Too hard for me to say goodbye
For all apparent reasons why
Even though we all know it must be
Each heart will someday stop the beat
When the rhythm of life, and silence, finally meet
Yet I always seem so surprised
To find that death is part of life
Knowing that regret, will now haunt my every rhyme
The specter called "if only", will inhabit every line.
Wish I could arbitrate a deal to have gained a little time
Just one more talk with Sissy, to ease my guilty mind.
And the sun now sets on my regrets
I gamble on time and lose each bet
Thinking I'll move on and yet,
here I set . . .
Wishing for one more time
One more pun
One more smile
That will never come
If I could just recall the things you said that mattered to you most.
Memories un memorized
That now I'll never know
Years of conversation when I didn't pay attention
Times I should have said I love you
And somehow failed to mention
Then when you tried to tell me you felt your time was drawing near
Your selfish little brother pretended not to hear.
Even when you did your best, and tried to let me know
You'd made your peace and you were ready, and that for you . . .
It was simply time to go
God Gives Us Brothers and Sisters For A Reason!
God gives us brothers and sisters for a reason!
As children, we have each other, throughout the seasons!
We laugh and play together and do all sorts of things…
Often not realizing what the future of life brings!
As kids, we often share whatever life may give us!
And stick together, no matter what trials may face us!
But, as we grow older, too often, we part separate ways.
And lose any contact with each other for countless days!
I’ve seen all kinds of things tear families all apart.
Often, there’s some kind of
unforgiveness of the heart!
If you, and your siblings, have reached a separation…
May you seek Jesus for
a Godly reconciliation!
As family, whatever divides, must be lifted up in prayer!
Where two or three are gathered… God is there!
Just think about what the family unit has become!
The love of Jesus must be what binds us all as one!
Getting along as a family, is more than just a “feeling!”
The blood of Christ needs to bring an “inner healing!”
The family that each of us have,
may not be here tomorrow!
Are you one who’s holding on to bitterness and sorrow?
May the words of Christ help us all to get along!
That through HIM, our families
will be STRONG!
By Jim Pemberton 10/20/13
I Know of Someone Holding Unforgiveness!
I know of someone holding unforgiveness!
This has led to a life of much bitterness!
Toward his brother, he’s held on to a grudge.
From his viewpoint, he won’t even “budge.”
No matter what God’s word has clearly spoken…
He’s walked with a heart
that’s been broken!
His son prayed that God would speak to him!
That he would forgive, so God could heal him!
Forgiveness is a powerful thing to do!
If you want God’s mercy to
flow through you!
We’re not called to “hold back,”
the love God’s given!
Through Christ shed blood…
We’re all forgiven!
May the love of Christ come and touch us!
It’s no secret how much God
really loves us!
Please come Lord Jesus! And touch our soul!
May we express your love, wherever we go!
May God’s gentle love, be what always binds us!
HIS words; “love one another,”
do remind us!
By Jim Pemberton
Is It God We Trust? Or Leave In the Dust?
As our courts remove God from this great nation.
We are left with a confused and lost generation!
As God is taken away from our public schools.
A huge tide of immorality is what “rules.”
The Bible is often mocked and discarded.
It was on it’s principles this country was started!
Just about anything of God seems to get scorned.
So many “rush” to worship many ungodly forms.
As God’s name is often tossed and thrown out.
We tend to forget what HE is all about!
Too often, his plans for living are tossed and abused.
No wonder, there’s many who are lost and confused!
As people forget God and worship the fallen creature.
They look to themselves and “glorify” their features.
Many ignore God, and get involved in deep addictions.
And with this, come disease,
heartache and afflictions!
As God looks and sees this nation “bleeding.”
It’s his righteousness, that we need to be seeking!
If we would humble ourselves, he would hear our prayer!
He loves all of us! And he really does care!
Won’t you come to HIM, And invite him in?
Won’t you allow him to be your master and friend?
He brings strength and nourishment to the soul!
It’s only in him that we can be made whole!
By Jim Pemberton
I’m sure that home to many has a different meaning.
It depends what kind of life
they’ve been receiving.
There are those with memories of hurt and pain.
Some may not want to mention their families name.
Others have childhood memories they are fond of.
They may have a family that they’re proud of!
I think that in many cases, home is not what people see.
It has a lot of importance.
Both to you and me!
What home means to me is to have our family together.
And ask the Lord to bless it, with his love forever!
God gave me a wife and children to take care of.
May I not do things that I’d be ashamed of!
I invite YOU Jesus, to be the head of our home!
May we come together as a family,
around your throne!
May our family serve
one another as we should.
May the truths of God’s word
be applied and understood!
May the Lord help us to get along,
with our imperfections.
May God’s word be our “road map,” for needed direction!
There’s no perfect home. Believe me! I know it!
When it comes to family time… We all need to show it!
Unless the lord builds the home…
They labor in vain that build it!
Let’s seek God’s blessing! So his love can completely fill it!
Please come Jesus! And fill our home today!
May our home be honored by what we do and say!
By Jim Pemberton
My brother came to me,
desperate for prayer!
Filled with hopelessness and despair!
I reached out to him to
begin to pray…
But I couldn’t find any words to say!
The Holy Spirit began tugging
at my heart within…
Convicting me of holding
on to a “secret sin.”
THIS SIN, God told me
I must first let go,
For this was eating
at my soul!
My prayer life had been
such a mess!
I repented! And to God… I confessed!
I called out to Jesus’
Inviting him into my
heart to reign!
On bended knees before my Lord
I began to bow,
My prayer was going to be answered… Somehow!
The prayer request for my brother
Was going to be met!
For God has never failed me YET!
By Jim Pemberton
Jesus, I Pray for My Brothers!
Years ago, I suggested to my brothers that we pray.
They simply laughed at what I had to say!
I thought it would be good to get together...
That God's love would bind our hearts forever!
Division took place and took the "upper hand."
I don't think they'd listen or even understand!
Over the many years that just went on by...
They never once took the time to say; "hi!"
Even though they never once seemed to care.
I decided to take some time in deep prayer!
It was like they would make fun of what I said.
At times, maybe they wished I were "dead."
At this time, there's a strong and powerful force
That's blowing their lives are way off course!
I pray that God's spirit will get a hold of them!
And let them now how much he loves them!
I pray that God's love will be the glue that binds them!
May God's mercy and joy be what finds them!
I pray that evil will not find it's way in their home!
And they would allow Jesus to rule on their "throne."
Even though they tried to cast me off, as a "fool."
It's God's words, in their lives, that must rule!
Jesus can turn around even the worst situation!
By the power of his glory and resurrection!
Please, dear lord, bind them forever as won!
Bless their home! Their daughters and sons!
By Jim Pemberton
I Have A Brother That Needs Prayer!
I have a brother that really needs prayer!
When it comes to God, he doesn’t care!
He’s living a life by his own set of rules.
And thinks Christians are a bunch of “fools.”
The only thing that seems important to him…
Are the things in life that are close to him.
Wandering down a path that he chooses…
The one he’s chosen… It’s him that looses!
Please, dear Jesus, keep him in your care!
Wherever he goes… I know you are there!
You are the one that my brother needs to come to!
No matter the false “dreams” he may run into!
Please dear Lord… Protect from all harm!
May he seek the strength of your loving arms!
May your voice beckon the master’s call!
He really does need YOU after all!
By Jim Pemberton
I can think of a time, when I was young.
I was growing up and having fun!
I remember how excited I was to have a t.v.
There were my brothers, my parents and me!
I remember at about the age of ten.
My dad thought going to the theater was a “sin.”
There were many things
that as young man…
I later began to see, and understand!
My parents shared God’s love the best they could!
And I read the Bible and was trying to be “good.”
I had my troubles… And problems bear...
But I had a family, and much prayer!
The truth of God’s word helped sustain me!
I knew how much he really loved me!
My parents, may seem like they were “old fashioned.”
They loved their kids! With a Godly compassion!
I’m thankful to be blessed with a Godly love!
My family was a treasure from heaven above!
I think about today, and how things go wrong.
Many families don’t seem to “get along!”
I pray for the blessing of God, to bind them together!
May we all serve him! Today, and forever!
His love must be the cord that binds!
His will must be the focus of our minds!
May the presence of God bind us as one!
Every mother, father, daughter and son!
By Jim Pemberton
I know of a son who turned his back on the God he once knew!
Praying for him, was all that his family could hope to do!
The truths taught to him as a child, he now began to reject!
Spending an eternity without God… He refused to accept!
He told his friends, about his “newfound theology.”
It sounded like he found some new kind of psychology.
Rather than accept the truth of God’s word, as he would find.
He would twist scripture to fit his own state of mind!
He would say; “the God of heaven and hell doesn’t exist.”
“It doesn’t matter how you live!” Is what he’d insist!
He rejected God’s gift and wonderful plan of salvation…
And chose to believe “whatever fit his own situation.”
I began to see his life sputter from a hurtful heart.
It just seemed like everything around him “fell apart.”
God wanted to help, but he didn’t believe he needed him!
God was there! But he made it clear that he didn’t believe him!
Many years went by, and this son started growing old.
He became a bitter and broken person, I’ve been told!
He did his best to remove God from his family and home.
Now, it was just him! And he was all alone!
Then one night, he cried out and called on Jesus’ name!
And confessed of all of his sin, guilt and shame!
This son, who had drifted from God for so many years…
Was filled with a true love, and a joy that brought tears!
He had returned to God! And God changed him!
God will always be faithful! And will never leave him!
Won’t you too, accept the life that God wants to give you?
He can change your life! Just because he LOVES YOU!
By Jim Pemberton
I know of a brother, who’s lost and confused…
Many of his relationships, he’s already “abused.”
He’s not really sure, which direction he’s going…
There’s a lot of wise advice, that he’s ignoring!
He’s choosing to ignore the God who loves him.
And refuses to acknowledge how much he needs him!
He decided to leave his family behind him…
Perhaps, one day, they’ll be able to “find him!”
I pray for this dear brother! He needs prayer!
I know that wherever he goes… God is always there!
Please, dear Jesus, touch him with your kindness!
Without YOU dear lord… He’s walking in blindness!
No matter where he goes… Which path is taken!
God will always love him! He’s never forsaken!
The words of God, must somehow get his attention!
To give him a clear path, and a godly direction!
May the love of Christ, get a hold of his heart!
Coming to Jesus, is a good place to start!
Whatever this brother does, or where he goes…
Only the righteousness of God, can make him whole!
Dear Lord… Be with my brother! That he may know you!
During the journey of life, may he learn to trust you!
The path of God’s footsteps, gives one a true meaning!
May this brother acknowledge God!
And start believing!
By Jim Pemberton
What’s Happening to Marriages Today?
I was listening to someone just the other day…
And I couldn’t believe what he had to say!
He had left his wife and children for another!
She was young enough to be his daughter!
Here they were, “in love” and holding hands!
Hoping to soon, get their “wedding bands!”
They were pretending that this was so “cool.”
Living now by their own “set of rules!”
How sick and disgusting this is getting to be!
Is this something that many can’t see?
God gave us Adam and Eve to become one.
To bear fruit through daughters and sons!
He gave us marriage as holy vows are made.
Not to march in an “adulterous parade!”
We are treading on very dangerous ground!
Faithfulness and commitment
are scarcely found!
The very definition of marriage is changing!
As the family unit is always rearranging!
Our only hope is in Jesus! And him alone!
Let’s promote his love! Into our hearts and home!
Let’s allow his love to be our heart’s glue!
And bring new meaning to the words; “I love you!”
May his love bind our hearts and lives together!
And remain faithful to each other forever!
By Jim Pemberton
A Backslidden Brother…
I have a brother, who once loved God and his word!
It was God’s call on his life, that he once heard!
He was raised in church and taught God’s ways!
And promised to serve him all of his days!
But, as he grew older, he began to really doubt.
What God’s purpose of salvation was about!
He began to deny the power of the cross.
And refused to believe that ANY were lost!
He twisted God’s word, into his own meaning!
Very soon, m any lies, he was now believing!
He wrote to friends about his new found belief.
He had a new found storytelling with no relief!
How did this brother turn from God so fast?
Why does he believe these lies? Others asked!
As time went by, this brother became confused…
It was him, not God, who slowly began to lose!
In a matter of time, his life began to “fall apart.”
As deception slowly crept into his stubborn heart!
God’s truth, that he rejected, can set him free!
And turn his life around! For all eternity!
We all need to love and serve God from within!
And accept his total forgiveness of sin!
God’s word is true! And will never be put to shame!
May we NEVER forget the power in his name!
By Jim Pemberton
'Hardy har', laughs the god,
Rushing judgement from afar.
"Only right, is right by me.'
Kills the damned to watch them bleed.
Virtues ruptured; marked abides,
Do make them fight for homicide.
For life is nil until the doom
But death by own shan't make him swoon.
"Your blasted brother to fire he'll go,
For plowing in your heart so slow,
Though blessed thee, your place now safe-
Alas he was slaughtered, cleansing his slate!
But the one, the last of the cycle,
Must pay the dues of his murdering rivals.
His only death is to break the mirror
And hell he'll go for that desire."
Now they smile, the sinners do,
As they look down on the payer's due;
"A heart so warm and soft like dough,
Brother, so sad you must stay below.
If only you had damned before
You were the last, the ultimate cure."
I walk outside to see all that I can see.
Over there is our house, our home,
In the distance, you can see.
And that place of hallowed happiness
Forever has been our home
And forever will be so evermore.
That house is small but raised us tall,
From the perfect parents who loved us so
To the perfect sister for which every man would want.
The house built us all up strong.
More than a mere building,
It is a place to love and be loved,
A place that hands you hope that you give right back,
And a place of everlasting faith.
This home is where my parents taught me about God
And opened me up to Jesus.
They opened the eyes of the blind for all to see,
And the blind included me.
They taught me to be the best I can be;
The best things in life are free.
They have taught us so well,
And they all have saved my soul.
Even if I am not there now,
I carry Him with me.
I carry them with me.
I carry Their values and Their teachings with me.
In this house, this home,
We cannot forget this.
This is where my Mother lives.
This is where my Father lives.
This is where my Sister lives.
This is where We live,
In this loving, caring, beautiful home
They made just for us.
We cannot forget this either.
This is where it all began.
This is where the hunger and thirst was created;
This is where we are fulfilled.
We cannot, we must not forget this:
This is where God lives.
This is where Jesus lives.
This is where The Lord lives;
The Father and The Almighty.
This is where We live;
This is where We reside.
We must not forget this.
We must not forget this:
What a beautiful and perfect life this is.
i am kurt daniel everdean
I am 21 years old
I've been playing the bass guitar
Since I was 11
i weight 145 pounds
i have blondish brown hair
and blue eyes
If I could say one thing about me that I like... Its that I never gave up.
things started when i lost my father
i was 10 years old
my mother started going to her room everytime she got home
she would come out with her eyes all red... Shes been crying
until i accidently walked in on her doing drugs
i now believe it was the drugs that caused the redness
me and my brother would fight everynight
when i bought my first bass
he slammed it against the floor
and told me since i think my lifes crap
then i shouldnt have anything that makes me happy
My mom became a street whore
She would dress in a golden gown and wear ugly make up
We would never see her
unless she needed money to get condoms for her "men"
the things between me and my brother got worse
I was arguing with him over a text he sent my mom
And he got into an accident and died that night
Things just never got better
I created a band called the nocturnal
And the reason you haven't heard of us yet
Is because were an underground punk band in Seattle
we haven't gotten far yet
Just underground party's and bars
My mom ended up running away with her "boyfriend"
After my brother died she blamed me
And told me to leave and said she won't come around me
Until I brought him back
Since then I've gotten a job and was able to pay rent on
My moms old apartment
Hoping shed come back clean and sober
As for me
I've cleaned up. but suicide is still an option
I haven't found god yet and I don't want to
If there was a god why did he give me this ****ed up life
Ya you'll say Kurt?... You made the desicions for your life
I knolw I did. But he was the one who let it actually happen
I've been writing since I was 11
Lyrics and poems
Drawings and paintings
bass guitar and vocals
My life isn't over
But it's sure close to it
Its sad to think that what you thought was fake... Is a true story
I’ve seen many families in difficult situations!
Often ending up in lies and false accusations!
I’ve seen many families stray way off course…
And tragically, often, end up in a divorce!
I’ve seen the hardships that many families endure.
Their faith has often been shaken.
That’s for sure!
I’ve seen many families trying to give 100 percent.
And then wondering where all of their time went!
I’ve seen all these things happening
and much more!
I have wondered; “what is all of this happening for?”
I’ve just one thing to say in this “chaotic confusion.”
Only the blood of Jesus gives
any hope or solution!
It’s only in his word, we’ll find a godly direction!
His Holy Spirit can give true and loving correction!
May we seek his spirit to bind us all together!
And pray for his blood for our protection forever!
Please come Lord Jesus, and refresh our soul!
We need you right now, to make us whole!
Please touch our heart, and make us all one!
And heal every father, mother, daughter and son!
Please help us to watch what we’ll do and say!
You can turn our darkest night
into the brightest day!
By Jim Pemberton
God designed marriage as the real thing!
Anything less, is what a counterfeit brings!
His concept of one man and woman is very real.
He’s not interested in bowing to “man’s appeal.”
His court of justice rings very loud and clear!
The truth of his word shall NEVER disappear!
You can look in Genesis and it is found!
He created Adam from the dust of the ground!
He designed Eve from one of his ribs!
They were joined together as both lived!
He didn’t need a constitution to know “their rights.”
He gave them HIS WORD as their guiding light!
Satan has been trying to pervert what God created!
This is a truth. And need not be debated!
We have cheapened the value of the marriage institution!
And have added needless
chaos and confusion!
Through the Bible, one husband and wife are taught!
Unless you want to live in Sodom, as did Lot!
Ungodly perversions take many forms and kinds.
And it soon piles up garbage into our minds!
“What God has put together.”
“Let no man put asunder.!”
Many ideas of “marriage,” is a total blunder!
One man and one woman is what God ordained in Eden.
It was Adam and Eve.
Not Adam and Steven!
The choices in life are yours! And yours alone!
Who is going to be the Lord, of your heart and home?
By Jim Pemberton
UNSUPPORTED CODE A Brother Who Let His Brother Fall...
I knew of a Christian, who let his brother fall.
He didn't reach out to help him at all...
When his brother needed someone, he wasn't there.
He said, "why should I bother him, or even care?"
It was almost like he wished for the worst to take place.
I could see him even wear a smile on his face!
"Why should I lift a hand to help?" were the words said.
It was like he wished his brother was "better off" dead.
The anger I felt inside of me, was difficult to express!
How can he neglect his brother, and expect to be blessed?
Why does he call himself a "Christian?"
He doesn't show it!
When it comes to love and forgiveness...
He doesn't even know it!
What did Christ mean, when he said "love one another?"
Doesn't this include everyone? Including our brother?
What do we expect from God? What would he say?
"You can't forgive your brother?" "Go away!"
If we can't freely share the love God has given...
How in the world, do we expect to be forgiven?
The love of Christ must completely change us within!
So we can experience what it means to be BORN AGAIN!
Christ has given to us his love!
Nothing can compare it!
May we all receive this love, and freely share it!
By Jim Pemberton