Does the past really matter?
Does it set you free?
I’m absorbed in the sin,
That is surrounding him and me.
Lost in the curiosity,
Cold to the touch.
Drenched in the poison,
With my dignity in his clutch.
Feeling like I was cheated;
I chose the evil instead of light.
I traded in the sunshine,
For what lurks in the night.
I disobeyed his orders,
I gave up security to be unsure.
I went against the warnings,
Gave into darkness instead of remaining pure.
Once my bed was made of soft grass,
But now it is made of stone.
Was plump from all of the luscious fruit,
Now I’m starving to the bone.
My curse is one of circumstance.
The punishment a crime,
I’m stuck inside this dampened cave,
For the rest of time.
My world came crashing down,
The grief has not subsided.
My heart broke completely,
When my sons collided.
My misery a token,
From the abandonment I earned.
Upon the time spent in sorrow,
There was a lesson to be learned.
Have I found the moral?
Only in time we shall see,
For all I did was eat an apple-
From the Knowledge tree.
Deep in my heart I search Oh Lord
Deep in my wretchedness I pray
Deep in my soul I cry for words
Words oh Lord, deep words worthy
To praise your Holy Lamb
How could I with human tongue
How could I with this spotted soul
How could I the unworthy one
Sing praises, how oh Lord
Sing praises worthy of the Lamb
Will I ever have the words oh Lord
Will I ever sing your song
Will I ever be around your throne
Where there I will praise,….praise
The Holy Lamb
I search the earth your hands have made
I search the sky, the clouds above
I search your flowers and your trees
Yet in their beauty none, none compare
To the beauty of the Lamb
Oh Holy Lamb please hear my plea
Oh Holy Lamb look in my soul
Oh Holy Lamb dispense your grace
That I oh Holy Lamb, I may have the words
To sing forevermore, Holy is the Lamb
Written by Brenda Meier-Hans
Contest: Verlena’s Holy is The Lamb
I am the hypocritical Christian.
I say I follow Christ,
But I'm still consumed by my demons.
I go to church on Sunday,
But I refuse to invite someone back.
I want to serve on mission,
But I'm too afraid to act.
They think I read The Bible,
But I just fall asleep in it.
They think I'm positivity and smiles,
But underneath I'm death and addictions.
They think I'm clean and pure,
But I'm broken and mistaken.
I say I'm not worthy of His love,
But Jesus will never let me be forsaken.
I pray long prayers,
But inside they're empty repetition.
It might look as if my faith is strong,
But my core is too easily shaken.
I say the things I'm supposed to say,
But don't follow His actions or obey.
I speak the truth the church wants to hear,
But deep inside on matters I don't know what to believe.
I walk in shame as if I'm not good enough
To be loved by God and saved through Christ,
But there is nothing I could ever do to earn His peace;
It's a free gift.
Now forgiven, changed, and released.
Thank You God,
Thank You Jesus,
Thank You Holy Spirit!
In Jesus' Holy Name,
Sweet woman of Yahweh
sing to me
the Song of Songs
song of love
with kisses of wine.
I desire you
as Adam desired Eve
this knowledge I seek of you
my beloved one.
You are dark and beautiful
but grace alone is deceitful
beauty by itself ever so vain
you my love possess both
coupled with the fear of Yahweh
for you are deserved of praise.
I seek you
when dusk turns to night
the remnants of daylight
is in your eyes
leaving a kiss of the days memory.
Let us read from the books of Zohar
we are surrounded
by the Kabballat angels
where the Shabbat Queen
restores our love each week.
Oh my love
suspended are we
between the secular
and the sacred.
Almighty God has created
this wonderful world for us
in radiant shards and sparks of light
tonight we tend our souls.
Come let us embrace the Kaballah
I draw for you
a most wonderful mandala
for my darling
a dream is dreamed three times.
The evening is upon us
I see over your shoulder falling
your hair in serpent like ringlets
your black hair is twisted
to allure you to me
my new found lover
God has a plan,
And it is out of my hands.
my hidden diamond
love's sweet jewel
Beauty so pure
your character delights
my devotion forever
Heartbeat on screen
My unbelief ceased
first squeezed my finger
The Rose innocent white, soft pink, yellows
colors touch your soul vibrant red to amethyst
enhances beauty yet a thorn awaits to break skin
as life does piercing your heart with a thin pin.
My life has shed drops of blood through each petal
as if in return for the love and beauty you feel
hence pain underneath patiently waits the bloodletting ~
The rose symbolizes love yet vulnerable to hold
for when you open your heart it can be left bleeding
The best of surgeons can not beat your heart
It is the inner faith and God himself whom gives strength
whispers in your ear you shall live you will exist
your life meaningful as the water and sun to the rose
For I am your God your existence is not over yet .
You must Live ~You must Bloom
It's not a lesson to be taught
Or a skill to be acquired
It's the nudge to move forward
Open when the time is right
It's the spirit inside
God leading on the way
On the journey to discover
He is all you need
It's the courage to let go
Say yes instead of no
Reveal what you've been holding back
As Jesus takes the wheel
It's the realization that it doesn't matter
What others think of you
God leads you where you're meant to be
Just allow you to be you
It's the standing up to fear
Proclaiming "fear's not gonna win!"
The battle has been fought too long
Time to let the stalemate end
It's the inspiration you've been holding
For others and for yourself
The light we've been dimming
Rather than shining on His behalf
It's the spontaneity in the decision
To follow His call all the way
Discovering peace in being you
Wide open as the perfect creation you are
The world out there is brutal
But there's a Holy Man holding out His Hand
His bravery now is all we have
But His bravery of love is all we need
May God bless you!
God, my ears are open
And I know what to do.
Please help me to make a decision
That finally leads to You.
My best friend
Is your best friend too!
He died for me;
He died for you!
I have barely seen Him or catch even His shadows around.
I have barely touch His hands...
Nor I have barely heard His soft soothing voice..
Nor I have barely felt His footseps lurking beside or behind me..
However, what a deep soaring reassurance is His presence...
Not of like a Human Being that can be perceive..
Rather He is the silent rescuer and ever living Spirit..
No need for extravagant welcoming..
He has always been within our innerselves..
He is the calmer of our quivering nerves..
He is the greatest teacher not wanting us to fail.
He is our dearest friend not forgetting..
He always is waiting for you and me..
His arms widely open to embrace us..
His unending; unfailing is so felt..
Beyond wonders; beyond times and beyond borders..
All the time we are invited to talk to Him..
Even sing a song for Him and with Him..
More to play a harmonious melody to commemorate Him..
Truly, majestic in limitless abundance is His providence...
He is only one..
No one can overpass Him..
All the earth will uphold His Name..
He is our God - OUR GOD...
GOd has always been with me..
and so is He with you..
He will comfort you..
He will be there, never leaving..
When the sun shines down unto me,
While the wind wildly combs my hair,
Does it mean God is all around me?
When the sun parts the clouds,
While the rays reach through the windows,
Does it mean God is watching over me?
When the sun pierces through the sky,
While the beams of light descend behind me,
Does it mean God is always with me?
When the sun shines down unto me,
While the wind wildly combs my hair…
Yes, it does mean God has and will always be there.
When the sun shines through the clouds,
While the rest of the skies are grim and grey,
Yes, it does mean God is sending a light of hope for me.
When the sun shines in the sky,
While the rain is descending from the clouds,
Yes, it does mean God has made me a promise.
When the sun clears the skies,
While the rainbow above me appears and fades,
Yes, it does mean God is always behind me, showing me the way.
Poorly heated coffee;
I can't seem to get it hot enough.
Tired eyes still rolling,
Film draped for dreaming.
This last Summer Saturday,
Might as well call it Fall.
The pumpkins out and jumping,
Future jack-o-lanterns for fun.
Gentle breeze cascades,
Every once in a while a poof.
Sunny sun still sunning;
Please don't ever go away.
Time to heat up the coffee;
My goodness this is good!
So open arms and lean back;
God is so, so good!
I've watched the war from behind closed doors;
Eyes too glued to close.
And now knowing what's in store, there's porn no more.
God's love is the only hope we know.
We are forgiven because of the love that is Jesus.
We are saved because of the love that is Jesus.
We give our lives to the Father for we are His children and He loves us.
We are loved!
No matter what we've done, we are loved!
Confess and ask for forgiveness;
This is such a beautiful gift!
Thank You God!
Thank You Jesus!
You forgive me!
You save me!
You change me!
I am changed!
I am new!
I am renewed!
I am forgiven!
I am saved!
I am changed!
There's porn no more
For God's hope is in store!
There's porn no more
For God's love is the hope of the world!
Our love grows stronger,
Even beyond the distance,
Even beyond the days.
I know you're with me always
And I'm always with you;
In God together we're together forever
And physically we'll be together forever soon.
I'm worried where the next dollar will come from.
Will she ever arrive?
Will she ever show up?
But why am I worrying?
It's all in God's Great Hands!
It's all under God's control!
It's all within His plans!
It's all His
And He will provide
Because He is our Father!
He loves us!
It's all His!
I know it's difficult;
He will not lead you wrong.
He knows where you need to go.
He knows what you need to endure.
It's all His plan.
It's all in His Hands!
Lay down your life;
Give the control.
He is in control!
Thank You Father!
It will all be okay!
Thank You God!
Thank You Jesus!
Thank You Holy Spirit!
I love You always!
I trust You always!
I trust You!
I trust You!
Yes, yes I do!
I trust You!
I love You!
My heart is on Your shoulders,
And You are lifting me up.
With every spoken tender gesture,
I fall a little farther in love.
So you sinned?
Well, that's done and over with!
Keep it in the past
'Cause that's where it belongs.
But ask Jesus for forgiveness;
Don't dwell on mistakes any longer
Because He makes you new again:
Love is the outcome;
Forget the wrongs,
Love and move on!
I don't have all the pieces together;
This puzzle is just too much,
But God already has it figured out
As He is solving this from above.
By my side:
The tallest mountain,
The calmest pond,
The purest stream;
My hope and strength,
Faith and love;
Always by our side
It would be too easy to not believe
And not have faith in all He wants us to see.
But I don't want to risk my life being saved
Because of a choice I was refusing to make.
You've fallen down again;
How can you let darkness win?
You just scraped your knee,
You didn't break your leg.
It will all be okay;
I will give you strength.
Brush it off, my child;
Come and take my hand.
Let me help you up again;
You will be okay.
I have always been with you,
And I always will be.
I am by your side,
But this time,
Will you allow me to take the lead?
Whisper me the sweet sound of freedom,
The sweet sound found in Your Name,
Holy and Heavenly freedom,
All in the Name of Jesus!
Where am I? Why is it dark?
This isn’t what I had in mind when I left the park…
Why isn’t the wind whispering…the songbirds singing?
All I remember is a telephone ringing…
A scream and a crash and a pain in my side…
Is this what happens after one’s died?
I don’t feel like myself, I feel wild and free,
Yet I’m cold and alone, 'stead of filled with glee.
My whole life I’ve studied, and pondered, and prayed,
Trying to fathom what would happen this day
But now that it’s here, I’m beginning to fear
Maybe the afterlife’s not what it appears…
It’s certainly not what I’ve been told by my preacher
Or my parents or brother or best friend or teacher…
Is it a bad thing, or is it good?
Maybe it’s just not quite understood...
While I was on Earth, I just couldn’t wait
To meet good St. Peter at the heavenly gate
And ask him a question or query or two
“What was my purpose?” “What good did I do?”
“What’s it all for?” “How does it all flow?”
“Can I have one more body, one more try, one more go?”
But where is the angel? Where is the gate? And
If this is Hell, then where is Ol’ Satan?
Am I a lost soul? Am I forgotten?
Am I to be left here until I am rotten?
Lo and behold! what, now, can this be?
Is this a wonderful spiritual epiphany?
Is this the magical feeling all souls receive
When they leave Earth? Oh! was I that naïve?
How could I have not seen the realism?
Why was I consumed in man-made idealism?
This is more wondrous than all I was taught
Oh, all the times I argued and fought
With others, ‘bout how their views were asinine
Now I see, theirs were just as wrong as mine!
Little I thought was actually correct!
How, why, did I let others petty beliefs infect
My untouched, my pure, my virgin mind?
I regret all the hours I self-tortured to find
That compared to what I see now, I was empty and blind…
Wait - - What is this that I see?
What is this gateway that is revealed unto me?
Now a door is opened to my immortal soul
I am expected now to enter my life’s final goal…
I am scared, intimidated, but still I am glad…
For the truth I have just seen is anything but bad.
This is the end of my journey, I’ve nothing to fear,
For now I am going Beyond the Frontier.
We will cherish these moments
Because they are few,
But please always remember
I will always love you.
I have fallen victim so many times
To nobody's fault except only mine.
I will ask for forgiveness and have faith,
Even though I feel like I am not saved.
Run, run, run and give it all up!
Into His arms, commend your love!
Through Him, you are saved!
What a beautiful, glorious day!
They praise me like a saint,
But I am a sinner;
They don't know the man they see.
I am an addict.
Broken eyes to pornography,
Only Jesus can set me free.
Only by His death on the cross
And the grace of His Father's love
Am I able to be set free.
With God as The Light,
The One and Only Light,
The Only Hope in sight,
Will I be set free.
I am free.
We all have a story to tell.
Ups and downs,
Together, we've been through it all;
God has led us through it all.
It's all for a reason.
All your pains,
All your struggles,
All your hurts-
They're all for a reason.
God has a bigger plan,
One we cannot see.
Trust Him and pray.
We are all in this together.
Together, we have been through it all.
Ups and downs,
We are family-
Brothers and sisters in Christ.
We are friends.
We are family.
Let's love one another like God loves us.
Let's help each other out
And help each other up with loving hands.
We are His children.
We are His servants
Together on His mission
To love, save, and change the world
For the better.
We are all in this together.
Listen to His praises ring;
Let's praise Him together.
Listen to sister Fantasia sing,
"Sometimes you gotta lose to win again."
Thank You Father!
I have some choices to face,
But these are not my decisions to make.
God told me what He wants me to do;
He said, "Listen, Son, I have a plan for you."
Every second we're away,
We grow stronger everyday
Until that day will finally come
When we know it's okay
And we will rest in each other's arms
In peace from God above,
No longer missing one another
Because we're together;
Built forever in each other's love.
Follow your dreams and follow your heart;
God has shown you the path to start.
Never give up and always have faith;
Do what you love and enjoy this place!
I picked up a penny face-down,
But I don't believe in luck.
Everything happens for a reason;
God's mercy frees the stuck.
Redeem me, Heavenly Father;
Please, I know the wrong I've done.
Thank You for dying for me;
My sins You have overcome!
The Lord brought to me
a blessing in my life!
He's blessed me with such a wonderful wife!
Help me Lord to not be deceived
by other things I see…
May I continue to love the wife you gave to me!
Help me to give her my undivided attention!
And to give all of my love and affection!
In my her, may I daily seek her inner beauty!
And treat her like the finest diamond
You are in my heart wherever I go;
You I will never let go.
You are with me always;
You I am always.
This is love.
Build by God above,
This is love.
It's not the same without you;
The days are rainy and the nights are blue.
My heart is crying and God is too,
But we are smiling, waiting here for you.
Stand up and shake;
Feel the rhythm in your heart.
Ignite those pants;
We get up and dance.
God on our mind,
Eternity in our souls;
Feel the chills of those bones.
It's the hope.
Open those closed doors:
Into Heaven we go,
Welcomed and forgiven.
Here is the love;
You wake me up with Your endless light
So beautiful in shining, so bold, so bright!
You paint the landscapes and let Your love shine
For the whole world to see, to feel Your gorgeous life!
Looking down from 41 above,
I only wish I was below.
The sights and sounds so clear to see
Glitz as white as snow.
The lights are distant to the mountains
And the cabs travel around.
The brightest city in the world
Beams into the heart of this little town.
God please give me the grace to see
You are all I need.
Like a cherry tree in the spring,
God if this is meant to be,
Please let this blossom.
Sometimes I get stuck in the struggle
And I forget that this life is real,
Full of real love,
Full of real people,
Full of real strength,
Full of real faith.
Because this is real.
Welcome to reality;
This is God's amazing life!
Always running late;
Just taking time to enjoy it.
Life is a car speeding fast,
But it's better to be stuck in traffic.
I did it again; I need forgiven.
Will He still forgive me even though I've fallen before?
I've fallen into these same sins countless times before;
I still haven't learned my lesson.
I am an ignorant hypocrite.
Am I still forgiven?
An earthly existence
A universe beyond my minds, comprehension
Life lessons reviewed
I am not lost, after all!
I am a willing participant
Serving, the Father, of all creation
His son combined, ‘producing life’ as we know it
Representing them, in everything I do
I am nothing, without Love!
My heart full of faith, loyal service I give
Learning how to unconditionally serve, as the Father unconditionally, loves me
Worshipping our Divine Creator’s existence
Choosing to live, moment to moment
Being as one with ‘Our Universal Father’
No physical permanency
My physicality, disappearing
My mortality existence, I let go of
My spirit alive!
‘I am only passing through!’
A unique, experience of mortality
A gift, I am blessed to experience, to live!
Lord, I do not know what to do;
Please, lead me by Your side.
Decisions I'm facing are lost and through;
Please, lead me to do what's right.
I don't know a Better Name,
But ,"You're Somebody's Hero."
It's not just a game,
And it's always fair.
What are we made of?
Pearl and polished stone?
Or tar and rot?
We are what we have yearned for.
Have we spent our time studying God,
Or the Father of lies?
Were we being polite,
Or feasting and drinking of the fat happily?
Are We cursing God when we fall,
Or are we laughing and getting back up?
You see, when God gives us a gift,
It is appreciated by the wise,
And the other only lust and envy the gift.
So, don't tare someone down just because
You don't think that they are pretty,
And you don't think you should show some pity
Because some people aren't just people,
But are somebody's Hero,
That have saved somebodies soul,
That have gone about saving souls.
Faith is not failing me,
I am failing Him.
Why do I refuse to accept His grace?
Why would I rather live my life on my own
When He is extending a helping a hand?
I am depressed,
Dead on my own,
But I am alive in Him!
I give my life to Him for real;
I give Him my all,
And now I'm alive
Because He gives me life!
The blue waters,
The green trees,
The blue skies,
The light breeze,
The crisp air,
The birds sing,
The puffed clouds;
I see your tears,and it breaks me apart~I wanna reach across the moon to get inside your heart
I see the scar's he's left and it tears my soul up inside It makes me want to spew ice and throw fire
Down for just him to enjoy in his own forever never~ending~torturing Abyss! It's all fun & games
to him were all his little toys, God reaches one of us there's a million more for him to torture~Torment
and infest. We never learn our lesson's just keep doing each other harm~ Have you ever heard the
term were you raised in a Barn?
Close the Door, wer'e such silly kid's everyone of us~We get hurt keep it in then move on~ push communication
plum to the side.It's like a soda that's been shaken once the lid's off it explodes. If we don't deal with our feelings,
Where the Heck do you think they go?? A gentle hand is what our God really want's us to extend Don't Let the
Devil invade your Soul till you have nowhere else to go. We wonder why our children show up in school toting guns
It's because they're afraid~They are scared Theyre ALONE!
I'm looking into you and I see myself so deep within~Your a Beautiful~Shining~Spirit~Don't let the Devil get his
Muse. He's see's the flicker of a shine and it makes his heart quake and shiver deep inside. He know's his Doom and his Throne is only in place for a short time He want's to taste Now the Best & finest of the Wines. Don't worry sweet child Our
God's promises will eventually come true. We just have to guide, Love ,Teach,Retrain what it means to Truly be Kind.
Love each other Look beyond just.Me~Me~Me! We get so caught up in this world sometimes we just don't know what
Love~Love~Love~ That's the Motto I Like to Live by. There for a time I got so lost and confused Then My wonderful god
Gently~Reached out and touched my hand~Said child You've known there's alway's been I that would understand. Now Let me Show you True Love and Let me Gently guide,softly~yet~firmly,reteach,and show you your misguided ways if you'd open your eyes you'd really see there's so much work you could do. Stop rotting your Brain and coming up with
all this Bad~Self tallk and more suffered abuse. Open your eyes Be Authintic~Be Real~Don't be a Pushover~ Remove The bitterness and anger inside your Soul its not yours to keep child I told you to let that GO! But forgive and Know how to Love VERY Well. Walk in the ways you think Jesus would do~Remember all the Torture~ The pain~ Mistrust~and abuse he went through for You.
God has given us Life so Precious and Rare, So many Beautiful things that we just can't explain~Its time that we open up
and try and save this world~That's now my mission in life~I won't stop till I reach my Goal I will be part of God's Soldiers
I have nothing to hide I'm all about Truth So Devil Let's lay it on the line.This girl will be Turning your wines into Fire~The ones that I reach you'll no longer Drink from. So if you see me you better turn the corner & Run! It's Red against Red Let's Fight~Fire with Fire~ God's got many soldiers who'll stand right along beside me if I need them to!With my God no longer am I afraid of YOU!
Rob me of my purity,
But once again it's all my fault;
Fell into the trap of false promises
Because I pressed play instead of pause.
Send me to the darkest places;
That's where I feel You strongest.
A kiss and hug down the deepest alleys;
Never letting go, Your love is the strongest.
Turn on the love to motivate me;
There's no energy on hand.
When work to be done is shadowed by rest,
Remember you were saved by a crucified man.
Do you hear the train a'whistlin'?
I wonder where she's a'goin'.
Can she be boundin' toward freedom?
Well, there's freedom in Jesus!
And that's all we need!
It ripples and waves.
Its soothing to the touch and it runs over your body like an invisible blanket.
When life is too much to take I run to the water.
I've thought about lost loved ones over the view of the ocean.
As the waves ran over my toes and pulled back it was as if God was telling me I'm here.
I see your pain. I see your passion. In time I will wash them away.
When it rains, it stirs something inside of my heart. I know that as this storm shall pass, so will the trials of life.
The pain will be washed away. All will grow new again.
Pain is water.
Joy is water.
Life it water.
Water is beauty.
The Precious Name Of Jesus!
The precious name of Jesus brings refreshment!
The eternal love he brings gives fulfillment!
The beauty of his name brings a healing!
Just knowing him gives a peaceful feeling!
His mercy and grace bring a restoration!
He offers to mankind, his gift of salvation.
He brings needed strength to this body of mine.
He’s a faithful friend, who is most kind!
May I seek to honor him in how I’m living.
And praise him from a heart of thanksgiving!
May I seek his holiness to purify inside of me.
And tell others of all that he’s done for me!
May I give to him a life filled with dedication!
As I lift my hands to him in praise and exaltation!
May I take at least a portion of each day…
To spend some time alone with you and pray!
May I bring glory to his name, in all I endeavor!
He’s the Lord God! And shall reign forever!
Please come, precious Lord, and touch me within!
I bless you my Lord, my savior, and best friend!
By Jim Pemberton 06/03/14
Run into my heart;
Run right into my arms.
I will never let you go;
I am yours forever, please know.
You make my soul beat;
You bring me back to life.
God, thank You for this love;
God, thank You for this life.
Singing around in love;
Smiles built from the ground.
Holding hands in the dance;
Laughing with brothers and sisters,
All in His Glorious Name.
Throughout His perfectly sculpted land:
Look around because this is it;
Look around because this is love;
Look around and know, understand, comprehend,
Rejoice because you are perfect;
You are God's beautiful children!
Jesus... You're beautiful
and good to me!
You've opened my blind eyes!
Now I can see!
I've seen your love in my family as well.
You're so faithful!
More than words can tell!
All my sins... You’ve forgiven,
And are patiently showing
me your way of livin'!
Living for you is so very precious!
And your love is so very nutritous!
Your blessings to me... I haven’t deserved.
Your peace to me has been served.
You've been so patient with me and kind.
Your promises have stood
the test of time.
Thank you Jesus! You're my best friend!
And have been there for
me again and again!
How precious you are!
Words alone can't express.
Calling “Abba father...”
I’m so blessed!
I long to be refreshed by your
presence each day.
I love you more than
words can say!
By Jim Pemberton
Lord, please forgive me.
I need You.
I messed up.
Please, save me.
I trust You.
I love You.
I am a hypocrite.
Please, change me.
Witness your departure
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease?
You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…
And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?
I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home
Nourish me…and be my beloved friend
Will this friendship last forever?
Hopefully it has no end
Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?
Because of you…I feel the need to run
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal
And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome
My atrocious anxiety?
I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom –
Vibrant with glee
Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight
My land is culturally richest,
Yes not as bloody as canvased!
Purely we follow the same lord,
At same time we offer, so faith is restored!
Knotted in holy month to fast, all together,
In my home, religious values still haven’t blur!
So we speak different languages but,
The followers of same prophet!
And we have the different skin color,
Nationally but we are alike, greener!
In my home, hospitality for which people dote,
Nobly I say religion we culturally denote!
And the love imparted in closely knitted families
So rich, but live only under father’s monopolies!
I make hackneyed proclamation of beauty of my home,
Anchoring the same ship, we stand under the same dome!
Everyone telling me where to go:
I don't even know who to listen to anymore;
I don't even know who I am anymore.
God, please speak to me
And tell me where to go
And show me what to do
Because Your voice is drowning out in the madness
Or maybe I am just refusing to listen.
The world needs You, Lord;
We all need You too.
Alone, we battle and fall apart,
But we live joyful freedom with You:
Created anew in Your perfect image;
In Your Holy Name!
Father God, as I look into your beautiful eyes
They are so brilliant, loving, kind, peaceful, faithful, and forever wise
There in your pupils are so many shades of blue
My heart and soul aches for you
I see the world begging and pleading for your return
I also see the hands of times turn
Lost souls and forgiving spirits craving your attention
Through your eyes I marvel and I can’t grasp the beauty of all your creations
As my tears roll down my face, that stare you give me such an inviting embrace
No one in ten gazillion life times can ever take your place
Unconsciously, I feel all my worries, pains, grief, stress, and anxiety suddenly leave me
I never felt so safe and free
Joy just came over my whole body, mind, and spirit
That look into your eyes I not only see it, I feel it, I can also hear it
As I drop to my knees to give you praise
Father God I love you forever and all of my days
The eye through which I see God is the same eye through which God sees me; my eye and God's eye are one eye, one seeing, one knowing, one love.
Meister Eckhart quotes
I walk outside to see all that I can see.
Over there is our house, our home,
In the distance, you can see.
And that place of hallowed happiness
Forever has been our home
And forever will be so evermore.
That house is small but raised us tall,
From the perfect parents who loved us so
To the perfect sister for which every man would want.
The house built us all up strong.
More than a mere building,
It is a place to love and be loved,
A place that hands you hope that you give right back,
And a place of everlasting faith.
This home is where my parents taught me about God
And opened me up to Jesus.
They opened the eyes of the blind for all to see,
And the blind included me.
They taught me to be the best I can be;
The best things in life are free.
They have taught us so well,
And they all have saved my soul.
Even if I am not there now,
I carry Him with me.
I carry them with me.
I carry Their values and Their teachings with me.
In this house, this home,
We cannot forget this.
This is where my Mother lives.
This is where my Father lives.
This is where my Sister lives.
This is where We live,
In this loving, caring, beautiful home
They made just for us.
We cannot forget this either.
This is where it all began.
This is where the hunger and thirst was created;
This is where we are fulfilled.
We cannot, we must not forget this:
This is where God lives.
This is where Jesus lives.
This is where The Lord lives;
The Father and The Almighty.
This is where We live;
This is where We reside.
We must not forget this.
We must not forget this:
What a beautiful and perfect life this is.
My heart is filled;
I've found everything I need.
Here I stand,
Finally off my knees.
I found love in Him,
And He found love in me.
Day by day we perceive the blesssings of the Lord,
The snowy day that reminds us about the blessings of warmth and friendship,
Friendship that is distant and always remembered,
Miracles that are difficult to define,
A church and portals that you used to visit,
Structures beautiful, unique and powerful,
Hymns sung and bible verses read,
Choirs where the bells ring and the songs are sung,
Ministers preaching the wisdom of God,
Relatives forever loved and protected by the Lord,
Blessed reunions and visits redefined,
Talents shared and appreciated,
The Lord's poet blessed by God's friendship,
Athletic strength as a senior guided by God,
Royalty sacred and divine, a blessing to mankind.
Author: Gwen Meyer-Erlach Schutz
We can wake up,
And this all might be changed.
But one thing remains:
We are saved.
That's the amazing thing about love:
Love doesn't matter who it melts together,
'Cause He will never give you up.
i am kurt daniel everdean
I am 21 years old
I've been playing the bass guitar
Since I was 11
i weight 145 pounds
i have blondish brown hair
and blue eyes
If I could say one thing about me that I like... Its that I never gave up.
things started when i lost my father
i was 10 years old
my mother started going to her room everytime she got home
she would come out with her eyes all red... Shes been crying
until i accidently walked in on her doing drugs
i now believe it was the drugs that caused the redness
me and my brother would fight everynight
when i bought my first bass
he slammed it against the floor
and told me since i think my lifes crap
then i shouldnt have anything that makes me happy
My mom became a street whore
She would dress in a golden gown and wear ugly make up
We would never see her
unless she needed money to get condoms for her "men"
the things between me and my brother got worse
I was arguing with him over a text he sent my mom
And he got into an accident and died that night
Things just never got better
I created a band called the nocturnal
And the reason you haven't heard of us yet
Is because were an underground punk band in Seattle
we haven't gotten far yet
Just underground party's and bars
My mom ended up running away with her "boyfriend"
After my brother died she blamed me
And told me to leave and said she won't come around me
Until I brought him back
Since then I've gotten a job and was able to pay rent on
My moms old apartment
Hoping shed come back clean and sober
As for me
I've cleaned up. but suicide is still an option
I haven't found god yet and I don't want to
If there was a god why did he give me this ****ed up life
Ya you'll say Kurt?... You made the desicions for your life
I knolw I did. But he was the one who let it actually happen
I've been writing since I was 11
Lyrics and poems
Drawings and paintings
bass guitar and vocals
My life isn't over
But it's sure close to it
Its sad to think that what you thought was fake... Is a true story
Do not let me be the demon I have created me to be.
I am the product of myself and my negativity.
I trust You.
I love You.
I thank You.
In Your name,
Love who you are;
You are a shooting star.
Shining high above the sky,
Your heart reaches out so far!
The way you move when I pray,
It just takes my breath away.
Little prayers sent up to your throne,
no more for them to roam,
brings relief when whispered in my ear,
It takes my breath away.
Your arms around me is all I need,
I realize when I see, that your embrace
just takes my breath away.
Nobody can show their love the way you do,
It just takes my breath away.
When I think your far and I wait to hear Your voice,
You reply in such away,
that it takes my breath away.
So long I wait, but when I'm still,
You come and take my breath away.
Your Majesty stay,
please take my breath away.
Written by:©Betty Bolden
All my poems are copyright!
I think I was an astronaut
Aimed for the stars.
They fill me up;
They refuel my tank.
They enable me to believe,
Telling me to never give up
As they follow me all of my days.
If only we could see the beauty
That they truly are.
They shout out dreams
That we can reach so far.
Climb into the rocket
On a journey to discover ourselves,
We are taught so much more,
Learning our goals are only a plan away.
Even thought we must return,
I know that I will be back.
I am an astronaut,
And we always reach for the stars.
AS BEAUTIFUL US
(we all created the same way)
As beautiful as the light that raptures at
And the gentle caress of the morning’s
As beautiful as the melody of a bird’s early
And a flower’s perfume that scents with
As beautiful as mountains that pierce through
And the clothed in green soft rolling
As beautiful as the brooks that pass
And the glorious valleys where grass the earth
As beautiful as the grace of a placid
And the screaming beauty of the thunderous
As beautiful as a spring that water can
And the river’s murmur that life gently
As beautiful as the beams of the setting
And the scattering clouds that are set
As beautiful as the moon when the day is
And the brightest stars that give to sky
As beautiful as the rainbow ever can
And a radiant drop of dew on an exotic
So beautiful, oh you LORD, have also created
With your compassionate and holly
© Demetrios Trifiatis
With each stone,
A certain size,
A distinct color,
Water flows gracefully
Over each backbone of the brook.
Along the brook,
The water is pristine,
Yet calm and quiet,
Rolling over stones
And pebbles, the water streams into
A natural spring.
The spring dwells
Offering life after passing.
We don't need to go out and party,
We don't need to drink,
We don't need to socialize,
We don't need to go shopping,
We don't need to spend money,
We don't need to go to a movie,
We don't need to watch sporting events,
We don't need to go out to eat,
Because we found love,
And our love is enough.
The general buzz of people,
Never ceasing chatter, bees,
Forever swarming, moving, hot
Sun beating down on all.
Everyday life continuing on,
Yet a few break away
And head towards the shadow.
Tall, imposing grandeur, decorated
Inside and out, justly so.
Passing from tepid heat to
Sudden calming cool, refreshing,
The threshold of another place.
Farther in, opening up,
Magnificent circles, curves, creatures,
Faces at every visible angle.
The general buzz is behind now,
Only a memory, last touch
Of a lesser important reality.
Here is what truly matters,
The inspiring silence, whispers
At the heart and very soul.
Self fades away completely,
Insides laid bare before generations,
Holy memories and endless power.
The scent of blessed parchments
And candles of costly prayer
Entwine with the awe of
Standing in God’s holy home,
A harbingering of heaven above.
God Is Awesome and His Beauty Displayed!
God is awesome and his beauty displayed!
He’s my protector! I’ve no reason to be afraid!
God is wonderful! And his glory never ends!
He is my Lord! My provider and friend!
God is magnificent! And his glory is real!
Behold the God of Abraham, Jacob and Israel!
God is omnipresent!
He’s wherever I go!
His son Jesus, has totally
cleansed my soul!
He’s the reason that I am here today!
I love him much more, than words can say!
He’s the reason why I can face tomorrow!
He’s removed my pain, guilt and sorrow!
His word is my guiding light as I travel on.
It shows me what is right.. And what is wrong!
He put his love, like a shield around me!
I once was lost, but his spirit found me!
He’s given to me his faithfulness! Forever true!
And spoke to me; “I’ll forever LOVE YOU!”
He’s my rock, my hope and salvation!
Through Jesus, there is no separation!
He can be your God too!
Why not come to him?
Through Jesus, is where
a new life BEGINS!
By Jim Pemberton
You are a beautiful person
And you are a beautiful soul.
Your faith is solidified in the ground,
Your hope is spread for all to hear,
Your love graces every heart to cheer,
Your belief in His truth has the power to change,
You believe because you know,
And that is what is so neat to see.
If we break life down into small little victories,
It won't be long until the battle is over,
And before we know it,
The war will be won.
I’m a child in heart
So don’t misuse it
I’m God’s special child
I need to respect
My zealous Father
I need to honor Him
With my young heart,
I pray for freedom
How awesome are Your deeds?
Relieve my heart’s ache
Help me escape
From the darkened pit
I can be active
And beat that race
I’m on God’s good side
Aids me in times of trouble
I appreciate His consideration
He fulfills me with elation
The Beauty of The God I Know!
There’s a beauty of the God that I know.
It’s brought peace and hope to my soul.
There’s an awesome love in him as well.
He loves me more than words can tell!
There’s an eternal treasure that waits.
For those who enter heaven’s gates!
There’s a glory and much riches untold.
With mansions on streets paved with gold!
This wonderful God has a salvation plan.
And offers it to every woman and man.
This merciful God sent his son to earth.
Through him, we can all have a “new birth.”
This powerful God can be your Lord today!
Won’t you invite him in? And pray?
This same God, who made
our eternal being.
Is the same one who can supply everything!
Won’t you allow his beauty to touch you?
He would like to have fellowship with you!
He’s the best friend that you’ll ever find!
He’s so loving and brings a peace of mind!
Please come sweet Lord, and remind us…
We need your beautiful
love and kindness!
By Jim Pemberton
I lift my head towards heaven
The sun reminds me of Christ
Shining down on my life
The one who paid the price
He gives me the strength
To go on each day
No matter where I am
Or where I go to stay
He lifts me from the mired clay
Sets me on solid ground
Where I should stay
Puts within my heart
A happy melody, too
Sing it through the day
For that helps me through
My heart is a celestial bedroom
where my Lord hastens unto me
I have placed a garland of stars
around his neck
and pierced His ears with the honey moon
His skin is anointed with the
fragrance of Love
and His feet are the only pillows
my head cares for
when He smiles my life finds
inner meaning and dances about
like a giddy lovestruck maiden
drunk on His holy name
Please share the warm embrace of my new Poetry book:
108 Bhakti Kisses, The Ecstatic Poetry of a Modern Day Gopi
Meditate on this garland of Poems offered at the Lotus Feet of God
Sit back, relax and listen to a bouquet of beautiful, inspiring Ecstatic Love poems:
Hard for a Sparrow to Pray
If not here or there I wonder where oh
Could possibly be the precious sparrow
Who will want to build a nice nest
Which will be a place for her to rest.
Little ones soon to life will be brought
And God to her mind brought a thought
I will thank God for His great effort
To keep babies safe and not be hurt.
So all of them now are nicely singing;
More food to mouths God is bringing
And it is hard for a sparrow to pray
Because her wings will get in the way.
THE JOURNEY OF THE MAGGI
Such a journey we had of it
traveling to welcome the new born King..
nay... journeying to receive the to be born new king
we were three of us the king, the beautiful princess of our people
and the brave prince of our people
the king at age thirty barely a man himself
the princess in her teenage she was barely twenty
and the boy prince straight from initiation to adulthood
we traveled on a short notice
debate on what to carry what to wear
what gifts to give
princess Maggie advocating for diapers..
the king advocating for gold
the boy prince only concerned with
his personal comforts..
the young boy wanted special safari boots
made of camels hair-
he finally agreed to go... after a promise
coming back we would find a Massai
herdsman who would make him the sandals....
Maggie chuckling and giggling for we all know..
the Massai are herders of cows...
these days were civilized folk
we took an aircraft to Tela-aviv....
after raiding the royal treasure house...
and carrying off an unspecified amount of gold
and silver... myhrr frankinces we don't poses..
and we booed the crazy lads idea...
that we carry wild flowers...
The good sky bird dropping us at tela-Aviv
the geography eh..confusing to us strangers
people of a strange tongue.. king attempting
the language.. ended using gesticulations...
young prince nearly falling over himself-
at the thought that his daddy who claimed to be...
a master of latel the spoken word couldn't
put across a message.. even gesticulate wise
choosing to travel by night after encounter with goons,
sleeping in snatches,a racoon belaying danger... old king claiming he
saw the danger in a vision... racoon which is just a racoon
cold night being eaten by strange ice bugs...
father scolding boy for cuddling too close to the princess..
boy almost freezing to death intent on staying away from princess
father gilt ridden about it...
yet we arrived on time to welcome the unborn king
debate over who to offer what gifts
consensus.. we place all of them together
promise extracted that when the boy becomes of age
he would come and study at our village
on the way back ears grued to the radio...
listening for news from home..
wondering whether the war
had already broken out
father and son strategizing war..
we arrive back home, gracious..
weren't we glad the war wasn't to be
the journey we kept to ourselves...
for you never disclose
a maggi events.. i do so now...
the time is rite..we spied the star of SERAH..
Want to burn a candle in that temple,
Matchbox fires candle to burn while.
Can go to hell or heaven don’t know.
But candle burns in the temple so.
An old idol is inside.
It is Lord Krishna where incarnation by priest to belief.
Candles are spreading flame to fulfill my goal.
Garlands of flowers put on neck of that great idol
Coin throws to pavement like tossed head forward.
God knows what magic looks toward.
Saroj khan [sakha]
That Intimate Moment (poem)
My Lord, I enjoy spending my most intimate moments with you.
This is one of many reasons why I enjoy taking baths.
Just a moment ago, I was feeling…I don’t know.
Hard to explain.
I pray and I let these negative feelings go.
I give everything to you good and bad.
You take care of me.
You give me strength to face it all.
You lift me up when I fall.
I know the devil is always on attack.
Because every time I pray,
I give it all to you
But these feelings come back.
The devil is a lie.
With you I keep the faith.
I put on your armor fighting every day.
Forgive me for all my sins.
Forgive me for all my doubts.
You always remind me not to worry and
Everything will work out.
I can never love you more than you love me.
Glory to you my most high and heavenly father!
Nothing is better than your love and grace.
For you are the one who wake me up every day.
If it wasn’t for you Jesus, I wouldn’t be saved.
So every day I am reminded to keep the faith.
Sometimes it’s not so easy to do.
My God, I know that nothing is impossible with you.
I love you Jesus!
Glory to your holy name!
I do not know?
Why does the sun
Twirl its golden scent
Why does the moon
Rejoice with joy
Why do the trees
Bow and worship
Why does the grass
Sing up its praises
Why does the thunder
Speak its wonders
Because there is a Creator
And He is King
Behold the Beauty of God’s Creation!
Behold the beauty of God’s creation!
Behold his wondrous mercy and salvation!
Behold his awesome and wondrous deeds!
He is God and can meet all of our needs!
Behold his eternal love and grace displayed.
We’ve been so lovingly
and wonderfully made!
Behold his glorious and everlasting power!
He brings eternal joy and peace this hour!
Behold this same God can be your God too!
He speaks words of life
directed to you!
Please dear God come and touch us today!
May we be your example
in what we do and say!
May we humbly accept the life you’ve given!
And accept your abundant
way of livin’!
You are God! Who speaks of a love
And offer a beautiful life
that’s eternally secure!
By Jim Pemberton 01/13/15
time you go out
put lord on your rout
he will see you out
be the lords child
and you will live forever
HOW TO GET TO HEAVEN
If I were to see no evil, then life would be barren.
If I were to see no evil, then what would be the need for change?
If I were to see no evil - would I not know that I am good?
If I were to see no evil, I am standing in the presence of God.
If I were to see no evil - I am dead of this world and passed on into Heaven.