love you


Details | Rhyme | |

The Crying Tears Of Your Violin

The Crying Tears Of Your Violin
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
   You take to the night in dreamlike trance
In tears you play of the beauty within
Followed through with the sorrow of life
The crying tears of your violin.
   People gather round you in homage 
Mystified by your astonishing sound
Holding hands in lovely sway
Anguish at the theater in the round.
   This seed of disparity planted on yesterday’s morn 
The lovely life of your child’s dismay 
A home disgraced in torching flame
The new found place of a mother’s grave.
   Into the fields of lilac dress
Fortunes of misfortune display less fortunate
Taciturn dreams explode in reverent voice
As life, becomes no more less than ornate.
   Yet you are not alone in your world
As the people sway to the comfort of your soul
Melting within the musical melody of sorrow
While placing their coin into your bowl.
   Where heaven blooms in saddened cry
Lonely love strums chords within
Displays a broken heart unto the crowd
The crying tears of your violin.
     ©By: Darren J McMurray
              November 11, 2008


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"I Miss You (This Time I Do)"

I miss you
I never really knew
but I miss you
this time I do...

I been thinking about the past nowadays,
how they ran so fast outta the way,
how they just become memories,
or entertainment in our world of dreams,
it's been sad, yes I know,
the past was great
but we change and grow,
but doesn't it seem so slow,
like there's something wrong with the flow?
girl, I just wanna live through those great times
I gotta tell you it was the sweetest ride
I don't think anyone could do the same or try
but I really loved it, I'm not gonna lie
you're the only one I could look up to,
you always made every smile feels so true,
you were always there when I had the blues,
but there's only one thing you never knew...
(Chorus:
I miss you
I never really knew
but I miss you
oh, this time I do
I miss you
I never really knew
but I miss you
oh, this time I do)
I find myself looking at the pics we took.
can you believe how funny we used to look?
man, those times, they were just so great,
do you remember the time my face was splattered with cake?
I can't believe those times are gone,
but I remember every time they play our song,
God, I love you, is that so wrong?
I wish I had you by my side, just along,
but you wanna know something girl?
you have been and always will be my world,
add all them smiles and take out the hurt,
and i know this, us would work...
(Chorus:
I miss you
I never really knew
but I miss you
oh, this time I do
I miss you
I never really knew
but I miss you
oh, this time I do)


Details | Lyric | |

ALL I ASK

all i ask
the things i want the most
all i ask
for you to stay with me
all i ask
for you to love me
i do care if you be with another

we just not meant to be
all i ask
for you to love
instead i have a sorry man
i go to bed and cry
over and over again

all i ask 
the things i want the most
all i ask
for you to stay with me
all i ask
for you to love me
i do care if you be with another
repeat2x

i always get screwed over
a dagger stabbed in my heart
i have to learn
i gotta leave
all i ask
for you to love me

all i ask 
the things i want the most
all i ask
for you to stay with me
all i ask
for you to love me
i do care if you be with another
repeat3x


Details | Rhyme | |

The Loss Of An Inspiration

Wow, that's all I can say
That's all I could think of when I found out that day
When I first found out about it, I thought it was a hoax
Somebody's twisted idea of a joke
But sadly it turned out to be true
And the world was robbed of you
'Another rapper dead'
The headlines read
So little said
You had an amazing gift
Every time I put on your music, it gives me a lift
You inspired me
Helped me
You put your life and love into your art
And that's why you were able to capture so many hearts
I hope before you were taken away, you realized this
I wish you were still here , but you will always be in my heart
And you will be forever missed.


Details | Free verse | |

to your dismay

I saw a family starving, striving to survive
The father couldn’t get a job
Purses being snatched
The old man was too noble to rob
Passed two white children with dirty faces
Their smiles we’re worth a thousand daisies
Their hopes been misused, and abused
And it’s far from racial 
Because poverty doesn’t equal places
My stomach worries 
But my appetites been driven tasteless
I’ve been viewing your post 
Reading your comments
And at times it’s torment
I write to comfort my conscience 
But there are times 
Life can knock us unconscious 
I guess in this inhumane world 
We can only be monsters
You either move along or you are moved on
A response to value
To those who seem to want to sooth my songs
The poetry runs deep and touches home
Our most tempered moments unknown
Someone to carry you on, to and from 
My worries going nowhere
Thieves running with liquor
Lost on welfare
Trading stamps for clothes and worse
In case she wants to make a deal
She carries her wic with her 
And it seems no one notices anything 
Until it’s too late
Gunned down, hit twelve times in the back
No mercy, I guess it was a due fate 
It’s a constant battle of ignorance versus change 
Telling me not to hold so much hate
But it’s the resentment I feel
That’s why I’ll never change
And to whom shall I pray 
When it’s the same god 
Whom shelters my enemies


Details | Lyric | |

whispers of deceit

whispers-of-deceit
telling me, you in love with me
im the one you need
whispers-of-deceit
tellin me, you missin me
when youre lonely
repeat2x:

you tellin me,
you dream of my smile
thinkin of me, is well worth while
"yes i know"
but youre lyin to me
boy you must think im crazy

"this nothing but"

whispers-of-deceit
telling me, you in love with me
im the one you need
whispers-of-deceit
tellin me, you missin me
when youre lonely
repeat2x:

inside of me
there is good news
imma spread my wings
and get rid of you
boy you just dont know
i dont need you
you full of
words of deceit

"this nothin but"

Boy verse: 

sayyyyy, money green
i can buy you nice things
new house, new car
with some nice bling
dont jump ship
give me a second chance
let me prove, I can be a better man
you a dyme, (naw)
you a silver dolla
heres my digits
wont you give a nig
a holla

girl verse:

ooooh
you full of

whispers-of-deceit
tellin me, you in love with me
im the one you need
whispers-of-deceit
tellin me, you missin me
when youre lonely


Details | Ballad | |

Dissociation

I see a better world that I can use Its far from you And inside me The reality is too much to handle anymore It's a place we all can love A place where all angels dwell Burnt in my mind everything you've done to me It saves me to go away It's my internal prison It's my only safe-haven I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more It's deep enough where you will never find But open enough to keep expanding I will not be stapled by your dominance anymore This is it i will take a stand A sky with death In it's smile Rolls across the night It seeks to know what is wrong And the thing is you I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more


Details | Lyric | |

i wish

I wish I never gaved him another chance
my boyfriend for 3 and a half years
he went back to that girl he screwed on me with
emotionally hurt
I shed so many tears
after all the pain
I stood strong and believe
I will find that one
but first I need to get over
the heartaches and pain to move on

time can only make me stronger
healin my woons and movin on
living day by day
prince charming will come my way
there is someone out there for me
but i wont go looking for love
cuz everytime I do
I come across the ones who hurts me...

I wish I never gaved him another chance
my boyfriend for 3 and a half years
he went back to that girl he screwed on me with
emotionally hurt
I shed so many tears
after all the pain
I stood strong and believe
I will find that one
but first I need to get over
the heartaches and pain to move on

its so hard, but im better off without him
I wont look back, I wont think twice
to be with him
my ex tim got the boot
now just let me be
im glad im movin on
to be stress free

I wish I never gaved him another chance
my boyfriend for 3 and a half years
he went back to that girl he screwed on me with
emotionally hurt
I shed so many tears
after all the pain
I stood strong and believe
I will find that one
but first I need to get over
the heartaches and pain to move on


Details | Free verse | |

Inebriated Quartet

Oh, please
Turn the music up, Shug
I just want to lie in this camper
Surrounded by my three good friends
And forget
Please, Cay
Don’t remind me of the girl I love
Back at the dorms till my return
Her dazzling eyes will never stray to me
Sing it, DJ
Pour all that soul out on the floor
Scream and cry the music
Send my mind away
Pass me my cigarettes
I really shouldn't smoke
Pour me another drink
I’ve done with out for so, so long
Play it, Shug
Let me get sloshed out of my mind
As I listen to the most secret and glorious music
Help me forget that she probably hates smokers
And would be pissed if I showed up hung over to the dorms
Help me forget I’ll be taking measurements
For her costume soon
Tell me how your year has been
Make me smile
And help me
Walk back to the house again


Details | Lyric | |

A Song of Freedom

A bird forgotten in a rusty cage
Waking up to see the last of day
A broken wing that whispers of a war
To be let out is all he’s hoping for

All alone without a will to breathe
Too afraid to finally fall to sleep
Nothing left so he begins to sing
The dancing rhythm granting life within

Another heart that sings of other lives
So universal it transcends all time
Another tune to free an empty soul
The lonely bird now understands and grows

So he wakes with patience and a song
The bird remembers what it is to long
The deeper that his music comes to be
The more the bird desires to be free

The bird decides to share his greatest work
A song of freedom stronger than despair
His music travels over open plains
He keeps on singing even in his pain

His final note now reaches every ear
His final breath has emptied every fear
The bird has finally left his rusty cage
The bird, once broken, has truly found the day


Details | ABC | |

He Doesn't Even know

~He doesn't even know~

It's impossible,
To not feel this hurt,
Can't you notice these sad eyes,
But you dont,
You'd rather pass them by,

Every minture without you,
It's hard,
But I hold on to thoughts,
Every hour,
I stuggle knowing,
It's not me,
And I wait sitting here lonely,

 I'm sickend by,
The fact I can't say a word,
I'm so scared,
To tell you,
I don't want the reaction I always get,
Where they never talk back to me agian,

It's impossible to focus,
when my body tingles,
And i get that dry feeling in my throat,
Trying to say something right,
But for some reason I just stare,
Why Can't you notice these sad eye's,
I want to grab your hand,
when you pass me by.


Details | I do not know? | |

Not for you

My patience slips as I wait for you. 
I think of the conversations that lay ahead.
The concrete is cold in Niagara.
You arrive with a fake smile.
I sit down and soon realize you are concrete.
 
People are different on vacation.
The booze, the heat and no responsibility.
With a moon grinning back at me.
Its to easy to fall in love.
 
Your place is all grown up.
You like to make me think, your holding everything together.
Really it's all falling apart.
 
I am planning my escape before the sun comes up.
I followed a dream.
 
Your my favourite dissapointment.




Details | I do not know? | |

In the Dark

Whispers by a wandering brook
their speakers shrouded by mist
somewhere within the shadowed fog
they hide 
laughing
in time 
with the brook
luring me
so I’ll follow their call
and venture
far from the path
till I lose my way in the dark.

Songs sung by rustling golden leaves
screen their singers from view
behind autumn foliage 
they snicker
a sweet tinkling on the breeze
snaring me in their well made net
Till I see with growing 
sorrow
that the woodland path is gone: 
I’ve lost my way in the dark.


Silence in the silver moonbeams
illuminates their figures with light
around us sits the mist
caressing the golden leaves
obscuring
the world
from view.
A peal of bell like giggling
breaks into the dark.


Details | Free verse | |

A Note To Alan Trotiner

I understand, if not for you, I would not know the sad news,
I know you are a brilliant person, working at a young age,
In sales in Flea Markets, and such,
I just want to let you know,
Your brother was proud of you,
And of that you should never doubt...
Please keep in touch with me,
Quasarttt228@aol.com...
You now carry the Trotiner mantel,
A legacy I know you are worthy of...

and Thank You, Tom Bell


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Tumbling Collapse

When the mental walls
Come crashing down
You cannot help
But hear the sounds
Of the terrified screams
Above it all
Your existence was condemned to fall

Where will you be on your judgement day
Will you have gone all the way
Or will you have to pay
The ultimate price
Of a life filled with sin
Turn against Him
And you cannot win

As you stand at the gates
You're amazed
And you're shocked
To find out
That they are eternally locked

Now forced to spend eternity
Surrounded by the flame
In the end
Was it worth denying his name

So now's not the time
To regret all your decisions
After spending ten seconds
In your manifested prisons
With maddening and subliminal voices
Torturing your soul
Feeding off your fears and dreams
For It's sick and twisted goals
Attempting
To set your eyes astray
By making you say that He's in the way

Your mind is on fire
Confused by desire
Are you ready to conspire
And have all things go dire


Details | Acrostic | |

Unfinished

Lost in a destination filled with no hope,
In this feeling tourchered for  my life is going down a slop,
 feeding off the past im dying inside,
 Through this Emotion i some how Survive,
 Afraid to let go of whats not even mine,
 Falling into your trap haven't found an open door,
For i hate that your the only one i adored,
trying to find a way out of this dreadfull mess, 
I only need to get ride of this painful thought,
Though with you i can't untie this knot,
As im always alone and never wanted,
 i am somehow being haunted,
 driving me weaker by your hate,
making me feel like a big mistake,
You loving her and never me,
 i hope one day you will finally see, 
maybe in this life we where meant to be,
 The Loss of this perfect guy,
 broken down because i am too shy,
 This unfinished Life will hopefully succeed,
 maybe one day this heart will not bleed.


Details | Lyric | |

pathetic

you writing me letters
tellin me you sorry
sayin without me
things are not the same,
but you havent admitt
what you've done to me
boy, youre the one i blame...

youre a pathetic
no good man
i thought you we're 
my lover and my best friend
you took me for a ride with a token
end up at the end
my heart got broken

i felt so betrayed
(by you)
everything you needed
(i gave you)
not admittin all the heartaches
(you put me through)
this time
(im through with you)


Details | Lyric | |

How could you

-Verse 1-
My love was so true
I never would ever had hurted you
But you choose to hurt me
When you were where I really wanted to be
I just can't seem to figure out
Why would you want to do this to me
When I felt like my life was complete
Now my heart is feeling so empty
Until I can't even get up off my feet

-chorus-
How could you do the things that you do
When I told you how much I love you
How could you play me like such a fool
When I thought that you were my boo
I don't think things could ever be the same 
All because of you

-Verse 2-
I felt like we could start a family
Live life so sweet,good, and happy
But I was so blind and couldn't see
That you was all this time playing me
How could I be such a fool
To ever fall in love with you
Even after all that I been through 
I just can't believe that you would do this to me

chorus

-bridge-
I guess that good things don't always last
I'm trying so hard to let the pain go past
But it hurts so much down deep in my heart
I should have known you would do this from the start
But I let you get into my head
Now this is the result for giving you my love

-Chorus- 


Details | Lyric | |

Not My Fault

Chorus2x : 
I don't know what's going on/ but I know it's not my fault/ I don't wanna be the one/ 
to let what we have be done/

Verse1: Baby when you said/ it was just you and me/ I thought you meant/ 
 forever baby/ but you went and changed/ your words around/ now you acting like/ 
  you can do without/ we been through so much/ baby can't you see/ 
  I'm tryna work this out/ but you're not helping me/ leave her alone/ 
 she you don't need/ 'cuz everything you need/ is right here in me/ 

Chorus2x

Verse2: Now I can't believe/ that this is happening/ now the way you speak/
is like you blaming me/ you compare everything/ that I do or say/ to that girl/
boy I can't live this way/ don't you dare tell me/ that I'm the one who's wrong/
and how the way we are is all my damn fault/ keep tryna work this out/ but I can't 
go on/
so I just wanna tell ya/ baby I'm done/

chorus 2x


Details | Quatrain | |

Sweet Wine

Sweet wine in my veins
Wielding all the pains;
And music flowing soft,
For soul, not to wane!


Details | Lyric | |

be careful who you choose

you're in love
is it true
he may not love you
i been in love 
a couple of times
them guys was nothing but lies
your heart may get broken
it's like takin a free ride without
a token
so be careful who you choose
because your heart might 
end up bruised


Details | Ballad | |

SOMETHING HAS GOT TO CHANGE...

Something has got to change...
snap out of your foolish rage;
be honest with yourself,
and say," I don't want to be yours! "

Not long ago,
you adored me
like there's was 
no other man on earth;
a moment ago,
you refused to be touched;
and while I'm playing your song,
you look away...  

Something has got to change...
how come you can't breath
the same air that I breath,
and have the same needs that I have?
Why can't you,at least, feel the joy
of being loved so faithfully,
and why you hate my looks of sweetness;
don't I love you nevertheless?

Something has got to change...
our moments together
can't turn into memories:
they must live inside of us!
Something has got to change...
I laid everything at your feet,
hoping you'd keep this secret;
I offered you more than love,
and you shouldn't kick it  and step on it...
like it was a worthless stone! 
Something has got to change today...
search for kindness and pity,
and be willing to care!


Details | Lyric | |

piss poor of a man

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend

i dont see
why you cant get it right
you come in-late at night
we start to-fuss and fight
youre not actin right

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend

im the kind -
who speaks her mind
boy you wasting my time
i think you should leave
cuz you keep hurting me

plz dont testify
dont wanna here no lies
you can not change my mind
you wasting your time

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend
repeat2x:

i guess you cant 
get it right
you will never
get it right
all i asked of you
was to treat me right

breakdown:
you slept around
"back then"
you even slept
"with my friend"
youre trifflin
"to the end"
you and me
"never again"

you never payed a bill
never asked how i feel
you never payed attention
never take time to listen

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend

you think
you got it like that
when in fact it's not like that
you need to step on back
listen to all these facts

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend
"friend"
repeat2x:


Details | Lyric | |

Last hope

Again and again I rewind the cassette
To listen your voice once more.
Such moments always let me forget
What the Hell I’m dying for.
I wish that entire people around
Could hear my screams at nights.
I wish they’ll be able to find
Common sense instead of that fights.
They don’t know what’s dying for real.
They don’t care that I want to live.
I already can hear sounds of peal.
Except of last breath I have nothing to give.
Only you can help me live my last days
And your voice on the old cassette.
For me it’s so tender and grace.
If I’m wrong, forgive me for that.
This letter you will never read.
God will take me away from the earth.
Hope is the one that I need,
Hope makes me stay alive forth.
Thank you for all that you’ve done,
Though you will never find out
That I lived, cause I will be gone.
In saving one’s soul you shouldn’t be doubt.


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Recollections

This is what I remember
When I think of you
It's as if I'm flying
Limitless unbound

Lifted spirits
Dilated eyes
Quintessential love

I envision those flowers
So perfectly placed in your hair
As we dance the night away

Forgetting all that is wicked
Relief beyond belief
Memories of evenings shared
Staring at the stars
Enthralled by precious moon lit skies
Those next mornings
And the way your eyes
Appear the second you awaken
Soft smiles between us both
As your genuine heart
Radiates oh so immensely

Completely sharing
These special moments
Committed to sharing equal roles
Getting a chance to explore
And discover
What you really want in life

That was my chance
But I blew it

Should have seized
And fully absorbed
Those times as precious
As those cozy
Refreshing mornings


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Darkness Enclosing

Thrust into a nightmare
That will never let you go
So please don't try to run and hide
You know that I reside inside

Have you ever felt this vicious hate
Finding it difficult for you to eliminate
All these temporary states of rage
You've tried so desperately hard
To keep locked in their cage

These uncontrollable outbursts
Will only get worse
Is this making you feel
Like you're going to burst

Like a curse that extends
Beyond your wildest dreams
The extremely seductive
And supreme being

But now I fiend for the chances
Of hearing you scream
Is it possible for you
To understand what I mean

When I say that fear and malice
Have become your friends
Confirming your damnation
All the way up to the end

For me to administer
These sinister thoughts
In your brain
I drain the pain
From your veins
But to you it's the same

Now you claim that my game
Is what made you insane
But that's lame
Don't blame all your shame
On the things you became

Remember
I am just an illusion
That is created by using
All the effects of seclusion
In this so called delusion

I am taking you down without making a sound
This breakdown has been running you up into the ground

Your head's spinning faster and faster
As time seems to stand still
A subliminal mind trip
Refusing free will

My magic spell
Has got itself twisted around you
And you have no idea
What the hell you should do

So just sit back
And let yourself try to unwind
And find out how
I took control of your mind

Releasing the beast
Enraging the fire
I will not retire
Until you expire


Details | Free verse | |

somewhere to go

the wind that creeps
that softly speaks
that constantly weeps
which loudly pleads
its case to be free

the sky of gray
sky of gray
treacherous days
treacherous days
this wretched phase
in which i fade

the storm that howls
from seven sea
the rebel cries of revelry
the trees that whisper
their tales to tell
the ring of bells still frightens me


give your pain a sheltered hide
look for vision in the sky
let all of the people know
behind the sky is a place to go

keep on running
keep on keepin' now
you've got to keep escapin'
the beasts are on the prowl
the beasts are on the prowl
And they're comin' now


Details | Lyric | |

Love and Deciet

you writing me letters
saying words so unreal
I see through your lies
so you need to chill
I shred up yo letters
and threw them out tha door
paper rain in motion
hitting the floor
you say you still care
maybe its true
but I cant take no more
im through with you
I cant believe
I delt with your decietful ways
Its time to move on
Its time to make a change
as time passes by,
livin life without you
my heart is stronger than ever,
its hard as a rock,
but I wont love another man,
like I loved you,
still I have moments
thinking of you
recalling back memories
when we first met
we shared secrets we've 
never told
a special moment 
I will never forget


Details | I do not know? | |

Roman of Darkness (angel of sadness)

It's only dark because you refuse to open your eyes
I'll recite to you a truth
But you will confess and it will become our lie
Chiors will sing
Enemies will rejoice
So sad, the misery, that happiness brings
Ur anger, my trials, our roman of darkness
It only hurts because you insist on resisting the pain
Stars seem to stand still, as the sky's gallop
Reality is an overwhelming fantasy dreamed upon in feign
A small change of scenery
A tempted range from more of what you mean to me 
Seems cold winters are only seen through short sleeves
As I fall, you stood, a roman of your darkness
It only rains because  all we only walk beneath heavy clouds
You find yourself at ease
As we recite your hymms, our prayers aloud
Sometimes we see reflections in things we shouldn't
When tears seem to fall upward, to where do we put them
The secrets that lie relaxed beneath our dreams
Yes we see ourselves in places it seems impossible to be 
We keep progress when failure indeed means more to me
A memory you will soon forget
A temptation lost with full regrets
A Roman admiring his chance in your darkness


Details | Monorhyme | |

The Swinger

gotta get out of this place
to many now know my face
dressed from head to toe in my leather and lace
trying hard to run at a fast and steady pace
I just know I just gotta get out of this place

the booze the men all getting on my case
music's blare all such a disgrace
want the world to just go away at a faster pace
leave me here to die with such a sad looking grin on face
knowing I  have to just gotta get out of this place

money in the jar for just in case
daughter's picture surrounded by flower vase
I don't care if I been maced
another day I walk in disgrace
just knowing I just gotta get out of this place

around the bend she hit second base
a safe haven without a trace
of this gal and her leather and lace
dancing and hitting the clubs of distaste
for she finally made it out of this place







Tribute To Those
Getting Out Of The
Dancing In Clubs


Details | I do not know? | |

Painful Music (Double Etheree)

sweet 
precious 
melodies
from her fingers
dancing across keys
of black, white ivory
oblivious to the crowd
and their continued applauding
long after the concert has ended
sadness, for her nightmares return again

music is the addiction of her choice
a sense of peace and tranquility
resonate from within each key
flowing emotions suppress
raging rivers inside
as her fingers glide
across the keys
playing life
a song
hers


The poetry form, Etheree, consists of 10 lines of 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 
syllables. Etheree can
also be reversed and written 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. 


Details | Lyric | |

The Look Of The Hurt...

When He Saw Me
He Knew The Look…
It’s the Look of The Hunted
The Look Says, ‘I’m Scared’
The Look, Nobody Wanted
That said, ‘Nobody Cared’

He Said, He Knew The Look
Seen it More than Not
Said He’d Seen The Look
Hung in a Mirror, On a Hook

It’s the Look of The Hunted
The Look That Says, ‘I’m Scared’
The Look, Nobody Wanted
The Look, That Said, ‘Nobody Cared’

…So that, When He Saw Me
He said, ‘You Must Be My Mate
‘Cause, The Look in Your Eyes – I Can Relate’
He Said, ‘Not to Deny It…
Just A Waste of Time
The Look Says It All…
…and I Need To Make You Mine…

You Got The Look of The Hunted
You Got The Look of The Hurt
The Look of  Heart-Damaged
…but I Know What You’re Worth

… Hunted by Your Pain
Hunted by Your Fear
Hunted by Your Blame
Ain’t Gon' Let No One Else Near…

And I Began to Look
In His Eyes… and I Shook
At what I Saw and Heard
… I Repeated His Words…

You Got The Look of The Hunted
The Look Says, ‘I’m Scared’
The Look Nobody Wanted
That Said ‘Nobody Cared’

We Got The Look of The Hunted
The Look of The Hurt
…and We’re Gonna Bury Our Pain
And Walk Away From The Dirt
And From The Look of The Hunted
… The Look of The Hurt


Details | Lyric | |

you say

you say you love your wife,
tell me why are you here with me,
you say you love her dearly,
tell me why you screwing around with me,
thats not what love is,
double dippin and keep it quiet
you dont love her,cus if you did,
you wouldnt be here with me

you remind me of my ex man
he gave me his effection,
but it wasnt just me,
he told me he love me,
and he wont never reject me

you say....
you say....
you say....
you say....

you say we all human
you say we all make mistakes
sleepin around more than once
thats not a mistake


Details | I do not know? | |

CRYING


How will this end
What am I to do
Anyone can hear it clear
I’m the one to blame
Nothing ever changes in this life we call love
Everyday its gets harder to live
I just can’t seem to move
This time around

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen

How many more deaths to fill
Till I die finally
To many guilt
Is this what they call fear
How many more nights of chasing
Through this phase I prayed to leave
I pray the day you go
Is this the last I’ll see of you
I hope so

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen

I’m the coward who done you wrong
I’d deserved all the dirt of deeds
I’d learned I’m the dark of your day
Please stop hating me

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen


Details | I do not know? | |

September, December, April (angel of sadness)

My birthday, Ur Christmas, His death
Toe to toe, heals to floor, fallen with missed steps
The 21st day of September
9th child of birth, must be hell for her to remember
Then again, maybe she's happy
Living life rejoiceful, sitting on the same doorstool
Bless the heart of this poor fool
That was my birthday, this is ur Christmas
As if holidays were forgotten
Seems these passing noels only could kiss us 
Perhaps that's good enough
Besides, this is coming from a child
Whom never understood himself
Circling thoughts, is he abandoned
Is he still a follower of ur Christ
Temperatures heated
No longer do I lay immortal on melting ice 
Recieve your gifts, for misery will never decieve this myth
That's Ur Christmas, this is his death
First weekend of April, last sunday of February
Love me! I'll wed you, then be buried
I've become fond of you
But I'll never miss this burden I've carried
Granted no sins, no chances to win
In this failing day, I'm so eager to attend
Ur son, my mothers child, have my coffin rest on another isle
My brother I knew little of you
But I miss your smile
This was my birthday, Ur christmas, His death


Details | Free verse | |

Danse Macabre

Danse Macabre is German for Dance of Death...


Transfixed by the movements, the musical vibrance,
We move to the tune of invisible sirens.
Reality reposes with the closing of eyelids,
Then lies change to truth and peace transforms violence.
As the colors fade from blue, all noise turns to silence. 

Upon awakening, I feel an icy hand capture me;
Pulling me down, closer to insanity.
Vertigo sets in, but the dizzying gravity
Helps to realize the hand is my own, that I’m actually
Standing stock-still, alone, blinded while I atrophy. 

With our head down and eyes dripping wet,
Feeling hasn’t slipped from us yet.
Silence is a burden we grow to regret,
But still a reminder of that which is set:
The music of a past we’ll never forget. 

A distant drone, or a heartfelt beating,
Omnipresent and ever-repeating.
Tongue tipped with malice, the devil is feeding
And tightening the noose which constricts our dreaming.
While robbed of our fruits we lie quiet,.. selfish and bleeding. 

As we sit cradled by cold, grim hands,
Choice is beckoning, it calls, it demands
To face the music and to take a stance.
And as the echo lives on through our second chance,
We’re helplessly drawn into this wreckless dance.


Details | Lyric | |

for all that doesn't matter

Nights you know I held you
I could never leave you
I just want to tell you
I would never fail you

At thirteen you were telling me to calm down
Selfishly I replied I’m not trying to stay on this earth
You see measures are trifling and beyond their worth
I’m going to continue doing me until the end is all I see
You call it a death wish I assume I’m living free
Anti-territorial yet no one stands next to me
For burdens in time have captured a short life expectancy
I make you laugh tear and smile
No fantasies of a greater guarantee 
I know my wrongs
But I’ve been submerged in vengeful songs for so long
That I can’t find my way home
Am I bugging 
I told her I loved her
Now the closest we get is digital hugging
Send, reply, good bye
A son of seven mothers
Don’t cry we had some bad times
But I realize 
The blues won’t come unless you live your life
I swear before my last name I had mine

Nights you know I held you
I just want to tell you
I could never leave you
I would never fail you 

When I tell you I’m still in school 
You shrug and ask when will I finish
I tell you I’m a bad judge of character
You tell me my art is detrimental
Insisting that I shouldn’t forget
But it’s not a flame I’m willing to rekindle 
In this life I’m subsequent to sudden storms 
I guess it’s just where I’m coming from, calm
It was nothing, a few silent alarms
Seen a more subtle time
Chasing geese and hen back on the farm
Now I’m trouble and moneys my struggle
How can I respond
I feel you have tuned your shoulders 
forward toward a decent summer bloom
Above my head 
I’m trying to catch up to things you’ve said
I’ve become a heartless person and I apologize
You can abruptly see it worsen in my eyes
Desensitized in cursive but my feelings don’t lie
An everyday funeral left a good sigh
I’m trying to bury this artistic side goodbye

Nights you know I held you
I could never leave you
I just want to tell you
I would never fail you


Details | Monorhyme | |

Mama Warned Me About Him

Mama warned me about him
hitting the towns 
the woman
and the gin

rolling those sheets back
making ungodly sins
with leaving your heart
filled with nothing but grins

she said little girl
open your eyes once again
and see who loves you
and will be there in the end

for though he stands 
tall rich and thin
he'll leave your heart
just as fast once again

and leave you feeling blue in the end
so let's stop  play and pretend
that he's just another fellow
awaiting around the bend

that'll not get your heart
and your soul in the end
so it's better off just being friends
my little darling with such sad looking grins



Little Diddly 
Popped Into Head   LOL


Maybe Next Song Too
Please Let Me Know
Thanks Love Kathy And Jenny


Details | Lyric | |

DEFINITELY

Definitely, these eyes used to charm me away,
they made me fall in love so quickly;
no, I didn't mind anyway!


Memories are as lasting as gold can really be,
there are no tears without goodbye;
now, I ask you to reconsider me!


You shouldn't have to go,
I'm too sure you would stay:
you can live in my song; 
o how I would shout my hooray!


Definitely, I am that man who loves to say...
how you need his arms to dream away;
oh, just let him take you away!


You shouldn't have to go,
I'm too sure you would stay:
you can live in my song;
o how I would shout my hooray!


Entered in John Heck's Beatlemania Sing Along Contest
(Yesterday)

Copyright 2010 by Andrew Crisci


Details | I do not know? | |

Go Forward My Child

My heart throbs to the sound of a new music,
Where burning arrows fly,
And time reaches across a nation of hurt.
Where band aids kill and knives play upon a winded chime. 
She is a witch in Christian paint and only covens herself. 
Go forward my child
Go forward and make thy music hurd upon pedistools of kings. 
Win the heart of thy maker and feed upon it's existence


Details | I do not know? | |

Alone

All my stress and pressure
It's making my patience become shorter
Why can I see only my shadow on the wall?
Am I alone while I fall?
I sit at home and dream about you
Even though I know my dreams are not true
Does anyone else have dreams?
Cause everyone's with someone it seems
Is it just me that has to be all alone?
My question will always remain unknown...


Details | I do not know? | |

More & More

Someday I'll be more of the man I want to be
Someday I'll finally spread my wings and fly free
I guess with all that has happened in the past
Brings the future here and the present goes by fast
If everyone knew the truth about my situation
They could trade words and absorb my disposition
Behind closed doors, and underneath my pain
Lies my chance for fortune and fame
I'll always be myself and change for no one
Because if you listen to me, what's said is done
Love, hate, pain, and tragedy, whatever they lack
Don't think I won't stand my ground and attack
So when you say something and I put you on the floor
My hate and pain will just build towards you, more and more...


Details | Free verse | |

Shadows of Blood (My Secret Sin)

I've traveled this path
Suffering the consequences of my lords wrath
Yet I won't stumble
My passion to susceed I refuse to fumble
Squint my eyes to see through the battles of love
But all I see is my reflection in the shadows of blood
I'm thankful for this 
You have blessed and bestowed  on me 
The comfort and warmness that have grown on me 
And right before I rest my thoughts
"Our father which art in heaven"
I now know why your favorite number is seven
I hold my fists, my fingerprints, my palms
Only for a touch of passion from your thumb
Yes I'm the youngest born of nine children
The only curse born outside the walls of Kilborne
And exactly who is the chosen one
Could it be the only idiots barechested opposing a gun
Fame is something you, yourself adore
A place to smile, be happy 
With jagged and jaded thrills is something I'd die for 
I'm that raisen in bitter bread
That single sin 
That came from those that were innocently fed 
Mrs. Brown, you have killed my future
Everything I worked and hurt for
Even if I was a peasant, I couldn't beg for more
I'm curious to know
How do you sleep at night
Your only objective now is to feed the fight
Swallow this poisonous seed built from your guilt 
And lie bleeding in the night


Details | I do not know? | |

Prove Me Wrong

We've been with eachother for a long time
But sometimes I ask myself if you're still mine
From then until now, things have changed
Even the smiles and the glances we've exchanged
Are we still in love, or are we slowly falling apart?
All we can depend on is eachother and our hearts
We don't talk or listen to eachother's stories
The signs we gave off that only you and I could see
How are we going to end this supposed to be love song?
The thoughts I have I just can't take, please just prove me wrong
You lay in bed silenced like a new born baby
And all I ask is for my heart to save me
You seem so distant from me all the time
And still I'll ask, are you even still mine?
This is supposed to be our very first love story
But all we end up saying is, that we're sorry
Please help me, that's all I pray for
To bring us back to the way we were once before
Still you lay there hiding while my mind is debating
Still you don't ever respond, even while I'm slowly fading....


Details | Lyric | |

Untitled #278 / Stranger

When I saw your face
I crept out of my quiet place
and saw the light of day
but it’d been so long
since I saw the sun
and I didn’t know what to say

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you

When I heard them say your name
I thought it was my own
and I dreamt we were two marble statues
cut from the same stone

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you

So I’ll crawl back to my quiet place
and wait for the sun to rise
maybe someday I’ll see your love shining through
in someone else’s eyes

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you
to you

(Chords: 
Intro: E
Verse: Fsharpm D A E
Chorus: A B Csharp Fsharp
A B E
A B Csharp Dsharp
A B E
Bridge: Bm G D A)


Details | I do not know? | |

Can You Hear The Music?

Can you hear the sound?
The song
The music sang for you
From me
Can you not her the message within it
The sadness
The longing
The hopefulness
Of us finding, finding, our rhythm
Can you hear the music playing for you?
Begging, pleading with you
Not to leave me
Can you not hear my pleas of cries?
Can you?


Details | Free verse | |

Much More (My Secret Sin)

And I don’t want to miss you much more
Now you know what I want to keep in touch for
Cause I don’t want to miss you much more
You kept me from searching for something we each adore
Another knight leaving the fight in rusted armor
Closed your eyes and said bad luck was a charmer
Evil through mans vein
Supply most of the poverty and pain
Caught a tear drop 
Asked “you know who” when the rain would stop
Plagued by unemployment
I do nothing for my own enjoyment
What if I was spoiled, would I write the same
Maybe I’m just a brat without a name
Couple of friends misplaced
Riding high, now their shame is lowercased
I’d say be mine 
But I can see, you’re doing just fine
Going solo, playing water polo
Tracking wet feet in the dojo
Speak in violence
Got a fistful to try it in silence
Searching for something more to adore
But I don’t want to miss you much more


Details | Rhyme | |

Music

Music is rhythm thump here and thump there,
the feelings of joy and the feelings of despair.
Many of us use music to calm us down,
many others listen to music when no one else is around.
The words are filled with violent and rage,
the artist continues not knowing this is a bad day.
I can't believe he doesn't love me,
the music is saying "cut me cut me!" 
Those words did not come out of the those speakers,
but that's what I heard from this violent speaker.
Oh how I loved that music but not anymore,
Now gospel is my music no more blood on the floor.


Details | Lyric | |

suicidal

I am living in this world
thats full of evil and hate
I feel suicidal
theres no more I can take
my pops beaten my mother
made her life a living hell
is there any decent men
well I cant tell
broken up families
Im from a broken home
my father left me strunged out
my mother raised me on her own
few years down the line
hes tryna make it up
I made up my mind
theres no makin up
promises been broken
lies are told
I wish i had a life
living richer that gold
black and bold
my brown skin is beautiful
emotionally disturb
thats why im so lyrical
I have a boyfriend at home
sometimes he do me wrong
even the ones I had before
they even did me wrong
whispers of deceit
tellin me, im the girl of their dreams
its so obvious to me, they only settled for me
since they cant have wat they want
the girl of they fantasy
they saId im the one they want
but its not wat it seems

"so suicidal"


Details | I do not know? | |

Man on Fire (angel of sadness)

He brings the music of death 
The music that’s take our final breath 
I’d rather come in and play on my cold feet 
Than warm up to be old heat 
If I were to die on this day 
What would you speak of at my funeral? 
What would you say? 
How would you sooth the mourners 
Of a forgotten general 
He was a man on fire 
For his lord, your savior 
Wouldn’t take his soul any higher 
So he remains a man on fire 
We make mistakes, because we know we can 
And chances are we’ll be forgiven for them 
An eye for an eye, I’m awaiting a heart break 
As for now 
I’m a casualty living for your sins 
Every man coming for my head 
Prophets already censoring me dead 
I bring the music of death 
The music that’s gonna take your final breath 
I mostly refer to myself as a child 
I don’t know why 
Perhaps I feel immortal 
As if I couldn’t die 
But now I’m just a man on fire 
For my lord, your savior 
Will not take this soul any higher 
Now I’m a man on fire 


Details | I do not know? | |

Can I?

Can I become the man that I need to be?
Can my eyes open, and have one glimpse of being free?
Can I overcome the pain that my hate has brought?
Can I gain more strength after all the times we have fought?
Can I work around the problems I've endured?
Can I put up with these things you've given to me to ensure?
Can I let my lungs inhale and breathe today?
Can I push this pain behind the doors and shut them away?
Are you always going to remind me about things like you do?
Are you still going to throw things at me that I've already been through?
With all the pain and suffering, why can't you just admit it?
When you don't know the truth about any of it
Make me cry and run away from this place
Cause in reality it's your own problems you can't face
So instead of me asking you, can you look in my eyes
And ask yourself, Can I?


Details | I do not know? | |

More & More Questions

My patience is getting shorter
I can't hold this in any longer
I can't find the answer
So much built up pressure
Why, do I keep this all inside?
Why, can't I push this all aside?
I feel like my time is ending
My life is what I'm defending
Why, can't it just be over?
Am I going to have this pain forever?
Is this what I get for being who I am?
It feels like my life is soon to be damned
If you gave me one grant in my life
I would have to hide that long deadly knife
Hurt, pain, always in my mind
Life and love is hard for me to find
It seems like I sit alone
When everyone else is above sitting on their throne
When will everyone accept me for who I am?
When will they allow me to become my own man?
When would I be able to stop running away?
It's just hard cause it catches up with me every day
Where will my life end up in a couple of years?
Will I be able to withstand all my fears?
Hopefully some day I'll find out
And see what my life is really all about...


Details | Free verse | |

The Wailing Base.

He cries his tears in the song
he sings while playing his base.
He believes and prays she will
come back to him.
She was the only true love of his
life ,would laugh,sing and 
promise to be his wife.
Its been five moons now since she
stole away on that windy day.
Taking most of her belongings but
careful to leave important shoes
behind hinting she shall be back...


Details | I do not know? | |

True Colors

I was here for you when you needed me the most
Your best friend, we were close
You made mistakes in you time that you've paid for
I tried to show you the right path, through the right door
You still didn't take the advice from me
To me it's hard to believe
That you were once my best friend
Here to protect eachother till' the end

It's hard to trust one another
When we were in this together
You left me with these feelings
Like pain and suffering
Heart of a brother
Here's your true colors

I used to tell you that there is true life for you
So many things in life that you could do
You acted like you were for real
What happened? What was your deal?
You could've told me the truth in decentcy
But instead you decided to lie to me
So now where are you?
The life you live now is the only thing thats true

Real life has caught up to you
Have you decided what you're going to do?
Now you'll tell yourself that you'd give up anything
As you sit in that little room of guilt suffering

Heart of a brother
Here's your true colors...


Details | I do not know? | |

Inside

As I sit here I wonder about her
She seems so dark and mysterious, but I'm not for sure
A lot of things that I don't understand
If you just talked to me I'm sure I can
But don't hide away from me or yourself
If you need me I'm here to help
All you have to do is ask me
Because you pain won't let you feel free
You sit in the room locking fear inside
But when I try talking to you, I get pushed aside
Why do you constantly do this to me?
Am I your boyfriend, at least I'm supposed to be
Act like you care and get back up on your feet
All this anger inside, it can be beat
But don't throw us away, please don't
I'm not leaving, I just won't....


Details | I do not know? | |

What Should I Do?

What should I do?
These things I cannot get through
It's like I'm suffering from pain and absolute hate
This isn't my life, or is this supposed to be my fate?
Confusion, and misunderstanding
More and more pain you're handling
And then who am I supposed to be?
With the pain you keep giving to me?
I've been walked on all my life for two years and now
I put up with these things, and everyone's like, HOW?
They don't care, like always it's the same and I hate it
No one knows how to listen when some one says quit
I've had enough where I'm about to break!
Cause everyone in my life is an all-show-fake!


Details | Ballad | |

Wings to Fly

If I had wings to fly
I would surely fly away
To a desert time and place
So none could find my face
If I had wings to fly
I would soar above the clouds
Far from here and now
To where? To there somehow
If I had wings to fly

If I had wings to fly
I would fly to be alone
Where nothing could go wrong
And I would sing my song
If I had wings to fly
I would mount above the world
To escape your winds that whirl
And the stones of boys and girls
If I had wings to fly

If I, If I had wings to fly, I would view from a bird's eye
How lonely you and I would be when doves fly, doves cry
If I, If I had wings to fly I would view from a bird's eye
How lonely you and I would be when doves cry, doves die  (Chorus)

If I had wings to fly
I'd fly right back to truth
To a place of hope with you
Where we could start anew
If I had wings to fly
I'd make my flight complete
And take you high with me
For all the world to see
If I had wings to fly

If I had wings to fly
I'd not fly away again
For I was wrong there and then
I won't wish for where I've been
If I had wings to fly
I'd give my wings to you
For your love for me is proved
And our love can not be moved
Even if I had wings to fly


Details | Lyric | |

wheel of deceit

my bestfriend betrayed me,
my husband cheated on me,
my lover changed on me,
left me for Stacy

my husband comes in late,
my bestfriend bonin Ray,
my lover who left me,
for my friend Stacy

what am I suppose to do
Ray i really love you
my lover, my husband
why you do the things
(you do)

I cant go on like this
feelin all this stress
heartaches and pain
my eyes starts to rain

wheel of deceit
me, Ray, and Stacy
my bestfriend betrayed me
my husband left me


Details | I do not know? | |

The Only Thing I Need

As I begin I need you to know
That who I am, through these words it will show
I am full of questions unanswered
I am full of hate and pain that builds a lot of pressure
A lot has happened to me through the years
A lot of being alone and many tears
I've done all I could to keep it all inside
I've done all I could to keep it all behind
Been everywhere to find out who I really am
But have always been scared so I've always ran
Friends have used me and have stabbed me in the back
But these supposed to be friends have one thing that they lack
Feelings and heart is what they need
They've lied to me the whole time that's indeed
I had to find myself and decided to move on
But my faith and pride has left and is gone
Then I met her and she helped me feel
That love and life can be real
My feelings for her came so fast
For some reason I knew that we had to last
My nothing less and lifeless heart felt like it was free
So your love Lindsey is the only thing I need...


Details | Free verse | |

Held My Hands (My Secret Sin)

Ease your thoughts
For I am at fault
You stood alone
Well I left home 
In my most troubling steps 
I sensed your worry, your passion your grace 
As only your soft touch could warm my face
My only comfort was in your arms, a peaceful place
Is the only sanctuary where time won't mourn
And trust won't turn
A sacrifice at your expense
Left us both in suspence
But it was your heart I had to convince
Would you have held my hand
I ask would you have my hand
Shadows sing 
As the weak trade bread and water for anything
The only place you felt feign
Was the only place where your trust remains
Nothing so cold as your shoulder shrugs 
Nothing told that you cared as your fervid hugs 
I'd say I loved you in vain
But it would only sober up my pain
Burning leaves 
The stress that lonliness guareentees 
I only ask would you have held my hand
With me being so stubborn and arrogant
Would you still stand and hold my hand 
Would you have shaped me into a better man
Walked through conflict and still gripped my hand 


Details | I do not know? | |

Control or Accuse

Why do I feel these feelings like I do?
Did I do something to you?
Sometimes the way you act towards me
Makes me just want to get up and leave
Is this how you want it to be?
Is to drive me away and never see me?
I just wanted to just scream and break down
Maybe you just want to see me fall to the ground
ou see me cry and fall to my knees
This is not how I pictured things in my dreams
Drive me insane, or drive me away
Whatever you want to do, you did it today
I must be someone for you to abuse
Or maybe someone to control or accuse...


Details | I do not know? | |

The Truth Please

Why all these lies?
When you know it'll hurt you inside
Why all these painful tears?
You've known me for years
Why do you always have to hide
I don't want to be left behind
Why do you always tell me all these lies?
You're just pushing me aside
Why do you always cry?
Just show me that you can try
Lies are all you seem to feed me
Don't you want to be free?
Why are you just full of lies?
When I know you just want to live your life
This isn't how you want your life to be
Please I'm your brother, talk to me
I would give you the best advice
Just don't tell me anymore lies
The truth is the main key
So just tell me the truth, please...


Details | Free verse | |

Don't Dissemble My Heart


I can only hide my face

Where no one would see

How you rain down on

Me.

My face is wet with rain..

My eyes are so sad

My heart is missing the time

Long ago..

It seem i''m walk around under

A cloudy sky,

Don’t dissemble my heart

Keep it all in one piece

Just trust this old heart of

Mine..

Give this old heart a chance

Just look into my heart

And see how many pieces

There will be to mend back

Again..

Um um um um um um um

My face is wet with rain

My eyes are so sad

Just trust this old heart of mine

Please don’t dissemble my

Heart...


Details | Free verse | |

Foresight of an ode to mothers everywhere

Dear Mother
i dont l;like the drugs
and as I fly
so low and high
my way
turned loose
the drugs
well
they like me

Ode to mom
what could this be?
beaten on the floor
to find the thoughts of butterflies
beaten on the floor and chased away
the crack in me
to start my life again
he cant hurt you anymore
but its ion my way

And as i do it my way
they all fall 
like kissed roses in the falling leaves
of an s.o.s
Into the crooked queer cops
that squirm to swallow
what does it matter to the tiny dancers that hold the answers
when its not healthy to feel 

If i Turn you Loose
If your NoT afraid of your mind thats losing it
and the loves testing all of me
if you are not afraid
afraid of anything
to second guess your sanity

Dear mother can you find the light
to tickle me
and find the light
take it all over head over heals
as this world surrounds me
and as everyone makes this hard
will someone come rescue from my mind
when i picked my poison
turned loose to find
im weak and powerless
to feel open
powerless to feel that we are the same
begging for someone to help me
and its not healthy when we cant sleep at night

Love is testing thee but who holds the key?

When im delusional and complicated
can you see the tangents i explore after i have condensed the matter 
and been down before?
does it make sense to them all?
can you cure me out of your fears
drag the demons from me and sleep in the beauty of thoughts that magically 
heal me?

im far to oblivious to approach the treasured bliss
inside of me
to awaken miserably rescue the sleeping purity
im poisoned yet treasured and drunken on needles
to kiss this feathered winged angel one more time
whose far too fooled to wake me from my slumber
and sleep in the futility of the treasured desires
that lie inside of all of us withered souls

ode to Mother dear mother i have something to say do you see it in hear 
anywhere im looking inside once again to clean this closet with this stained 
hands to see why
did i turn out this way

mama
mama
mama

just turn away and know its not your fault
i pave my own way by riding coat tails 
and one day i will show you how
and hail all the poisoned apples
of hopeless sleepless beauties ive awoken to find


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I stayed in love

I stay in love with you
even though you're gone,
I still forgive you
how you treat me wrong,
I tried so hard to keep
our love growing strong,
but it wasn't enough,
you packed up,
and now you're gone,
its no mistakin
how you use to feel for me,
theres no erasing
the good and bad memories,
im dying of a broken heart
I need someone to rescue me,
did you forget
the love we shared,
did you forget
you use to care,
did you forget
about you and me,
did you forget 
our chemistry,
because of you
I wrote this song,
I stay in love
even though you did me wrong,
the bond we had
use to be strong
))boy((...

"I stay in love with you
even though you're gone"


Details | I do not know? | |

I Remember

I had a rough time for awhile
Lost my license and had to walk miles
Had no job, nothing to do
Didn't go to college, my life I had no clue
Then you came into my eyes
It wasn't a dream, but it wasn't a lie
You befriended me right away
When you had to leave, I wanted you to stay
You looked so darn amazing ever day
You were one beautiful girl if you just let me say
You gave me hugs and those glances
Which made my feelings grow and enhance
I wanted just one kiss before I left you
But when I did I never got to see you
Now I talked to you and memories are back
I miss you and that is a fact
It's finally the end of December
And you smile is all that I remember...


Details | Elegy | |

Marlin

A smile
A guitar
A rolled up cig
A voice that sings
At every gig

A mind that travels
Beyond this plain,
A sense of humor,
Sometimes insane...

A devotion
To daughters
Of whom he was
so proud,
A tendency never,
to talk too loud

Words and thoughts
Wise beyond his years,
Human suffering
That brought on tears

Mark T...
His Gors nickname
"Marlin"
I wonder if he liked to fish,
One thing's for sure,
I truely wish

He did still tread
This earth, a world
so grand,
I was oh so privileged
To be in his band.


Details | I do not know? | |

Casual Dreams (angel of sadness)

As this city sleeps 
I give you open arms with more to keep
Now I'mma make you beg for mercy
As you would have me do
As the home crowd marinates and laughs at you
Even though the man is deaf I still say excuse me
I respect him as he was in place to abuse me
I laugh, I smile, in hopes that they won't 
A gasp, a given child, whom copes when they don't 
I've had this mark since birth
But it's so not a birth mark
I think it's a hurt spot, a dirt art
I feel like I died
Like I'm buried alive
The truth is I feel like I'm tired
Like I'm barely alive
Now my eyes are red
Heavy, Lively
Just a little past dead
A meal past bread
As this city sleeps
It dreams of a scene
A peaceful place in defeat


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Kiss On The Face

Take me to the wovles and let them feed on my flesh
All I feel is darkness pain and stress
Demons taking over societys outcast
You say the time is comming I say it has past
Eyes wide open but blind to sight
Deaf to the crys that ring out a night
Cloned by forces unknown
This world is so cold theres no moving on
Got to stay strong but I have no streanth
Every on here seems so fake

I want death to come and kiss me on the face
I want death to come and take my place
I need death to come and kiss me on the face
I need death to come and take my place

Where will I go once darkness falls
What will I do when the demons call
Left to rot I can not scream
Waiting for others to fall like me
Standing alone I need company
Trapped by these wall that I could not see
No air I'm sofocating
I'm light headed and my bloods rushing
Gun in my hand I'm going to make it end
No reason for me to go on
One movement of my finger and I'll be gone

I want death to come and kiss me on the face
I want death to come and take my place
I need death to come and kiss me on the face
I need death to come and take my place


If listening to this song has caused you any discomfort, please dial 911, once 
again please dail 911, and the will arive shortly with you straight jacket.
Thank you for listening......


Details | Lyric | |

im finally

im finally
moving on
the love i had
now it's gone
dont ask me why
dont even try
the love you gave
it was all a lie

although i've (tried)
to make it (right)
i dont care no more
im ruined(inside)
yes, i gotta go
boy,i gotta go
boy, you should know
you hurt me so...

michelle edwards verse:
boy you know the truth
i gave my love to you
and this is all i get
"no gradtitude"

dominque jarmon verse:
im finally
moving on
the love i had
now it's gone

michelle verse:
dont tell me i should stay
im moving on my way
i have to live it out
day by day

dominque verse:
dont ask me why
dont even try
the love you gave
it was all a lie....

bridge:
too many tears
too many night
although i've tried
to make it right
i shouldve known from the start
that you will break my heart
"break my heart"
break my heart....

(oh)
im finally
moving on
you played with my heart
im so gone
i shouldve known
from the start
you was playing games
"with my heart"...

im finally
moving on
the love i had
now it's gone
dont ask me why
dont even try
the love you gave
it was all a lie...


Details | Free verse | |

City of Nothing (My Secret Sin)

These sky’s are my prison
And if we could die in heaven
Only the sky’s would be my prison
And yes we we’re dreaming 
We just couldn’t leave the riches and luxuries of this life
My friend 
I truly miss the comfort
The misery of drowning in the night
I’m giving you something in writing 
It’s no longer pain
It’s something like a human substance in lightning
Just like you
I to, would like to witness peace
It brings me back to those lonely days
I’d lay shivering in unsanitized sheets
Hard times and jealousy
Left me a desire to murder my savior
Envy remains a tempted favor
And when it rains 
I can hear him calling my name
Another sunrise
It’s there, under the stars, beneath the sky’s
A world of temptation in his eyes
Lets go there, lets escape this city of nothing
Yet the sky’s are my prison
And if we could die in heaven
Only the sky’s would be our prison
And we could escape this city of nothing


Details | Ballad | |

Song of the Dying

You don’t feel upon lying
So you sing the song of the dying
Sunday afternoons 
Pastors choose reign in a spiritual doom 
The sun plasters we coons 
Stand out and fade faster with the moon
I bid you the same old static and blues
The one always in favor of tempered news
The trail of adventures and rules 
We don’t heal upon crying 
So we sing the song of the dying
The highways haunts you
Night sky’s taunt the blue 
All life wants from you
Is the truth
The secrets they’re telling you
One just knows not what to do 
Feel like you want to cry
Coincidentally you realize 
It would be better to die 
We don’t feel upon lying 
So we sing the song of the dying 
I’ve given away myself in every song
Driven the bars last liquor home
No sympathy for an aging man
For I cannot feel your tears 
Upon my rough hands 
My scared palms 
My irrelevance 
bared in chapters of Psalms 
Until my ending is calmed 


Details | Free verse | |

Out of Time (My Secret Sin)

For why have I fallen into the depths of your arms
Given you my life, my respiration, my blood
Only to search for your hidden love
I’ve been flirting with death for way to long
And now it’s time to go on home
Yes my friend, it’s time to journey on home
So let’s dream
Let’s get away from this strict sense of reality
Live life in the past time
Follow me
Let’s dream
Let’s get away from reality
Fade away with the past for one last time
Where might you place this new born soul
With life, with time, I have given old
From the bliss of her lips to yours and mine 
Memories of how you chose her
And time leaks faster as death seeks closer
So let’s dream
Let’s get away from this strict sense of reality
Live life in the past time
Follow me
Let’s dream
Let’s get away from reality
Fade away with the past for one last time


Details | Rhyme | |

Little Boy Sings A Song

The music plays hauntingly 
As he sings quietly along 
Just another sad and very lonely song 

For in his world, melodies
Are all filled with great pain 
Tiny heart full of nothing but aching blame 

Maybe if he could be better 
Then he'd be truly loved 
Every night he prays to the Lord up above 

But every morning he wakes 
To the same old tired song 
Wondering what he did that was so very wrong 

Only six years old now 
Already he'd seen too much fear 
Felt no smiles, but cried rivers of tears

He doesn't remember anything 
Except this very sad refrain 
It seems to reach out and call him by name

Someone should have noticed 
He had the bruises and broken bones 
It should have told them what was happening at home

But the music keeps on playing 
As people just quickly walk by
Each day he wonders, if it's his day to die

His dad is always angry 
He doesn't know what he's done 
All he wants is to be a very good son 

His Mom seems oblivious to his suffering 
Lost in her own music filled with shame 
Dreaming of better days, casting away her blame

With no love on the outside 
Little boy quietly climbs inside 
Looking for safety and a place to hide 

While he waits he sings 
This painful little tune 
Praying that help, will find him soon 

See the sadness behind his eyes 
It's where he's gone to dwell 
Lost inside himself, away from his living hell!




Details | I do not know? | |

Hopeless Candles (angel of sadness)

Candles blow, wind, snow
No slope
Candle's low, wind, snow
No hope
Teddy bears, ashes
Heavy cares, crashes
Warm hugs, the end
Charmin doves, no amends
Candles blow, wind, snow
No slope
Candles low, wind, snow
No hope
Teddy bears
Like a fire dreaded ashes
Heavy cares
I'll be your warmth, worthless crashes
Karma hugs
Like a ghost, the end
Charming doves
I'll be your home, no amends
Candles blow, wind, snow
No slope
Candles low, wind, snow
No hope


Details | Lyric | |

INNOCENT FACE

A child so young and sweet
wondering would he rape me
at that time in her mother's
place
a child so young with an innocent
face
so scared when the devil appear
deep down inside, she cries a 
silent tear
and knowing she lost her flower
at a very young age
she keeps the secrets
locked up in a cage


Details | Free verse | |

Walls of Berlin (Angel of Sadness)

Will I grieve you, only if you grieve me 
Said you couldn’t rest 
So I lay in this casket with you 
A bouquet in a basket, why risk the truth 
Delusional I may be 
A happy ending, a sympathetic conclusion 
Is something we’d pay to see 
Cross your arms and lay with me 
The aspects it’s okay to be 
You or me, whom shall we grieve 
There are certain things I need from you 
Like we feed 
There are pertinent things I need you to do 
As we grow to be adults 
We simply do what needs to be done 
Across from the morgue 
Smiling faces soaked in with the sun 
Outside these walls of Berlin 
Suited individuals call for her sins 
Will you grieve me, only if I grieve you 
Through the many hours of this day 
Tragic circumstances flower our May 
In a declining sun set it reflects from my window pane 
A metaphor of my life lived in feign 
As if I demand that you be my friend 
Take this childs hand to the end 
Down those spiral steps 
Admire the depths of a single breath 
Your or me, whom shall we grieve? 
A mother dropped her bags to comfort her daughter 
On and on through the years she brought her 
These missing links of murder 
Kissing a stench never before heard of 
Full of bars, cool as scars 
Precious jewels of mars 
Like I lost my tongue 
I’ll start a thousand wars 
For I will not be forgotten!!! 


Details | I do not know? | |

faces

I worry about the faces that I grace 
Upon my fractured sculpture
Sometimes they smile
Sometimes they frown
But I worry that there is 
No longer truth that belongs
To these faces
And I worry 
That there will never be again
Our faces
The changing seas 
Expressions that hover 
Amongst Invalid scenes
Would you smile for a broken man
Would you wonder where he’ll be 
In a day or two, maybe three
Eyes that reflect teary 
For the most of  common days
Will you comfort me 
In the near distance 
Where the rain will touch 
Fresh air
The taste 
The scarlet blue lake
If there was a time that I cared 
It definitely is not now 


Details | Blank verse | |

You Will Never Die

You will not die,
you will
not go away.
You sat the poison on
the table,
I saw it 
with wet eyes, damp
cheeks. I wish 
I could breath lavender
air, so that
life would leave me alone
I wish that you 
would burn out.
Go away my mental 
pain, 
my black memories.
My broken rainbow, lost 
in the fog
can see you in
the distance. 
Never will you go away
because 
scars never heal.


Details | Lyric | |

HURRICANE KATRINA

HURRICANE KATRINA
came unexpectly
lost in a storm
i dont see my family
my neighbors are gone
babies have died
homes under water
believe me,i've cried


Details | Bio | |

Out Of My Mind

I'm crazy as a loon,
My brain is Looney-Tune,
Four room trailer
In a land of naught,
Surely, this was,
Not what I want...

Musicians alone,
Are like flowers without sun
There's not much inspiration
There's not much fun...

I gotta get outta' this place,
Go back to the human race...
One more minute in this tomb,
Will surely spell my coming doom.


Details | Lyric | |

regret

certfied letter
sendin you another
i want to give you all of me
it's about time
the collision of your eyes
set my love free
rap me all up
unwrap me with a bow
it's a suprise
it's thee
forever my love
makin it hot 
the tasteful drug you feen
runnin through your veins
with an innocent face
slowly killin you and me
alphabet soup
i thought i loved you
my biggest regret
i slept with you


Details | Cowboy | |

Mountain Mandolin

Its mournful melodies come drifting
Through the valley and the glen,
Those last haunting , misting memories 
Of the mountain mandolin.

A jaunty jew’s-harp joins along now
Like a lonesome loud amen,
While a fiddle fades and then rises
With that mountain mandolin.

Then the bass moans of an old cowboy
Who in rage shot his best friend,
As that band of long ago plays on
Like soft thunder in the wind.

Yet, one by one those cowboys drift off
As we still remember when
And we join that dying orchestra
Lead by that mountain mandolin.

                                   


Details | I do not know? | |

A Family Man (angel of sadness)

A Family Man

Lately I can see me providing for a family
But it's all weary thoughts aside from the demands in me
Why do this, why do that
Seems daily I lie dying on a tear soaked mat
Teachers wanna beg on me for childhood memories
All I've had is abusive tendacies
Hence forth and back to thee
Yet still I can see a family man, a softer me
The characteristics I offer to be
No more jumping homes, it's not a foster plea
The martial status of we, undo what they see
Pictures of my most wanted misery burning
A cast so rationalized in fear
It's only here to see me turning
As I satisfy my bitter aches with this funnel
Such a long tunnel, an impossible journey
Haunted thoughts of a family man, a softer me
No time realm could alter we
Back to stretch my muse
A dried up vision, died confused
Nearly bruised, alternatives misused
If I should fall from this stairway
Grab me and salvage yourself another day
It's only fair play
I could do a lot worse than a snare could say


Details | Lyric | |

I Take Back

{V-1}
In the darkness of my mind
Where your image fades away
Your memories all I find
As my tears fall today

{V-2}
The note you left for me
Has sorrow in every line
Through black and white I see
You erased me from your mind

{Chorus}
I take back all those words
Those words that broke your heart
I take back those nights
Those nights you cried alone
I take back those words of pain
Those words that made us part

{V-3}
Today those flowers in the window
Are wilted and turning brown
Your picture on the mantel
Has me praying you'll turn around

{V-4}
When I see your red silk nightie
My tears start again
Oh darling I'm on my knees
and my minds on memory lane

{Chorus}
I take back all those words
Those words that broke your heart
I take back all those nights
Those nights you cried alone
I take back those words of pain
Those words that made us part


Details | Free verse | |

Marie (My Secret Sin)

If these are the last words off my tongue
Let it be known, my final songs been sung
And Marie, Momma, you could never be wrong
But I always knew that I wouldn’t live long
Warm hugs in the lobby
Now it is your precious smile
That has this young man sobbing 
My objective 
To remain faithful and effective
And perhaps I came up on my own
Time spent is time blown
And I promise not to be a dead beat
Or let my enemies beat my head in the seat
Until I’m gone and deceased 
I’ll take that same stubborn path
Prophecies of cowards scheming 
To lay me asleep on a bloody mat
At times, we can be so responsible 
And act with such charisma 
Shooting for T-O-P-S, expelled as a senior
Now I don’t even know what my future career is ma
Still awaiting happiness to make a series premiere
Something as bizarre as gothic fairies being sincere
As an adolescent, I conquered the lessons 
Slaughtered consequences, jumped fences,
Kept my audience in suspense
Constantly hitting them hard with something intensive
Every now and then I come across something offensive
Crush them into saw dust with grammatical utensils 


Details | Elegy | |

My Friend Mark

I've known him since high school,
He had an immense impact on me,
Tosseled, curly blonde hair,
And always with a smile,
A musician's musician,
With talent a tad lower
Than he gave on,
I feared no audience when he was there,
He somehow comforted me,
He always had a bright outlook,
He was magic in a crowd,
With tales and totes to please us all,
He made a 40 watt bulb burn at 100,
I particularly remember he and Mike Joseph,
(Who stole an amp from me),
Sitting on the "Peeve Room" floor,
with acoustic guitars on laps,
Playing "Uncle John's Band"
To my delight, in 1970,
And all the music he opened me
up to, my God, he taught me so much...
Hence my great sadness at his passing,
When the angel of death came down to touch,
And take this musician, genius, and friend,
Into another celestial abode...
They left a hole in my heart,
Where once his gift of friendship flowed.


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WWW (angel of sadness)

We catch trials the moment we touch satisfaction
The average mistakes of luck and infatuation
The truths we're told are merely lies
The heavens we seek are clearly skies
And this is what I want the world to know
We catch wishes
Misery catches dreams
Seems we can't seem to kiss our misses
Lonely roads capture our tears and forgotten scenes
This is what I want the world to know
I ake to complete  the ordered procedure
I wait to concrete my name in your boarded seizure
My beginning is closure
My happiness remains in grains of Folgers
But this is what I want the world to know
Again I'll sleep
My suringe carries your motive to weep
I may close my eyes
But forever I am yours to keep
And this is what I want the world to know


Details | I do not know? | |

As Happy As U Are (angel of sadness)

Smiles will carry you so far
But no worries, I’m only as happy as you are
Before I address these wounds
Let us discuss my future
And why I am blessed with doom
I’m over these tree tops
Yet I’m stuck beneath these clouds
Cursed for every time
You shout your beliefs aloud
Misery is peace
Therefore depression is here to see me
Smiles will carry you only so far
No worries, I’m only as happy as you are
28 days of February a love spell
28 days later, the end, seems above fell
Something about the scenes of a disaster
That puts a smile on my face
Your agony is only as lovely
As a child in my place
As if time should randomly select my enemies
Just past this line
Your phantom will detect a tender me
For my elite meets no defeat
Another face masked in glory
Another victim
Whose hunger won’t outlast his story
Smiles will carry you so far
But no worry’s, I’m only as happy as you are


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To the Music on the Radio

I can remember hiding and listening 
to the music stemming from my fathers hands.
Careful not to alert him; else the bow 
would fall, the melody would cease.

Majestically the bow would sing on contact
as it danced upon each string. Each note 
went on and on, in unison with the melody
heard in the background.

How proud I was of my father then and
even more proud of him, today.

Some time ago, the horsehairs and wood had
been carefully put away. For years now, the
music had ceased. Though silence is heard by
everyone's ear, I will always hear my 
father's accompaniment to the music on the
radio.


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Troubled

Troubled I am
Thoughts no longer belong to me 
No longer mine 
A figure forever in-depth
Some what left behind
Forbidden desires
Truth being spoken 
From a mad mans mind
Spectators say what you will 
Think of gone 
Or at least until
I’ll be who I am 
No definition of family 
Yet I will always respond
Yes maim, thank  you, and please 
I will always take a coward from his knees
I will always look to your hands 
For royalties to be seized
I know not what is good 
I go about things wrong
My following being secular guidance 
Time and time again 
It’s the same refuted song
For these reasons 
I will never see a better home 


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Caesar (Angel of Sadness)

I fear no man, no beast
I randomly select souls and sell them for no lease
I walk with flesh, I gallop with clouds 
Yet on this heavenly palette, I stand with gods ever so proud
I marry for beauty, I sin for lust
My hopes pleasure is honestly a must
Watch for winds from the east, for I have come again
I trust no one, I spoil loyalty with morals
Life is no fun, death is royalty in earthly portals
I trout with my shoulders squared
For in this battle, “good,” I have faired
My mission to satisfy the grips of greed by our egos need
My vision to bring war, 
Tears and sanctuary to my every enemy as they plead
Watch for a cool breeze from the east, for I’ve come again
I will bring riches and luxury to the palms of we poor
I am guilty of taking the everyday that we so hesitantly adore
My equals will love me, your gods will look above me
Yet the jewels of envy will so long to hug me
I will be murdered by those I keep so distant from disasters art
Yet so close to my heart
I will ask why, my keepers will have one last cry
I will carry through will one final task and die 
Watch for winds from the east for I have come again
I will haunt you in your dreams
I will taunt you in your casual scenes
I will take from you, what you have given to me
The guilt the horror of triumph, misery, and loneliness
That I will never get to live and see
Watch for a cool breeze from the east 
Watch for hell to fall from heaven just to tease this beast
I will be spoiled will praises once more, for I have come again


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Music in My Head

I have these songs
here within my head
that my fingers and voice
can’t let out
because they’re inept
but that’s fine with me
because I can still hear the beauty
However
I am saddened
because I can’t share it
with the ones I love
and with the people of the world


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The Pianist

Cocooned by the light 
Of the tender moon,
 He sits surrounded by the warmth
Of his melodies,

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

His fingers slide between the keys,
As the hymn plays softly
Whistling with the breeze…
He sways as

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

Right and left,
He slightly moves
Encircled by the tunes
Of magnificence,

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

Harmony, as seconds seem perpetual,
The essence of beauty drenches the air,
As he sits tranquil
On his piano chair,

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

His eyes glimmer,
As the moon reflects its violet
Radiance on them,
He contemplates the dusky night
As he continues to play,

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

Tangible art,
Released from the core
Within the heart,
The music continues to chant,

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

A night in which, it awaits dawn,
Where he sits and plays,
 For everything else is gone...

He smiles with tears in his eyes…

Dawn is here,
As the sun began to rise,
He continued playing
Smiling with tears submerging his eyes,
He suddenly stops the music, 
And loudly cries…


He weeps, as tears fall from his eyes…








 




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3 count

im in a cell
i need a bail
to set me free
thats what i need
i lived enough
i oughta know
i count to 3
you dont love me

im gonna count to three
then ima show ya
watcha doin to me
you better hold ya breath
its gonna get ugly
the hurt you gonna feel
is what you've done to me
im not gon set u free
you bets to believe
im gonna count to 3

im gonna flip tha script on you
you gonna love like i loved you
and im the one who screws on you
now you gonna feel the way i do

"matter-of-fact"

i never felt like this before
playing parts you did before
always leaving out tha door
causing pain galore...

you might stay or go
but at least you will know
all the shhh you put me through
shid...i might get of you

to be continued......


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The Girl from Kansas (angel of sadness)

The girl from Kansas asked
“And you would never hurt me?”
The voice of sadness replied
I mean I would never hurt you intentionally
But eventually 
My selfishness and bitterness would run you away
Then again, alone, you would lay
The girl from Kansas asked
“I’ll be you know how to treat a lady”
The voice of sadness replied
Would you like me to hold your hand?
When we sit, would you like my pride to stand
Would you have me
Kiss you just above you forehead 
Every night before you drift off
And softly whisper I love you
When even in my nightmares
I only think of you
You want this why?
I’m no perfect lover
I don’t know how to hold you when you cry
The girl from Kansas asked
“Why not give it a shot?”
The voice of sadness replied
Where do we go from here
I wanna hold you, I wanna console you, but I’m afraid
It’s your tears I fear


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Short Story (Angel of Sadness)

I’ve put everything I have in a final attempt
A simple procedure, from which I seem to be exempt
I want to love, I want to touch, I so want to feel
But with my every emotion dwelling on the past 
It seems I’ll be held until your serpent comes for his final meal
A few loved ones, A few friends
Above our sun, I ask for a glorious end 
I guess I’m praying for hell, one last victorious sin
I often question myself, Is that all that matters
I’ll share with you, the smiles, the tears, oh the laughter
I’ve been running from everyone else’s testimony
Yet I find myself shaping my own
So cunning, severely less than lonely
No use in escaping, when it’s over, I’ll be gone
But no worries for death will be my final journey alone
Apathy forever slapping me
Yes I’m troubled, and I know every person has their issues
How can I be a better man 
When I couldn’t forget, forgive, or care to miss you
And when this song is over
No longer will your tribulations belong on these shoulders
I’m shrugging them now, carry your problems yourself
Even when my darkness dims, I’ll forever adore what’s left
Because I am alive, tomorrow I’ll be gone
My own words, a short story of this individual’s life
At any moment, I feel you’re alone; I’ll give you this song
Because I am alive, and tomorrow we’ll be gone


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Walls of Berlin (Angel of Sadness)

Will I grieve you, only if you grieve me
Said you couldn’t rest
So I lay in this casket with you
A bouquet in a basket, why risk the truth
Delusional I may be
A happy ending, a sympathetic conclusion
Is something we’d pay to see
Cross your arms and lay with me 
The aspects it’s okay to be
You or me, whom shall we grieve
There are certain things I need from you 
Like we feed
There are pertinent things I need you to do
As we grow to be adults
We simply do what needs to be done
Across from the morgue
Smiling faces soaked in with the sun
Outside these walls of Berlin
Suited individuals call for her sins
Will you grieve me, only if I grieve you
Through the many hours of this day 
Tragic circumstances flower our May
In a declining sun set it reflects from my window pane
A metaphor of my life lived in feign
As if I demand that you be my friend 
Take this childs hand to the end
Down those spiral steps 
Admire the depths of a single breath
Your or me, whom shall we grieve?
A mother dropped her bags to comfort her daughter
On and on through the years she brought her
These missing links of murder 
Kissing a stench never before heard of 
Full of bars, cool as scars
Precious jewels of mars
Like I lost my tongue 
I’ll start a thousand wars
For I will not be forgotten!!!


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Finale, the (angel of sadness)

My destiny to be the only child breathing
From my journey, suffering is what every smiile is recieving
I don't know how to lose
I challenge any ill fate that rendevous my cruise
In an odd relevence to my descend
No god selling chants has innocence
Given to this world, I was born an orphan
How else could one explain this life's torn portion
My mother, a casualty of being raped
Social security so I guess there's no concern for abortion
As if the heavens might mourn my torture
We've got seasons to premere
For now my finale is near
Tears, signs of happiness, no other reason we're here
As for now, my finale is here
Seems I've been enduring cautious steps
My readers look for another line
But exhaustion wares on my breath
My decision at a young age to survive
My chances to prevail
Exempt from what ever hardships my doom precribes
Perhaps we are only men
Maybe we'll find peace in the end
We've got seasons to premere 
For now my finale nears
Tears, signs of happines, no other reason we're here
As for now my finale is near


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A Poignant Encounter

It was about a year or so
After my first wife, Ann,
had left me for another man,
It was about 10 PM, I was
upstairs in my "living room"
and stangely she showed up,
In a taxi, unannounced,
I assure you,
Well, I went down,
and let her in, not
too pleased, cause you see,
She had put me through 
a year of hurt,
very devastating to me

Well we went upstairs,
I put some music on,
I would have made 
a genius D.J. , my
sense of music so profound

She took her shoes off,
laid on the floor,
right next to me,
Started to tell me
she had made a mistake
with me she wanted to be...

Now there's no way
I'd ever trust this girl,
She broke my heart,
And now she'd unfurl,
This tale of her deep woe,

I listened very skeptical,
Would not say what she
longed to hear,
I had no longer trust,
in her words,
Her promises I did fear,

Well, after two hours
of trying,
To melt my still stung heart,
She realized it was time,
Yes, time for her to depart

She called a cab,
and soon enough, 
he was waiting at the door,
I walked her out into the
hallway, what to do,
I was so unsure,

Something seized my heart,
I knew this time was cast,
The words or deeds, said now,
Would be the ones that last,

Almost without thinking,
In the darkened hallway now,
I drew her close to me,
Don't know why or how,
I held her and tenderly
gave her, a slow passionate kiss,
I didn't know why I did this,
For sure, she could not too,
It was so counter to the evening,
But one thing I will tell you,
She kissed me back with passion,
The emotion I surely did not miss,
For but that one bittersweet moment,
The world had changed somehow,
She once again became
the woman,
I'd loved so well and now,
It may have meant hello,
It may have meant goodbye,
But so pure and unthought emotion,
That moment it did not lie.

She slipped away,
into the night....
That was to be our last kiss,
To this day, I wonder,
What it was , I might forever miss.

this is a true story


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boo boo tha fool

im not no bodies fool
listen what im tellin you
i know what youre up too
im not boo boo tha fool

sayin im your one and only
but you have another callin you baby
boy you must think im crazy
shid...youre the one i studied

i know ya like a book
and from back of my head
i know every skank-ya dic,
you feed
so weak minded (yes)
thats what i said
yo rock head, sleepin with them in my bed

do you know how to live
you sho do know how give
spreadin your love around town
up the streetz, and going downtown

im not
boy, im not
im not
im not boo boo tha fool
repeat2x:

you said you holy
(you know that was a lie)
you kickin it with friends
(you know that was a lie)
you sanctified
(damn! thats a lie)
you clamin you genuine
(hell yea) thats a lie

honorable (you) oh no
trustable (you) OH NO
lovable(YOU) oh no
you dont believe in love and respect
so i had to push the button next

oooh

im not
boy, im not
im not
im not boo boo tha fool
repeat2x:

fadeout:
you cant get nothin over me
you cant get nothin over me
dont think that you can
cuz you cant get nothin over me


Details | Ballad | |

Starting Over Again

Whatever happened to the time we used to spend
Whatever happened to my long and faithful friend
And not matter how my heart will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again
Whatever happened to the love that we were in 
Whatever happened to the dreams that we'd begin
And no matter how my life will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again	(Chorus)

I see the signs of yesterday yet I won't assume
Because I know what that will make of me and you
But I see the same old patterns every week and weekend
There's not a change so I have a hard time believin'
Yet I don't want to judge the future looking at our past
But if I can't depend on you then how can we ever last
I just can't deal with going through the same old thing
And your actions speak so loud you've left me wondering 

(Chorus)

If you're dedicated to me give me more of your time
Than you give to any other, let them know that you're mine
If you're committed to me, be faithful, kind and true
And remember you said you love me the way I love you
So history won't repeat itself you'll do whatever it takes
By always saying what you mean, doing all that you say
To make us work, keep our dreams, here's one last chance
For you to put your love in action and give a little romance

(Bridge)

Cause every man will proclaim his unfailing love
But what girl can find a faithful man she can trust
She just can't deal with going through the same old thing
And your actions speak so loud you've left her wondering 

Whatever happened to the time we used to spend
Whatever happened to my long and faithful friend
And not matter how my heart will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again
Whatever happened to the love that we were in 
Whatever happened to the dreams that we'd begin
And no matter how my life will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again	(Chorus)


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I Want to Cry

It's been another rainy day
Since I left that special place
There are you- here am I-
It's been another starless night
Since I took that lonesome flight
There are you- here am I-
And I want to cry-

Will the sun come out today?
Or will it still just hide away?
Cause there are you- here am I-
And will the moon shine tonight?
Or will the clouds put up a fight?
Cause there are you- here am I-
 And I want to cry-

I want to cry, but how can I let my feelings show -
How will you ever know~ when you are there and I am here?
I want to cry, but how can I share my tears with you - 
How will you feel it's true~ when you are there and I am here?
When I am here-?

Can the clouds and lights above
Express the longing of my love?
Cause there are you- here am I- 
And can all nature mourn the fate
Of two souls who separate?
Cause there are you- here am I-
And I want to cry-

It's been another rainy day
Since I left that special place
There are you- here am I-
It's been another starless night
Since I took that lonesome flight
There are you- here am I-
And I want to cry-

On leaving Meiningen, Germany
A song for Kirsten Amthor


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Never Fall in Love Again

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:

i told myself i wont fall in love again
i tried to ignore the way he touch 
my skin
trying to keep my heart locked
and not letting him win
then my heart took a dramatic spin
i eventually let him in
and adored me with love(with love)
but i said

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:

the way he touch me
my heart start to sing
so nice and gentle
its like it was s dream
i forgot how love feels
he showed me how love feels
but once again "i said......

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:

instrumental break

ashes to ashes
dust to dust
i vowed to stay by your side
even when things are rough
you started to change
drinking booze and playing games
i cant take no more 
it's you i blame


you waste my love 
you waste my time
i packed my stuff
and said my last goodbye.......

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:


fade out:
bye bye....
goodbyyyyye.....
bye bye....
goodbyyyyye.....


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Scout

So finally I realize, it's exausting and costly to get to the head of your line.But in 
the end it'll all be worth wild. Go mad man just go man let's just pretend and walk 
the lone mile
So how can it be no matter how great it seems everyones a gaurd when you're 
trying to escape and being awakes a prison and you'd love to jail break but your 
legs won't let you run let you fly Though you're on the island as the ships go by
Salt in your eyes I watch you walk quickly This cold honesty is wearing my soul 
away All is not well and soon you start shakeing This cast iron hell you're 
thoughts they keep paceing
So how can it be no matter how great It seems everyones a gaurd when you're 
trying to escape and being awakes a prison and you'd love to jail break but youre 
legs won't let you run, let you fly spread your wings before you die
 And it's all the same cliche With a mind in disaray You struggle day to day 
knowing that I'll never find my Ophelia


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caffeinated dreams

ask me what i dream at night
when all the world's asleep.
ill tell you how i relocate 
in valleys young and deep;
of far green lands and gentle hands
and gardens full of life
of spring's rebirth in gentle earth
and music from the fife;
the daylight hours, filled with showers
warm, and rainbowed skies
of innocence, and further hence
all purity implied.
but as i dream i stand and seem
a sideshow, set apart.
i watch and gape and scratch the nape
while beauty breaks my heart.
the music plays, the sunlight grays
but im not fit to dance.
a fear of all, and sure to fall
id never take the chance
so ends the day, i slip away
and waking calls me back
to foggy eyes and distant cries
and creaking joints that crack.
two worlds denied their bridging bride
though one thin strand connects
my dreams at night and waking light;
one point where they transect.
my dreams i tell but think not ill
if they are but half true
for fear of chance forebodes my lapse,
and my thin strand is you.


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once again

chorus:
once again....
i told you 
i will never love you
"never come back to you"
once again....
i told you 
you not being true to me
"youre all the same to me"
once again....
im tired of these assholes
"they fuk and go"
once again....
once again....oh....

oh
you think  im a fool
but it's really you
to think that i am
coming back to you
it just sickens me
i see you havent moved on
"thinking im coming back to you".....

repeat2x:

the nerves of you not to see
what you've done to me
all your cheating and your lies
it just sickens me

breakdown:
youre lies...
you decieved...
one again...
it will never be you and me
repeat2x:

repeat chorus2x:

instrumental break

tears arent necessary
boy you sorry
dont bother to call me
youre just another old story

fadeout repeat chorus:


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hush little baby

hush little baby
dont you cry
your not the one
 he chose has to die

he chose this fate
for someone new
there is nothing left
for you to do

just sit there quiet
and await your fate
you still have the choice 
to live or die

i on the other hand
am i light sleeper
because i know he is after me 
his names the grimm reaper


Details | I do not know? | |

Our Song Haunts Me

Our song haunts me
I had not listened to it for weeks
But I feel it is the final piece
To this muddled puzzle
I was afraid to open my ears
Up to this sweet sensation
For far too long
But I have since heard it
And I did not weep
It’s okay to press number ten
On his CD
Still, give me time before
I listen to it once more


Details | Free verse | |

Above Wrong (Angel of Sadness)

It seems we have been torn 
A great distance apart
Yet in the eve of a fair day
You can not resist my art
I envy your every blasphemous sound
Yet a single draft consist of our hearts 
On my behalf, my part
I’ll leave no room to anticipate
Like a forgotten mark 
With realms of time, I am forced to participate
My age limit gathering dust
Constant decisions, rathering I must 
Every attempt to better this hell, wavering a plus
A long with these costly treasures of mine
What pleasures do you exactly have in mind?
A balance of worthiness, measures our time 
Seems that with senseless issues, I’ve been stretching my years
Grasping the obvious, the unseen
Fetching what’s in between the clear
I bare no room for fault
In your palms my thoughts were so softly caught
I may seem tired
For I am weathered by scenes of dreams a little higher than fire
Will you walk with me?
Will you sit and shoot the dust
And talk about the myths we’ll grow to be
Living for the gifts we are determined to see
It’s the above wrong that shelters your love song


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played with fire

i realize it was really hard for me to see,
how could i've been so blind,
you was slowly killin me,
you played with fire,
end up hurting me,
theres no mercy,
especially coming from me

and if i do forgive
i will never forget
its something you have to live with
boy you will regret
u had your fun while it last,
now youre my past
youre a cheater and a liar,
you made urself look like an as(s)

let me tell you,im no bodies fool
but love made me blind 
i was a fool for you
now it seems, the tables have turned
so horribly you looking
i see you've learned

you loved that one
she didnt love you back
now you knocking on my door
sayin "plz take me back"

ah, you realize
you was a fool
messin up somethin
with one night or two
three,four,
stop knocking at my door,
when in fact,
step on back,
theres no comin back

i thought you was the one
the one i can trust
but i was wrong
you was a bust

you couldve been the one
my lover, my king
building an empire
just you and me

now its too bad,
it ended so sad,
didnt realize what you had,
you so gone, im glad

im better without you
unstressful
im free
you played with fire
end up hurting me
im the one and only
u had a good thing
now you cant have me

fadeout:
n-e-more....


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tears and rain

standing in the pouring rain
while tears runnin down my face
wonderin what i did to you
baby girl i love you

this a mix of tears and rain
girl you got me walking in the rain
i know i did no wrong to you
i know its not me, its you
repeat2x:

im walking down the streets
people looking at me
walking in the rain
they probably think im crazy

i open the door
you going outta control
pictures of you and me
scattered on the floor

tell me what you want from me
tell me what do you need
if you dont want me
you can pick up and leave

tell me a reason
for your actions
you put me out the car
in a wet situation

this a mix of tears and rain
you go me standing in the rain
i know i did no wrong to you
do you love me like  love you

breakdown:
this a mix of tears and rain
(oh)
tears and rain
this a mix of tears and rain 
(oh)
tears and rain

fade out:
tell me what you want from me
tell me what do you need
if you dont love me
you can pick up and leave

"this a mix of tears and rain"


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neverending story

this song it like a neverending story
we both played a part
but you pretending
even though you a million miles away
you got me thinkin,
you still love me
not knowing that youre lyin

"neverending story"

you said it was me
but it was you
who was cheatin
changin up, everyday,
like diffrent seasons
you dissappear into the night
sleepin with diffrent creatures
with diffrent features

"this a neverending story"
break it down now!

breakdown part:
neverending story...
yeah yeah yeah
"break it down"
oooh
"this a neverending story"
oooh, oooh..yeah

neverending story
boy, you will never change
all your lies, you feed me
sayin youve been, real to me
let me tell you one thang
reggin, you say that losely
love- so overated
its beginning to lose its meaning

neverending story
(story,story)
neverending story...

"oh yes it is"

this song is like a neverending story
we both played a part
but you pretending
even though you a million miles away
your bestfriend keeps warning me
you pretending you love me
this a neverending story